#// *im in college now and i moved like

[scream-mans-friend]

these are on sale for nearly the same price

[dykrophone]

post exam clarity is hitting me like a truck I feel sick

[skunkes]

mentioned before I havent felt any tangible significant benefit from meds yet which is fine bc it takes a while to kick in but one small good thing i have noticed so far is even when I get little sleep I feel less tired when I wake up

I don't feel completely incapacitated and in need of being in bed all day, fighting off the urge to nap, to recharge.

I also 1. actually get "Sleepy" now... instead of just feeling very hollowly "Tired" and like i Should be going to bed to try to sleep even though I don't feel like it, because it's about time to be doing that I guess, leading to tossing and turning for 3 hrs before finally succumbing to sleep.

and 2. I actually doze off. Instead of forcing self to try and initiate sleep...this has only ever happened during my rare Naps where im so tired that sleep puts me down by force. Never in actual night time sleep setting... im like dropping my phone and struggling to stay awake sometimes now. At night!!!

None of this is in any of the results I've seen for the medication so i dont even care if its some weird placebo somehow 😭 im jst glad its happening

[thecedarchronicle]

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[spookykestrel]

you make plans with your friends when youre growing up that you'll move in togehter and always stay near and go to each other's weddings and always talk and always call and then you get to the age you're supposed to start doing that kind of thing and realize all the friends you had hoped would stay by you forever have gone off to do things without you and you're just in the same spot and suddenly you have to do it all on your own

[fishgirl514]

everything pissing me off so bad right now. my 3ds already had cfw and it was region changed which is fucking with the system and making it freeze and now i have to fix it and now i also don’t know wtf im doing because i dont know what was done before and the steps on the hacking guide dont make sense because its telling me to change files i dont have yet but its telling me to restore this thing before i continue but i LITERALLY CANT UGHHHHHG

[songtwo]

most of the time i feel like im just an average person like i know im really lucky to be living my dreams working a job i love in the city i always wanted to live in like i know im a very lucky and privileged person bc most ppl don’t get any of that but most of the time i also forget it’s not just that like most ppl in my hometown never get out and don’t even go to college and like even in my family im still the only one to ever attend university and move to the city which is just crazy like it’s so crazy to me to think im not really average specially not where i come from which is idk so weird

[butchmartyr]

genuinely though its kind of insane the transmisogyny and fear trans women just have to live with and how much of it is waved away as exaggeration or paranoia. all i can think of is that bit from infect your friends and loved ones, “THE WHOLE WORLD MONITORS AND MOCKS MY EVERY WAKING MOMENT”, literally it is the strongest part of the entire book just because of how well that describes this shit

[s-ccaam-era-crepe]

i hate that society really treats most young passions and interests that don't have the easiest careers to get into, as hobbies for you to have when you're older bc they 'aren't good enough' as jobs. or maybe its just me idk </3

[gibbyslounge]

things im still not over (as someone who was mostly inactive since mid 2021):

mask and change my clothes!! i dont think i was active on tumblr when change my clothes was released, but the way i ascended when i heard his soft sweet singing voice <33 mask is my favorite song of his and it still makes me emotional to think about what the song meant to him. his creativity is one of his greatest strengths and i am endlessly happy that he found a way to share more of himself in a way that he really enjoys

DREAM TEAM MEETUP tbh i really did not know if these days would ever come. its so so so crazy to think that florida man dream texas cowboy sapnap and british george are really all living together and existing in the same space. seeing them be THEM irl is still very surreal and makes me pause for a second without fail. so so much of the community centered around them not having met each other irl

DREAM FACE REVEAL!!!! this one i REALLY HONESTLY didnt know if it would ever come, just because the courage it takes to face reveal after building one of the largest audiences is fucking crazy. i thought that even if they did end up living together, dream might’ve found that he is happy to just be with them and not want to face reveal anymore. ig never doubt dream- he’s such a “go big or go home” type of person. i love him regardless but now he is also a big bear who wears cat beanies and has the prettiest eyes and im emotionally attached

dream pics before his face reveal with a big emphasis on suit pics, swt halloween, and strawberry dream. his white hoodie posey pose and the ones with the blanket and patches have a permanent home in my heart but these had me convulsing and i didnt get to gush about them here </3

[ravenwolfie97]

my tummy hurts... and i don't wanna be brave about it anymore... ;;

[apathyfairy]

me at 13: by the time im 30 i will probably be married and maybe have a kid but for sure i will be living in my dream city and have my dream job. and also a lot of money

me at almost 30: i think i will treat myself to a corn dog this weekend

[alliluyevas]

feeling very socially isolated rn unfortunately.

[dreamwinged]

to be honest i have just been a bit hesistant to make any steps regarding my future because when i was on study abroad earlier this year that was the happiest i’d ever been and i’m pretty sure it’s the happiest i’ll ever be, like in my life at all, so doing anything else just seems so hollow and pointless and sad because having that same lifestyle isnt really possible for me in the future so why bother :/ i dunno…

[halfdeadwallfly]

thinking about how my mom not only tracks my phone location, but also has specifically marked out all of my classes, library, dorm, and dining hall on the map. i get that it's for safety reasons but i feel like that's too much. like... idk, i'm in college and i'm still constantly being monitored. like i get it, but also maybe i don't want to constantly be tracked down to the exact building i'm in and sidewalk i'm walking on.

[evilweasel]

Hey guess what I just realized. Now that I'm IN uni and that it HAS disappointed me like I always knew it would, I have nothing left to look forward to!!!!