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HE’S HOME !!!!

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HE WILL BE HOME IN LIKE 30 HOURS ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

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(crying so hard i can't breathe, on the verge of ending it all) oh yeah it's fine don't worry i understand

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i wish i hugged you a little tighter and i wish i kissed you longer.

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the recovering codependency in me whenever he leaves for work and my brain is deadset on perceiving it as abandonment when its literally him going to work

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stay safe offshore baby. i love you, i already cant wait to see you again.

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This is accurate to act 1 Andrew isn’t it

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dating an offshore guy who’s literally an angel on earth when ur a recovering codependent is not for the weak

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your boyfriend sounds like a fucking nimrod

he can be a lil dumb sometimes, but he truly does mean well ❤️❤️ he treats me very well

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early grieving is literally the worst. someday my mom will die. someday my closest friends will die. someday my boyfriend will die. someday my cat will die.

i hate crying over a death that hasnt happened.

such a stupid thing to cry about but i truly cant help it

i dont want to loose everyone

i dont want to grieve

grief is such a painful emotion

its not fair i experience it so often, and grieve over situations that havent even happened yet

my chest hurts so bad

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did you ever tell your boyfriend that you don't like hearing that? he can think it and choose not to say it if it makes you uncomfortable (it would make me uncomfortable too)

i mentioned it the last time that he said it

he so far hasnt mentioned it again but i know my baby has some memory issues (i do too, i cant blame him) so i may have to give some gentle reminders

i have a tendency to forget im in a relationship where i can healthily communicate now without being framed as the bad guy 🧍‍♀️ crazy shit experiencing “x makes me uncomfortable” and getting a “thats okay, thank you for telling me” in response for the first time

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me because he gets along with my family so well and he gets along with my friends super well and everyone is know loves him and our relationship and he’s the first boyfriend ive had that everyone loves and wants me to be end goal with (i love him i want to be his wife and i want to be the mother of our children)

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my sweetpea is an angel he just has a tendency to think outloud and prepare for the best and worst of a situation 😭 he treats me like a goddess though so i forgive him for his thinking outloud moments

i love my boyfriend dearly and i want to be his wife but i fucking hate whenever he goes “statistically we’re likely to go separate ways at one point” can you not speak that out into the universe please and thanks i appreciate it.

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maybe ur bf just doesnt wanna be with u longterm. save urself the trouble and break up with him. u will find someone else to obsess over. - someone else who has bpd

no no no !!!! his actions show well that he does and he wants to be with me in the future, and he never says the statement with enjoyment. my boyfriend truly treats me like a princess and has never done me any wrong, he has a tendency to think out loud and prepare for the worst of a situation, so he’s simply prepared for any and all outcomes. i just dont like when he thinks out loud is all

we frequently talk about our future kids and vacations and everything together. his actions 100% show he wants this to be longterm, he’s just a bit too realistic and thinks outloud a lot

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i love my boyfriend dearly and i want to be his wife but i fucking hate whenever he goes “statistically we’re likely to go separate ways at one point” can you not speak that out into the universe please and thanks i appreciate it.

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missing being in a quiet home with my bf

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his hand against mine, his skin against mine

i love the contrast.

callused skin against soft skin

running my finger tips along his palm and on his arms and on his face

feeling the roughness of his hands, the remains of his work. studying every scar placement with my fingers and hearing the story for each one. holding his face in my hands, feeling the pricks of his stubble against my hands and studying all of his stunning imperfections

looking into his eyes and feeling safe, warm, at peace.

my sweet boy. i’ll remember your touch and your feel vividly and imagine it when i miss you. i’ll think of the way your hand feels against the soft skin of my waist. the way your muscles tense when you squeeze me tight. the way you kiss me. the way your voice sounds like it’s completing the missing notes on my music sheet. the way your heartbeat sounds when i lay my head on your chest. the way your chest rises and falls while you sleep. how you look so peaceful and beautiful when youre asleep and the warm light from my lamp hits your skin.

i’ll remember every single detail about you my love. every second away from you feels like an eternity, whether the job is long or short, but i always know that whenever you come home, i’ll get to see your stunning features and feel your rough skin against mine once more.

i love you. i’ll see you soon honey.