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blogmahbuttitches · 5 months ago
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I’m alone now, but I’m not entirely sure that is the case.  When you came into my life, you kicked up memories and emotions like pollen on a new spring day.  When I looked at you, I saw myself.  Broken and confused, just like me.  You dejectedly told me how you rise and fall by your own hand, as I envisioned myself dousing my hair  in gasoline and playing with matches.  What do they call a…
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blogmahbuttitches · 5 months ago
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11:11 1:11 2:22 Fear once ruled my life, but it has fallen away from me.  I suppose, when your heart gets broken enough times, hurting becomes the normal.  Happiness, on the other hand, feels alien.  These thoughts I carry, as I smile to you and say, “I just want you to be happy.”  For the first time in my life, I know what they say about love.  For me, just seeing your smile is enough.  I tell…
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blogmahbuttitches · 5 months ago
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11:11 1:11 Whenever you are around me, exhaustion seems to be constant.  I understand and try not to take it personally.  I have that effect on people.  Since everything shifted, the only constant is impermeability.  People, like clouds, float in and out of my life.  I’ve proposed it was a test to see if I could handle loving people as much as I do and feeling nothing in return. I think of a…
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blogmahbuttitches · 5 months ago
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Do You Believe in Magic...?
Reposting from 2017 That damn song has been stuck in my head all day.  Following up on Finding Center and Book Club!  I’m almost done The Universe Has Your Back.  I am also doing the daily work of “Miracles May Happen” I actually am staying on Day 3, because it’s been very difficult for me, and it’s providing me a lot of insight and opportunities for healing and growth. The very simple concept of…
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blogmahbuttitches · 6 months ago
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We're On a Mission From God
Inspired by one of my fave movies of all time, The Blues Brothers. I wrote this about a week before finding out we got our home in Nevada, and I was in the. midst of preparing to move while protecting my peace and mental health. When I originally wrote it, I posted all the pictures of me sobbing and finding catharsis through this poem. I think it’s one of my best and it’s definitely one of my…
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blogmahbuttitches · 6 months ago
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What doesn’t kill you, makes you….
When people ask me whether I have a positive or negative outlook in life, I’d usually choose the middle ground and respond with “realistic”.However,… What doesn’t kill you, makes you…. Inspired by a convo Andrea and I were having via comments. I mentioned my philosophy of what doesn’t kill you makes you funnier, and she made this super cool, amazing illustration, and a beautifully poignant post…
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blogmahbuttitches · 6 months ago
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Poison Ivy
What poisoned poetry Would that I could Rip out heart and eyes to see This blood, no ink, no blood in deed The horrors of euphemism in packets In this lie we call history How can it be this misery Is what came so naturally How long can’t we hear and see No one is free until we all are free? Whether river or ocean or sea to sea Look at what’s done in greed to you and me Oh prestigious…
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blogmahbuttitches · 6 months ago
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Can I write a new story?
I have said so many times that I am sick and tired of being sick and tired. I have every right to be, but I don’t wanna be. I asked myself yesterday – can I write a new story? I’m tired of writing about what I go through and how often I go through it. I’ve said a million times, I’m tired of identifying by my diagnoses, dis-eases, dis-orders, symptoms, and whatever else. I’m tired of getting on…
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blogmahbuttitches · 6 months ago
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Mixed Episode brought on by Sick Society (again. again.again...)
Radical acceptance is taking what you got and going with it instead of lamenting what could or should be. It is helpful as fuck; however, I think before acceptance, we really do need to feel the feelings, give them voice and space, and then move into it is what it fucking is. I don’t think I can ever get to it is what it fucking is until I feel how fucking upset I am, while holding the line that,…
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blogmahbuttitches · 6 months ago
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blogmahbuttitches · 6 months ago
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Progressing over perfectionism & psychosis
I made a TikTok today – the coolest part was that I could edit it on my laptop. Once I’m just more used to it, I’m going to be able to do editing waaaaay faster. I learned how to do everything on my phone, so it’s just getting familiar with how it all works, but just editing shit down is so much faster using a mouse instead of my thumbs omg. I’m trying to keep my videos 3m or less as I think I…
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blogmahbuttitches · 6 months ago
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Bit by bit
I’ve been writing on my Facebook again. I don’t know why I operate this way, but as I said to my doctor this week – I’m finally in this beautiful state of not fighting with myself enough to truly learn from myself. She really loved that because she was reassuring me how long it takes us to understand how our cycles work, what our triggers are, when we need to be concerned, when we need to get…
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blogmahbuttitches · 7 months ago
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Greetings from my new-to-me laptop. I haven’t been willing to write on my dying PC – too many lost/crashed posts and pages because my typing was too fast for it to handle, and I am just sick of trying to do shit on my phone when I know I can be sooo much faster on a proper device. It’s been such a weird, random journey to end up getting somewhere I’ve been trying to be for years… This is the…
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blogmahbuttitches · 7 months ago
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Spring Break(s)
Haven’t had the time or energy to write, write. I did get some TikToks up here and there so you can head over there to listen to me, as well. On the heels and hells of everything, I experienced psychosis symptoms starting with my last period, which I believe I wrote about, aaaand with this period I’m just finishing. This is two periods in a row, now, that the P in my PMS has stood for…
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blogmahbuttitches · 8 months ago
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Take a bow (and arrow) - Poetry by Yours Truly
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blogmahbuttitches · 8 months ago
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Fuck the Oscars!
We’re boycotting together tonight, right? I mean, what exactly could we celebrate? “Thanks for a temporary distraction from the crimes against humanity that the majority of you are actively supporting and benefiting from”?! That makes no sense. Below, is my TikTok where I do my best to suggest a bunch of shit you can do at 4:00 West Coast time, and I may actually hop on TikTok Live and just see…
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blogmahbuttitches · 8 months ago
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Sunday Funday
Greetings to you from the blue skies and mountains I’m gazing at through my window in a blissfully empty and silent house. No one – not even my husband – is home. I have Lithium on Sirius XM playing, and I’m listening to some research on Brainwashing and how it’s not how we understand it, etc. Fascinating stuff, but I’m not getting into brainwashing right now, or maybe I will, I actually don’t…
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