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does anyone else fantasize about becoming violently ill and being unable to eat

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begging crying weeping on the floor sobbing for another coke zero..

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why am i always so confused when i actually lose the weight? like i don’t want to believe that i can do it even after restricting so much. it’s surreal. i feel so euphoric and happy. i don’t want this feeling to go away.

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GUYS IM SO HAPPY. HE SAID HE LIKED ME BACK AND HE AGREED TO HAVE A SLUSHYNOOBZ BOARDGAME POPCORN MARATHON DATE. HOLY MOLY IM OVERLOADED WITH HAPPINESS. am i making a big mistake because he’s one of my best friends? yes. but yolo

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random update: so i did confess to him and he’s kinda just ignoring it. like the elephants loose but he said ok what does that mean 😭. then i was like im being fr and he still doesn’t understand. but he did say that he likes me too and if i keep making moves on him then he will ask me out. and he still didn’t get that i was saying yes to if he wanted to ask me out. also his best friend asked me out and i rejected him. sooooooo. he’s kinda refusing to make a move rn bc he doesn’t want anyone to get hurt. this is too confusing.

why do i actually kinda have a crush on one of my guy friends. like he’s not cute but i’ve told him all my secrets and he makes me feel so comfortable and safe. i want to say that it’s just a friend crush but we used to be really close and text all day till we randomly fell out. these days we sometimes hang out in a group but i just want him to be injected into my veins. usually i only like the thought of someone and end up hating their personality but this is different. i know who he is and he knows everything about me. also i’m used to being only emotionally attracted to girls so this crush is really weird even though i’ve talked to and dated lots of guys. what do i doooooooo?????

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i can’t open tumblr in public anymore jesus christ

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why do i only get likes if i post the most gut wrenching, disordered, heartbreak, addiction content?

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guys i’ve been EXTREME bloated and on my period for the past week but guess what?!?! the numbers are still going down!!! idk if it counts since my body looks atrocious but a win is a win.

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i can never hide from my past.

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Spent all my money on doordash, cigarettes and a new vibrator

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guess who confessed??? (-10000/10 will never do it again)

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that feeling when you confess and have to throw your phone across the room to stop feeling sick <<

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why can’t i just like whoever likes me back?

why do i yearn for what i can never have?

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me turning into this bitch the second someone is interested in me

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why is this so me.

ONE DAY I PROMISE♡

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i love dilly dallying, especially in class

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Like fr…