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My family is still staying in half of the church that wasn’t affected by the bombing because there is nowhere else to stay other than tents. They are limited to one small meal a day and one shower a week. They are sleeping on the floors, but no one can sleep since there is bombing everywhere around them. Even when there is no bombing, they can still hear the loud buzzing sound of the military planes above them, which would keep anyone who hears it awake. Along with everything, My grandma has diabetes and osteoporosis, so she can’t walk. She has to take her insulin medication along with many others; however, she has run out of many of her medications.” Am on my knees requesting for donation. Target $450

please help them if you can! 🍉🍉

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hey uhh dw fanartists... any chance anyone's drawn "die with a smile" twissy yet? twelve as bruno mars and missy as lady gaga with their guitar and piano :DDDD

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so, I got asked what's the spymaster timeline argument and why do I argue about it so much and keep defending spymaster lol so I wrote a long ass thing that I want to share with you.

SO. there are different arguments for people I argue with

1. having the master back as evil ruins Missy's arc and they hate him

2. having the master back as evil doesn't make sense after missy but would make sense before missy

3. They just fucking hate him god knows why.

4. A mix of these

Now. I have strong opinions, and those strong opinions are that I don't have a problem with dhawan master at all. I think he simply fits in after missy in the most normal way possible. I never saw a problem with it and I find it confusing that people do. Cause?? Imagine dying, then regenerating and realising the doctor has left you alone, but fair, cause he didn't know. So you go on gallifrey, hoping he shows up. While you're there you start hacking into the matrix for fun, cause you're the master and you like having a bit of fun. You discover horrible things. The doctor is not who they think they are, the time lords are not what you thought they were and all of your species including yourself is a product of the doctor's DNA.

This places the doctor as some kind of god. The origin of the time lords. They weren't time lords before the doctor, just gallifreyans, with no real power or anything to make them important. He's simultaneously angry at the time lords for lying about their identity, and at the doctor for being the most important time lord of them all, for being THE time lord, the original. Ultimately, for being more than him.

Now. The master has a certainty during the entirety of the show. The doctor is his equal, they have opposite moralities, but they're equals. Now, the security in this statement he believed in all his life shatters. They're not equals. He is who he is only because of the doctor. Thinking back to missy, she was the regeneration that absolutely wanted the doctor to see her as equal as well. She wanted to be like the doctor cause she missed him, and felt like he was the only one like her. So she tried to be like him, she accepted to be imprisoned in a vault and basically be changed to have the same beliefs of the doctor. But she did it willingly. Cause she wanted them to be the same. Now this entire arc feels wrong to the master (dhawan) , cause now he knows he could never be like the doctor, how could he? The doctor is much more. He thinks missy was his biggest mistake, he humiliated himself to be something he could never be. He gets out of the matrix and throws a tantrum, killing everyone on the planet for having lied to him (and to the doctor). When he sees the doctor again he hates her. He hates her cause she's just there, being her usual self, while in reality she has a bigger role in everything than she could ever think. He hates her cause a part of her is in him, and that means he's less. He's lesser than her. I also remember one scene where he was like "did I ever apologise for that?" (I don't remember what) And she was like "no" and him "good". I think about it often in relation to missy, cause he was definitely saying it because of her. Why any other master should have apologised for something? Only missy was apologising for stuff she did. It might be a big reach but I like to think it's about her. And he's like "good" cause he regrets being missy and trying to redeem himself, like I said before. Anyway the follow up from here is simple, he hates her and stuff, but he also feels bad not letting her know why. So then he decides to show her her story, all he can. No one should live without knowing their origins. so he shows her, and then he says he would like to show her more, but there's nothing else to show. It's the only moment in which he's doing something kind for her. Cause I believe in some way, he's also mad at the time lords for lying to the doctor. And here's part of why he decides to use their dead bodies in such an unworthy way. They have to pay not only with their life but also with their dignity, so he turns them into cybermasters.

This is also a way to cope and create his own race, to feel a little more on the doctor's level. She created the time lords, he destroyed them and created another species with their bodies. Then it's not enough and he decides that the only way to be equals is to become her. At this point he's gone completely insane, like, we see that. But it's totally understandable for him to act that way. His whole worldview changes. Everything he believed in is not true anymore. He doesn't know who he is anymore (I also just thought about this identity crisis he was having and how he stole Rasputin's identity, but this is an analysis for another day).

Anyway this got off topic cause I had to explain only the missy/dhawan thing but then started talking about dhawan in general so forgive me lol.

Other than this, if we take big finish in consideration there's the lumiat, that comes between missy and dhawan and her story really helps some people accepting the change (for some people it's still not enough though) and in the 2021 annual is confirmed that dhawan comes after missy, as we have the doctor and the master talking about the master's story from delegado to dhawan and thirteen says "I quite liked you as missy" and he replies that she spent too much time with him and it's something that should never happen again.

anyway. I've made my point on why the missy -> spymaster regeneration simply makes sense. It's just a normal timeline, I don't know why people think it doesn't work

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with the amount of master references we've been getting since the giggle, i believe we're getting them back sooner than we would've expected.

since getting a reboot, there's been a whole schtick about the doctor explaining his origins to ruby. mentioning gallifrey, explaining the timelord names, him having a granddaughter... then there's the whole "i'm a timelord, the last of them" thing.

now, obviously since this is a reboot, there's a whole new sleuth of people discovering doctor who on disney+. rtd is quite obviously doing the whole series 1-3 pipeline, but speedrunning it. he's building up the lore for the new watchers of the show, noticeably opting to not mention anything of the master starting from 15's run. this is for the shock factor that will ensue when the master DOES come back, similar to the shock that the professor yana reveal gave most of us nu who watchers.

for the old watchers, especially for thoschei brainrotters idk, each reference has become quite obvious and instead has built up anticipation for the grand reveal.

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ok so i just watched the devils chord... i know there's been a lot of talks about the reveal of the doctor being able to hear the non-diagetic music but one thing struck to my mind.

now we know that the doctor knows that everyone he travels with has a theme song and it just so happens that he has heard saxon master's theme (the master vainglorious),,, so the thought that he knew exactly what maestro was playing to scare him, to TAUNT him...

can you imagine the horror he felt when he recognized what maestro was playing?? his greatest regret, his best enemy's song being played after so many years of not hearing it, in the PRESENCE of ruby herself. after months of deflecting and avoiding the master's name, trying to hide it from ruby, the toymaker's spawn taunts the doctor with the long forgotten song of the only other person remotely like him.

the toymaker, who was aware of the timelord duo's connection with each other, who trapped the master inside a golden tooth. his spawn knew exactly what would rile the doctor up, and that terrified him.

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since this seems to be the tangent I am currently on, here we fucking go again with my latest toschei brainrot:

I can’t fucking get over the fact that Theta was meant to be the Master, but that they intrinsecally embodied everything that the Master is and fucking CHANGED THE COURSE OF THEIR FUTURE bc they didn’t want that and so they simply fucking YEETED REAPONSABILITY ONTO KOSCHEI like it was nothing??? I can’t with this child

the worst thing is that you can see it too: everything the Doctor does is always hyper controlled, like they are afraid of letting part of themself go, like they fear that part of themself

AND they always need (almost compusively) to be the ‘good’ guy of the situation, like they have something to prove, almost as if they know that they really aren’t

also, to be completely honest, everywhere the Doctor goes, they bring misery: almost everyone the Doctor meets ends up dead in a way or another, or misplaced in time, or with their heart broken, or with all of the above

though I am not too sure about the Master themself

like, I know that Koschei really wasn’t meant to be the Master, but since they did became the Master, I feel that they too had the potential, just less then Theta, apparently

that’s why they keep on telling Theta that they are two sides of the same coin: because they fucking are!! the same!! (one of them is more cowardly than the other though)

but I dunno, maybe they could also have become the Doctor, or some version of it at least, after all they showed that every time they don’t remember who they are they become an almost normal and genuinely good person (YANA I LOVE YOU, also The Master audio, guys, The Master audio), or that they are at least capable of change (MISSY, MY BELOVED MISSY)

‘who knows, could have been interesting’ I say, normally, while I go back to thinking about thoschei a normal amount. normally.

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two conan gray songs that consume my life force:

memories from the doctor's perspective

the exit from the master's perspective

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Petition to have a long-term companion named John Smith.

The Doctor does not stop using John Smith as an alias during this time, so good old companion John will:

Do nothing and go about the adventure as the dynamic duo, John Smith and John Smith

Say that he is either the Doctor's son or father depending on how old they both appear (a junior/senior situation)

Come up with a normal human pseudonym himself like Mark or Dave because the Doctor stole his name goddammit

Just fucking introduce himself as the Doctor and completely ruin the point of the Doctor calling himself John Smith

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pair: thoschei (tensimm/saxteen)

tags: human au, 5+1 things

chapter: 6/6

series: whoman office au™

description:

It's a gala, what a perfect time to let Harry do the small talk... right?

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the new trailer for new new who has so many parallels with the past series' to the point that with every second that passes, the excitement just slowly turns to so much dread and i can't even begin to think what's going to happen in the season with the blatant foreshadowing.

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pair: thoschei (tensimm/saxteen)

tags: human au, 5+1 things

chapter: 5/6

series: whoman office au™

description:

She was still reeling over the events that happened at the party, now her friend is trying to go in the same path as her???

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aaaa absolutely loved this !! 🫠🫠🫠 if you're looking for that tensimm moment™️ but with more angst, here you go 🫵😎

i speed ran this fic in my English class lol, but i had a lot of fun with it!

thank you @txrdish for the idea and @ziracrowshipper for motivation! i dont know if you guys where imagining a different master doctor combo but i decided to go with this scene after drafts with a few others

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pair: thoschei (tensimm/saxteen)

tags: human au, 5+1 things

chapter: 4/6

series: whoman office au™

description:

It's the World Science Festival, why does John feel off about this keynote speaker?

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i already have 1.1k words of the next whoman au chapter and im not even at the highlight yet, pray 4 me

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finals week is over!! finally have time to write the updates ive been missing on.

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not to read into things but i love reading into things and the main/intro theme for 9 and 10 the beat is a beat of three like dun dun dun. but after he meets the master and learns about the drums, every theme from 11 and on has a clear beat of four exactly like the sound of the drums so do with that what you will