#zoe x eric

[cursivebloodlines]

i just don't understand how you don't miss me. - for zoe (shh don't look that I sent two)

THE TORTURED POETS DEPARTMENT - THE ANTHOLOGY BY TAYLOR SWIFT PROMPT LIST | @overnightheartbeats

“You really don’t get it, do you?” A puff of breath slipped through her lips; a watery, broken laugh followed suit. If she so much as looked at him, Zoe knew her resolve would inevitably crumble. She looked everywhere but at him. The broken clock on the wall, out of time and ticking too fast - or was that just the beat of her heart? The piece of wallpaper in the corner opposite from them looked like it was about to fall off at any moment. Almost poetic and maybe even ironic, since it mirrored exactly how she felt in that moment. Her gaze averted to the floor, but not before she stole a glance at him on her way down. The heartbroken expression in his eyes, the love she could still see that lingered beyond them. How devastatingly beautiful he was, even when he looked gutted. The painstaking reminder: she did this to him, to them.

Did he not understand how much it was killing her to be apart from him? To purposely stay away from him when all she wanted to do was to pull him in closer, hold on tight to him with iron fists and never leave. But time and time again, she had hurt him with weaponised words of venom and spiteful declarations she could not retract so easily. Eric deserved more than that, deserved someone who could give him everything with no questions asked and not simply the crumbs she was willing to give depending on the day and the situation. She supposed it didn’t help how she kept coming to him for stupid things, and they ended up in circles and circles. One step forward, then two steps back. Then two steps forward and one step back. 

“I do miss you, Eric. I have missed you from the moment I left you. Even now, with you sitting here with me, I still miss you. That’s the problem.” And there it was. Raw, brutal honesty. “It’s a problem because I shouldn’t - I shouldn’t be missing you. Look at us. I did this to us.” Zoe knew she wasn’t making sense, that Eric wouldn’t understand - he never did. They had done this song and dance too many times before: all it would take is a moment, on the cusp of reigniting the flame once more but they fly too close to it. A fleeting moment of weakness for the two soon turns into a moment of regret for her, the guilt a permanent mark and it’s inevitable that she retreats, demanding and reinforcing boundaries whilst poor Eric attempted to fight for their relationship once again. If she couldn’t get past how badly she’d hurt him not once, but twice and probably more than that since she told him, ‘the more you love me, the more I hate myself’ and ‘I’m suffocating.’  Her own words haunted her, especially in the dark when she was alone again.

The way Zoe saw it, she didn’t deserve to miss him because she was the one who held the responsibility for destroying it. Trying to defend herself, she ended up attacking him and her default stance of losing her temper and saying everything in the worst way imaginable resulted in saying awful things she could not so easily take back. “I lost the right to sit around moping the moment I broke your heart.” She left out the part where she absolutely, one hundred percent did exactly that. Moping, having a rage and sobbing until she fell asleep. But that was then and this was now. It was now, she realised, that she should have merely played along with it. Act like she didn’t miss him instead of confessing. Maybe he could move on quicker that way. It would break her heart, but her heart was already far beyond broken anyway. 

Having everything slip through her fingers was a familiar tale and maybe that’s why she seemed so indifferent; she had grown accustomed to life’s relentless game of losses, where each disappointment forced her to return to the start, at square one once again. Whether it was her parents’ letdowns or being screwed over by others, setbacks were her constant companion. Time and time again, she would gather the broken pieces and keep on forward, never looking back. It was second nature, muscle memory. But Eric? He defied her closed-minded processes with an undying love too strong to walk away from. He was the first person who made her feel safe. His love for her was sincere and sacred, a rarity in her world. Something that deserved nurturing, something that was worth holding on to. Despite her best efforts (‘best’ was probably an exaggeration, come to think of it) to safeguard it, she found herself inadvertently destroying the only thing she cherished. She was a tornado, chaos with every hurricane she brought and Eric was always the one trapped in the eye of it, bearing the brunt of her wreckage. How was it possible to ruin the one good thing she ever had?

“I don’t know what you want me to do. I can’t just -” Sighing in frustration, she rubbed at her temples. How could she articulate it all when she didn’t fully understand herself? “If I act like I don’t miss you for long enough, maybe one day I will actually stop…” she trailed off, hesitating as she tentatively peered into his eyes once more. And there she was, falling for him all over again with just one look. “And if I can do that,” she said, her voice wavering as she held eye contact. That felt like worlds away right now. A pause, an intake of shaky breath. “Then maybe one day, you will stop missing me, too.” Perhaps confessing her plan wasn’t the brightest idea. But when she looked at him, she couldn’t lie to him. “I know you refuse to listen when I say you deserve better but it doesn’t make it any less true. I love you and I know you love me, but we’ve seen how this ends, we’ve been here twice before. I’ll be damned before I do it to you again for the third time.” But with the words she spoke, it became apparent to Zoe that maybe she had just done exactly that. “I’m sorry, Eric. I just - I don’t know. I can’t keep doing this - we can’t keep doing this.”

[cursivebloodlines]

@overnightheartbeats

come get your man he's not doing anything wrong he just misses you

[cursivebloodlines]

No need to apologize 'Cause there's nothing to regret Well, this is not what I wanted Guess all the good things come to an end

So baby, bye, bye Wish you the best But most of all, I wish that I could love you less Well, maybe you're right, I'll find someone else You say it isn't me, but when did that ever help?

Hold me closer Although you'll leave before the sunrise Might be bleeding, but don't you mind, I'll be fine Oh, it kills me I found the right one at the wrong time But until the sunrise Hold tight, hold tight

Maybe it happened too fast I guess that I understand You say that you never felt this way for anyone And that's why it scares you to death

So baby, bye, bye Know it's for the best Still I can't see how that would ease the pain in my chest

Hold me closer Although you'll leave before the sunrise I'll be bleeding, but don't you mind, I'll be fine Oh, it kills me I found the right one at the wrong time But until the sunrise Could you just hold me tight? I know I have to let go, but just give me the night

'Cause tomorrow will hurt Hurt really bad 'Cause I'm about to lose the best I ever had

Hold me closer Although you'll leave before the sunrise I'll be bleeding, but don't you mind, I'll be fine Oh, it kills me I found the right one at the wrong time But until the sunrise Could you just hold me tight? (Hold tight, hold tight) I know, I have to let go But just give me the night (hold tight, hold tight)

Can't you see that you Found the right one at the wrong time? It was just the wrong time Hold tight, hold tight

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[cursivebloodlines]

We come in from the cold, your hands are frozen I could keep you warm, let's start again I still wanna be your superhero But you keep saying we just can't be friends

Feels like two minutes ago you were laughin' at all my dad jokes When did it change for you, my love?

Is it alright if I lay with you Just for one night? Let's evade the truth And go back to first time that we both felt the same And we were just fallin' like tears in the rain

Is it okay if we play pretend Just for more day or one more night? Is that alright? 'Cause I'm not doin' so well

I need you like the pills that I've been takin' Give me half a chance, let's start again My eyes are on the floor, I'm devastated 'Cause I know how this goes if you walk away

Feels like two minutes ago, it was you and me against the world Now it feels like my whole world is ending

Is it alright if I lay with you Just for more night? Let's evade the truth And go back to first time that we both felt the same And we were just fallin' like tears in the rain

Is it okay if we play pretend Just for more day or one more night? Is that alright? 'Cause I'm not doin' so well

Oh, don't leave me now I said don't leave me now, oh I said don't leave me now, don't you leave me I said don't leave me now, oh, oh

Is it alright if you lay with me Just for more night? Let's evade the truth And go back to first time that we both felt the same When we were just fallin' like tears in the rain

Is it okay if we play pretend For one more day or one more night? Is that alright? 'Cause I'm not doin' so well

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[illyanarasputinfan]

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@overnightheartbeats

“She sat on the kitchen floor with broken stars in her eyes and burnt promises on her tongue, and she told him, “Your life would be so much easier without me.” So he sat by her side, close enough that their arms and hips and legs touched, and he said, “But not better.””

— excerpt from a book I’ll never write

[silverflameataraxia]

I absolutely love the man-punches-someone-to-protect-his-love trope 😘

[therookiedc]

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[rookieoneil]

Zoe: nice work

Lucy: good, thanks mom….why is everyone staring at me?

Jackson: you just called Captain Anderson mom. You said thanks mom.

Lucy: what no I didn’t. I said thank…man

Zoe: do you see me as a mother figure Chen?

Lucy: no! If anything I see you as a bother figure cause you’re always bothering me

Wade: hey! Show your mother some respect.

Lucy: I didn’t call her mom!

Zoe: no no no Lucile, I take it as a compliment

Smitty: it’s not a big deal, I called *insert name* mom once and she’s my fiance.

Lucy: guys jump on that! Smitty has psycho - sexual issues!

Tim: old news. You calling Captain Anderson mommy

Lucy: hey, mommy isn’t on the table here

Perp: but you did call her mom dude

Lucy: you shut up, you’ve done nothing but lie since you got here

Perp: , all right I was lying about the holdup, but the Mom thing, that happened



Lucy: AHA Admited his albi was a lie. It was a trap. It was all part of of my devious plan.

Zoe: I believe you…

Lucy: thank you

Zoe: daughter.

[cursivebloodlines]

@overnightheartbeats

LOVE

[skeletonfumes]

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[boardchairman-blog]

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Season 2, Episode 6: “Ni Weh Sesh (I Have No Heart)” (2023) Director: Karen Gaviola Cinematographer: Petra Korner

[cursivebloodlines]

@overnightheartbeats

“How do you look At the person You love And tell yourself That it’s time To walk away?”

— inky-tears

[neum6ns]

you guys wanted more, so you shall receive!! some of these r a little bit x reader bc how can i watch that perfect woman on my screen and not headcanon how she acts with her partner (especially after seeing the way she acts with sameer 🙃)

mkay one of my favourite headcanons is that this woman does NOT have a blood type (or her blood is EVERY type… idk how blood types work). my girl can give anyone a quick little at home blood transfusion!

i have to disappoint yall and say that none of the fan theory’s that vicky is still alive have convinced me. she was killed off from bad writing and i think we all need to slowly begin to accept that (unfortunately 😣). should she have been able to sense something was wrong the second butcher grabbed huggies shoulder? yes! should she have gone into defense mode since zoe was there and been on high alert anyway (especially because she didn’t 100% trust anyone other than hughie)? yes! we can even see in the background that victoria tells zoe to stand behind her, but alas she was still killed off 😒.

^ genuinely i think they had no idea what to do with victorias powers. she’s genuinely so overpowered and they dug themselves an even deeper hole by making her durability basically on-par with (or stronger than) translucents diamond skin.

on the episode where they are all on the farm (4x05) my girl should’ve been able to pop all of those stupid v-ed up animals and carried on with her day. but no, eric kripke again had no idea what to do with someone so powerful - the only thing she killed that episode was a chicken. a fucking chicken.

in this episode we really see just how well vicky is able to sense heartbeats and use her powers (contrary to tiktok fanboy beliefs) WITHOUT HER EYES!! ugh i love when the boys all slowly begin to realise their noses are bleeding and that vicky is there. this scene also shows that she knows who’s heartbeats are who’s, since she didn’t make stans nose bleed like she did everyone else’s!

okay back to the headcanons i got a little carried away there.

my favourite head canon is that when victoria got pregnant with zoe, she knew at the earliest point she could. she didn’t even need to take a pregnancy test. she could feel her body changing. i love that victorias powers are so connected to the human body - it’s such a huge contrast that she’s felt alone her whole life but to use her powers she needs someone else to use them!

^ (kinda to do with f!reader) also to do with pregnancy but she can change fertility and periods! she can definitely tell when someone’s period is coming, in my mind she can also help soothe cramps. she can increase (or decrease) fertility. using her powers like this are something that she strongly advises against and wouldn’t even do to herself. she thinks it’s wrong to interfere with the natural body (maybe she’ll give in at somepoint and ease your period cramps but she swears she’ll never do it again!)

i think i got a little carried away… these aren’t proofread so literally ignore if nothing makes sense HAHA. feel free to drop any vicky requests in my inbox!

[cursivebloodlines]

Do you remember happy together? I do, don't you? Then all of a sudden, you're sick to your stomach Is that still true?

You said, "Forever, " in the end I fought it Please be honest, are we better for it? Thought you'd hate me, but instead you called And said, "I miss you", I caught it

Good to each other, give it the summer I knew you too But I only saw you once in December I'm still confused

You said, "Forever, " and I almost bought it I miss fightin' in your old apartment Breakin' dishes when you're disappointed I still love you, I promise Nothin' happened in the way I wanted Every corner of this house is haunted And I know you said that we're not talkin' But I miss you, I'm sorry

I don't wanna go, think I'll make it worse Everything I know brings me back to us I don't wanna go, we've been here before Everywhere I go leads me back to you (You said, "Forever, " and I almost bought it) I don't wanna go, think I'll make it worse (I miss fighting in your old apartment) Everything I know brings me back to us (Breaking dishes when you're disappointed) I don't wanna go, we've been here before (I still love you, I promise) Everywhere I go leads me back to you (Nothing happened in the way I wanted) I don't wanna go, think I'll make it worse (Every corner of this house is haunted) Everything I know brings me back to us (And I know you said that we're not talking) I don't wanna go, we've been here before (But I miss you) Everywhere I go leads me back to you I don't wanna go, think I'll make it worse Everything I know brings me back to us I don't wanna go, we've been here before Everywhere I go leads me back to you

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[elennemigo]

This is gonna be long so buckle up! 😁

2

★ Eric official trailer released.

★ New character poster.

9

★ "Benedict Cumberbatch, Abi Morgan and Lucy Forbes on New York puppet thriller Eric" (Royal Television Society)

14

★ "Benedict Cumberbatch is a troubled puppet master in new Netflix series Eric" (Entertainment Weekly) (my gifs)

★ Eric Special Q&A and screening for SAG AFTRA. (Gallery) (my post) The q&a will be uploaded to their YT channel.

15

★ Benedict did promo for Eric at FYSEE24 in Los Angeles. (Gallery)

★ Panel with Benedict, Gaby Hoffmann, McKinley Belcher III and Abi Morgan after the screening at FYSEE24. (Gallery) (my post)

20

★ Eric UK Premiere. (Gallery) (my post)

Panel with Benedict, Gaby Hoffman, McKinley Belcher III, Abi Morgan, and Lucy Forbes.

Clips x x x x

Interviews: HeyUGuys (my gifs)/ Virgin Radio UK / Jodie McCallum / London Live / PA Entertainment / The News Movement

22

★ Benedict in conversation with Zoe Ball on BBC Sounds. (there´s still time to listen this interview!)

★ Benedict and Eric featured in a few magazines. Check the scans here, courtesy of benedict-cumberbatch.com

26

★ "In the mystery Eric, desperation and decline manifest into a life-size monster puppet." (LA Times)

★ Benedict Cumberbatch in Netflix show Eric: Dressing as monster is 'one of the most ludicrous things I've done' (BBC)

27

★ Benedict Cumberbatch warns history is repeating itself as streethomelessness soars. (Big Issue)

I´m gonna put all the press junket for Eric he did here, even tho they came out in different days, so they´re all together:

Metro Entertainment / Today / Sunrise / Bonnie Laufer / On Demand / Collider / Digital Spy / BAFTA / DC Film Girl / WHYY / Pix 11 News / Paul McGuire Grimes / LBC / ComingSoon.Net / Radio Times / Sky news/ Channel 4 (my gifs)

29

★ Patrick Melrose debuted on Netflix US platform.

★ Lucy Forbes shared photos of the cast & crew on the set of Eric on her IG.

30

★ Eric premiered on Netflix!

★"Benedict Cumberbatch Battles Inner Demons in Eric." (TUDUM)

★ "Puppet Master" (Queue Netflix)

These interviews included a new photoshoot! (My post)

★ "Benedict Cumberbatch on exploring dark characters in new Netflix series, Eric." (Irish examiner)

★ "Benedict Cumberbatch breaks down Eric's twists and turns: ´It's about the mess of being human´ " (GQ magazine)

✧ ── ⋅ FIN ⋅ ── ✧

There was a lot to compile and i might had missed something but hopefully, most it´s here. Enjoy! 😊