delicate-vivian

[delicate-vivian]

I've been sick with the flu, which sucks-

But there's space between my fingers now :)

[delicate-vivian]

Tw: self h4rm

I went into reading winter girls like- without really looking into it.... Yall- why with no warnings whatsoever does she just talk about çùtt1ñg like it's nothing??😭

I no joke put it down on that page and haven't picked it up since... I don't do that, but it's still like- tr1gg3r1ng...

So.... Can't say I recommend "winter girls"😭

I super do recommend "the year I didn't eat" by Samuel pollen, though! Fun book, the main character is into birds :))

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I saw this vintage magazine from like the 50s that said "if you can pitch it an inch thick, you NEED to lose it" and honestly.... Real.

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Had a meta day🤪

Food was so good, I wanted to die :D I high-key feel sick as fuck, but hopefully that kicks my metabolism up to help me get to 119 (53.9kg) FAST

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Trying to lock in- that shit is HARD💀

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Literally haven't had a meta day in like... Months... I should do that shit more consciously, instead of b1ng1ng hard and having a panic attack till I feel better when I don't g41n anything a week later💀

But I high-key feel sick as hell after a meta day... :(

*meta day (metabolism day)- a day where you eat over 1000 cals so your metabolism doesn't slow down and stop your progress

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Literally b1ng3d harder than EVER yesterday (family made comfort food, I was too week to say no), and then slept 8 hours by accident, and I woke up debloated like nothing ever happened... I was baffled-

Your sign to get good sleep💀

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Even though I haven't ga1ned anything, I feel like I LOOK bigger... Like- have my arms been that fucking b1g before...? I hope not...

[delicate-vivian]

Not really much to update :p I'm officially 121lb (54.8kg)

Also my birthday is this month! :D

I'm also thinking of going back on 16:8, because most of my lw was around the time I did that💀

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I've been craving chicken 24/7 and I literally don't know why....

[delicate-vivian]

Having a restrictive 34t1ñ& dîsœrdér living with a family that frequently 34ts bc they're just bored is literally torture 😭

Like I wanna stay in my room and do anything BUS 34t, but literally the only thing we do is stay inside and order out... Why is it 8pm and your ordering?? WHY ARE YOU ASKING ME IF I WANT SOMETHING😭😭

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Bored 4t3/B1ng3d today because someone i hated decided to start shit with me today🤧

At least I dropped two lbs last week... I can drop them again.

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I tried to get my old coffee order (from before the sickness), because I didn't wanna gamble new low cal orders, and I got anxious two seconds into drinking it and spent the entire day trying to calculate how much cals it was

...why is a caramel swirl 50-150 calories?? And why did I ask for TWO (2) SWIRLS, AND THEY GAVE ME SIX (6)??

Literally didn't notice till AFTER I drank it, like HOURS later (I kept the sticker, to track😭) I'm literally so upset and I feel so bloated from just the drink😭

I'm just not gonna order coffee anymore. I used to not eat breakfast, I'll just go back to that💀

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Seeing people repost Victoria secret models aren't triggering anymore, I need real peoples b0dyçh3çks.

Seeing the slight dip in muscle on the arms and r1bs on relaxed torsos are the only way I can drop the fucking fork💀

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Number one on my list this year was to reach my ugw, but I've just been saying my resolution is to read more 😔💀

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Some of my post be having horrible typos and I don't notice until the majority of people who come across my account have already interacted with it😭 like damn bruh...

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Literally making my own low c4l shit because why whenever I try ordering the exact same low c4l coffee, every fucking time they never get my order correct😭

Like why am I spending $4 on too sweet bitter coffee? How is that possible?? I just want coffee bro😭

Rlly trynna get used to black coffee so I can just make some in record time fr