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Woke up today with 60cm (about 24 inches) waist. Ik it will be gone after the first meal but holy shit I did it!!!

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I hate the feeling of hungry hunger. Not that beautiful rexie hunger when you feel light and dizzy and worthy but when you just ready to eat anything you can reach. No way I'm binging again today😭

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Today's total & WIEIAD

tw: calories, bodychek

It was all perfect until I binged right after dinner😭 I ate some crackers with a great amount of cream cheese and also a couple of tiny waffles💀💀 All in all today is about 1400 cals, definitely not cool for me:((

burned off 120

1400 - 120 = 1280 net

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making the list of my favorite safe foods so I don't overthink my dinner

!cals mentioned!

1. chocolate oat milk, 140 cals for a package (200ml), I like to have it as a meal or snack at school bc I'm struggling with eating on public

2. baby food (pureed fruits), usually less than 60 cals for a package, also often have it as a snack, but at home

3. greek yogurt, 63 cals/100g, I like it unsweetened, it's high protein and verrry filling for me

4. soups, especially self made or instant, usually about 50 cals/100g or just very low, I just put a lot of veggies and water in it (sometimes chiken as a source of protein)

5. all kinds of mushrooms, less than 30 cals/100g on average, I really love mushrooms, no matter how I cook them or where I add them, they're always yummy

6. very specific protein bars, 160-190 cals for a package (60g) depending on flavor, there's 20g of protein and 20g of fiber in one of these, like I can literally eat one as a meal and stop thinking about my fiber intake till the next day

7. bubble tea, 170 cals for my favorite one (650ml), I use official information from their website but I still think it's wrong so I usually count like 200 cals or smth, I love bubble tea way too much to be afraid, sorry not sorry

8. oatmeal, from 130 to 166 cals for a portion, I usually add more water and some soy sauce If I want it salty (pls trust me when I say oatmeal with soy sauce is a thing) or if I want it sweet I add 100ml of dairy free milk and sweetener ✨

9. salads, less than 90 cals/100g on average, I love making different salads with different dressings, I also like to add tuna or chicken for protein

10. well all kinds of veggies obviously, even potatoes are safe for me (If I cooked them myself)

Ofc almost all foods are safe If I'm the one who cooked, I'm also ok with using oil while cooking as long as I can weigh and count it

Maybe I should do my fear foods next time(~˘▾˘)~

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real footage of me waiting for laxatives to kick in(•_•)

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I don't know if I'm a weirdo but lately I find it hard to tolerate solid foods. I mean I don't only drink water, but it's so much easier and safe for me to just eat yogurt or drink chocolate milk.

Probably should eat more normal meals bc I'm genuinely terrified like what tf is going on

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It's sad how my hair is falling out as it used to at my lw, but I'm actually 4 kilos heavier:(

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collection of useful things tumblr has taught me:

even if you can't fall asleep, laying down with your eyes closed will still rest your body

you don't have to brush your teeth standing up

you don't have to do any chore standing up, from dishes to showering

you don't have to shower with the lights on

if you can't brush your teeth, flossing and a tongue scraper gets rid of plaque and bad breath

if you can't do that, mouthwash kills a lot of bacteria

eating "unhealthy" food is better than eating no food

you can make the same meal everyday for however long you still want it

some pills come in syrups or chewables if you can't swallow them

kids nutritional shakes can be a quick way to get fuel if you can't eat/don't have time

if walking hurts/exhausts you on a regular basis, canes and rollers are for you, no matter how young you are

we have free will—if doing something "out of the ordinary" makes life easier for you, do it

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Hi. This is 4n4 blog. I don't want anyone to get hurt so if you are in recovery pls go away

(she/her)

165 cm // 5,5 ft

HW: 53 kg // 117 lbs

LW: 46 kg // 102 lbs

CW: 47 kg // 104 lbs

GW: 45 kg // 100 lbs

UGW: 43 kg // 95 lbs

I'm NOT pro 3d I just struggle and share