captainofthesmuggler

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I wrote this at like 3 in the morning after I woke up from a nightmare... go figure 🤷‍♀️

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My parents won’t get my little sister diagnosed with adhd even though they’ve read the signs, seen the signs in her, my mom has fully agreed that there’s a very high likelihood since it also runs in the family (with real, professional diagnoses) but she won’t let my sister get a diagnosis because she’s afraid she’ll ‘use it as an excuse not to do things’ like no, sorry Mom that’s not what happens... I know in my heart that my sister will not use a diagnosis as an excuse but as an explanation and there’s a difference and it’s important to me

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So I heard somewhere that if you rub a dog’s ears enough it can get high and I just thought what if that worked on people

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Thomas Stearns Eliot, from The Love Song of J. Alfred Prufrock

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Me *cooking for me and little bro*: oh, I haven't really used this fork for anything, I should save it and use it in a sec to eat with

Me *contines cooking*: better not put that fork in the washing up

Me *heading to sink with fork*: I'm nearly done cooking, I better not put this fork in the washing up

Me *putting fork in washing up*: better not put this fork in the washing up

Me *turns to food, looks for fork*: wait

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Spent some time here last year... it's a beautiful city

Seville ,Spain

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If I don’t dream about counting tonight I will defo be dreaming about the queen

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Wait that's me

Character Idea

“Nothing goes according to plan around here,” they said, oddly proud as they stared at the chaos in front of them.

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There's something wild inside me,

It races the white horses to shore,

Tossing our heads as the wind whips our hair,

Tasting freedom like never before.

There's a wildness inside and I know it.

My heart beats to the drums of the fae,

I laugh as I dance with the mermaids,

Wielding a sword to keep monsters at bay.

The wild is sneaky and subtle.

You and I may pretend it's not there.

But it leaks out in fiery glances

And the untameable frizz of my hair.

The world all around tries to settle my wild,

Slowly and slyly they reign in my mind.

But the colourful thoughts burst free and soar...

So the world becomes cruel and unkind.

"Stop following dreams!" They warn and scold.

"Find a career!" The plead.

But I dream of a career full of dreaming,

Providing the freedom I NEED.

-m h

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Rain of life

It's nice to have a little rain,

To hear it trickle down the drain.

To watch it fall in lakes and brooks,

And think about how good it looks.

To feel it on your hair and face,

Watch raindrops on the window race.

And who among you can forget,

The smell of warm earth getting wet?

Also days when we were young,

And catching raindrops on our tongue.

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I like to pretend sometimes that I'm sexy... but at 5'0 I feel it's a bit like a kitten, trying to be a lion - ya feel me?...

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Last night I dreamt of flying and I do it a lot... I love the feeling I get when I just jump into the air - even though it isn't effortless. This morning was slightly different to other mornings after a flying dream. This morning, I realised how familiar that flying feeling was.

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I suppose one great thing about my mind is that I can be hard-core, shaking, can't breathe crying about how lonely I was at my graduation today and then in the next second I've stopped because I like the way my tear feels rolling down my face

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How is it I can be walking along thinking 'am I a good person who make mistakes? Or a mistake that makes good choices?' One second and then the next see two sleeping cats and think 'hehe not happy hour... cat nappy hour' and literally have to stifle my giggles as I walk down the street?...

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When I asked for increased police presence, I didn't mean through higher crime rates... smh

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The other night I had a dream that I was sat on the backseat of a two-seated motorbike and all of my friends were in a similar situation all around me. One by one their partner came, took the handlebars and revved off into the distance. More and more were leaving and I finally thought, what the heck, lay my body across both seats (sexy as) and revved myself into my own happily ever after before I woke up and if that's not the perfect analogy for my love life right now idk what is.