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Finding Your True Self in the Quantum Field - A Personal Log (Timeless)

This is just something personal that I had to log here, you don’t actually have to read this one if you’ve been to the post that came before this. Again, I mostly write stuff for myself, in the event that I need a reminder, a refresher on how much I have grown and still need to grow into. It’s hard to be my own cheerleader but at least, even for a bit, I am now getting a hang of this awakening and ascension thingy. Sure, it’s still a welcome idea to receive feedback or good vibes from others, but I am all about empowerment, and doing that by yourself, for yourself, is simply the expression of the greatest love of all: Learning to love yourself.

Alrighty then, personal explicit sh** after the cut. Jump at  your own risk, I am not liable if this post triggers you lol

And if you’re still reading this, it’s all on you lol

I gave plenty of warnings that this is pretty much raw, unstructured and full of cussing so don’t complain or go tl;dr or so help me glob arrrgh

OK now that’s out of the way...

I initially felt a strong need to make this post actually, not make the previous post about quantum jumping. But hey, the universe works in mysterious ways, so maybe that one can reach out to those who actually needed a new lease in life. And now that I’ve written that one, it’s time to let this one out. For myself, should I lose my way again, and maybe for other people who are still feeling trapped in this annoying AF 3D reality full of anger, fear, pain, worry, disease, and all the low vibrational crap that actually, are being released and healed out of the mass consciousness.

I’m not operating on an egoistic standpoint here, I mean, really, I have no right to tell people what to do or how they should feel, they’re already of legal age, I’m just here to give suggestions, alternate ways of thinking, really crazy ideas that might just give the appropriate results. Or just simply tickle the imaginations of people, at the very least. Other than that, I am only here to bring forth the love from the universe, the infinte realm of all possibilities, the energies channeling from the quantum fields that cross all boundaries of time, space, dimensions, realities, timelines, lifetimes, and all that razzmatazz lol

But even though I lol at that, to be honest, I was not in the best place in my life, for quite a while, since the year started. Yeah, sure, I did my best at distracting myself, escaping what needs to be done, and by the middle of April I felt even worse than last year, to think I thought that the worst parts of my life was over... Here comes PANDEMIC-CHAN.. Sheesh.. 

Well, that lead to more contractions, more depressive states, darker thoughts aka wanting to escape the physical body... And I haven’t even started with the material stuff yet. Let’s just say that this year’s Dark Night of the Soul has also merged with the fears in the collective. I had to hold so much, not just mine, but everyone else’s. So again, I started escaping, but this time with the intent to increase my vibrations to attract something substantial and material in my life. I was really, really on the edge, and hunger was looming over my head. I didn’t want to get hungry, that brings back so much pain from the past, I didn’t just felt deprived of love and warmth, I was hungry a lot, as a child, and I have yet to heal that part of myself completely. Plus the fact that I got even further derailed from what I was supposed to be doing aka the spiritual ascension thingy stuff..

But I told myself that maybe, this time around, I have to let the universe help me, to be the receiver of gifts. This was one hard decision I had trouble letting go of: FEAR OF THE UNKNOWN. If I could only believe that the unknown bears more gifts, maybe I could have opened myself to better opportunities, more choices, more love... But no, I just kept distracting myself, in any way that I can. I was a dumbass, all the way until something knocked me off of that trajectory.

For some weird reason, despite the heat, I was called to do something random:

Collecting flowers from the yard. Just one type though, a weird hibiscus flower that blooms yellow in the morning until noon, then becomes orange and finally red in the late afternoon. This was around the middle of April, and my back pain was back in full swing, the flareup was incredible but since I’m fully aware of what it was, I figured out that I just needed an outlet for all that pent-up energy. And slowly but surely, my back pain started becoming bearable, I could stoop down and pick the tiny flowers, plop them in a little bowl, and add that to my quarters.

Sure, it wasn’t much, but with each day that I did it, something amazing happened for me.

I began reconnecting with nature, in a way that felt like I was a toddler again. Dragonflies started popping up, butterflies started stopping by my passionflower vines (RIP that plant, it died due to a fungal pathogen T_T), I started getting attuned to my dogs again, and somehow, I started cultivating a sense of peace.

It was that moment when I realized that... After all this time, I always had a choice on how to be happy. And even though I was in a lot of 3D problems, I still had a choice, to be happy with even the smallest of things. So I figured out, if I can’t be happy with the large stuff, I’ll just be happy and grateful for what I have. A roof over my head, food to eat, pets to love, friends that actually keep in touch even once a year, internet connection, and getting to eat junk food even once a week. For some people these may sound mundane, but looking back, me being in a depressive state and doing my best to enjoy these things, in a way, I was able to get some sort of happiness in my life. I mean, sure, I could do with more stuff but with whatver I had in that moment, I just did my best to relish everything.

It felt weird and it was out of my comfort zone. I constantly wanted to seek thrills, new experiences, all the stuff I wanted in my misspent youth. Yet here I was, gathering flowers in the evenings, looking at the stars at night, and getting tiny heartquakes seeing a shooting star slice through the night sky. I give zero fucks for sounding dramatic there, but honestly, I was already at the point of no return. 

I suddenly had the strong urge to be my truest self. Including the parts that I had to suppress because other people didn’t like them.

That includes the dramatic, overly-emotional piece of yandere shit that sent my ex off flying. Too bad for him though, he thought I was a tsun-tsun(dere) for a long time, and now that I think about it, the disgusted and disappointed look on his face when he realized and told me I wasn’t tsun-tsun, I was a fucking yandere, bwahahaha that just hit the nail on the coffin for me. We weren’t meant to be together for so long. I wasn’t the tsun-tsun aloof and cold-hearted merciless girl I tried to be for the world, I was a weakass bitch, a bulldozer that ran over anything that stood in my way, an insecure moron who readily gives in to emotions which, I later found out was just my natural tendency to be empathic towards other people, so in a way, my psychic senses were still functioning properly despite all that anxiety that was running through my veins.

Speaking of psychic, I wasn’t even aware that I still had my gifts. I just thought that reading the pasts of people were normal and then blurting them out randomly was a fun way of breaking the ice with strangers. But after having to do that again, in various settings, with different people, I just had to accept that what I thought were psychic gifts, the normal stuff that mass media shows to the public, were not what I thought they would be. I got the subtle-ended stick, no seeing of spirits with my actual eyes, rather, I was feeling the deemahns of other people. I was seeing them for who they truly are, without filter, and I was just acting out accordingly. So whether I rubbed them the right or wrong way, either way, it was a way of uncovering the layers of masks that they wore, until they finally show their truest selves without any hesitation.

This made me feel like I was born to be an agent of chaos, which shouldn’t be a bad thing since chaos is an actual entity: it’s the darkness where everything comes from, the void of the unknown, the endless realm of all possibilities, which does not follow any kind of order known to man whatsoever. The cradle of everything that ever was, and ever shall be.

I still feel horrible for doing so, but at the same time I have also come to accept that at some point, people should just live their lives in their best truth, to be who they are, and even if I was able to allow people to be who they truly are and accept them as is, I was very stingy with myself.

And after that, I started getting angry again. With myself, with the universe, with the higher realms.

I was still, and yet have to get my own breakthrough. I was still feeling cooped up, constricted, choked up, my heartsong was still left unsung. But then again, I HAD ABSOLUTELY NO IDEA WHAT THE FUCK THAT WAS.

Why am I even here at this point?

I’m not here to just watch people succeed. I deserve that shit for myself too, damn it.

And, well, the need to get somewhere, anywhere became super strong. I came back to doing what I thought I did well at: Studying lol But really, I started reviewing my N4 materials, and after several months of just staring at them, I just tried studying, reviewing, with the intent to regain the skills I lost due to life happening for me. I finally understood more from the notes. What I learned felt a lot more rich, I wasn’t just cramming to pass an exam, I was learning this language, with the hopes that I could not only talk to other people, but to bring out the gifts of these people out into the world.

I don’t give a fuck if the fetuses would call me weeb at this point, do I look like I even care? They can’t shame me out of existence, the boomers never could in the past, so why would I even let these future boomer 2.0′s do that to me? I was trained to be bold and shameless for such a purpose lol

Well not all of them are like that, but some are just so judgmental so I had to put that wall up. Mostly to assert my rights to be what I want to be, it’s not like I kill or hurt people living this kind of life. 

So again... Moving back to the topic of finding myself in the quantum field...

I started re-living my life when I was still taking Japanese language classes.. I didn’t just enjoyed and engaged with the learning process, I also found valuable lessons with my classmates. Turns out that as long as I KNOW I can, I don’t mind doing something alone. Some people just die even thinking of doing a solo hobby, and here I was, opening up to something that I haven’t done before: go to a class where I didn’t know anybody. I ended up enjoying that journey, like literally I had to take a 5-hour bus ride one way just to go to that 3-hour class, then go home again, so I basically travelled a total of 10 hours, once a week, for 6 months.

That gave me just enough energy to properly study my old material. I got to relearn things that I have forgotten, and that gave me a sense of accomplishment. So I started translating in... Japanese livestream chatboxes. A thankless job, which I did to improve my listening skills. Turns out I ended up in mostly Kansai-dialect streams, so not only did I became sensitive to differences in inflections but also in conjugations of verbs and whatnot. That was a fleeting yet memorable experience, and the only thing that made me stop was getting tired all the time lol

So after about 2 months I stopped doing it, though I still watch raw stuff every now and then to brush up, and I focused mostly on translating texts, because Kanji scares the shit out of me. I mean, that has been my waterloo ever since I discovered the SKIP method some 17 years ago. So my next focus was to learn as much Kanji as I could, even just the basic meaning of each one. In a way, bit by bit, I started building up the skills I needed to properly translate texts. I guess it went OK, so I was able to build up my comprehension skills from 20% to about 50%. Not bad, just enough to enjoy raw texts.

I just kept this momentum of following what I instinctly wanted to do, and I know that it has served me well as a child, so I figured maybe I can make that work for me. In the weirdest of ways, it did. I suddenly felt that I could at least see some chances for me to get someplace, wherever that was. Even though the road seems bleak, I could see something far beyond, and that helped me get up each day, even though I was dead-tired all the time.

By the time that June has ended, I felt like I lived yet another lifetime doing stuff I didn’t know I could do. I think it was also around that time that I started gaining confidence on going online in Tetris 99, and getting to at least top 20 consistently, even though I could only do Tetris clears and making T-spins was such a bitch lol Say what you want to say, but I don’t like straining my eyes so me choosing to start playing something like that, I guess I felt a bit better about myself. I didn’t learn the whole thing as fast as I wanted to be, and I have yet to get Tetris Maximus in Invictus Mode because I kept dying at #2 but the fact that I actually built some sort of self-confidence that I can learn something new, it felt refreshing for me. Maybe next year I’d have more confidence with Super Smash Bros lol just kidding that game hurt my eyes so much I don’t know if I can, right now. My eyes are very important to me so I do my best to take care of them. Also they don’t have Pancake boi in there bahahaha

When July came around, everything felt like a blur. I was doing so much stuff at the same time, I was just in a flurry with everything, and I was becoming more hopeful despite the COVID stats on the news. Well, I do have a background on epidemiology so I didn’t panic much. I did my best to send Reiki though, even though I felt dead-tired and drained a lot. I just opened up to the infinite realms, and at that time, I had no idea it was the right moment to do that. Turns out that there has been a great Karmic release around July, so all of the excess baggage that needs to be freed were coming up to the surface. My abandonment issues kept popping up so I went from there, and I felt the heavens open up.

Yeah, sure, there were days I kept crying while doing active meditations but I did my best to clear as much as I can at the time. It felt amazing when I was able to release that much suppressed shit in my body. My stomach started feeling better, I improved my breathing, and I saw that my face was becoming more and more relaxed. I’d even do finger guns in front of the mirror because I was feeling myself a lot. My depressed and insecure self could have been so appalled that it shut up lol but I was in the zone, I never felt so alive and free. Yet I was still stumpy, squishy, soft and rounded on the outside. In the eyes of society, I was still undesirable, an outlier to what is deemed “beautiful”. But I was already at a point where I just don’t care anymore, I’m beautiful no matter what, so suck it, society lol

This lead to more weird events, the best and weirdest so far was channeling my departed friends. Ghost month was about to set in but I totally forgot about that, so it felt weird when I started seeing the smiling faces of my friends. Except for that one who rarely did, we always argued about anything else other than work or tasks when he was still alive. But ever since he joined my spiritual team, he has always been frowning, always, for 17 years. He was aloof, he stayed away from me. He always wore that sad look on his face, the last day I saw him alive. I thought he should have been happy, he has a pretty girl beside him that seemed to be so glad and stuff. But his reaction when he saw me happily skipping like the dumbass that I was, it was very unnerving, and to this day it still haunts me like hell. Sometime after that, I was talking to my “twin brother” (we were both born on the same day and year lol) and he subtly hinted something about that other dude, that he hates me or something. Again, I felt unsettled because despite the fact that twin bro was normally honest about things, he kept this one to himself. Of course, I didn’t ask what it was about, I just sniffed the air and knew what it was. I hated what info came through and just denied that shit all the way through.

The information that came then, was the same one that the departed dude started yelling at me, and I didn’t expect it. I was having fun with the other dead peeps lol and at some point this guy just blurted out stuff, that I was meant to know when he was still alive. I feel horrified, because I didn’t want to know those things. But no, he just had to say it out loud. Aside from other stuff that he didn’t dare admit when he was still alive, he didn’t want me to get together with that other guy, who is now my ex. From the other side of the veil, he has been giving me signs, not to fall for this guy. He was steering me off-course, but to no avail. I wasn’t the best thinker at that time, I was insecure about myself, I was pretending to be someone else, and because like attracts like, I ended up with someone who as also pretending to be someone else. That shit was so messed up but now that I think about it, I still exercised my free will, and part of that was actually Karmic so maybe that’s one reason why despite the warnings, I went ahead. I had no regrets now, even though that entire relationship has yet to be cleared out of my body. But at least I have so much hope now, knowing that my dearly departed peeps are just over there, eating my junk food and plopping on my bed along with my guides. And also, I have more hope than ever before that in this lifetime, I’ll find my true north node partner, even though the thought of getting into a relationship and getting married to that guy still scares the shit out of me. I’m just opening myself up to the heavens, to the divine realms, to the infinite possibility fields of the quantum universe. Where time does not exist.

I guess my strangest breakthrough was the eve that Ghost month was going to end. I was at my lowest, I was feeling so much pain, because I caused pain to someone else. It was a heartbreak on a soul level, and words just couldn’t describe the pain that I felt, and how much pain I caused to this person. That part was my own undoing, and I do not expect that person to ever forgive me for being brash and overly-bulldozing. I was really, really doing my best to stay together, at that point. I was losing grip, starting to fall back on the dark thoughts, and yet somehow, I did one thing different:

I dared the universe to show me how much I was loved, how much I was worthy, to give back to me all of the love that I ever put forth ten fold, a hundred fold, a million fold, to make me feel that I am so deserving of all the gifts and blessings of the divine realms. I just needed one step, one instruction on what to do.

It wasn’t much, I just needed to listen to the radio for an hour. OK, cool, I have been doing that a lot for a while now. So listen to the radio I did. And then, it felt like a chilling breeze, I felt so much energetic surge, it was so surreal. I felt so much love, energetic hugs, I felt I was being squished and I was loving it. Mind you, I was just lying down and listening to songs, but it felt so real, I don’t know how to react, so I just gave in. And then, flashes of my life living at the foot of a dormant volcano started popping up. It didn’t even include living with the ex, it was the sum total of all the times I ever gave away my love, and me receiving that love in so many ways, shapes, and forms. I felt ecstatic. For an entire hour, the dense energies of regret and sorrow got flushed out of me. I felt even more hopeful, more tingly, more giddy, it was definitely something new. 

I was still on a high for about an hour more after that experience. Sure, I still had vivid dreams, and my sleep was still insufficient, but I had enough energy to wake up still feeling so much joy, despite the fact that I did stupid things. I felt no regret, I felt so clear, I felt that I was being my authentic self. And that was so unsettling, I was used to the dark, of feeling like an endless pit full of sorrow and pain, yet less than half of that remains. I don’t know what came over me, and weirdly, my departed peeps started cooling down. Due to Ghost month ending? Me getting a breakthrough somehow? I really don’t know but they seem to be in good shape despite decreasing the racket lol

I wanted more of this nice stuff so I asked the universe how to make more similar experiences. I was told to do the same thing, just listen to the radio, but this time choose what songs I wanted to hear. So I did, I wanted to feel pretty, wanted, loved, cuddled, all that disgustingly-gooey romantic crap that I never got to have because I kept denying to myself that I love that trash. But now that I have fully accepted that gooey, icky, yandere-dere part of me, the energy that coursed through me was really strong, I felt that the energetic hug got so tight I thought my soul was gonna pop out. But no, it didn’t. I got maxed out with the tingles though lol

And this part where I deliberately chose what to listen to became rather amusing yesterday. I was tuning in to one radio station as I was sending Hooponopono to the friend that I caused pain to, to help clear the energies off, and then flashes of my miraculous encounters when I watched Goo Goo Dolls live three years ago started popping up in my head. All of a sudden, this song came up on the radio and I had a laugh. It wasn’t my absolute fave, but it was a classic. Three songs and two stations later, I switched and lo and behold, this song came up again. I was like what the fuck is this lololol It was like the universe was telling me what I was thinking exactly and I lol-ed more.

I had that much mindless fun in the afternoon, and I was about to let that whole incident slide, and I would have if this song didn’t came up on the radio again later in the night, yet another station. It shook me deep inside, and I asked the universe, is this mine or someone else’s? The answer is yet to be known. And however the answer comes to me, I am scared of whichever way that goes.

I wish I could say that these were all just stuff in my head, but they weren’t. Even more so when I had the same stuff happen, consecutively, with yet another song. I felt even more uncomfortable, and it doesn’t help that my forehead starts feeling cold despite my thick bangs covering most of it. I’m scared, but at the same time, I am still doing my best in opening up to the infinite realms of the universe. And still willing to receive the energetic hugs, headpats, and cheek pinches from the quantum field. That doesn’t calm down the nerves though lol but hey, at least I know where to get the stuff to fill my needs, even if it’s just a day at a time. I don’t know where I’ll go to from here, but at least I now have an idea on how to move forward, one way or another, and for that, I am truly grateful.

I used to think that I was cursed to be slow in manifesting what I wanted in all areas of life, but when I started dealing with these energies from the quantum field, it was uncannily fast. This was the proof that I needed to tell myself that I had that power within me, to remind myself of who I was. I was a being of pure love from Source, who came here to channel the unconditional love from the cradle of life towards those who needed it the most.

And I’m writing this to remind myself through the passage of time, that even though right now, I have less than what I would want myself to be, I am counting on the fact that because I am still within the field of infinite possibilities, I am worthy enough to be and have whatever I wanted. I just need to go home, back to who I really am, and owning that part of myself because I am worth it.

Lastly, I write this for everyone who feels like they’re losing their way, because it’s easy to forget where we needed to go. Please know this: There’s no right or wrong way to live your life, just be who you are meant to be, and live that kind of life without hurting any other, including yourself. You were placed on this planet to bring miracles to an otherwise desolate piece of rock, and you deserve all the magic that the universe holds for you.

You are loved, so much more than you can imagine, and it’s time to tap into that birth right we were all meant to have.

Love and hugs, fam.

[mikazukikannagisjourney]

Finding what you truly need: Quantum Field-tripping - A Spiritual Log Post (Timeless)

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Abstract: Are you pushed back into a corner? Does it feel that the walls are closing in? Is there anything else to do in this life other than suffering? Honestly I don’t know, but for me, at some point, I have come to accept some things that my logical mind couldn’t explain but nevertheless just took it as a sign to continue living differently, from my own programming. Due to the timeless and etherial nature of life, including us humans, I would like to present the idea that everything is simultaneously happening right now, in all realms of existence, across all time, space, dimensions, and realities, and that at some point, what you need, what you’re doing your best to find, especially answers that eluded you or scenarios that you desperately wanted to have but just seem to keep slipping off your hands. What if I told you that everything you could ever need has always been with you, and by accepting that reality whole-heartedly, it can certainly change your life in ways outside of what you can already imagine... Will you choose to take on that idea and play with it?

Introduction

Escape has always been the best thing that ever got invented. When we escape, we feel powerful, we feel like we can do anything, we become more gutsy, more fearless, more peaceful, more or less we feel less stressed. Just think of all the ways that you can escape: escaping from your crappy job, escaping from a dysfunctional home, escaping from a failed relationship, escaping from reality, escaping from the worries of the mind, escaping from the pains of the physical body... Whatever kind of escape you want, there’s probably something that exists just for you. And now, more than ever, the world-wide pandemic has created so much chaos in the real world as well as in the minds of people, that people just wanted to escape, in all ways, shapes, and forms.

I am not immune to that. I mean, seriously right now if I get a chance to go to the Pacific Ocean without thinking about the consequences of such an action, I WOULD DO IT IN A HEARTBEAT. I have been cooped up in this house since mid-February and what would I do to go to the beach, to the mountain, to my beloved university sitting at the foot of a dormant volcano, visit the people that I love... Even if there’s a high chance of me dying or getting killed one way or another due to this process, as long as I can ESCAPE I will fricken do that. I just feel so contracted right now, it feels so suffocating, I am just like a pimple that needs to be popped in order to feel the sweet release from pain and suffering. To put it in emotional terms. Otherwise the cold version would be I’M SOOOO BORED I WANNA DO SOMETHING ELSE, ELSEWHERE.

If you get what I mean, thanks for feeling me where I’m at. Or rather, where I was before I did something radical, again.

Because frankly, I may have stumbled into something that could change not just my life, but yours as well.

Are you interested fam? If you are, please do read on. =) I’m so stoked for this!

Why I got into this whole quantum jumping thing

OK, so short introduction as to why I am so overly excited to share this information.

There was a time in my life when I was physically incapacitated, I couldn’t walk, I was in extreme pain, and even in my dreams the pain was unbearable. It was the ONLY time I ever got confined to a hospital, due to extreme shooting pains that not only make walking or standing up painful AF but also it turns off my ability to even use my legs and feet to stand up, like zero power to use legs plus worst pain ever. If hell can be described to a point, that was my own personal hell. It was worse than when I got ghosted and dumped, worse when my salaries were witheld from me and the person who did that was a trusted friend... That physical pain was so much sh*****r than the emotional turmoil I had the previous year, it just killed my will to live. Pain 24/7, 1 month straight, and the therapy took even longer. Mind you, I took really powerful prescription pain medications, one was a morphine derivative, so that should probably give you an idea on how intense the pain was.

Before that happened to me, I was proud to have a sturdy body with sufficient flexibility and more than enough power to lift really heavy things. I even told the doctors who examined me (spoiler alert: they didn’t find anything wrong with me, results of scans were all UNREMARKABLE despite all that pain in my lower limbs) that I used to throw a judo classmate whose weight was about 90Kgs/198lbs fairly easily, with my own strength. Not to brag but out of the entire class, she only goes to me to get thrown, lol she said I was her fave, I could sweep her over my shoulder easily she says. Hmmm... Then again one of my classmates who was around 44kgs/96.8lbs could throw me when I was at 54kgs/118.8lbs at the time so.. Maybe it’s relative. But still, it’s no joke doing a shoulder throw without any inertia, so of course I thought I had that identity established: maychan the people-thrower lol.

Of course, all of that changed... when the fire nation attacked. (srsly by now you guys should have an idea that I am so into the ATLA universe, have you seen my main lol I’m a trash queen over there gahahah but srsly pls dont)

I utterly lost that sense of strength, of identity, and I desperately needed an escape, from the pain, from the confinement of my bed, from having incontinence issues due to so much pain... Inability to enjoy eating or even eat properly because pain, I could go on and on. In a nutshell, my quality of life was hell on earth. Thus my need to escape grew stronger.

And surprisingly, in the weirdest way possible, I discovered binaural beats. The ones that helped me in particular were those that induced lucid dreaming. It’s funny though, before I got hospitalized I was researching how to lucid dream, but due to me trying to find work abroad I never got to revisit that idea. And what better way to do that than in that moment, when I just wanted the simple things that mobility brings, like, I just wanted to pet my doggy pain-free, without crying my eyes out due to pain. So I took a shot, downloaded some free ones, which included that lucid-dream inducing track. I also did my best to do WILD - Wake-induced Lucid Dreaming, since I don’t have herbal supplements to enhance or even induce lucidity. Also, since I was practically bedridden, might as well do the escaping from there lol

And boy oh boy fam, let me tell you, it’s definitely like acid-tripping. Not that I tried that before but... I have undergone certain meditative states that were apparently, similar to acid-tripping. Well, I’m saying that based on the descriptions from an old book about the effects of magic shrooms lol You can send me an anonymous ask and I’ll tell you the title of the book lol

I guess in a way, that period of my life, even if it was the sh*****st part of my life, it was one of the events that, in hindsight, catapulted me into this whole spiritual awakening/dark night of the soul combo sh**f**t that is pretty much what I’m living for right now. Unless I get to materialize Ignis Scientia or Cloud Strife into my life but yeah sure lol

So.... What does that got to do with quantum jumping?

A lot, actually. When I was doing lucid dreaming, I had small goals... I just wanted to walk again, sit on a chair (even that was impossible without any pain, and it took me half a year just to sit for 10 minutes straight), stooping down to pet my doggy (RIP doggy), do Taichi and what not... Just doing the normal stuff that normal people take for granted like grocery shopping or doing the laundry, the mundane everyday things. And when in the past I hated sleeping because I felt trapped and in pain, after learning lucid dreaming I was all excited. When I did get to sleep, not only did I get to walk a lot, but I also started flying, I was looking over people. I was going to places at a drop of a hat. I could fall down and float back up. I was eventually able to wean myself from the medications, and after 2 weeks of intense lucid dreaming I was able to stand and walk around. Yeah, sure, there was still a lot of pain so I had to take it slow. But still, I got to walk, and that was a huge miracle for me, it is, still.

But that wasn’t just the stuff that I learned.

Because apparently, being lucid in a dream means that you CAN choose what happens to you. You have greater control in what you want to happen. You can bitch-slap your enemies, cuddle and snuggle someone you love (not the ex lol guess who got bitch-slapped when I got lucid lololol not even kidding there). I guess that was the best part for me, being able to talk to my subconscious by acting out what I wanted to happen. Yeah sure, it’s funny to think that I hugged the life out of some nerdy eye-glassed person that I don’t even know (is that you, Ignis lol), even just in my dreams, but after that one incident, I became open to the possibility of finding love again. It was liberating, refreshing even. Like that time when Tanjirou killed that that spider mommy in Kimetsu no Yaiba, it was a long-awaited release: A soft rainshower after a long period of drought.

And this is where the fun starts for us all. Quantum jumping gives us these benefits, but... 

IT’S MORE POWERFUL!!!

Because you not only get to talk to your subconscious mind.... But more importantly... You have greater potentials, not just chances, to change the trajectory of your life.

I know that’s hard to believe but hear me out fam. Apparently, after discovering the Silva Method to improve my meditation habits, I started getting a sense that I have been doing these things before. When I was young, to escape the dysfunction in the household, and in my life in general, I just sat down and go blank. Then things would just randomly pop in my head. I didn’t even have to think, they just woosh in there, like a movie clip, and then leave me. And I’d choose what I’d want to do. I wanted to learn how to improve my drawing skills. I wanted to study away from here, where I have lived for a decade and a half. I wanted to be known for being myself. I just wanted the bullying to stop. I wanted someone, or a bunch of people to love me for who I am. And bit by bit, those small wishes came true, maybe not right away, but those things did happen for me, and those were also miracles for me, despite me co-creating them with the infinte realm of possibilities.

The drawback back then though, was that I was operating due to fears, insecurities, my desperate need to leave home without resolving the personal issues and scars first, so I started entertaining purely destructive thoughts, ideas, and the like. And, because the quantum field isn’t just a goldmine of nice and good stuff, but also a landmine of the most horrible stuff imaginable, it’s fairly easy to jump into the crappiest scenarios and situations as well. Yeah, sure, they’re all learning experiences that I can look back and laugh off but, if I didn’t know the things I knew now, I’d be simply holding on to so much trauma and drama, and frankly, I won’t even be here writing this blogpost at all.

The advantages of Quantum Jumping however, is that as long as you get relaxed enough to allow your brain to zone out aka reach the alpha brainwave state, or entraining your brain first by subjecting it to binaural beats to reach the alpha brainwave state faster, everything just flows out naturally. No need to sleep to reach your subconscious mind, you’re already walking on that bridge between the awake and the dream state, and it’s one of the best times to make your dreams into reality, this time consciously doing so and not just being at the mercy of other people who could readily brainwash you to do their bidding.

I mean really now..

If you’re going to choose between getting brainwashed by other people or brainwashing yourself, might as well do that on your own. You won’t have any hidden agendas from yourself, it’s always for your own good, and you’ll reap the rewards. An all-out win-win solution to life’s problems. What’s more, is that the effects can last for a lifetime, especially when combined with other tools for ascension and spiritual awakening. I haven’t maxed out my fullest potential on quantum jumping yet (still working on it) but right now, I’m at a point where my attachments to fears have decreased significantly, syncronicities have started popping up, and for some weird reason my channeling has gotten stronger, to the point that I don’t touch my card decks anymore, other than playing with them of course. Because I love shuffling cards lol even with my broken finger last year I was determined to shuffle my decks at least once a day, and even if I wasn’t into quantum jumping them, I found healing of some sort. I could just imagine, what if I started early in this thing? But right now, I am thankful to even know about it. It changed my life, so much so that despite the pandemic right now, I feel more connected to the divine realms, and still looking forward to feel that kind of expansion, so that no matter what happens to me, I’m not in that perpetual state of imprisonment anymore.

And I want you to have that kind of liberation too. Who knows, maybe your ability to manifest can become even better, that some years after learning you’ll look back and say to yourself that it was the best decision you have ever made, and it was well worth it.

What to expect, and not expect 

So before anything else, unless you’ve been meditating for a rather long time and you know exactly how to pace yourself, it’s important to be gentle and kind to yourself, especially when you’re just trying it out for the first time. It’s OK to lower your expectations, maybe try it out for the simplest issues that you feel are easy to do but can be improved greatly by thinking outside the box.

Because that’s one major premise of Quantum Jumping - THINKING OUTSIDE THE BOX. Outside the scope of normal thinking. Solutions to things that seem daunting, or at the very least, annoying can suddenly pop up out of nowhere, and in retrospect, you might start thinking “Why didn’t I think of that before?”. SImple, it’s because it’s outside the scope of your conscious mind, so why not let your subconscious do the leap and find the solutions for you? Even though they would seem outlandish at first, if you chose to do it, at least there’s a 50-50 chance that you’ll get a breakthrough. Which leads me to the next issue...

DON’T EXPECT IT TO WORK ALL THE TIME.

Why?

Mainly because truth be told, it’s a quirk of the subconscious mind. Sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn’t. If it works, there are some possibilities:

You were able to remove the subconscious blocks that used to sabotage your dreams, thus allowing you to get what you want. Or

You were really meant to attain that goal, as it is part of your Karmic path

On the flip-side however, following the instructions in your jumps can lead to other problems, or there is a lack of seeing any form of solutions. Probably because:

You still have a lesson to learn aka Karmic lessons that needed to be resolved in layers, thus producing unwanted results unless you forgive and clear them all up

Part of your life path or Karmic destiny is entwined with another’s, thus you may need to just free this up and let it go (this is my major issue right now but I still do quantum jumping to see if I can reverse this, and I am still looking lol but I am easing the resistance bit by bit), Or

The solution makes no sense to you right now and you’re a bit hesitant to follow it, or it’s downright impossible at this point. Just do another jump if you must, but be warned, sometimes the leap of faith can do more wonders than harm so.. Eh. Your choice, fam lol

Of course, who knows, maybe one day you can program yourself to allow this kind of timeline jumping to work for you more times than not. Provided that you were able to fully-integrate it into your system, and be open and free with how it works for you. No need to force it, you have to allow it to flow into you, like breathing air, or something, to the extent that it feels natural to you. But until then, keep practicing doing tiny stuff, expect things to happen, and keep on going from there.

How to do it - my personal suggestions

Step-by-step instructions which I usually do, as I feel guided to. Depending on your openness and calmness, the allotted time may vary, if you’re starting out it might take 20 minutes at least, just to calm down, but if you can maximize it at 5-10 minutes it’s also good, as long as it’s deliberate and you really feel all of the emotions as well as take in the information available. If you’re finding it hard to do it at times because nothing happens or you’ve ran out of motivation, just keep at it, or just do relaxation techniques instead, and you’ll eventually get a hang of it, and have some questions answered too. =) Or you can just straight up to go Mindvalley or Soulvana by Mindvalley and search this over there, or just go here so I won’t have to do this for you lol NO really, that’s where I got the full steps for the jump. I just used to do other techniques from the Silva Method and since the late Burt Goldman, the dude behind quantum jumping was also a certified Silva Method instructor, he just spruced it up to create this technique. There’s no right or wrong method to do this, just be open and willing to play with it, and above all, have fun, alright? =)

OK, let’s start!

Find a comfy position sitting up straight, your back fully- supported and your limbs limp and relaxed. If you’re energetically-sensitive, I don’t suggest sitting cross-legged, sit on a chair with your feet planted on the ground if you can, so that the energies can flow through you unhindered. Unless you’re like me who likes tingles lol not gonna judge you on that, OK?

If you’re new to relaxation techniques, there are many ways to do just that. It’s important to get relaxed so you can get to the alpha brainwave state faster. You’ll know that you’re in that state when you don’t feel any fears or you don’t start over-analyzing everything. Fears and overanalyzing are associated with the beta brainwave state, the consciously awake and problem-solving brainwave state, and we need to reach the alpha brainwave state, which is when we’re zoning out, listening to relaxing music, or watching calm and peaceful videos.

You can do breathing techniques like counting up to 5 on the inhale, holding that for 5 counts, exhaling for 5 counts, and holding that for 5 counts before your next inhale Do that for at least 3 times until you can sense that you’ve slowed down your breathing. I normally do it 7-8 counts each, but it took a while to get to that point, you can even start at 3 if you need to train your lungs. 

Alternatively, you can do a countdown technique. I learned this from doing the Silva Method, and it did wonders for me, I could touchdown into the alpha state 50% faster than before. You can count down from 20 to 1, 50 to 1, or 100 to 1. Start with 100 to 1 if you’re anxiety-ridden, and the more you do this, you’ll get better at it. Counting from 100 down to 1 is recommended to be done for 10 days, then 50 to 1 for 10 days, 20 to 1 for 10 days, 10 to 1 for 10 days, and 5 to 1 for 10 days, until you feel that you’ve mastered it enough to get down from beta to alpha in a few seconds. I’m still scared sh*****s that I can zone out within 5-10 seconds but hey, it’s a roller-coaster kind of scared. Fun, right?

The other countdown technique is called 3, 2, 1 Method. This involves more visualizations, which can both be a boon or bane for people. I suggest that don’t take my words on it, try researching on the Silva Method for yourself, take a good look at the full steps, and see if it works for you. This involves counting and visualizing 3 three times as you exhale slowly (your lungs will thank you for it lol), then relaxing each part of your body downward. Then counting and visualizing 2 three times, and visualizing tranquil and passive scenes to relax the mind. Then counting and visualizing 1 three times, and doing the aforementioned countdown technique (step 4).

Once you reached step 5 and you’ve reached a state of awake relaxation, give yourself a pat on the back. This is your baseline alpha level, and you can start your quantum jump from here. Start by visualizing your issue, whatever it is. Not just looking at it from an outsider’s perspective, RE-LIVE THE WHOLE THING. Feel everything, the horridness, the uncomfortable-ness, the awkwardness, the whole shindig. Feel the intensity of your emotions. Don’t worry, it’s safe to do so. Just let go.

Now, the most important part of the jump, set this intention and ask yourself this: If I can do this differently, how can it go?

Start visualizing a closed door in front of you. Doesn’t matter what it looks like, just see a closed door. Set the intention that whatever you need to know is behind that door of the entire realm of infinite possibilities. Keep doing that until your intent has been set and you feel ready.

Open the door and see yourself falling down into what seems like a gajillion portals to other dimensions. Don’t try controlling where you land, just let yourself fall into one hole, and be open and willing to receive whatever you find in there. You’ll find a version of yourself doing something, saying something, or whatnot. Ask that version of you, the question you wanted to ask. Take note what that version of you said or did, no matter how silly or weird the answers seem to you

Once you got all the information you need, visualize yourself getting pulled upwards back and through the door of infinite possibilities, going upwards and back to your starting point.

Repeat steps 7-10 for about 3 times.

Once you feel satisfied or you feel like there’s nothing more to fish out for, it’s time to go back to reality. This time you’re going to count up from 1 to 5. This is how it’s done in the Silva Method:

You’ll mentally tell yourself that at the count of 5, you’ll open your eyes, be wide awake, feeling fine and in perfect health. Feeling better than before. Take a nice, deep, slow inhale. Start counting 1, 2, coming out slowly now, 3, at the count of 5 you will open your eyes, be wide awake, feeling fine and in perfect health, feeling better than before. 4, 5 you are now wide awake, feeling fine and in perfect health, feeling better than before.

Take a deep, breath fam, you just made your first jump.

CONGRATULATIONS! *headpats*

Please note these things before doing the jump

I don’t recommend lying down, especially if you’re dead-tired. Just don’t do this jump at all when you’re tired. The good thing though, is that you can use steps 1-5 to get to sleep faster so.. Feel free to do that instead lol. If you’re asking why... Well, you’re supposed to do the jump with just enough awareness to bridge the gap between being awake and asleep, and if you’re tired in all levels the slope towards la-la land gets fairly easy to slip down into. That’s one of the harder aspects of doing meditation that turns people off: they end up sleeping instead of getting a breakthrough. So please, by all means, get some proper sleep. Rest. Do whatever it takes to get at least one sleep cycle. Not only will that help in your overall physical and mental well-being, but it also helps the brain release the toxins it accumulated while on beta brainwave mode, so do yourself a favor and do that instead. The quantum field is a timeless field anyway, and you can always go there anytime.

Are you sure that the problem/issue that you wanted to get solved, the REAL issue that you REALLY wanted to get solved, or is there something deeper beyond that? Because to be honest, for me, I did jumps a lot and the same solution keeps coming up, despite me asking different questions for different problems. Despite trying to find an alternative reality, I can only see one scenario. It sucks lol So in the end, and I have to make yet another jump, but this time I am going directly to the question of “Why do I keep seeing the same answer for different questions?” I already got the first few parts of that question answered so far, and that lead me to begin releasing as much of my resistance to the answer itself. Now my next jump is to find out HOW to BE that answer, and find the best one in all of my alternate timelines. Also, it doesn’t hurt to ask the universe questions too, so each time, before each jump, I ask the universe to guide me where I needed to go. I have yet to make an update on that, but I feel like I’m on to something, and I can’t wait for that, even though I don’t know it... Yet. Will give you guys a post on that, once I get something decent lol

Is visualization aka imagining things your forte? Or is something holding you back like fears/anxiety/unease? Or you just find it hard to imagine things and you just force yourself to think? Or.. You think you’re not good at imagining things? Guess what fam, if you’re imaginative as a kid, then being an adult right now should give you greater powers because of your accumulated experiences. Maybe you just need a refresher like this:

Imagine a lemon. See it’s shiny, bright-yellow skin. Feel how smooth the skin is. Smell the lovely, distinctly lemony scent. Now, imagine slicing that lemon in half, and then biting that half and chewing all that lemony flesh.

Did your mouth just started salivating? Puckering up due to the sourness? Feeling your face get all mushed up and crinkly? If it did...

Congratulations, you just did a successful visualization of eating a lemon. Now do more of these things until you get the hang of it. There are a lot of guided visualization videos and audios out there, try each one out. If you feel like anything above 5-10 minutes is too long, then just stick to that for now, so that you can find your anchor point aka base level alpha brainwave state, and once you’ve gotten the hang of how that feels for you, you can start doing the jumps with mostly just yourself and nothing else. Also, listening to binaural beats can help you entrain your brain so that you’ll have a sense of what being in an alpha brainwave state feels like. That’s gonna be your anchor point or reference point for many of your jumps.

More importantly though, by going down from a high frequency brainwave patter aka beta levels, down towards the alpha levels, you’re able to create that bridge that makes it more effective for your conscious mind to reprogram your subconscious mind through patterns, images, sounds, messages that do not rely on languages alone. Because to be honest, the subconscious mind isn’t particularly receptive to words or languages in general, it’s kinda more sensory-oriented. So instead of endlessly repeating affirmations that have no feeling nor intent and probably aren’t even your own, for a change, why not talk to your subconscious through images, sounds, feelings, smells? Let your subconscious mind, the imaginative, abstract, and subjective part of your brain, connect with your conscious mind, the logical, analytical and objective brain, in such a manner that it knows and understands, and who knows, maybe that’s the start of the breakthrough that you actually needed, and can lead to that as well. 

Again, disclaimer though, don’t expect too much in the beginning of this journey, just relax and play, until the situation feels natural for you. Enjoy that part.

In what situations can you use this?

Yeah, right, in what ways can you use a simple skill of visualizing things?

Actually, you can use this skill in many ways, to create a wide variety of results. Some include the following:

Creative problem solving - If you’re stumped on finding a solution to a stubborn or a new issue, you’re pinched for time to it, or if you just wanted to add some flair and poofiness on whatever ideas you already have, then maybe in an alternate timeline one of your fabulous selves had an even greater idea.

Resolving what happened in the past - Moving past your worries and fears by finding alternate ways on how you can better handle situations where you felt that you could have done more, and just be OK with that, forgive yourself, and accept it for what it really is: A lesson learned to improve your life. Then you can jump through various timelines to heal the feelings of shame, embarrassment, fears, anger, or however that transpired for you, so that not only can you be released from the trauma and drama, but you’re also reclaiming the power you have lost, thus empowering yourself in the process.

Healing your childhood issues - sometime some things are just so painful that it’s easier to forget that ever existed. But remember this: Your subconscious stores EVERYTHING THAT HAS EVER HAPPENED TO YOU. Literally. And oftentimes, the crappy past rears its ugly head. For me, aside from undergoing Rapid Transformational Therapy and getting really great results, I also did quantum jumping to heal my wounded inner child, and I actually released a lot of painful memories, so even though I cried my eyes out, when I woke up the next day I felt so great. So getting triggered became less and less. I’ll probably post a separate log on that.

Allowing your life to reset - And I’m not just talking about simple erasures, but really, really change your outlook in your life, to the point that you’re so excited to change yourself, to be a better person, ever changing, ever growing, and allow the past to even be changed. Because really, while the events that happened in the past cannot be changed, our perception of how the events happened FOR us can really do so much healing. It’s like looking at things from a higher perspective, and understanding that such events lead us to become the person that we are right now. And I have seen this happen in my life. It’s truly magical, and I was able to authentically forgive so many people through this process, including myself. Even though I still tend to hold grudges against myself, sometime against others lol I am doing my best to be more loving and compassionate with other people, and especially with myself and all of my stupidities, so that I could move forward in this life too.

Find a new path or way of living - Before I discovered what quantum jumping was, I was already on the way to discovering this alternate way of living aka the spiritually-awakened life. And even though the beginning was rather slow, once I got the basics of meditation figured out, I started jumping timelines and had actually manifested a lot of stuff, it was creepy actually. But right now, even I am still in the process of finding out my life purpose (I am still a bit resistant to what I already know so far lol), I have started increasing my vibrations so that with each jump, I feel less scared of what I’d see, and be more excited on what I’ll see next. I jumped into a timeline where I was on a yacht, and that felt wonderful. I jumped into another timeline where I was living comfily in a house within a wooded area, and that felt great too. Not gonna delve into that deeper just yet though, I have to clear out a lot of my inner deemahns to even feel that those things are for my highest good and I deserve them. Still, getting just a little bit of happiness from those timelines kept me hopeful and giddy, that life can be better, more fun and wonderful. And speaking of fun, lastly...

Just have some fun and magic in your life - I mean really, why not, right? It’s free entertainment if you’d ask me. Just don’t get too-addicted though, or the thrill might wear off lol Just kidding, the more you enjoy doing this, the more you’ll actually want to keep doing this. And, each time you do it, you get better at it. That’s really a great side-effect if you ask me. And it also opens one up to all the realms of the infinite possibility fields. It makes living on this crappy piece of rock more exciting, you’d probably start wanting to do less astral projections or out-of-body experiences just for the heck of it, and instead do more stuff that actually makes things to manifest in the real world. Because that’s what we’re really here for: To BE THE POWERFUL BEINGS THAT WE REALLY ARE. And in these trying times, what better time to do that than right now?

This list can be endless, I mean, basically the premise is that you can use quantum jumping to improve your life, change it for the better, but the items in this list are what I use the jumps for. Maybe you can find other uses too, and as long as you’re doIng it for the highest good of everyone, including you, and not hurting or harming others, then feel free to change your life and fate! I support you, fam~

Summary, Conclusions and Recommendations

In summary, well, quantum jumping is an alternative way to empower the self, to bring forth ideas otherwise not found within the inner realms of the conscious mind, or to simply heal the self in all levels of existence: physical, emotional, psychological, and even spiritual and energetically. When used in the best way possible with the highest intents, it can change one’s life, or many people lives for the better. All one needs to do it to be good at it, while at the same time letting go of attachments and expectations on how things should go. Rather, one must need to be involved enough to want a change, yet also flexible enough to detach on the idea on how this change will happen. Instead, allow the infinite possibility field to provide the ideas, and then work from there.

To conclude, this post presents an alternate way of changing the trajectory of one’s life. All it takes is a willingness to do it, an openness to allow so many solutions to come forth, bravery to actually make these things into fruition, and having enough compassion to allow for things to happen as they may, whether it’s favorable for the jumper or not. Because sometimes, the solutions that we so desperately seek, lie also within the problems that we’re facing head on. We just needed to look into those things a bit deeper, and see the gold hiding behind all that gunk.

If you’re interested to learn more about the topic, I recommend that you search for the following keywords if you want to find out more details and specifics that I didn’t write here, especially when you wanna try many of the methods for yourself. You’ll find them readily in search engines, and some guided meditations in YT even exist for such purposes, so feel free to find out what works best for you. I can only give you here what worked for me personally. Keywords: Quantum timeline jumping, timeline jumping, quantum jumping, Silva Method, Burt Goldman, timeline shifting, timeline healing, visualizations

I have been doing meditations for a rather long time so I didn’t have much issues doing the jumps but if you’re a beginner or you haven’t meditated in a while or you’re a skeptic, you might wanna start with some preliminaries first. Guided visualizations is the best option, and I’d recommend learning the SILVA METHOD for that.

A word of caution though, if you have a lot of baggages and issues, sorry but based on my own experiences, the best option is to find peace within yourself first before even attempting to take the leap, because nothing good ever works out from moving a place of fear, so before doing any of these, or any of my other recommendations in this blog site, working out past issues can be really helpful. Don’t worry fam, if you’re guided to search for that stuff on this blog, I also got you on that, I have lots of stuff about that here too. Just check out the archives =)

Well, there you have it. I hope this post helps you in any way possible. If things aren’t looking so great, please give this method a try. It probably won’t work 100% of the time, but if done consistently and regularly as well as putting the intention that you are doing this for your highest good and the highest good of all involved, it’s gonna work for you in the best ways you haven’t yet imagined. If that doesn’t excite you even for a bit, sorry but I have no other ideas lol

I remain your friend and Soul sibling, wishing you the best in your journey of growth, healing, and evolution, and sending these messages with so much love and hugs,

Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

PSSS. It’s both raining hard AND the sun’s also out while I’m writing this. I’m gonna take that as a good omen lol

PSSSS. I dedicate this post to my friend, who probably got so offended of my blunt and pushy obnoxiousness so there’s probably no way in heaven or hell would that friend ever see this post or read this or even wanna drop back into my realm of existence but... I hope that friend forgives me, doesn’t have to be now, or in this lifetime, maybe even if there’s a slim possibility of that happening within the universal quantum field, I’d put my hopes on that. Gomen nasai, I deeply apologize, for being an utterly stupid dumb@## baka-baka k***** **deep inhale before letting out a river of tears** I’m too-emotional for this sh** gah the things I do for love, dang it why on earth am I like this SMH

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New Moon in Libra - September 2020 (Timeless Message)

Hi everyone, how are you all doing? A lot of stuff has come up and has affected energy-sensitive people, myself included, so don’t worry if suddenly you feel a strong rush of energies, an energetic surge within yourself, however that works for you, it’s thankfully due to the slow release of trapped energies from the heavy Capricornian retrograded energies (please watch this video for more information, I’m not exactly a certified astrologer, just an enthusiast but I feel guided to watch these, for my energy and sanity’s sake lol so maybe you might, too). And let me tell you, when I say REALLY, REALLY DENSE ENERGIES, it’s no joke. I have a strong Capricorn stellum in my own personal chart, and I have yet to break through that extremely dense sh** just to even feel a bit of happiness in my life. And if that’s already a built-in default in my body, how much more can three retrograded major planets - JUPITER, SATURN, PLUTO could do to the collective? To everyone else? It can totally drive anybody insane, and I’m no exception, even though I wish I could be...

BUT!

The great news for us all fam, is that after the Ghost month ends, well, it ended two days ago (yay! Finally, thank glob) and after the initation of the retrograded planets going to direct motion one by one, at least, we can all take a strong intake of a fresh new breath, some stagnant energies that have long been wanting to leave have started shaking people up, and even though I didn’t believe this myself at first I guess I had a breakthrough and that has pushed me to live just one more day, thus this post. I hope you get that same breakthrough too. =) I’ll post about that in another log, that has so much insight on it’s own. Also I post this for myself but if the messages resonate with you and even helped you in your own journey, then I’m glad. Hi-five, fam!

And with that, here’s a nice photo of a thundercloud that I took, as well as a cute crescent moon with Jupiter, the night before the new moon. Yeah I put two infused photos because it’s Libra-time, we need a sense of balance, TRUE BALANCE based on TRUE harmony, not the phony ones based on the external stuff lolol

I didn’t realize they were opposites.. The upper photo was taken when the sun was setting, and the moony one was in the early hours of dawn, I woke up seeing that scene and even though my cam-phone is archaic AF I still took the shot anyway lol. And color-wise, they’re complementary too: a color’s complementary is its opposite in the color wheel, in this case it’s blue and orange. Hm.... Is the spiritual realm trying to send a message? Read on that however you want, I’m just stoked lol

Oh well.. I hope the energies in these photos help you in anyway, to assist you in your new beginnings, new endings, new resets, whatever new stuff you’re allowing into your life, the point is that WE ALL PUSH FORWARD TO BECOME OUR BEST SELVES. The universe is kind enough to give us all infinite second chances, it’s just that we feel too unworthy to receive those gifts, me included.

But we can do this guys! We just need to come back to our truest, most unapologetically-authentic selves, then go on from there. I’ll cheer you all on that!

OH!

Before I forget!

I’m so excited for this!

I may have a breakthrough in resolving my challenge on how to post sound light language activations in here, and I’m about to test my mic to do that. Yeah, don’t expect too much it’s just the mic of a Kraken 2.0 but if my IT friend deems it good enough for minimal purposes then I will use it for my intentions, of offering energetic activations along with my Reiki photos yay (I don’t do sound ASMR but.. My “adopted son” gave hints that I should give it shot, though srsly who would want to hear Mickey on drugs sheesh not a dragon memelord guys... and if you understand the references for pete’s sake YAMETEKUDASTOP lol)

OK that’s enough raving right there, I guess I am just soaking in the strong and high vibes I ordered from the universe. I’ll tell you all about it in my next queued post, that’s really super-timeless and I hope that helps you in every way it can. Wah~

Offering you my free hugs and love, while wishing you all the best that life has to offer, I remain your friend,

Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

PSSS. I’m also on discord but I’m too lazy to log in, also my net’s too slow for that site but maybe in the future, who knows what could happen, right? =)

[mikazukikannagisjourney]

Still feeling dead-tired? We’re STILL in Hungry Ghost Month

Just a short post for you all, especially the energy-sensitive peeps *sending you all my loves and hugs ok?*

OK everyone who still hasn’t come out of the tiredness despite the ending of the Lion’s Gate portal and entering a new month but still has some effects of whatever are causing the dense energies that has been hitting the planet..

GUess what?

We’re still, apparently in the Ghost Month or Hungry Ghost period/season. I thought that already ended last month, August, but apparently it’s going to be on until September 17, 12AM. Meaning, we’re all in the last decameron of Ghost Month, and no wonder the world has gotten even more crazier. But at the same time, it’s nice to think that despite the thinning of the veils of illusion and whatnot, we can still take advantage of asking for help and assistance from the Divine realms. Of course, this still entails that we do our inner work, or else the dense, heavy energies lurking in this world and the other realms will find a way to latch on to us. And let me tell you, that really sucked. I had to do so much cleansing and cord-cutting and removal of the icky stuff as well as to face the demons in my head (usual stuff lol) just to stay awake. But if I didn’t learn that it was still hungry ghost season, I wouldn’t have a clue why it feels dense, as well as why more of the departed are making themselves known, to me at least. So I had to clear off a lot, or else the low-vibrational ones can really get stuck in here, and they’re not exactly needed here right now lol

But not to worry, I’ll leave some quick tips in here, because we’re basically like in Mercury retrograde, but with the added bonus of the spirit world opening up to us. The next time this happens will be in Samhain, on October 31. So might as well use this time right now to maximize our healing, our soul-scrubbing lol and other stuff that should make our spirits shine even brighter. 

OK, quick tips to survive the remaining days of Ghost Month:

Treat it like a Mercury Retrograde: clean up and release everything that doesn’t make you happy anymore

No big purchases, big decisions (marriage, buying expensive stuff, moving house, etc.)

Don’t start anything major, like projects (unless these have been shoved in the backburner and needs revisiting) or relationships

Clear energetic fields either by energy healing or using crystal grids, or just do them both

Salt baths with the intent to clear your energetic field

Shadow work, but do this with caution, the energies can get so intense that it’s fairly-easy to get sucked into victim-mode and end up being in a downward spiral

Be gentle with yourself

Honor your dearly departed by however that means to you. Try talking to them, ask for solutions to your problems.

As much as you can, raise your vibrations, and share that with the world. Since the veils between realms are getting thinner, even more so within this period, it’s easier to get depressed, to feel isolated, alone, ignored, all of the human core wounds can flare up really bad. I had abandonment as my core wound and with everything I have right now, that’s just the stuff that I had been working on, solely. You can do the same, or just do what comes up for you. Even though it doesn’t seem that way, this month gives an opportunity to max out what we can clear off from our systems, so that we won’t have to release our stuff onto other people. The universe has our back, just give into the flow and trust.

Sleeplessness or other sleep issues along with some resurfacing mental health issues (under the assumption that these were already properly addressed by professionals but still had no effects) entail excess energetic influx, so if you’re attuned to channel any forms of high-dimensional energies, by all means just channel it all out, to your friends, loved ones, or even to the entire world. It can greatly help not just yourself, but others as well. You can choose what time to do it, I normally do it before sleeping so I could just wash up and clock out. Unless you’re sending it for the entire world, if you’re doing it for individuals be sure to be guided by your spiritual and energetic team, as well as your Highest Self if it’s for the highest good of everyone involved, including you. If not, just send it to the world or even to yourself. Self-care is self-love too.

Whew, that’s quite a lot of stuff. But I hope the list helps you somehow.

And as promised, here’s a quick-shot energy-infused photo to help with the dense energies because seriously, with the veils getting thinner and thinner just means that the lines between this realm and the other realms are only getting blurred, thus it’s easy to get sucked into the dense matter and in turn, get affected by it.

By the way do you know what insect this is? I don’t know what it is lol it has transparent wings, as well as a fluffy butt, and it’s soft =) Not talking about the ant lol

OK then!

That said, I hope this short post helps you somehow, and hopefully the energies become more tolerable by the 17th, so let’s all look forward to that. Cheers.

Offering you my free hugs and love, while wishing you all the best that life has to offer, I remain your friend,

Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

[mikazukikannagisjourney]

The “Other Epidemics” that Affect Everyone Else (not what you might expect)

Disclaimer: The following are just the author’s personal opinions and do not reflect the ideas and beliefs of the spiritual community, or of the society at large. Inasmuch as the effects of the COVID-19 are deemed as dangerous by the WHO, this post exists to remind people that even if the pandemic never occurred, there are still other epidemics that are still proliferating elsewhere, and that these only seem to be intensified due to extended quarantine periods. Lastly, I post this out of love, not because I want to shame everybody. I am just another person, who may be walking the path of personal development yet also has a shameless Fujoshi side every now and then. I am not immune to these epidemics myself, but at least I have this much guts to put this out there. I don’t think this information has been out, even within the spiritual community so I’m putting this here, regardless if some influencer already beat me to it.

Abstract: It appears that despite the pandemic occuring right now (as of writing, September 4, 2020), there are other epidemics that have been lying under the surface for even longer periods that haven’t been addressed, and yet are still wreaking havoc among people. These are, but not limited to: LONELINESS, ISOLATION, DISCONNECTION, and DISTRACTION. What are the implications of such unaddressed epidemics, especially in terms of the ascension process? Not much, except that as long as the people living in this planet keeps looking outside of themselves to fill in the void inside, then no matter how much the world burns, this emptiness cannot be filled. But this also creates great opportunities for those who wish to get more out of life, albeit at the cost of being scorned by society. But then again, in the greater scheme of things, which one should be deemed more important: what society says, or what the heart and soul truly believes in?

Introduction

(Honestly this whole thing is just my opinion, a combination of what I have been experiencing first-hand, as well as what I have been observing so far, on the world that I have been looking at through other people’s eyes. Also how people have been acting ever since the “pandemic” started became amplified, and even though I don’t want to call it as it is, well for someone who doesn’t give a rat’s ass like me, I’d call a spade a SPADE.)

The title isn’t exactly a click-bait, but if I simply put NO SIMP SEPTEMBER in there, my blog might get blocked by people who go tl;dr because apparently that’s an actual thing? Tsk tsk tsk

OK, so here’s the gist, if you’re still reading this...

A lot of hate has been given to simping lately, and even though I live under a rock, I know what simping means, and no, it doesn’t even mean Squirrels in my Pants-ing (one of Candace’s best hits lolol). To put it in bluntly, it’s the act of uhm, giving, because apparently, people throw money at anything, and lately ANYONE that they deem enjoyable. Name it, you have it. But the simp thing gets pretty complicated when the ANYONE (whoever those would be, not naming anyone lol) demands the viewers to pay, even resorting to violent or verbally abusive tactics just for that to happen, even though originally the whole idea on the payment thing was an extra, a gift, not exactly a requirement. And, well, let’s just say that things can escalate quickly, thus the creation of a phenomenon that not only leads to decrease in self-esteem from the givers aka the simp due to being shamed by many people for giving probably a bit too much, because people can be like that, but this also has the potential to hurt the real-life relationships of said people, not to mention drain their accounts. Again, I am putting this out here not to shame but to release information, because honestly, such phenomenon do have probable causes, and I’m about to lay those out here, so please hear me out before you block me out.

Loneliness and Isolation leads to Disconnection and Distraction,  Possible Causes - Esoterically-Speaking

So if you’re going to ask me, under the assumption that you just couldn’t get it, why would some people throw money at other people, even to the point of leaving almost nothing for themselves just to give to other people that “make them happy”? Simple really, it’s like a drug, the other person probably makes the other person feel better about themselves, which is in essence a disconnection from the self, because in reality, a healthy person would have enough know-how to do self-care aka look inside themselves to find out what makes them feel low and then do something about it. But if you feel lost, afraid, having no sense of direction, not knowing what else is there, yeah, I feel you fam. That’s scary as heck, I too was lost for a very, very long time before I ended up awakening consciously. Don’t worry, you’ll get there somehow, you’re already on the way. =)

But what if the giver of donations has a high self-esteem but still does it anyway?

Well, glad you asked.

It is also possible that people resort to simping (there, I freaking said it, zero regrets) because they feel lonely, and wanted some sort of connection to others. Of course, in a perfect world this is easier done, but again, these are trying times, and because humans are genetically-wired to connect to their tribe, then no matter how many times they’re told to do social distancing, they’ll still find a way to be in a crowd. I still stand by following precautions, but I also understand the need to be with other people, on an energetic level. As an empath, even though it sucks to feel other people’s emotions, based on my own experiences, whenever I go out and do some window-shopping, it feels nice to be around people who are calm and enjoying themselves. I’d rather have that than watch anything depressing. But again, the world’s on a lockdown so apart from losing mobility, people are also feeling a sense of loss, which leads to some levels of isolation, thus ending up lonely.

This loneliness can lead to either a decrease in self-esteem leading to seek joys outside the self, in essence a distraction from the reality that the person is in. I mean, when you think about it, nearly everything that is labeled as “entertainment” is a form of distraction. News, TV, music, heck even books and other educational entertainment are simply distractions to what really needs to be solved. 

But really, what are we distracting ourselves from?

Many things, actually. It can range from experiencing the apparent reality for what it is, to having to deal with things in the real world that aren’t exactly fun and entertaining. But more than that, these are distractions from facing who we truly are. These are distractions from finding out our true selves. And the harshest one yet: these are distractions from finding and befriending the demons in our head (cue in Gurenge because you can’t stop me now lolololol).

I mean really, who would want to do adulting? Who would wanna enjoy finding the deepest, darkest parts of ourselves? Who actually enjoys just sitting down and drinking tea/coffee and doing ABSOLUTELY NOTHING OTHER THAN THAT?

Yes indeed.

Modern society has conditioned people to keep working their butts off, anyone who doesn’t is deemed lazy, and shamed to be even more busy even though their bodies aren’t capable of doing more work. So when the stimuli of having to work gruelly suddenly stops, despite the fact that it gives people a chance to recuperate, the need to do something in order to be “productive” remains, thus causing anxiety to most people. Anxiety due to the extra time. Extra cash. Extra loneliness, extra emotions because for f***’s sake why am I having these jitters and nervousness I gotta get these out but I don’t know how...

And then, cue in the instant-gratification gravy train.

Choose your poison:

Games (I am guilty of this but I am doing my best to curb the need to get at least top 10 in Tetris)

Videos/Movies (I’m on an anime-boy detox right now so judge me however you want I don’t care lol)

Social-media drowning (some simps are probably here)

Watching other people do stuff (simps are here somewhere lol sorry this also includes Vtubers so...)

Doing more work as humanly as possible, no matter how mundane

Comfort-eating (I eat junk as needed so yeah, guilty)

Learning new skills just for the sake of it. Includes webinars

Books/reading materials just to while away the time

Meditating/Zoning out more than the usual (because spiritual communities aren’t truly immune to this shit 100%, those who say they aren’t affected by it are either lying or don’t know what Spiritual By-passing means, yeah I have the guts to call people out, and yes I have been doing  spiritual by-passing myself for sometime so I KNOW it’s an actual thing)

Anything that instantly brings a dopamine rush to the brain, however that works for you. Especially the not-so-wholesome activities. (No judgment though, we’re all humans with needs. See comfort-eating)

But really... What do we really need in these precarious times?

I hate to break this to you and admit this myself but.. The reality of this is that these are the times to find our way back into ourselves.... To find out who we truly are, and own that. To be free from the shackles that the brain holds us in. To go further, beyond what we think we can do. 

More than that, the entire world is crying out to have real, authentic, unconditional connections. Yes, there, I said it. I mean, really, why would simps throw tens, hundreds, probably even thousands of dollars to someone that they don’t even fully know? Because maybe, just maybe, deep inside, these people are craving to connect to someone, something, anything, to feel whole again. To feel complete. To feel like they have some place to belong to. I am not immune to such feelings. I used to waste time translating chat streams, moderating even though I’m not an official moderator, and not getting anything from it other than seeing other people saying thank you for translating/moderating. I can’t throw money so I throw my time instead lol

But there came a point where I just threw my hands up in the air and just left these groups cold-turkey. I mean really, I suddenly regained some form of self-esteem, and instead of throwing my time onto people who already have been receiving a lot of love from others, it suddenly hit me hard: Why can’t I do that shit to myself? I felt so angry, wasting my time when I could have just tended to my own issues. So I did, even though I have some degree of self-hate because of the time I wasted, I still did my best to come back to myself. Because I deserve it. Even if I can’t do much other than find my inner demons and befriend them one by one, if it means that I can love myself better later then that’s it. Slowly but surely, I found myself again, and even though the time wasted has been gone, at the very least, I felt more hopeful, more open to what the universe can bring.

Yeah, sure, it feels lonely at first, I felt re-isolated again, I wanted to talk to anybody, just to feel heard.. BUt then I realized that I had this blog so, instead of spreading toxicity elsewhere, I just contained it here, at least I can write as much as I want without the huge potential of being flagged/flamed/doxed lol hence the start of the monthly moon posts in here. Yeah, sure, they aren’t a lot but at least I have something to ground myself every so often. I re-read the stuff I write here myself, to remind me that at least, somewhere in time, I gave away my love and it comes back to me somehow. So if you felt that in some of my posts, thank you. =)

It sounds stupid but at least it’s something that helps me become less toxic, as if the world needs more of that now lol

Although I will say, every now and then I still get distracted, but at least I don’t drown myself for hours trying to beat the b******s that prevent me from getting tetris maximus like srsly give the dog a bone why won’t you lololol Also thank goodness this household never got hold of Fall Guys because I might do the same x_x And having sucky internet connection for now does have some perks, right now I am planning my drawing-comeback (I’ll start posting again in my main, soon) so I guess in a way, the universe still gives me some sort of entertainment. Also apparently my channeling got stronger, it only got tested after I isolated myself for a while. Scary, like riding a coaster scary.

But hey, these are just some of my suggestions I’m not a twat sitting on a cloud, I live under a rock in the middle of a rice field lolol

If you’re still reading this, then CONGRATULATIONS! I hope you can get through all of the text. You’re almost done! Don’t stop now lol

Possible Solutions - No Guarantees but at least it’s a possible start

Going within is one option. This just means finding all the hidden issues within yourself, and address them one by one. You can use the following questions to help yourself get started:

What am I distracting myself from?

What am I afraid to face?/What is my greatest fear?

When did this fear happen?

How could I have faced this differently?/ How could this have been a better situation?

What can I do to move past this?

You can either do this exercise alone, or with someone, but don’t exchange judgments, just be supportive of one another. And if you can call on someone like a counselor or a shrink, then feel free to do so. Only masochists like myself do shit like these alone, not recommended unless you want more pain in your life.

If you’re not on the spiritual journey yet, and you found this blog and you related to whatever the heck I wrote here, then good job, that’s one possible option for you. Or if you’re already on the journey but you got distracted like me, don’t worry, you can only go forward, I support you on that. Just go back to the basics of however you founded your spiritual practices on. I just rewatch the stuff that helped me awaken during my dark night of the soul. I also re-read some articles, or just search for updated ones. As always, treat yourself with loving kindness and patience. Only you can do that for you.

If you’ve done whatever you can, and already did everything, and yet you still want to simp, well, then do whatever the heck feels right and good and shameless for you. As long as you don’t hurt anyone, including yourself, and your checking account, then simp as much as you want lol I mean in the end, who am I to tell you what to do? I’m just here to give some suggestions...

Summary, Conclusion, Recommendation

Flu is not the only epidemic there is, aside from diabetes there’s also the invisible epidemic of distraction, brought upon by factors such as loneliness, isolation, and disconnection from the self. It’s easier to look for answers outside of the self, thus many people resort to throwing money at other people aka simping, hoping to fill in the empty feelings inside. But if these same people threw that money or time into their own selves, to find out what the missing pieces in their lives were, then maybe things could get better from there, and while simping will probably remain a thing, as it has been, at least, the simps would be doing that from a better standpoint. 

Honestly I am too tired to even think of a concluding statement as well as recommendations so I’ll go directly to disclaimer instead lol

Disclaimer, again: OK I am not against simping in the most wholesome sense, but heck this was posted on No Simp September so maybe this can provide some information to those who need it? I am not exactly the one making the rules here but hey, it’s my blog so do I look like I even care lololol

OK I’m just playing, feel free to do whatever you want, as long as you don’t hurt anybody, including yourself. 

Cheers to your well-being, fam.

Offering you my free hugs and love, while wishing you all the best that life has to offer, I remain your friend,

Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

PSSS. I don’t want to put this here due to embarrassment, but my sempai friend probably won’t know this anyway so I’m gonna put it here lol I dedicate this post to tomo-sempai who inspired me to make more posts, even if I don’t have a dedicated fanbase lol ok I’m probably gonna cry after this, like Zen-itsu because NEZUKO-CHAAAAAAAN~ you can’t stop me nowwwwww

[mikazukikannagisjourney]

Pisces Full Moon September 2020 + Energetic Support

Hi everyone, how are you all doing? Yeah, I’m back because I have to post this one, mostly for myself but also for others out there, and this might actually be timeless so I hope you guys enjoy. =)

So.. we’re already at Pisces full moon, which means that there’s going to be another big release bonanza, and probably that’s why towards the end of August, even though the Lion’s gate portal has slowed down, there were more energies flowing into the earth as usual. Most people would feel that either as extra energies to keep doing their daily duties or, like in my case I felt so dead-tired yet my brain is still jittery AF. Srsly sleep has been difficult to come by so I had to take salt baths. Also crying like Agatsuma Zen-itsu won’t hurt. Yes, it’s Zen-itsu not Ze-nitsu lol

But hey, no offense to Pisces peeps out there, even though these people with such signs are known to cry at a drop of a hat, the truth is that Pisces, as the last sign of the zodiac, it is known to also be the sign with the most everything: experience; compassion; knowledge; the works. It is like it has summed up every lesson that each zodiac sign has to learn. As such, Pisces is the culmination of the wheel, and after that is another cycle of birth. Which makes this full moon extra-potent for releasing everything that needs to leave our lives, such as

old beliefs

negativities

grievances, especially to things we actually have no total and absolute control over

toxicity in all forms (people, places, events, ideas, etc.)

inside-the-box thinking (as deemed appropriate)

other stuff that has been putting a damper in our lives because eff it lol

In my case, this full moon actually broke me. I am already at the lowest that I can go, well, I could lose my ability to move but I’m not even scared of that anymore, flareups may be a bicth (yeah I spelled that wrong and if you got the reference lol high-five) but at this point in time, I have nothing to lose, so I’m like “OK universe, I release all resistance to your help” because really, that’s the only thing that I haven’t done yet. I really, really do not want to admit defeat, that I can still work around my North node, that my free will still holds, but even though I am still uncomfortable accepting the idea that I have to follow a divine plan, at this point that is the only option I have, to trust the universe. It is efficient, and if there’s a divine plan and it needs to be executed, then it SHALL be done at all costs. I already have nothing at this point, so I made a pact with the universe that after doing things my way for 15 years, I’ll give the divine realms a shot. I have yet to see that come to fruition but I am hoping that this time, something better than what I was expecting would happen...

I am hoping that for you too, that miracle of infinite proportions happen to you too, in the most magical and easiest way. Provided that you have released any resistance to the divine as well. I pray that you find that miracle right now.

And with that said, here is the energy-infused photo for this full moon:

Yeah I know it’s not the full moon but whatever it looks like, it has energy infused in it so feel free to receive if you feel guided. =)  The energies came a bit stronger than usual so if you feel more awake than sleepy, eh. 

I guess that’s it for this message, please remember to take care of yourselves, and if you’re going to do the full moon release, today’s the 3rd so.. you still have a day to do it. Good luck =D But then again, any time of the month is good so.. Just do what you can to clear your energies, I support you on that goal.

Thank you very much for reading this post...

Offering you my free hugs and love, while wishing you all the best that life has to offer, I remain your friend,

Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

[mikazukikannagisjourney]

Energetic Update with Tips on How to Navigate the Ascension Symptoms

Hi everyone, just popped up here to give a energetic update. Even though we’ve basically left the Lion’s Gate Portal some days ago, it appears that there are still some strong residual energies coming in, and based on many uhm... reports lol but really.. Many people have been complaining of having the following symptoms which include: 

restlessness

sleep problems (me included)

body aches

slowness or sluggish thinking

bouts of anxiety

racing thoughts

same old crap happening again, that you thought you have transmuted out of your body

having too many emotions flowing all at once

crying for no reason

emotional wounds that seem to have reopened

activations e.g. getting some sort of energetic healing but ending up feeling more than the usual, or just releasing energy out of your eyes, hands, etc. even though you’re sure that you’re not attuned to do that yet

undergoing Dark Night of the Soul (for first-timers), or even another one, even though you may already have that years ago it comes back again (yeah, I know right, I’m on version 6.0 now srsly wth) 

OK, this list maybe not all exhaustive, I just listed what happened to me since the start of August, but all in all, these are some of the known symptoms of spiritual ascension. Well, if you’re on the path of ascension and already familiar with some of the basic ascension symptoms, and this time you’ve done everything you did in the past but nothing works or the effects aren’t as great as they once did, then guess what..

CONGRATULATIONS! 

You just shifted so much stuff out of your system that now, you’ve gotten an whole new upgrade, and because you’re in a whole new level, it just means that new ways on how to navigate the symptoms are needed. I would suggest getting a lot of energetic activations, you can readily find some videos on YouTube or just try finding someone who’s scheduling a live activation session and watch that livestream. Based on my own experiences, it helps shift a lot of energies out, and when you wake up the next morning, it feels like you’re a brand-new person. But I won’t recommend that for beginners, simply because it takes a lot of trust on the Divine to feel the effects, and in my earliest years of this journey those didn’t exactly gave a good track record, so I just did other stuff first, like raw inner work aka healing old traumas.

To be honest, I would love to upload some activations here which I made myself, but first I need to find a way to do that in the best way in what I have right now. So that aside from the energy-infused photos, there’s also extra energetic support. It’s a bit embarassing for me to do that, but I have run a decent sample size and apparently, I can actually channel something else other than Reiki so after taking a considerable time to think about it, I wish to offer that here as well. In the future, before this year ends. Plus you’ll hear my voice lolol hahaha what am I even saying...

BUT WHAT IF THIS IS MY FIRST TIME ON THIS WHOLE SPIRITUAL ASCENSION THINGY?!!!

Not to worry fam, Mika-chi’s got you covered. Although, you may have to do grunt work, and I do mean A LOT. I made a previous post here and here  and here too to address your needs, but just a warning, it’s a mixed post so there’s gonna be word vomit in there too lol but I included tips there, although it’s not fully about the entire Spiritual Ascension/Dark Night of the Soul process. So I’ll probably do one on that, distilled and streamlined for newbies lololol But I’ll write mostly from my own experiences, I don’t like stealing other people’s stuff. But if you’re excited to know right away (srsly?!!!) just hit your favorite search engine and type the keywords SPIRITUAL ASCENSION, SPIRITUAL ASCENSION SYMPTOMS, DARK NIGHT OF THE SOUL. That should set you afoot, but please tread with caution, the rabbithole is so deep and.. Well, I can only suggest that you take things one step at a time. Taking that all in can drive you crazy, and feel really low and dense emotions, and can make you sink deeper in the depths of depression (if you click on my previous post link above, you’ll likely get what I mean). 

I’ll do my best to make a decent post with regards to navigating the strong energetic surges but I may need to re-check everything I wrote in this blog so I won’t appear redundant, or worse, leave out important stuff.

So again, take care everyone, and remember, with these crazier times, don’t forget to have fun, find your purpose, heal your heart, and set your Soul free. Mika-chi is here to support you all. You can send me asks, even on anon and I’ll do my best to get back to you right away =)

Offering you my free hugs and love, while wishing you all the best that life has to offer, I remain your friend,

Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

PSSS. This post is dedicated to a certain sempai who noticed me, who may or may not ever read this post, like ever but I’m still gonna dedicate this to that sempai because why not, also I have no shame lololol

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Black (New) Moon in Virgo, August 2020 Energetic Update and Support (can be timeless)

Just a short and scattered update for everyone who needs this. There’s also a Reiki-infused photo at the end if you feel guided to receive it. =)

OK, so the past two weeks probably has been the most draining, heartbreaking ones so far, well for me at least, and after doing the Lion’s Gate Portal meditation for about 4 years now, I have at the very least expectations on what I needed to do so I could at least purge whatever needs to get purged. I could still feel the portal energies but not so intense as the past 2 weeks anymore, but still, that doesn’t mean that anybody can just stop Soul crap purging now. In my opinion, even if the energies have started trickling, it’s still a great idea to just use the energies to connect to Source, Highest Self, our energetic support and protection teams just to push ourselves along in the path of increasing vibrations.

Honestly, I don’t think I have mentioned anywhere in this blog that ascension and enlightenment are fun. Never was, never will be, in it’s entirety. And in this year’s Lion’s Gate Portal, I really had to take that all in. I mean, maybe for other people their ascension processes were all fluffy and sunshiney and with rainbows and unicorns, but for me, ever since it was an endless pit of demon-fighting and losing my soul and heart, to put it lightly not exactly fun. Maybe recently I have been able to amp up my vibes, but there was just so much spiritual gunk and junk that needs to get washed out of my system and all of that just came back rushing in when the portal started opening before the end of July. Yes, this is why I said earlier that you can still do your spiritual cleansing and shadow work and stuff even until about a week after this post goes up, so that’s August 26. That just popped up in my head. The portal energies may not be as strong but there are still opportunities for healing, for forgiveness, for acceptance, for surrender, for setting boundaries, for feeling worthy, for spreading unconditional love.

It’s a great time to face forward and make peace and accept what broke us, and to reclaim what we have lost, in all areas of our lives. Even more so when your dreams have been so vivid it’s like being awake. I mean, it’s been more than 10 days after the portal opened and about a day after the reduction of energetic entry but I still have tiring dreams, I could only surmise that I am still processing a lot of energetic and genetic gunk, but at the same time I also have to accept that about a huge chunk of that has been my fault and I am doing my best to forgive myself. It’s a bit hard but well, it’s probably a lifelong process but still, not wanna put that in my agenda for a long time lol

OK, so basically, using both the remainder of the Lion’s Gate Portal energies and the Black Virgo New Moon - it’s kinda like a blue moon but new moon lol - Virgo is that nitpicky sign that puts so much emphasis on the details, and while in some areas of life that’s a bit too much and it’s better to just wing it (Gemini ftw lol), this time around it’s the details that matter, since what doesn’t gets turned around could come back and get you in the end, so it’s better to dot all of the I’s and cross all the T’s, to the best of our abilities, to face the consequences of what we did in the past and just accept the fact that in some way, we allowed that to happen to our world (you can try doing a Hooponopono for soothing the self, in a nutshell it’s saying sorry, forgive me, thank you, I love you to the self as much as you can, you can do that to others but when self-love is deemed important then do that for yourself. Then you can reclaim your power by using various Gurmukhi mantras aka mantras used with various Kundalini Yoga meditations. My personal fave is the Chattr Chakr Vatree mantra to heal and empower the heart. But that’s just my picks, do whatever that makes you feel empowered and loved by Source and the Universe, whatever Higher Powers you believe in.)

OK, so aside from clearing the self, it’s also important to clear our energies, and our subconscious, and because Virgo is also connected with mind energies, it’s also a great opportunity to heal the subconscious, do some reprogramming like improving our self-worth, releasing subconscious blockages, do self-hypnosis to release unprocessed trauma and pain, anything related to our mind. Or if you want to do something 3D, learn new skills, or level up whatever you already know. Or conversely, curb the nitpicking, especially when you have a significant other. Virgo may be a loving and caring energy but it also carries the energies of a nagging partner so, yeah, be a lot careful with that. If Gemini is the scatter-brained yet witty partner that is usually fun but can get really mean with words, Virgo is the “I love and care for you and your health but srsly stop smoking, stop eating garbage, stop watching shit, so you can live long” energies lol sorry I really don’t have a great history with a lot of people under that sign and those that I do have established a rapport with, they still nag to some degree but at least they know how to give some space. They’re also effing protective of friends, they don’t leave anybody behind, and they’re nice to have for fun things too. I mean, they may be nitpicky but they’re also a lot of fun once they cut themselves some slack. Also if you’re a Virgo sorry if I sound like I hate you, I don’t personally do, but I’m just saying the stuff that I have experienced based on the people I have interacted with in however many years I have been here.

Good grief that was too much rant but I hope that you all get my point somehow. In summary:

Heal some more using the New Moon in Virgo and the remainder of the Lion’s Gate Portal energies

It’s a good time for forgiveness, healing, sending out unconditional love

Execute the details of your plans

Don’t be too nitpicky of others, or even yourself aka cut the world and yourself some slack from time to time

Have the courage to accept whatever comes your way, especially when you recognize that at some point you made that happen

Lastly, channel the energies to clear yourself, your subconscious, you energetic field, your genetics and cellular memories, and whatever crappy soul choices you made that just stop you from being the best that you can be

OK, and with that said, here’s our energy-infused photo to help assist in integrating the incoming energies at this point in time, or in anytime that you’re reading this post. I mean, we’re all in the  quantum field anyway so time’s not that relevant lol.

I hope that this post served you well in these trying times. Always remember that no matter what, you are worthy of receiving love from the universe.

Offering you my free hugs and love, while wishing you all the best that life has to offer, I remain your friend,

Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

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New Moon in Leo x Full Moon in Aquarius, July-August 2020 with Energetic Update, Lion’s Gate Message and Support

Hi all, how are you all doing? There’s a strong energetic storm that has been flowing towards the planet for a while now, and it’s only going to be even stronger since the Lion’s Gate portal had started opening since even before August started, so I just chose to postpone the new moon in Leo post and just combine it with tonight’s Aquarius new moon energetic update so that the energies to be channeled on the photo at the end of this post wouldn’t be so tainted. If you’re wondering if you’re affected by the energies of the opening of the Lion’s Gate portal or the 8/8 portal, just check within yourself if you’re having sleeping problems e.g. sleeping too much, sleeping difficulties, nightmares, etc. I have been finding difficulty on either staying awake or staying asleep and it has been like this since 5 years ago so by this time I have been a bit more forgiving of myself around this time. Don’t worry, the energy-infused photo of this post can help with such issues, I also use my own infused photos and so far, the effects sorta change each time so it’s likely the same with yours too.

OK, now for the messages..

The messages for both the new moon and the full moon (since Leo and Aquarius are polar opposites in the fixed signs category) are linked and what I got for the Leo new moon, which is the need to show one’s true self and to remove everything that is not yours, not you, to release the entire and authentic embodiment of your soul, is strongly linked to the message of this night’s new moon in Aquarius which is to support the liberation of the soul in all aspects that disallow it to be free, such as outdated and limiting beliefs, the societal programming, and all the unhealed crap like karma (according to Dolores Cannon this can be resolved through forgiveness, and boy oh boy that’s a whole entire truckload of crap but again, it’s a necessity to do so, so yeah.). In a nutshell, in order to be truly free, setting our souls free by unloading everything that has covered its shine and dulled its authenticity must be removed. And what better way to do that by clearing the energetic fields, the subconscious, healing the inner child and all other trauma, dissolving attachments, healing the DNA and the cells, basically doing the inner work. With the Lion’s Gate portal already opening, it’s a great time to capitalize on these energies 

At first I didn’t understand why I had no other changes detected for this full moon but apparently I didn’t understood it fully before, but after doing this for about a year now, the messages of both the new and full moon pairings (the opposing poles of each sign type, cardinal, fixed, and mutable) are like an entry and exit thing where one creates the portal of how something is going to happen, and the other one is the method on how to resolve the thing that’s going to happen. Or they’re combinatorial, wherein the message is for the entire moon cycle, from new moon to full moon or something. The message is split in half, part one is from the new moon and the part two is filled in by the full moon.

I also had other messages as well but I think those are timeless ones so I’ll write them in separate posts and not necessarily as moon phase updates posts. 

As always, here’s the energy-infused photo featuring one of the succulents that I foster-care lol just stare at it and get comfy and relaxed so that you can let the energy flow to you. You can feel nothing, feel something small like tingling, or it can feel like a rushing wave, however that works for you. You may start releasing tears, or get some flashbacks in your head, or some ideas start popping up, images may appear in your mind’s eye... As long as you set the intent of receiving energies of the Universe, then however that works for you is perfect in that moment. =)

I honestly feel the energies like someone’s poking my forehead, it just feels weird. Sometimes it���s like putting my face on the showerhead and the spray just hits my skin hard. There are other times when I could feel the energetic waves in my entire body. Right now as I channeled more energies into this photo, I just started tearing up but that’s about it. At times I see stuff I don’t know consciously but just let them flow and not think too much about it. If you’re someone who’s also energetically sensitive or is sensitive to energies, your body may start catching the frequencies and react accordingly, but there’s no right or wrong way, it just works depending on where you are in your journey right now.

Well, that’s about it. Please take care, keep healthy and safe, and no matter how shitty things are right now, it’s going to be OK. Just keep doing your inner work, as we all do, and allow the magic of the universe to flow in.

Offering you my free hugs and love, while wishing you all the best that life has to offer, I remain your friend,

Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

[mikazukikannagisjourney]

Full Moon in Capricorn July 5 2020, Energetic Update and Support

Hi everyone, this is just a short update as well as a full moon support for the Full moon in Capricorn, while we’re all on a retrograde combo-bonanza mode. Don’t worry everyone, Mercury Rx will be ending around next week or so, so at the very least that’s one less thing to think about.

If you’re still having to deal with super-heavy and dense energies around this time, and half of 2020 is already gone, not to worry, because the dense stuff are just the stuff that needs to leave, to be transmuted, or at the very least, be acknowledged. Because that’s the weird thing about dense energies, they’re not outside of us, they are what we also have inside of us, the stuff we hid, the stuff we forgot, the stuff that we pretend that aren’t part of us. But they’re indeed a part of us. I don’t know if I have mentioned this somewhere in this blog already, but in case I haven’t, the truth about fighting off “demons” is that these energies aren’t just from other people’s projections, instead they’re really the disgusting parts of us, or at the very least, the parts we deemed to be unacceptable because other people made them unacceptable. In my case, I was a pretty hard-headed person (stubborn Cappy side lol) that likes to do things my way, in my own time. But other people deem that as unacceptable, it makes me seem slow and stupid, and that they want me to do things their way. For a long time I had to dance to the tunes of other people, and that wasn’t exactly the best shit to have, so when that assertive and initiating part of me that wanted to make things happen came knocking on my door, and I didn’t let it in, that’s when my life fell apart. Don’t worry, I am slowly rebuilding my life right now. Even though stuff are still dense AF, I am doing my best to improve, as well as to look forward to a tomorrow that is unbound to WHAT IS and is open to a lot of infinite possibilities. It’s my hope, the only thing I can hold on to right now.

If you can relate to whatever I wrote, I pray that whatever you’re in right now, you’ll get through things. Even better is that since Capricorn energies are earthy, concerned with the physical realm and has strong initiative, why not use these to propel you to do and have what you deem important right now? I mean, it’s still Mercury Rx so there’s still a lot of time to reflect on things, to reasses, and even just to reclaim parts of your self. Nobody can do that for you but yourself, so let the energies provide you some support, in however way, shape or form that would be for you.

If you need some additional energetic boost, here is a photo of my palm with a moonstone wrist mala. =) Just sit back, relax, and allow the energies to flow through.

Hamsa hand with a moonstone wrist mala, for full moon energetic support. New moon support is labradorite, which is called the dark side of the moon. A healer told me that moonston and labradorite are of the same mineral composition, just different impurities so one is light and one is dark. It’s a nice thing to think about, right? =) Also if you’re not sure how to get some energies from something like this, or if you feel like you’re not sensitive to energies, don’t worry, just staring at it with relaxed and a diffused vision is a good start. And if you’re sensitive to energies, don’t forget to take deep breaths. =)

My hope for you and for everyone is to heal, and to find some comfort and strength in these interesting times. We already have the resources within us, we just need to believe that we are always worthy of receiving such things. Because we are all children of the universe.

Offering you my free hugs and love, while wishing you all the best that life has to offer, I remain your friend,

Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

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Solstice x Solar Eclipse in Cancer New Moon x Mercury Retrograde in Cancer, June 2020 Energetic Update and Support

Abstract: Within a span of 3-4 days, a lot of astrological events have taken place, first is Mercury going retrograde in the sign of Cancer on the 18th, and on the 20th and 21st a new moon in Cancer with a solar eclipse along with the onset of the summer solstice, the day with the longest daylight hours in the Northern hemisphere, and conversely the winter solstice in the Southern hemisphere, where their night will be the longest. Many may not be aware of it but energies that flow within the planet are usually affected by various events, which can cause disruptions for most people. Certain energies stop, certain energies are released, and however that works for a person, movements of all sorts in all stages in all aspects of life can rattle the normalcy of energies. For the awakened folk however, such tidings are viewed as opportunities to heal, to review, to change, to transition, to improve. This also gives chances to reflect on what needs to be released, what needs to be let in, and all that other stuff that involves looking at the reality of things, of the shadow parts of the self, and unhiding everything that needs to be seen and heard, which really takes a toll on the entire energetic system if not handled carefully. As such, this post aims to provide some energetic update, on what can be expected and what can be done to mitigate the potential effects of the wonky energies, as well as to provide some form of energetic support or assistance, or at the very least help ease the dense feelings that are still lingering on this planet and give a sense of being seen, heard, or validated in these interesting times.

Disclaimer: Please seek the advice of medical professionals - mental and physical health professionals before doing whatever suggestions I made here. Otherwise, feel free to use any suggestions If, and only if you've exhausted all methods of finding any empirical evidence for the sources of your pain or suffering or any other issues.

Hi everyone, how are you all doing in the eclipse season? With Mercury Retrograde? And the onset of the solstices? During a new moon? I hope that despite the wonky energies along with the event that unnecessarily stopped the world because seriously all that needs is just personal accountability and implementing personal hygiene, you're all hanging in there somehow. And if you're energetically sensitive, there's probably some weird bodily events as well, which can range from something such as onset of asthma attacks or sweating more than usual or even having loose bowel movements out of nowhere. Even with a mostly-vegetable diet. However you feel the swirling vortex of flurried energies within your body, please know that it's just a subtle (really? lol) message from the universal realms that more stuff are being released right now and as always, the awakened folk are again, called to action for transmuting their own as well as the mass consciousness' stuff. Or if they're already doing it, to keep doing it.

Yeah, I know it's annoying, it's a thankless job, it's hard to see any gift in doing it, basically it can bring up so much victim consciousness and bregrudging feelings of abandonment, having to clear stuff that isn't ours, losing so much personal energy because not enough goes back to us for the transmutation process, and it keeps on adding all of the reasons why it's annoying to even be here and stay alive. Like as if losing livelihoods, ways of life, or having a sense of normalcy one way or another weren't enough 3D problems to even be dealt with. Yeah, if you feel that way, I feel you too. This isn't exactly a joyous time to be alive, through a 3D transcript. And yeah, it's easier to just end it all right here right now just to avoid the pain.

And here's the more annoying part: these events of isolation, of feeling desolate, of losing all hope for a better future, and all of those feelings that create even more pressure and dense energies which sap a lot of us of our positive and high-vibrational energies; these were not only predicted to happen but were actually scheduled to occur and continue to happen well into the next hundreds of years. But don't ask me why it even has to happen, because depending on which timeline you're all living in right now, the reasons as to why stuff like these are happening can vary. For some timelines, this is the collapsing that needs to happen in order to bring in the newer, higher-vibrational earth, earth in 5D. For other timelines, this is the part where resetting is needed in order to demolish old systems that created all of the energetic imbalances that have been proliferating for a very long time. Still, for some other timelines this period is the time when higher dimensional energies have started intercepting the flow of dense energies to assist the clearing process of the planet.

Whichever timeline you feel like you're in (I actually feel all 3, maybe even more than 3 exist but I don't know lol), all of the actions needed in order to go past the survival stage and end up thriving all boil down to taking personal responsibility and releasing the old energies of victimhood and lack in all ways. Personally, these are the energies that I have been working on for a long time now, and I feel so much stuff coming up for release, a lot aren't even mine (must be from the mass consciousness) and those which are actually mine, just hurt so much. But I have decided to do whatever it takes just to release all of the stuff and let in high vibrational energies so I won't drag down wherever I am living in right now. Not sure if it worked so far but based on how I read the energies not just in my own turf but also whatever I could sense within the neighborhood, I think the effects are OK. The downside is that because higher dimensional energies require each and everyone of us must take responsibility for our own energies and all our stuff, many people are starting to see their own shadows, the old pain that they repressed, victim stories that get amplified each time they're reviewed, and these are popping up a lot more in any form of media outlet available.

Honestly, I personally feel exhausted just thinking about it, so most of the time I just lock myself up and work on my own issues, as well as sending energies to the planet and also to myself. Not exactly fun stuff, but I just look at it like adulting, but in terms of spirituality and living in these interesting times. I don't know about other people but ever since I started doing my own personal work on my own stuff, I feel a bit more alive and free. I am also hoping that this kind of vibration gets translated into my material realm one way or another, but for the moment I just do my best on focusing my energies on transmuting and releasing what needs to be released, healed, and forgiven.

Please take note I don't use the words forgetting, or neglecting, or avoiding, or even just being absolutely positive. And again, I would like to emphasize the importance of living in non-duality in an extremely-polarized world, which just means to acknowledge all the light and dark aspects of life, to bring to light the stuff that were pushed in the back-burner and are desperately wanting to come out, to take responsibility for the creation of the un-pretty things and to just be fine with it, in however way, shape or form other people might see it. For me, many spiritual people, gurus, even influencers give off the energies and vibes of just forgetting the ugly events or matters that happened and just focus on thinking positive.

Yeah right, like that's the only thing needed for the world to change.

Not to bash these famous and influential people or anything, but seriously, I cringe each time they downplay the importance of looking at the ugly side of things and still seeing those as something beautiful, or even at the very least OK. I mean, this is precisely why the dense energies materialized in the first place: when people look the other way at the time when these things must be viewed with clear, unclouded eyes for what these truly are, and at the same time acknowledging that yes, these happened, it created pain one way or another, but at the same time it's OK as a part of some learning process, and that it does not define a person or a group of people or a thought process aka belief. Basically accepting the fact that yes, something went wrong, a mistake was made, but it's a part of learning and after everything that has happened, we can only move forward. Ego doesn’t want that, hence the victim mentality prevents any form of healing or release.

If that felt triggering, don't worry, even I got annoyed by what I typed, and yet in the scheme of all things, this is how the cogs function. Any triggers or reactions or similar feelings or actions are mirrors of the shadow, which helps us figure out the unhealed, dark parts of our selves which were more often than not stuff that we encountered in the early stages of development. These can also be generational, which we inherited through the kind of parenting we had when we were young. Inasmuch as it's fun and more easy to just put the blame on other people like our parents or caretakers, doing this a lot eventually cements the victim mentality even more, making healing and moving on so hecking stagnant. I should know, I was in that kind of place for quite a while, and the fact that once I started the process of forgiving, the healthy and authentic type which doesn’t condone the act and instead gives the person a choice to forgive the other party or just the self or let that be an open option in the future. It came to a point where I didn't even had to stay in a "support group" just to get the love that I needed to heal, and that I eventually left "support groups" because staying in there just kept me in victim mode due to the lack of any substantial method on how to move on from the pain and hurt. Plus a lot of the people in "support groups" just keep rehashing their victim stories, and while some do give their love out and support to others, a lot of the members just suck all the energies up by silently invalidating others through what OC people would call "lack of netiquette or forum decorum". Best example is putting one's own story through a comment on someone else's post. Like seriously, just make a post and do that, not dump the crap on someone else's stage. Oh well, just being OC on that.

So moving on....

What does these long-ass personal stuff have to do with the astrological events that just happened?

Great question, and thank you for asking.

Yeah, so there's a great mixture of potentially-conflicting energies that were generated starting from the Mercury Rx, down to the day where everything just plopped down in one go aka the New Moon x Solar Eclipse x Summer/Winter Solstice.

Why is this conflicting, you ask?

Well, for one thing, the Mercury Rx, like all of the retrogrades that we already have right now (we are basically in retrograde bonanza right now, and Mercury just topped the cake) bring up the energies of pulling back and going slow, rethinking things, going back to finish the unfinished, fix the unfixed, close the un-closed chapters, returning to places we have left and see if every stone was indeed upturned. There is a strong energetic calling for the release of the old, what doesn't serve anymore, and anything that stands in our way to success. But at the same time, the energies of the new moon, the solar eclipse, and the solstice energies bring upon the need for changes and upgrades, the need for movement, the opening of a new chapter, and energies are flowing in to be received by all. So judging from that alone, it doesn't exactly mesh together properly, it's like a push-pull thing.

But!

When you go deep with it, it's actually a great formula to get an energetic reset.

How?

Simple, really. First, you release the garbage or the energetic vampires or whatever doesn't serve you anymore, out to the universe, like reeeeally set them all free, cutting all the cords and cauterizing where the connections used to be. This frees up your energetic field from probable or even actual blockages, allowing you to have a bigger receiving capacity than before. Also, you  can even even choose to increase your receiving capacity a whole lot more, so that you can handle a lot of the higher dimensional energies that the universe sends down to us once the Mercury retrograde and all of the other retrogrades end. That sounds like a great idea if you ask me.

Of course, for this to happen, a lot of the grunt work aka the inner work must be made. This means that we must clean house, our inner temple, and since Cancer rules all things related to the home, family, or even just your sense of belonging, such energies related to these topics can become even more intense than usual, maybe even triggering. Which, in relation to that idea of home, if you've ever tried moving out and moving into a new place, the sorting and throwing out of stuff can really drive anybody mad, especially when you started seeing some stuff that you thought were gone but apparently were still hanging around you and still waiting for you to take whatever action is needed to move them or whatnot. This entire process can be really, really taxing to a lot of people, maybe for some OCD cleaners they have an extra capacity to go beyond and make things happen and go away but for some, especially with hoarder tendencies, the sorting and the throwing out or selling can turn into pure drudgery. Like it literally sucks the life out of anyone just looking at the piles of unsorted stuff and trash. It's emotionally taxing and draining, and the overwhelming feelings can send one into a spiral of crying and hopelessness.

Now try translating that into emotional baggage, energetic blockages, the shadows in the subconscious, all the sum total of the repressed emotions and memories... Yeah, I hope that drives the point home. It's basically overwhelming, and to be honest a lot of people just go down the spiral and just get stuck further down the hole, like there's no way out and the only way to go is down even further. That feeling just totally sucks, big time.

So having said all that....

What can we do to amp up our personal energies?

Well, pretty much like doing the sorting and throwing out of trash physically, just do it bit by bit, by how much you can manage, and being OK with whatever pace you can do comfortably, it's also the same with our own personal energies. I won't recommend flushing them all out in huge chunks, because the subconscious works in ways that can totally differ for every individual. Some people can heal and release quickly and never get triggered ever again, and some like yours truly just have a stubborn subconscious which I am still doing my best to figure out to nudge it in the direction of releasing a substantial proportion of the gunk and garbage and old issues. I've pretty much done everything available out there: reprogramming, energetic healing, inner child healing, shadow work, hypnotherapy, cord-cutting and other guided meditations, journalling, emotional releases, like honestly I feel like I just wanna end it all each time I do something and feel like the results are not showing up at all, let alone the slowness of any observable result even after months of doing the said stuff. It's quite painful, tiring, like the universe just forgot that I exist and only other people get the help. Heck, even the devil doesn't even want to buy my soul because it's too-tainted even for their tastes and would run far away because I might take their throne away because I've got nothing to lose but they do. That's how low my thoughts would go when I'm on the downward spiral of being in a depressive state. Yeah sure I can laugh about it now but when I'm really, really low, the stuff just comes out like that and it just drives me nuts and renders me immobile for a long time.

So basically it’s a must to take the time to go slow so that the subconscious can actually release the stuff. But more importantly, to recognize all of the old patterns so that finding what to heal and release can be a lot easier. Also being kind to yourself and finding some sort of validation and support from other people who were able to get over the victim mentality and have actual tips on how to cope can really help, like even if it's just the validation part, just so that you can regain the right to be seen and heard, and feel a lot more worthy than you already do.

OK, so that's somewhat understandable, but what other stuff we can do during this time?

Well, aside from clearing the mind, body, heart and soul, you can also do some actual physical cleaning in your house, throw out the old garbage. You can also clear your emails, your phonebook, friend list, subscriptions or following lists, or whatnot. You can also continue the stuff you haven't finished yet, as well as to reconnect with people that you deem important because they reflect who you are right now. It is also not recommended to start anything new until the Mercury Rx is over, and that goes for a lot of the other retrograded planets too, because once the energies start coming directly it's possible that many significant or important things can become overlooked so what you thought seems to be OK turns out to be crappy and not actually worth it once the issues start popping up. Best to think and rethink such actions first and allow the energies to support you in whatever higher dimensional goals you're weaving right now.

Any concluding remarks?

Nothing really, I felt like anyone who wants to just get the gist of the entire thing can just read the abstract and be OK with that, but anyone who wants to dig deeper can just read the entirety of this post.

Oh, and before I forget, an energy-infused photo to help you in any way possible, even if it's just an energetic and virtual hug from the universe, through me.

Lol I tried taking a pic of the eclipse, it was just partial in this part of the world so it looks like a bitten cookie. Yeah, the crescent shape in the black background is the sun partially-covered by the passing new moon. It’s the best I could do with what I have right now so... There.

I hope this post provided you not just with information but also some sort of support in these interesting times. It's even more challenging than the previous ones, but if you look at it this way, at this time we're experiencing something that nobody else living right now has ever experienced. It's something new, so by working on our selves and sorting out all of our stuff we can emerge to be better than our old selves, like resistant bacteria or resistant fiber. A sucky analogy, but many people have been affected by methicillin-resistant Staphylococcus aureus aka MRSA aka flesh-eating bacteria so instead of feeling sorry for things just think of yourself as MRSA that is doing their best to live their best life unaffected by the elements and the outside world and actually making changes in their world.

And in case I forget to mention this...

Just remember that you are loved, you are worthy of that love, and that no matter what happens, you have the power to change your fate and create your own destiny.

Offering you my free hugs and love, while wishing you all the best that life has to offer, I remain your friend,

Mikazuki

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Thank you so much and be blessed!

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Law of Attraction: Do Opposites Really Attract?

IF this was the topic sentence then it should look like this: It's been a long while since the Law of Attraction (LOA) busted out into mainstream culture, but seriously is making so many heads turn away and eyes rolling up the sky. I wonder why? Could it be that the law was wrong? Misrepresented? Misleading? A big mistake? Well, whether that's true or not, one thing is for sure: Attraction is what drives human passion, and whether or not it's due to similarities or polarities will all depend on who's wielding the whole attraction field.

Warning: Very long post, so I did my best to make it in such a way that you can scan and speed read stuff so you can still get something here. Thank you for reading. Oh, and there’s a summary and conclusion portion at the end of this post so if you’re tl;dr mode you’re welcome lol

Hey guys, what's up? Bet you didn't see this post coming lol yeah I know even I was surprised to be typing this today, but it has been bugging me for a few days now so I guess I have to get this out of my head and get a good night's rest. Also, I kept getting weird songs in my head singing that opposites attract, and me, a sucker of the Law of Attraction (LOA) stuff for quite a while now and somewhat unearthing all the stuff hidden from common knowledge since I discovered this (and other universal laws that apparently affect our lives one way or another) have been getting conflicting results so I shall be sharing the stuff that I found out and whatever I'm going to type in this post (tah-dah, channeled stuff lol) for everyone who's been frustrated at making this universal law work for their own favor.

The Premise: What you think about is what you'll attract. Therefore, change your thoughts to change what you pull into your world. What the mainstream isn't telling the people: Your SUBCONSCIOUS MIND is the one that DRIVES what YOU pull into your world, whether you like it or not. How I came up with this stuff: I discovered LOA around the same time that I consciously awakened, and desperate to shift my shitty life, I decided there and then to undertake the task of leveling-up my shadow work so that I could rid everything that has been keeping me in a crappy state of mind and reality. Also the depressive state has gotten to me so much that I was literally wallowing in self-pity before sleeping each night. So yeah, when I started manifesting "nice" stuff, like a plane trip to somewhere I haven't been in before, having some pocket money for that, and for some weird reason being able to live despite a lot of "lacks", I started believing in the idea that "thoughts become reality." It was pretty awesome, until sometime later I started manifesting the "crappy" stuff: Manifesting a job that only seemed "nice" on the surface but was really like a can of worms that only waited for me to open it up and change it all permanently, for a lot of people.

Honestly it was scary and each time I think about it, I am actually scared that I bring chaos everywhere I go, but at this point I am just thinking that if things were as they were and there were no hidden agendas, it won't be a can of worms to begin with. I have already accepted the fact that anything rooted in lies can and will get uprooted to show the truth and be transformed into whatever its true form was. But this wasn't just in the workplace, but also for me, personally. I attracted the wrong kind of people, those that prey on insecurities and the people pleasers and all that crappy stuff that apparently were still in my subconscious and in my energetic field. They all seem nice and shiny until the time that they show their true selves, which can really heck you up, big time. Weirdly a lot of people let down their guard around me and show their true selves, like even psychically I could feel out what kind of person these people were. I don't mind if those are just the stuff that I originally sense from them and then later find out that I'm on point, but are just benign nuances that I could live with. But there were times when I feel scared even just thinking about it because there was a time when I kept getting some ultra-low vibes, like from a sexual predator within the area, and, well, they kinda showed up, in my face. I was scared for my life. I guess some saving grace that I am still thankful for despite the events were that someone was around the area as well, so the predatory attacks were minimized to some degree which I can manage and escape from. Not fun, but it happens.

But I did everything to clear my thoughts!!!

Well, turns out my subconscious programming of not being enough, my constant depressive state that was at some point labeled as "high-functioning depression" which allowed me to hold a decent job while wanting to die at the same time (yeah I know it happens), being too-desperate for someone to fawn over me and tell me how nice and whatever I am, all those insecurities that were all a huge bunch of snow about to fall into a massive avalanche, the stuff that I didn't get to uncover through shadow work, these beliefs and ideas and notions of who I am as a person attracted really shady characters that, one way or another made me question my life choices over and over again. It's still a miracle that despite the crappy results, I am still OK putting myself out there, or at least seeing that as an option in the future.

Seriously, after what happened, if I can hide any further or bury myself in the ground just to make the pain stop, I would have done that. But at the same time, I am still doing my best to hold on to any form of hope that everything will get better. That at the very least, I can improve my discernment of people so that I can put my trust  on the right people at the right time. I am still hoping for that to happen, but right now, as the world is starting to feel the energies from the higher dimensional realms, I have consciously chosen to focus more on my own growth, because seriously, I have a lot of subconscious programming that are really hecked up, like big time.

For instance: I am more than willing to sell myself less that what I'm really worth, just to make do. Which, translated to conscious terms: I am not worthy to be recognized (and paid in all energetic ways) and be given what is rightfully due of me. How I am healing that idea at the moment: Building my skills as well as self-confidence through subconscious reprogramming that whatever I am right now, I am enough, and worthy of love from the universe. How I check if this belief has been changed: Muscle test, feelings test, because the subconscious mind can give answers to any Yes-No questions, or just paint a vivid picture of whatever it wants to say. Like. it doesn't even bother to spell or write. It just paints a picture and pulls up feelings and emotions that are familiar or alien to us, however that feels for us.

OK but we still haven't touched the topic of "Do opposites really attract?", Like don't keep us waiting here.

No worries fam, Mika-chi's got you. And this is what I really want to write here, but it would seem weird without my weird rambling premise above because I don't know, maybe it would seem to make sense once this part gets built.

Premise: Opposites attract I beg to differ, and offer this idea instead: You get attracted to anything that you "think" you don't have yet. Conversely, you don't get attracted to anything that you already have or you don't like because subconsciously you already have whatever that is.

I will be writing this through the lenses of being in a relationship of any kind, because that's what I can think about right now that may have some sense to most people. Also relationships are extremely over-rated or even misrepresented through mass media, so this notion might break the illusion to most, if not some.

How did I come up with such a dumb idea anyway?

Well, I did say it's going to be based on relationships, and because that's the kind of stuff I may have some experience on, that's what I'll post here. If you think or feel that I am ringing my own bells for writing stuff here that I have personally experienced, uhm.. I'd rather do that than steal someone else's blog and paste their own crap here. I may be blowing my own horns but at least I don't steal. My personal integrity is my most valuable possession right now, and I am doing my best to take care of it and help it grow. Also as a content creator here, or elsewhere, I recognize the value of creativity and anything that a person makes through their own skills and efforts, and I expect to get that same respect. I don't care if the creator of that content thinks it's ugly AF. If you ask me what I think, if you did it with all your heart and effort then it's beautiful AF, and I could feel that beauty energetically, hands down. Besides, if a person wants to improve, there's always a way to improve: do it everyday, learn and grow everyday.

Which brings me to the idea that opposites do not attract per se, but that what one lacks in itself, it tries to get for itself.

Case in point: Plants

Why do plants grow towards the sun? Like, even if you plant them upside-down, they will always do their best to grow to where the sun is.

Why is that?

Simple, plants know what they need, and they need sunlight. Sunlight to produce their own food. The sunlight helps the chlorophyll convert nutrients as well as the atmospheric carbon into sugars that they can store as food (photosynthesis, light reactions) But they don't have that sunlight all the time, so they grow more cells (leaf cells) to catch more sunlight, grow more cells to keep going towards the sun (vascular tissues aka their stems), so that they can keep going to where the sunlight shines the most.

OK, so how can I apply this to me and my own relationships? I don't photosynthesize and shit.

Yeah, great question you got there, and Mika-chi's got you covered.

But first, I will ask you something:

Think of your crush. Or your special person. Or your significant other, if you're blessed to have one right now. Now, think clearly, without the rose-tinted glasses, what made you sway towards them? Why do you like them? What makes them likeable to you? List as much as you can, take your time.

OK, now you've probably listed like what, 1, 3, 20, or how many reasons you got for liking that particular person.

NOW, for more hecking-ups, and be ABSOLUTELY HONEST with yourself, ok?

As you are right now, do you think YOU DON'T HAVE these attributes within you? Lemme rephrase that: In your list of "Why do I like/love my special person/significant other", DO YOU BELIEVE, that YOU DON'T HAVE ANY OF THOSE LIKEABLE STUFF RIGHT NOW?

Now, why did I even ask something as dumb and as triggering as that?

Simple really, it's likely that you liked that person because they probably have something that you secretly wanted, or subconsciously wanted to covet. Reaaaaaally think about that for a moment.

It can be that they're really nice and kind and warm. Or that they're thoughtful. Or they make you laugh and feel at ease. Or they're super-smart, tech-savvy, updated with the new stuff. Or maybe they're beautiful, handsome, aesthetically-pleasing. Can sing really good, or draws really well. Or good at games, console or not, digital or not. Or have really good leadership skills, or money skills, or they’re super-analytical logical. Or just being super-confident, self-assured, emotionally-secure.

Basically whatever you think is attractive.

But have you ever thought about the idea that... What if YOU started CULTIVATING those same stuff INSIDE YOU?

What would happen then? Would you still like them in the same way right now?

Now, just let the ideas sink in. You can leave this post right now and ponder about the ideas and come back later.

OR....

Just keep reading.

OK fam, whatever it is you’re thinking right now, I hate to break this to you but.... Whatever the case is, it all boils down to a basic idea:  You don't have those attributes yet so when you see someone with those traits you immediately hone in on them. And to be honest, this is something subconscious. You may "think" you don't know why, but unfortunately, this is probably the WHY.

BUT WHY????? How dare you say these blasphemous things!

Yeah, precisely, that's what I was thinking before I got my epiphany 7 years ago. It was both horrible and yet at the same time empowering, AF. It was also scary, and that's what got me thinking about how the entire thing about "opposites attract" was just one large piece of crap, which was later somewhat uppended by the LOA because again, the law states that YOU ATTRACT WHAT YOU THINK/BELIEVE. And if you keep attracting crappy stuff, that's the subconscious beliefs thinking THAT'S WHAT YOU DESERVE, no matter how many positive affirmations your conscious mind eats everyday.

OK, putting this in a relationship perspective again, here's how I came up with that notion:

In my previous relationship, I basically tuned in to this dude because he has a lot of attributes that, in my 3D dead asleep mind found quite attractive, such as a tall height (cries in 5' lol but hey now I'm 5' 3/4" so yeah lol), really good with math (the dude's an engineering student), really commanding (somewhat Caucasian) facial features (laughs in my Southeast-Asian face lol), nice singing voice, good reasoning skills, clear and focused thinking, knows how to commit and attend to scheduled activities, draws structures, isometric drawings, and manga characters in ink really well (technical drawings especially inks do require a lot more skills than freehand penciling), can ride a big motorbike, and to be honest, is also an otaku like yours truly. In my 3D dead asleep way of thinking, I don't have a lot of these attributes, ok maybe I do have some like the OK singing voice, the commanding facial features (but with the looks of a typical Southeast-Asian), substantial reasoning skills (that's a requirement for science degrees lol), committment to schedules (as needed), and some substantial drawing skills (needed to draw bacterial cells, cheek cells, and chromosomes lol), but the other stuff, I don't have back then.

But then things changed when the Fire Nation attacked. LOL just kidding, NOT.

OK, so when the breakup happened (gah what a terrible segue lol) and after sometime, I strongly felt the need to build my self-esteem and self-confidence again, because let me tell you, getting dumped or rejected one way or another can really, REALLY take a toll on your entire being. Especially when you take any form of rejection as a personal attack, as a child. Yeah, I know right, it sucks. But some of us are programmed like that. And we have to degunk that junk so that we can heal ourselves and all that jazz. But at the time when that happened to me, I was still somewhat in the 3D dead asleep state, and what's worse was that aside from getting no resolution nor proper closure from the breakup (still have no idea why but I've gotten past that somehow), surprise, surprise, I've lost the ability to walk without enduring excruciating pain. I was basically living in my bed, no physical therapy other than me doing that on my own, and desperately trying to piece back whatever scraps of life I still hold in my hand. So I did something that felt so alien to me.

I started learning Math. Mind you, not college level math. Not even high school math. Yep. I learned elementary math. Primary level math. That was my major waterloo. I can't do that shit. I didn't even know the entire multiplication table back then. Yeah I survived and even graduated with a Science degree without knowing that basic shit. Laugh all you want, but I survived through college with a scientific calculator that was older than me and some basic knowledge of statistics. I flunked some subjects but they're math so yeah. But I still finished that science course which was full of math (suprise, surprise, I’m a Biology graduate, specialized in Genetics and that shit was full of math lol), even if I had to crawl.

But that was a long time ago, and being at my lowest low (back then) I needed something to fill in the void and help me become complete. So I learned primary math. I learned how to do long division (former boyfriend taught me but forgot a lot because I didn't get to use them a lot, just to get through the Civil Service Exam), recall the multiplication table better, divide decimals, and all the primary math stuff I don't know. I do get well with fractions and percentages though, so I guess at some point I have come to believe that I wasn't half as dumb as I thought I was.

I also took the time (before I lost my lower-limb powers) to learn how to draw realistic portraits of people, just to prove to myself that I have some self-worth of some sort. This drew in mixed reactions to people within my former social media network, ranging from "wow that's cool" to "stop wasting time get back to work". Of course, as with all of my efforts, I didn't learn the techniques as fast as I wanted them to learn, but there came a time that everything just clicked and things fell into place (I am eternally grateful to EXO for this, lol). It was a harsh, uphill battle to build my self-esteem to even half of what it was, and in a way, I was able to recover, for a while. Yeah, I know it wasn't the best way but at that time, I was hopelessly burying the gnawing pain of loss by doing the stuff that I thought I didn't have, but turns out that I actually did.

A few years in, I was feeling great, and I felt that nicer things were coming my way again. I started driving to work (my workplace was quite far), started to mentor thesis students again, and everything was going well despite some aspects that were still sucky. In a way, building myself back up to be stronger was a great plan, back then, just so I could show myself to the world again, and do stuff. I thought I was OK, but deep inside I was still wanting to have that closure that I never had, and by this time I haven't learned to BE CAREFUL OF WHAT TO WISH FOR, because boy oh boy the universe can get batshit crazy.

Due to a series of events, I ended up meeting the former boyfriend, like I have zero clue that it was even possible. I mean, back then, I felt that the universe was so mean to make it happen, because after that meetup there was STILL no closure. No apologies, no reasons given, nothing. And to be honest, I am still kicking myself every now and then because I SHOULD HAVE MOVED ON AFTER ALL THAT SHIT. In the end, I was unable to go to the deep roots of grieving for my original loss, and because that had a shaky foundation that only focused on the external stuff, it broke me.

SO it was time to step up to "why did I even like this person - Ver 2.0".

This process took quite a long time that by the time I was about to finish I was already at a screwed up place and feeling that same feeling again, of breaking and shattering again. It was just horrible AF but that time I had to kick myself in the butt to sincerely, just forgive and move on. That despite what happened to me, I can still come back on top and be my self-assured self. I had to build my mental capacity to be OK with being sucky and making mistakes. Not easy but doable, and by the time I was healed, I was already looking forward to having a fresh new start with someone MORE LIKE ME, maybe not now but in the future. I was, and still am doing my best to enjoy being a self-assured single grandma lol but also still being open to the idea of meeting someone better in the future, despite the pandemic right now. I mean, miracles can happen so I don't see why it can't lol

OK but you still haven't said anything about attracting or getting attracted to someone that seems your polar opposite, or not opposite.

Oh yeah, thank you for reminding me about that. Yeah, I was getting to that part..

So after meeting the former boyfriend and getting to chat and whatnot, I found out, energetically and through his mannerisms and speech that after all these years, HE WAS STILL THE SAME. But even more disturbing for me at that time, and probably still, is that HE WAS NOT WILLING TO LEARN AND CHANGE. To some degree. Maybe he held some contempt for me, maybe for him I'm just the crazy ex-gf, I'll probably never know (because we don't talk anymore lol but also at this point I’m like yeah sure whatever makes him happy I just don't care much anymore lol). So at that point, I was starting to think "Why did I fell for this dude again?" Like seriously, I didn’t know anymore. We've drifted so far apart that we're basically polar opposites, and to be honest I feel a bit disappointed with myself that I actually fell for someone like that. I mean, yeah, sure, he has his good points, but the fact that through all the years I was with this person, I could strongly feel that he was keeping a lot of stuff from me, maybe just to keep the peace, maybe just to shut me up, and here I was having strong alarm bells ringing and telling me that "this dude be lyin." And the more I pushed him to be honest, the more he rebelled.

In the end, looking back, he never felt safe to be vulnerable with me, in the entirety of that relationship, and up to this day I still feel horrible that I was unable to be the safe haven for him like he was for me. For him, he probably valued peace and harmony more than being honest with whatever he was feeling inside. I personally value honesty and transparency more than the harmony and peace, because the reality of life is that if a person is kind enough, even though your ideas and beliefs are disharmonious, if the person has some kindness inside them, the differences can easily be overlooked because kindness brings upon respect. Unfortunately in our case, we weren't woke enough to even realize that. Even worse was that my insecurities due to my hecked up childhood more likely pushed him to the farthest regions of the universe, so I won't blame him if he thinks I'm worse than the stinkiest food in the world. Heck, even I still cringe whenever I remember being such an insecure bitch, really, like that was so far from me right now, but at the same time I am doing my best to embrace that insecure bitch because at the end of it all, if I never realized that, I'm still probably stuck in the same space, and still pining for a person who will never, ever love me back the way I wanted to be loved, nor could I ever give hime the love he wanted and needed. Well, to be honest, that whole shit was a karmic thing anyway so I am just doing my best to forgive the past, to grow to be a much more loving, compassionate person, but at the same time taking zero shit from everyone. Yeah still building the no-BS musculature so I could love others as much as I can love myself. I think that's fair, right?

So right now, at present, based on what I have gathered so far from my past experiences, everything that I felt that I didn’t have, I did my best to build inside me. To the best of my abilities. And each time I uncover one shadow after another, I do my best to forgive and accept that shadow as a part of me. In a way, it healed me, and brought me self-assurance of what I am and what I am worth. It also helped me decide on what would be the most important traits or characteristics for me in finding that special someone in the future. For instance, realizing what are the things and beliefs that I deem important, for me, if I do not see that in another person, or worse, if they're totally the polar opposite of what I believe in, I see a huge opportunity to move on fast. Because it does not reflect what I have. For example, if a person is not in the path of self-development, self-improvement or in the journey of spiritual awakening or whatever the heck I am in right now, that's already one major thing that would help me walk away in the other direction. Or, if a person choses to be extremely polarized and not wanting to see any other perspectives with regards to problems or issues, I'd start walking out the door. Or if a person just underestimates my capabilities, or thinks I'm dumb and I don't know what I'm talking about, without even listening or hearing me at all, I'd fly away as fast as I can right there and then. Or the biggie, when a person has zero empathic skills and always looks down on others or laughs at the shortcomings of other people without evaluating the person as a whole. I'd take the first train out of there, because seriously, why choose such people to be with, other than being scared of loneliness? Honestly, I'd rather be alone than be with a person that I can't stand to be with, just because society or my insecurities dictate it. I love myself enough to walk away from such "securities" in my life, because at the end of the day, I deserve better things. And these people also deserve to be with people that reflects who they are deep inside, no hard feelings there.

Of course, despite all that esoteric stuff, finding an aesthetically-pleasing tall-statured dude is still on my list, but this time, with more bearings on the internal traits, which are mostly what I already have with me, so that I can let go of all the relationship dramas that society deems "normal". Because really, it is possible to remove dramas in relationships, I mean, dramas are really just optional garbage that everyone can opt out of, but to make that happen it takes two to tango. Still doable though, which is why the concept of "conscious uncoupling" exists, as well as "conscious coupling". And honestly, I would really, really want to give the idea of "conscious coupling" a try, because frankly, if a person can move past the subconscious programming and make improvements in such a way that all relationships become healthy for everyone involved, I don't see any reasons for hearts being broken, nor families and individuals becoming broken through doing a lot of unconscious processes aka 3D dead asleep consciousness. Otherwise, repeating patterns and cycles of negativity, abuse, and just overall sucky relationships will keep coming back in various shapes or forms, with different people and circumstances, until one way or another, a person chooses to do something totally different and to consciously change.

Oh glob, this was quite a long-ass post, but I hopefully made my points clear. If not, I'll make a summary and conclusion portion here:

The idea that opposites attract have long been deemed as something legitimate and logical, due to magnetic poles, but this notion directly opposes the Law of Attraction through the implementation processes, as LOA states that attraction to or of something happens with anything or everything that you want and/or already have. But looking past that, it must be clearly stated that in order for LOA to work as normal and not allow the "Opposites Attract" paradigm to occur, a subconscious clearing of any opposing beliefs must be in order. Otherwise, what a person wants will not come to them but what is the opposite, because the subconscious wants something else and this something else is what gets magnified through subconscious manifestations and gets magnetized into the person's life, hence the operation of the "Opposites Attract" paradigm into the person's life and not the LOA. With such premises, these concepts are also applicable to the nature of human relationships, wherein a person's subconscious beliefs about themselves and their own perceived self will keep attracting the same kind of love that people around them imprinted to them during their early years, which can manifest as having low self-esteem, low self-worth, near-zero self-confidence, not feeling enough, and the person they get into a relationship with will keep reflecting these beliefs to them by getting the kind of treatment their subconscious believes that they deserve, until these people become consciously aware of these patterns and correlate these to how other people treated them in the past and still do in the present. As such, it needs a strong, conscious decision and a committed effort to reprogram the subconscious mind to stop the "Opposites Attract" paradigm and to allow the true LOA to work for people, because in the end, LOA is a formidable force that works for all people in all walks of life, awakened and consciously living, or not.

Again, thank you so much for reading this very long post, but I hope it helped you in any way.

Wishing you all the best that life has to offer, I remain your friend, Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

[mikazukikannagisjourney]

Full Moon in Sagittarius x Lunar Eclipse June 2020

Hi everyone, I’ll make this post a bit short because why not. Also, how are you all doing despite the really weird and crazy energetic shifts that the whole world is now feeling, like super strong energies that want to push EVERYONE to MOVE AND CHANGE..? Yep, this was what the older messages in this blog were about, not just channeled through me but to a lot of people, whether they’re into the whole esoteric-energetic woo woo stuff or not. Good thing the energetic shifts and alarm bells started ringing a bit early for all the woke people to sniff and adjust into, so at least some people can hang on to whatever is left of their sanity lol

But!!!

We can now also see the effects that the energetic shifts are causing to the entire “unaware” collective, and if I was to look at things from a 3D perspective, the whole world is just screaming in pain. However, if we zoom in from a higher dimensional perspective, the density that wants to escape is now manifesting through the collective energies of the “sleeping” populations, hence the world-wide chaos that MUST happen to release these old, dense vibrations. Of course I am not discounting nor degrading any form of old pain coming up in one way or another, as well as the pains that others are feeling right now. Like seriously, it’s not fun feeling literal and figurative pain each day that isn’t even mine. Like I wanna stop my daily crying bonanza it’s ruining my eyes lol But seriously... It’s pretty much one reason why it took me this long to put up this energetic support post, I have to clear my own issues as well, and it won’t be fair to anybody, even to me if I channel icky energies and post it here (because I also use the energetically-infused photos I posted myself). Gotta clear me up first. It’s self-care and self-love, which is what the collective desperately needs right now, especially at the start of eclipse season.

Aside from clearing the dense stuff first within us, and then outside us, now more than ever do we really need to fill in with love, fill in with hope, fill in with TRUE optimism. Not the toxic kind of optimism (which denies all existence of the negativities altogether), but the kind of optimism that looks at the ABSOLUTE TRUTH with clear, unclouded eyes (Thank you Uncle Iroh for the original quote) and still finds the courage to look to a brighter road ahead. This is what the Sagittarius energies coming in can help us with. To move forward with confidence, compassion, with love, with care, to ourselves and others. Because we are all connected in this quantum field, like all bodies of water are, one way or another connected to the oceans and seas.

And with that said, here is an energy-infused photo to help you ease into the energetic shifts during this eclipse season:

If this photo made you laugh, or made you wonder what it is (surprise, surprise, it’s a world map from a very old encyclopedia set), well, at least that helped somehow. I mean, this is my “sending healing energies to the world” setup, the crystals are just placed like that as the cardinal directions, Red Jasper to root and ground the energies to Mother Earth and everyone who needs the energy, Lapis Lazuli for higher-wisdom from the upper dimensions, Rose Quartz for healing of everyone’s hearts, and Black Obsidian to release and transmute all the dense stuff into higher-vibrational energies, plus the Clear Quartz in the middle is the amplifier-energizer thingy. 

If you’re also an energy channeler and healer and would want to help in any way, but at the moment can’t do much due to the many restrictions brought upon by the pandemic, if you feel the calling, you can also do this setup with a world map or with your phone’s map app, with or without the crystals. I know it’s a thankless job that pragmatic people would probably scoff at, but hey, who knows, maybe with your channeling of higher-vibrational energies it can help tip the scales into balance again. I mean, any form of assistance to aid the earth’s clearing sessions can help. Not to ring my own bells but ever since the year started and many natural calamities started popping up, it was my instinct and intent to channel energies into the world. I have been doing this for a while now, and whether it helped or not, I just keep doing it. I don’t have much right now and I do have to face my own issues myself but doing this and knowing and believing that at some point, even if only one person in the world receives the energies and starts cultivating hope, love, and compassion inside them, then that helps me sleep at night with some gratitude. I hope that for you, for myself, and for everyone in this interestingly-interesting times. To shine the light that has been inside each and every one of us all along.

Wishing you all the best that life has to offer, I remain your friend, Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

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Solar Return Musings and other Stuff, May 27, 2020

Short note: These are just my solar return rantings and musings, so if you just need the energetic support to get through the crazy energies running around right now,  just go to the end of the post for an energetically-infused photo to fill you with love, hope, and courage =) have a great day! OK long-a$$ post coming right up lololol As of yesterday, I have entered my mid-30s, which I would have fretted over greatly have I not awakened to my infinite being-ness. Weirdly enough, priorities do change when a person reaches a certain point in life, and for the past 10 years, maybe more than than or something this body started its own awakening process. It felt weird just thinking about it because my brain took so much time before it awakened, so yeah basically I already manifested nearly ALL spiritual awakening symptoms and I still wasn't doing the work needed, I just though it was all work-stress. I had constant callings to meditate but I was too busy watching anime, movies, dramas, throwing too much of myself to my former uhm, life, stuff, insert words here. Fill in the blanks lol. And then everything just comes crashing down until I had nothing but my own shattered dreams. That's when I slowly started using binaural beats to induce something to happen to my body, or at the very least use my legs (they kinda died along with my hope and dreams back then).

Whew. That felt like a lifetime ago, but honestly it felt so far away even though I only started to consciously-awake 4 years ago or something? Maybe less? I really don't know. Then again, as many spiritually-woke people kept saying, these are interesting times, wherein you live inside a body with as many lifetimes as a buy-one-get a multitude free. Basically as long as a person consciously (or in my case my body freaking chose it for me, dang it) chooses to, anyone can live at least 2 or 3 lifetimes in the same body. I actually feel like I have lived 30+ years in a span of 10, I feel like after having so many losses, meeting so many people both nice and not, all the heck-ups that happened, it’s a miracle I am still alive. What’s even more amazing is that despite whatever hell on earth I experienced in the past 10 years, there were nice parts to be grateful for, like learning more metaphysical stuff, learning what needs to be healed and transmuted like traumas and other genetic stuff, regaining and embodying my old psychic self from my childhood days, establishing clear boundaries because unscrupulous people will DEFINITELY step all over wishy-washy, extremely-giving or doormat people, and whatever needs to be done in order to help clear not just my own morphic field but the mass consciousness energies as well. Seriously though, for me, my best takeaway was learning that I am actually able to channel energies, and if I didn't have a psychic friend to return whatever I channeled I would have doubted everything. So in a way, even though things were seriously slow-going, I guess I'm ok at this pace. It would be better if it was a lot faster though

Speaking of gratitude, I got fed up being ungrateful for quite a while, so for a change I just chose to find something to be thankful for, even if it's just one. I guess it started clearing my energies bit by bit. I couldn't do it all by myself though, so aside from channeling the energies on my own, I also started adjusting the flow of energies (chi or prana) in my own space by bringing in some fallen flowers (they just fall out of the plant even if they look perfectly fine), and I guess it sorta helped me manage my depressive states to a certain degree. In the beginning I honestly just wanted to see some other living thing other than myself and some lizards, or the occasional insects that pop in, and weirdly the flowers helped a lot, even if there were just 3 or even 1 of them in a bowl. I guess it became meditative for me to gather them in the afternoons, before night falls. The flowers resemble hibiscus but they change colors, from yellow in the morning as they bloom, to having red-orange petal tips in the late afternoon or dusk (I gather them during these times) to being fully red at night. After about 4 weeks of doing it daily, I found a trend on how many I can collect per day: Saturdays bring a lot, at most 9 (it's a day that promotes planting and other agricultural pursuits); Tuesdays bring at most, 3? (it is a Mars Day afterall); and the rest of the week ranges from 5 to 7 flowers. I did my best not to put too much attachment to the meanings, I just did my best to be grateful for how many I can pick in a day. As long as I get at least one per day, I'm all good.

Of course, on the day of my solar return, after having difficulty getting some work done (it was hot and humid and everything just feels fuzzy) I finally got out and decided to just check on my passionflower vines and see if I got any flowers from this weird hibiscus plant. As always, the passionflower vines went haywire with the growth again, and I have yet to figure out how to even manage them so they won't strangle the other plants nearby, including the weird hibiscus plant. Speaking of, here's the weird thing about the plant yesterday. It was a Tuesday so I was expecting to just get around 2 or 3, but I got a whopping 14, it was a miracle I was able to hold them in my hand. It felt like the universe gave me a nice birthday bouquet, and I just enjoyed the feeling as I gathered them while a rolling thunder passes over my head. It felt great. Even one of the other flowering plants that only bloom a handful of tiny flowers actually had so much flowers, so I guess it made me giddy. I guess it's nice to receive flowers from the universe, it was a gift that lifted up my spirits. Also it was a small reminder to just embrace my romantic-AF side lol So after thanking the universe for the nice flowers I collected all of the weird hibiscus flowers, gathered them into a bowl, and they looked like these:

If you squint at the photo, the bowl looks like pizza lol but hey, that's a nice thing I could look forward to once citizen mobility becomes an actual thing. I mean, I'm not the only one who got stuck at home for their birthdays, there's like 2-3 months worth of birthdays that got stuck at home, among other things, so I truly feel for those who wanted to feel special even under quarantine. Yes the flower-bowl photo is also energetically-infused so if you're someone who didn't get to enjoy your special day due to the pandemic, please allow the loving energies of the flower bowl to fill you with universal love.

Other stuff I was able to be grateful for was getting a handful of birthday stuff, I mean, in times like these it's easy to expect people to take care more of themselves, and I honestly don't mind if people chose to just do their own thing today. My mother rarely makes birthday food (her birthday is 2 days ahead of mine so I normally just eat whatever is left of that lolol) but I got some fruit salad and it was great, but I think I had way too much and my tummy kept making U-turns. I also got some greetings from people that I care about, and it was nice. The thing about birthday energies is that it brings a lot of mixed emotions, and instead of enjoying the entire day, I had to transmute a lot of old traumas stuck in my head, in my body, all that stuff, to the point that I just decided to send my grateful replies to the messages I received like, today. I wouldn't wanna tie my low vibes with people who wished me well so I did the proactive approach and just cleared whatever low vibes I had. It took a long while, and by the time I was done, it was already midnight and I had to do some quick and soothing meditations just to feel great about myself. At times, whenever I had to do these things, I sometimes wished I never woke up in the first place. Unfortunately, this kind of awakening is like learning how to ride a bike, once you learn how to balance and move forward (hint: pushing the pedal faster makes falling down nearly-impossible lol), it’s forever bonded with your entire being.

Seriously, this whole conscious awakening business is not exactly all sunshine and rainbows, and I often find myself cringing whenever I come across a post or a video about spiritual awakening and the path of enlightenment as something all unicorns and ice cream sprinkles like I have to use ALL of my powers NOT to judge them. Because that's what they have at that given moment, and that is what they wanna share. As for me, even if my own experiences weren't 100% magical, they're not all that bad either. I just choose to embrace all of the experiences as stuff that helps me move forward, good or bad, ugly or beautiful, crappy or not, intentional or accidental, they are all for a better good. It's normal and OK to feel victimized every now and then, we have deep programmings that need to be rebooted so that we can enjoy everything in 3D, regardless of whether we got extremely lucky or extremely screwed. I mean, that's the weird thing about duality and playing that game: seeing both sides of the coin and accepting the fact that it's all the same coin is what brings back our lost power, instead of just choosing all that is light or all that is dark. Everything is connected and that is what sets people free. The only thing that people must consciously choose is to live in their own truth, otherwise choosing to live other people's truths will continuously run their lives, and that's what breaks people. I should know, I was stuck in that crap for a long time. Now I'm currently in limbo but I am doing my best to continuously connect to the higher dimensional realms, and to heal and increase my capacity to feel and receive universal energies so that I won't have to live someone else's life anymore. That's what I promised to do for myself and I am doing the best that I can to uphold that. I honestly don't know where I am right now but I am hoping to become a whole lot better in my own personal journey.

In relation to that idea, I am doing my best to be my own support group, cheerleader, therapist, and all that stuff because to be honest, for the next years and decades after this pandemic issue, there will be a call for independence, of being able to fix the self, because the energies are coming in to change the excessive interdependent natures of people. I mean, don't get me wrong, nothing bad about that right now and we will all continue to be dependent on others, and others will be dependent on us, but certain parts of humanity will start to go inwards, like finding the truth within themselves. Also, there will be a greater need to be kind, understanding, and forgiving to the self, more so than others. Denying the self's needs are what caused disorder in the first place, and universal energies are coming in right now to push people to be more selfish, in a healthy way, in a more abundant setting, because excess greed has taken a toll on the psyche of humanity for a very, very long time. And this time, the higher dimensional realms are ensuring that balance shall be achieved. So if you think this pandemic thing is the worst, well sorry to burst your bubble but more bumpy rides are ahead of us, and adjustments WILL be done to accommodate the new things that need to happen in this timeline, and beyond.

Oh glob, that's a lot of stuff lolol I guess that just flowed out of my hands, and I feel like I'm not even done yet. Oh well, I can always post something else, like I dunno, as needed? Anyway, for those who are only here for the energy-infused photo, here it is, to support your need for hope, love, and courage in these trying times:

I hope you enjoy, just relax and let it come through your being. And if you’re wondering, yeah the cactus has a white bloom. Cute, right? Thank you so much for your time in dropping by this post, I know that times are changing really fast and it feels like we're at the mercy of the elements, but also know that despite things, the universe will always work in our favor, but first we must feel that we're worth that universal assistance, otherwise it's just going to stay outside the realm of our experiences. Our worthiness is more important now, than ever before. Because you are indeed, worthy. I pray that you become your truest and best self. Wishing you all the best, Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

[mikazukikannagisjourney]

Gemini New Moon x Scorpio Full Moon Energetic Message Combo, May 22 2020 (but can be timeless)

In a nutshell: Retrograde season is upon us, and everything that has been pushed in the backburner for so long are now coming up to be acknowledged. With so many planets slowing down, not only will the pandemic aftermaths cause so much havoc and chaos and destruction in systems that no longer work, but the flexibility or resilience of many people will be challenged. To the max. However, this is not an entirely negative thing as these series of events can give the whole world a lot of time not just to look back and reflect, but also to put closure on things that needed to be ended, even if it means diving down into the pain of doing the uncomfortable things. In everything you are doing right now, please know this: It is time to face who we truly are, and be open to accept everything, from the good, the bad, the ugly, and all that exists in between. Only by doing so can we be free to be who we truly are, as the Source beings that have always been deserving and so worthy of love. Hi everyone, how are you all doing? I hope you are all thriving in these interesting times. And by interesting, I mean it's kinda extreme right now. So if you feel like you're being wrung dry and have nothing left, don't worry, it's a mass consciousness thing. Plus we have a lot of retrograde planets such as Venus (love, relationships, and money), Jupiter (travel, expansion, learning, luck), Saturn (reaping the consequences of your actions aka karmic shits, and surprisingly, agriculture), Pluto (secrets, buried things that needed to be released, death and rebirth, changes) and by next month, our favorite retrograding planet Mercury (communications, commerce), and based on what each planet rules, it's going to feel like a white water rafting ride with no paddles, no light, and no boat lol OK I am not here to bring fear, because retrograding planets just send us a message on what we need to review, to relearn, to release, and whatever re-doing needs to happen in our personal lives. Yeah, I have to put a disclaimer here that right now, it is most prudent to put our energies on our own personal stuff. Why? Because at it's core, we can only control ourselves. We can only change our own self. True change is something that happens innately, and even if you thought you initiated a change in someone, unless that someone has imbibed the impact of your action, they won't change for very long. So instead of using up all of your energies and resources on forcing the world to change and then getting frustrated because you can't change the external, why not try putting all of those efforts into your own self? I mean, it's worth trying, if it's for your own good. Try a new perspective, see different viewpoints, put yourself in other peoples’ shoes? Enter into a new realm of infinite possibilities? If it doesn't help shift your mindset or your energies, or at the very least make you feel comfortable for 5 minutes, well, at least you tried. That's an effort that you made for yourself, to move forward even for a bit, and be proud that you did that for yourself. Not everyone is up for that, and you choosing to put efforts on YOU is a wonderful gift for yourself in this bewildering yet energetically funky times. Because change is inevitable, albeit even necessary, and as the law of evolution mildly suggests: evolution does not favor the fittest or the strongest or the largest, but rather the most adaptable ones. Think mammoth versus elephants. Which animal is alive right now, the fluffy or the not fluffy? Of course, as always, I am not saying all of these stuff sitting on a cloud. Oh good glob no. To be honest, I am not immune to this massive energetic shift, and the reason I was unable to make a Scorpio Full Moon post (my apologies) is because I felt like I was dying, literally and figuratively. My entire body ached, it was too humid that I kept getting asthma, and I just couldn't function cognitively because of anxiety attacks, for lack of better terms. It felt like a drugged stupor, I honestly couldn't remember how I even managed to survive that period. And it felt so dense and heavy, I couldn't complete the full moon release ritual until about 3 days after, but I still got to do it so my energies could clear and be a bit more functional. It wasn't fun but I just simply told myself that I needed to learn how to surrender and it's one way to do it. Despite the bombardment of all the things that I ever did wrong, the regrets, the painful memories, literal PTSD flashbacks, yeah if you felt those and you still have them, I feel for you. I have an energetic support photo below to help you fam. So... What can I expect from the coming weeks and months? Well, I am so glad you asked. The next weeks and months can make things interesting, some unexpected events can happen, people, emotions, memories, events can come back to haunt you. You know, fun stuff. Again, before you explode into a huge blabbering, cussing mess, please, please, let this be an invitation for you to grow into your best self. You don't have to go all the way, you can just try it out, be with yourself, ask what needs to be released, reviewed, redone, revisited, realigned, re-examined, or re-accepted, or whatever re-prefixed word you have lol

But really...

I was gonna write that same stuff for the previous Scorpio Full Moon and I thought there's gonna be a new message for this Gemini new moon, but apparently it's the same, and with even greater intensity as well as relevance. Just a discaimer, I don't watch energetic updates from others anymore, so I won't know if what I'm gonna put in here has been said by others. OK,this post is a combo message, and using the energies of Scorpio (with Pluto energies of death and rebirth) as well as Gemini (with Mercurial energies of communication and basic or foundational learnings) this new moon is giving us all a chance to face a figurative form of death and eventual rebirth by communicating with our subconscious, everything that we have buried and forgotten and lost and all that jazz, so that we can be reborn into our true selves, as children of Source, the universe, God, however you call your higher powers. We deserve such recognition, but nobody is going to do that for us but our own selves, so might as well start that journey now. It is a way to show up to the world, the universe, and for ourselves. No pressure to keep ploughing through though, just keep at it in your own pace, at a speed that allows you to move with changes without meeting any form of resistance. Just remember that with each change comes a shift of everything, and let me tell you that you don't have to rush, but rather allow things to settle in, otherwise your body will rebel, and that isn't the most fun. Symptoms can include bellyaches, gas, a lot of coughing or mucus discharges or respiratory unrest (not COVID-19 related), and if you're a lady having that time of the month, extra-bleeding (probably releasing so much stuff from the Sacral center, I know I did), and your muscles or bones failing you at some point. Just maintain proper nutrition, eat what your body needs. Also, really painful memories can also resurface, and if you can transmute them aka cry them out without putting any thinking, like literally just feel them out until the emotional charge passes, please do that too. Please do not, by any means re-stuff them back, the memories with charged emotions just wanted to get acknowledged and be sent back to source, so just allow them to do that. It's ok to express anger, rage, sadness, being petty, etc. as long as you don't project those energies to other people, because involving other people can make things messy, especially if you're asking for forgiveness but because they're unaware and asleep (unlike you who's awake) they will never do that. Believe me. So if you need more energetic support to make things more manageable and less overwhelming, there are lots of energetic healings out there, you can try one or try them all (ahem, ahem lol). Also, while you're at it, please drink a lot of water, stay hydrated especially when you're living at the latitudes near the equator. I was gonna type in more stuff but my flow seems to have halted. No biggie though, because I'm adding an energetically-infused photo here (my photo of shelf fungi gives me a vibe of a solar system lol) to give support to everyone who reads this, across all space and time. Seriously, these are energetically erratic times but you always have a choice on how you'll react. Whatever works for you is perfect for you in this time. 

Anyway, I truly hope this post made sense to you, made a resonance, or simply acknowledged any of the uncomfortable stuff that you have been feeling lately. If you have any questions, please do not hesistate to ask, my asks are always open. You can even ask anon mode. Thank you for reading this very long post, and may you grow into your best self. Wishing you all the best, Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)

[mikazukikannagisjourney]

Taurus Full Moon April 22/23 2020 - with some tips

Hi all, how are you thriving so far? I hope you’re all well, body, mind, heart, soul, and wallet-wise lol But seriously, this “pandemic” has taken a toll on a lot of people, not just those who actually got the virus, but everyone else. I don’t think it’s fair, but when nature decides to make its way after being taken advantage of, well, sh** hits the fan, hard. We’re in the middle of that situation and despite what it seems to be, waiting and prepping up is the only thing we can do right now. For safety reasons of course.  Physical distancing is greatly affecting so many jobs that require physical presence so I’m not the only one who’s losing not just brain cells but also moolah.. Unless you’re working at home and everything is still running smoothly. if so... Good for you! =) I am personally affected by this whole mess of a pandemic and I am not exactly OK with it, and my body is also acting up aka old pains and aches and stuff started flaring up ever since I last posted, April 5 or something? 8? It felt so long ago, because after the whole global meditation thing I started having trippy dreams, so trippy that even if I slip in a 10-minute doze I’d get to dreamland so fast, it was so draining, so I had no choice but to get some rest, which only lasts a max of 3 hours. And well, you know what happens to sleep-deprived people. T_T But I’m doing a bit better, thank you, and I tried all remedies to move energies: old, young, new, not mine, mine, generational, genetic, emotional, basically removing all of the blockages I could detect. I couldn’t meditate sitting down due to the back pain so I started going back to doing QiGong. It helped greatly, now I upped my sleep time to 5 hours. Not the best but it’s better than 3 hours or 2 hours and having difficulty filling in the gap. Other than the sweltering and humid heat, and having unexplainable pains, I think I’m faring better than others. It sounds Pollyanna-ish but I just try to see the brighter side of things aka I used to be bedridden due to intense and debilitating backpains but now I can stand and even play tetris 99 so I think that’s something to be grateful for. 

Speaking of gratitude, the Full Moon in Taurus tomorrow, April 22 or 23 (depending on where you are) is a great opportunity to fill our cups, in preparation for the days, weeks, and months ahead. Because if it isn’t obvious by now, extreme changes will take place once the quarantines or the mobility restrictions are lifted. It is a strong must that we all adapt, because trust me or anyone else when they say that things will never be the same. Yep. And based on the evolutionary patterns of species, the strongest ones don’t survive, the most adaptable ones do, and it’s high time adaptability is given the love it deserves because THAT’S what the new endings shall require all of us, in order to navigate not just the new energies that are flowing in, but the new way of doing things. Like it or not.

So.. just to push everyone (me included lol) to amp up the manifestation urge, some tidbits to assist you in what to ask for. Taurus is ruled by Venus, along with Libra. Venus rules love, relationships, connections, beauty in general, arts, and most importantly, MONEY. Plus Taurus is a fixed earth sign, meaning it rules whatever we have or own in the physical realm, and it’s in for the long haul. With that in mind, what do you think, or feel intuitively need to manifest now and in the next part of the year? Do you want to be healthier? Make more cash? Be connected with more people? Dress up preppier? Create artsy fartsy stuff? Whatever it is, as long as it is lawful, doesn’t hurt anybody (including you), and fills you with joy, just do it. Or at the very least, plan it out. See yourself achieving that goal, or goals, by doing things step-by-step, even if it’s just baby steps. A move forward despite being pushed back is better than no movement at all. That’s the real backslide right there. And because Taurus energy can help you get things materialized into this physical realm, why not call upon that energy as well? I mean, we’re all stuck somehow anyway, might as well engage with the higher dimensional realms. Besides, these are energetic realms that all religions and belief systems call upon because they’re just there, so even if you’re skeptical it won’t hurt to try, and see if you have results.

Oh, and for those who are affected by astrological energies and shenanigans, Pluto’s gonna go back to Capricorn on the 25th, so you’ll either get used to the quarantine thing or it will make you even more anxious. Also, if you know which house in your natal chart your Capricorn is in, you can check it out because it can affect that house again, once Pluto goes back to Capricorn. You might wanna add that to your manifestations and stuff, for good measure.

Warning: Personal Rant Below. You can skip as needed lol I was supposed to start a new career last month, I was super excited because I thought I was going to get a new lease in life but then community quarantines started so.. Nope. I thought that was the end of my issues so I just shifted into “hey let’s max out the healing since we’re not going anywhere” but I think trying to purge as much crap in my body as I could, sorta broke it, in a way? I mean, I was good for the first 3 days of April, but then after the Jupiter-Saturn conjuction and meditation thing I just broke down into more heaps of emotions that I don’t even know if they’re even mine. Oh, and the pains started coming in, and I didn’t take any medications so I just lived through 2 weeks of having pains, which were bearable to some extent until this weekend. Honestly I don’t see any other way out of this situation but to just rest, but having a gene key that makes me wanna die each time I have to stop and just be, that’s a pretty hard deal. Unless I take drugs so I could just sleep despite the world crumbling down. So I decided to purge more, and the pains starting popping out. It got really intense in the weekend, I can’t sit anymore, and standing hurts, and I had muscle spasms and tense joints. Not exactly fun. And it was hard to sleep in the humid heat, plus I kept getting bitten by ants while I sleep in daylight. Like really, the ants here in my new place are so hecking aggresive, they invade personal spaces like they own the place. Just thinking about them riles me up, I wanna explode. But it’s night right now and they’re gone elsewhere so I will definitely do my best to snooze while it is cool before they invade me in the morning. I miss the monsoon rains, where are you T_T

OK, enough about that, now for some raves--

I have been personally prepping up to participate in Inktober this year but also have to do warmups since I haven’t done artsy drawings since 2017, I concentrated more on doing calligraphy, which is good, of course, but I also have to honor and respect stuff I promised to do myself, for this year. I am not making excuses for not doing as much as I wanted to, I mean, I am just brain-drained and my creativity has been exhausted due to depressive states plus it’s too hot and humid that I kept getting asthma even just moving. So I just try to go with the flow and see what happens, I might make an update if that works out. But seriously, I miss feeling numb, I am not used to having to process a lot of emotions, but I also have to respect my bodygraph type (emotional center) and having emotions and riding them all out until I feel nothing, not numb, but peaceful, is something that I am working on. It’s not easy, but I am starting to see some light. 

OK, so there you go, some support for the new moon, or at least, some stuff you can read to pass the time lol I hope you at least got some ideas, or tips, or even some entertainment? I am definitely not at my best right now due to some stuff but I still wanted to post this in case someone else might benefit. Even if it’s read by someone in the future, if it resonates then it resonates. Besides, there’s always a Taurus new moon every year so yeah, why not.

I hope you all keep safe, and healthy, and whole, and at peace. These are changing times, and if sitting still living in the old ways become unbearable, please remember that you are not alone. Just breathe, trust, and move out of your comfort zone bit by bit. Even if it’s not me, someone’s going to meet you halfway. Just keep holding on.

I remain your soul family,

Mikazuki

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Thank you so much and be blessed!

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Pink Full Moon in Libra, April 7 (or 8, depending on where you are) 2020 - Plus Updates on Post-Jupiter Pluto Conjunction - Timeless

Hi all, how was the 4/4/2020 Gateway doing for you? I hope it was OK. This will be just a wordvomit update on the energies and possible aftermaths of the energetic gateways that opened up in the same time as the Jupiter-Pluto conjunction in Aquarius on April 4 (or 5), a few days ago.

If you got to join the global peace meditation on that same gateway, I pray that the energies were gentle, healing and eye-opening. But if you got tired, dizzy, really emotional, and felt like your life just couldn’t fall apart even more, well, I feel you fam, I feel you. Same here. I was participating in some group meditations a few days before that and when the portal opened I just felt really weak and tired and my old back pain issue popped up again, it’s inflamed. Talk about the body telling you things. **sigh** It’s like Dark Night of the Soul for the nth time, again. And I was like “Really? SMH” T_T It’s like opening another can of worms, it just takes so much of the happiness away (read: dementors). It also pushed me to just hide even more and ruminate and do everything I can to process the emotions away. I did all of the tools that I knew and despite still feeling icky, I am believing that things can still get better. But truth be told, if you have been doing the inner work, crummy things like these have been cyclical and have been going through our lives each time we unearth some parts and release them. The energetic portals and gateways just unclog the collective in general, and as way-showers (we can also be called frontliners, energetically) we get to face the low vibrational stuff first hand. Not all of them are ours, but are really just the collective gunk that gets released even though it feels like they are entering through our bodies and making us face the dark parts of ourselves, again (because they’re in layers and thus we have to remove them in layers too. It sucks but that’s how it works, it can’t be helped).

And fighting all the demons will take time. - Dishwalla, Angels and Devils

Yeah you might wanna listen to the track above, just to get some sort of insight if you feel called. I just love the acoustic version so it’s what I linked lol.

But kidding aside, yeah, fighting all the demons really take time, and even though it does suck big time, I’m already at a point that I had to remind myself to use the low vibes to help me heal what needs to be healed, because at this point I can’t do much with the lockdown still going on (I am about to go really, really crazy staying stagnant AF). It’s also frustrating when the entire household is just glued to the news, like THIS ISN’T A TYPHOON WHERE YOU NEED HOURLY UPDATES T_T It’s just frustrating, and everything just went downhill for me when the gateway opened. All of the anger and frustration that had almost eaten me alive for a good chunk of my life all came rushing forward. I haven’t crumbled into a crying heap yet, maybe after I post this lol but despite meditating for heccin long hours, doing more physical activities than the usual (despite the sweltering heat) and still getting no absolution of the frustration, I was really about to give in to lashing out, just to free me from the pain. I had no idea how to transmute these complex emotions (aka they’re all crumpled into one big heap of NOPE) in the fastest and most efficient way possible but I also didn’t want to vent out and trigger anger within the household (me commenting on every death toll count as fear mongering was already too much lol) so I just ended up venting my anger on leveling up in Tetris 99 because GAH I NEED TO GET SOME SORT OF CLARITY ON THINGS. It felt nice, but now each time I close my eyes I only see all of the tetraminos trying to fit snugly into the slots. Still better than getting angry and stuff.

And later will be the Pink Full Moon in Libra, so I guess it’s going to be another strong full moon since it’s the first one after the gateway opened. Since Libra is a sign that wants balance, and makes sure that everything gets balanced by hook or by crook, this is also a great time to reflect on what needs to get balanced in our lives. Because despite being all lovey-dovey and smooth and silky, Libra is still a cardinal sign that can really unleash the beast if there is a strong imbalance of some sort. It’s just a bit more flexible than Capricorn, more level-headed than Cancer, and a lot more forward-thinking than Aries. If you need to know, I have all of these in my natal chart and it’s not exactly a fun party when all the cardinal energies have not yet figured out how to have fun with everyone else.

OK after this line is a personal rant ,you can end the reading here. =)

For me, personally, I really need to balance listening on what others tell me to do, and what information I channel for myself. I guess trying hard to try to fit in by tuning in to the collective like most of the card readers elsewhere dulled my senses and I just felt my oversoul just said HECC IT and cut me out of the general collective altogether. Now I find it hard to tune in to the larger chunk of the collective since the Lion’s Gate of 2019 so I just don’t post anything collective-based in my cartomancy side blog. Now it’s mostly my own personal energetic stuff. The flipside of this is that aside from feeling the general fears and whatnot of the collective unconscious (hence my rant on feelings lol) I still find it a lot more manageable to do readings for other people or events, even thoughI have to unblock a ton just to hear the Divine realms say HI to me. T_T

And that is why standing out instead of fitting in is a strong lesson in balance for me. It sucks but it’s not like I can keep escaping my life path.

Personal ranting ends here lol

I am still feeling a bit woozy even though it’s been a few days after the energetic portal so I won’t be posting an infused photo in this post, but I’ll make a special one once my energies get stabilized again. I hope you all don’t mind.

Oh, and one last thing before I end this post. The huge energetic shifts that happened since the wildfires started in the new year, and other tectonic activities within the ring of fire region are only the beginnings of things that are about to come, so if you’re wishing that things will get back to normal, I am here to tell you that nope, not gonna happen. If anything, this is a time to update all systems and revise time-consuming protocols because honestly, calamities like these will become more common and thus streamlining methods will become more than inevitable. Self-sufficiency up to certain levels will also be even more important, as would be the de-centralization of various services and whatnot in order to bring back the power to the larger members of the populace.

But do not fear, just because the changes are annoying and inconvenient does not mean that things will eventually get suckier. Just imagine the time around the early 20th century when electricity wasn’t even a thing and then all of a sudden transmission lines were being installed in each household. Sure, there’s a risk of fire and getting electrocuted, but look at what time we’re living in now. Can’t even read this post without relying on electrical lines. You can think of it that way.

And so this ends my Full Moon message, for everyone who feels called to this. It’s also somewhat timeless so if you read this in the future and it still resonates, it just means that you were able to receive what you needed to know right now.

Thank you for walking this weird journey with me, see you on the next update, and may you grow into the person you seek.

Mikazuki

PS. If you found the information in this post to be very helpful, insightful, and of great value to you and your own personal journey, please feel free to reblog, share and heart/like, or if you feel super-generous, energetic exchanges are welcomed! Please click here and use this email address: may_chan_otaku@yahoo.com

Thank you so much and be blessed!

PSS. If you’re interested to get a personal card and energetic reading, for inquires please send an email or an anonymous ask in this page. Thank you! =)