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Made some genshin edits :3

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it’ll be 2030 and i’ll still be opening ao3 posting dsmp fic btw. the world may forget but i won’t let it. i’ve silenced my fears of this fandom dying by simply deciding to Become the fandom if it ever gets too small. i will be dragged out of this shitty minecraft role play kicking and screaming because you Cannot stop me.

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me with ex dsmp fans on twitter who think they're better than everyone else because they changed interests

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Aroaces need this

Reblog if you believe Tumblr should add the aroace colors to the aroace hastag. Make this a trend to get their attention

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something stressful: happens

our brain: y’know what would make this easier? if we were 14 years old

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my alters have been down lately, so this is for them and anyone else who needs to hear it:

alters whose voices/accents don't present themselves when speaking are valid

alters whose writing looks exactly like the host's writing are valid

perpetrators and persecutors who are nice are valid

alters who get mean, even though they're usually nice, are valid

alters who haven't fronted in forever are valid

alters who front daily are valid

alters who go nonverbal when fronting are valid

you're all valid, and don't let anyone tell you otherwise!

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plural culture is some alters oversharing, while the others refuse to even share their names

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Fizz: Do you or do you not feel bonita? Ozzie: (wearing a face full of clown makeup, and a jester outfit) I feel bonita Fizz: Wonderful! Because you look bonita!

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We have bad persecutors actually.

Plz stop saying every persecutor is trying to help the system. Sometimes they aren't. Sometimes they really are trying to hurt the system or alters within it.

That doesn't mean they should be locked away or anything. But persecutors can be bad people and that's okay.

Disclaimer. Not every system is the same. Don't assume things about systems, don't generalize. This is just our personal experience

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Whenever Technoblade wasn't an anarchist war hero he was the bugs bunny of the dream smp. He hid on a wanted poster of himself. He avoided a death trap by sending skeppy to go in, get exploded off camera and show up covered in ashes until he made it through. He met god and wasted a wish on a bell. Hbomb made him another death trap disguised as a playground and he made it through like it really was one. I am convinced he could have walked out of the prision if he had improvised a dress out of his cape and winked at Sam

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to the alters who split and then never got seen again:

Where tf are you

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.....Okay. Makes perfect sense

Your last used emoji is how your week is gonna go

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Uh oh

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I want so badly to share information about our system to friends but paranoia and past trauma is a bitch.

I feel like we will be judged too heavily for some of our insys dynamics or roles/jobs or sources or idk anything else

i hate how almost every system online has to withhold certain information from others because theres people who are just... fucked up and will take advantage of systems. for christs sake, i cannot even talk about our littles or certain alters due to privacy and safety concerns. we are scared to even open up to our own therapist about certain things. i just want to talk about my system because i love and care for all of them, but people ruin it. it sucks. let systems live. please.

eros 🫀

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Reminder that your local autistic (me) likes alcohol and that's okay

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Please stop infantlizing autistic people

Stop being weirded out when we cuss. Stop being weirded out when we talk about nsfw topics. Stop being weirded out when we are semiverbal or nonverbal.

We can smoke too, we can drink, vape, and cuss and do anything normal people can do. We can have (concented) sexual relationships. We can kiss people. We can have kinks. We can like BDSM or have fetishes. We are not innocent little kids.

Just because we have a disability doesn't mean we aren't people.

Just because we sometimes need to live with someone else doesn't mean we aren't people.

Just because we don't pick up on social clues doesn't mean we aren't people.

STOP INFANTILIZING US. STOP CALLING US INNOCENT. STOP THINKING YOU NEED TO PROTECT US. WE ARE REGULAR PEOPLE TOO.

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I miss when I didn't have schizophrenia.

I recently got diagnosed with it after I had a psychotic break, about 2 years ago, and it's just gotten worse as time goes on.

I'm scared. Currently I don't have visual hallucinations, but I do hear voices arguing and yelling in my head sometimes, and the only thing that quiets them is music, so I'm always listening to something. Whether it's music, a podcast, or a youtube video. Something has gotta be in my ears or the arguing starts. And I'm not talking about headmates. There's a difference, and I can tell. Anyway, I'm scared one day I might develop visual hallucinations, I've seen things before, I've seen bugs crawling on me.

It's also very hard to have a normal job. I am extremely paranoid and I already had an anxiety and panic attack disorder before the schizophrenia diagnosis. I can only work part time due to my other neurodivergencies (autism, anxiety), but now sometimes I can't even go in to work because I'm terrified of my supervisors and i end up having panic attacks. I know nothing will happen, logically, but my brain is paranoid.

Before schizophrenia, I was on a path to success in my life, I was in college handling classes fairly well despite my autism and anxiety, I could handle my job at the same time. Now I could never do both at the same time.

And I'm not saying "omg schizophrenia ruins peoples lives" but it sure does feel like it's ruining mine.