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So finally got around to cooking my turkey and it didn’t finish till 10:30 last night so I obviously did start fasting till 11 but that was an exception. Broke fast around 8:50am b/c I ended up running wards for work and that tired me out. Than I ate around 1ish and then again around 3ish and around 5 and then had a lot of protein for dinner and stopped for sure before 8 but don’t remember exact time. That’s the one thing I hate about logging everything on apps is it’s like idk all the time when I started and stopped and it starts making all these Status on my fasting and I’m like this isn’t accurate. So just going’s off the top my head is easier. I also did a 15 min workout after dinner which am so proud of. Two work outs this week let’s go!!! Praying for my period so let’s goooo.

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IF - 8pm to 10:30am

Workout 4x week

My December goals

Started 165lbs

Goal 159lbs

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Locked In December

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Heyyy bitches I’m back

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I want to be skinny again

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Sad because I haven’t made any new progress since February. Idk I also been healing in the sense of I don’t want to compare myself to other women or men. I just want to be me. No more skinny shamming or fat shaming. I choose to be happy. I still want to be thin but in a healthy way. I think this blog might have come to an end for me.

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Having Depression and anxiety like it’s my first and last names today. Feeling so sick and tired of being broke, dependent on others, and fat. Still so fat. All the comments come back at me. I never realized it but I’m the fat girl. Idk why I thought anything else but that. I hate being fat. It’s like I have all the other stuff going on and am over weight? Interesting fasting would work if I could just stick to it. Fuck anything would work if I’d stick to it but I’m so soft on myself. I can only hold it together for a day? Follow my stupid rules for 12 hours and next day go back to old habits. I’m so over being sad. I’m over being poor. I’m over constantly thinking how could a guy like me . I want it to be a no brainer. I miss when guys chased me in a good way. I miss when I knew a guy liked me. Now… guys don’t like me. They mess with my feelings get me thinking maybe they like me but all reality they just mess with my feelings. This guy at work made me feel like shit today. I’ve always had a little crush on him and he knows it too. So what if I’m the problem. I know I’m the problem. I’m my own damn problem.

It’s weird being single. I’ve been single for 4 years now. It’s so embarrassing. No one wants to love me .im broken on the inside. There’s no fixing me. My heart is shattered, withered away. Nothing left but a hole in my chest.

I wish I could keep my mouth shut at work. I wish I was the mute girl. The girl we all ignored because she’s really not even there. I wish I didn’t care what anyone thought of me. I wish I could just be myself. I wish I had my friends around me. I wish I didn’t crave attention. I wish I wasn’t so dumb. I promise myself I wouldn’t talk about myself but I just have no way of feeling anything. Crying is my source of feeling. I’m afraid this is all I am. I’m afraid I will always struggle. I’m worried this is who I am. I’m not the woman I grew up believing I would be I’m my very own worse nightmare.

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Summer vibessss

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To just be casually pretty 🤩

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Lily Collins thigh gap is unreal….

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Just because it’s a “break” doesn’t equal “eat”.

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I can’t wait to finish breastfeeding for the sole purpose of being able to really restrict. I obviously try and eat enough to maintain supply and also not be tired but it hard to balance that out.

I will miss breastfeeding. I will forever cherish the bond. If anyone experiencing this please let me know.

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I can’t seem to lose weight on the scale… so I stop weighing myself early in the morning. The good thing is I’m staying between 149 and 152. My goal this month of March is to at least hit 145. I’m starting to work full time and as long as I maintain my calories during the day I just need to not eat everything in site for dinner. I think meal prepping veggies is my big priority this weekend. I don’t mind spending 20~30 mins cooking. It’s just hard with watching my kid. But I also loving cooking and making meals he enjoys as well. Tomorrow I’m making a chili. Last winter meal vibes. It getting so hot now.

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Inspired ✨

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Elisha___h on ig

Thin girls just have more fun…. Or so it seems.

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Guadadia on ig

Okay come on…. The ribs 😭