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GAAAAAA SFXXX PLS I PROMISE ITS SFXXX

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I love waking up at 5 something in the morning after having a euphoric and blissful dream about finally being loved and cherished and desired only to wake up and realize once again that it wasnt real and ill never be loved because i am unworthy undeserving and will never be special to anyone ever. I need to get over this long term crush ive had on this guy WHO HAS A GF. i havent done anything but ohmygod im still borderline in love with him and i need this dream to be what finally lets me get over him. Im tired, and im pissed i couldnt cut deep enough bc i was lwk still a half asleep a bit.

Cause heaven aint close in a place like this,

I said heaven aint close in a place like this,

Bring it back down, bring it back down tonight

Never thought id let a rumor ruin my moonlight...

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RULE NO. 1 OF WOUND CARE: ignore itttt :33

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🎀Life-spo🎀

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everyone's sh is valid!!<3<3 except mine

everyone's body is beautiful!!<3<3 except mine

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A drawing i used to keep behind my phone case

(ignore the cat hair ☠️)

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I cannot look people in the eyes because of how ugly I feel.

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i really wish there was more positive representation of short men, like actually short men. like 5’3 and under. 5’0 and under.

i wish we had more representation of us as masculine, as attractive, as desirable; representation that doesnt force us into a submissive, infantilized, or hotheaded role.

it is so hard for me to ever imagine that i will be taken seriously or seen as manly because of my height. it is so fucking frustrating. i know i deserve to be happy with myself, but without representation its hard to even know what that might look like. if its even possible.

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Dear diary...

My body is just gross, no matter what I do with it.

I try to look at it on the mirror and try to make it less so... And nothing works. Nothing will ever work. I will always just be gross to look at.

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i wanna fucking rip my skin off

i hate how i look so much it makes me want to bleed so badly UGH KILL ME

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every fking time

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Sometimes I look at my own photos and feel like a stranger.

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Abusing my self love candle rn bc i canNOT fucking do this shit rn.

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Questioning (NDP) is getting irritated when someone explains something you already know because, in their mind, you're either stupid or ignorant.

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questioning npd + avpd culture is always being surprised and uncomfortable at genuine compliments or praise. I know they're telling the truth but I simply cannot process anyone actually liking me.

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Eeehheheheeee!!!

SFX UNDER CUT (lol) ALL FAKEEEEE NOT REALLL‼️‼️‼️

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FAKEEEEE 🗣️🗣️🗣️🗣️

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Ohmygod while i was taking pictures my phone dropped on my fucking cuts and i gor blood all over my phone 😭😭

Hhhhhh i feel AMAZINGG i feel free i feel happy i feel like what i was crying about earlier didnt even happen i feel nothing but sweet release and a warm stinging on my thighs ❤️ god im never gonna fucking stop for anyone this is one of the few things that keeps me happy it keeps me sane i feel light as air rnn