4ngel-f4ngzz

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when he admires me while im falling asleep

when he’s okay with me getting stoned around him and doesnt treat me differently

when he’s always doing stuff to make me happy even if he’s not sure he’d like it

when he holds all my stuff because he doesnt want me to have to hold anything

when he suddenly tightens his hold on me

when i get a hello and goodbye kiss everytime he sees me

when he stays as late as my parents allow

when he distracts my brother whenever he’s overwhelming me by wrestling with him

when he talks about his job and how much he loves working offshore and tells me all the cool tools and terminology and stuff

when he lets me ramble about my interests (last night i talked about ancient egypt for like 20 minutes)

when he opens every door for me

when he ☹️☹️☹️☹️ yes

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who needs therapy when u could just have ur big strong boyfriend fall asleep in ur arms while u play with his hair

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ouuuu i dont mind that he works offshore but my heart does hurt a little this time around. his responses r less frequent than normal this job must be a lil rougher than normal

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trying not to text him an essay on how much i love him because we’ve been officially dating for only 5 days and he’s not insane like i am

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im in love.

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This year keeps testing me by seeing how much it can throw at me until I give in and kill myself

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im so hungover rn omg

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stepdad got me pink Whitney and jack daniel’s whiskey 😍😍

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ANDDD THREE NOTES 😍 thanks guys ily

3 notes and i’ll get drunk and high tn

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3 notes and i’ll get drunk and high tn

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looking in the mirror and tellig myself not to relapse

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im so replaceable in every aspect of who I am in regards to everyone I know

maybe it would be better if I ceased to exist

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switching from fine to depressed and/or near suicidal like a traffic light 😭

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I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm sorry I'm so sorry.

I didn't mean to be like that. I don't want to act this way.

I'm sorry I can't communicate. I'm sorry that I try and push you away. I'm sorry. I just want you with me.

I'm sorry that I can't say that to you. I'M SORRY.

I'm so fucking sorry please don't leave me?

I know I'm hard to love. I KNOW.

I don't want to be like this.

I promise I am trying to change.

I promise I can act normal.

Please?

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why can't I just feel like everyone else; why has every single one of my emotions to feel like they take over my entire being and eventually my entire mood for the rest of the day?