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[plut05ecrets]

I'm trying to push forward

But Pluto brings me backward

Reliving all the past so

I can have something to sing about

I'm sick of all this pain

I'm done with feeling shame

Can't even look at my own face

Without feeling out of place

They say it's part of the plan

I'm losing my grip my hands

Are calloused and bruised I stand

Between the devil and the man

I wanna run away

All these retrogrades

Chasing me to face my shadow again

Please.

I'm searching for some closure

To finish up the chapter

2020s a disaster

I wait to rise upon the ashes

These wounds bleed from the inside out

It feels like my insides are spilling out

Why would you do this to me ?

I did this to myself

As reckless as I was ,feels I deserve to go to hell

Seems I've already been there though

I'll forgive you I guess

That's something I can barely do for myself I'm such a mess

I had a vision of myself

And I was hurting again

I was brought back to the times where I was burning my wrists

And I was cutting my thigh

I remember you were the guy

That I told and you lied

Saying it's safe to confide

How much time must I give

To heal these wounds I covered up for you to open again

How must time until it

No longer haunts me til the morning I guess i have some regrets

To face

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I want to know that

In the end

It was worth it to feel all this pain

I want to know that I can take any emotion and

Turn it into something beautiful

That I am not another body

Wasted

Scrubbing the fingerprints off my skin

Burning sigils into my thighs

Hoping to start over

Again

I'm tearing off my flesh.

And these parts of me I can reclaim

As my own

I devour endless chunks

Of myself

Praying it'll plant a seed

Deep within the void

Where my heart once was

Hoping I can swallow what's left of you

I want to know that in the end

It was worth it to feel all this pain

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i legit spent like 3 hours filling in that fuCKing space part omg

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“I have loved you for a thousand decades, and I’ll love you for infinite years to come. The hope of holding you again gets me through the loveless lifetimes where pain, heartache, and rebirth steal my memories of you. Always coming back to the faith that love conquers time and space. You, my love, are the moon and I the starry skies. We will always find each other across the divide.”

— unknown

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I remember the nights we would

Bow down to eachother;

And let the flames beneath our skin burn down the walls we build around our hearts

I felt something within me awaken

And it got me thinking , maybe i do love it when I attract broken people

Because nothing is more sacred to me than watching flowers bloom in the desert

And weeds that grow wherever they want ;

Plant seeds wherever they want

Mars , you were so so full of passion

Bleeding through every note you'd play

Dancing in the stars with you felt so raw to me

And humming lullabies to eachothers heartbeats

Why did it have to burn?

Do you even remember the nights we would bow down to eachother;

And let the flames beneath our skin burn down the walls we build around our hearts?

-L

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I was welcoming pain with open arms

But cringing at the sight of anything beautiful

That goes to show how I really felt about myself

-L

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I said ,

Darling ,

I wouldn't be mad

If you made it rain

In fact , I'd cry with you

And feel your pain

I'd pull out my guitar

And accompany your song

Cause when the clouds shed their tears

I know you're singing along

-L

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I find myself wondering

If they will only remember me

By the parts of myself

Perfectly constructed

To please them.

-L

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My feelings literally make me wanna do a backflip out da window how do I uninstall bpd because how tf is someone gonna ever put up with me

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The sky

Has clouded

Over

And now

I am

Blind

-L