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I fucking hate everything

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Questioning NPD culture is I do love myself, it's just unrequited

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Sometimes masking just gets so fucking exhausting, especially because I'm doing it constantly both irl and online. It mentally drains me so much, and I wish I could just unmask but no people would probably hate me.

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She kissed me and roses began to grow inside my chest.

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“Not everyone deserves to know the real you. Let them criticize who they think you are.”

— Unknown

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— Arthur Miller, The Crucible

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NPD culture is always taking it upon yourself to make everyone happy, always listening, always loving. Not because you actually care. You could care less about people’s feelings. But because you need to convince yourself that deep down, you ARE a good person. I’m a good person. I’m a good person despite everything i swear please tell me that i’m a good person

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yeah, sorry i exhibited symptoms of the disorder i told you i have. it will happen again because i have that disorder and will continue having it. hope this helps!! 🫶🫶🫶

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I wish people wouldn't try to handle me if they can't. I've told you I have many issues, I've told you I'm not particularly a good person. "It's okay, you're not that bad!" Yeah, until I make a single mistake and then I'm a monster. As if I haven't been putting up with your shit for ages ffs. You treat me like garbage and then expect me to be perfect for you, fuck off man

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Having ASPD and moral OCD is fucking wild. I question the morality of my actions daily, but only because I want to maintain a reputation and not because I actually gaf like okay.

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reblog if vampires are valid and your blog is a vampire safe zone

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Bro BPD is actually hell. I fucking hate this disorder I want out.

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It sucks how much "professionals" do not give a fuck about you. You can literally have a diagnosis for wtv disorder you want and half of them (probably more) will choose to disregard it like okay

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Aro, ace, and apl Gladion from Pokémon sun and moon

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being a C-DID system is wild actually like why do we have so many ppl lol. Also not rlly a system but more of a collective though since we have 3 systems in the body 👍

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hmm its like I crave some type of eternal and brutal punishment but I'm not exactly sure for what

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Life fucking sucks rn