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mtvhoods · 2 years ago

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#i find myself begging for u to let me back in #all i want is for july to be there again #but it wont be no matter how hard i try and thats okay #but some nights like this i just want us ti be okay #go on a drive n get food #its so lonely without u #like i dont even know why #but u meant so much to me but ik i cant let u back in either #so here we are yknow

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mtvhoods · 2 years ago

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wah

#mariel shitposts hehe #hardest part of losing someone who knew u to ur core #is that they know exactl6 #where to stab u #i feel like my organs are rotting from the inside #i feel myself changing n locking everything up #im never letting anyone in like this again

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mtvhoods · 2 years ago

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getting to know my mutuals and followers: if you had to sing karaoke on the spot RIGHT NOW what would your go to song be

#love keyshia cole or chasing pavements adele

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mtvhoods · 3 years ago

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boyf took me to 5sos for my bday today 🥺

#also the way that 5sos transitions are getting more n more like rave transitions into songs #hella gave porter vibes LMAO #loved the show hehe #also ik i need to put my foundation down to my pale ass chest WAAAH i was in car n i didnt wanna get my fit dirty

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mtvhoods · 3 years ago

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#turning 21 is so sad when ur bday is in the summer n everyone is out of town #and no one is free #and it feels so lonely bc u were there for everyone else's bdays and they were all so loved #but on ur bday ppl are gone #n theres so much hype around a 21st bday like u only turn 21 once #and i am so sad bc i am gonna spend it v lowkey #when i want to throw like a HUGE ASS KICKBACK #but everyone is fuckin busy #n like :( it sucks bc i cant ever have a surprise bday bc its in the summer n i work like most days of the week so i literally have to call #days off whenever i have plans #esp bc i get off work at 1030 in a different city so id either get #to my hometown/neighborhood at 11 or #to my apt in my college city at like 1145/midnight #like :( nothing works

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mtvhoods · 3 years ago

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Boy I sure do love that one smart ass, charming, criminal, brunette guy from that one animated movie about an 18 year old female protagonist with an animal sidekick, who after an unexpected introduction, helps her escape from her current situation and the two go on a high stakes adventure, both saving each other numerous times and singing songs, and then discover she’s a long lost princess and slowly fall in love

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mtvhoods · 3 years ago

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I’m at 3

#1 #LMAO miss me w the cottage cheese

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mtvhoods · 3 years ago

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#mariel shitposts hehe #but to conclude my shitty week from a min ago #i have decided that distance is good #and that the healing of my issues w friendships isnt smth one person can fix #my bf doesnt realize rhat i cant rely on him for everything #and that just my best friend isnt enough sometimes in that way #my bf takes me grieving what coulda been for my friendship w someone else v personally #like he takes it as i dont think hes enough #but no i needed the person i found bc of this issue i have w friendships #and now bc of everyone else’s interpretations of my friendship i needed to distance #its to the point he doesnt even talk to me anymore #n its fine im fine in general but like ya sucks bc i got my hopes up #only to be disappointed again

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mtvhoods · 3 years ago

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odd time

#i hope all the bonds i formed w my guy friend goes away #i have such deep rooted issues with friendships not working out that i naturally never expect them to anymore #and i think with him i actually saw us being best friends as like smth i can rely on #but no ppl took it the wrong way and decided that i was overstepping boundaries #in a relationship that theyre not apart of #when my bf literally understands that me n him are just friends #u ever feel like someone knows everything abt u n u know everything abt them #n u know how to care for each other n be there for each other #i finally felt that w one person and it has now blown up in my face

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mtvhoods · 3 years ago

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#finding the male version of u n being terrified that ur friendship will fall apart one day #im literally in friend love w them n its like so scary bc my last guy best friend n i crashed n burned #but ya idk we both do the most for each other #and hes v thoughtful with all of my fears n my allergy??#my own bf has given me an aloe grape vape #but my best friend goes out of his way to blow it in the opposite direction #n i realized that ive been taking care of his dumb ass since the second we started pledging #like there was only one other friend that i felt fated to #n now im realizing no i was meant to meet this dude bc i feel like hes helping me in ways n im helping him be more confident and outgoing #love him hehe

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mtvhoods · 3 years ago

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#bitch howd i never know that the 16th ave steps GLOWED at night...#bye this is now a date night activity #i WILL see this irl omg me so excite #also the last time i went there was a swing at the top #idk if sf removed it bc they remove everything fun but AHAH

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mtvhoods · 3 years ago

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mtvhoods · 3 years ago

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needing somewhere to rant and talk about this bc i am so sad rn. if u have ur life somewhat together and can offer some advice, please help me

im a nursing student entering my second semester of my junior year of college, and i genuinely have no faith in myself being a good nurse. i genuinely dont even know if this is for me, i just know my family is good at it as most of us are nurses. i chose this bc this seemed like an easy route with a solid job lined up as soon as i get out of college. and the money is so so so sexy. but nursing school is so hard, i have no real clinical experience other than psych/mental health rotation bc of covid and my first actual clinical experience will be this semester in advanced med-surg (basically HARD ASS SHIT). and everyone else in this program seems to know what theyre doing and im terrified to interact w patients in a way, bc im just an awkward person. my dream in life is to open up a boba-bakery once im done with nursing as a career. i have 4 years of boba experience now and ive been baking all my life, but its not a solid career and i would have 0 idea on how to start it. but i genuinely don’t know if i will be good at anything else and i genuinely don’t know if im cut out for nursing. how will i get through this semester when i don’t even know how to do a hospital bed corner or how to turn a patient??? like how ??

also: i took a lot of e my senior year of hs and my freshman year of college and like in 2021 as well (not as much this year but def more than i should). i rolled like once a month or every other month in 2019. and i rolled like 4 times in 2021. and i genuinely feel so stupid like the brain cells are gone im so forgetful and i dont know what to do bc i genuinely think i have become stupid bc of this. im not actually an idiot in school but like im just mad forgetful and things take a second to process idk i feel like i am dealing with many substance use disorders and i wish i never got myself into e or nic. i dont think im ever gonna roll again, just dirty rolling for me from now on but still, the repurcussions on my brain cells is quite bad rn

i just dont know what to do w my life and i dont know how to go abt anything anymore. the only solid things in my life are my friends and my family and i dont want to disappoint any of them if i dont turn out the way i shouldve

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mtvhoods · 3 years ago

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