thebutterflysshadow

[thebutterflysshadow]

I don't want this to continue. I want you to move on with your life and I'll move on with mine. Wasn't it you who told me to have dignity? If everything I felt made me a less dignified person, then what can I do but stop feeling? I didn't ask to go through all that, I didn't ask to feel all that. I didn't ask for my life to be turned upside down and to get lost in feelings that I don't even know where they came from or how.

I'm an ordinary person, an ordinary woman, and I want to stay that way. I feel good this way, doing what I need to do, what I want to do, and when I want to do it. I'm not a puppet; I don't need to act like I'm perfect, and I don't want to.

There's something that happens to me that I can't explain, but I quickly lose interest in those who walk all over me and hurt me. Who likes to suffer? It's like my senses create a self-defense mechanism, a barrier.

Let me live my life, and you live your extremely dignified life! It's nothing personal! Everything I do is for myself.

I'm just another fan who will support your work despite anything you do! Isn't that what fans are for? Thank you!

[thebutterflysshadow]

I think you're getting distant. I can't understand. I'm a little sad, but I can’t keep feeling everything alone. Maybe this is what you want—distance. Everything feels so different, it’s *becoming* different. I don’t know what to feel anymore. I don’t know what to think anymore. Things that used to make sense to me are starting not to.

Do you want me to go with this flow? If you don’t want this to come to an end, *do something*!

[thebutterflysshadow]

I can't take it anymore, I've already tried and I don't want to try anymore.

I don't want to keep quiet anymore so I don't hurt those who keep hurting me and putting me down.

Whoever it is, FUCK IT!

I'm not going to do this to myself anymore.

[thebutterflysshadow]

Yesterday, I placed a delivery order late at night. It was past 11:30 PM, so my order was supposed to arrive around 12:30 AM. I calmly laid down to wait for my order to arrive, and guess what? 🤣 I fell asleep like a rock. I woke up at 3 AM, completely clueless about what had happened 🤣 But in the end, I got a refund from the delivery service and I'm going to try to receive my order again today.

That's just me being me🤦🏽‍♀️

[thebutterflysshadow]

Hi😁

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🥰🤣

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There are days when I feel like I'm teetering on the edge, ready to crumble.

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Are people finally waking up to this?

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Trying not to have an anxiety attack.

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art + lemony snicket

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[thebutterflysshadow]

No one is forced to be strong all the time.

Sometimes all we need is something that warms the heart and soothes the soul.

[thebutterflysshadow]

People think they know me but no, they don't. They will never know.

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React! Why so serious?

[thebutterflysshadow]

What do you want? Please tell me.