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i need to make a new screensaver for december. i use it as a way to help keep me motivated too. i included a pic of what is rn

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full transparency… i had to break my fast cuz i was shaking and could barely stand up.

i had a protein drink (160 cal and 30g protein) and now i’m eating tuna (190 cal 42g protein).

i’m going to the gym after work anyways so it’s probably best that i’m eating now so that i don’t pass out

started a fast at noon:))

i’m aiming for 48 hours, so ending friday at noon!

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woke up from a nap, and i dreamt that i had a full on binge… pop, candy, sweets, granola bars, anything i could get my hands on. now all i can think about is food and im not even hungry.

i know it’s cuz i’m fasting but ughhhh

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my BF is taking me to the movies tonight! the only problem is that i don't know how to get around not eating snacks or popcorn. i'll probably get a drink and get water, or some type of zero cal drink. does anyone have any ideas for excuses to not eat, or at least ways to make it seem like i'm eating?

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there's a strange type of beauty in the feeling hunger pains

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started a fast at noon:))

i’m aiming for 48 hours, so ending friday at noon!

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I got my tongue pierced last night, and it hurts so much to eat... which is kind of a plus so now I have an excuse for why I'm not eating

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when i hit 110 |bs, i’m gonna get a hip tattoo 🥴

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hunger sc4le

painfully hungry: hunger pains, dizzy, feeling ill

very hungry: could eat anything, might binge

mildly hungry: strong signs of hunger, a little dizzy

hungry: 1st signs, stomach growling

neutral: emtpy not hungry or full, content

comfortably satisfied: hunger has been satisfied

very satisfied: hunger has been satisfied a little too well, full

beyond satisfied: starting to feel sick but manageable

uncomfortably over stuffed: feelings of guilt, heavy feeling, a bit nauseous, food coma

extremely stuffed: could throw up, bloated, feels heavy, sluggish, can't look at food

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This is the hunger scale, knowing this can hep you read your body. I personally try to stay 3-6. This helps keep me with my from b1ng1ng/ overe4ting.

keepingn track of your feelings and emotions before and after you e4t is also helpful, so you can find patterns in your eating behaviors like:

(before) am i actually hungry?

(before) what is my hunger scale?

(before) am i sad?

(before) am i stressed?

(before) am i happy?

(before) am i angry?

(after) how much did i eat?

(after) what is my hunger scale now?

(after) how do i feell now?

stay safe loves xox

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i work with elementary age kids, and whenever i hear them calling someone fat or talking about how they called someone fat, or just talks about someone else’s body in general, i step in right away and correct them.

i don’t want these kids to develop an ED. i wish someone stepped in when i was kid when someone commented on my body. this stuff starts soooo young, and kids keep getting meaner and meaner.

so, to state as what’s in my intro, if you are under 18, DO NOT COME ONTO MY PAGE!!! get out of this community and get help!!! there are so many consequences of have an ED, and it’s sooo important for growing bodies to get all the nutrients you need!!

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GW2 REACHED!!!

i w3ighed myself this morning and i hit my goal w3ight 2!!! i was honestly not expecting it because i had hit a plateau.

i am now 115.6 lbs (52.4 kg)!!!

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my current laptop screen:)))

isn’t she cutsie <3

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things to put money towards instead of food

The average money spent for one person per week is ~$73-$113

let's use the lower end $73

every week, when you buy groceries stay under this number. The amount difference you have put, it into a savings account!!

then once you have enough, you can buy things for yourself instead of spending it all on food.

(NOTE: do make sure to buy food, just make sure it is high in protein and healthy so that you can still get essential nutrients.)

some things that can be bought instead:

apple watch/ FitBit (keep track of calories burnt)

new workout outfits (great for motivation to go to the gym)

new clothes (not as many groceries= not eating as much= calorie deficit= losing weight= loose fitting clothes)

nails/ hair/ spa day (self-care is very important to feeling confident)

vitamins (for the nutrients that are missing from food not being eaten)

vacation (R&R is amazing)

Honestly, the options are endless, anything you want or need, save your money for that instead of putting it towards so much food.

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stay safe lovelies<3

~twilight

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one of the good things about being a working college student is that I'm so busy that I barely have time to actually eat so it's easier to not eat as much throughout the day.

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gonna be a wine-orexic tonight! lol

i ate around 250 cals today so that i can get wasted faster. plus won’t have to drink as much which means less cals<3

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Things to do instead of eat

do five of these! if still hungry then eat:

drink 24 oz of water

10 minutes of yoga

30 minutes light walk

clean room

take vitamins one at a time (I have a lot)

watch an episode of a show I haven't finished yet

shower

plan a workout

journal for 10 minutes

go through my clothes

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INTRO

FIRST: DO NOT INTERACT IF YOU ARE A MINOR

THIS IS AN 18+ ACCOUNT!!!

If I see you follow and you are under 18 you will be blocked!!!

SECOND: This is an 3D related account…

I am pro-recovery… just not for myself. If you are seeking recovery, want to go into recovery, or are in recovery, this account is NOT FOR YOU!

BLOCK ME IF YOU DO NOT SEE THIS CONTENT!

Now the actual intro:

You can call me twighlight (not my real name just an alias). I use she/her & they/them pronouns.

I’m 20 and a college student. I’ve struggled with w31ght related issues since i was 14, but it’s gotten worse when I was 18 and had my thyroid taken out.

Height: 5’4”

HW: 135

LW: 114

CW: 115.6 (this is updated in my bio)

GW1: 120

GW2: 115***

GW3: 110

UGW: 105