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girl you're okay. you're not ageist.

there's nothing wrong with wanting good platonic friendship between male/female characters in media. it's actually one of my favourite things to write in fics. I love writing fics of my favourite pookie bear with a platonic friendship with reader causing havoc and eating toast together <3

but I also write male/female romantic relationships too with other characters.

it's not a big of a deal 🫶

man i made a post like a month ago talking abt how i hope daryl and carol don’t get together bc i love their platonic friendship and im still mad that someone reblogged my post and essentially called me ageist?? like hwat??? i made it very clear that i ship carol and ezekiel, they’re actually one of my favorite ships in the show and i HATE they didn’t end up together. plus i ship bethyl, duh! i emphasized the point that i think it’s really good to see a very strong platonic relationship between a man and a woman and they said eugene and rosita are a good example?? eugene was in love with rosita most of the time they knew each other?? not a good example at all????? they pointed out someone else too but who cares. in summary, yes i do hold grudges

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out of pocket Pinterest comments under Andrew Lincoln's photo (Rick Grimes from The Walking Dead)

the said image:

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p-d*ddy actually scares me. he gives me shivers. he's my personal boogeyman. now I need EVERYONE who's involved or behaves like him to GO DOWN. I'm sick of these abusers getting away with everything because they're rich and famous. they need to burn. in REAL TIME.

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another shitty thing about being the eldest daughter who based her worth on academics and how useful she can be to others is that it physically hurts to ask for help even when we desperately need it. it's an internalized belief that we should we able to figure out everything on our own and it sucks

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I hate you religious self-righteous pricks. I hate it when they think they're better than you just because they pray more than you do. Just because they dress more modestly than you do. that you should listen to them and do what they say or you'll go to hell.

Religion and faith is complex. not everyone's journey is the same. and it's awful when they start telling you how you should change your ways and that what you're doing is wrong and they don't stop even when you ask them to because it's none of their business.

I don't like it. I hate it in fact. and it's even more jarring when it's your sister. I hate it when she has to be in my business. I can't even get myself to pray in peace anymore because I feel constantly watched and judged. and when I do something different or when I try to. I always get a comment or get laughed at or teased. and it never makes me feel good or nice. it makes me feel awful because whatever I do, it's a joke to others. it's something to make fun of.

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Watched the Casino Royale movie (2006¿?). The james bond movie and it was.... meh. I really expected better but oh well. At least I got to see bad guy Mads torture Bonds Balls ☺️

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okay but why does the smut oneshots and fanfics I've written always do better than the non-sexual and safe stuff I write? I have a side blog and I don't even post anything anymore. don't even have an active queue on it and I still get notifications from ppl interacting with my old smut. it's uh.. a bit weird. I put the same amount of love in both crafts. and yet the mature one gets more love. idk man.

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sometimes I wonder if all the efforts and work I do for my family would ever be acknowledged and appreciated properly. I am terrified that in the future, my siblings will deny the sacrifices I've done and all the things I did to help them grow. This is mostly because at the moment, my uncle is refusing to acknowledge my father's sacrifices. and he was the oldest. they're always fighting because my uncle always wants more and more and is never grateful. I hate it. I don't want my siblings to ever be that way.

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dawg I've been shitting the whole day. is this normal? am I healing or getting sick?

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something I would never understand: ppl who post pictures of themselves crying for the public to see on social media.

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what the fuck

I have to lower these numbers. it's actually horrible. I've been way too addicted to my phone. I have to get up and do stuff. I've been wasting too much time doing nothing.

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Taylor swift they can never make me like you.

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I honestly miss playing the old MovieStarPlanet game. the new one is garbage. I used to spend so much time there making friends and dressing up and cosplaying kpop idols and cartoon characters. it used to be so fun 😔

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as someone who holds 3 passports. you would NEVER catch me fighting for a country in a war. if they want to beef so bad, they should get those old geezers to the battle field and watch them wack each other until their knees give out.

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Part 2: Anxiety, Envy, Ennui & Embarrassment

Inside Out Emotions (my version)

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Inside Out Emotions (my version)

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