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I'm feeling really invalid abt my scars because I don't think they are that bad :/

Would anyone want to see them and tell me what they think? :,)

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Fuck it I won't be a better person in 2025 I'll be a bigger bitch than I ever was and become a lot more messy and weird

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Found out that I can sleep for 15h if I take two of my sleeping pills 👀👀

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Fuck I've lost my blade in my bed and can't find it 💀 what do I do?

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Pls does anyone has tips for dealing with food noise?!? 😭😭😭 I can't stop thinking abt food all the time and it's impossible to ignore

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creds r/edanonymemes

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I don't deserve such good friends 😭😭😭

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Vent:

(English isn't my first language)

I've really not been doing good atm. The past week I've spend all my alone time binging and cutting. I accidently cut a bit deep and almost passed out last week. Also I've started chatting with a guy who's 24 (I'm 17) and we both agreed to have like a sexual relationship and plan to meet up soon but I'm not sure if I actually want to do that. Like I'm aware it would just be an act of self destruction for me and I'm also kinda scared how he'll react to all my scars and like fresh wounds and it would be my first time aswell which also scares me but I've just stopped caring abt myself and I just want to feel SOMETHING. Plus my anxiety has been really fucking me up lately for some reason and I have trouble sleeping so I started taking the sleeping pills I still had from when I planned to kill myself at 14. After I didn't take them I just kept them in my desk and couldn't bring myself to throw them away.

I want to tell me friends so bad how I'm feeling and maybe start therapy again but I just can't bring myself to talk to them although I know they would help and understand

I don't know what to do anymore :/ Feel free to comment or dm me and thanks for reading this little vent <3

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Ouch.

Crying.

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I HATE MYSELF

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Any man interested to hear me cry abt how much I hate myself and than tell me how beautiful and amazing I am till I'm so addicted to you that you can manipulate me into doing whatever you want?

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I can't believe I ate this much this weekend D: can't wait to be home again and starve and cut till I feel like passing out :(

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How to lose weight after wrecking your metabolism?

No glue, no borax

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Anyone else just so tired of being obsessed with this disorder???? I don’t want recovery but I’m also just so SICK of thinking about food and weight 24/7. It is torture and no way to live

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I don't think I can go on on like this forever. I starve then overeat or I eat a normal amount and feel okay kinda but still guilty but I can't go through one single day without hurting my body in some way. Like everyday I either starve, binge, smoke weed, cut or I do all on one day but it's so addicting to destroy this body that I know I should love and take care of but I burn down the house where my soul lives and I don't really care cuz I hate myself that much and I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to feel like this but I can't stop doing the things that cause these feelings.

How can I be okay?!?

And like I could try to eat like a normal person but I don't know who I am without this illness. It's the only thing I have and I don't remember how to be without it.

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Longer than I expected and I'm sooo happy abt it :)

Also should I start the new fast right away or maybe just restrict for like a day or two?

Only 1 hour till I hit 24h on my fast :D let's see how long I can go

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Only 1 hour till I hit 24h on my fast :D let's see how long I can go