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glimpses

why does it hurt

so badly 

when you smile at 

me

catching glimpses

of who you were

- Anderson Lewski

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Wanted

I wanted you 

to want me

many years ago

just because you want me now

doesn't mean I need you 

just know

that

 -Anderson Lewski

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4:23 am

If I told you 

what I really dream about

you would run away from me

just like my dreams do

- Anderson Lewski

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Scars

I’m covered in scars

from many years ago

from places

and faces

I’d never want you

to ever know

- Anderson Lewski

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I’m not a life raft

don’t call for me 

as you drown in her

when I told you 

to run

because you couldn’t swim

- Anderson Lewski

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broken

I told my truth today

I broke for you today

and the destruction

was ever so

beautiful 

- Anderson Lewski

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Poor company

If I wished the world 

to feel my pain

there would be nothing left but

ruins and embers

and poor company

- Anderson lewski

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Time traveler

I can hear the bully’s thoughts

16 years later

I can hear my father yelling

telling me I’ll be a failure

I can see my mothers eyes

empty and full of anger

in the mirror

I only see a stranger

a constant danger

of slipping 

through time

- Anderson Lewki

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The Other Day

I saw you’re dopegänger 

carrying coats on hangers

through the store

and I wondered 

if heaven is real

and if it is

are you warm

enough

- Anderson Lewski

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Forget Me Please

most people

want to be remembered

but I want you to forget 

the way I always looked at you

and quietly held

my breath

- Anderson Lewski

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Reasons

you did a bad thing for a good reason

mama

you left him 18 seasons to late

mama

if you were gonna leave

you should have left

when I started to breathe

mama

and now I know you both

just could’t really share

or give time to care 

for your kid

to this day 

it  still rings in my ears

it must be something

I did

- Anderson Lewki

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Innocence

I memorized 

the color 

of your eyes

long before 

I had the time

to regret it

- Anderson Lewski

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Looking Back

I am a ghost But I can see you From an armchair in a corner From the balcony above a rock bed From the old grey couch that has a burn mark if you flip the middle cushion  A little life that doesn’t know what I know yet In a memory that feels like a lifetime ago I am a ghost But I can see you

-mal harris

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The March

I had forgotten Like a dream How it had felt To be young

The time it takes to pause and watch the ants march Is just too long a time to spare these days I need to catch up On all the small moments When all that matters is the rush and the getting I just don’t want to keep forgetting

-mal harris

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The List

half of the names on the list

had already been crossed off

faces dropping off her wishlist

of people

who’s consciences

got lost

empty shells expertly they walk

talking into headphones

on every city block

friend’s faces

hiding between names

already

crossed off

- Anderson Lewski

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16

I ran out of screams

by age 16

teary raccoon eyes 

leaked

and I promised

myself

never again

would I be 

weak

- Anderson Lewski

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Definitions

these days 

I try

to look

into your eyes

in an attempt

to surmise

how you really

define

me

- Anderson Lewski