yanahbernales

[yanahbernales]

My personal motivation to work as a team is that I am not just doing things for myself but also for everyone involved with what I'm doing. Whatever it is I am doing, I am doing it on my own, but I am not alone.  No matter what I do, I should always consider how it might affect others. I don't usually enjoy working in groups because I fear the lot of rules that I should consider while working. Most of the time, I enjoy my personal work because I am the only one controlling it. But whenever I work in groups, it is somewhat hard for me to cope. I tend to exceed the do's and don'ts. Most of the time, I do these things unconsciously. I am barely aware about how my doings affect others. That is why I always try my best to consider their opinions and various mindsets. Like, this is okay with her, this is too much for him, she does not agree with this etc. Having these kinds of things in mind helped me understand my own purpose in a team. I keep on reminding myself; My role is different with others. I am here because I'm needed, and they are here because they are needed too. I should give space to others.

It is also very important to understand our teammates by assessing who they are as different individuals with different perspectives and ideas that we should all be open in. I feel anxious whenever I work in a team because I fear that I cannot blend in. This leads to motivating myself, and to motivate myself, I tell myself how I should be more open to other people and how I should let them be open to me. I should stop shutting my doors, stop declining other people. Instead, I should start opening my doors, let other people in, lend them my ears and let them hear me. I tell myself every single time, opening doors is not just a chance for others, it is also a chance for me. I should also be open to them and let them understand me.  I remind myself that working as a team is about and should be a mutual engagement. I shall give my effort to understand them as they shall to me. We are united as a team for only one purpose and cause. Whatever we have to offer on the table as different individuals, we must make a meal out of it. Having a team does not just help us grow as a group, but it also helps us to grow as individuals. I always remind myself, I do not always have to be independent. Sometimes I need others too as they need me. Having a team will help us grow together.

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Have you ever been friends with someone who scares you because everything is wrong but like nothing is wrong with them and you just sit there across them and think how screwed you are for having been fallen for that friend who's all sweet and cute and charming and dumb and bawdy and disappointing but surprising and impressive all at the same time like how am i supposed to talk to him like im not feeling anything, everything is normal and this feeling is not eating me alive.

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I want to stop writing about you but my hands do not obey. Maybe because these hands has touched yours for such a short time it mourns for it day by day and it cannot stand it. Maybe I want to hold your hand; I just can't admit it. Because I know how much you'd pick hers instead of mine. You held me for a moment and I stayed there forever. You made me wonder all my february. Now i still wonder though i'm in a state of liberosis; when can I hold your hand again?

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Have you ever been this close to someone when you feel their legs entangled with yours, skin on skin but not naked, their gentle traces, the way they trace circles at your back, their gentle voice, their whispers, their soft smiles everytime your eyes meet, their warmth, their spirit, them, their wholeness with you. And then you steal a quick glance at them to check if their still comfortable and you both smile and then you begin to think how much you never want the moment to end. You begin to picture both of you cuddling and just feeling each other's comfort. Then you also begin to think about how would you two be after a moment that close. Then the next day comes and you see them talking to that person they like and then there you are, repressing those moments with them. And then your eyes pass each other and it all flashes back. You begin to think about what they felt because you yourself feel something.

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You were the only magic I believed was not too much for me to hold

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The moment I tried to tell myself you were just ordinary was the moment I realized you’re not. It was just, one day, our eyes met and it occured to me that you’re someone I long for. You’re that someone I didn’t know I was longing for. I got lost between worlds and stumbled upon different realms I thought I belonged to. And then I found you. And somehow, I found myself. You were the best thing I've ever believed to be meant for me.

Serendipity

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I rejected my fantasies. Because this is real. This is the real world. You are real. This is our story. Maybe our souls met. Maybe i’ve loved you before. Maybe, i’ve loved you beyond reason. Maybe, you are all the maybes. Maybe you're the questions and answers at the same time. You’re in my heart more than I knew. I do not even understand this. It is a priviledge to have bumped into you; to stumble upon our story even within just a distant forgotten memory which i am uncertain of existence.

soulmates?

[yanahbernales]

The world is full of untold stories. It unfurls when souls meet. They live inside us. Maybe, some souls were meant to long for each other from a distance. Some love, live in moments between silence. Maybe they were meant to love separately yet hopefully. Hoping to meet each other over again in an eternity; and hundreds of more. Yesterday, today, and tomorrow is a whole time closer to you. What is this, time is making me feel? What is is this you’re making me feel? Each time I see you, i get closer to you. Despite that everyday we are moving forward, we are stuck in a period of time.This is the story that guided me to you. I still do not fully understand. But magic exists because of you.

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man, this place...

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I just wanna take nice quick pics of the moon. Rather, still or not; you're beautiful dear luna.

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nights

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:((

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Ligpo!!!!!

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Taal at night

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Marmoris

Ligpo; t'was expectedly memorable. Peer and i thought we'd need a boat to get to the place but we just walked lol. It was a high tide.

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