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munsonsreputation · 2 years ago

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Hi Kay! Again, congrats on reaching 200 followers! How about a request #5?

So, this is kinda based on something that happened to me last week, feel free to adapt it. Some details: reader went out for a walk with her dog and she always stops by Family Video to talk with Steve and Robin. That morning, even though Steve knew she was coming, she didn't show up. Steve is about to call her when the phone rings and it’s this lady saying reader is there and is not ok because she ran away from a stray dog that almost attacked her. So Steve goes there to rescue her and he’s like “Ok, you’re not walking alone ever again, tomorrow I’m picking you up because no one's gonna hurt you or your dog” and she is still very scared. You can decide if Steve brings her to stay with him while he works or if he takes her home… Idk if this is a good request, I’m kinda bad at this, and after what happened to me (I got someone to call my parents, no Stevie for me hahaha), I just wanted some comfort you know

my dear, effie...i'm so sorry that this happened to you and noah, but i hope this could be a little pick me up!!! thank you again for the overwhelming support, it means the world to me 🌎💘💫

Steve tapped the counter impatiently, watching the hands of the clock on his wrist go by minute by minute, waiting for the bell to chime as you wandered through the doors with your dog leading the way. He always looked forward to your mid-morning visits, keeping dog treats under the counter to give to your pup while you and him talked about what was to come of the day before being joined by Robin who couldn’t help but to give the pupper a bunch of pets and kisses.

But it was already 9:47 a.m. and you and your shih-tzu Noah had yet to arrive at Family Video. You two were never a minute late or even a minute early. He knew that you had the same walk every day and took the same route, which regularly led you to be here by 9:45.

Something was wrong and he could feel it in his bones.

“Jesus, why are you staring at the door like that?” Robin sought, knitting her brows as she passed by him with a stack of tapes in her arms.

Steve sighed, wrenching his eyes away from the door and watching his friend begin restocking the shelves. “She’s not here, yet. She’s always here on time.”

Robin just laughed lightly, glancing over at him swiftly, then getting back to work, “I’m sure she’s just running behind…maybe she woke up late or something?”

He shook his head, walking away from the counter and standing beside Robin, trying to formulate the best possible explanation for your absence.

��No, she rarely wakes up late. Remember, she told us she got that new alarm clock that’s super duper loud and it always wakes her up on time.”

“I vaguely remember that conversation,” She responded, shaking her head to herself before turning her head to him with an apparent look of bewilderment, “Wait, she told us that like a month ago…how can you remember that but not by sandwich order from last week?”

Steve squinted, crossing his arms across his chest.

“W-what does that have anything to do with—never mind, I’m just going to call her to make sure.”

She snorted, pushing his shoulder as he walked away, heading for the telephone. “Her number is on file, by the way.”

“I don’t need her file, I already have it memorized—“

The phone rung just as Steve was about to pick it up and dial the combination of numbers he somehow was able to remember. He and Robin promptly shared a look. Rarely did they ever get calls this early in the day, but Steve just shrugged, picking it up so he could make his very improtant phone call to you.

“Family Video. How can I help you?” He answered with his customer service voice, making his friend crack a scoff and to that Steve flipped her the bird, awaiting the response from the other side.

He could hear faint voices in the background but thought nothing of it at first, “Is this Steve?”

“Y-yeah? Who’s this?”

There was a relived sigh before they spoke again, “Okay, sweetheart, I’ve got him on the phone. Just hold on…” The voice on the other line said to what he was guessing another person before Steve asked again.

“Who is this?”

“Listen, your lady friend and her dog were chased by a stray…she came running and screaming into the apartment complex about a few minutes from your store.”

His heart raced, finally comprehending the cries in the background to be yours. All the horrible thoughts of what could have gone wrong, racing in his mind a million miles over the speed limit.

“Is she ok? Is Noah ok?” He ordered, ushering Robin with a quick slap on the counter that got her rounding the corner pressing her ear on the other side of the phone so she could hear.

“They’re both a bit shaken up. I was about to leave when she came running with the dog in her hands. Calling from a payphone right now, she asked me to call you.”

Robin smirked, pinching Steve’s side as he flinched away, mouthing for her to “fuck off.” Everyone knew that you and Steve were close…very close, yet neither of you had made a move. But it was clear that you were each others’ person.

“I’ll be there in five minutes.”

“Sounds good.”

Steve slammed the phone back onto the base, reaching into his pockets to grab his keys as he was already halfway to the door by the time he spoke, “I’ll be back in 10!”

“Give them a hug for me, lover-boy!” Robin hollered back uselessly, as Steve had already made it to his car, getting in and hightailing it out of the parking lot and down the road.

What should’ve been a five-minute drive to the apartment complex it was only two minutes for him. Speeding through the streets and running yellow lights, something be wouldn’t usually do since his title was now a responsible teenage babysitter.

Yet he did it for you.

When he saw you and Noah cradled in your arms, he quickly put the car in park, hopping out.

“Steve…” Your voice cracked with tears streaming down your cheeks, meeting him halfway and digging your face in his chest.

He placed one of his hands on your back pulling you closer, “Hey…it’s ok,” the other hand reaching down to stroke behind your puppy’s ear, calming him down.

“S’ok, bud…kept mom safe huh?” Steve spoke gently as Noah’s shaking faltered and the dog lapped at Steve’s wrist, making him smile.

“I scared the stray away. Will they be alright?”

Steve didn’t even notice the stranger standing off to the side, who gave him a small smile after seeing how quickly you and the pup warmed up. He gave the kind individual a curt nod and thanks, watching as they walked over to their car and drove off.

Feeling your nerves settle down, you drew away slightly from Steve’s chest, peering up at him through your wet lashes, “I’m sorry for making you come here—“

Steve shook his head rapidly, “No, you didn’t make me do anything…matter a fact, I’m glad you called me. I was worried sick when you didn’t come in on time.”

You sniffled, swallowing thickly as you recounted what had happened only moments ago.

“I was terrified. One second, me and Noah are on our jolly way.” You ceased, tears brimming your eyes again and so you lifted Noah closer to your face to press a kiss to his head before continuing.

“Then this stray just comes out of nowhere and starts chasing us…I’ve never run so fast in my life, Steve. The whole time I was just screaming, crying, trying to get someone to help.”

By now you had buried your face into Noah’s fur, perhaps puzzling your little fluff ball, but he was smart, letting you crying into him as Steve had let you. People always said that pets were the closest thing to a child, and it was most definitely true, at least for you. Noah was your little baby, and you’d rather that stray hurt you than any hair on his body. But yet, the situation had made you feel so hopeless even after the stranger had helped you.

“I know, I know, but you’re safe now.” Steve murmured, kissing the top of your head and pulling you back into his arms.

The three of you stood there for a while in the middle of this empty apartment complex. Soft and encouraging words spoken to you and Noah…but mainly for you, as your little doggie was, for the most part, cool, enjoying the presence of his mom and his favorite friend of hers, Steve.

“From now on, you’re not walking alone.” Steve informed you, rocking his head as he looked around. Reminding himself that the loose dog could still be out here somewhere waiting for you two again.

He couldn’t let anything happen to you guys.

“S-steve, really, it’s going to be fine—“

He folded his lips into a tight line, shaking his head once again, and taking Noah from your arms to cradle him in his chest. The small action making your frown turn upside down in an instant seeing how your dog quickly accustomed in his grasp and appeared so at peace, like he did with you.

“Robin can handle the store by herself for a few minutes…your place isn’t too far, anyway, so I can just pick you two up and we can walk around the area together.”

You took a deep breath, biting your lip as you reached out to pet Noah’s head, watching his eyes slowly begin to close with every second that ticked by.

“Are you sure?” You proposed, as Steve jokingly rolled his eyes and tilted his head.

“Positive…now do you still want to swing by the store?” He paused, but just for a second, before you could even nod your head yes, that there was nowhere else you wanted to be right now besides with him.

Steve spoke, a blush covering his cheeks out of nowhere, letting the words rip from his mouth before he could even stop.

“I’ve got Noah’s favorite treats and I’m sure we’ve got something we could use as a bowl for water. Annnnnd I take my lunch break in thirty minutes, so I was thinking we could all get something to eat. A little lunch date, if you will?”

Obviously there was a reason why Noah liked Steve so much, and it wasn’t just because of the daily treats, but because his owner, you, liked Steve too.

“Sounds like a plan.” You grinned, stepping close to plant a kiss on Steve’s cheek as the blush turned even brighter.

Steve somehow had this ability to make everything better. There was an ease to him that you adored, especially in times like these where the tears stopped pouring and his safety net caught you and your pup.

It felt natural as he slung his arm across your shoulder, leading you and Noah to his car like his favorite part of his day. That was the first and definitely not the last lunch date the three of you want on.

Turns out that you and Steve make the perfect parents for little ole’ Noah.

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emotionallychargedtowel · 1 year ago

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I finally got a chance to watch episode 7 (well, it hadn't been delayed for that long, but I was in quite a bit of suspense!) and I have a lot of thoughts about this! I'll probably do another post separately but I wanted to start by responding to/expanding on what @bengiyo discusses here.

First off, Ben, I've really been appreciating your discussion of this show and it's helping a lot as I work out my own thoughts about it.

I think looking at Ryunosuke through a second lead lens makes a lot of sense. He's not a conventional second lead but he functions like one in improtant ways. It's also true that he doesn't pose much of a threat to Kazuma as a rival for Ren's affections. Though there's one important area in which Kazuma would be justified in feeling jealous. Ren has been open with Ryunosuke all this time while keeping Kazuma in the dark. It's a kind of intimacy that Kazuma and Ren haven't had.

It's also true that Ryunosuke's hatred of Kazuma is very understandable. Ben, I think your characterization of how Ryunosuke views Kazuma is spot on. But I want to bracket the sexual orientation piece of things for the moment. In which case, the argument looks a bit like this:

Ryunosuke hates Kazuma....From his perspective, Ren threw himself on the sword of homophobia so that Kazuma could remain naïve and innocent....[Kazuma] seems completely untouched by what happened when Ren and Kazuma were 15. He doesn’t read as queer to Ryunosuke or Ren. If I was Ryunosuke, I would also doubt that Kazuma doesn’t remember anything about what happened or has no idea what could have happened to Ren.

So far, so good. This is not only how things are bound to look to Ryunosuke, but aside from the part about doubting his lack of memories/awareness of what happened, it's how things seem to look to Ren as well. (Ren has actually been assuming Kazuma remembers a lot less than he does, so if anyone gave Ryunosuke that idea, it was him.)

Although there's not an explicit shift here, I think we're sliding into a description of Ren's perspective rather than Ryunosuke's, though I could be mistaken. This might be how things would reasonably look to Ryunosuke. But if Ren is spinning this kind of narrative, he should know better.

If Ren thinks Kazuma has

had a safe and easy life since the incident ten years ago, he should ask himself this: From the outside, what would most people assume his high school experience was like? From the outside, what does his current life look like?

When others, including Kazuma, hear about Ren's high school life, they hear that he studied abroad and won lots of awards. It sounds like a privileged life where he learned to make a living doing something he's passionate about. His present-day life looks great too. He's extremely well-liked, attractive, and seems confident and comfortable in social situations. He's also highly successful in his work. He's already the head of a department despite being in his mid-20s. He sounds like he's had a really good life.

Of course, if you learn more about Ren, you find out that he's struggling a lot more than he seems to be at first glance. He lost his first love under traumatic circumstances. He's convinced himself that the one time he was intimate with Kazuma, it was a coercive encounter that was damaging to him. He's been carrying all of this around for ten years. He also hasn't been able to have sex since his first time with Kazuma. When he tries, he has severe anxiety/panic symptoms and has to stop. Even when he manages to get past this block with Kazuma, he can't bear to let him see his face or hear him make a sound. He's suffering a lot. It's heartbreaking.

If Ren's real experience is so different from what others expect, why wouldn't this be the case for Kazuma? This is something that ought to have occurred to him.

Kazuma didn't have to face the same difficult transition Ren did when he returned to the US, but he was still torn away from a home where he was happy and a best friend he loved--all immediately following a life-threatening illness. When he reminisces about high school, he mentions having friends he ate burgers with and playing football (I'm not sure if this was American football or what we'd call soccer). But there’s also plenty of reason to believe he had difficulties. Kazuma has always struggled in social situations, as Ren knows well from their time in middle school. Part of the impetus for their friendship was Ren helping Kazuma out when he was overwhelmed and anxious around their classmates.

Kazuma has also shown that he still has difficulties with social situations in the present. (I keep thinking of him at the award celebration, sitting at a table alone watching Ren talking to a clump of admirers.) Kazuma is also dealing with a boss who was clearly a massive prick even before we found out he was a rapist. What Ren doesn't know, but might be able to guess, is that Kazuma seems to be quite socially isolated outside of work as well. He's lonely. Even before the friends-with-benefits arrangement gets started, even when all the contact they had was brief hallway chats and quick work lunches, seeing Ren was the biggest highlight of Kazuma's daily life--and there didn't seem to be any other highlights worth noting.

Ren has no way of knowing that Kazuma is estranged from his mother, but that's another reason he's isolated and deprived of closeness and social support. They're both basically bereft of family. Ren can't be expected to guess this, but he at least ought to realize it's possible, since he knows from experience that some people are abandoned by their family, and they tend not to advertise that fact.

If Ren was thinking this through, he would realize that the sacrifice he made for Kazuma didn't ensure his happiness, and keeping things from him in the present isn't protecting him either.

Now, back to that sexual orientation piece I had set aside.

He doesn’t carry the scars of growing up queer and feeling different that so many of us wear. He doesn’t even think of himself in terms of queerness. He only thinks of Ren. He is a BL protagonist.

It's true that Kazuma has that oddly specific sexual orientation that only seems to occur in BLs where a young guy is attracted to one singular human being in the whole world, another young man (who for some reason, often seems to be allowed to be a regular gay dude). It's hard to imagine a justification for this other than straight-up homophobia. I'm not sure why it's better to love one man than to have the capacity to love men more generally. I read somewhere that in the beginning of the genre, part of the appeal of yaoi was the idea that the love between these characters was particularly "pure" in some way. Maybe this level of devotion to one person is supposed to indicate this sort of "purity"?

I can't help contrasting the use of this trope in Tokyo in April Is... with its use in Utsukushii Kare. It's certainly questionable there as well. But I think it mitigates how problematic it is by giving this weird sexual orientation to someone who is already incredibly weird. Hira is already established as a deeply strange person before he says that Kiyoi is the only person he has ever been attracted to. It makes it seem less like this is the best way for a person to be when it's a massive oddball who has this tendency.

Kazuma's version of this doesn't hold up as well in comparison. When Ryunosuke says to him, "You're not even gay!" Kazuma replies, "That doesn't matter!" (At least Hira had the decency to say "I don't know" when asked if he "like[d] men" in Utsukushii Kare.) He goes on to say that "Regardless of gender, I have no interest in anyone other than Ren. Ren is the only one important to me." Of course, I don't know how much translation choices played into the wording on all of this. I'd be really curious to know. But interpreting it as it's worded here, it does seem like Kazuma is treading dangerously close to "gay for you" territory, if he isn't already there and just not quite announcing the fact. (I wish there was a separate term for the "you're my sexual orientation" trope so that it would be easier to discuss. Maybe there is and I just don't know about it?)

At the same time, I think the show as a whole has a saving grace in this department, and that is the use of Ryunosuke as a foil to Kazuma. Ryunosuke is a reminder to the audience that Ren could be (and seemingly is) loved by another gay man, one who isn't conflicted about his attraction to Ren or making some kind of exception. Ryunosuke is fully aware of both what happened in the past and what's going on in the present in a way neither Ren nor Kazuma is, showing more clarity about their situation than either of the other two. He voices the fact that it's kind of fucked up that Kazuma feels so entitled to be with Ren despite not identifying as gay or bi himself. In these ways and in others, he presents a contrast that calls Kazuma's BL-centric sexuality into question.

Ryunosuke is understandably irritated by this and feels compelled to challenge and provoke Kazuma. Guys like him can be dangerous in our community....Has he ever considered what Ren suffered? Does he know what Ren gave up for him?

I'm pretty fascinated with the way that Ryunosuke not only acts as a foil to Kazuma but actively calls him out. And when I say he calls him out, he not only doesn't pull any punches, he adds a thick layer of contempt and some really personal jabs for good measure. Which, again, is understandable. It's natural to have a bias against anyone we don't know who may have wronged someone who's important to us. Add to that the bias anyone would have toward a rival, especially a rival who your crush has been pining for in your presence in the most excruciating manner for a decade, and of course he's angry.

He really gives it to Kazuma with both barrels. When they first meet, the way he hangs all over Ren while mad-dogging Kazuma with fixed, unflinching eye contact is something that is going to stick with me for a while. When they meet at the coffee shop, he really goes for the jugular when he mentions explicit details of all the sex with Ren that he's never actually had (but wants Kazuma to think he has). That's all dramatic window-dressing, though. (I say this with love, as someone who eats this kind of jealousy stuff up with a spoon.)

When Ryunosuke really lets Kazuma have it is when he tells him everything he didn't know about what happened to Ren after their last moments together. It's interesting. This is both exactly what Kazuma needs, and what he has been seeking the whole time, and at the same time is so deeply hurtful that Ryunosuke could be motivated purely by spite in telling him.

Is he, though? I guess I don't think it's 100% spite. Maybe he's at least hoping this could be good for Ren in some way. When he says, "I'll end this nonsense between you two," it could be interpreted as helpful, hostile, or both. He seems to sincerely want the "nonsense" and needless misunderstandings to stop. But at the very least, I think we can all agree that he doesn't mind in the slightest that sharing this information involves making Kazuma cry.

Maybe the most scathing moment is when Ryunosuke asks Kazuma, "Weren't you just avoiding the truth?" This clearly gets to Kazuma in a big way, and for good reason.

Is this accurate, or fair? That's really hard to say. There's no way some part of Kazuma hasn't been avoiding the truth. If I knew someone who had a wristband (or other wrist covering of some sort) that they never removed, the possibility of scarring from self-harm would occur to me pretty readily. I don't know whether the real meaning of his last name change should have occurred to Kazuma or not. There seem to be cultural factors there that I don't fully grasp. But it's possible he should have thought of this too. The significance of Ren suddenly, with no prior plan, studying abroad seems like it should also have occurred to him. More than anything, you would expect that since Kazuma's last memory before his hospitalization was his tearful postcoital moment with Ren, he'd realize that Ren probably had to call for help from the love hotel in order to keep him safe, which would have involved a risk, if not a certainty, of being criticized or punished by their parents.

Kazuma definitely seems to have been in some degree of denial. But honestly, denial is a pretty omnipresent part of the human experience. We're all in denial of something at any given time. Our mortality, the amount of suffering in the world, and just how little control we have over bad things happening to ourselves and the people we love are some big areas most people are in denial about almost all the time.

When people are relatively healthy, it's not too hard to do good reality-testing. In other words, we can usually tell when an idea or perception isn't in keeping with what we know about real life. But reality-testing tends to suffer when people are distressed. Sometimes we have to be in denial about important things to survive. In any kind of extreme situation, as our reality-testing suffers, our capacity for denial grows.

So I think that Kazuma was avoiding the truth, and he knows it. But just because someone avoided the awareness of something unpleasant doesn't mean they did it knowingly or willingly. My guess is that it would have been extremely difficult, if it was even really possible, for Kazuma to see everything really clearly at such a young age and under such distressing conditions. Once he wasn't actively recovering from a crisis anymore, he would have been more able to see things more clearly. But often, once we form a distorted or avoidant way of looking at an experience, it's really hard to change. Without the new information Ryunosuke confronts Kazuma with, maybe he would have had an epiphany after a while. But it would have been hard to get there.

I feel like I should note here that I don't think we can trust Kazuma when he makes statements about how badly he has failed Ren, how he should have done x or y, or how to what extent he knew better all along what was happening and how he ought to respond. Basically, I think we have make allowances for his harshness toward himself. When Kazuma says he deserves a given amount of blame for something, we should shrink that amount down considerably given his propensity for self-criticism, rumination, and taking on too much responsibility for others.

That's actually the grain of truth in Ren's distorted image of Kazuma. Ren thinks that a desire to protect him was the only reason Kazuma had sex with him ten years ago. I think it's pretty clear it wasn't, though it may have been the initial impetus. It makes some sense, at least, that Ren views it that way. But it's less reasonable that Ren seems to think that Kazuma has been having sex with him on a nearly daily basis for months just to be nice. It's just an absurd claim on its face.

That said, even if it's not reasonable, it's pretty understandable. When the stakes are high, it's pretty amazing how much human beings are capable of distorting reality to suit our beliefs. In this case, Ren has a massive case of internalized homophobia that was almost certainly worsened by being condemned and abandoned by his parents and other important adult figures at such a formative age. It's no wonder he views love and intimacy as a burden he puts on Kazuma instead of gifts to be shared.

But I digress! Basically, the idea that Kazuma is such a martyr that he'd have that much personally unfulfilling sex as a favor for a friend doesn't hold up to scrutiny. But the grain of truth in this idea is the fact that Kazuma is very giving, hard on himself, and interested in taking care of Ren.

In episode 7, he castigates himself for not asking Ren questions. But he asked all of the questions he knew to ask. He asked why Ren's last name changed. He asked what happened after he fell unconscious ten years ago. He asked about the wristband. He asked everything that, if Ren had answered him, could have resolved the misunderstandings between them. He could have been more persistent with his questions, certainly. But Ren was so resistant when Kazuma asked about any of it. Just as Ren lived in fear of losing Kazuma, Kazuma lived in fear of losing Ren. I'm sure it seemed as if Ren might not want anything to do with him if he kept pressing for answers to his questions. And it's possible that he really would have run away had Kazuma pushed harder for answers or sought his answers elsewhere. Ren was deeply afraid of what would happen if Kazuma were to find out the truth about him (as Ren sees it). I can completely imagine Ren running away if it seemed like Kazuma would find out the truth imminently.

Of course, Ren is extremely hard on himself too, maybe even more than Kazuma. Kazuma takes too much responsibility for others and rakes himself over the coals if he thinks he hasn't been perfect at caring for the people he loves. Ren is hard on himself in a different way--frankly, he hates himself. He seems to expect that if he's truly known by the person he loves most, he'll be not only rejected but despised. And it makes a kind of sense. Whether you label his version of what happened between him and Kazuma in the love hotel as "forcing [him]self on" Kazuma (as he put it when he confessed to their parents), coercive sex, sexual assault, or even rape, at the end of the day Ren thinks he sexually violated the love of his life, the sweetest, most sensitive person he has ever met, and that must foster a downright lethal level of self-loathing.

(And again, circling back, Ryunosuke has been witnessing all of this for a decade now and thinking about how it's all because of this Kazuma. I'd be pissed too.)

The overlap between Kazuma's and Ren's self-critical tendencies actually explains a lot about the barriers keeping them apart. There are plenty of BLs (and other similar types of stories) that feature one character who feels so inferior to the person they want to be with that it creates a major impediment to their getting together. But what's less common is a situation in which both lead characters feel that way about each other in different ways.

Ren's inferior feelings seem to be fueled by a combination of guilt for what he thinks he did to Kazuma ten years ago, internalized homophobia, and comparing himself unfavorably to an idealized version of Kazuma. By the end of episode 7, Kazuma has some newly acquired guilt toward Ren for what he sees as not seeking out the truth as intensely as he should have. But his feelings of inferiority toward Ren were already in place from the moment they met. He sees Ren as a "dazzling," remarkable person. This is related to Ren's popularity and social skills, both of which Kazuma lacks, but it's bigger than that. It's not entirely dissimilar from Ren's image of Kazuma as the purest sunshine puppy ever to walk the Earth. He thinks of Ren as inherently special in a way that shines out of him and makes people love him wherever he goes.

Neither of them thinks that they're worthy of the other one. I'm pretty sure neither of them has ever told the other how they see them, either! Neither of them has the slightest inkling. Let's hope that once the dust clears after Ryunosuke's big revelation, they might actually tell each other how they really feel.

Someone had to spill the beans eventually in order for any of this to have any hope of being resolved. I'm glad Ryunosuke got to do it, and got to give Kazuma a little payback for all the years of having to witness his crush pining for an unseen doofus.

Tokyo in April Is...: Bursting the BL Bubble

I haven’t had a lot of time today to read other takes on episode 7 of Tokyo in April is… but I wanted to talk about Ryunosuke and how he bursts the BL bubble around Kazuma in this episode and talk about the righteous anger he has for Kazuma.

I just wrote about Second Lead Syndrome in Korean dramas in a post about Jun & Jun, and I think I have a better grasp on Ryunosuke for this show. Ryunosuke hates Kazuma. He only knows Kazuma through Ren, and Ryunosuke clearly loves Ren. From his perspective, Ren threw himself on the sword of homophobia so that Kazuma could remain naïve and innocent. He has watched Ren continue to suffer for ten years and has tried as best he can to be there for Ren. They have tried multiple times at being intimate and it always ends in failure. From a shallow BL perspective, the height difference between them is perfect!

Then, he meets Kazuma, and he is…exactly the kind of boy that Ren would feel protective of. He’s kind and obsessed with Ren. He’s tall, beautiful, and athletic. He is made of sunshine. He seems completely untouched by what happened when Ren and Kazuma were 15. He doesn’t read as queer to Ryunosuke or Ren. If I was Ryunosuke, I would also doubt that Kazuma doesn’t remember anything about what happened or has no idea what could have happened to Ren. I also get how Ryunosuke would be even more upset.

In Kazuma, everything Ren sacrificed is validated. He suffered so that Kazuma wouldn’t, and he succeeded! Kazuma is fine! He went back to the US and had a normal experience in high school as a member of the football team. He went to school and became a talented professional. He doesn’t carry the scars of growing up queer and feeling different that so many of us wear. He doesn’t even think of himself in terms of queerness. He only thinks of Ren. He is a BL protagonist.

Ryunosuke is understandably irritated by this and feels compelled to challenge and provoke Kazuma. Guys like him can be dangerous in our community. What if he has gay panic later? What if he’s a Russel T. Davies character? Has he ever considered what Ren suffered? Does he know what Ren gave up for him? Ryunosuke has been beside Ren for a decade watching him have panic attacks any time he tries to be intimate, but this jock is the one who finally gets Ren out of that block?

Kazuma cannot remain in the bubble if he’s going to be with Ren as far as Ryunosuke is concerned. He reveals the sordid details of what Ren suffered and forces Kazuma to see the cost of his naivete. I’m not unsympathetic for Kazuma, because he’s been trying to understand what happened for over a decade. Still, I completely get Ryunosuke not accepting that Kazuma didn’t know anything.

This episode left us at a cliffhanger about Ren’s safety, but I genuinely think he’ll be fine based on my reads of Japanese media and dramas. The biggest struggle this episode was in Kazuma having to wiggle around one of Ren’s strict rules to help him. He has to see the ugliness of what Ren suffered and recognize that he’s in a different narrative than he thought.

Ryunosuke is the kind of romantic rival I like, because we know he has no chance. Still, his love for one of the leads forces his rival to change and face something that he wouldn’t otherwise.

#tokyo in april is...#shigatsu no tokyo wa...#tokyo in april is #shigatsu no tokyo wa #kazuma x ren #utsukushii kare #bl meta #bl tropes #it's late so I hope this makes some kind of sense

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stratesia · 4 years ago

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Consdering moving Robin to my multi as request only muse.

I really have no drive to be on this blog anymore, i wanna write robin just not here. There several reason I won’t go into. This isn’t what the post about. But i t been like this for a few mothns now

Genreal thoug, I jsut dont have drive for fire emblem in general anymore. I still wanan write wiht like faty,prince, fan and some others. I just don’t like being on this blog anymore.

I won’t give out the url to my multi here. As it contaisn fandoms I know some might be unconfortable with even if they aren’t in focus. I don’t blame anyone, im picky with those fandosm too, i jsut have friends there and it brings me joy, okay?

Im..not sure what to do.

#wanna countine writtign robin #but i don wanan be here anymore #expect like a few peeps #and i dont wanan get in arguments if you dont liek you can unfollow #your comfort is improtant #thoug i know some still follow my twitter #and yeah fe is ehre and there but nothing big anymore #so i would aks people to unfollow me there if ths like #all why you followed me for please #and im sorry #thank you for the memorise #// Call me Jee || ooc

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in-too-many-fandoms101 · 3 years ago

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taintedblud · 10 months ago

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. six years and she didn't need to turn around to know that voice . funny how that works . the part of your mind that wont let you forget . ❝ ⸻ Leon ❞ His name left her lips . a name she didn't utter but she constantly thought about . It's been six years and seeing him confirmed that she still loved him . That was a thought that caught her by surprise . Feyrah had liked leon from the start , admired his sense of humor and determination to look after his people . He was a good man ⸻ when push comes to shove he’s just about the best man in the world to have at your side . Yet if only he stayed there psychically . Constantly gone , coming back all battered and bruised . She never knew the details of his work but they were improtant . She just wanted to spend more time with him . She selfishly wanted more of him because LEON IS A MAN WORTH LOVING . even if he doesn't sees it himself .

She didn't expected to see him there . Eyes fell on him , as always observed to make sure he was not battered or hurt . There was longing but also relief to know he was ok . ALIVE . ❝ thanks … I'll go by there first to drop these off . ❞ Feyrah looked down at her luggage and grabbed the handle . ❝ Do they do dinner too or going else where is better ? ❞ She wondered if he hated her ... for leaving without a word . She wouldn't blame him if he did . ❝ You look good , Leon . ❞ She felt a little awkward . nervous ? Without giving it much thought and out of habit , she touched her necklace , her hand starting to play with it for comfort . A necklace she never took off

𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐩𝐫𝐚𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐭𝐡𝐞 silhouette of a ghost standing before him, darkness coating the area surrounding her and the lights above illuminating every feature. it had been six years, 𝗌𝗂𝗑 𝗐𝗁𝗈𝗅𝖾 𝗒𝖾𝖺𝗋𝗌, since she left his apartment with all of her belongings hurriedly while he was out on yet 𝖺𝗇𝗈𝗍𝗁𝖾𝗋 mission. leon remembered returning to the place he temporarily called home after chasing a trail all the way to alcatraz to extract taylor to 𝗇𝗈𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 besides what little he owned. he remembered what bottle he downed that night, what bottle he downed the night after, too. but he 𝗇𝖾𝗏𝖾𝗋 held getting away from him against her for a second. he only wished they talked it through. his hand let up where it previously was going to lift the handle of his bike, watching her walk down the sidewalk beside him too distracted by a phone call to give him notice. he managed to overhear bits and pieces of it without eavesdropping. 𝖻𝗈𝖽𝗂𝖾𝗌. for a moment, he wondered if she'd been the pathologist he needed to meet and how differently that could've went when compared to creepy gazing. “ — there's a motel 6 three blocks east, and a left around the corner. ” he spoke after clearing his throat, making certain his voice projected. “ only a two star rating, but their breakfast isn't 𝗁𝖺𝗅𝖿 𝖻𝖺𝖽. ”

#𝑖𝑖. feyrah demir ⟶ interactions

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mmysstical · 3 years ago

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Helloo!!!🌸 This is the feedback for the reading! Sorry for late feedbac.

Firstly, The reading was sooo accurate!! Like? How do you know soo much about me??? But honestly, i have always doubted my strengths, i have a few people in my life who have always made me question if i am even worth the few improtant things i have right now with me. Even though at times i try to pull myself of my comfort zone but what other people might think has always scared me.

And, yeah the course i am currently pursuing in my college is something which I don’t want to do i feel as if don’t belong there but i have somehow managed to find my future through it. I hope i reach the finish line without any regerts.

There are a lot of things which you mentioned in your reading, which i am planning to improve on because at times few things make you soo frustrated that you just want to run away from them.

THANK YOU VERYY MUCHH FOR THE READING!!!💖✨ i cannot express how much it helped me. And sorry for ranting up there. I hope you keep posting your great readings. I am sure everyone will love them🥺 Hope you have a good day/night🧚‍♀️

Hello 🤍

Thank you so much for the lengthy and detailed feedback 🥰 that’s extremely pleasurable to read ! I’m glad you enjoyed it ❣️

I just couldn’t stop typing 😅 and before I knew it, I typed 3 giant paragraphs 😂 but the cards tell you of what you need to hear ☺️

Honestly, rely on yourself. The help from the universe is actually that ! Your unrelenting strength !! Remember: a feeling is just that. It’s a sensation, a signal in your brain that encourages you to investigate it. It’s neither an omen, a prediction for the future, or something you absolutely to have to react to. So, don’t listen to haters, and don’t listen to your self doubt either ❣️

Remember: people have lots to say, but when it comes to putting themselves in your shoes and doing what you do… there’s no one. So, why would their opinions and what-ifs matter ?

And you’re 100% worthy of good things in your life. I’m glad the reading could help you ! 🥰

#asks #mail #feedback #it’s crazy how I couldn’t answer any questions straight…. it’s just what you needed to hear #I’m glad you enjoyed it though 🤍#don’t worry… if you just go through that little transitory period that’s uncomfortable #things will get a LOT BETTER #you won’t even remember why people’s opinions mattered #how do people just CHURN out free readings

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pangzi · 4 years ago

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Otome Gay [Nielan] - Chapter 7

word count: 2785 other chapters: INTRO - Chapter 1 - Chapter 2 - Chapter 3 - Chapter 4 - Chapter 5 - Chapter 6 - Chapter 7 - Chapter 8 - Chapter 9 [AO3]

Mingjue woke up around noon for the first time in years. He was still exhausted, having laid awake most of the night. His head still felt like it was going to burst, his chest heavy with emotions he couldn’t quite place yet.

He went through his morning routine first, before checking if he had any messages. Even as he was busying himself, his mind kept going back to the evening before, to how everything was perfect and then it wasn’t, to Meng Yao’s words. He got himself comfortable on the couch, before even daring to unlock his phone.

There were several messages, none from Xichen, though. His heart sank. Still, maybe Xichen just hadn’t gotten to replying yet, he shouldn’t worry about it. The other messages were from Huaisang and Zonghui. The latter just asking how the evening was and if he’d gotten laid, Mingjue decided to ignore it for now, not feeling like going over the entire evening with him at the moment. He clicked on Huaisang’s messages.

From: Huaisang nO wrories, dage!! 😘 Call me tomororow, is improtant!

To: Huaisang Let me know when you’re awake

He knew he’d had to tell Huaisang everything then, but at least he knew the people it was about better than Zonghui, maybe he could help Mingjue figure this all out. He knew that Huaisang wouldn’t be up any time soon, though. He was probably up until morning and would sleep all day.

He didn’t know what to do until then. He had taken the day off, so Zonghui probably wouldn’t even let him into the gym, even if it was just to work out. Going there also meant having to talk to Zonghui about everything that happened, that’s for another time. So he decided to go for a run, that always cleared his mind a bit, he jogged to the park where he did most of his daily workout, got baozi on his way back. Once back and showered, it was only two in the afternoon, still hours to go before he could talk to Huaisang. He hadn’t received a message from Xichen either yet, which only added to his nerves.

He stress cleaned the apartment, which was done way too fast as Huaisang usually was the one to mess up the place. Still no message from Xichen or Huaisang.

With a sigh he plopped down on the couch, going through every movie and drama both iQiyi and Tencent had to offer in the hope to find something to watch, but not even his favourite movie seemed interesting right now. Eventually he decided to give the otome game another try, at least there he could still talk to Xichen. He played for hours, carefully picking his actions, immersing himself in the story completely. He would get his happy ending with Xichen in this stupid game somehow, if he couldn’t get it in real life, then he’d get it in the game no matter what. As he was getting close to the end of the storyline, his phone buzzed, snapping him out of it.

A message from Xichen. His heart started racing, he almost didn’t dare to look, especially when his phone buzzed again with another message from him.

From: Xichen Wangji is okay. Why did you do it?

Mingjue’s stomach twisted. Do what? He didn’t do anything, did he?

To: Xichen I’m glad he’s okay, I was so worried Why did I do what?

He saw the speech bubble pop up. Xichen typed for a long time, speech bubble popping up and disappearing again every now and then. It was clear he was trying to choose his words carefully, constantly deleting what he was typing. It seemed like an eternity before he finally sent his reply.

From: Xichen You know what you did, Mingjue

To: Xichen I really don’t Xichen please tell me what I did so we can fix this

From: Xichen I can’t believe you… I thought you were different I should’ve known better

Mingjue’s heart dropped, tears already welling up in his eyes. This couldn’t be it. He couldn’t mean this. He didn’t even know what to reply, it was clear he did something wrong but he really had no idea what. He took a few breaths to calm himself down before replying.

To: Xichen Xichen, please I really wish I knew what I did so I could explain it to you Please tell me

No reply. He looked at his screen for a long time after sending, but Xichen didn’t even start to type a reply. In frustration he threw his phone to the side, slamming his hand down, hitting his laptop. What happened next didn’t help with what he was feeling… He got the negative ending for Xichen’s storyline once again by accidentally clicking something. He slammed his laptop closed, pushing it aside and curling into himself. He couldn’t stop the tears anymore. He tried so hard every time but he just kept screwing up. He always screwed up the good things in his life.

He didn’t know how long he sat there exactly, sobbing, hands clawing at his body angrily, chest heaving as he sucked in breaths between sobs. His mind was racing, that evil voice in his head taking over, telling him I told you so. What did he expect, he’d never been able to find anyone really interested in him, and then he’d think Xichen would be? Xichen who is so far out of his league, who is loved by everyone and could get whoever he wants. He can’t even get him interested in him in a stupid game after a million tries, why would real life be different.

His phone was buzzing next to him, it had been for a while but he hadn’t dare to look at the caller ID. Eventually he did, and he saw the foolish picture Huaisang had once set as his own caller ID. Mingjue would’ve laughed at it had he not been feeling so miserable. He took a few deep breaths, trying to calm down a bit before he answered.

“Dage, are you okay?” Huaisang insisted immediately, he knew it wasn’t normal for his brother to take so long to answer his phone.

“No”, Mingjue replied honestly, he couldn’t keep anything from Huaisang anyway so why bother lying. “Why can’t I just be with Xichen”, he whined, trying to hold back his sobs the best he could.

Huaisang sighed. “Because we made it impossible in the game, dage. I thought you’d figured it out by now.” Both of them were quiet for a while. Mingjue trying to process what he said. Any other time he would’ve been mad at Huaisang for making him waste his time like this, but now he was almost relieved. “You didn’t mean in the game, did you? Did something happen?”

“It’s over, I messed up”

Huaisang’s breath hitched on the other side. “What happened? Everything seemed to be going so well yesterday”

“I don’t know”, Mingjue admitted, “He’s mad at me, very mad, and disappointed and I don’t know why” He heard his brother sniffle softly on the other side.

After a moment of silence, Huaisang gasped loudly. “It’s all my fault”

“What do you mean?”

“When I heard someone spiked Wangji’s drink and he got into a fight, I immediately came to look for him, but Xichen had already taken him home”, Huaisang explained, “I heard what Meng Yao told you and…” He hesitated for a moment. “When you walked away I was so angry, he seemed so proud of himself, telling everyone what a pathetic crybaby you were and that you didn’t deserve Xichen… I punched him, the way you taught me” Ouch… Mingjue had tried to teach Huaisang self defense when people started picking on him in high school, but he never really needed it, tongue sharp enough to fend off any bullies. Still, he knew Huaisang could pack a punch. “I probably broke his nose, Zixuan had to take him to the hospital, my hand still hurts from it” Mingjue couldn’t help but feel proud of his brother for standing up for him. He wasn’t a fan of starting a fight or punching people just like that, but to be honest Meng Yao had deserved it. It took him a while to realise what Huaisang was trying to say though.

“You think he said I punched him”, Mingjue mumbled, of course he did. It was perfect… Meng Yao could play the victim and the more Mingjue claimed he did nothing or that it wasn’t him, the worse it’d be, because of course Xichen would believe his lifelong friend over some guy he just met.

Huaisang sniffled again. “I’m so sorry, dage. I shouldn’t have done that, I’ll fix it I promise, I’ll tell Xichen it was me”

“He deserved it”, Mingjue said, “I’m proud of you for standing up for me, A-Sang, it’s not your fault.” Huaisang just started crying harder, which made Mingjue angrier than he already was at Meng Yao. “I’m not sure Xichen will believe you if you say it was you”

“Then what can we do, we have to fix this”, Huaisang hiccupped, “You and Xichen need to be together”

Mingjue sighed, pinching the bridge of his nose trying to push aside all the negative thoughts and come up with something. “The only way is if Meng Yao exposes himself as the rat he is, which he won’t”

“Please don’t give up, dage”, Huaisang whispered, “you can’t let him win, Xichen is worth fighting for I promise”

“I know he is, Huaisang. I won’t give up” Mingjue promised, and then decided it was enough about that. “Come home somewhere this week? Bring your boyfriend, I’ll cook your favourite dinner”

Huaisang promised to come home Wednesday evening and stay until Sunday evening as it was a long weekend. It made Mingjue feel a bit better, at least now he had something to look forward to.

He didn’t hear from Xichen anymore. He had texted him a few times, asking if they could talk. Not that he knew what to say to him if he’d agree to meet, he couldn’t say anything. He wasn’t the person to apologize for something he didn’t do, it wouldn’t help anyway, as apologizing meant admitting guilt. Explaining what happened would also put him in a bad light, as it would just sound as excuses. The only thing he could hope for was that some way, somehow, Meng Yao would slip up. It sucked, though, knowing Xichen was mad at him and he couldn’t do anything about it.

The week suddenly seemed so much longer, even with super busy work days, the few days counting up to Wednesday felt like an eternity. He spent most of his free time sulking, trying to think of a way to make Xichen believe him. But as far as he knew only Huaisang had heard what Meng Yao had told him, and Huaisang said nobody had seen him punch Meng Yao either, at least nobody that wasn’t completely wasted at that moment and could still remember it.

At least tonight, for a few hours, maybe he could keep his mind off it. Hopefully Huaisang being home would help Mingjue to stop sulking. Actually, he had no doubt having his little brother around would help tremendously, the little Nie always had a way to make things better.

From the moment he burst into the apartment with his boyfriend in tow, Mingjue felt better. The entire place was immediately filled with chaotic energy that could only be described as Nie Huaisang. Shoes carelessly thrown off in the hallway, jackets and bags threw on the couch, loud chatter filled the otherwise quiet home. Finally it fully felt like home again.

Huaisang greeted his brother with a hug, complaining about being hungry immediately after. Jiang Cheng stood around awkwardly, greeting Mingjue politely before being forced to sit down by Huaisang.

The mood as they ate was comfortable and warm. Jiang Cheng seemed like a good guy, defensive and forward, but it was clear he held deep affection for Huaisang and was amused by his annoying antics. It was also very obvious how whipped his little brother was for this boy, how comfortable he felt around him. The last time Huaisang took someone home, he wasn’t himself, held himself back so much that it hurt Mingjue’s heart to see that his brother not seemed to be allowed to fully be his wonderful self around the person he loved. Luckily this time, nothing seemed to hold Huaisang back and Mingjue couldn’t be happier for him.

Before, this dinner would’ve been perfect, yet now he couldn’t help but think something was missing. Someone. He got a lump in his throat when he thought about how wonderful it would’ve been had Xichen only been here. He had never expected to be so affected by someone he’d known for only a few weeks. He was able to quickly get his thought back in order, though. Focusing on the ridiculous story Huaisang was telling, on how happy his brother was right now.

Things suddenly got tense when Huaisang disappeared to the bathroom for a moment. Mingjue stared at Jiang Cheng intensely for a moment, the boy clearly intimidated by his gaze but he tried his best not to show it. Mingjue admired that. However, the boy was clearly expecting some kind of shovel talk at the moment, so why not give it to him.

“Treat him well, hm”, Mingjue said.

Jiang Cheng nodded enthusiastically. “I will, I promise Mingjue-ge”

“Hm”, Mingjue pointed at him with his chopsticks. “If you hurt him, Huaisang will kill you”

This seemed to confuse Jiang Cheng, he clearly didn’t know his boyfriend as well as he seemed to think, not that Mingjue could blame him, Huaisang’s dangerous side only came out when he felt wronged. Jiang Cheng not knowing about this side was a good thing. “Don’t you mean you’ll kill me?” He stuttered.

“No, I don’t”, Mingjue said, taking a sip from his drink.

“Dage will help me get rid of the body”, Huaisang said casually as he walked back in, pressing a kiss to Jiang Cheng’s cheek as he sat down. The Jiang boy seemed distressed, but still grabbed Huaisang’s hand with an almost confident smile. “You saw what I did to Meng Yao”, Huaisang mumbled carefully, keeping an eye on his brother’s reaction as he referred to the evening of his birthday.

The lump was back immediately, the words ringing in his ears again, his mind back to making him believe that they were true. He wanted to say something, but all words suddenly lost.

“Have you heard anything?” Huaisang asked.

Mingjue shook his head. “I asked him to talk a few times, but I never got a reply”

“I’m sorry, dage”, Huaisang sighed. “I’ll try to talk to him during my next art class, I promise.”

After that they avoided the topic for the next few days, Huaisang trying his best to keep his brother’s mind occupied. On Thursday and Friday, Huaisang came to help out at the gym, taking on his pre-college job of secretary again as one of the employees had fallen ill, annoying both Zonghui and Mingjue in between calls and helping visitors with signing up and making appointments for personal training. Saturday they went to the art store together, Huaisang probably buying way more than he should, but his brother didn’t seem to mind. On Sunday morning Huaisang even woke up before his brother did, probably for the first time since he’d been a child, and went to fetch them breakfast.

He had hoped to make it quick and be back before Mingjue returned from his morning run, but as soon as he saw how busy the restaurant was he’d chosen for take-out, he knew that wasn’t going to happen. It took forever until it was his turn, getting more and more annoyed with the people around him with every passing second. He’d almost forgotten that he wasn’t really a morning person… Thankfully the people in this restaurant, complaining every single second of their time waiting or just plainly trying to skip the line, kindly reminded him of it.

When he finally received his order, an hour and a half had passed and Mingjue had already called him once asking him where he was. He hurried back, accidentally bumping into someone as he walked out. Annoyance spiking once again as he saw the bruised face in front of him, fist already itching to collide with it again.

“Meng Yao”, he hissed, “I was hoping to bump into you again, we have a lot to talk about”

#otome gay #nielan #nie mingjue #lan xichen #mirf writes #the untamed #mo dao zu shi #cql #next one SHOULD be the last... we'll see

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gakupoid2m · 5 years ago

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Tagged by: @claymorecut thanks 💕

Quarantine Ask Tag

What is the last thing that made you smile?

The 2nd ep of fruits basket S2 XD

How's your day been?

Lol lazy. I was supposed to study but I took a three hour nap instead XD no worries though, I can still get stuff done so ✌

What's keeping you entertained these days? If you are in quarantine/self-islation.

Hmmm, well i have some improtant tests coming up Ive been spending my time studying. Other than that I'm mostly on instagram these days lol other than that I've just been watching anime and reading manga XDD

Is there anything you'd like to achieve in this time?

Yes, get studying done for my tests

Post a selfie! (If you're comfortable with that)

Lol I won't ^_^

I'd like to tag: @lucyheartfiilia @goochills

#this was fun #thanks for the tag 💕

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saltycharacters · 5 years ago

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Do you mind expanding on the the whole *person in the center of the world* thingie? I read it on one of your posts and I really like the idea of it! Also I'm kinda curious since you did say that the person who made it down there realized there was another person already there (I think that's what you said I either have terrible memory or terrible self confidence about my memory)

Yes that's what I said!!! I explained most of the basics in the post but I'll try to see if I can elaborate.

So short story, power-hungry scientist injects herself with superpower chemical juice and eventually has too much, so she has to travel to the center of the world, an environment which has no more superpower chemicals, so she doesn't explode. And by accident discovers the "Center of the World" phenomenon, where she suddenly becomes the "Most Important Person in the World" and bathes in her extra power until hubris catches up and ends up back-stabbing her.

Long story? Hyper chemicals are my world's equivalent to "magic", and are essentially new elements on the periodic table that mix with existing elements to create a whole new category of trouble. These allow super funky shit to happen- it's the reason why the planet is DND dice shaped instead of round, making them able to surpass the laws of physics.

So someone who could control any amount of them would have "superpowers". A power-hungry scientist like Yuria (the one in the center of the world) could first learn of their properties, then injest concentrated Hyper chemicals to gain supernatural abilities. Of course, this comes at a cost. Everyone on the planet naturally gains small levels of hyperchemicals throughout their lives, because they're everywhere- but the more hyperchemicals you have in your body, the more unstable it becomes and you can eventually explode or die some other horrible way. Yuria came dangerously close to those levels, so instead of say, trying to get rid of them, she searched for a perfectly controlled environment that receives no hyper chemicals so she could keep her power and still survive.

Eventually she decides on the center of the world- the core of the planet being hollow and hyper chemical free for reasons I don't yet have. She quickly builds an elevator to the core (by herself) (because what else would you do if you're jacked up on super elements) and discovers that 1) the core is a white small room with nothing but smooth walls and otherwise very comfortable 2) there's already someone there.

In fact, there were actually 2 people- a mother and her 1 day old child.

(That child is Mokaro, my very first oc ever, fun fact.)

So now these three people are the "Most Important People of the World". It's a phenomenon I don't actually have a reason for, but think of it this way; by being literally the center of the world, the entire psyche of humanity shifts in your favor. Random but important events happen for you or because of you, or you just take a big part in them. The butterfly effect changes to benifit you all the time. People start randomly knowing your name. Weird shit like that happens.

But there IS a hierarchy to the phenomenon. Those who stay in the center affect the surface, but once they leave the core they lose their status. The more people sharing this title, the more divided it's power is. And someone born IN the core gets to be the most important person of all- they're born with inherent status and can leave with it still in effect, although not as strongly. But would someone really give birth there? Apperantly, yes.

The Menguante (Mokaro's) family are relatives to the first person to discover Hyperchemicals, and continued their extensive hyperchemical/world research as a family trade. So eventually they also discover the "Center of the World" phenomenon and make plans to have one of their kin be born in the core, both to test the outcome and out of pride.

So a pregnant family member was eventually brought to the core, and left alone to peacefully give birth to very important baby.

This happens shortly before Yuria arrives, and when she does, shit hits the fan. There are 3 more inherent properties of the Phenomenon that I didn't mention above- 1) you know the extent of your importance the second you enter the core. You may not know all your powers, or the semantics of the hierarchy, but you immidietly get hit with the realization that you're the most important person in the world. 2) The only one who can kill "The most important person in the world" is another "Most improtant" person. Otherwise, the butterfly effect literally bends events to avoid your death and if nobody kills you, then you basically become immortal. 3) When becoming M.I.P.I.W, this triggers another phenomenon where you become so important that all living, blood-related family dies off through various chains of events, making your dna unique.

All three things happened when Yuria arrived. Because Mokaro was inherintingly the most important person in the room, his mom had to die- but because she was also in the center, only another most important person could kill her. Yuria, refusing to share her status, and now because of fate, kills Mokaro's mom and is left with this very important baby.

Again, the hierarchy comes into play, and although Yuria wants to kill the baby too, his higher status creates a rare change of heart. So instead she sends him back to the surface, and studies the effects of his status as he grows. She is still a scientist after all.

So this is how Yuria gets to Godlike status when coupled with her pre-existing powers and the phenomenon. She obviously can't leave the center, both because it'll kill her and because she wants the extra power. But she is able to create vessels and interact with the surface, and therefore bends things to her will for many years.

Mokaro meanwhile becomes the sole inheriter of his family studies, eventually becoming a scientist himself and getting his own story (with Yuria as the antagonist). I could talk forever but this is ridiculously long enough, so If you somehow manage to read this all then I hope this is interesting anon!!!

#deep saltyverse lore #center of the world #most important person in the world

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realisationanddoubt · 5 years ago

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The binary: realisations and rants

Can we talk about the gender binary a bit? Of course we can. It’s my blog, we can talk about Naruto or the impossibility of clown cars if I wish. So I’ve been thinking a lot about me after my break up as, I suppose, is normal. Thanks to this I’ve stumbled across an identity crisis I’ve been putting off for years. I’m non-binary and that’s a weird thing to just non-chalantly write down for me. See, I’ve spent years talking about how I don’t really care about gender. As a bisexual, I’ve had the conversation numerous times. As a stereotypically effiminate person I’ve spoken many times about how I’m comfortable in myself acting however I want because the gender stereotypes hold no interest to me. But I’ve never really bothered to delve into why.

It’s taken awhile to come to terms with being non-binary. It’s like coming to terms with my sexuality all over again. As usual, I’ve been presented a choice. The sexuality and identity fairy came to me twice now and happily asked “men or women” and I, in classic me style, didn’t really pay attention to the fact that there was a clear binary choice and only half listening just replied “Oh, no thank you!”

It’s difficult to live in a world defined by binaries and then realise you’re not really interested in participating. When I very first realised I might be non-binary a couple of months back, I got lost in a strange narrative. Do I need to start wearing make up? Should I make myself more androgynous, shave my beard? How do I present as non-binary? Of course the answer (For me) is you don’t. I should have really known that from the start because I had to do the same thing with my bisexuality. It took many years to get from “How do I let everyone know I’m bisexual?” to “I don’t really care who knows what my sexuality is and I have no desire to share that information.” I’ve approached being non-binary much the same. I get that people are proud of their sexuality and identity and seriously, good for them. That must be a nice thing to have. Thing is I’m not particularly proud. Let me see if I can put this into words.

So for me, sexuality and identity are both very matter of fact. I’m not proud of either of those aspects of me but don’t get me wrong, I’m not ashamed. The idea of being proud of either of those things is, for me at least, the same as being proud of having curly hair or brown eyes. Sure, there was some emotional turmoil coming to terms with my sexuality and identity but it’s not like these are things I had to strive and work for. They’re just facts. I don’t really care if people call me he or they. They feels a bit more natural I guess but it doesn’t particulalry bother me being called he. And note, I get called he because I have a beard and a masculine build. When I was a teenager with heavy eyeliner and long flowing hair I got called miss and she a lot and that never particularly bothered me either. I’ve never particualraly felt some kind of rage at being misgendered. I don’t really care that people assume I’m straight (I kind of care in that way of, Jesus dude open your mind and stop making assumptions but not enough that I’ve felt the need to correct anyone.)

Though I wonder how much this is a story I tell myself. Just like it’s difficult telling yourself actually, you’re not any of the traditional genders, telling yourself you don’t really care about presenting and pronouns in a community that’s so fired up about them feels weird.

“Welcome to the queer community! Would you like to be angry about misrepresntation of your sexuality or your identity?” The queer fairy politely but firmly asks.

“Ah, no thank you, I’ve already eaten.” Josh replies, not really paying attention to the climate or the question.

I even considered whether I’m supposed to change my name. Am I supposed to change my name to something a bit more androgynous? Maybe start calling myself Alex or Frankie or any other name that could be either gender? But I don’t want to. I’m just Josh. I’m a bisexual, non binary mess and Josh is my descriptor.

Should I care more? Should I be fighting some war against ignorance? Am I somehow doing a disservice by not participating?

Not participating is basically my default. “Here lies Josh, they didn’t participate.”

I kind of make life more difficult for myself by not divulging these things. People have asked me before “Are you gay?” and I just reply “nope!”. Then I get annoyed that people just assume I’m straight despite literally never giving any evidence to the contrary. I guess it’s just a problem with the system. My sexuality and identity are improtant to me but they’re personal. I’m not going to talk about them to work colleagues or friends anymore than I’m going to talk about my kinks.

“Hey Josh are you gay?” My well meaning but misguided colleague asks.

“Oh no, I’m bisexual, non-binary and I like scratching and biting during sex.”

You really going to just out your kinks like that online huh my dude? It should say enough about me that I feel a swell of anxiety to putting a fairly vanilla kink on a personal blog no one I know will ever read. Do I really want Tumblruser420 to know I like biting in bed? Feels like an overshare.

This really became a bit of a deep dive into gender identity huh? I guess I’m just going through some stuff.

Quick tangent, whenever I hear a noise in my house, despite having two cats that are always the cause, I need to check every room just in case. I even check the bathroom which only has one very small window next to the door. Just in case some sneak thief broke in through the plughole I guess. Some S’wit. Some N’wah.

God I’m just going through some Stuff y’know? I worry how much of my outlook might be down to internalised shame and not just non-chalant IDGAF attitude. I haven’t put Non-Binary on my tinder profile. I mean I have but I’ve set it not to show. I don’t know if that’s out of fear of being judged for it or simply because I haven’t come to terms with it myself. To be clear, I definitely haven’t come to terms with it myself yet. I have bisexual on my profile but I guess I’m still kind of ashamed of that.

Is it shame? I guess it’s more fear. Not like a fear for myself or my safety or anything. More a fear of people’s perceptions. It’s not even that I’m scared people will be shitty to me because of it. If that’s the kind of person they are, fuck them. I just don’t want to be “That queer one”. Does that make sense? I kind of hate to term cishet because it only seems to be used as derogatory but I need to use it a sec. I think the main reason I’m happy to just pass as cishet is because then I’m allowed to be a person. The second you’re something different that’s it. That defines you. I get it needs to be a conversation so people stop being ignorant and hateful but at the same time even just the discussion about it feels like it’s pushing me into this definition. Like being bi or being non-binary means I’m a certain kind of person.

I guess it’s the classic tale of any ism. Racism, sexism, homophobia...ism. I am bisexual. I am non-binary. But I don’t want to be the bisexual. Being defined by something like that, something so out of your control... It feels so... dismissive? I’m not a person anymore. I’m not Josh. I’m a bisexual. I’m non binary. I’m white. I present as a man. All that shit. This is starting to become a rant on the construction of society as a whole and the role of privelege and what that means huh?

I’m creative, emotional, witty. That’s what I’m defined by. That’s who I am. I’m not just some pigeon hole word. Define me by my facets, not my facts.

Realisations are a funny thing. I have a lot of realisations in my life and mostly I like them but this one leaves a sour taste in my mouth. It’s not that I don’t care, that much is apparent after this rant. I’m just so tired of it. I avoid all the discourse and conversations about any kind of identity issues because I’m tired of defending myself. It doesn’t matter where you fall on the spectrum. These kind of labels aren’t useful. They’re just a method of pinning something to someone that says “Can I just hate this person out of hand.” and it’s rife. It’s everywhere and it’s all the same. I don’t care if you’re having a rant about black people or a rant about cishets. It’s all just vicious hate. We live in a world where people are so desperate to have someone to hate because they’re different. Whether that difference is in the majority or the minority it doesn’t matter. Hating all men or all straights or all whites is no different from hating all trans people or all queer people or all black people. Hating all millenials because they’re special snowflakes is no different from hating all boomers because they’re not progressive. It’s just pure hatred because they’re different. Just blanket statements attached to something someone can’t control to give you a reason to say “Oh don’t worry, I’m allowed to hate them”.

Maybe keeping my identity or my sexuality to myself makes me a coward. Fine. I refuse to participate in these wars of hatred. I just want to spend time with my cats, fall in love, help people and laugh.

As always, as will be written on my gravestone one day, I refuse to participate. To all those people who fight for my ideal world on my behalf, thank you. To all those people on either side, progressive or traditional, just to hate one subset of people, go fuck yourselves. I’ll just be over here, trying to make the dying smile and trying to give people a little longer in this world to spend with the people they love.

That’s it. Rant over. I’m going to try and get another hour or two of sleep before work. I know it’s customary to drop the mic after a big speech but know if it felt like I did, I just fumbled putting it back into the mic stand and I’m trying to own it. If you look closely you’ll see that the blood has drained from my face and perspiration is clear on my forehead.

#non binary #emotions #rants #hate #I really went off on this one #identity #gender #sexuality #bisexual

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bleusarcelle · 6 years ago

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listen up, listen up!

that’s totally a song from tangled before ever after, no shame

I promised (?) a fic rec because I have read such good fics recently and I wanted to share bc these fics deserve so much love goddamit.

May I Have This Dance? by @subtlehysteria

fic: cinderella au based on kiilea’s art. smitten fucking keith. smitten lance. deceased me.

ramble: god, you guys, every word of this fic is magic and beauty itself. I fell in love with every single sentence and Lance is just so damn pure and kind and he’s the best Cinderella, I love him. don’t get me started on Keith, because that boy is so damn gone and smitten it actually hurts and they dance and they are so happy and they forget where they are and they just have fun and god, the author did such an fantastic job on showing their feelings and - JUST READ IT.

It has a part two that honestly? fucking bless?? thank youf or my life and for smitten keith? i lvoe youu?????

partners by @mightaswellcry

fic: post season 6. lance and krolia chat. quiet soft confession klance. shy dorks on a pool. soft keith. getting together.

ramble: hoenstly? the ending was the tip that convinced me to bookmark it. I dont bookmark every fic I read, but damn, this one? this one was really gooddamned precious, especially the quiet soft confession? that was more of an action thatn words? and it was really damn good? loved it. booked mark it.

Wedding Day Disaster by @l-x-ie

fic: wedding klance. best woman pidge who does her best. smitten keith. tired shiro. poor lance. best wedding sheningans ever. canon verse.

ramble: i have no words for this fic, but imma try. this fic is fucking glorious and so damn funny. it’s a wild ride from start to finish and the squad can’t catch a damn break. it’s great. and like, after all the problems? all the unexpected shit that life threw on them on their WEDDING day and yet these two asshole dorks just smile and are so damn smitten bc they jsut want to marry the other so fuck the universe. and the author does such a good job on moving the story forward smoothly enough ‘til the end and it feels so complete and closured and I need a goddamned honeymoon fic sequel.

moonlit delusions by @jilliancares

fic: werewolf lance. oblivious lance. pining keith. dumb lance.

ramble: jillian u goddamned genius i love you with 76% of my heart.

All Right by @sunflower-le-tournesol

fic: roadtrip gone half wrong. grumpy klance. but then smitten lance bc he’s a good bean who is in love.

ramble: i recently read one (1) fic of this author and ended up reading the rest of their story in one fucking night. I still feel bad that I couldnt ramble a comment in all of them but it was so late i wasn’t fuctioning. anyways the fic. it’s sooooooooooooo short but so damn GOOD and precious. it’s like, I just love keith’s character here? and the way the author allows us to see keith through lance’s eyes it’s just...really fucking talent, i lvoed it, it was subtle but so improtant and good. reeeeeeeeaaaaaad it.

there, there by koganewest

fic: klance fight. klance makes up.

ramble: it’s really refreshing to see that despite them being in love, they are still humans and they still make mistakes and they are STILL a couple whoo go through fights because they are needed to build the relationship in a healthy way. I really like to see those sides of their relatioionship, and this author did really good on that aspect. both of them were on edge, oen of them was trying to comfort, the other took it the wrong way, buttons were pushed, angry words were said but int he end of the day, they care, they careso much and it’s so good to see that.

Calling the Shots by Ninja_Librarian

fic: nurse keith. nurse keith. nurseeeee keeeeeith. and lance.

warning: background shidge.

ramble: funny af???? development of their relationship good af???? growing slowly as friends so good??? and then keith feeling guilty but he can’t go back now lmao. and then the CONFESSION O H MAN, WHY. it was so embarassing and i re read it like eight times lmao. really good, loved it.

can't buy me love by @jilliancares

fic: ice cream truck lance. mechanic keith. it was destinated.

ramble: JILLIAN YOU GODDAMN GENIUS I LOVE YOU. no but for real, this was super creative, lovely and so damn pure. one of my faves.

Cereal Sweepstakes and Other Bad Ideas ft. Lance McClain by ruralfishingcat

fic: skydiver instructor keith. oblivious lance. slow lance.

ramble: oh man, this is just super good and so enjoyable. lance’s entire dinamyc with his friendsis really pure and his personality its so wild but like, lance, ya know? love him. he was such a dork, and so embarassing. and everyone knowing about their mutual pining but them? fucking dorks. like they honestly thought “oh first meeting this asshole? its fine im never going to see him again” YOU THOUGHT WRONG BITCH, HE’S YOUR SOULMATE.

an apple a day by Kima

fic: sick lance. caring keith.

ramble: i’m just so in love with this fic. everytime i re readit im like ....oh yeah this is why i book marked it. it’s really gentle and the dinamic between the team its really comforting and fun. and keith’s super awakard but he cares and he tries his best and it’s just really damn good.

#bleu recs #klance #klance fic #klance recs #vld lance #vld #vld fic #vld fic rec #vld keith #keith kogane #lance mcclain #enjoy <3 #i SURE DID

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thewinterspy · 6 years ago

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i was looking for ‘cheaper by the dozen au’ notes for hours in my documents. and then i realized that i saved it as ‘yours mine and ours’. it’s basically a transcript of a conversation i had with @vermofftiss in the sherlolly chat

katie: I see Sherlock and Molly being more of a "Yours, Mine and Ours" type sam: aww, but that means they're both widows katie: Or they could be single people that decided to have kids on their own before they met sam: ooh, true. ... *whispers* what if widows for a moment. stay with me. what if molly was married to tom before sherlock, and all her kids are convinced she's only with sherlock because he looks like tom katie: hmmm. IDK I think that gives Tom too much improtance. I was thinking that Sherlock just keeps ending up with kids by finding them through the homeless network. sam: i was thinking something like that too. like it starts with maybe two or three he has doing bit of spywork for him katie: he means to just be a temporary waystation until something permenant comes along but then every person that tries to adopt them he deduce something that makes him go "nope!" sam: but maybe they don't take his money and they're like "we'd rather have a bed than be paid" so sherlock's like "alright, keep up though". but then they stay the night, and the next day, and the next day... katie: and it's not even major things it's that he falls for them. yes! maybe molly is raising her siblings. like she had young siblings that she was left to take care of after her dad died sam: ooh yeah, that could be it. oh my gosh are we thinking hard on this au katie: like they can work together and never know the other has kids~ we could totes collab on this fic! sam: oh my gosh that'd be so much fun! well, sherlock being sherlock, he'd probably notice something on molly and be like "are you a mother, molly?" katie: their kids go to the same school, they meet up at the Headmaster's office because they were fighting and it's like... "oh..." sam: "Oh no, i just take care of my siblings" "Oh. okk." katie: yeah! sam: and sherlock assumes that means like one or two -- ohhh no katie: lol Molly is Catholic of course sam: i'm just giggling about all the misunderstandings. like, when molly meets sherlock's kids, and none of them look the same, and he's like "they're all mine" and molly's thinking to herself "really, you must get around" katie: let's do. YES! and none of his kids call him dead. and she's like "my that's progressive" sam: and it's not just for a minute, imagine if it gets dragged out for days katie: i think there should be three each sam: and the kids are offhandedly mentioning the things that happened in their homes before they ended up on streets and molly's just completely bewildered katie: too many and then it's just madness. yeah! like maybe one of their mothers is an addict and still on the streets and she tries to come around for money or something sometimes sam: "my dad says eat your vegetables or you turn into a bird" "my dad didn't like vegetables" "my dad would *never( be able to pronounce vegetable!" can you imagine one of the kids being used as sherlock's pressure point katie: AHHH! sam: sit back and imagine the catatonic rage if one of them was taken. katie: yes that can tie in with the addict mom still on the street sam: can you imagine if one of molly's siblings was taken! katie: like they could be taken together. sam: what if they're all like "we don't like sherlock" but then he saves them and they're like "he's ok i guess" katie: they fight over whose fault it. YES! ok so here it is. the kid is a pressure point so the person in question basically uses the addict mom by getting her set up in a flat with an income and polishing her up to look like she's recovered and she wants her kid back and then they stage the kidnapping to make Sherlock look like an unsuitable guardian sam: OOOH, yes! ..... oh my god, what if moriarty katie: and the poor kid can be conflicted because he really loves his mom sam: because when moriarty was first trying to ruin sherlock, the most important thing to sherlock was the work. katie: but she's not interested in recovering sam: but now it's all about family for him katie: yes! so where will john fit in? or is this after he gets with mary? sam: i think he's probably with mary and baby watson katie: works! sam: but he and mary probably stop by to help with the kids/cases/etc. "uncle john" and "aunt mary" katie: yeah and he's their pediatrician as well or something sam: of course sherlock's like "they're not your aunt and uncle" "whatever you say, dad" "sherlock." "dad." "sherlock." dad." "sherlock." "dad." katie: yeah and toward the end he and Molly find out they're pregnant and when they announce it his kids are like "congratulations, Sherlock" and he's like "You should call me dad." sam: AHHHH that's so cute. ok i'm screencapping this, this is all too great katie: so it can be angst and smut and fluff and everything that is awesome in the universe sam: yessssss. all i really want is sherlock being sherlock-ish with a bunch of kids katie: definitely! sam: BUT there's one small one where he just can't help but be very caring and gentle around katie: no OOC and no crack. yes! like maybe he found that one and he or she doesn't speak. and he can use his skills of deduction to understand what he or she needs or wants sam: g osh i'm just squealing, that's so adorable katie: like it's trauma-related psychosematic mutism sam: of course, if anyone ever told sherlock he was adorable, he'd go into a sulk katie: right!? one big moment in the fic can be after molly and sherlock are together and they're all cohabiting like a real family the little one starts talking again sam: AWWW. ok, my brain gave me this katie: like something super innocuous like "pass the wheetabix. pelase" and everyone is like O.O sam: maybe sherlock's tucking in the little one. he usually doesn't tuck in the kids, but maybe something happens and they ask him to, so he does it. and the quiet one just sort of snuffles and asks about molly. "is molly gonna be our mummy?" katie: awww! sam: and the others just look at sherlock expectantly. im just katie: And they'll definitely need to rent out 221c. OMG all the Mrs. Hudson moments would be priceless. sam: lol, yes! they need plenty of room. katie: Like Mrs. Hudson always has treats for the little ones sam: awww katie: the older ones go in and raid her cupboards without asking and she doesn't mind. sam: by older ones you mean sherlock? katie: like they come straight home from school and instead of going up to 221b they go to Mrs. Hudson and she's always stuffing them with goodies. they sit around and watch jeremy kyle and one of the kids is looming yarn with her sam: what a small sherlolly moment where molly's feeling unsure about taking care of her siblings, because she misses her dad, and something's gone wrong? katie: yes! sam: and sherlock ends up comforting her. but it's sherlock, so he probably does it without realizing he's done it. katie: yeah he helps her realize she can do it. Sherlock's kids help Molly's siblings come to terms with the death of their parents sam: all the squabbles though, can you imagine katie: YEP! sam: sherlock's kids might think molly's siblings are snobbish and ungrateful because "at least you still have a home" katie: i imagine the older ones will get into a squabble and one of Molly's calsl one of Sherlock's street trash sam: ooof, what if one of hte kids say that in earshot of sherlock, who's hurt by it without realizing he's hurt katie: and Molly takes them aside and rails on them sam: because he thinks he's done alright by the kids, but the kids are assuming that sherlock's care is temporary, because they've never had anything permenant katie: aww yeah! yeah realize this will be about a bazillion chapters long! well we definitely need to write this. i know AO3 has a cowriting option I just don't know how it works sam: i'm sure we can figure it out. ao3's not that tricky katie: that's why i love it! of cousre we have to have an epilogue with molly and sherlock's "oops" baby being raised in this epic blended family sam: aww, yes! all these kids need names too katie: like looking at her life and all her awesome brothers and sisters and aunts and uncles and how her family is different from everyone else's that makes her extra lucky. yep! sherlock's kids can have really urban sounding names sam: i think sherlock's kids would probably make something up. like, little nicknames. katie: yeah! sam: oooh, and for the quiet one, maybe the other kids give them a nickname? katie: like they call her Kitty because she likes to curl up in your lap sam: awwww katie: in the official paperwork they settle on "katherine" OMG the older ones prank mycroft whenever he comes round. but kitty is always sweet to him and wants to sit in his lap and hug him and he's just like uhm... sam: "Sherlock what do I do with the small one?" "If you rub her back she hums." *"Sherlock."* "No, honest to god, she does." katie: like maybe he found her hiding in a skip and he had to lure her out with sweeties sam: awww, and what if kitty actually doesn't want to get close to him at first, but maybe he does one of those small monologue things about "it's okay to be scared" and stuff like that katie: yeah!! sam: maybe he finds her on a case! katie: yes! he thinks she might have been a witness. but by the time she's able to talk about it it's too late to do anything about it... legally. so they go vigilante justice on their ass sam: oooh, yes! katie: ooh ok so he lures her out with food! sam: Yes! oooh, maybe he just happens to have a sweet in his pocket because mrs. hudson was handing candies to the other kids? katie: at first he's just trying to get her out but she won't so he and John get sandwiches and just sit by the skip and lay an extra sandwich a little bit away from them and start eating and are like "mmm sure its good!" and she kinda sneakily gets closer and closer and they pretend not to notice that she sat down beside them and started eating the other sandwich

#vermofftiss #sherlolly

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