#zeno is mentally ill

[zeno-zero]

Roku killing Sozin will still lead to war.

No matter the decisions that Roku possibly makes, whether it is to kill or to be killed, he and the world will still suffer under the wrath of his blood nation. How, and why killing Sozin still leads to war? Let's consider Sozin's speech in Book 3, Episode 6:

“How dare you, a citizen of the Fire Nation, address your Fire Lord this way. Your loyalty is to our nation first. Anything less makes you a traitor.”

Even though Roku is the Avatar (specifically a diplomatic Avatar), who has to keep balance among the four nations of the world, he can't argue with already established laws and politics. It doesn't help the fact that being called a traitor is also a synonym to commit treason. After getting into an argument with him and almost getting burned alive by Sozin's fury of fire, Roku gets into the Avatar state and destroys a large portion of the royal palace, a home of many past generations before Sozin and serves as the seat of the Fire Nation government.

So, Roku not only committed treason against his country but also massive government property damage. Killing the predominant leader of his blood nation and has an influential position in their government and state, a bounty will surely set right on top of his head or is expected to be executed by tomorrow. Even without Sozin's rule, other relatives will take his throne and follow through Sozin's nefarious plans. However, I will acknowledge that Zeisan did attempt to try to overthrow Sozin, and canonically can take his place as the righteous Fire Lord but sadly it is proved to be a failure along with the previous Fire Lord, Taiso, who strongly believes that the Fire Nation's elites would not accept a nonbender as their monarch.

I do think the only difference is that while Sozin only started war on the day of the Comet's Arrival, tension will rise once more not only between the Avatar and his nation, but to all nations involved: since it is the Avatar's duty to maintain harmony among the four nations and that same harmony will go up in smoke till there's nothing but leaving ashes and destruction. It doesn't help the fact that his era is also recovering from most of the nations becoming increasingly selfish and aggressive, causing numerous small-scale conflicts & diplomatic incidents in which that's where Dark spirits comes into the picture, and horrible natural disasters that almost escalated into a huge (armed) confrontation between the Earth Kingdom & the Watertribe due to pointing fingers at one and the another out of accusations.

Something important to note: I was hesitating to post this so I kinda sent them first in multiple servers before feeling confident enough to post it here, lol! I love Avatar Roku with all my heart.

[leviiiachan]

my name is actually tsugino haru from hit game zeno remake !! ☝️😜😜

yall dont❗️even ‼️MESS WITH ME ‼️‼️CANNIBALISM AS A METAPHOR FOR LOVE /IS/ MY LOVE LANGUAGE RAHHHHH ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

zeno litally changed my life theres no toxic yaoi out there quite like it..

[windupaidoneus]

hildegarde referring to zenos as 'your great grandson' with surprising vitriol when talking to emet about him not bc he hates zenos but bc zenos is (or was.) a walking reminder emet's had kids w someone that wasnt him #mentalillness

[asteraegis]

thoughts had.

[peachieb0i]

babygirl this. babygirl that. babygirl he is a wanted criminal

[rescuewombat]

started play hsr yesterday and so far my otp is my hands x Sampo's neck

[warlordfelwinter]

and with that, all the progress fiver made on his mental health evaporated

(warning for big endwalker spoilers)

[cinemaactor]

i have 3 accounts rn... am i rlly about to make another one....

[siecobaina]

im fr gonna become a stoicist!!! like damn we’re not supposed to be this sad!!!

[milkywaystarboy]

he knows how to drive

he knows how to do dishes

he does not care about the sociopolitical state of america

[alicelufenia]

This remains to this day one of my favorite Zenos fanarts

zenos at burger king

[zeno-zero]

I had the strangest au in mind but it's because of @sixseasonsandamovie-meimei's post about how Roku would've been Sozin's concubine... Hear me out on this one too,,

Alternative Universe : Yasu is the Avatar and gasps, Roku didn't die! Hooray! While Yasu is going through tough challenges and meeting real tests as the Avatar, Roku on the other hand — slowly works his way into becoming an Oiran. To which if you guys don't know what an Oiran is;

The oiran were high-ranking sex workers so their clients would normally be the nobility and the rich and powerful. Meeting with an oiran is not for the regular peasant.

At first, Yasu was skeptical about this (and is surprised that Roku actually wants to work like this kind of profession) but nonetheless, supportive and encouraged Roku (because get that bag bro 🔥🔥🔥).

Roku is trained not to have any sort of attachments with his customers, he only has to pleasure them and entertain them as they pay for him to do so. To his greatest surprise, someone who comes inside his brothel on a fine and quiet starry night is none other than Fire Lord Sozin himself — a "friend" he didn't expect to come to his humble brothel at all.

..This one visit alone became frequent visits.

At first, Sozin wanted conversations. He would ask various different questions about him to which Roku gladly answered. Then to entertainment, it makes Sozin ache for him immensely — seeing Roku's graceful and swift movements, all of those training in traditional arts really paid off all while drinking tea. Let's just say, after the teases and building up so much sexual tension between the two, they always have a great time with each other.

In summary, Sozin is Roku's number one client.

[sillycat4]

AISHITEITANONI!!!!

im so mentally ill i love ZENO!!!

[seffyriath]

ARE there people who analyze Zenos from a material conditions perspective, i.e. he's a royal? there has to be, right? it can't just be looking at him through a mental illness lens but i feel like that's the only thing i come across and i feel like an going nuts. like that's so weird especially because it was pointed out to me that Final Fantasy games looooove to use a Royal Character as the microcosm for how the kingdom or empire is doing. this even happens several times in one game. there's a whooole thing about bringing back Xande to revitalize the Allagan Empire and everything!

[ursaribbon]

What Modern Pokemon Means to Me

I've felt this way for so long, and I can't just not talk about it anymore. I'm hoping to find more people who feel this way, and I think Tumblr is the best place to do so. (cw: su/c/de)

In elementary school, I was cheerful and loud all the time, and people thought I was weird for it. I had been told my whole life that I was so unique and special, and since I only got that validation from adults, I would do everything in my power to get more validation by doing whatever adults told me to do and valuing whatever they told me to value. I was almost blindly obedient, and I sought academic validation. I started masking my ADHD. I was so stiff on the outside that I rarely cried anymore, especially at things other people would cry over. I felt like there was something wrong with me, or that I really was emotionless.

When puberty started and genetic mental illnesses came into play, I became a husk. I never displayed emotion, and people called me a zombie. I was frustrated. What did they want from me if I couldn't be loud or quiet? Classmates would ask me unprompted if I was depressed, exchange an amused look with their friends if they were paired with me for a group project, and whisper about me when they thought I couldn't hear.

Since I was a preteen, I would continually push away the people in my life because I had mental health issues that made it draining to talk to people. I wanted to spend all my time alone because I wanted to rest--I constantly wanted to be left alone in silence because everything going through my head was already too stimulating. My younger brother, my biggest supporter, would try asking me to play with him or try to talk to me about something he was excited about, and I pushed him away every time. He thought it was because I was tired and lazy all the time, because that was what I told him. He began to resent me for always leaving him alone, and even though I never tried explaining myself or even going to him for support, I thoroughly believed it was my fault for leaving him behind.

People who make fun of "teenage angst" are just making fun of themselves for what they see as "dramatic" looking back. It's easy to forget that regardless of what hormones generate them, feelings of depression are real and harmful. It felt like no matter where I turned, there was no light to overcome the darkness.

Gens 7 and 8 of Pokemon have gotten me through the worst of my teenage and pre-teen years. I had been following the Gen 6 anime by the time it was ending, and I was so excited for the next chapter of Ash's journey. I remember going around school telling everyone, "ASH LEAVES KALOS ON THURSDAY! NOVEMBER 17!!!" Not many people wanted to hear it, but for what felt like the first time in forever, I didn't care. I was already known as a zombie at school, and there weren't many things I unapologetically loved so much.

I was in middle school when covid hit. During online school, I felt lonely, scared, and sad. I had the rest and lack of stimulation I had always wanted, but I didn't realize how much it helped to be at school where I was forced to interact with other people. When I was really alone with my thoughts, I couldn't find a reason to live anymore. I was having s//c/d/l thoughts. One day during my lunch time, as I nibbled at my sandwich with my head down on the desk, I decided I may as well catch up on the latest episodes of Pokemon Journeys.

The Beautifly episode was playing, but I was only half paying attention, barely able to focus on anything. Ash had misheard and thought they were going to watch Beautifly hydrate, and Goh had a short fantasy about a Beautifly laying on the beach with a cup of juice before realizing the mistake.

He phrased it something like:

"Yeah, they look so peaceful when theY HYDRA-HOLD ON!!!!"

And I just died laughing.

I knew the joke wasn't funny. The funny part was Zeno Robinson's delivery. I must have replayed it ten times. It was the first time in months that I'd felt like everything was okay.

I even showed the scene to my brother. We both laughed at it for at least ten minutes. It was so nice to share something with him.

I became a bigger fan of the show, and started shipping Ash and Goh. It wasn't because Goh was flamboyant, although I won't deny that many fans assert him to be a certain sexuality based on how he presents himself, which is stereotyping at best and homophobic fetishization at worst. I ship the characters because I think they're compatible and are just cute together. That was when I found the Satogou Discord server.

I had never really had online friends like the ones I had on that server. For what felt like the first time, I had found people I could talk about anything with for hours. While progress wasn't a straight line, I was beginning to have s//c/d/al thoughts less and less because the people and media in my life filled me with light to overcome that darkness.

And then episode 62 aired.

In that episode, Goh's Sobble evolves into Drizzile. It was so excited to be an Inteleon that it didn't realize there was a middle stage in between. It couldn't even use Water Gun properly anymore, and other Pokemon made fun of it for that. It began isolating itself, and when Cinderace forced it to come out of its cave, it ran away in tears.

When Goh finds Drizzile, he tells it about his own childhood, when he was pointed out as being different for reasons even he didn't fully understand. When he asked himself "Why?" he only felt frustrated. This is what he tells Drizzile:

"I don't understand, but that's okay. And I don't need immediate answers, either. ... I'm fine if you just want to be who you are. ... If it helps you to nest, just do it. And if at some point you feel like being with a friend..."

"...I'll be there whenever you need me."

I didn't cry. I almost cried, but I didn't. And I didn't need a reason why anymore. Anyone else may have cried. I might have been a zombie or a husk for not crying.

...Maybe it was because I wasn't overwhelmed by what was going through my head anymore. It made me remember what I had been through, but the way these characters reached out to me was so much more meaningful than anything that came before.

The media that allowed me to laugh and to live and to make friends with ease once again provided light to me, not blinding me, but providing for me a moment of clarity.

I know not everyone likes the newer seasons of Pokemon. It doesn't fit the formula that provided light to those who have been fans for a longer time, and believe me, I understand how important these things are, but goddamnit, it's one thing to dislike a piece of media and an entirely different thing to continue arguing when you find out it means something to someone else. I respect those who don't like the newer seasons, and I won't tell you they're better than the ones that came before because, at least to me, they simply can't be compared to each other.

I know not everyone likes Goh, but I miss him so much for what he represented, and I can't thank the creators of Pokemon 2019 enough for what they went through to make what they did.

[lilas]

10, 14, + 25 for avi? 🩷

10. How does your OC handle their mental health? Do they take care of themselves?

Well, before ARR he thought he was pretty good at mentally and emotionally taking care of himself.

During ARR, he still thought this.

Then the bloody banquet happened and it was a downhill spiral up until his ego death in SHB.

He’s recovering from years of trauma at this point, and I feel like yes he is being more mindful of his mental health. Being more communicative with the people closest to him, giving himself more space and time to decompress and adjust to things. He’s trying. ;u;

14. Who's a character your OC cannot stand! It's on sight when they see them!

I’ve spoken before about how this was Deryk for a long time lmao! Not anymore though, Avi’li got over his specific funk with Deryk and Deryk never held any ill will towards Avi’li.

Avi’li also wanted to hate Stephanivien because of jealousy over Aymeric, but unfortunately for him, he and Stephanivien are the same brand of mad scientist so they’re like best buds now.

It’s hard for Avi’li to completely not stand someone. There’s usually always space for cordiality or neutrality depending on circumstances. Even with Zenos, the fury Avi’li had for him during Stormblood burnt up in his ego death. He ended up pitying him more than anything.

He really doesn’t do beef, lmao.

25. Are they the kind of person who can't resist a good song? Can I catch your OC singing to themselves while they do the dishes?

More like he’d be dancing and humming to a song in his head or a tune playing distantly. He’s not one for singing spontaneously (he’ll sing more deliberately in private) but he IS one for spontaneous dancing. Catch him polishing or sharpening his equipment while tapping his feet and tail.