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I may go into more detail about “Sinsmas” later, but I did want to talk about what I considered to be the one scene/sequence that I thought was very well done and that I truly enjoyed—Octavia’s song, “I Will Be Okay”.

(Song/Character Discussion below)

Octavia’s song is almost everything I could have asked for. A somber echo of Stolas’ song from season 1, Octavia’s I Will Be Okay, finally, finally, gives Octavia a voice and the chance to express her grief over her father’s abandonment.

For the first time in the series, there’s no one to tell Octavia that she should give her dad some slack or that she should forgive him. She’s finally allowed to be upset, to fully mourn her relationship with Stolas and to get mad about what happened. She’s finally allowed to start working towards accepting the ways Stolas’ neglected her, and begin healing from that pain and trauma.

Octavia’s experience is both terribly heart-wrenching and, in the most painful way, freeing. The lyrics reflect that perfectly, with Octavia acknowledging that while she’s not okay now because of everything Stolas put her through, she WILL be okay, and will grow into her own person without him.

The song is a direct response to Stolas’. Octavia is answering him, saying “Yes, I will be okay. Not because of anything that you were supposed to or failed to provide me as a father, but because I will forge my own path, and in doing so will heal from the pain you caused me.”

It’s a bittersweet song about finding the strength to cut contact with someone you loved who has repeatedly failed you in the worst ways, and who isn’t going to change.

I do have one “criticism” for this song and sequence, not because anything from it was poorly done, but because, in my opinion, the song’s visuals could have been even better.

The following scene was in the original storyboards for “I Will Be Okay”, and was changed in the final episode:

I think the decision to change the visuals for these lyrics in the song was a mistake. Please don’t get me wrong, the animation in this entire episode was fantastic, my critiques of Helluva Boss are almost never about the animation.

But the above sequence just has so much more emotional weight to me. It’s the visualization of Octavia realizing she can’t rely on Stolas, that she has to look to herself for comfort.

Octavia taking her younger self from her neglectful father’s arms, symbolizing that she’s accepted that Stolas cannot be depended on and that she’ll have to take care of herself now, is such a powerful image.

It really is a shame to me that they cut this scene, because I think it fully encapsulates everything Octavia has been through in such a simple and effective way. I think the scene really loses something by cutting this visual.

With all of that said though, Octavia’s song, and the scene where she FINALLY calls Stolas out for his behavior were very cathartic for me. I know that the scene’s intent was most likely to make us empathize with Stolas for losing his daughter, but I found myself empathizing only with Octavia, and hoping that she gets the time she needs to heal.

I would love it if the show actually let her decide whether or not she wants Stolas back in her life, but given the way HB’s writers portray women, I worry that it’s likely some big event will happen that “reveals” Stella to be awful, and Octavia will forgive Stolas just like that, and will probably end up apologizing to him instead (like in “Seeing Stars”)

Anyway, just like Octavia being the only good thing in Stolas’ life, “I Will Be Okay” was, in my opinion, the only good thing in “Sinsmas”. (well that and Octavia calling Stolas out)

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Stolas dickriders ready to hate a child who just wants a good father.

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It's mind blowing how a shitty ass show like High Guardian Spice and Velma get all the smoke, criticism, and fucking backlash like it's the worst abomination ever to society. But you got Hazbin Hotel, Helluva Boss, one of the worst fucking storytellings and writing I've ever seen come out of the animation industry, gets praised like it just won the lottery. On top of that, you can't even criticize the shit. You can't even point out one tiny flaw of the characters without people saying "it's hell". It's as if these people have never seen a show get criticized before and want to protect it with all their lives. Literally fuck this fandom, man.

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lmao that's literally me pffftt

I love this trio so much

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Its them your honor

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omfggfggfgfgfggg like okay so it's 3 am and I just got done being high ASF last night and I'm just now discovering a new special interest after the fact lol???

Watched the recent sonic movie and it was amazing!!! There was so much thought put into everything about it! It basically opened up a lot of nostalgia for me as someone who's obsessed with Sonic

Patient needs whispurge to live

Redraw of this panel LOL practicing more sonic characters

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I actually did want to draw Mimic but ran out of steam and put too much into this already

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I’ve wanted to make one of these for the longest time

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💜Rouge in Sonic Free riders 💜

-: ✧ :-゜・．-: ✧ :-゜・．-: ✧ :-゜・．-: ✧ :-

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Every woman here is absolutely gorgeous (then theres the men ruining the panel)

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Ian said Surge would nickname her "Sunshine" if she ever became a real permanent member of the Neo Diamond Cutters, thank you Ian.

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Black Sheep

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Another request I took...

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I was hit with a brainblast of a design for a Surge/Lanolin kid, so here's Snap the Sheep! Her moms split when she was small and she lives with Lanolin, who she doesn't get along with. She is a rowdy rebel who is giving Lanolin new gray hairs from stress on the daily.

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Did a few Things™ for twitter

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Got the go ahead to post this! Here's the official reference sheet of the Diamond Cutters 🔷 riders outfits on the IDW Sonic Phantom Riders Arc! The designs are a a joint collaboration between @aaronhamm and I!