thegodshateme

[thegodshateme]

Writing for Friends About Friends

List of things I have noticed so far.

Maybe it’s all just me.

Issues that have cropped up:

- I can now hear the voices of these friends inside my head even when I don’t want to (Eg. When I’m showering, watching a movie, reading smut, etc)

- I have been swamped with an insurmountable amount of guilt (More than I think I’d feel if I was writing smut involving me and my actual father)

- Some people I feel no remorse writing about (Maybe I don’t feel they’re real or I think I could infinitely amuse them with every fucked thing I can come up with)

- Writing about threesomes makes me wanna die (Two people makes it easy to write without thinking about the person in any amount of detail aside from character traits. Three? Suddenly I’m recalling every interaction I have witnessed between said friends and I feel like the worst human in existence.)

- I’m a glutton for punishment (I need to stop telling people I write. Especially what I write about. I like having friends.)

- Imagining people I’m not sexually attracted to, nor want to do anything sexual with ever, is one of the weirdest experiences. Am I torturing myself? Is this another form of masochism? (Scratch that. It’s probably self-destructive tendencies merging with my emotional masochistic tendencies.)

- The amount of times I’ve fantasised about said friends (who are aware I am writing what I am *about* them) killing me. Like... Just finish reading it, turn to me and uhhh murder me. 

- I don’t want to stop writing what I’m writing even though I feel like human garbage. In fact I want to finish it to prove to myself I can do anything. (I feel like I have been made with very bad character flaws for comedic effect.)

- I am concerned my best friend will no longer want to be my friend because my new found freedom with other friends lets me feel like I can talk about anything. (Based on her reaction last night I can’t tell if this is now a definite likelihood or if I’m just overthinking it >_>)

- I overthink EVERYTHING. I think more about the perceptions of my audience (my friends) than I do about people who read my fanfics (as opposed to ‘friendfics’) 

- I want the people I write about to read what I write. (And then I want them to murder me.)

There was no purpose to this. I just needed to rant somewhere >_> *shrugs* Console myself since I know I’m not gonna stop :D

[thegodshateme]

Progress Report

I have done up the basic outline and plot of Chapter Eleven after watching “Fright of Passage” again. 

Now I just need to do a quick read through of the previous chapter and I can start doing up a draft in my notebook.

I have hopes for the chapter to be up by Thursday. (Would say tomorrow but I’m going to watch Wonder Woman with one of my partners, and then I’ve got Qspace so it’ll be Thursday BUT Thursday AEST so... Technically Wednesday in America *shrugs*)

[thegodshateme]

Gets Down on Hands and Knees

I AM REALLY SORRY!!!

It has been much too long since my last update.

I could give a long list of reasons why it is taking so long but then I may take longer to write it.

I know only a few of you follow me on tumblr so the rest won’t see til I update but I’m putting this up because I hope to have the next chapter up in the next day or two. 

also I’m putting this up here to also say that I’ll be writing a few other stories (no where near as in depth [YET] and probably written awkwardly) so when I post them feel free to check them out? If you want? I guess...

Trying to get past this apprehension I feel about posting stuff I write... so I be putting up a lot of random things from different fandoms, and genres (I’m considering trying my hand at short smut fics that don’t require as much processing as TGHM... for science *cough cough* and cause who doesn’t want more smut?)

*shrugs* uh yeah... see y’all soon with the next update then

*waves awkwardly*

[thegodshateme]

Yo, Uni Stuff

So my next update, which will be pretty cool if I do say so myself,

;) and I do,

Is going to be either done Thursday or 

T_T left until next week because I have two assignments and an exam due this week and next.

Sorry Q_Q

[thegodshateme]

There was a spelling error because of Autocorrect in chapter 9. 

Manga became Manag.

I am so done.

[thegodshateme]

Coming up in Chapter 11

I’ll finally be writing about the Flightmare’s first appearance :D Wooo!

Know what this means? 

ASTRID AND HICCUP ACTUALLY TALK TO EACH OTHER.

Yay~ Or not~ 

Its gonna a very fun yet angst filled chapter to write (sorry there’s so much angst, I really can’t help it >_>)

[thegodshateme]

Chapter Update!

I DID IT!!!!!!!!

I UPDATED!

FUCK SPELLING ERRORs!

I tried T_T I wrote it. I think it’s good.

IT’s 6 am for me. I’m going to bed.

Fucking fight me. 

[thegodshateme]

On Chapter 10

What I actually wanted to post right now is that I’m 1/3 of the way through writing chapter 10.

I hope to upload it tonight.

And so far section 1 (of hopefully only 3) is 2,300 words.

XD I think it’s going to be a long chapter and I’m excited.

Also enjoying this chapter because it’s Dagur.

I love Dagur.

But fuck was he messed before later seasons of Race to the Edge.

[thegodshateme]

Latest Art

So I drew a thing for a DnD campaign my girlfriend got me to be part of ;)

I’m playing a 12 year old half-dragon half-samsaran summoner with a fae-dragon eidalon and a deck of many things.

To those who have no idea what that means:

Summoners are like pokemon trainers who have random extra magical powers, like making inanimate objects speak :D like rocks.

An Eidalon is the being that a Summoner makes a contract with to be a Pokemon trainer, like the Professor or like the first Pokemon you get. They follow you everywhere.

A fae dragon is kinda but not really like the small dragon I drew. They are tiny, with fairy wings, and they love making mischief.

And a deck of many things is this wonderful magical item that has 11 cards that can do good things like give you 25 gems, or experience points, and 11 cards that can do bad things like imprison you.

So yeah. And this is what they look like.

This first one shows the colour better but I hadn’t drawn the dragon yet...

And this one has the Fae dragon, though it’s a little thicker and it’s wings aren’t as fancy as they are supposed to be ^^;

And I love them :D I also made a deck of many things that looks like it was drawn by a kid so :3 I’m happy with it.

[thegodshateme]

News about Me

I finished my exam T_T It is done. I have passed and now I am to bed.

It is 3.30am. I feel so weak compared to the allnighters I had when I was a teenager. *cries*

[thegodshateme]

Today’s Dilemma

I have an online exam today with the cutoff at 10am tomorrow.

And all that keeps happening while I’m reviewing is more and more plot ideas and character development ideas for TGHM.

And you know what?

Fuck you Personality Psychology. See what you do to people. Tsk Tsk.

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Tuffnut Sewing

So I’m finally posting what I have drawn and not coloured.

He looks like he’s masturbating furiously. I can’t.

Oh Fuck, Looking on a computer HE HAS A TINY HAND. WHAT HAVE I DONE?!

T_T Well.

[thegodshateme]

Today’s Event

I just got some plot ideas from watching You Can’t Ask That.

At which point I felt like maybe I should feel bad for that, or that it somehow justifies my view of myself as being amoral despite all the genuine morals I have.

*shrugs* Just one of those days I guess.

I’m probably going to get more plot ideas as I study for my Personality Psychology exam ^^;

Maybe I just didn’t write enough to be satisfied. I was two and a bit weeks late with my latest update.

I might write Chapter 10 tomorrow and update. (Something to do while on study breaks)

[thegodshateme]

Chapter 9 is Finished!

I have uploaded Chapter 9 and just T_T I’m so sorry it took so long...

I have been a failure.

All the sadness.

But! It’s done! And now I can move onto Chapter 10! 

WHICH

I 

AM

SO

EXCITED

FOR!!!!

I get to write about Dagur and just XD squeee

Ahem, yeah so ^^; I’m just gonna... go draw now...

[thegodshateme]

What is Done

I have set out the entire plot for this chapter and now I just have to write it >< 

worried it isn’t going to be long enough... *sigh*

I’ll try to write and post it by tonight once I’m at my girlfriend’s house.

<3

[thegodshateme]

I write some random stuff 0.0  Preclude to “next update is delayed”

Just read one of my posts from the other week >_> What am I....

Anyways.... I’m going to be updating on Thursday or Friday. Not sure.

‘Cause I have an EXAM at 8AM on THURSDAY T_T and i’m trying to study for it.... but I’m four weeks behind... and I started studying yesterday... and I’m still three weeks behind in my studies now. I have hopes though.

If I Q^Q FINISH reading all the textbook stuff tomorrow then I can probably write most of Chapter 9 on Wednesday T^T maybe.... maybe not... I’m trying....

Ahem, so yeah, delayed update... Again... and then the week after will also be delayed because I have a Japanese quiz on that Tuesday.... BUT 

After that! I’m on University Break :D For a week! So I’ll try to post two chapters in that week (Chapter 11 feat. The Flightmare and 12 feat. I Don’t Even Know Yet Maybe another Age Up)

[thegodshateme]

AHHHH WHAT IS THIS

So I just checked my email.

I disappeared to facebook for maybe two hours.

And now my inbox has ten or so new emails all from this....

*whispers* Why are you reading it?

*also whispers* How many reviews hate me?

*continues whispering* How many do I have to fight T^T

*Screams quietly* people actually like it o_o