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HELL'S GREATEST DAD ↳ from Hazbin Hotel Season One (2024): 1x05 - "Dad Beat Dad"
#hazbin hotel#lucifer morningstar#hazbin lucifer#alastor#hazbin alastor#music vids: s1#dad beat dad#my videos#anyone else think the way he was holding alastor's head twice is foreshadowing? served it to her on a plate then had it as a pic on the cak#i hope it's foreshadowing lol#he was also feeding her his eyes and shadow tentacles as spaghetti and meatballs askjdfakjshdfjkls#bro was SO MAD LMFAO#song: hell's greatest dad#charlie#charlie morningstar#mimzy#hazbin mimzy#hey hey pssst... you know those 3 cards that swing by before the slot machine?#the middle one is lucifer as the king of spades - the same card alastor was in husk's overlord flashback.#DETAILS!! I LOVE THE DETAILS IN THIS SHOW!#RIP VID QUALITY BTW#tumblr really axed this one huh#also don't get me started on the symbolism behind alastor's whole deal in this song there is SO MUCH GOING ON#lucifer is overbearing yes but all his lyrics are ''im gonna help you cuz i love you'' meanwhile alastor's are ''IM SO GREAT AND COOL''#easy. but look at the doorway behind them when he dances with her on the stairs. it looks like spidery fingers reaching out from behind#to grasp/trap her in a dark place. THE ENTIRE ''ASSISTANCE'' PART#LITERALLY PUTTING ALL THAT STRESS ON HER THEN ''SAVES HER'' AFTER#THE ''IM YOUR GUY YOUR DAY TO DAY'' HE'S LITERALLY BOXING HER IN/TRAPPING HER WHILE PLAYING FRIENDLY#and do i even have to point out the obvious ''separating you from your blood family'' thing he has going on and the whole time#WATCH IT ELKMAN I WILL KILL YOU. YOU ARE LUCKY YOU'RE MODERATELY/MOSTLY ENTIRELY LIKEABLE AND FUNNY.
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Auntie P being the most beautiful woman at the party despite only being there for 2 seconds. Her power!!!!!
#me?? obsessed with the older supporting character on a show with young canon lesbians?? seems pretty on-brand if I do say so myself#not my fault that I'm old lol#anin and pin are adorable but they are BABIES your honour!!!#I need someone age-appropriate to crush on I don't make the rules#anyways not to be a sappy lesbian but oh to be the lucky woman that gets to put a smile on that beautiful face le sigh#also I'm in love with her dress!! it's literally a shade of my favourite colour#absolutely gorgeoussssss#sidenote: I gotta tell you that making these shitty screencap posts with these youtube shows is a nightmare and a half lmao#bc of the way print screen works on my computer and the fact that you can't pause youtube w/o the progress bar showing up and staying there#and yet here I am painstakingly spending half an hour on 2 screencaps#just to have her beautiful face immortalized on my blog for all eternity#the things I do for you auntie p! the things!!!!#the loyal pin#shitty screencap posts (TM)
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Following up on uncle Kiri, what's your take on kiri and others becoming parents before bk, and his attitude towards all that? I imagine it's super conflicting being """"left behind"""" but also the questions around self worth and if he's "__ enough' to become a parent?
(obligatory disclaimer that these are all my personal opinions/feelings as someone that wants willow sprouts, and if that doesn't align with someone else's desires/beliefs — that's okay !!! we all write for the ones we love in different ways, and it doesn't make any opinion less valid or worthy of respect ✨️)
OOOOH HMM !! you know, i will write about dad bakugou all day, every day bc that's what i like to read and write but !! i do think he would have a hard time deciding if that's what he wanted ?? i don't think he thinks about it for a while, and then i think he tells himself he shouldn't have them, for a few reasons. mainly bc of his career and all that it entails, and also — bc he must wonder if he would be a good parent !!! he'll tell himself this for a bit, and he'll brush the topic off if it's ever brought up because he "doesn't think it's a good idea for him" but it's never explicitly bc he doesn't want them, if that makes sense ?? tbh i think it would take a very supportive partner for him to openly tell himself that's what he wants. like, someone loving and trusting him enough to be a father would help ease some of his worries, i think.
BUT ANYWAY. regarding kirishima, i actually had this perfect vision of them at a bbq, of course, except kiri's got his FOUR KIDS running around LOL and one of them coming up to bakugou and he's just looking at it like 🤨🤨🤨 akfbdjsja and aww, wouldn't it be cute if, once bakugou is expecting a child, kirishima lets him come over and learn how to change diapers ?? 🥺 let him practice burping and how to swaddle them up when they're so squirmy 🥺🥺🥺 CUTE !!
i think — his feelings in the situation of being around his friends that have children would really depend on whether he has a partner or not he feels comfortable with, tbh. like if it’s just him, i feel like he's non-stop looking at all these kids and his peers and telling himself, "yup, just not in the cards for me", almost like he's trying to convince himself he's fine with being without, though i definitely think he would, deep down, feel like ".......but why not me ?? 🥺" WAAAHHHH but !! on the fun, flip side, if he was with someone, i think he would honestly try to be more observant of how kids are ?? if that makes sense ?? LOL like he's watching them run around and trying to gauge what yaomomo says to her brats to get them to eat their vegetables PFFT. just storing it away for later.
tbh, it's hard for me to imagine not having this conversation with him BUT in the event that yall haven't discussed children yet, i don't think he's going to be the one to push it. like he's not coming back from the bbq asking when it's yall's turn, and i say that bc he's on the fence about it for so long. so i think he takes you not bringing it up as like......okay maybe it really isn't a good idea 🥺 but if years go by and nothing is said, then i think he might bite the bullet and force himself to ask LOL WAAHHH HE'S SO COMPLICATED
#ty for asking !!! 🥺🥺🥺#i feel like — none of this made sense and didnt answer your question at all LOL SO I'M SORRY#i feel like for most of his young life he tries to convince himself that he doesnt want them bc he doesnt think he should have them#almost like he's a little embarrassed TO want them ?? bc he knows how he is and how he can be and how others perceive him#and he knows that if he voices that desire then people might be like WHAAATT ??? YOU ????#🥺🥺🥺🥺#and he also isn't sure he's ever gonna be lucky enough to find someone to have them with#it's all very up in the air for him and he doesn't want to be honest about wanting something he might never have#if that makes sense skfbdusak#but if he does have someone thst loves and supports him and wants to have little katsukis then he feels very 🥺👉🏼👈🏼 LOL AAWWW#this was interesting to think about thank you !!!!#cw children#✿ ask willow#✿ theme: dad bakugou
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I didn’t know until I found you
Havin’ the time of our lives, it takes two (It takes two)
When I look up, the stars are brighter
Now I know everything’s bеtter with you (It takes two)
You got me feelin’ right, feelin’ right
Feelin’ likе good vibes are at my door
Every day, every night, ooh-ooh (It takes two)
I didn’t know until I found you
Havin’ the time of our lives, it takes two (It takes two)
#love notes#camila cabello#it takes two#i see your alvin love note and raise you the trolls movie love note (never seen it just saw the cover art lol)#//#i feel so lucky now i found you#my life is better with you#it's us against the tallest mountains#i'm blessed to climb them with you
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The way jonsas say the vilest shit about Arya and Dany 24/7, but will piss themselves and start crying if you say that their precious little birdie isn't one of the key five is so funny. They need their self-insert to the most specialest girl, so of course they loathe actual main girls
It's so funny to look at how hypocritical they are, cause if you give even 0.1% of the energy they have for Dany + Arya to Sansa they'll throw a fit about how misogynistic and hateful Dany and Arya stans are. They're allowed to write essays on how Arya and Dany are "too far gone", how they're destined to die violent deaths, make everything in their chapters about other characters, and act like they're only props for their little bird but let someone say that they don't think Sansa is going to become Queen and suddenly it's the worst crime ever committed against a woman. And you're right...at the root of it is nothing but jealousy. They hate that Dany and Arya are the most important female characters, they hate that they're two of George's favorite characters, that they have some of the highest chapter counts, and that they're connected to so many plotlines. How is their fave supposed to be the most special character ever when they exist?
#ask#anon#asoiaf is the worst series to try and make it all about one character there's just too much going on 😭#and as much as I love Arya and Dany I know that not everything in the books series revolves around them lol#I just love the story that's actually there and written for them...it's just lucky that they happen to be so important 🤭#if you're gonna send so much hate to characters then the least you can do is be able to take it when someone doesn't like your fave#instead of throwing a fit and trying to play the victim#anti sansa stans#fandom nonsense
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YOYOK kids are COSOSOM girlies, who have epiphany traumas, are the tolerate it peeps, with a New Year’s Day kind of terror, while lost in their State of Grace as a dreamer, with a Nothing New sort of realism, after their The Lucky One teenage burnout.
#You’re On Your Own Kid#Chloe or Sam or Sophia or Marcus#epiphany#tolerate it#New Year’s Day#State of Grace#Nothing New#The Lucky One#Taylor Swift#girlies#aesthetic#Midnights#The Tortured Poets Department#folklore#evermore#Reputation#Red TV#late night Swiftie theory thoughts Meyers Briggs type style understanding lol#I hosted parties and starved my body like I’d be saved by a perfect kiss the jokes weren’t funny my friends from home don’t know what to sa#I looked around in a blood soaked gown and I saw something they can’t take away#I changed into goddesses villains and fools changed plans and lovers and outfits and rules#if you really want to break my cold cold heart just say I loved you the way that you were#only 20 minutes to sleep but you dream of some epiphany just one single glimpse of relief to make some sense of what you’ve seen#if it’s all in my head tell me now tell me I got it wrong somehow I know my love should be celebrated but you tolerate it#you assume im fine but what would you do if i break free and leave us in ruins took this dagger in me and removed it#please don’t ever become a stranger who’s laugh I could recognize anywhere#I never saw you coming and I’ll never be the same just twin fire signs four blue eyes we learn to live with the pain mosaic broken hearts#this is a State Of Grace this is the worthwhile fight love is a ruthless game unless you play it good and right these are the hands of fate#it’s like I can feel time moving how can a person know everything at 18 but nothing at 22 will you still want me when I’m nothing new#they tell you that youre lucky but you're so confused Cause you dont feel pretty you just feel used they’ll tell you now your the lucky one
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Was talking today with a friend about how monumental it was for me as a trans person and a lesbian who was uncomfortably presenting feminine, to meet my butch best friend in college, and how just being friends with them, and hearing about their experience as a butch really allowed me the space to feel comfortable exploring my own gender expression and identity, and how I feel like I’m a more complete person for having known them because they made me feel so incredibly safe in the journey and I now feel so much more comfortable presenting the way I want to and not the way I expect people to want me to, and the friend I was talking to said that I was that for them. So dress as faggy as you fucking want to and be as loud as you want to about it. It’s your god-given right to be DRIPPING with dykery and transgenderism because you never know if you’re going to be that lightbulb moment or safe queer space for someone!
#it made me more emotional and happy than I could possibly describe#The opposite of generational trauma lol#anyway shout out to my butch best friend#for giving me my first buzz cut#and helping me find a website to order a binder from#etc#and for being so fucking supportive when I started to explore masculinity#So Teddy if you see this#Thank you for everything and I really owe this journey to myself and to you#because I know what I was like and I never would’ve made that journey when I did if it wasn’t for you and your support#I was really letting fear control my life and you were the first person who told me it didn’t have to be that way#And it changed my life in the most incredible way#I get to experience queerness and transness in such a joyful and euphoric way every single day now#so thank youuuuuuu#I love you so much and I feel so lucky to be your friend#I don’t know if you’ll ever see this#but I like the thought but it’s out there on my Tumblr and you might one day read this#and tell Soph to accept my follow request on TikTok#transgender#butch#lesbian
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10 minutes left before I turn a year older and what did I do?
I ordered myself a lightsaber. ah yiss
#about me#2024 mood#Batuu Bounding#I've been planning on doing Savi's on our Batuu trip but I'm just not feeling the saber hilts themselves#I want something sleek and fairly smooth and relatively light that I can spin with#that is so not what's going on with the Savi's sabers#so just as we're getting down to the wire here I thought why not look online and see what's out there that more matches my vision#and I found one on Amazon. that can arrive on Sunday. that checks all the boxes of what I was looking for#and it's like. a quarter the price of Savi's#I have heard only wonderful things about the Savi's *experience* but mixed things on the sabers themselves#when I started out on this plan to Batuu-bound for my birthday Savi's sounded like a fun addition to the day#but since then I've come up with a whole Star Wars character with a backstory and a personality and a LIFE#and Savi's is not her path. absolute respect and love to everyone (including my family members) for whom Savi's was the right choice#but I am E X C I T E about the saber I picked out#not sure if I'll take the blade to Disney with me but I'm going to try to rig up the hilt to attach to my belt at least#see kids? getting older is really just about being able to buy yourself the toys you wanted as a kid#with no one to tell you no#and if you're lucky a supportive spouse who yells DO IT! when you doublecheck your instincts lol#hey one minute to go until b i r t h d a y
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Summer camps and similar very intense for 2 weeks and then suddenly finished activities are so tragic because you'll form one of the deepest connections of your life and then you never see those people again
#like sometimes you get lucky and manage to keep in touch with a few of those people#sometimes you get VERY lucky especially when its something you do every year and you manage to keep most of the group#but generally its just you spend a week or two 100% of the time with the same people#you feel like its impossible you just met them a week ago#you promise you will keep in touch!! we have to keep meeting#and you do a couple times you manage to get 4-5 people together#but it will never be the same theres so many people missing#then slowly this stops#the groupchat hasnt been active for a while so i ended up not doing anything for my birthday.#well now its exam season so we will do something after that! sure!! ........silence#seeing groupchats where the last thing we talked about was this theoretical meeting is heartbreaking#and slowly the groupchat goes lower and lower on the list and you dont want to be weird and say smth#and slowly when you no longer see it because its so far down you stop thinking about it so often#and then those friends who meant the world to you for a couple weeks are just a distant memory#you dont think about them that much sometimes someone will go on one and you'll be like oh i used to love those!!#and you'll think about your friends who you don't even know if youll recognise if you met them in the street#and think we should really meet again and dont even pretend like you're going to text them#because no one has said anything in that groupchat for years and you dont even know if some of them have forgotten you#sorry im just getting emotional lol#anyways candela see u tomorrooow this wont happen to at least uus💛💛💛💛💛💛#mine
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i love you slanted roof house. i will never stop loving you slanted roof house
#well i love modern architecture in general but these houses. augh.. second best to tall buildings with huge windows <3#all the more infuriating when minecraft's workstations are all wooden and look glaringly out of place in a modern house 😑#i had plans for building one in sons of the forest after not liking my base for the 3rd time but i had beat the game by then and>#>there wasnt much point if any at all to build a new one so i let go of it. i miss kelvin..#actually now that i typed this itd be quite interesting to have a modern 'style' in sotf bc yknow. you come from a city and all#like youre grasping at what you had before you were forced to survive in this literal hell#even then sotf is still crazy limited in building materials. its all one type of wood and pebbles if youre lucky lol. bit it is fun anyways#dextxt
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I've thought a lot about the several thousand year old gnome druid we met who was just bitter and jaded and had spent most of those millennia sitting in one place not doing anything in particular except mourning her tiefling wife who'd died millennia ago, and how disgusted and infuriated with her melliwyk is, personally but also as a gnome herself-- and I'm thinking about it again like. honestly I think it goes beyond general cultural values; that level of willful ongoing stagnation and joyless nihilism is probably completely seriously a gnomish sin
#melliwyk-- viciously and also meaning it from the bottom of her heart: you might as well just be dead.#zhartook- a baby druid who has inherited tana's sort of cosmic role- came away from that meeting with existential dread#melliwyk's just SPITTING FIRE angry about it. what a WASTE. what a WASTE of a LIFE.#I'll be lucky to get a few CENTURIES and it won't be enough to squeeze as much LIVING out of life as possible!#other people are lucky to get even just a handful of decades!#and YOU!! who ought to KNOW BETTER!! don't even have A HOBBY?? you're sitting here talking about how POINTLESS EVERYTHING IS???#you married a tiefling and act like outliving your loved ones is uniquely tragic for you? like you wouldn't have done that anyway??#... ah I got possessed by mel's anger for a sec there gfkjhgfd. point is I think the real core of the most important gnome values#is that being alive and being a part of the world is a gift that you're meant to delight in and make the most of#it's your PURPOSE to seek joy and fun! it's your PURPOSE to INTERACT with the world creatively and inquisitively!#there's something almost blasphemous about PERMANENTLY and WHOLLY surrendering to despair#something heretical about talking confidently about how little anything matters and so there's no point in caring#tana's probably got turbo depression but her own hot take was just 'yeah kids this is what being alive this long does to you lol'#and mel is like. no I think you're just really fucking bad at it. like are you aware people are still writing new books#my OCs#melliwyk#gnome stuff
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ok SO i went and got out Most of my knives (i remembered I have a nonbinary knife only after i took the photos & also idk where it is currently. just imagine all these plus a nonbinary flag knife ok? ok)
HERE ^ is the most of them, minus that nonbinary knife. look at that fuckin mess. 32 shown here (i think) plus my nonbinary knife makes 33 blades (minus cooking knives, i dont count those for these purposes)(also counting the swiss army knife as only 1 bc lol)
& some explanations for them! gonna put these under a readmore bc it got Kinda long on accident whoops. Read Ahead if u wanna see me nerd out about my knife collection.
STARTING WITH my big ones.
my spear (gifted to me), my cane sword (from anime convention), my shitty $20 sword (also from anime convention. low quality but cool as hell), my teal mini sword + matching throwing knives (from online), my decorative axe (from a local store), my twin blades (my sharpest blades, theyre actually kinda scary how sharp they are, but i love them bc of it. from online), red saber (from online),
ANDDDDDDDDDDDD my favorite hefty bitch of a machete that i sleep with in my bed frame on the very right (inherited from my grandpa bc i was the first one who spotted it at Family Claiming Day)(this thing really is as long as my leg & much heavier than Any of the rest of the blades pictured here. i love it)
another view of the blades so u can better see how long they are. the big boys. they're lovely. 2nd heaviest blade is the cane sword when it's in its cane, mostly bc that handle has some Heft. tbh id feel safer using it as a bludgeoning weapon than a stabbing weapon, but having a cane sword is just plain cool
AND my smaller blades!
i have a lot of pocket knives. starting from the top left: golden pocket knife (from online), rainbow dragon (from online), rainbow HEFTY boy (heaviest pocket knife, from online), spider knife (from online), stiletto jade (from online), pathetic army boy (from local store, this knife has NO redeeming qualities, but it's mine <3), black stiletto (from local store), plain dagger man (from online), my damascus steel knife (was a gift, probably my singular most expensive knife. fancy boy), Dull Dagger Man (first blade i ever bought, from anime convention)
& for bottom row: teeny black knife (first pocket knife i owned, gift from my dad), lil rainbow knife (from local store), plain steel knife (from sketchy shop in gatlinburg + one of my Favorite knives), green dragon knife (from online, a real beaut), triple throwing knives (also from same sketchy shop in gatlinburg), the baby throwing knives again from the Big Boys pic but i included them again bc they r so teeny tiny, my keychain key blade (from online), swiss army knife (from online), & the pair of claw keychain baldes (from online)
many blades, many stories, so little time. theyre great tho.
SOME FOCUSES:
^ these are all my spring-assisted knives, sorted from worst feel to best feel to open. based on quickness, ease, & general satisfaction. leftmost is leftmost bc i didnt even Know it was spring assisted, bc it doesnt have a nice lil tab on the back to press. no u gotta press on one of the rungs. but once u do it Does spring open, so i included it. next 3 are just Average in feel (these 3 are sibling blades anyways, nice of them to be together). jade stiletto is smooth and quick, nice to open. Hefty Boy rainbow has some THUNK to it when i open it. like that babey's got PURPOSE to it. added to the general size of it & it's just pretty great. AND THEN MY TWO FAVS, green dragon is a perfect beautiful knife & feels very great to open. and then Steel Sketchy Knife aka my 2nd pocket knife & first i bought for myself. it looks plain in comparison to the others, but she's anything But. quick, light, Sharp. it has the Best feel to open, bc it's just a fast SHHK. probably my knife that's seen the most use (aside from my small black knife) just bc of how great it feels to open. i love that knife so much for Real.
& the final highlight, somewhat related, are the knives I actually use the most in my daily life!
on the left are the knives I keep in my bag by default, & thus the ones I carry with me Everywhere i go. small black pocket knife bc she's Ol' Faithful, & a pretty lowkey knife for basic tasks when I dont wanna raise any eyebrows lol. silver knife bc as previously stated i Love using it so much. i take it out when i gotta breakdown a lot of boxes at work, & it Never disappoints. small rainbow keychain key knife bc it's cute & i like to keep it on my keychain. & swiss army knife bc Obviously im gonna keep the swiss army knife in my bag for if i need an emergency tool.
on the right are the three knives I keep out in my apartment. black stiletto lives on my bathroom counter, for bathroom knife needs. green stiletto i keep on my table next to where I hang out in my bedroom, for any couch time needs. & then green dragon beaut camps out on top of some shelves by my front door bc it's Great for opening boxes, aka something I will do for packages I receive after pulling them in the front door. it works for me.
all the rest of my knives live either in a box (for small ones) or my closet (for big ones). i may have a lot of knives, but somehow I never feel like i have enough. i just love collecting them so much <3
#speculation nation#knives#what this boils down to are. my favorites are: Big Hefty Machete that i managed to stab myself with on accident#by dropping it point-first on my finger (whoops)#a plain silver knife i got from a sketchy shop in gatlinburg (there really are so many there) that just feels SO good to use#a beautiful green dragon knife bc it's well balanced & feels great to open. also pretty.#black stiletto knife just bc i love how it feels in my hand. it's also very pointy#& small black knife bc she's ol' faithful. & great for using for average shit to not freak people out#(imagine if i brought ol' Hefty Rainbow out w/ its glass breaking base & wonderful hooked blade. ppl would give me Looks for sure)#i love many other knives but those r my favs#if i had to pick an ABSOLUTE fav it'd have to be my machete. it having drawn my blood did Not discourage me from loving it#it feels very uhh. idk it makes me feel secure having it nearby#if for nothing else than someone seeing me wield that & being like 'what the FUCK' bc it's kinda pretty intimidating lol.#long and heavy. wouldnt actually be great for combat bc that thin part between the blade & the hilt could snap the moment you hit bone#but good for me i never intend to use my blades for that! it feels comforting mostly as an intimidation factor.#the comfort being like. if someone broke in lol. that's why i sleep with it in my bed frame. so i can have it onhand Just In Case#aka it's like sleeping with a gun under my pillow except i just keep a massive fucking knife next to me instead. works for me#not the longest of my blades but it's the heaviest of my blades by far. i feel very lucky to own it.#anyways this has been the Knife Ramble by yours truly. this took me like 2 hours to gather & take pictures of & write this summary#APPRECIATE MY WORK at documenting my collection. this is the first time ive done this in several years.#wish i'd found that nonbinary knife first... oh well...
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not to keep being like "clearly some of y'all weren't around for the s4 finale of the magicians on syfy" but...
times like these? it's just so palpably obvious which of us HAVE had firsthand experience with what it's actually like witnessing a coordinated campaign consisting of intentional, active, premeditated, and malicious queerbaiting, complete betrayal of fan and audience expectations, and a dangerous, flagrant, thoroughly irresponsible handling of trauma/healing/mental illness storylines unfold before our eyes in real time like a slow motion car crash at the hands of a homophobic, ableist showrunner hellbent on overpowering the writers room in order to further their own agenda and ruin a good thing out of spite and spite alone.
and which of us, uh. haven't! 🤭
#is this post bitchy? yes. but do i stand by it? also yes lol#blogging for a niche audience of like 12 people. 911blr magiciansblr venn diagram overlap lemme hear y'all make some noise#i said what i said. like it or not (im not jazzed abt the end of the episode myself!) you gotta admit#this was a TEXTBOOK and CLASSIC 911 season finale. that was a season finale of 911 on Fox through and through.#until you've had the show you loved more than anything morph into a grotesque unrecognizable bloated corpse of the thing it used to be?#maybe. count your blessings and get some perspective before you start throwing around words like 'worst case scenario'#911#911 on fox#911 on abc#buddie#yeah I'm tagging this post. this is a take im willing to go to the mat for. 'worst case scenario' my ASS lol!#y'all got no idea how lucky we are and that's that on that. anyway. sorry i saw takes on Twitter that pissed me off so im venting
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how's the job hunt going? would you ever relocate for a job love?
Oh wow what a question lol! Honestly i dont expect to be able to find anything new till this strike is over, the competition is insane right now. In the meantime my plan is to teach myself faster hard surface sculpting in z*brush using hockey gear \o/ mostly because i dont want to pay the $150 a month for maya, that shits insane. Like a fucking health insurance payment.
For the second question - i dont think i've ever experienced love like that. I think it would take a lot of devotion and sacrifice to give up your dreams for someone else. Admirable, for sure. And also a sacrifice that historically women are the ones expected to make. Every time. :( For a job? Lol, i would move in a heartbeat. I stayed in pittsburgh 6 years after college for my dream job - i only left when i lost it. Knew the next dream job wasnt going to be there, so made my way to LA. And now im having to come to terms with the idea that the dream job doesnt exist as i imagined it - or only exists for a very VERY select few.
And actually, thats not totally true about me and love. I think if i thought for one second that nick could love me back like i diid him, id already be in new england. When i applied to this one job, that sounded like a dream come true it listed the salary, and brian and i just read it and gaped. We looked at each other and i was like i dont even know what the fuck i would DO with all that. And of course the first thing that popped into my mind was i could buy that sailboat nick always talked about. When i was writing my programming textbook a decade ago, and really going through it, and nick and i were up until 3 or 4am every night painting theater sets, he'd talk about his sailing adventures, teach me rope knots, that sort of thing, basically a mental escape. And so last week i texted him like 'hey no promises but what if im suddenly actually making good money. Do you still want that boat?' Because, nick's worked so long and so hard and all he's gotten to is the point of still working on boats other people own, and its just not fair how devalued physical labor is, you know? And his immediate reaction was to launch into our very old daydream - the whole 'yes and you're coming with me, sail off into the sunset' stuff. And that hadnt occured to me - my idea was just- id give him the boat, and he'd fix it up, and id maybe demand photos or a visit or two every so often. Because i think finally -finally- im at a point in my life where being in love isnt enough - i want the other person to love me back. And lol definitely not someone who declares love one minute and then stops talking to me for weeks or months, and the cycle repeats over and over. I think its possible to love someone enough that you recognize you arent the one for them, but still want them to be happy? Happier than you could make them.
So long answer is yes, i would relocate for love, but i have learned the hard way to know when i shouldn't.
#And if this anon is who i think it might be?#My friend i fully support your adventure across countries for love <3#Just please have back up plans cause as romantic as love is#Sometimes it can go wrong and you need to be independant enough to extricate yourself from bad situations#whether thats just having the savings or having family friends connections who can help wherever you are going#I know personally how VERY wrong love can go#And im not saying it would happen but if something does go wrong you dont want to end up trapped#Out of the frying pan and into the frier so to speak#Im on the negative side of this debate#a positive example of relocating for love would be my favorite youtuber couple justin scar*ed and ally war*en#Her whole story was absolutely an escape from her family the minute she could and helped by justin#but i feel like theyre the lucky ones not all of us get that#anyway lol if this isnt who i think it might be sorry!!#that was a long rant from me
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Lmao got promoted today
#its so hdkshshsgru only very few ppl outside my family know that my actual bday is today bc I always celebrate on in December#long story short July the 12th is right the middle of summer when everyone is in the countryside or on vacation so when I was a kid it was#a boring day that you spend with your family and 1-2 friends (if you’re lucky)#so I since high school I celebrate my bday on the 12tg of December lol yeah I love attention#it’s cool how I got promoted today my boss and coworkers had bo clue#and they’ve been discussing my promotion since the end of June but today it has finally become official lmaooo
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almost made a very insensitive post but i Stopped <3
#i realised mid-typing that its really a Bad Fucking Person monologue lol#being an insensitive asshole is better suited for the tags <3 so here goes#anyway. maybe cutting it all off or bottling it up isnt the healthiest way to deal with things but its definitely the least inconvenient#also pro tip maybe dont obsess over a single person to the point where you lose your own sense of self#i know that it's a mental thing thing but i still wanna shake my mom and my bestie so fucking hard#he was literally just some guy. even if you loved him at the end of the day he's still just some guy#he was another person. he wasnt you. you meet a hundred new persons every day.#people come and go. no one will stay with you forever how is that so hard to grasp#like you ARE alone will always be alone and its not actually a bad thing at all!!! other people are alone too and you can be alone together#but thats it. on a strictly personal level other people are just 'additions' to your life not a part of you#learn to let things and people go or at least shut up about it. pretty please with a cherry on top <3#like logically i know neither of these are perfectly healthy but i genuinely do think that treating all your relationships with people#as momentary things that will maybe last a few months or a few years or even a few decades if you're lucky but all will eventually end#so you gotta enjoy em while they last but be ready to let them go with no hard feelings when the time comes#is a million times better than treating every friend and romantic partner as 'we're gonna be together forever uwu'
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