#rainbowbaby

[ttc-baby]

HSG Update

HSG is done!! First it was not painful, I was nervous as hell thinking it was going to hurt, and honestly I didn’t feel anything. The worst part was him trying to get my cervix in the right spot and keeping my feet in the stirrup cause the thing kept moving. Now I wasn’t expecting him to tell me anything but he did which I’m glad for. My right tube was great, but my left tube was blocked. So I assume I will be needing surgery to open it up but I’m not 100% on that. I have a follow up with my regular OB in a couple of weeks and she will fill me in on next steps. I am absolutely relieved that they found something and it’s fixable. I was a little emotional about it but in a good way.

[davidwfloydart]

Ignorant, bigoted fucks… #prolifersarehypocrites #prolifersbelike #homosexuality #gaylife #dragshow #rainbowbaby #ignoranceisachoice #bigotrysucks #bigotrykills (at Catalina Foothills, Arizona) https://www.instagram.com/p/CqB3TZ-v-6aCHPVsd5-8Pl_UgVFPq8K9vjAXB80/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[raising-robin]

CD 24 9DPO

I’m 2 days away from AF who could make an appearance. I’m not overly hopeful this month. We’ve not been focused on it. I was away for a big chunk of our fertile window with friends for a much needed break from everything. We did manage to catch ovulation when I got back. So there’s a chance. Normally when I hit his day I’m itching to test but this time I’m kind of thinking I’ll wait till Friday and see if the period turns up and if it doesn’t then I’ll test. But also know come tomorrow I’ll probably take a test and it’s negative then I’ll know my periods coming. There’s always next month which is probably when I’ll actually start tracking again properly.

Guess it’s a wait and see.

[raising-addy]

We are just a few short days from being 10 months! How this year is flying by. You are trying to walk, you have 2 teeth, you’re eating more and more table foods, you love clapping and waving to everyone. I love you with my entirety Addy and I am so blessed to have love you these past few months. I’m still in disbelief that I’m going to soon have a 1 year old 🥰

[clarechiara]

5 Weeks Today • Can no longer fit in the preemie clothes. 😱 • Finally wearing all 0-3 months attires everyone has gifted to him. ❤️ • Fed on demand. Mama's supply can't keep up at this point. 😅 • Survived without #papahulk for a few days. #axelharmantl #lilsupertrooper #rainbowbaby https://www.instagram.com/p/CqR77qTpcwr/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[ratazzana]

Mein Neujahreswunder ist da ✨🌈🎉

[hopemyfamneversees]

Just found out I have a life threatening pregnancy complication. I feel like I have no support because my husband doesn’t want to announce the pregnancy yet because of his insane family. Only two of my friends know.

[noetato]

I'm 29 years old now. Big brother Zidane is almost 10! I find myself coming back here to reread my old posts. A lot has happened this year! But I have a very big surprise... we are finally becoming a family of 4 ❤️ I really didn't expect this at all, but like last time... when I started to lose hope in being able to carry another baby, life just throws another baby. I wonder if my baby came back to me or has my baby sent a sibling for us to love 🩵 This time, it's hard for me to stay positive. My last pregnancy (miscarriage) took a toll on me. I developed a drinking habit... I wasn't super bad, but I noticed myself drinking more often than I usually do. I changed my habits and tried to look out for my health. Then I realized I was late and there it was a positive test!

So far, this pregnancy has got me on my toes. I'm so scared to mess this up. For my body to fail my baby again. Here is how my mind went for each ultrasounds so far :

7 weeks ultrasound : "Please show a beating heart..." Beautiful sound to ever hear and see!

10 weeks ultrasound: "Please still show a healthy growing baby and beating heart..." The cutest wiggly baby everrr!! (This scan was the most scariest scan for me because around week 11 of previous pregnancy (4 years ago), we found out our baby stopped growing at 8 weeks and no heartbeat...)

The doctor recommended taking baby asprin. Just for precaution.

(Pending 20-week anatomy scan) I am nervous and a little scared. I'm trying to be positive!

So far, this is how my pregnancy is going. I think I feel little kicks and moving around, but I'm not 100 percent sure. I'm currently 19 weeks and 5 days. I hope we have our Rainbow 🌈 baby. Here we go 🥰

[dallasphotographer]

Waiting for the miracle after the storm

Maternity photographer in Dallas

[ttc-baby]

March 10th

Today should be one of the happiest days of our lives. We should be giving birth to our precious angel baby, but instead we are here with empty arms and a broken heart. Today will be a rough day for the rest of my life. I pray that one day I will get to hold my babies tight on this day, but for now that seems like just a dream. I can only hope that these next few months bring some clarity to our fertility journey and we can move forward trying for another baby. Until then I’ll mourn the loss of our rainbow baby and be grateful for the opportunities that have been laid before me.

[chasingaprilsrainbow]

Not a Pregnancy Announcement

A year ago this past January, I realized I might be pregnant as I sat on my couch chatting with my mother. I tested negative, but something told me to test again, and I did, for three days on the third day, that is when I got those two pink lines. Those two wonderful pink lines. They were faint, but I figured it could only go up from here right? How wrong I was, I tested the next day just because I couldn't believe it, the lines were more faint, and the next day barely visible. I went to the doctor for blood, and they were barely positive. The following day I started bleeding. Baby boy/girl was my rainbow, and now I had to give him/her back to the universe, where my first angel baby resided. I completely shut my partner out, as a matter of fact, I told him I wanted nothing to do with him anymore, and he didn't understand. In a haste of anger, sadness, and grief I got the Nexplanon put in. I couldn't imagine going through a miscarriage a third time. I just couldn't. Our darling rainbow was due September 13, 2023(based off calculations). And we will love them forever.

This February, I had my Nexplanon removed, and my partner and I are now actively trying to conceive our double rainbow. I will post updates and stories of our journey here as frequently as I remember. It took over a year to be ready to even think of TTC again, but we are ready, with hearts cautious but optimistic. We'll never forget our beloved angel baby. Remember, it is OK to grieve for as long as you need to. Love and baby dust to all!

[raising-robin]

Well I guess I feel like I should post after taking a few days to process my feeling and I’ll be honest wallowing in my bed. I’m not sure how to put into words how I feel now. My rational head knows I’ve been through this before. It’s knows that it took me going through this 2 times before I got my beautiful Robin. But if anything it makes me terrified for the next pregnancy. I keep telling myself that it’s time to take a break and to go to the doctors and get some tests done to see if there is anything stopping me from being able to carry a pregnancy. Because it’s not getting pregnant that is the issue. It’s staying pregnant. So clearly there is something else going on. But the idea of stopping and having to wait even longer for that baby just makes me hurt more. I want a baby and I don’t want to have to wait months for tests that could tell me nothing. But at the same time I’m terrified to go through this again. Although this was the earliest I’ve miscarried any of my pregnancies so there may have been other reasons for it. I know that it may not be that simple. Some days I look at robin and think I could be that mum that is lucky enough to just have the one child. I love him like nothing else. He is the reason why I got out of bed every day and carried on. Because I couldn’t not look after him. He was also the one that reminded me how amazing it is the have a child. To have a little person that even when you feel the lowest you have ever felt can bring a smile to your face. He reminds me why I am willing to go through all this again. He is my rainbow baby. The light after the storm that threatened to take me under. So I know this pain and grief is worth it if it means I get another child. But I also know I should be greatful for the child I was lucky enough to have. And if that is all I get I should be happy with it. But I know a part of me will always long for another child. I’m not done.

I will make a dr appointment as soon as I can and just ask for a blood test. Hopefully it’s something simple and easy to fix. But I won’t be stopping trying. It’s what I’ve agreed with and then if I do end up pregnant again I will go straight to the doctors and hope that they’ll keep a close eye on me. I know there’s nothing they can do if I miscarry early again before 7 weeks. But maybe they’ll at least do blood tests to make sure all my levels are good. I don’t know. I just can’t lose the hope that I’ll have the chance to have another baby. Because I’m pretty sure I will never full recover from that.

Today I’m greatful for my child and the love he shows me everyday. And I will hold onto that.

[hopemyfamneversees]

They very helpfully failed to mention in the labor and delivery class how fucking painful induction can be. They said discomfort.

Bitch, I blacked out twice from the pain of the cervical balloon and that was with nitrous. It hurt more than my 7.5 pound baby tearing a two and a half inch hole in my vagina and perineal wall.

That is not discomfort. Discomfort is a hang nail. That was agony.

the thing is like. i get that it's scary and makes people who do desire to get pregnant uncomfortable when we talk about the brutality and violence of pregnancy and the damage that pregnancy can do to your body

but you deserve to give informed consent to that process.

the lies around pregnancy - that it's inherently safe, that it doesn't do you permanent damage, that it's only extremely rare for people to die of pregnancy complications, etc like

all of these are lies constructed so that more people will get pregnant w/o knowing all that

there needs to be more talk about the impact of miscarriages and how common they are, how different abortion processes are and how accessible they are

but also like. talking about how pregnancy fucks your body up should not be taboo

this is a process that permanently changes most people's bodies, and that's even if the pregnancy doesn't do them like. severe illness or injury

and i just think everybody should have a right to KNOW that

bc to live in a society that intentionally obscures and hides facts about a completely optional and dangerous process does so for a reason, and that reason is based in a very sinister ideology that does not value bodily autonomy or informed consent

[marriedkitten420]

Found out on 11/11 that Daddy and I will be having our rainbow🌈baby👶this summer!!😍🙏💜

Daddy and I always say "11:11 I love you" and our 🌈👶 was brought to us on 11/11💜 Thank the above guides for this absolute miracle 😍😍😍😭😭😭

I needed to post somewhere because no one knows me here 💜 hehe

[livingwiththedevill]

With another shedding of my lining every month comes the trauma of loosing my babies and feeling unworthy to have my children here with me. A reminder that every month I have not conceived. A reminder that the road to motherhood for me will always be traumatic. I question is it for me ? Or maybe god has already decided it isn’t. I grasp onto the thought that the next month won’t be the same…

Another shedding, another day.

[linalotus]

finding my old maternity clothes from my last pregnancy is so bitter … sweet.