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LOGGED BACK IN AFTER A FEW MONTHS AND MY ENTIRE LAYOUT IS CHANGED?? HELLO??? WHO THE HELL IS KINN13 AND WHY DID THEY HACK MY ACCOUNT TO SELL WEED?? IM CRYING?? 😭😭😭

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please tell me this meme isn't dead yet

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what are you talking about im being totally normal about my spn rewatch its not reawakening things in me at all

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do NOT leave these two in a room alone tears WILL be shed...

inspired by an interaction i had on twitter!! <3

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idk why but there is something unusually funny to me about Will Wood using social media extremely sparingly but making an exception to post this long ass rant about how much he hates the Netflix Wednesday show on his youtube community page

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The creek is beaaauuutiful

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Equestria girls but all short hair!

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Your favorite fearless heroo! (Not TOH related but wanted to draw this guy ^^ the movie is great, go watch it pls!

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hits you with 2d animation beam

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ELEKTRA: I am the shape you made me. Filth teaches filth.

(prints)(process video & high res)

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Loose sketches

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This episode was WILD, but at the forefront of my mind was how amazing Bailey Bass (Claudia) was. It takes so much skill to play wildly different versions of the same character in such a short amount of time - the naive child, the rebellious teen, the tempered young adult - and Bass does it with perfection. I felt different about Claudia at every stage, but at every stage I sympathized with her at some level.

Also, can we talk about the pure Oldest Daughter energy she radiated in the last scene??? Realizing her father is not a perfect man but someone who lost every shred of family he had. Who loved her in a way she maybe didn’t understand at first, but now she does and she realizes he was trying his best. The way she tries to make peace and admits her mistakes, but when that doesn’t work she straightens her spine, looks at Lestat and firmly declares she’s not leaving without Louis. Pointing out Lestat’s toxicity at every word out of his mouth, throwing herself at him as he beats Louis bloody even though she sees just how powerful he is, offering up her own life. She’s the embodiment of “you spent your entire life trying to make us feel small, but guess what, motherfucker, I’m not a little girl you can push around anymore.”

I’m vastly intrigued by this version of Lestat and want to keep him around, but I also can’t wait to see him be faced with a Claudia who is out for his blood, who no longer wants to play house with him. Louis is all she needs, and if Lestat is a casualty of that, so be it.

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louis helping claudia on their wash days. louis detangling her hair from the ends to the roots. louis making sure claudia has all her hair care stuff whenever they travel. louis trying to give her new hairstyles and failing miserably at first but making them look amazing after trials and errors. louis moisturizing her hair because she always misses the layers underneath the top one. louis pulling hair out of her mouth when she’s done feeding because blood in her hair is so hard to get out. claudia trying to do her hair on her own for once but going to louis with a comb stuck in her hair and tears in her eyes. louis and claudia being father and daughter

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You know, I’m one of those people who’ve read the books. And I honestly wasn’t disturbed by EP5 in the least. 

Well, okay. I am iffy about the Claudia assault situation. I don’t think it was gratuitous (mostly because they didn’t show it), and it does set up a few things: The Fang Gang, who show up in Queen of the Damned. As well as the general idea that other vampires are “not so nice” and that Louis and Claudia have been living in a bubble of protection with Lestat. (Which their eventual journey to Europe will fully show.) But I think there could have been a way to get that point across to Claudia (or at least why she decided to head home to get Louis) without that specific thing happening to her. 

As to the Louis and Lestat fight, no, it didn’t happen in the book. But, I’m sorry, am I supposed to think Lestat wouldn’t be capable of it, if pushed in this way? We are talking about the same Lestat who raped a female waitress in Tale of the Body Thief, right? The Lestat who, in that same book, forcibly turned David Talbot into a vampire against his will in a parallel to that rape of the waitress? “Oh, but he didn’t mean to rape that waitress and felt sorry about it and even tried to help her later!” Yeah, whatever. He still raped her. “Oh, but David forgave Lestat and even admitted that he really wanted the Dark Gift anyway!” Yeah, whatever, he still assaulted David, with David fighting back and saying “no” almost the whole time.

Now yes, in The Vampire Lestat, Lestat says he never showed Louis or Claudia the true extent of his powers. (And he didn’t have the cloud gift in particular at that time anyway). So that whenever he and Louis did fight in any way in Interview with Lestat, we retroactively know Lestat was holding back. But any fights they got into never reached the extent they do in the tv show because Lestat never once was really confronted with the idea that Louis and Claudia were seriously going to leave him. Not like this. 

By the time that was clear, he’d already been dumped in a swamp. 

“But he would never hurt or lay a finger on Louis in that way!” So the gaslighting and emotional abuse/manipulation he did do to Louis during that time was better? Really? Both are still abuse. Hell, Daniel flat-out called it abuse back in EP3.  

Lestat is a fucked up brat prince bastard. Always has been. And in the show, he is basically a walking billboard for Generational Trauma at this point. 

Louis, for his own reasons/issues we’ve yet to learn, has never once said he loved Lestat back, either before or after the turning. And was going to leave Lestat to go with Claudia overseas to find other vampires who he will be vulnerable to and at the mercy of. (Because yes, Lestat is right to try and scare them away from going there to find other vampires for those out there who haven’t read the books. The real issue is he should have just been open and honest about why Europe is dangerous.) Lestat’s fears of abandonment compounded with all of that? Yeah, I get why he snapped.

But out of character to do it? Nope. Not under this circumstance. 

Also, people should remember we are not dealing with young, impetuous Lestat here, as he was in the first book. This time, he lived over 150 years before ever coming to America to live. Which is why he even has powers like the cloud gift in the first place, I’d wager. (My working theory is that he spent most of those years with Marius, but I digress.) He wouldn’t be the exact same as book-Lestat at this point in time just by the very nature of having lived over 150 years doing who-knows-what beforehand. 

I’m not sitting here trying to excuse Lestat’s actions btw. Just analyzing his character and where his POV is on all of this (and if it contradicts the books, which I don’t feel it does). And I suspect we will start to get his POV on all of this by the season’s end.  

So yeah. Louis and Lestat aren’t healthy at this point in time. They never were in any iteration of this story. That fight didn’t change my POV on what could happen with them in the future, however. Just that they have a lot more to deal with, and that Lestat has way more issues in this version to work through.     

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when Claudia called Lestat out for cheating i couldn’t believe my eyes. he was ashamed for once? i expected him to joke, to laugh, to dramatize. but he just, backs away??? he did this behind Louis’ back this time, yeah, but i still didn’t expect him to actually look guilty

before Louis can say anything Lestat starts to explain that it was simply an entertainment blah blah blah the usual cheater crap. Louis remembers her name and BOOM Lestat immediately hits with “I’ll kill her soon.” card (and then he didn’t). Louis scoffs at him and walks off, he has more serious shit to deal with at the moment. Claudia. but Lestat thinks that Louis doesn’t care? or that he is simply not Louis’ priority anymore 

Louis’ is choosing Claudia. again and again. no wonder Lestat said “i chose you” to Louis Lestat wants to have fun and to be loved. Louis wants family and to be accepted

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I love that the writers showed us what it is like for someone who is depressed and what is it like to live with someone who has depression. The writers depicted Louis depression in such a way that it left no doubt how damaging it was to Louis and to Lestat. 

Lestat standing in front of Louis pleading, begging him to see him, was not only about Lestat. I think it was also because Lestat thought that if Louis saw him, then maybe Louis would be able to move out of the dark hole he had fall into. Because by seeing Lestat, it would mean that he was focusing back into the world and not into the darkness. Lestat inviting Louis to go see a Louis Armstrong show would remind Louis of a time he was happy and maybe fight to gain that happiness back. But unfortunately, depression is not really something that someone can snap their fingers at and get ride off.

While Lestat was standing in front of him begging to be seen, Louis couldn’t see Lestat. It wasn’t him punishing Lestat, it wasn’t him emotionally abusing Lestat, it was him unable to pull himself out of the hole he was in. You can see that when Lestat had that “considerable” speech and Louis lifted his head for a few seconds, blink at Lestat, like he couldn’t really hear or understand what Lestat was saying and then his head just turn to focus back on the paper, like that was the only thing that was real in that room, like Lestat was a brief illusion. Even when Claudia came back and Louis was hugging her, there was no big joyful happy reaction from him. There should have been some big emotionally,  outpouring of joy/happiness from him after everything, but there wasn’t. He just calmly hugged Claudia with relief, no joy, because the return of Claudia brought relief to him as a parent but the hand of depression was still holding him firmly within its gasp. Even during the arguing scene between Lestat and Claudia, he was just standing there holding himself together, looking like someone who got drop into a bowl of confusion. 

I’m really grateful to the writers for those scenes because we don’t usually get the depiction of depression in Black characters, especially Black men even when the situation call for it. Even if a lot of people seem to ignore or not noticed the emotional turmoil that Louis suffered in this episode, I appreciate that the writers did it and it is part of the show. 

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you know i was thinking about the end of episode 5, how even in circumstances that are as dire as they could possibly be, where worst case scenario either way is that Lestat would kill Louis -- rather than say he doesn't love Lestat, which would cause Lestat grievous harm that he deserves (and, as most of us suspect, would also be a lie on Louis' part), Louis chose to say nothing at all. which speaks voooollluuuuumes. It tells Lestat 'i do love you (but you make it so hard that I wish I didn't)'.

and even with that, which is more than Lestat could have ever hoped for and absolutely more than he deserves, Lestat still chose to be the biggest dickhole and commit the dickest of moves like a little bitchass pedazo de mierda