smile-in-my-eyes
WITH GOOD INTENTIONS I LEAD WITH MY HEART
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I see you drinking at a fountain with tiny blue hands, no, your hands are not tiny they are small, and the fountain is in France where you wrote me that last letter and I answered and never heard from you again. you used to write insane poems about ANGELS AND GOD, all in upper case, and you knew famous artists and most of them were your lovers, and I wrote back, it’ all right, go ahead, enter their lives, I’ not jealous because we’ never met. we got close once in New Orleans, one half block, but never met, never touched. so you went with the famous and wrote about the famous, and, of course, what you found out is that the famous are worried about their fame –– not the beautiful young girl in bed with them, who gives them that, and then awakens in the morning to write upper case poems about ANGELS AND GOD. we know God is dead, they’ told us, but listening to you I wasn’ sure. maybe it was the upper case. you were one of the best female poets and I told the publishers, editors, “ her, print her, she’ mad but she’ magic. there’ no lie in her fire.” I loved you like a man loves a woman he never touches, only writes to, keeps little photographs of. I would have loved you more if I had sat in a small room rolling a cigarette and listened to you piss in the bathroom, but that didn’ happen. your letters got sadder. your lovers betrayed you. kid, I wrote back, all lovers betray. it didn’ help. you said you had a crying bench and it was by a bridge and the bridge was over a river and you sat on the crying bench every night and wept for the lovers who had hurt and forgotten you. I wrote back but never heard again. a friend wrote me of your suicide 3 or 4 months after it happened. if I had met you I would probably have been unfair to you or you to me. it was best like this. Charles Bukowski January 19th 2012
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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We brush our teeth ch ch ch ch ch ch ch #raffi #brushyourteeth #cavitiyfree #bestfriendsinthemaking #littlesister #babysister #toddlerboy #bigbro #bigbrother #bundleofjoy #rainbowbaby #lifeafterloss #lifeafterchildloss #lifeafternicu #2inheaven2onearth @thebump #myformerbump @perfectlypreemie @ourlittlepreemie @channelmum #channelmumvillage #babymodel #mygirl #momlife #newarrival #babynumber4 #24weeker #preemielife #gtube #nicugrad #2under3 #siblinglove #bestfriends #twotoddlers https://www.instagram.com/p/B_pjLiNj24E/?igshid=1cbbichb8unp7
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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My little sunshine girl. #blueeyedgirl #flowerchild #sunshine #babygirl #littlesister #babysister #bundleofjoy #rainbowbaby #lifeafterloss #lifeafternicu #family #2inheaven2onearth @thebump #myformerbump @channelmum #channelmumvillage #baby #babymodel #mygirl #momlife @gerber #gerberphotosearch2020 #newarrival #babynumber4 #littleprincess #22andunder #raisingastronggirl #thathairtho #instababy #babiesofinstagram #momsbff #likemotherlikedaughter https://www.instagram.com/p/B_XqENCDBWr/?igshid=t49um9998dy
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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#bliss in such crazy times it's so important to practice #selfcare The first month of #socialdistancing and staying at home I didnt take care of myself emotionally and mentally and my mood really suffered. So grateful to have the martial support to take some moments to myself with a #goodbook This is "Untamed" by Glennon Doyle and speaking as a #woman #mother #wife and a life long #peoplepleaser this book is so #inspirational and #empowering #selfhelp #selfhelpbook #untamed #glennondoyle #book #bookworm #booklover #bookaddict #wastedbook #biography #recommenedread #authour #author #indigoweekend https://www.instagram.com/p/B_V9eBTj3o2/?igshid=pg43cwyv63ou
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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#HoppyEaster 🐰🍫 Maverick and Cosy had a great time searching the patio for treats. Maverick only wanted the red ones and Cosy was favouring the purple ones. I guess the rest are for mom and dad #happyeaster #easter #chocolate #egghunt #easterbunny #bestfriendsinthemaking #littlesister #toddlerboy #bigbrother #bundleofjoy #rainbowbaby #lifeafterloss #lifeafterchildloss #lifeafternicu #2inheaven2onearth @thebump #myformerbump @perfectlypreemie @ourlittlepreemie @channelmum #channelmumvillage #babymodel #mygirl #momlife  #newarrival #babynumber4 #24weeker #preemielife #gtube #nicugrad #siblinglove #bestfriends https://www.instagram.com/p/B-46sVGjAax/?igshid=1sx82posv7nnz
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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#fml I'd like to skip the rest of 2020 please 🖕🏻 #excusemewhileicry #brokenstove #quarantinelife #momlife #kitchenupdate #stove #brokenglass #thiscouldonlyhappentome #nowwhat #sob https://www.instagram.com/p/B-vvI-3jm7I/?igshid=i33613znvqdo
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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Thank you @shannonkorollphotography for the lovely Front Porch Project session, you gave us a reason to get out of pjs. You caught us all tired and happy to see another face. This is hard and mentally draining, we are all bickering more than usual but so grateful to have each other and our health. She along with other local photographers are donating their time and partial proceeds to help our local food banks. Reach out to book your own session. #frontporchproject #supportlocalbusinesses #familyoffour #family #quarantinelife #covid19 #covid19awareness #socialdistancing #selfisolation #staythefuckhome #family https://www.instagram.com/p/B-ruTMODVpd/?igshid=rtlr6guzw5c1
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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Uhm no #drinkinganddriving my dear 🍼 #milkdrunk #gethomesafe #babygirl #littlesister #babysister #bundleofjoy #rainbowbaby #lifeafterloss #lifeafternicu #family #2inheaven2onearth @thebump #myformerbump @channelmum #channelmumvillage #baby #babymodel #mygirl #momlife @gerber #gerberphotosearch2020 #newarrival #babynumber4 #littleprincess #22andunder #raisingastronggirl #thathairtho #instababy #babiesofinstagram #momsbff #likemotherlikedaughter https://www.instagram.com/p/B-qgfB1jIsT/?igshid=1dctpg4p6f983
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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Yes she may be very cranky and a little naughty this morning but I didn't ask her to sit in the corner with her baba. #crankybaby #partyingallnight #mamaneedssleep #babygirl #littlesister #babysister #bundleofjoy #rainbowbaby #lifeafterloss #lifeafternicu #family #2inheaven2onearth @thebump #myformerbump @channelmum #channelmumvillage #baby #babymodel #mygirl #momlife @gerber #gerberphotosearch2020 #newarrival #babynumber4 #littleprincess #22andunder #raisingastronggirl #thathairtho #instababy #babiesofinstagram #momsbff #likemotherlikedaughter https://www.instagram.com/p/B-pT5jODo_F/?igshid=1vwia3x6xwe5h
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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Thank you #frontlineworkers for going to work so we can #stayhome extra big thanks to Auntie @beckyardron 💕💕 #potsandpans #thankyou #covid19 #covid19awareness #staythefuckhome pandemic #socialdistancing #selfisolation #quarantine #quarantinelife #weloveyou https://www.instagram.com/p/B-n_BfTDF_t/?igshid=1lr48ufa6ycxv
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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#pizza #homemade #onions ##mushrooms #peppers #goodeats #foodporn #nomnomnom #thisgirlcancook #foodporn #topchef #getinmybelly #feedmeandtellmeimpretty #foodie #lowcarb #alwayshungry #feedme #ilovetoeat https://www.instagram.com/p/B-Qj4pkD4sB/?igshid=1ethpiiij48gr
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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Keeping with my trend to not post about the #pandemic I present lunch: bacon fried cauliflower rice. #bacon #baconfriedcauliflowerrice #cauliflowerrice #eggs #peas #corn #goodeats #foodporn #nomnomnom #thisgirlcancook #foodporn #topchef #getinmybelly #feedmeandtellmeimpretty #foodie #lowcarb https://www.instagram.com/p/B-PyqU5jDPX/?igshid=1nocpi0kdoz3h
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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This smile is keep us sane and driving us up the wall #socialdistancing #staythefuckhome #myhero #preemie #prematurebaby #rainbowbaby #survivingtwin #24weeker #24weekpreemie #micropreemie #preemiemilestones #preemiepower #nicugrad #nicusurvivor #lifeafternicu #toddlerboy #blueeyedboy #MaverickRikleyArdron #littlefighter #beatingtheodds #MavericksMilestones #gtube #tubie #channelmumvillage @channelmum #myformerbump @thebump @babynewstory @ourlittlepreemie #2inheaven2onearth #toddlerlife #lifewithatoddler https://www.instagram.com/p/B-DwAZxDj62/?igshid=1ccxab4izyjbo
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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I'm not sure who is having more fun, daddy or kids? #selfisolation #socialdistancing #staythefuckhome #bouncyhouse #playoutside #family #familytime #fatherandson #fatheranddaughter #momlife #littlesister #bigbrother #2under3 https://www.instagram.com/p/B-DYeUMD2R7/?igshid=108cc7apimcx5
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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#hazmatsuit on point 👌🏻 #trendsetter #staysafe #staythefuckhome #babygirl #littlesister #babysister #bundleofjoy #rainbowbaby #lifeafterloss #lifeafternicu #family #2inheaven2onearth @thebump #myformerbump @channelmum #channelmumvillage #baby #babymodel #mygirl #momlife @gerber #gerberphotosearch2020 #newarrival #babynumber4 #littleprincess #22andunder #raisingastronggirl #thathairtho #instababy #babiesofinstagram #momsbff #likemotherlikedaughter https://www.instagram.com/p/B-A3jmhj6Gj/?igshid=cmxy79zl4v8s
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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Please keep families like mine as you walk through your daily life #CLD #pneumonia #myhero #preemie #prematurebaby #rainbowbaby #survivingtwin #24weeker #24weekpreemie #micropreemie #preemiemilestones #preemiepower #nicugrad #nicusurvivor #lifeafternicu #toddlerboy #blueeyedboy #biglittleguy #littlefighter #beatingtheodds #CPAP #gtube #gerberphotosearch2020 @gerber #channelmumvillage @channelmum #myformerbump @thebump @babynewstory @ourlittlepreemie #2inheaven2onearth #coronavirus #coronavirusawareness #covid19 #covid19awareness https://www.instagram.com/p/B9zsr2hl4qB/?igshid=yyyxduw52asf
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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And they have discovered #wrestling 💪🏻🤦🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ #fightclub #bestfriendsinthemaking #littlesister #babysister #toddlerboy #bigbro #bigbrother #bundleofjoy #rainbowbaby #lifeafterloss #lifeafterchildloss #lifeafternicu #2inheaven2onearth @thebump #myformerbump @perfectlypreemie @ourlittlepreemie @channelmum #channelmumvillage #babymodel #mygirl #momlife #newarrival #babynumber4 #24weeker #preemielife #gtube #nicugrad #2under2 #siblinglove #bestfriends https://www.instagram.com/p/B9xJ7mClv7T/?igshid=1136qegbrklkj
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smile-in-my-eyes · 5 years ago
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You know what is making me incredibly frustrated? People who are stock piling that are not among the vulnerable. Obviously grab what you need and maybe a spare BUT dont clear the shelves. My son was born at 23 weeks, spent 215 days in the NICU and came home needing BIPAP as he has severe chronic lung disease. Last winter he was hospitalized 6 times for RSV and reoccuring pneumonia complications and had one PICU stay. This winter he has faired better which is what I am holding onto in the event he does contract COVID-19 hopefully it wont kill him or put him in critical condition. He isn't even three and he has been through more medically than most do in a whole lifetime. As for me as a mother I have already lost my first son Rikley 7.5 hours after his preterm birth as well as Maverick's identical twin Matthias 13 days after birth I am not prepared to watch my son suffer in critical condition or worse. This is Maverick last April with RSV complications in Victoria General's PICU. For the majority of the population who come in contact with COVID-19 you will be unwell for a week or two. For my son this or likely worse is what it will do to him. It is ridiculous that I cant find things like tylenol, hand sanitizer or other cleaning products. At the moment we are okay but it's concerning for if things continue to progress as quickly as they are, and I worry for families like ours that don't have any of the those essentials. Please be rational and don't fall into a state of panic. Buy supplies in accordance to need and not in fear. There are families like mine that need these supplies and cant find them. #PICU #CLD #pneumonia #myhero #preemie #prematurebaby #rainbowbaby #survivingtwin #24weeker #24weekpreemie #micropreemie #preemiemilestones #preemiepower #nicugrad #nicusurvivor #lifeafternicu #toddlerboy #blueeyedboy #biglittleguy #littlefighter #beatingtheodds #CPAP #gtube #gerberphotosearch2020 @gerber #channelmumvillage @channelmum #myformerbump @thebump @babynewstory @ourlittlepreemie #2inheaven2onearth #coronavirus #coronavirusawareness #covad19 https://www.instagram.com/p/B9stxiJlIhj/?igshid=4sm3mlzc3mq4
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