lisalivinlife23

[lisalivinlife23]

[lisalivinlife23]

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[lisalivinlife23]

Here we go... depression

[lisalivinlife23]

Standing on business.

Can’t change you so ima change how I fck with you.

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And, fuck while we do 😈

“They say love is pain. Well, darling, let’s hurt tonight.”

— OneRepublic

[lisalivinlife23]

To my love,

I love you, but I'm afraid that one day ill see that you really think about someone else.

I guess I'm just insecure 😔

“Sometimes I wish I could read your mind. But then, I wonder if I could handle the truth.”

— The Vow

[lisalivinlife23]

*Love 😔💙

“I loved you in a way I wished someone would love me.”

— Mahmdou Darwish

[lisalivinlife23]

Recently happened to me. Had a bad day, had to cancel plans, the person told me they understood, and then a couple days later they texted me basically shaming me for having mental health issues that day, BUT they did say "no disregard or dismissing of how you felt Christmas day, but it was hurtful that you didn't come through"... and then went on to explain why it was "hurtful" to them, completely dismissing the fact that I was not functioning right that day... fucking crazy.

I no longer speak to them 👍🏿🤭

[lisalivinlife23]

“I want a bond so tight that even on bad terms u still run to me 1st.”

— Unknown

[lisalivinlife23]

But, ironically, I still feel misery 😔💔🖤

“Heaven is a place on earth with you.”

— Lana Del Rey

[lisalivinlife23]

5 posts!

Just pouring out my heart 🖤💔💙

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It just hurts to know that I can't go a whole day without then, but they can do it when it comes to me 😔. One sided love is painful love.

“Never give up on something that you can’t go a day without thinking about.”

— Winston Churchill

[lisalivinlife23]

I agree. I've been attacked too many times by someone I care about, all because their communication skills are not on my maturity level and they express negativity when they don't like something... Which is all the time, dang near. Any advice on that?

“Some people need to open their small minds instead of their big mouths.”

— 2hongry4u

[lisalivinlife23]

*video calls me

*walks away from the phone for 15 minutes as soon as I answer

*comes back just to hang up without saying "bye" or the reason for leaving

*texts me: Let me call you back my love

*hours pass and they're still actively active on social media, answering texts and phone calls from others, and I'm over here looking stupid because for a second, I thought I was important enough to be prioritized 🥲

Aight. I'mma head out ✌🏿

[lisalivinlife23]

Just sitting here thinking about how long I can do this... Show that I'm over it. Show that I don't care. Put you last and make it seem like I can live without you. I just don't know how long I can do this,

But... Seeing as though, the only time you messaged me was on something that benefitted you... And the occasional dry conversation... Nothing too serious.

Man, is this what marriage is gonna be like? So much for being engaged 🤷🏿‍♀️

I just want love, companionship, honesty, loyalty, priority, and all things we romanticize about as teenagers. I want all of that. Is that too much to ask?

[lisalivinlife23]

I wanna be as unavailable as you are with me.

I wanna not prioritize you the way you don't prioritize me.

I wanna laugh at your pain the way you laugh at mine.

But, I'm not like that. My heart is pure. I'm not perfect, but I sure as heck treat you like you are 😔.

I want change, but you're so stuck in your ways.