wlwdaydreamms

[wlwdaydreamms]

i wonder if all the things i went through shaped me into a person that fits so well with you. maybe all the heartbreaks and disappointments were worth it after all.

[wlwdaydreamms]

time slips away when we are together and i long for the future we'll spend together.

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its hard figuring things out with a new love. its a new feeling, new environment and new person. sometimes its comforting and tempting to run back to an old love. the love that made us feel safe for the first time. the first shoulder that we could leaned on. the first time you fell in love.

but if it could have worked out with them, it could have. don't forget the tears that you hid from them, the heartaches you soothe without them. trust your younger self's decision and don't ever walk back.

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heartbreaks do not get easier as you get older. you just learn to put yourself first. you won't dwell on whether you'll find happiness again. instead you'll wonder if you'll ever be happy staying in this loveless relationship.

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you can wonder what happened between them but you will never truly get over it. the whole truth will always be hidden and unknown. either you walk away or accept the commitment you made and let the thought of them together slowly change you.

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i thank myself for all the memories created and lessons learned.

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life before her seems so irrelevant. the future feels less scary. exciting even. the present feels like a dream i don't ever want to wake up from.

is this what its like to fall in love?

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you were my home but i'll spend the rest of my years running away from people that remind me of you.

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all those years and efforts wasted on the wrong person.

tell me how am i supposed to love the right person when my heart is full of rage?

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the three words that i am holding back.

i mean them so much.

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i wonder if we had spent the same afternoon reading the same book before we knew each other. the same sentences. the same feeling about the words.

the world is endless but at the same time, its not. i feel like i've known you in every lifetime.

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we had a disappointing ending. i know it crushed you to pieces when i couldn't make you happy anymore. i wish i could have painted a smile on your face when we said goodbye. i know you wanted me to stop you when you chose to walk away but i didn't. i think its time we choose ourselves. you will always have a bittersweet spot in my heart.

[wlwdaydreamms]

getting hurt is a privilege.

you were given the ability to love.

[wlwdaydreamms]

Our timing was never right. God knows how many times we walked past each other knowing we both wanted the same thing. The exchange glances, the subtle touches and the words you poured out for me. I hope in another universe we are happy.

And together.

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If I can't have you in this life, I hope you leave my heart alone. I hope my heart beats for someone else. Someone that will feel the same way about me.

[wlwdaydreamms]

we grieve the future we will never have. we grieve the memories we will never make. we grieve the person we will never marry. i know that i am making the right decision by leaving but that doesnt make the grief easier. i am at peace with my own company but that doesnt mean i dont miss the comfort of having someone by my side through the ups and downs of life.

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i was fine before her. i will be fine after her.