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I decided to relapse finally so heres a bc from today - after recovery in which I gained 10 kg. Don't be rude please because I'm already embarrassed enough

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I miss being 47kg

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I'm so stressed I have a weigh in at school tomorrow and I still have all the recovery weight on me I'm literally having a mental breakdown

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"It's never too late" except it already is. Recovery isn't real. You'll always be sick. You'll always have that anorexic voice in your head.

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I hate it when someone asks me about my favorite food. Ho I'm one of them mental people...

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Hey guys, I've been talking a lot about wanting to relapse after a failed recovery attempt, but my self control seems to be gone. My body is currently going through the extreme hunger phase and I just can't find a way to switch from a 4000 cal daily intake to a 800 cal one. Please help me because I'm actually going insane. I need to start starving again right the fuck NOW.

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"I'm not pro ana!" Honey you reblogged ana tips and posted inspo. You are pro ana whether you want it or not.

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I trust yall (my 13 followers) so heres a face reveal where you can barely see anything

Don't even think of saying anything rude because I'll legit cry

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The thoughts will always find a way back into your head

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Just drank some diet coke, good luck finding my waist (it's right here and hard not to notice)

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"Yeah I'll make you extremely thin" said ana as she took my ability to shit

Dear anorexia, just wait till I whoop yo ass fr

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Noo don't starve yourself you can't get skinnier than me...

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Card declined in therapy so they made me watch the second episode of skins, eat konjac jelly and see my pictures from november 2023

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It actually hurts so much to think about the fact that people my age have dreams and plans on future and I'm just sitting here trying not to break down over feeling like nothing without anorexia. I'm wasting my youth on something that's going to kill me eventually. I don't want everything to end like this but I don't know how to stop

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𓆩♱𓆪 Hello! 𓆩♱𓆪

I'm writing this on january 13th 2025, the night before my planned relapse, but I think I'm gonna post this in the morning. I don't really have a plan. I think I'll start with a limit around 800 calories and slowly go lower. I won't be focusing on getting as skinny as it's possible because it doesn't seem to be as motivating as enjoying the hunger. I'm so excited I feel like me again!! I'm so desperate to get into this shit hole again and I hope my motivation doesn't disappear in the morning. I want it to be serious this time. I want to be hungry and able to touch my bones.

May I stay in this illness for as long as it's possible.

Completely off topic but I also need to get my lazy ass to start dressing goth again because I've been dressing like a homeless man for the past 3 months...

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I want to feel worthy of love for once. Even if it costs me my health.

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I miss being sick, I don't mean that miss being skinny. I miss the starving high. I miss the feeling of control. I miss the feeling of validation. The feeling of being actually sick. I used to be so in love with hunger. Anorexia was something beautiful and precious to me. I don't even know why I feel like this. I don't understand the point of this illness, yet I'm still craving for it to come back.