#+ i'm too afraid lmao
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Sorry for another vent post but here goes
#like i'm not looking for a relationship ok ? but i met this guy and we've been hooking yp#but like he is being all sweet and caring and he is great don't get me wrong#he's like eddie munson i'm not gonna lie#but at the same time he doesn't get my jokes and when i make a sarcastic comment or something funny he always thinks i'm being honest#and then he's too sweet if it makes sense in normal convos? BUT if i am ganuinely distressed (which i am a lot you guys know)#he is just not very emotionally intelligent đŹ and like it's all fun and wtv but i feel like he might like me more than i like him#and i called him babe once bc i had this girl friend who calls everyone babe and i spent like 3 days with her so i called him that#and now he always calls me babe and i'm like đ pls stop but i can't tell him to stop bc it will seem rude#and yeah my friends that know him are like he's such a cool guy and so sweet and everything and it looks like we're dating#but like we're not man we're not i met him a few weeks ago#anyway i think in reality i'm trying to find bad things about him just so i can justify not liking him and sabotage the whole thing bc +#+ i'm too afraid lmao#i think i'm emotionally unavailable and don't want a relationship or feel ready for it at all#i feel like i'm starting that age most ppl have at 18/19 of exploring and just vibing except i should have gone through that then#but i never got the change bc of abusive relationships and being at home and not having freedom to just exist#and now i do and i feel like if i start dating someone i'll lose my freedom again#which should not even happen in a healthy relationship but that's how i feel#maybe will talk about this to my therapist see what he says#i think i know what he will say like 'you're just afraid don't think about it too much tell him how you feel'#and i HAVE told him generally how i feel and that i don't want to move mad about it and he was like 'no were just getting to know eachother
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cw. gn!reader, worker!reader, prohero!katsuki, aged-up (25), pining (the tiniest bit), a lot of cussing (typical of bkg), reader has an ex-boyfriend, reader is alluded to being smaller than bkg
masterlist | part 1, part 2 (they're all bite-sized, dw), part 4 (this one not so much), part 5 (this one too), part 6, part 7, part 8, part 9
You drop your new 0.38 ballpoint pen and it goes tumbling down, down, to the pristine carpeted floor.
Right where your jaw is.
âMy what?â
The man of the hour has the audacity to scoff and roll his eyes.
Is it too late to actually follow through with your fantasy of strangling him?
As if heâs daring you to go for it, he tosses you the nth annoyed look of the night. âWhat did I just fucking say about not making me say things twice?â
You feel yourself flush with what you think is anger and embarrassment. âBakugou, sirââ
âAnd I thought I told you to stop calling me that.â
Smartass.
Thatâs it.
Before you know it, youâre already on your feet, stalking your way toward the man with the proverbial steam coming out of your nose and ears. His eyes widen in surprise as you get closer and closer before you stop right in front of his desk, towering over him for once.
âMy date? Really?â You sound so incredulous, even to yourself, and you canât help the seed of pride that blossoms over what you think is worry dancing across his features. Heâs out of his goddamn mind, and between the two of you, youâre not about to be the only whose feathers are visibly ruffled over this dumb-as-shit idea. He has no business being so cool about it.
Never mind that your heart is hammering in exasperation.
Yes, just that.
Shaking your head, you press on. âIn case youâve forgotten, weâre coworkers.â
You gesture to the space between you, and he merely raises his eyebrow in response with his strong arms crossed in front of his chestâsnobbish as ever. âYouâre my boss and Iâm your underling. And Iâm the HR head, for crying out loud.â
You pause to debate whether or not to say the next thing before deciding fuck it. âAnd what makes you think I donât haveââ
âDo you?â
Your face scrunches involuntarily at being cut off, âWhat?â
He leans forward, not breaking eye contact as if heâs challenging you. âDo you have a boyfriend?â He cocks his head to the side, âOr a date, at the very least?â
Your voice is small when you respond with the pitiful truth.
ââŠNo?â
At that, Bakugou grins. If you didnât know any better, you would say the fucking behemoth of a man looked pleased. He pushes against the edge of his desk, effectively creating a much more appropriate distance between the two of you. âWell, that settles it then. Iâll be your dashing date, we show up to your shitty exâs wedding, and I finally teach that dickhead a lesson or two.â
A million questions start racing in your head, like: Why is this his first solution to the problem? Did he even consider whether or not you wanted to go in the first place? What did he mean by finally? And justâwhy?
But the one you manage to stammer out is: âDudeâwhat the fuck are you going to do? Are you about to mangle a guy at his wedding?!â
He looks at you like you just unceremoniously bit his ass. âWhat? No. What do you take me for, a brainless Nomu who just goes apeshit?â
You can only grumble in response. Yes, sometimes.
He sighs for the umpteenth time as if youâre the one who has steered the already unpleasant conversation into this bizarre topic. He stands up from his seat, and youâre back to being the one looking up at him.
The same thing probably registers in his mind because a smug look takes over his features within seconds.
âAnd, if you must know, Iâm going to do so by being the best trophy date ever.â
You fight the reflex to choke at his words. Instead, you squint your eyes and muster your most scrutinizing gaze. âWhy are you doing this?â
Bakugou doesnât respond for a while, choosing to circle his desk and plant himself to your right. Before you can even comprehend whatâs going on, let alone jerk back at the proximity, he bends toward you until his mouth is a breadth away from your ear. His minty breath tickles your skin when he finally says: âIâm a hero, remember?â
With that, the âheroâ in question sashays to the glass doorway like he didnât just drop a bomb on you, leaving you slackjawed and unresponsive.
Heâs almost out of view by the time you manage to collect yourself and blurt out a reply.
âHey, where are you going? We still have work to do.â
âRelax,â he calls out from the hallway, his voice receding as he walks farther and farther away from you. ââm just gonna take a piss.â
When youâre sure heâs out of earshot, you slump back in your seat, all the strength thatâs left apparently having dissipated after that ludicrous exchange.
How could he throw every caution to the wind just like that? Did he forget he was just one spot away from being number 1? His PR team is going to kill both of you for even thinking this.
As you wait for Bakugou to finish his trip to the comfort room, you canât help but contemplate the absurd idea. Needless to say, and despite Bakugouâs apparent nonchalance, thereâs planning involved.
What are people going to say? If (once) the people from your agencyâno, anyone who knows the #2 Prohero, really (which is virtually everyone)âfind out, youâre toast. Youâre going to be the subject of every tabloid in Musutafuâno, the entirety of Japan and maybe even in some news sites overseasâand you are absolutely not ready for that scrutinization.
And all that over a one-day fake dating stint? Youâve got to be kidding yourself.
But the more you think about it, the less foreign and preposterous the idea becomes. You know you shouldnât even be considering it, but you canât help it.
Getting dumped by your boyfriend over the phone only for him to reconnect with his high school sweetheart (did they even ever lose touch?) and get engaged five months later was humbling enough, let alone going to his wedding alone?
The first, obvious answer when you first saw the invite in the mail was to not go. But the more you sat on it, the more you realized how pitiful it would be to be a no-show. Was not going wiser than going alone? Probably. But youâre sick of hidingâ avoidingâand you promised yourself this year that youâll be facing your fears head-on.
Chewing your lip in deep reflection, your brain drifts back to the very person who came up with the proposition.
He seemed sure and determined enoughâand it wasnât like Bakugou to not be calculating and to not have everything mapped out, as similar as he can be to a raging bull. He probably has thought about the consequences to the T, in the few minutes of processing your situation, potentially more than you have.
And damn it, the man is attractive.
If thereâs anyone youâd bring to your exâs wedding to make him regret everything he did to you, it would be Bakugou Katsuki. Although youâd never admit it to the man even if you were held at gunpoint.
âOi.â
Speak of the devil.
You startle at the sound of his gruff voice, abruptly dragging you out of your reverie.
Heâs now standing beside you, hands in his pockets and face studying yours closely as if heâs searching for something.
You stare him back down before you finally decide on what to say.
You canât believe what youâre about to do.
Gulping, you maintain your gaze. âAre you sure about this?â
âWould I be suggesting it if I wasnât?â
Fair point.
To your surprise, Bakugou crouches down to regard you and you find yourself directly face-to-face. Despite yourself, you gulp in nervousness at the sudden proximity, and you think he notices because the jackass has the nerve to flash you a smirk.
You furrow your brows in an attempt to regain your composure and any semblance of control over the situation. âAnd youâre sure youâre gonna succeed as, and I quote, my âtrophy date?ââ
He sneers, although he doesnât seem to be offended by your challenge. Itâs probably because the statement means nothing to himâat this exact moment, the guy is practically oozing with confidence.
Bakugou chuckles, and you find yourself grateful that youâre seated because the next thing he is about to say instantly floors you.
âOne thing about me, princess, is that I always win.â
tagging. @kitthepurplepotato @chelbyisbord @lovra974 @katsukis1wife @brunnetteiwik @bunnysaursushii
#LAUGHING at him#he's sooooooo#mans is desperate for any proximity and time spent with you I fear#i'm scared to write the wedding scene bc I'm afraid I won't do it justice but I'm excited too#just something about weddings!!!! nevermind that it's gonna be your ex's lmao#bakugou x reader#bakugou x y/n#bakugou katsuki x reader#bakugou imagines#mha imagines#bnha imagines#bnha scenarios#mha scenarios#bnha x reader#mha x reader#bakugou x you#bakugou imagine#bakugou drabble#bakugo x reader#bakugo x y/n
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Really admire people who can freely sketch or color in public, I'm so self conscious whenever I do it I honestly can't relax or concentrate đ«
#I'm at the airport waiting for my dad so i can take him to my mom's#and like its been ages i have my ipad like i could continue with the comic but like the idea of people seeing what I'm drawing#gives me so much dread lmao#i suppose it's cause when i used to sketch in high school some classmates would tease me about it#and like it got stuck that i would be teased if someone saw me drawing đ#just this year i started sketching/coloring around my family#i was afraid of doing in front of them too lol#miry's yapping#they don't ask me about my drawings cause they know I'm self conscious about it lol#so yeah my fam has never seen anything i do and tbh that's best for me đ
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kabumisu dressing up as cure black and cure white from pretty cure for halloween just because I can
#I'm making kabumisu as my barbie I'm gonna dress them up as my fav magical girls anime idc idc#actually I was cooking something else for halloween theme but idt I can finish it before october end lmao#kabumisu#mithrun#mithrun of the house of kerensil#delicious in dungeon#kabru#kabru of utaya#dungeon meshi#shoul I tag pretty cure too I'm afraid ppl in the tag think this is a jumpscare đ#ah IDGAF#pretty cure#fanart#my art#artists on tumblr#vvildside's art
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Deep deep fear that one day all my friends are gonna decide they just don't wanna talk to me anymore for whatever reason and unfortunately, I won't get the memo and will keep trying and that'll just make them hate me more :(
#Logically in my LOGICAL brain I know that's silly#I wish I was not like this cause it causes so much fucking stress#for no reason#for imaginary reasons that don't exist#I also shouldn't be this anxious cause my friends aren't like that#they are all very good to me#and they probably don't have reasons to do that but I could give them several#I have very good friends that I really don't deserve but I'm too afraid to push people away so :)#vent tw#urghh sorry it's gettin so bleak on main#just having a rough night after a nice weekend#I think the combo of nightmares + feeling good lately has destroyed me lmao#anyway Kid Leo Update tomorrow#yayyy#don't respond to this it's just me yeling at the void#if you see this and we're friends uhhh no I will not elaborate actually I am just gonna sleep it off
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My Personal Headcanon On Why Amy's Love For Sonic Died Down Lately (and their dynamic)
When they were younger, Amy's love for Sonic was pretty extreme, and Sonic was, understandable, uncomfortable for the most part. He knows she means well, but that girl needs to calm down.
She can fight, but sometimes her hammer could only stun her enemies for a while. (It took her a long time to get rid of that robot that has been chasing her around Station Square.) She wasn't fully independent yet, even if she fought on her own a couple of times.
She often follows Sonic and his friends around. She is part of the team, but she was not a strong as she is now at the time yet.
She admires Sonic. A LOT. And Sonic knows that. Obviously, he could only run away from something like that, since he is NOT ready for that kind of thing, and whether Amy takes the hint or stop, she still loves him.
...BUT, I think things were slightly starting to change between her and Sonic after Lost World.
Remember this line?
You remember that? Okay, okay. Here's another totally unrelated question:
Before the events of Lost World, when was the last time Amy said "I love you" to Sonic out loud?
...YEP. đ (Unless I'm missing something, let me know lmao)
As more games and adventures come out, the characters get slightly older, and Amy is 12 to 13 now, and she is most certainly at that age where her body starts to change, but especially on how she views Sonic.
She knows she loves Sonic, but it was this moment during her change where she actually wanted to admit that she loves him.
I believe that Amy was all about sharing her affection to him not through confessions, but through obvious hints. Sonic totally got it, and there was no need to confess. Sonic knows she loves her.
...But she never said it. And she almost did, but she never did again for a while.
I think this was the moment in her life where, oh, God, she actually loves Sonic. SHE LOVES HIM, WHAT.
And she was looking back at all the times she had with Sonic that she can now see were unpleasant to Sonic (At least that's what she thinks) and that's probably why she isn't so expressive about her love to him than how she used to back then.
She wasn't sure what to do with this realization, and sets aside it for a while, and nearly stayed as her casual, peppy self... until the Eggman War happened.
During the 6 months of being with the Resistance, fighting Eggman's army all day and all night, all she can think of was Sonic.
She dreams that he still with not just her, but with her friends. She just wanted to see Sonic again, she just wants to be with her hero again.
But I'd like to think that she was also thinking about how she used to treat Sonic back when they were younger, how Sonic would almost always run away from her whenever she asks him out, or always look so uncomfortable whenever she gets so close to him.
Cringing at those memories big time, she wanted to change and hopefully when Sonic is okay and comes back, she can be better for him.
...Or will he still find her uncomfortable regardless? Would he even be happy to see her at all if he did survive?
But, hold on! She can't just give up her love for Sonic! He made her who she is today! A peppy, nature-loving, hammer-swinging, confident, brave... loud-mouth... annoying... Sonic obsessed... weak... pathetic... lonely little girl.
If she gives up on Sonic, it'll be like she gave up on the one hedgehog who saved her life. If she didn't she'll still be the same ol' Amy.
I also like to think she had parents a long while before she met Sonic, and was even expecting a little sister, but a robot invasion happened from where she was and attacked her parents and instead of trying to save them, after getting hurt, she ran away, hoping that they'll come back okay. But they never did.
She was all alone, and needed someone, a friend, a new family, someone who will hold her hand, anyone, to be there for her. But she was ignored by lots, and at that point, she's better off by herself, but still longed for company.
Eventually though, her tarot cards told her her future hero, and there might be hope after all. She encountered Sonic, held onto the belief of the cards tight, and the rest is history.
So, with that headcanon in mind, not only did Amy loose her parents that she didn't save because of her cowardliness (she was only so little at the time that happened) and also Sonic, who she thought will be her only hope, but now gone.
She doesn't even care if he did come back, he'd probably hate her now after everything she did to him, always talking about their "future wedding" or forcing him to go to Twinkle Park.
For the last few months of the war, it was nothing but Amy mentally beating herself up for either refusing to change or moving on, and they are both not fine choices.
She loves Sonic, but he does not love her, and she finally, finally realized it. And it's probably for the best if no body loved her at all.
But of course Sonic did survive and all of her worries wash away in an instant, she's just not expressive about her love for Sonic AT ALL now, since she's still worried about it but rather not mention it to Sonic because it doesn't matter.
If Sonic doesn't love her, then her feelings don't matter to him, and according to Amy herself, that is okay.
But also, I'd like to think that Sonic was thinking about his friends a lot up in the Death Egg for the past months, sometimes it's Tails (worried for his safety), sometimes it's Shadow (because he's wondering why he would join Eggman.) At some point, for a few days, Amy was in his mind the longest, and he felt bad about how he thought he was rude and pushy to her.
He wondered if she's not thinking about it too much, and if she is, will she give up on him? Yeah, he doesn't feel the same and still not looking for a relationship, but it's so strange but interesting how anyone could ever like someone like Sonic the Hedgehog. Amy was never afraid to show that, and she probably might be now.
He couldn't help but feel guilty. They were kids when she was like this, but he was so... arrogant at the time too. Not a lot happened at the time yet. He'd always have trouble expressing how much he value his friends, until he shattered the Paradox Prism. (I'd like to think Prime took place before Forces. It makes sense.)
She is such a sweet girl, and he probably made her believe that he didn't care for her. Just because he doesn't feel the same, that doesn't mean he hates her at all.
He wished he never ran away from Amy... Worrying for his little bro and wishing to be a good person for Amy was when Sonic cried in the Death Egg for the first and only time.
Frontiers, in my opinion, is kind of confirming their dynamic now. Sonic is a lot more sincere and kinder to Amy and she is not all hyperactive and lovey to Sonic. There is probably a real reason for this now.
They are both hiding their feelings from them, and they are both unaware of this. Amy, hiding her mental issues from Sonic, and Sonic, hiding his guilt away from Amy.
None of those things are important now. Sonic is with Amy and Amy is with Sonic. They are here with each other. They can be finally be better for each other now.
They don't care if they'll ever be something more when they get older. None of that matters anymore. They are here with each other. They can be finally be better for each other now.
Maybe someday they'll both talk about it, but for now, the present is important. They care about each other too much to think about it right now.
It's the kind of love that is unbreakable. It doesn't even have to be romantic. It's just love. Love is important for everyone, in any form. It's something Sonic and his friends need. And especially Sonic and Amy.
Amy Rose is the living embodiment of love, and without her, a lot would go downhill for Sonic and co. Heck, if it weren't for her, Shadow wouldn't have never remembered Maria's promise, which lead him to save the world with Sonic, before he temporarily disappeared from their lives for a while.
She is always there to lend a helping hand for anybody, even bad guys like Metal Sonic, and despite what she had been through, both in Forces and headcanon wise, she still fights back, even without her hammer.
She will pick you back up on your feet, reminding you that you are important and that you are loved, and that you should never give up. It's pretty much the words of encouragement she herself needed also...
She is still the happy, hyper, butt-kicking hedgehog we all know and love, but she still need someone to pick her back up on her feet after so long. Thankfully, she has her friends and her blue hero. The hero who made her who she is today.
I think Amy has no idea how important she thought she is, but Sonic does. Sonic knows fully well how important she is to a lot of people. It's about time he returns the favor to her. It's his turn to remind her how much a lot of people love her.
How much he loves her.
And I feel like The Murder of Sonic the Hedgehog was the moment where their dynamic really shined, but also the starting point of their relationship not only healing, but also the next chapter of what's to come for them.
Everyone, friends old and new, gathered around for a special birthday. A birthday for the confident, unshakable, and radiant Amy Rose.
It was such a special moment in Amy's life. After years of chasing and following the people she look up to, she is part of the team, but most importantly, she is part of the family.
She is fully realized as someone more than just a fangirl, but someone strong, courageous, creative, kind and a big inspiration for others.
I feel like this moment here...
-is where Amy is eternally grateful to call her friends her family. A family she thought she'll never have again. She's not alone anymore, and as long as they're by her side, she'll never will be again.
Her chasing days are over. She's finally caught up to them. She's finally home.
And it's all thanks to Sonic.
If it weren't for him, she'd probably be alone forever. Her past moments with Sonic might be embarrassing to look back on for a while, but they are good memories regardless, because they involve him.
Sonic saved her life in more ways than one, and despite everything, he's grateful to have her too.
He cares about her. He really does... And in her eyes, that all she needed to know. As long as Sonic loves her in his own way, she'll be happy.
Amy hasn't given up on Sonic. As long as Amy always supports him, he'll be happy.
Maybe sometime in the future, they can talk about their problems, but that's a story for another time. At this point, they need to. Right now, they are happy. They are okay.
They are here for each other. They are finally better for each other now.
"You guys won't ever leave me, right?"
"Wouldn't dream of it."
#piko rambles#sonic the hedgehog#amy rose#Meant to be platonic but I don't care if you tag as ship lol#I've been meaning to post something like this for the longest time now but never really got into posting it-#-because you guys REALLY hate seeing these two together for some reason.#Well not for SOME reason. There are valid reasons why you don't ship them. Everyone has valid reason why they don't ship this or that.#But sometimes those reasons can just sound so petty to me. Like the reason why is because Amy is a stalker or Sonic hates her which is FALS#Also those age gap arguments are understandable but so goddamn annoying sometimes. Maybe when they hit their late teens or early twenties-#then they can be together if they want to. Besides a good percentage of Sonic ships are better off if they waited til they're old enough im#I love them regardless of whether they're just friends or an awkward older cringe fail couple lmao#But them being just friends and hiding away all their emotions towards each other just to keep them safe and happy with them- đđđ#Son/adow is my favorite ship of all time and sonamy is my favorite childhood ship/platonic ship because they both have one thing in common.#ANGST đ#I've been thinking about Sonic and Amy's dynamic as of late and MAN-#Mixed with some personal headcanons of mine and their dynamic as of late just makes me so emotional.#Sonic and Amy have gotten so close now and it's so sweet but so heartbreaking at the same time when you think about it.#I'm so happy they are getting along better and being there for each other but there is so much to dissect here. So much to think about.#I might be a little silly but Amy losing her parents and being alone for so long and being the reason why she's always hanging onto Sonic-#-explains SOOOOOOOOO much about her. At least that's my headcanon for WHY that is.#Amy with abandonment issues speaks to me on a personal level. I'm always afraid of being forgotten or left behind by my family.#I sometimes feel like I'm not good enough no matter how hard I try. I do not blame Amy. I relate to her a lot. It's one of the many reasons#-why Amy is my favorite character besides Sonic and Shadow.#She fights hard to prove she's a valuable member of the team and hates getting left behind but despite all that she wasn't afraid to-#-express herself and her love for people. But after the Eggman War there was some changes that made her less expressive about her love.#Yeah she still loves Sonic but she doesn't admit it because none of that matters anymore and she thought that not being loved by Sonic#-is better than being loved since she nearly wasted her life loving someone who she thought has constantly bothered. đ„Č#But I think after TMoStH I think she'll be less afraid of being expressive about it. She and Sonic are just so caring for each other đ#I love these two way too much that when I think about them for too long I'll start SOBBING đđ I'M EVEN SOBBING RIGHT NOW LMAO
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Ay. An offer; one doodle of lovelie for the price of answering my question đŠ
Eh? Eh?â Anyways my question is; whatâs an art tip you can give that really helped you? Anything special when drawing or do you just have a hand of god?
(Btw your one of my favorite artists and I love seeing your work homie, number 1 inspo fr. Keep on cookin đŠ
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WAHHH THEY LOOK SO SCRUNGLYYYY (despite his many, m a n y crimes)
#Also art tips?#One of them is don't follow some of my footsteps they are unhealthy LMAOOOO#Like me pushing through despite my artblock? Very unhealthy it can lead to a unhealthy relationship with art#Ya deserve breaks when your mind and body tells you you need it! Art should be a comforting experience!#No matter how long it takes smhh#I remember my partner had a really bad art block for like a year but they are still going strong with their art! Never feel discouraged!#Also another one is sometimes a messier lighter sketch is better for more dynamic pieces#If ya work too hard on your base it can lead to your piece feeling flat and too stiff#Go crazy go stupid! You might be surprised with what you can accomplish!#Don't be afraid to go outta your comfort zone with art stuff! You might find details you quite enjoy! HUZZAH!#Also also I fuggin love the liddol beetle doodles on the side of her LMAO SO TEENSY TINY#I'M SO HAPPY YA GAMERS ENJOY MY DUM LIDDOL ARTS IM JUST A LIL GUY BDJDJDJDJD;;;;
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Cranky villagers my beloved <3
This is totally not supposed to be relatable-
Don't look at me like that-
#dimple speaks#art#digital art#my art#cartoon#animal crossing#animal crossing fanart#acnh#acnh villagers#animal crossing rocco#animal crossing apollo#animal crossing marlo#acnh rocco#acnh Apollo#acnh marlo#I've been in Animal Crossing hyperfixation hell for two weeks please help#animal crossing new horizons#acnh fanart#comic#funny#i have so much art of Marlo and my oc-#im going to die cringe#i kinda want to post them but i don't know if i should#me when a fictional old cranky hamster calls me kiddo: *sobs in childhood trauma accent*#i have do many headcanons for my villagers I'm not ok-#ALSO- IDK WHY TF MY FAVORITE IS EVEN MARLO#I HAVEN'T EVEN SEEN THE GODFATHER LMAO#I'm too afraid to ask what the plot is at this point#Let me know if you want to see my human ac designs#And if you dont; I'll probably end up posting them anyway-
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Godfall Terminal Access Approved- Data: Thronebreakers
System access permitted. Research Data On phenomenon "Godfall" now accessible. Secondary information Request, central data upon "Thronebreakers."- H.A.E. Employee Detected, Hello, Bastian.
Please note that the following research content is highly classified and contains the following sensitive topics: Captivity, general assholery relating to using others for personal gain?
THRONEBREAKERS || CREW CONSTRUCTS
"Who is predicting these events? // What do the crews look like?"
Those who chase Godfalls are referred to as "Thronebreakers" though this term applies to both those who casually pursue the collapses for their own personal gain, and those who seek to destroy the greater spirits (Hereforth referred to as 'The Host') That seem to garner more zealous loyalty than those who make up more common Godfalls. While loosely organized, crews of Thronebreakers typically consist of a handful of main roles, filled by at least 2 dragons apiece.
Breakers are the primary muscle of a hunting crew, assigned to attacking both the collapsing God and rival crew members they are often large, brutish, and skilled in close combat. These dragons tend to use heavily modified weapons equip with magical siphons to drain magic in a more passive manner as they deal damage to one another and the entity the crews are pursuing.
Needlers are thus the more refined, directly focused crew members who are present completely for harvesting from the entity. The middle-weight fighters using smaller, more maneuverable weapons to collect flesh, scales, bones, blood, and raw magic as they chase behind entities, they are often seen climbing across the massive bodies of the spirits and are defended by Breakers with their lives.
The Torchbearers are relegated to pathing, and tend to be of a handful of very specific breeds carrying the blessing of the Windsinger and the Flamecaller, with bodies that contain great peals of unquenchable, magical flame or lingering traces of wind, some crews have expanded to the use of those who bear a similar blessing from the Stormcatcher in the absence of access to the other two. These portions of crews thus tend to favor banescales and aberrations, for their aerial maneuverability and tendency to display such genetic predispositions. Their function is singular, to carve a pathway of magic that corrals the falling God toward an opportune resting place for their crews to prey upon.
Witnesses are the final piece of a Thronebreaking crew, and their purpose seems entirely to be attuned to one of The Host- therefore capable of detecting where a member of this strange collective might spill back into reality. Some are zealots- followers of the Host themselves, some are Beholders, dragons driven mad by their contact with these higher-tier dead, and others are born with a more prevalent sensitivity to the build of latent magic in the air. It is a crew's Witness that determines where a Godfall might occur, and where there is one thronebreaking crew, there are hundreds to follow. Given their rarity, however, Enterprising God-Hunters in previous falls put together a collective of loyalists to The Host, referred to as The Council of Fifteen. Little more than Prisoners to the crew that gathered them, The Council are used to detect and signal with more accuracy than a lone Witness where a Godfall is going to occur- and this information can be bought in shadowy corners of Sornieth for crews without Witnesses of their own.
THRONEBREAKERS || INTER-CREW POLITICS
"Are the crews working together? // How many crews attend? // How far do they know in advance? // What is the Opening Ritual?"
No matter their similarities in makeup, Thronebreaking crews are not working together for anything other than a shared final goal. Even those operating under the banner of the same crew are often seen attacking and fighting amongst themselves once the fall begins, so crews in opposition are fighting not only the entity itself, but all members of the other crews in tandem. A falling "God" is dying, and despite their impressive size and overwhelming magical power, these dragons are actively walking to their death sites- the greatest danger posed during a Godfall is other thronebreaker crews, not the entity itself. Finding a strenuous allyship in the midst of a godfall is not something that has gone unreported, but it is rare, and high-value entities, like those who were formerly recognized as members of The Host inspire far more bloodthirsty behavior as each crew jockeys for control over the bulk of what the godfall provides.
While in the early days of the phenomenon those who chased Godfalls were rather small in number, the proliferation of raw magic as a market- and the fact that there are very few ways to harvest it that are humane outside of hunting these grand, decaying entities- has led to the modern godfall location attracting easily 200+ dragons at a time. This has the notable drawback of displacing clans that already live in the locale, though some in more high-traffic locales have adapted to these events, using Godfalls as an opportunity to sell wares, buy collected magic and materials in the aftermath, and build stronger relationships with the nomadic Thronebreaker crews, should they have need of sellswords in the future.
Crews lucky enough to have a Witness among their ranks are often capable of determining the territory a Godfall might occur weeks in advance, though more precise determination is reserved for when the Witness arrives in the area, requiring the ability to detect the high-volume of magic thinning the barriers between Sornieth and the so-called Gaplands where these spirits reside. Those most capable of precognition relating to these events are Beholders, those who were present at the first, non-Godfall appearance of an entity in Sornieth- often subsently broken mentally by what they witnessed.
Those with no hints, precognitions, or essential information purchased secondhand from those who know what you need to know, however, are not completely out of luck, at least, not until the Opening Ritual. A more recent addition to the process- at least in an official capacity, the Opening Ritual is used largely as an attempt to more correctly determine what might be coming through the portal in the sky. Relying on the Council of the Fifteen, these dragons- reduced to little more than priests of the Host- perform a ritual upon which they relinquish all the magic they contain completely- This high volume of magic operates in two capacities- encouraging the portal to activate, and weakening the council member most directly related to the appearing entity- offering essential hints to those chasing the collapse about what they might be going after. In the event of the fall of a Host Entity, the member of the Council dedicated to them will die outright- though it is unclear as to why this phenomenon occurs.
#flight rising#fr#flight rising lore#And this is broken into 2 because I'll be elaborating further on things about the Gods/The places they fall/their remains on another post#bc the split worked out really well.#as always replies/rb/comments welcome#god this got long I'm afraid of the next one too lmao#If you read all this shit you're a fucking trooper.
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roxyâs outfit for edgewave
in love with her goofy smile
#too bad i wont have time to properly participate#but rox will be there in spirit#ts4#sims 4#miss you girl#too afraid to go into your save file after all the updates lmao#summer project will be possibly migrating the macmahons to a new save file#ok i'm actually gone now#see you again the 15th!!!
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when you are so fixated on a show that you dream about the characters
#it was a decent dream too#i'm not normal about this#mha#bnha#my hero acedamia#i'm afraid bakudeku stole my heart#bakudeku#bkdk#bakugou katsuki#izuku midoriya#tenya iida#ochaco uraraka#mina ashido#shoto todoroki#all might#all for one#one for all#shigaraki tomura#dream#okay bye lmao
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me when someone makes a wordgirl au I've thought of before but since I never published it publicly now I'm afraid I might be called a copycat
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I can't wait to use my new bullet journal đ„°
Bonus: My first bullet journal that I've been using for this a d last year. I named it CHONKY (ignore the bottom left sticker, a friend gave it to me. Probably for a reason but ain't gonna talk about that fjgfjffif)
#misc; ooc#//don't ask me how it turned looking like one of those scrapbooks on tik tok I don't have the amswer to that lmao#//but it's been great in terms of learning what works for me and not#//i'd say for me I mostly focus on the drawing aspect of it more than the actual journaling tbh I just love drawing#//while i have a separate planner notebook for my schedule and tasks and shit like that#//i'm just a lil worried about the new notebook pages bc I just realized thjs week they are thinner than my previous journal#//and if i put a bit too much glue to stick the pages together#//(bc i do stick them together bc the colors bleed through the pages so I leave the back of the pages I've drawn on untouched)#//--- the colors bleed through a lil bit from the glue (I use liquid glue) bc they get a bit wet and again these lages are VERY thin#//so I think instead of using glue I might stick the lages together with tape#//so that the colors don't bleed through the pages and also to avoid the pages getting crinkled#//if ya know what i mean#//and yeah I COULD do my spreads on a separate sheet and then stick it in the journal#//i've seen a lot of artists actually do that on those Create This Book series on YT#//but I don't think I want to make the new journal as CHONKY or even CHONKIER than the last one#//and if I stick a bunch on seperate pages i to it it would surely get very chonky#//(believe me I've seen how these Create This Book challenge books on YT have turned into after rhe artist(s) have done half of the prompts#//also if you're curious most of my spreads from the last two years were recreations and inspired by Amanda Rach Lee's spreads on YT#//I just love her art style it's so cute and how she isn't afraid change things up and also allow mistakes to happen#//if you do bullet journals as well and need inspiration I def recommend her channel
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I just realized we all technically have the power to ask any questions on this site, and I never got to doing it. So....
[Points S.E.E.S evoker at you]
Who are the fictional characters you ship your mutuals to? Doesn't have to be necessarily their self-ship. I am deadass curious. Spill the tea, Imbibitor's loverâ
We can lower that down, brynn- no need to get all aggressive now-
*cough* ANYWAY!
I'll list them down below, and if they're not accurate or you're actually gonna fight them rather than making out with the characters that i chose then yeah, that is probably my plan đ /silly
Oh and! I'll mostly be using genshin and hsr characters because yeah-
@beloved-brynn -> heizou and ratio. NGL, YOU + HEIZOU, OR YOU + RATIO, OR EVEN THE THREE OF YOU WOULD TOTALLY BE SO FUNNY AND CHAOTIC đâïž they can counter your wild statements while also being the (somewhat) saner one but could also say smth wild as well. I could see you and one of em (possibly ratio) be like "oh yeah, the other day, i was eating my lunch while watching that gorey movie-" "what." "yeah, i was hungry at that time, so like why not yk-" (this is based on my real experience guys, guess which dialogue is me lmao)
@meimeimeirin -> hmmmm, koh zhongli maybe? Okay, let me tell you the reason why... it's simply because she NEEDS someone who can pamper her! I don't know where that conclusion came from, but yeah. Anyway, if we're talking about other characters, then i think welt, or even zayne from lnd could fit. Basically: "I need someone older, just a little bit colder." lmao (oh, mochi, did this conclusion came up because you know rin's the youngest in her family and now you ship her with men older (and more experienced) than her? whaatt... ofc not, haha-)
@leftdestiny-posts -> absolutely cannot see them with anyone other than dottore. Cute and kind but is secretly crazy "i want to watch the world burn" x The human version of the word 'crazy' "as you wish, my love" would be their dynamic, i suppose...? WAIT OH! I can actually see shiro with ayato or maybe sunday! I bet they would like such a cute, innocent-looking darling to control, but then they would get so surprised and maybe super interested into trying to control the darling despite how crazy the darling actually is- (shiro ily, if ur crazy then we can be crazy together đ)
@navxry -> arlechinno, and maybe black swan. Yeah, that's it. No explanation needed.
@jessamine-rose -> hmmm, would it be weird if i say capitano? I don't know why or how did i get to that conclusion, but yeah. And maybe blade? IDK WHY I'M PARTNERING HER WITH CRAY CRAY MEN- SORRY JESS, I (subconsciously) THINK YOU CAN LIKE CALM THEM OR SMTH AJFIAWOF-
@stardust-for-your-soul -> funnily enough, i can see her with aventurine. They'll say sweet words that probably have a double meaning and also probably have a teeny tiny bit (maybe a lot lmao) of 'enemies to lovers' moment. (wow, cherry, your new bf is a gambler- /smack). But anyway, i could also see her be with march 7th who is so bubbly and sweet, and i'd think cherry would love to tease march hehe
@teabutmakeitazure -> ACTUALLY NGL DAN HENG????? He would listen to her ramblings and also help her write her fics. It just sounds so cute in my opinion lol. Other than dan heng (who is obviously the best choice), zuri would probably look into red flag charas, like... yeah, aventurine- but still tho, dan heng! But i get what zuri is thinking tho, red is such a sexy color- /smack
@harmonysanreads -> ngl alhaitham or kaeya would be cute if paired up with her! Idk where did kaeya come from, but when i thought about it, instantly "cute!". I think, harmony has this really 'weird' calming aura that could make those two charas just fell in love with how comfortamble she can make them feel. BUT LIKE IDK THO-
@fishanonishere -> Albedo...... i think? Fish, i know what you are- i mean like as in how chaotic and just how 'what in the world is this person thinking???' you are. With how calming and 'would jump into any interesting topic' he is, i think fish and him could be such a cute duo. Fish's ramblings and their drawings are some of the things that make him really interested in fish
#reli-answers : brynn <3#LMAO I TRIED MY BEST GUYS#maybe some of this could be seen as platonic ships but think what you want!!!#i just partnered up mutuals with characters i think would fit their vibe or i think would be funny together lol#i hope you guys don't mind me shipping you like this ehehee#AND ALSO#BRYNN I SWEAR#you fit with alhaitham too#but i'm like ânah. this would be too long if i put haithamâ#i would ramble more about every ships but i'm afraid it would get too chaotic and too long so i hope this counts as good answer!#and once again#i tried my best uheahkufbajk
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Whoa :O I can't believe Violet sees Amogus in Elanor đł /silly
(my beloveds đ also looking through the relationship chart is so much fun hehe)
âŠăANSWERED: AMOGUS????????!!!!!!!!!! If it's Violet saying that, then I 100% trust her hgjdjsh
#Sowwie Elanor T_T /j#I'd also trust you Aine <3 1000000%#But lmao there's also people in my inbox asking for another '14DWY bot among us' game in the server#As much as I'd love to answer them.... I don't know what they're talkin about and at this point I'm too afraid to ask /silly#I'm glad y'all are having fun in the server though#đ â answered.#đ â 14dwy memes.#đ€ â shut up sai.#đ â 14 days with queue.
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Deanâs sitting at the kitchen table eating meatloaf when it all sort of hits â and heâs desperate to remember it exactly how it happened.
With his fork raised halfway to his mouth, a dollop of meat and sauce perched precariously on the tines, his eyes wandered over to where Cas stood by the sink in a pair of ratty pajama bottoms and one of Deanâs old t-shirts. (One of Deanâs old t-shirts, because once Cas gets his shoulders into them they never really sit the same way.)
Heâs got soap up to his elbows, scrubbing methodically at the dishes Dean just dirtied, his brow a taught, concentrated line. Heâs bringing the same kind of meticulous focus to the dishes that he used to bring to leading the armies of Heaven; that singular kind of attention, both unnerving and admirable. (Dean had once tried to explain that he didnât need to wash them quite so vigorously, to which Cas had deadpanned, âDo you know how many food particles remain on the dishes you wash, Dean?â It quickly became his job, after that.)
Itâs early July. About 6:30pm. The window over the sink is cracked, and the front door is wide open, letting the sound of cicadas and crickets drift in with the summer breeze. The sunâs starting to set behind the field, casting the world in that particular orange glow that has always made something in Dean ache. In the other room, the record player Sam got them for Christmas plays a beat up Janis Joplin record heâd found at a secondhand store in town. The opening chords of Me and Bobby McGee have just started, and the cicadas are humming, and the crickets are singing, and the sun is setting, and Cas is standing in old pajamas washing dishes Dean just used to make them dinner and â
Cas tilts his head.
This isnât revolutionary. He does it a lot. A very ingrained behavior, some might say. But he isnât confused, heâs reacting. To the song. He doesnât react to music the way Dean wants him to, never has, but in his own way, itâs almost like heâs leaning closer to hear it. An infinitesimal thing. The smallest gesture. The corner of his mouth twitches, and Dean has never loved him more than he does at this moment: backlit by a summer sunset in their house in the middle of nowhere, hand washing dishes and listening to Janis Joplin.
Cas turns when the sound of Deanâs fork clattering on the plate sounds, but Dean just scoops him into his arms, chases any worries away with a kiss, and then another, and then one more for good measure. Cas laughs against his mouth, desperately trying to keep his soapy arms away from Deanâs dry clothes. âDean,â he chides, squirming and chuckling, trying to extract himself from Deanâs grip. âIâm not finished.â
âIâll get âem tomorrow,â Dean promises, peppering sweet little kisses down the line of Cas' throat. He hasnât shaved in a couple of days. It tickles all the way down. âLove you so much,â he says, because he wants to. Because heâs so full with it heâs overflowing. Because if he doesnât tell him right now, in this moment, and every moment after this one, he might die. He needs him to know. Itâs vital that he knows.
Casâ laughter warms, and he slides one soapy hand to the back of Deanâs neck, eyebrows raised in challenge when he shudders at the sensation. When Dean doesnât immediately shoo him away, he slides the other soapy hand up Deanâs arm. âDean?â Heâs not worried, the timber of his voice is honey-smooth and light, but heâs confused. Not that Dean doesnât tell him often, and loudly, how much he loves him, but to be fair this did kind of come from nowhere, so he understands. Itâs just much too much. Itâs not enough and itâs everything. Itâs everything in the world Dean has ever wanted.
Janis Joplin is singing freedom is just another word for nothing left to lose, and Deanâs arms are loose around Casâ waist, and he loves him, god he loves him so much, so he kisses him on one corner of the mouth, and then the other. Janis says, nothinâ, donât mean nothinâ honâ if it ainât free, no, no â and he rocks their bodies together, slow, to the beat of the music. Casâ arms come to wind around his neck automatically, and his smile starts to sprawl into something reserved for only the really good moments. Wide and gummy and for Dean â and feelinâ good was easy, Lord, when he sang the blues. He presses his forehead to Casâ and they just sort of sway there like that, smiling at each other like this might be the last chance they ever get.
Cas says â âI love you, Dean,â just as Janis is singing, you know feelinâ good was good enough for me â and it occurs to Dean that heâs dancing in the kitchen with the love of his life. He thinks back to the longest, loneliest nights he spent staring up at the night sky, believing wholly heâd die bloody and alone on the backend of some random hunt, and how the smallest (but loudest) part of him had wished for exactly this. For someone to hold him and see him and dance in the kitchen with him, barefoot and covered in soap.
He kisses the tip of Casâ nose, the lines under his eyes. Doesnât realize heâs crying until Cas is wiping tears away with the pads of his thumbs and soothing hands through his hair. Heâs crying, too. Laughing and crying and telling Dean he loves him, he loves him so much, heâs loved him from the first moment he saw him.
It settles in Dean then â really settles deep, and true, and good â that he was meant for this. He wasnât born to be a weapon. Wasnât born to be a son, or a father, or a brother. Wasnât born to save the world or to end it â was just meant to dance. His arms were meant to hold. To sway them both around the cheap linoleum floor, to sling low around Casâ waist and spin them both âtil they were dizzy with it.
They laugh and kiss and Janis is saying â good enough for me and Bobby McGee â and Dean is thinking â Yeah. Yeah, it really is.
#i'm sorry god.#mine#my fic#this literally. listen.#this came to me like a premonition#i was playing stardew valley and then it was like#if I don't write this incredibly self indulgent sappy shit I will EXPLODE#trying to get better about listening to that voice instead of ignoring it#bc i'm not like. great at writing but it makes me feel good. or it used to#and i wanna get back to that#anyway.#love how every few months dean and cas come into my life like ;)))) hey.#remember when everything you made was about us#and i'm like. god you're so right#destiel#deancas#spn#gonna try not to re-read this a thousand times until I hate it too so if it's like#trash that's why lmao#why am i so afraid anyway#ANYWAY
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