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I HATE MYSELF

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Any man interested to hear me cry abt how much I hate myself and than tell me how beautiful and amazing I am till I'm so addicted to you that you can manipulate me into doing whatever you want?

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I can't believe I ate this much this weekend D: can't wait to be home again and starve and cut till I feel like passing out :(

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How to lose weight after wrecking your metabolism?

No glue, no borax

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Anyone else just so tired of being obsessed with this disorder???? I don’t want recovery but I’m also just so SICK of thinking about food and weight 24/7. It is torture and no way to live

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I don't think I can go on on like this forever. I starve then overeat or I eat a normal amount and feel okay kinda but still guilty but I can't go through one single day without hurting my body in some way. Like everyday I either starve, binge, smoke weed, cut or I do all on one day but it's so addicting to destroy this body that I know I should love and take care of but I burn down the house where my soul lives and I don't really care cuz I hate myself that much and I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to feel like this but I can't stop doing the things that cause these feelings.

How can I be okay?!?

And like I could try to eat like a normal person but I don't know who I am without this illness. It's the only thing I have and I don't remember how to be without it.

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Longer than I expected and I'm sooo happy abt it :)

Also should I start the new fast right away or maybe just restrict for like a day or two?

Only 1 hour till I hit 24h on my fast :D let's see how long I can go

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Only 1 hour till I hit 24h on my fast :D let's see how long I can go

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In reality, I wish I had never developed an 3at1ng d1s0rd3r... But now that doesn't really matter, does it?

The thoughts already consume me, & the pain of r3covery is so much more agonizing than the pain of staying in it.

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Made myself a red bracelet :D

The beads basically say "star-ve little butterfly" to remind myself not to eat

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My weight was definetly the scariest thing on Halloween :/

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Pls I need motivation cuz I'm kinda getting used to restricting again but it's super discouraging that the scale isn't moving :/ but if I keep pushing my body won't have a choice but to lose the weight

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Let's goooo xD

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Well shit I was stressed abt overeating and now I can actually see my fat... Like under my skin... Like I never cut so deep and now I'm scared... Help

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Can't sleep so I'm asking chat gpt for wheightlos advice

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i dont know what bodies are even supposed to look like anymore :/

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Ed tiktok really pisses me of cuz those triggering videos and bodychecks and stuff can just randomly show up on anyone's fyp. On Tumblr you have to ACTIVELY seek out ed content to have it in your feed but on tiktok it can just show up one day and if you engage with it in the slightest the algorithm keeps showing you more and more! This is so dangerous and I don't think it's talked abt enough