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doctorsickx · 22 days ago
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The words, the colors, the sun
fail to showcase my heartbreak
when I have yet to accept it as mine
and only mine to grieve.
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doctorsickx · 2 months ago
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THIS. THIS. THIS. I want to plaster this on my face.
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doctorsickx · 2 months ago
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I'd like to stop being anxious now. My head is exploding.
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doctorsickx · 2 months ago
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It's deeply painful how one person can make you feel like you're walking on clouds and other times, the loneliest person to ever exist.
Last night, I realised how utterly lonely I am without my partner talking to me. It was heartbreaking, to say the least. I realised that I have no one left to call and cry to, at midnight. In the past couple years since I've been with my partner, I think I distanced from my friends, but I guess I was already isolated by then.
Anyway, last night, I felt so alone, so lonely, so alienated. It felt like a dagger to my chest when he said he doesn't want to talk. My mind took me to some harrowing places. It felt like our relationship was over and that he doesn't want me anymore. And that he was my go to person and now I've left with no one to talk to when I really need to.
I'm back to how I was before I met him. All alone, all by myself, surrounded by friends but no one to reach out when necessary. It sucks.
Another person to grieve.
Another relationship to remember, woefully.
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doctorsickx · 4 months ago
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And many, many valleys of sorrow and mountains of death.
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Marina Tsvetaeva, from a diary entry featured in Earthly Signs Moscow Diaries, 1917-1922
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doctorsickx · 4 months ago
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― Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Gentle Spirit
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doctorsickx · 4 months ago
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doctorsickx · 5 months ago
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Low and low, I sink
lo and behold, I crumble.
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doctorsickx · 7 months ago
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kinda wanna leave. kinda wanna ghost everyone. kinda wanna rot under a blanket. kinda wanna feel loved. kinda wanna feel wanted. kinda wanna
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doctorsickx · 8 months ago
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*goes through a hard time*
Me: I must be pretending
*feels incredibly lonely and wants to talk to someone*
Me: ew I'm too needy and weak
*experiences shitloads of emotional pain*
Me: stfu you're not a baby, gulp it down alone like an adult
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doctorsickx · 8 months ago
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Tw: abuse
Just survived a couple hours with my abuser while casually chitchatting around family. I need to run away.
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doctorsickx · 8 months ago
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doctorsickx · 8 months ago
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yes, please
Craving entertainment but having absolutely no interest in anything
Kill me
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doctorsickx · 8 months ago
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yeah
i wanna lay under my blanket and die
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doctorsickx · 9 months ago
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doctorsickx · 9 months ago
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Trying to not to be afraid of this energy. One of the days when I feel sorry for myself. Sigh.
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doctorsickx · 9 months ago
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How accurate.
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- j (x)
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