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i already love rolf scamanders with all my heart 

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                                          …JAMES POTTER

  ❝ ———————— HE TOO WAS EXCEEDINGLY ARROGANT. A small amount of talent on the Quidditch field made him think he was a cut above the rest of us too. Strutting around the place with his friends and admirers.❞

             ( hp book canon, james potter rp blog written by aggie ) art credit 

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So about me being gone

basically this post will be one lost in a sea for people who are not even here anymore. Maybe this is a narcissistic post where I am just trying to keep the hopes up of people I do actually care about and letting down. Leaving again like I have done so many times but idk honestly this I am on some levels sorry about that and honestly sorry if I hurt people but also I felt shitty in this space.

This space scares me how I can feel consumed and so happy at times but how I feel it dragging me in to a dark place. The drafts seemed like a graveyard where ideas went to die and to my depression seemed like a constant reminder of my own failure.

But I long for it at the same time…it might be the weirdest relationship in my life. I miss the people. I miss them a lot. I miss writing people and I miss trying to figure out ever aspect of a person….I miss this weird ass character who clings to my heart. I miss it all.

And I might come back…I want to come back. I still have school left for one year after being not able to complete it the first time around. I actually have a handle on things right now although I am scared if I get on here and that it might drag me down

I at the point you might ask why the fuck I am writing this well honestly I am not sure I know it is hopeless maybe but this is like a call to the few people who actually might feel happy about me being on again and also for myself since I feel horrible both for leave without a word and for leaving a love for writing behind me.

I am going to try to come back. My Skype is something I will give to anyone who asks and my personal is @padfootstan so if i despite wanting to so fucking much to stay and I leave I still have some contact with you guys.

/ Agnes

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                      ❝ ———————— HE TOO WAS EXCEEDINGLY ARROGANT. A small amount of talent on the Quidditch field made him think he was a cut above the rest of us too. Strutting around the place with his friends and admirers.❞  

                             ( selective book canon james potter rp blog written by aggie )

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wow 8 months that is actually pretty impressive. 

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i am not dead i swear......i mean not yet but school is getting me there.

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 i actually really like severus snape. 

since he is human to me.  he was not a good person at times. he was so far from it at times. but i don’t blame people for wanting him to be good or snape stans being all forgetting of what he has done to everyone.  like really i kinda understand it. when we grow up and bad things happen to us people always tell just it is going to be alright. when people are bad we expect them to be punished……severus was abused at home and bullied at school and it didn’t go alright for him. he didn’t became a better person or grew stronger because of these things. 

and oddly that heart breaking fact is why i like him. i like him since he is real. there is no suger coding and saying everything will be all right, you need to put effort in being happy. i am not saying he didn’t. i don’t understand him completely but like really i think about this a lot with him. severus is really one of the best characters out there, because he is not a beautiful lie, only the painful truth that life breaks you over and over again

and things might not be okay in the end

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rping with adhd

seraphicwrites:

starting a reply and then pausing to check your dash and never returning

and then when you do go back you forget where you were going with the reply

saving all your replies in your drafts to ‘do later’ and never doing them

thinking about saving your drafts and saying you’ll remember it and the not remembering it

writing a sentence and then thinking of something cool to say later on mid-sentence and writing that instead and then never going back to finish your first sentence

30 different tabs open at all times

stopping replying to format posts/themes instead

putting things in your likes to reblog later but never doing it

10 different tags for one type of post

missing out a detail in a reply because you only skimmed it bc you don’t have the attention-span to read a long-ass para

i literally stopped writing this post for about half an hour because i started dash browsing how do i get anything done

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where the blue of the sea meets the sky / and the big yellow sun leads me home

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🔥 do it do it do it!!

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Katherine did not love Stefan…..

like with human stefan it was more of a amazement over how he seemed to want her to be so good. he believed she was and  he for a second made her remember the person she was back as a human and how she was like that but she didn’t love him. he was a tool to her so she could get her away the same with damon….like sure she stared to care for them both but in the end they gave her nothing she didn’t feel like she could find in someone else

and when coming back into their lives. it was not love he was once again a tool used so she could get what she had been wanting for so long her freedom. what she did feel was really resentment against elena since she was jealous of her. she saw the life she wanted to have had as a human, with people who cared about her and someone who loved her which nadia’s father never really did. 

she believed she loved him though. being so long ago since she loved. she didn’t realize it was more of the idea of him. the idea of stefan she was in love with since in this idea she was the girl she use to be. 

and with the whole thing towards the end i just……that was so much about elijah. since that is someone who she actually loved. she fucking was ready to give up her own freedom for him….

like do you realize how huge that is. that freedom was something kat was forced to destroy everything she was to try to get her whole life has been about running from klaus basically. and she was ready to give up that freedom even if it was so close she could taste it. and he left her, she finally opened her heart and he left her and as she turned human and fought for her life it was so easy to ignore. 

but as she stared dying it was different she was forced to face the reality of what the years had done to her. how she had stared out as a probably hopeless romatic and turned into a heartless monster. like kat practical started all of this since of love, with nadia’s father. and now she was forced to think about that and she realised her whole life was for nothing. she was so scared since all the pain she went through was for nothing. 

and then stefan was just there. he was actually nice to her. he was there. and she just needed to convince herself she loved him and that he could love her. he was the closest she had to not letting everything be in vain. 

also it was such a nice distraction. not actually facing the fact that she was leaving her daughter once again and also how scared she was about dying…….she didn’t love stefan, but god did she want to towards the end. she wanted nothing more then to feel real love towards him and she wanted to so much she almost convinced herself

almost

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🔥 socks

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I HATE THEM SO MUCH. LIKE REALLY LIKE NO STOP IT!! tbh anything on my feet i just no for me. like people even touching them like just on accident just nope for me. 

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“I appreciate what you’re trying to do, but you’re just making this worse.” (wink wonk you pick dong)

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 “ you don’t even know what i am even going to say!?! …… you know what chris…..get over yourself

you go around like your life has been so tough & like this is such an exclusive thing to you !!…..you didn’t have a horrible life chris. I  know this since i grew up with you !  we all know how dad without a second always said yes to you………& dad didn’t mean it at times & he loves us all but we both know he also paid extra attention to you….they all do. our aunts & our parents, they all had  something special when it came to you. 

         you never had to have mom take out her frustration on you….since that is what she took out on me when you were being difficult & she didn’t want to make you feel worse. of course she didn’t mean it, but it happened ! you never had to feel like you were the one someone forget about you ! you never had to feel alone, but also feeling like a brat for that since you know people are their for you but you can’t hep  feeling that way at times…..especially when seeing how close you & wyatt are. you don’t understand how i feel like i background character in my own family.  

         & this is not something i am saying to make you feel bad. you are not allowed  to use this as some sort of material to be able to hate yourself more.  this is me telling everyone in this family have their problems, everyone have their own struggles.                        &  life is defied by what you choose to think about. you can focus on the happy things, because they are there so many good things.

         …….you can’t just look at your life & see the bad. you will not make through that.”  her lip stared to tremble. these were things she have held in for so long. the worry she & carried around for her older brother for so long came out  in her anger. but she was thankful for it, because the worry was tearing her apart.

            “ …….& i can’t loose you…..please just listen to me….you can’t do this anymore…..this will eat you up through the inside chris. “

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The person I reblogged this from is super cute and deserves to have a nice day

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i laugh sometimes with my fred the second since he is nothing like the fandom. their a prankster and fred 2.0 ...and then we have mine.....fred the fucking huge nerd who is the peacekeepers in the family with huge daddy issues and uncle issues,  also the nerd who wants to be a muggle doctor.

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              ❛ the world is resting on the tip of her tongue. tell me love is not synonymous with blood, with destruction. tell me that l o v e and w a r are not the same words scrambled together. tell me she could not drown the whole world if she wanted to.

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@grawpiish

                  “just go !! ” standing close enough to place her hands on his chest & push hard against it. allowing the anger, which with her tears there threatening to spill over, slip into the shove.  her eyes met his ——————  throwing the pride, she was taught to cling into, in the wind. tears were running down her face as her breaths were sharp & she did something she never thought she could.....  

                                        “GO AWAY!!.” the scream was louder than she ever thought her voice could go. it was strange hearing it go to such levels & it scared her. that wasn't her ...... it was than she realized her hands had been moving against his chest, fingers arched from the punches she hadn't noticed she been doing.       stumbling back she looked down at her  hands. —————why was she acting like this!? why were the tears what it seemed never ending !? who was this person ?!! THIS WASN’T HER. astoria always had control & this person had none