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Oh. Right. Robotics. There was a slight glance at Light's arms before Ely started to unlock and type in the information needed to add the other's contact information. A small message simply stating 'this is ely' was sent before he put the phone away. This was so strange to him.
And mentally he really didn't want to accept it. Even when the mental image of his friend was reminding him that it was okay. His eyes flickered back to the girls, soon deciding that this wasn't being done for him. This was for her. Always.
"We'll have to set up a playdate in the future then." He could already see Molly telling her friends about Gibbious. And knowing the fox sisters if they ever met the kid they'd want to add her to their club immediately. The chaos the four of them could make...
He quickly decided he didn't want to think about it.
"Unfortunately I think it's time for us to leave." He said, gaining his sister's attention.
"Aww, do we have to?"
"You got homework to do." One of the few normal things he ever said in his life. "We'll see them again, promise."
"Mmm okay! Only because you promised." With that she was up on her feet again. "Gibbous! You hear that! We'll hang out again soon okay?"
The toddler had to get out some of the energy from eating somehow. It just so happened to be easier to run in a circle (looking almost like she was chasing her tail) than a way that would have meant she needed to stand on her legs.
She still didn't have enough balance for that if she couldn't grasp a hold of something in the process.
Light took the phone with a hand and tapped at the screen. Only once before handing it back with an amused smirk. "You'll need to input the information. My hands don't register on your touch screen."
A wave of his metal fingers was given in jest while rattling off his contact info to be added. Of course, he also waited for Ely to send him a message and listened for the light chime on his laptop to know it was a success. He waved a hand dismissively.
"Then don't think of it as a debt. As the English saying goes, think of it as me paying it forward."
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Look at this awkward boy with his new family.
The DeLyons had found Ely completely unconscious in the street and took him in. He woke up to not knowing who he was or what was happening. They gladly took him into their home and soon adopted him. He was definitely happier there, and if asked he'd say it was the most normal he ever felt until his memories returned to him and soon after destroyed the family.
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anya deserved so much better
#mouthwashing#mouthwashing game#mouthwashing art#mouthwashing anya#ibon draws#cw eye strain#eye strain#just in case#massive trigger warning for people interested in the game 😭i myself had to just listen to a video summarizing it#because i don't do well with heavy games like that especially as a survivor and someone with cptsd myself#the way in which she was systematically failed and gaslit by the others even after the fact felt eerily similar to what i experience#'in the back of my mind it's always there' how it feels to have cptsd in the aftermath is so realistically depicted by anya- i can confirm#take care of yourselves ok <3 i wish us all healing and safety
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"just as I did, in 1983."
you'd never know my favourite parts of the show are the fucked up insane bits when my first instinct is to draw the cheesiest thing imaginable
#my art#interview with the vampire#iwtv amc#iwtv#armand iwtv#daniel molloy#armand#armandaniel#devils minion#drew this before the finale but idk maybe this is during the unspecified amount of time between armands divorce and daniels press tour#the titian painting doesnt fit at ALL with the timeline btw#i THOUGHT it did bc i assumed 1508 was when armand was turned into a vampire BUT upon reflection thats more likely the year he was born#and even then the painting was made in like 1510 so fuck me i guess. also im foggy on when armand was taken to rome#idk man i havent read the books and i failed art history on two separate occasions i cannot endeavor for accuracy#anyway as much as i love 70s/80s devils minion i have equal love for old man daniel#his cynicism has been tempered by time... refined like a diamond... he dont gaf and bullies his loser vampire and its hilarious#like ''sure yeah fine all these old italian renaissance guys saw ur ethereal otherworldly beauty but literally anybody can see that''#''IM the only mf who gets to experience the incandescent joy of seeing you be a messy idiot''#sidenote trying to make armand look unflattering is impossible u can blame the show for casting the worlds most beautiful man
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At least they gave it some damage. Ely landed on his feet, giving his partner a frown at his question. Out of the two of them, Ely was doing pretty well physically. They were so close to their goal. They just needed to remove this big obstacle.
One that Dan wasn't able to just get rid of. The dart gun Ely brought wasn't going to cut it... at least not with one dart. He wasn't sure if a ton of them would do anything to a machine this big and complicated, but it wasn't like they had much to lose at this point.
He could at least hop it slowed down the stupid thing. So quickly he took it out of his pocket before aiming and shooting as many as he could towards the Silver Sonic.
The attack was all that was needed, as Ely's spin dash was enough to again disturb the silver bot's balance, causing it to struggle in maintaining its tug of war with the demon-hog, whom quickly took the chance he could to use as much force as he could, tearing the arm clean off!
Naturally it reeled back, but didn't seem to deter it from going forward with its plan from before, now forming a ball of its own, albeit with a gap in its otherwise perfect form. Its sharp spikes now protruding across its surface and revving up for a spin dash of its own!
"Pain in the backside...." Dan would mutter, still holding onto the arm piece of the bot. "You ok Ely?" Even if the gesture meant well, probably wasn't the best time to ask, especially considering himself right now. "I'll slow it down as best I can, but I sure hope you've got something to force it outta that shape!"
Strength wise he could manage, one clean blow is all he'd need but despite being a hedgehog himself, the spin dash wasn't a trick he could do himself and in his state there was little chance of him simply being able to outmanoeuvre it to do so. Shadows likely would do the trick but that would still take time to form and control...time they weren't going to have!
As the Silver Sonic bursts forward at high speed, Dan steps in and blocks the attack by using its own arm, swinging it into the way! the spikes quickly were scraping and cutting their way through the metal! He had it slowed for now but he couldn't hold it for too long unless those blades cut their way through and then reached him!
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I think one of the biggest tragedies of Laios & Falin and their relationship is how much his actions impact her life. But like. Specifically how much they WOULDN’T impact her life as much if they weren’t both stuck in such a shitty abusive situation.
This part of the Falin-tries-makeup daydream hour comic is what got me thinking about it again because truly it just... it seems like such a like an offhand comment that I'm sure Laios didn't mean to be cruel or anything. That's just like. A little kid not thinking about what they are saying. ESPECIALLY when the kid in question is Laios.
But man they depended on each other SO much as kids. Too much. It really feels like they didn't have any other source of positive reinforcement, or anyone else to share themselves with. So of course an offhand comment like that has a huge impact on Falin.
Or this little bit from one of the flashbacks:
This tears me apart. Do you think it tears him apart to think about? I think it does. I think Laios holds every small failure to care for Falin against himself.
And then there's the Bigger stuff. The way that him coping with his own trauma ended up impacting her.
Like his interest in monsters. Like him going to find a ghost, and accidentally revealing Falin's magic to the whole village in the process.
Like him needing to leave. And leaving her behind.
He shaped her life so much, and he carries so much guilt for it. And again, there should have been other people there to help. The same things that made Laios need to leave home are the things that made his leaving so hard on Falin. She ate alone after that. She shouldn't have had to eat alone just because Laios wasn't there.
She was 9 when he left for school, and he was 11.
Nine. And Laios feels like he failed her because he didn't stand by her through this better. As an eleven year old.
Both of these kids deserved so much better from the world.
#dunmeshi analysis#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#falin touden#laios touden#dungeon meshi spoilers#AND this isn't even getting into her leaving the academy & how much it seems like that was directly tied to how poorly he was doing#there's a comic in the adventurer's bible where marcille is like 'yeah she had a job lined up and everything'#and like. do you think he feels bad for that too#like he wrecked her life by leaving#and wrecked her life by showing up#what do you even do at that point. if you feel like a failed protector when you are away & and a burden when you return#unable to make yourself accept. unable to make yourself resist#Laios strongest moment is when he lets himself accept that. the contradiction of his life & his relationship with Falin#that he has to kill her to save her#as a small note this came out a little more focused on Laios' POV with this stuff but Falin's experience of it is v important to me too#didn't mean to sideline her but her feelings about stuff are more speculative and probably need a post of their own
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The way that I’m brainrotting over a DCxDP crossover with a Danny who’s a vengeful villain rn
Like, let’s just say that the GiW finally get into contact with the JL. They need help neutralizing a threat, you see, and they’re on their last limb trying to keep civilians safe.
They have video evidence! They have studies to back their claims! The JL have to help them!
Unfortunately, the JL believe them. They join a fight against Danny, and defeat him due to being far more experienced than he is. Danny is locked away and experimented on by the GiW.
That would CHANGE a person. Your heroes turning against you and seeing you as a monster, being experimented on for who knows how long, not knowing if your friends and family are safe.
Danny gets out due to a simple mistake on the GiW’s part; having Blüdhaven as part of their transport route.
Of course the trucks were attacked, they’re government property!
So now, whoever decided to raid the government transport trucks (the Penguin or something) has a ton of experimental weapons with no idea how they work, and a heavily traumatized teenager.
Danny knows how they work. Danny can be useful! They won’t throw him out if he’s useful! And so, now Danny is working for the Penguin, altering the ectoplasm weapons to make them work on humans.
It’s a good deal for both parties. Danny gets to neurotically imprint on the Penguin like a small baby animal, and the Penguin gets a brilliant mind who will stop at nothing to achieve his goals.
But eventually, Danny finds out what happened to his family in his absence.
Jazz is in Arkham. Not as a psychologist, but as a “patient.” Apparently, she snapped and completely destroyed the house, leveled a few blocks of Amity Park, and conducted organized attacks on government bases (mostly GiW) for months.
Sam and Tucker helped her, eventually splitting once Jazz was captured. Sam travels to areas of extreme pollution, completely overgrowing them with her plant powers. Currently she’s in the Amazon rainforest, engaging in an ongoing feud with logging companies. Sam is winning.
Tucker faked his death, and Danny has no idea where he is. He only knows that the death wasn’t real because of a code that the three of them made together, just in case.
Ellie’s trapped in the Infinite Realms. Danny had a failsafe in place so that if she was ever cornered by the GiW, she would be sent to her haunt in the GZ. However, with the portal destroyed, she can’t come back. Danny just hopes she’s okay.
His parents are now top GiW scientists. They’re traveling the country giving speeches. They’re working on a battery powered by ectoplasm, but apparently started “having difficulties” around the same time that Danny escaped.
None of it is fair. None of it is right.
The Justice League destroyed his life, the lives of his friends, and they’re doing as good as ever. The GiW is respected, and his parents are happily working away for them.
Danny takes up some of his more experimental weapons and breaks Jazz out of Arkham. She’s a little different now, colder and more quiet, but she still loves him all the same. It’s an unimaginable comfort to him to see his sister again.
He can’t use his powers anymore. He’s so used to associating them with pain that even transforming into his ghost form is enough to take him down for hours.
However, he understands ectoplasm more than anyone else in the world. He knows how to use it in virtually everything; how it can become a weapon, how it can be used as a supplemental ingredient in poisons and nerve agents, how it can twist and distort the mind if applied correctly.
He doesn’t care what happens to him. He’s going to take down the GiW, and destroy the lives of the JL members who helped lock him away, just as they did to him.
No matter the cost.
#dcxdp#dc x dp#dp x dc#dpxdc#dp x dc crossover#dc x dp prompt#let Danny be scary and unsettling and evil WITHOUT being Dan!! do it!!!!!#at first the JL just think they’re dealing with a normal villain who’s angry at the world#the more details they get on him the more dread they feel#eventually they realize that they locked a 16-year-old away to be experimented on by the government for YEARS#and not that same kid is determined to ruin their lives#the GUILT. the PAIN. the realization that they so completely and fully failed this child#they’re speedrunning the 5 stages of grief and Danny is just like ‘oh no! anyways’ *fakes killing Red Robin to fuck with the bat*
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I recently had to do a project in one of my psych classes, and man, I knew that CBT was used for every little thing, but seeing over and over, "do CBT! CBT is the best for every mental illness!" was so jarring. I'm absolutely biased because of my own experiences, but I just don't think it's as universal a treatment model as it's touted.
If you didn't benefit from CBT, it's not because you're lazy or didn't try hard enough or lacked intelligence or foresight into your own needs. Frankly, it's a therapy model that (I think) shouldn't be the only readily-accessible model and among the only therapy models covered by insurance. Some of us should not be treated in a CBT model and that's okay. It's not a sign of poor character or unreasonable demands, and if you don't think it's a model that works for you, then it's your right to express that!
#mental health#mental health advocacy#it was just so annoying because every resource i could access for this project often ONLY recommended cbt and#that just doesn't seem helpful for a good chunk of people#because i know i never benefitted from that model of therapy#obligatory: i am not against this therapy. me having a negative experience with it is not indicative that i believe it should be abolished'#if it works for you: KEEP DOING IT. cbt is not inherently harmful for MANY people and it's a good and valuable tool for many#but the overemphasis of cbt as the Only Therapy Model You Need sends this message that YOU failed...#...if you don't miraculously recover with that therapy model. it often feels like you'll Fail Recovery/Therapy and you're now a Bad Person#i've tried for over a decade to stick out cbt with a dozen therapists to boot. so i think i know a thing or two about my experiences with it#and overall its an unimpressive model (for me) as someone whos had a history with abuse and miscellaneous mental knickknacks rattling around#it's also frustrating because i genuinely like psych and i love learning about people#it's just. i'm tired of only being exposed to cbt (because i hate it honestly)#i feel similarly about cbt as i do with sigmund fucking frued#anyway i just want other insane people (affectionate) to remember that they deserve to not beat themselves up over this#if you're an insane person reading this: i love you i love you i love you i love you#i will share a slice of cake and homemade bread with you <3
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I want it back / I drag its dead weight forward.
#Better drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#digital art#This was a style experimentation doodle that took on a life of its own.#In a way it is a great example of 'beautiful failure'. The original goal was to try a pure black and white contrast piece.#Which I very much failed at doing. Not quite ready for that! However what this turned into is something I like a lot!#Different but in a way that really pushed me as an artist. A little less simple; a little more proportional.#I was also recently thinking about LWJ's grieving that we only catch glimpses of.#LWJ grieved his first love for 13 years. His love that was never reciprocated.#He chose to dedicate his heart to that mourning and most painfully of all - he did so knowing there was no end to that grief.#Wei Wuxian comes back to life in MDZS but that is an exception. Not the expectation.#He was dead. Not missing. Not 'maybe in hiding'. He was dead and his spirit unreachable.#Jiang Cheng went forwards with denial but LWJ takes that grief on. He copes by continuing to carry the weight with him.#Let me be clear. Neither are healthy approaches. It is a way to cope but it does not mean that is healing or healthy.#Grief is loved transformed but it is also about endurance and letting go. Grief can change you. You can also change your grief.#It isn't a good or evil thing to experience. It is just an experience.
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crochawk exchange for a crochawker
#cross guild#sir crocodile#dracule mihawk#crochawk#one piece#my art#from a week ago#croc doesnt know how to use chopsticks so mihawk tried and failed to teach him how.. at least this way croc can be fed by mihawk..#(inspired by personal experience i was in mihawks position)#small secret santa thing among crochawkers#this event somewhat lifted me out of a horrible funk id been in so i'm kind of grateful for that..#crochawk has actually been my otp for over a year now
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Now I am not saying that Drumbot Brian on the drums or banjo are over appreciated because I don't think it is possible to appreciate anything about Drumbot Brian too much, BUT I do think that Drumbot Brian on the accordion is terribly underappreciated.
Look at this. How can you see this and Not want to talk about him on the accordion for the rest of time?? Also the instrument itself is pretty and matches the rose on his hat.
#all of the mechs are just so ridiculously impressive and have such a wide range of skill in both instruments and vocals#I like never see his accordion playing gettibg talked abt anywhere despite how fucking cool it is to the point#I sometimes gaslight myself into thinking my memory's failing and it never existed (bc I am really bad at recognizing instruments#on recordings) until I stumble upon photos of it again and I feel like I just snorted a line.#I have much the same experience with Ivy playing the trumpet too.#So I just keep a list of every instrument I've ever seen the mechs use or their actors have said they used + pictures to help.#drumbot brian#the mechanisms
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Given that SCOTUS has anointed the office of the presidency as a monarch role beyond all reproach (so that when 45 wins in Nov as they are intending), and we’ll never have another presidential election, I wish that Biden would assume lame duck status IMMEDIATELY, call their bluff, and start issuing executive orders like crazy now through January 2025.
He could do shit like defund the military and pour the funds into social services, repeal all nationwide laws/restrictions on abortion, make all healthcare including all reproductive services and gender affirming care accessible, instate UBI and Medicare for all, write a 100% tax rate on billionaires, push sweeping environmental protections, break up monopolistic megacorps, close federal prisons, expand and pack the court, cancel all student/personal/medical/non corporate debts, open our boarders, decriminalize all drugs, etc. etc. etc.
Maybe then the 6 block justice set of 45 worshippers would see what they’ve done.
Maybe then, if Biden immediately, decisively even did 10% of that, he might not lose the election.
Of course, he’d actually have to give a shit about any of those things in order to do this.
And that’s the whole fucking point, right? He won’t. And it’s why we’re here.
Democrats hold themselves to “the rules” only to the extent they’re spineless liberals who are in the same big money pockets as republicans. The key difference being, they let republicans be the ones to more overtly, proudly kill us all and act powerless to stopping them.
When our structures demand they are the ONLY ones who could stop them. I can’t take it anymore.
#us politics#sorry but I’m in a real negative tail spin that has been increasing In intensity for a decade at least#call me a psyop if you must that’s fine but I’ll be sitting over here in Texas#crying bitter tears that fall on my 20 year old BA in political science and the death of all my Childish dreams#that this fucking failed experiment of a nation has no chance at redemption#stick a fork in her folks she’s done
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Ely was adopted into a lion family, but thanks to circumstances the only one left is his sister Molly. He'd do anything for her.
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Dan might be right in some way. Not that Ely was sure how much Molly would be able to help them in that regard. She had some limited life experience due to Ely not being able to pay for many things at times.
Maybe he should ask if there was something big she wanted to do and make it happen. A couple of odd jobs would surely pay for it.
Ely stared at Dan for a moment before nodding and walking off. He wasn't sure what to make of this experience. At least he could tell Rex he got out of the apartment for once.
There was a raised brow as Ely hit the table, leaving the demon-hog a little confused as to where that came from, briefly thinking to himself as to how rather volatile Ely was as he wouldn't immediately connect the dots to where the source of that irritation was coming from.
"I don't mean doing exactly what she wants there." Not being entirely excited at the idea of nail painting or tea parties either. "But since she's young, she has a lot more imagination and possibly places she'd like to visit or do things." As the demon-hog assumed she'd be more likely able to come to an 'normal' idea that was viable.
Or if nothing else, maybe it would provide a distraction of sorts that would keep them occupied with another matter.
Of course with Ely's temper still raised up and hearing their mumbles, Dan would only shrug his shoulders. "Suit yourself, have a good one." Raising his glass as if to say goodbye in addition before taking another sip, figuring there was no point trying to stop them and risk just making that temper flare up more.
Just let him calm down on his own terms.
#(Ely being a moody teenager? Color me shocked /s)#[a spool]#rxbellinghxrald#!failed experiment#{I assume this is}#[The End]
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yknow what. I wanna say: CSA and COCSA survivors are all incredible, but I also wanna give a shout out to ppl who were exposed to sexual stuff or had any kind of sexual experience as a kid that they either aren't comfortable labelling as or don't consider abuse, but they know it still fucking sucked and shouldnt have happened. Even if that changes later in life and you identify as a victim/surivor, it can be messy to have to imagine those labels applying to the ppl in ur life and that can take time.
The most important thing is to prioritize your recovery + health, and to support other victims + survivors.
#COCSA ment#CSA ment#This is like. V personal and venting (maybe over sharing)#It's. I'm going to be honest recent discussion really brought this back into my brain aaughhh. Not in a bad way necessarily#Just. I know I've had experiences that I think others might label this way and I struggle to really understand that#Beyond the gut feeling of ''it doesnt count'' there's the understand that I might be denying it bc of shame or even just. The fact I have#An internal definition of it that excludes myself. And that I don't want to imagine the other ppl as 'abusive' and I don't think they had#The intent to hurt me. And the fact in one situation I know none of us understood boundaries or consent bc we didn't#Actually talk with adults about what like. Sex and sexuality meant so all out fucking context was porn. And just idk#I have specific experiences but those Memorable Incidents were just part of a larger pattern of me learning Abt sex young#And then failing to get proper sex ed for years. And the internet. And the Fucking Internet#(fanfic is like. Anti sex ed. 70% just the fucking worst shit to internalize 30% ''hey this is actually Okay'')#Sex Ed... Like in school... Needs a fucking HEAVY overhaul but it's still better than nothing usually
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in another life i found you sooner
#my art#messmer the impaler#anihita europa#tarnished oc#elden ring#sote#indulgent au where teenage messmer finds half-braindead teenage ani after she lost her dad and was still recovering alone#a failed saint of the caro clan. and the last of the caro clan. an animal of many shaman meats.#to experience “loss” again was something new she had to develop#and it dented her tender and frail heart very deeply#like sinking a fingernail through the skin of a peach#as a result now when she loves people it happens all at once and it never ever goes away#which is why even though rennala technically betrayed her she still stuck around to be nanny to the carian children#she lacked the ability to deny rennala that request. because once the love is there anihita can't get rid of it#this is a dangerous weakness. this devotion#maybe if messmer had met her while she was healing it wouldnt be this bad. or they wouldve fed into each other's complexes. who knows
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