#you're the most important person in my life

[lukolathoughts]

Miss Nicola - supporting LGBTQI rights

Dearest gentle reader,

I have been itching to write a blog post now for a few weeks, but not really knowing where to begin. There have been frenzied weeks and days of activity, but then silence and the fandom meanders like a lost boat at sea. We are often rudderless without the reassuring presence of our ship captains - Luke and Nicola. This also tends to get the sub fandoms spouting nonsense claiming to have seen Nicola in Birmingham or some ridiculous crap. I didn't want to bother her by asking for a photo! No photo, no proof my friend.

I'll talk about me for a moment. I had a week from hell last week. There was something so upsetting for me to deal with, I couldn't go into work as I was crying that much. Try to explain this to your manager: that nasty comments on YouTube made you late for work. Luckily, she is an understanding person and I have told her about my YT channel. Saying some things out loud to real life people make me sound barking mad. But it is the price you pay for being public on YouTube. It also makes me an easy target. I am used to online trolls and people who hate me for saying that Jake is gay and believing in Lukola, but when the stab in the back comes from a supposed friend, it really is the ten of swords. My phone blew up that much, I opened my eyes that morning genuinely thinking Lukola had launched. My hope turned to ash, when I saw what was really happening. I share this with you all because, I have had to have a reckoning with myself the last week. My online life and my real life are not the same. My real life is way more important and I actually need my job, so messing it up because I've got people I don't really know online saying mean things about me, that are not true, shouldn't matter. But it still hurts. But I also realise, they are trying to stop me sharing and trying to ruin my credibility and reputation in order to send me off into my discord crying never to return again.

Well think again. No one tells a Sagittarius woman what they can and can't do. I am made of stronger stuff. Love will always conquer hate. No one puts Baby in the corner, and I will not stand for it. I have scaled back most of my online life now. It had helped me cope with the last year and losing my friend, but sometimes you have to go back into reality. I'm never leaving the ship though. You'll have to chuck me overboard and I'll still jump back on like Rose from Titanic. "I couldn't go, Jack! You jump, I jump, right?"

Anyway, enough about me. Let's talk about Nic. I love Nicola by the way and nothing I say here is a criticism of her or her choices. I see what you're doing though, miss Nicola. I said in my last blog that the shit would hit the fan when Jake has to start press for his new upcoming BBC3 drama What it feels like for a girl. I will admit I have not read the book. Regardless of who Jake is playing, it is reportedly an all queer cast, a queer director and at least one queer writer that I know of. Why would the director of an all queer cast hire a straight man in a homosexual role? If this show is as big as It's a Sin, that aired on Channel 4 a few years ago, then there will be press and a lot of it. There will be press from queer magazines also. Jake is currently in an awkward position, because some press believe he is in a romantic relationship with Nicola Coughlan, a woman who is also 14 years his senior. So, what will Nicola and Jake do?

Jake is holding onto his cash cow with both hands and Nicola needs Jake to continue to pose as her boyfriend to stop the media digging. But honey, they know. It was clear all the press at the SAG awards knew exactly what was going on and they were not afraid to say it. The 'happy ending' comment levelled at them directly by a reporter, had Nicola stunned and Luke smiling like all his Christmases' had come at once.

Nicola knows what is going on. She knows there is a deadline and she knows if she doesn't extricate herself from the narrative she is dating a gay man, she is screwed basically. What is she doing? She's getting out her, I love gays!! T-shirt, hats, scarfs, sunglasses, whatever. She is doing it. Look at me, I love queers! I love her for this and I already know she is an advocate for LGBTQI rights. She has a ton of gay friends. The fandom knows this of course, but do the general public?

At the Neutrogena event on 27th March 2025, there was a very tall drag queen doing some MCing. We know Nic loves drag queens and has been to many shows, so this is nothing new to us. I'm not being overly cynical that the drag queen might have been there for a reason, right? Neutrogena is a product that is targeted at women mostly for their skin products. What has that got to do with a drag queen? I just found it odd.

Next up we have Nicola's Pink Pony Club Post that she shared to both her Instagram stories and grid last Thursday 10th April. The song by Chappell Roan is synonymous with the gay community and one that Jake danced to at her concert last year in a pink cowboy hat. "You guys, remember when my old flat was a gay hotspot!" Nicola, posts 4 polaroid's of her looking fabulous in pink and lays them on a pink blanket. What made you feel so nostalgic, Nic? Or are you sending a message? Look at me, I have loved my gay besties for donkey's years. Prominent gay friends such as JVN and Jack Rooke commented all in agreement, that indeed, Nic's flat was the place to be. And, no I do not think Nicola is coming out herself as gay. Get real, she is supporting her friends and peers.

Then there was yesterday's selfie of Nicola wearing her black - 'I just wanted to say if you are trans and reading this, I love you and so do all my mates' T-shirt. There a few other details in that post that other bloggers such as @toriaaniin have covered beautifully, so I won't go into it here. My eyes sprung wide when I saw this post. I know she advocates for the charity Notaphase.org and I commend her for doing this, but two queer posts in a few days seems to be a lot for Nic, when lately she hasn't been posting at all.

There is also the male hairdresser Halley Brisker in her Opalex video on her Instagram, They make a big deal of letting us know he flirts with male makeup artists. Nicola is clearly good friends with Halley and it is an endearing watch. But to me this seems like a lot of overkill in the last few days for the general public to look at her Instagram and instantly know, yes Nicola does love the girls, the gays and Luke Newton. (FYI Halley Brisker is married to a woman and has children, but to the general public this conversation is implying Nic is comfortable with these conversations).

This, in my opinion, is setting the stage for the final act. I can see Nicola doing some sort of article or interview where she clears a certain narrative up. If you notice, Douglas has also been quite forceful again in implying certain things about Jake and Jake himself does not stop others from posting suggestive posts and videos of him. Nicola must remove herself from this mess in order to move forward with her own career and life. Hanging onto old connections are no longer serving her personally and professionally. Her engagement on Instagram is down by a lot, so I'm told and she is losing followers. She has done all she can career-wise for Jake now, he has to make his own way.

If this does not happen and we remain in this weird heteronormative bubble, I fear the press for What it feels like for a girl, will be a shit show. The truth will come out eventually and it will drag both Jake and Nicola down with it.

[when-november-ends]

Your Next Serious Relationship

Left: The Poppies | Middle: The Clouds | Right: The Jellyfish

Disclaimer:

This reading was done with tarot cards, but only one was picked to represent each picture. This is also a collective reading, which means it is less accurate than a personalized one. Take what resonates and leave what doesn't. <3

The Poppies

Tarot Card: Eight of Stones

Your next serious relationship will require you to work for it.

Human connection, like any other thing, requires skill. It's natural to not be good at it immediately, to fail and try again and to feel a little discouraged when things don't go your way.

However, this does not mean you should accept bad behavior from your partner or yourself. Work on your relationship until both of you are happy with it.

Figure out each other's likes and dislikes in everyday life.

Be brave and open up to them. Genuine connection can't happen if you shut them out.

Be prepared for awkward or uncomfortable moments to happen, but instead of pretending it didn't, work through them.

The Clouds

Tarot Card: Queen of Arrows

Trust your gut.

Sometimes it's better to let go of the idea of what could be, before the reality of the situation breaks your spirit.

Believe people when they show you who they are. Don't make excuses for bad behavior.

Communicate clearly about your needs and wishes, but don't try to fix someone who doesn't want to change.

Your happiness and well-being is the most important thing you have. Take care of it.

The Jellyfish

Tarot Card: Ten of Arrows

Don't be afraid to ask for advice from people who have more experience with relationships than you.

Sometimes it's difficult to know if a certain thing is normal, or what to do in a difficult situation.

Ask.

Ask your parents, your friends, the internet.

And try some of the suggestions.

It's okay to not know everything, and it's good to let others teach you those things.

You're going to be okay.

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[riwa-s-tarot]

What is blocking you right now?──── ⋆⋅☆⋅⋆ ────

Choose the picture that resonates with you the most - not the prettiest, but the one that speaks to you!

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★⊰ Pile 1

[King of pentacles ~ 3 of swords ~ 7 of pentacles]

You are worried about your material possessions, feeling you don't have enough or that you lost something important; you feel like you made many sacrifices. The best thing you can do right now is to pause and appreciate the positive things still present in your life. Don't act on impulse, instead focus on making long-term investments (and not just monetary ones).

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★⊰ Pile 2

[2 of pentacles ~ 6 of swords ~ The Hanged Man]

You're in a precarious situation, it's difficult to maintain balance across various aspects of your life. Fear of change holds you back, fear of starting new ventures, fear of potential obstacles along your path. You need to do some introspection, to take some time for yourself to reflect within and shift your perspective. You may have to sacrifice something in order to move forward.

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★⊰ Pile 3

[Knight of wands ~ The Tower ~ The World]

Your impulsive behaviors and recklessness have led you to rash decisions that resulted in significant upheavals in your life, unexpected and frightening changes. This is a period of crisis, and to get out of it you need to organize your life: assess your experiences, reflect on them, ask yourself what your goals are and what you can do to achieve them.

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★⊰ Pile 4

[King of swords ~ The Hermit ~ 8 of wands]

In this period you are closed in yourself; it's a period in which you may feel disconnected from your emotions, and be/feel cold and detached. This has resulted in loneliness, distancing from loved ones and isolation. Get out of the house, take a walk or do anything that can help you escape this state of inertia. You need to shake things up and throw yourself into action without overthinking it.

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⋆ ⋆ ⋆ Thank you! ⋆ ⋆ ⋆

for choosing my pick-a-pile!

Remember that this is a collective reading and it doesn't replace the value of a full personal reading.

[tyrantisterror]

So...

...your favorite book about mystery solving teens in a wizard school turns out to have been written by a bigot who actively funneled her ludicrous wealth into the political campaign of several like-minded bigots in order to make the United Kingdom even more hostile towards trans people than it already was. Worse, this is only the latest and most egregious bullet point in a long pattern of bigoted behavior, and one that only serves to underline what people have been telling you for years: you cannot support the Harry Potter franchise without also supporting repugnant bigotry.

And that sucks! I get it, dude, I really do, it sucks hardcore, because that series was part of your childhood, man! I, too, am a millennial, a child of the 90's. I understand what the heights of Harry Potter mania were like. I went to midnight book release parties at Barnes and Noble, I saw the movies on opening day. I had the incomparable experience of having that book series grow up with me - beginning as fairly childish stories fit for an eleven year old, and slowly getting more mature and complex with each entry. I understand how important the fantasy of a place like Hogwarts is - of going somewhere that values your weirdness, your oddity, your desire to see the world differently. A place where being an oddball and a weirdo with your head in the clouds is the norm, where you're surrounded by other people who want to see magic in the world. I understand why you don't want to give that up.

The bad news is that you have to. I'm sorry, there's no excuses anymore, and honestly, there haven't really been any for a long time. The best you can do is argue ignorance, and if your best defense is "Well I'm a dummy who never reads the news ever," well, that's not a great place to be in your life, is it?

The good news, my friends, is that giving up Harry Potter does not mean you have to give up having a multi-book series about mystery-solving teens attending a school for wizards in a world filled with magical beasts and dark secrets. Take my hand, friends. It's time we left the grade school bullshit of Hogwarts and went off to college together. Follow me to the Academy of Applied Arcana and Magic...

...and let me tell you about Wizard School Mysteries.

A BEGINNER'S GUIDE TO WIZARD SCHOOL MYSTERIES: THE NICOTINE PATCH FOR YOUR HARRY POTTER ADDICTION

Wizard School Mysteries is a series of novels about eight students attending a prestigious wizard college called the Academy of Applied Arcana and Magic, or the AAAM for short. These eighteen year old sleuths end up encountering all sorts of mysterious and deadly plots while trying to complete their studies, from unexplained disappearances to lethally-sabotaged sporting events, and even to outright unkillable monsters stalking campus and preying upon its students. By pooling their unique talents and perspectives, our eight meddlesome youths uncover the perpetrators of these plots and save the day, all while slowly unraveling the threads of a far greater scheme lurking behind the scenes.

Our protagonist is James Chaucer, a bespectacled wizard boy with shaggy black hair who escapes from an abusive home to begin studying magic at the AAAM. A chance encounter with a fortune teller on the road sucks him into the center of a prophecy that James is slowly realizing may be a much bigger deal than he initially believed. While generally even-tempered and unflappable, James has a tendency to overwork himself severely when trying to right wrongs, and is unyielding in his pursuit of justice and the truth.

Or, as one fan of this series said, "He's like if Harry Potter actually believed in something!"

James Chaucer is also a trans man, and his identity as a trans person is important to the plot - in fact, the first book's resolution would not be possible if James Chaucer was cis. This isn't a "oh there's totally representation in my wizard book series, you just have to read a tweet to know it's there!" thing, it's a part of the explicit text.

James's first friend is a goofy and kind-hearted wizard named Ivan Muromets. Coming from a poor home, Ivan is ignorant of a lot of things and often quick to call himself stupid, but his innocence also allows him to think up solutions and ideas that wouldn't occur to other people. He's a steadfast friend of James, and willing to give everyone the benefit of the doubt no matter how often he gets burned for it.

Ivan is gay, and again, this is explicit in the text. He develops a crush on another boy in the first book, and that crush turns into a relationship in the second - the first canon romantic relationship in the series, in fact. Again, not something that was hastily tweeted out, but explicit in the text itself.

He also doesn't constantly neg the source of his affection out of envy, like some characters who fill his role in other stories do constantly.

The second friend James makes on his way to the AAAM is Gretchen Pappenheimer, a well-read and highly intelligent wizard girl with curly brown hair whose vast supply of booksmarts is juxtaposed next to her relative lack of social skills. Though she can be acerbic and blunt, Gretchen proves to be every bit as loyal and caring a friend as Ivan, and her vast knowledge of obscure magic lore make her an invaluable ally to James on his journey.

Gretchen is a trans woman, which is also established early in the series itself - when James explains his situation, Gretchen comments that she has the same issue but in reverse, and her dysphoria plays a key role in the conflict of the third book. She is also black, and again, this is part of the text, not something that I arbitrarily decided to take credit for when a stage production of a semi-canonical sequel to this series cast a black woman as her in it, like certain other authors I could mention did.

Now, you may be looking at these three and thinking, "Hold on, is this JUST a Harry Potter rip off then?" If so, congrats, you fell for my bait! I purposely made the first three of our eight kids superficially resemble the famous wizard kid trio from Harry Potter to jab at the expectation that Wizard School Mysteries is just a knockoff/parody of it. But by the time you get to chapter three, you'll realize that the story goes wildly off those rails and into some very different territory indeed.

After all, I said there were eight of these meddlesome youths, not three...

The fourth member of this merry band is Margot d'Francane, a girl whose magic powers come on so strong that her body has grown far larger than is normal to accommodate it, and even then, the sheer amount of destructive magic power she constantly channels has made her left hand wither as a grisly side effect. The group's muscle, Margot is sweet, polite, and more than capable of putting even the gnarliest magic monster six feet under.

Our fifth youth is Rodrigo Cervantes, the seventh son of a nobleman and James's room-mate at the AAAM. Being the only member of the team who comes from money, Rodrigo understands fashion, wealth, and the customs of noblity that otherwise ellude his peers, which proves crucial when their rogues gallery includes at least one royal villain. Add to this his ability to scope out threats to the teams' morale and network with allies from all sorts of circles, and you have a valuable member of the Meddlesome Youths.

Rodrigo is of Arabic descent - this is, unfortunately, not stated explicitly in the text, mainly because Wizard School Mysteries takes place in a fantasy world that doesn't have our modern day countries but rather rough equivalents of them, so there's not really an elegant in-universe way to say it explicitly, but the intent is that Rodrigo is Arabic, and I have tried to establish that in ways that make sense for the setting.

The sixth student to join the team is Serena Takeuchi, a wizard whose boundless and bubbly enthusiasm is matched only by her sheer tenacity on the battlefield. With unsurpassed skill in utilizing crystals in her magic and a keen eye for figuring out the motives behind people's actions, Serena helps the team both in battles of spellcraft and of the mind.

While not explicitly stated in the text for the same reasons as Rodrigo, Serena is of Japanese descent.

Our seventh Meddlesome Youth, Charlotte Bolshe, isn't a human wizard at all, but rather an Ettercap, i.e. a kind of spider-fairy. Because if you have a fantasy series about a world of magic people that canonically has several species of non-human people who are magical, it'd be kind of weird if not a single one of them was a main character, wouldn't it? Charlotte is a sweet, compassionate soul whose effortless kindness disguises a truly cunning mind. She also has something of a Little Mermaid complex, being fascinated with humanity and envious of their ability to live in places and ways that she, as of now, cannot.

Hey. Hey, you. Yes, you, the goth girl who had a crush on Draco Malfoy when you were fifteen, and spent years arguing that he was actually misunderstood and deserved a redemption arc, only to ultimately be disappointed when J.K. Rowling gave him none of the dimensions you projected onto him and ended his character arc with the redemption equivalent of a wet fart. Do you still crave to see a blonde rival to a bespectacled wizard boy protagonist who has hidden depths and slowly but surely grows into a good person?

Well, meet Polybeus Antony. You will be annoyed by him when you first meet him. Hell, you might even hate him. But by the end of book 2, you will love him. He might even be your favorite.

And yes, he has ship tease with the other boys. THEY ALL HAVE SHIP TEASE! I TEASE ALL THE SHIPS, AND I DO IT FOR YOU, GOTH GIRLS WHO WERE INFATUATED WITH DRACO MALFOY!

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ahem.

Of course, the core group of kids is not the sole appeal of Harry Potter, because it also has a large supporting cast of characters who are just as beloved, and Wizard School Mysteries is no different in that regard! We have wacky teachers...

...whimsical students...

...and diabolical villains...

Oh, and magical creatures, of course. Fantastic beasts, the lot of 'em.

While there are continuous plot threads and changes to the status quo that make reading the series in order necessary, each book has its own mystery that is more or less independent - i.e. you will not find, say, a redundant recurring plotline of "the Big Bad has a new evil scheme to get back his body and/or take over the world" each book, but rather new villains with their own schemes that are independent of those that came before, and new curveballs they throw at the protagonists AND the audience as a result.

For example...

Wizard School Mysteries Book 1: The Meddlesome Youths sees our heroes come together for the first time as they unwrap a scheme by wicked fairies to spirit young wizards away into Fairyland.

Wizard School Mysteries Book 2: Tournament of Death sees our heroes trying to identify the culprit behind a series of violent and, eventually, LETHAL sabotages of the participants in the school's annual spell-casting tournament.

Wizard School Mysteries Book 3: Wicked Witchcraft pits our heroes against a seemingly unkillable undead monster, while at the same time one of their own is trapped in a literal internship from Hell.

And that's just the three novels currently published! A grant total of eight Wizard School Mysteries books are planned, and as a treat, I'm going to post the in-progress covers of the remaining five entries at the end of this - though be warned, there might be slight spoilers in them.

Before that, though, there's one last question to answer: where can you buy this wonderful series?

Well, as of now, you have two options. You can find the entire series on Amazon.com, and likely will be able to do so for the forseeable future. As much as I hate to be tied to Jeff Bezos's business, at the moment it's the only site that allows me to get this book to all the members of my audience who want it for an affordable price. Until there is a better option, it's gotta stay on Amazon.

...but if you don't mind paying for shipping, I do have the ability to buy these books at production cost, i.e. without giving Amazon a cent of profit. Simply send me a DM and I'll work on getting you copies that don't put money in Bezos's coffers, then send you a bill for the price of the book + whatever shipping ends up being once I've sent them to you in the mail. I'll even autograph them for free!

Ok, time for those covers. You read? Start scrolling!

[luxiomahariel]

I hope it's okay for me to send this ask-

I just kinda generally wanted to talk about how I ended up kinda coming to terms with exclusionists existing, and yet managing to just pay them no mind. The first time I met an exclusionist was, surprisingly enough, in real life. This one was all about denying the need for the pansexual label, as well as a very strong hatred for ace people. I really don't wanna get in detail, but it was my first time meeting someone who had so much vitriol for other people within the community. It was a pretty important part of his personality, truthfully.

Then, over time, it kinda became obvious to me that he was kinda doing it as an attempt to... Redirect the attention elsewhere? He had done a lot of harm to other people, in ways that he couldn't really argue well about (not wanna get into detail, but there was some grooming involved). Part of how he tried to cover that up was just to find another topic to be loud about, rallying people together in a specific type of hatred and becoming a big name within the community through his stupid little war against ace and pan people. When you tried to kinda bring up that he had done some really bad stuff that he wasn't even sorry about, he'd just claim you were trying to undermine his point.

Thankfully, over time, people did end up realizing he was pretty abusive, and neither ace nor pan exclusionism stuck around much within the community, and he eventually lost his power and voice. And it kinda gave me the perspective that, well. Of course not all exclusionists (of any kind- let it be against ace folk, transmasc folk, etc) are necessarily doing it as a redirection thing, but a lot of them are. You can quite literally prove some of the current transmasc hating people on this site having called for the death of minorities or having sent death threats to other folk, but if you do bring it up, they will often just try to redirect any accusation with "you are doing this because you [hate this group]" or "you are doing this because you're against [this one specific ideology]"

All in all, people who spend most of their time obsessively hating some other people who don't pose any major danger to them tend to just not be worth the time. Seeing exclusionist movements come and go, seeing the people leading them lose their relevancy once people come up to terms with the exclusionism being stupid, it's all reassuring. This will also pass. I hope that the few loud voices that wanna open massive divides between trans folk will, sooner than later, fall into the same irrelevancy than those that came before them have fallen into.

this is reassuring, thank you for this ask anon

[elhanoka]

why is heesu like that？

I love heesu in class 2 and I love heesu as a character. I know some might find him annoying especially because he doesn't notice seongwon's feelings but heesu's pov is so very understandable to me. I too have a special connection with the moon and watched a lot of TV shows as a teenager escaping from the real world and this experience gave me the illusion of knowledge — it felt like I understood different kinds of people, their dynamics and relationships with each other. so from time to time I treated the very real people around me — my friends, classmates and family — like characters on my screen. it was unintentional and i wasn't aware of it, I was simply trying to understand their personal and especially romantic relationships so that I could understand myself without really putting myself out there.

my relation to heesu goes to the point that I too had a best friend who was the most beautiful girl I've ever known and she dated guys, not as frequently and absent-mindedly like chanyoung but still it was evident that I will never have the same treatment and will remain her shadow. it's one thing to have a low self esteem and live your life trying your best and another to constantly have someone you love by your side who seems to get all the validation you desire so easily and not think too much of it.

and we know that chanyoung is not perfect — he's struggling with perfectionism and his father's expectations, he even dated all those girls from a good place — essentially he just didn't want to upset them. and heesu knows all of that but from his pov chanyoung will always be better than him, more deserving than him and always enough.

I don't think the show has so far explicitly stated that heesu has a low self-esteem but it's clear as day to me — because I was him. and simply being acknowledged by your "perfect" BFF, being their support system, their advisor, their therapist, their whatever feels so very nice — because it's the only validation that you're getting, the only attention you care for. and these feeling double and triple if you are queer AND have a crush on said BFF. you're so hyper focused on one person it really takes a life-shattering event to even notice anyone but them around you — like them starting to like someone FOR REAL for real. because in this case your importance to this person slowly starts to fade and you're forced to consider yourself as a separate person — as a lonely and empty person you perceive yourself to be. and it's sad and strange and scary. being lonely and scared as a teenager is normal but queerness adds another layer to these feelings, amplifying the degree of being different. the fact that heesu could only start feeling like himself when seongwon told him about his lesbian moms is so real because not being judged means so much — because even if seongwon might notice his imperfections, he will not hate him for being himself.

[hello-spidey14]

I'm about to give a potential hot take that people may not agree with me on but I need to open my heart with this-

S!Lloyd would not be jealous of M!Lloyd

And look It's perfectly fine to interpret it that way but I personally have a hard time believing it and it's an idea I've seen brought up in the small amount of show meets movie fics that focus on both of the lloyds.

The main reason people believe this is because M!Lloyd had a parent who loved and supported him day 1 and he got to do normal kid things (going to school and stuff) but while he had a semi normal life S!Lloyd had to grow up quick and become a ninja while not having a consistently loving parent.

Initially i thought he would be beacuse having a real childhood or a completely supportive parent are things he would have really liked to have but i think the statement of "lloyd would wish to have a childhood but that doesnt mean hes jealous of movie lloyds childhood" can be worth noting.

If we take the current versions of each character- DR Lloyd and then M!lloyd (cause that's the only version of him) then i domt think DR lloyd would be jealous A younger lloyd like seadon 5 or something? Sure, i can see it, but sensei lloyd? I can't, really. Because sensei lloyd is an adult and while it will always hurt to know you lost your childhood its something you have the ability to heal from or at the least make a little less bad.

Lloyd got some semblance of a childhood with the ninja and while it hurts to not have a mom that was able to raise him he doesnt resent her for it and he did get a family who could take care of him and see him grow with the ninja. It was just a bumpy road before he got there.

So i think that an older lloyd wouldn't feel anything other than sympathy and mabye protective instinct if he met M!lloyd. If he even started to feel a little jelous it would quickly fade away the second he learns about the bullying and the fact that the ninja (the most important people in his life) aren't the best to lloyd in his universe. (I love movie ninja but I think we can agree S!ninja wouldn't have emotionally abandoned lloyd in that manner if it happened in the series and wouldn't have told lloyd that they hated him)

Lloyd in Dr seems to be protective over kids cause he says something like - "but if you're locking up kids and apparently dragons, then we have some issues to work out." Which implies 2 things to me 1.) He's grown to be an adult, and now he's firmly in that spot with his primary feeling being protective instinct when he sees kids being hurt in any way. 2.) Because of this hes grown out of his childhood instincts and upset and has moved to a new chapter in his life where hes comfortable in his role as an adult that tries to make kids not go through what he had to go through instead of being jealous of their childhoods.

Since M!Lloyd firmly slots into the role of a child thats being hurt (by the city) i think sensei lloyd would hear that M!lloyd has koko and be more relieved than anything.

When i really think about it lloyd did get all the things M!lloyd got in terms of having a koko figure it just didnt come from one person but mutiple.

Movie lloyd

Koko- loving, a good parental figure, looking out for lloyd when nobody else will, a family relationship with him

Show lloyd

●The ninja- Loving

●Sensei garm, (+wu and misako imo. Ninja also kinda raised him too)- a good Parental figure

●The ninja- Looking out for lloyd when nobody else will

●Everyone on the bounty (ninja, wu ect)- a family relationship with him

So in my eyes, the only thing show lloyd didn't have that movie lloyd has is a normal sense of life with high school and stuff like that he didn't get. But if that's the only thing he didn't get this movie lloyd has and hes jealous of him, then imo that would have to mean DR lloyd would be jealous of sora as well.

Cause sora lived in a city that hated her for being herself but got a semi normal life havimg school freinds and a school expirence just like lloyd was hated by his city for something he couldnt control but also had a semi normal life with school and school freinds.

Ofc this isnt a 1 to 1 comparison but you sorta get what im saying with this.

I can't picture lloyd getting jealous with sora, and i can't picture him getting jealous with movie lloyd. Someone rebloged a post about the topic and said something to the degree of "lloyd wouldn't be jealous of him cause that's not the type of man he is" and i agree.

[moonyskarma]

answer as your dr self ᝰ.ᐟ marauders dr version

— original questions by @zaddizu

what is your name? ➸ apollo castor calloway // charlie potter

favourite food? ➸ im definitely going to have to go with bangers and mash. come on. i'm a mashed potato fiend. also chocolate frogs? like im sorry but ughhh my favourite sweet treat ever

you can only choose one movie to watch for the rest of your life, what would you choose? ➸ i don't... have one. to be fair, i'm a pureblood wizard from a pureblood family. um. not a movie person??

what is your birthday? ➸ april 30th, 1960

what is a song you will always have a place for in your heart? ➸ rebel rebel (david bowie), beautiful boy (john lennon), goodbye yellow brick road (elton john) . . . i like music

favourite colour, go! ➸ MAROON. i'm not just saying that cuz i'm a gryffindor, that's genuinely my favorite color in every single dr—that and like, navy blue and forest green

name the most important thing to you. ➸ my friends who became my family. james, remus, sirius, regulus, barty, evan, marlene, lily, mary. my sister, cara.

least favourite memory? ➸ the prank. need i say more?

someone you dislike? ➸ severus fucking snape. get your nose out of your ass and realize that LILY DOES NOT LIKE YOU. NOBODY ELSE DOES EITHER.

in a crowded room, who would you look for first? ➸ probably sirius? he's always the easiest to find, always the center of attention.

best music genre? ➸ ROCK. always always always.

a topic you defend with your life? ➸ rights. muggle rights, werewolf rights, basic human rights. i may come from a stereotypical asshole pureblood family but i'm not like that

a character you relate to? ➸ peter pan. and wendy. and tink. i'm all of them all at once. it's complicated.

picture your room, is it organised or messy? ➸ considering i share a room with three other boys... messy. my section of the room is usually... relatively organized? as much as it can be for a teenage boy-

gun to your head... are you funny? ➸ apparently?

fruit platter or candy platter? ➸ hm. i want to say fruit platter but... it depends on the fruit.

sugar, sour or spice? ➸ sugar!

whats your aesthetic? ➸ old money rich boy doing everything he can to be the opposite of that. leather jackets. smudged black eyeliner. scuffed maroon converse. guitar picks in various pockets. worn leather notebook full of prophecies.

who in your dr would you not be surprised if they came out as a shifter? ➸ fucking pandora rosier. there is no way she's not a shifter.

whats your hogwarts house? ➸ gryffindor! though, many like to say i should've been in slytherin.

ambivert, introvert, or extravert? ➸ introvert, definitely. though.. maybe an ambivert, actually?

best school subject? ➸ charms, probably. or astronomy. or defense against the dark arts?

where can someone find you when you're sad? ➸ if i'm genuinely in a bad mental state, you won't find me. but other than that—the astronomy tower, down by the black lake, or somehow i've flown up to the roof and tucked myself into a little nook.

who are you? ➸ charlie potter. gryffindor. white wolf animagus. a marauder. a future auror. heir to the calloway house, i suppose.

someones music you dont enjoy? ➸ CELESTINA WARBECK. im sorry but no. i am not a fan.

have you had a near death experience? ➸ probably. wizarding wars are not fun guys.

who was your first love? do you regret it? ➸ sigh. i'm going to have to say sirius orion black. he is just.. marvelous. i'm obsessed. do i regret it? did i ever get over it? who knows.

best and worst teacher? why? ➸ i'm actually really fond of professor flitwick, he's really sweet. worst? professor binns is boring as FUCK.

blood status? ➸ pureblood, apparently. but i wouldn't be surprised if there was some sort of halfblood influence in there somewhere. fuck the sacred twenty-eight.

in time of need, would you ever use a unforgivable curse? ➸ it depends. against some random wizard nazi? of course. but if it was someone i went to school with? student-turned-death eater? i don't know if i'd be able to, in the end.

[moonsdrs]

ᯓ★ ANSWER AS YOUR DRSELF (challengers dr ver.) — original questions by zaddizu

what is your name? — london rochelle dunn

favorite food? — healthy? chicken wraps or salads. unhealthy? cheese burgers and fries. snack? powdered mini donuts

can you only choose one movie to watch for the rest of your life, what would you choose? — i'm not really a person who likes watching movies. a tv show i'd watch over and over again though would be criminal minds.

what is your birthday? — november 24, 1987

what is a song you will always have a place for in your heart? —for the girl who has everything by nsync

favorite color, go! — blue. but not light blue. i like a good dark blue. like navy.

name the most important thing to you. — my racquets. they are my lifeline and something i put a lot of dedication and time into crafting.

favorite memory? — during the time of working on my brand with wilson. i loved seeing vintages racquets as well as being able to go into their heritage capsules, picking out which designs speak to me to be able to reimagine for my own.

least favorite memory? — stanford. we don't talk about it.

someone you dislike? — tashi. more like i dislike her because i can't handle the buried feelings i still harbor for her even after she'd broke my heart when i became pro.

in a crowded room, who would you look for first? — a familiar friend. usually floating towards my own team like my coach(es) or old friends from the court.

best music genre? — pop. hands down.

a topic you defend with your life. — the validity of women's sports and importance of women in various fields.

a character you relate to? — eeyore

picture your room, is it organised or messy? — always has to be organised. mainly just because i am gone from home often, i'd hate to walk into a messy home, overstimulated from feeling sweaty and hot from practice or tired from coming back out of state/country.

gun to your head... are you funny? — well, with a gun to my head i don't think i'd be very humorous.

fruit platter or candy platter? — my heart says candy platter. my brain says fruit.

sugar, sour or spice? — sugar.

what's your aesthetic? — very much rich girl. put together, hair always done, nails always shiny and clipped.

who in your dr would you not be surprised if they came out as a shifter? — i'm unsure. tashi? no tea no shade but the acl tear is giving angst script in.

what's your hogwarts house? �� ravenclaw.

ambivert, introvert or extrovert? — introvert but in the spotlight i slowly become an ambivert.

best school subject? — english

where can soneone find you when you're sad? — in my house, on the couch and watching a tennis match rerun of mine or calling home to mom

who are you? — london dunn. a tennis professional that has more talent than just with a racquet in her hand.

someone's music you don't enjoy? — oof..hard one..backstreet boys. not even because the music is bad (it's not) i just hold a grudge against them as a die hard nsync fan.

have you had a near death experience? — no, let's keep the good vibes going.

who was your first love? do you regret it? — my first love was..is tashi. i don't regret it. she helped me find who i am today and played a huge hand indirectly to motivate me to keep going. i just regret not being able to keep her around and help her more after her injury.

[john-does-middle-finger]

Part 52 Live Finger Reaction

except i have patreon so i've listened to most of this already (y'all are NOT ready for the interlude) and also i forgot to start typing until several minutes in lol

SPOILERS FOR PART 52 BELOW

i'm so proud of arthur for catching on so quickly. side note---i love the moments in malevolent when arthur knows more about what's going on than john does despite john having their sight. just a neat flip when you look back on the earlier seasons

"why am i here??" me every day fr john

need me a woman who'll put maggots in me

that's right john open your third eye

thank you harlan for our monthly arthur whimpering podcast

OUGH I FORGOT HOW BEAUTIFUL THIS MOMENT WAS. THEM BOTH SEEING THE STARS. I BETTER SEE SO MUCH FUCKING FANART OF THIS.

okay john maybe making trains is hard...

okay hamilton

which one of you was the damn fool that shot him then mr. "i thought you were my purpose"

arthur in hell for homosexuality (too many hoes in New York)

oh there he goes falling again. all men are the same.

it was difficult to put the nightmare together

BUT IM ONLY HUMAN AFTER ALL!!!

oh arthur...you weren't there for that poll buddy...

i love how gentle john is with arthur sometimes

fr? ong? just like that? we're awake?

arthur...snookums...dont...

it's not a rock. it's a stone!

harlan thank you for your footstep sound effects and also more of arthur laughing

oh lilith...

quick headcanon that arthur can generally feel where john is and every now and then he'll lean against him for a moment of rest. anyway. pick up that toenail or whatever

go on arthur. that's a fragment of a god! you can change her! make her a new person! give her a new name! name it spike or some shit.

maybe it was on purpose?? considering...idk. likely not though unless lilith really is that good at acting

go on arthur collect your freaky fingers.

nuh uh john that was a great idea and an excellent vote

sopping wet cat antoine

damn arthur you really do doomed yaoi with every guy you meet. except the yaoi is minimal and the doom is maximal.

arthur...i love you for caring so much

"was i kind?" HARLAN WHEN I GET YOU.

"a friend's love can carry you through the worst of life's trials and tribulations" I KNOW WHO YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT, ARTHUR LESTER. side note can we get this man a middle name i want to use his full legal name for science purposes and also to yell at him

JOHN we just had an IMPORTANT and LOVING character death DO NOT EVEN BRING THIS UP.

SEE JOHN. EARNED IT. IF ONLY...well...y'know...it lasted...no rest for the wicked or whatnot.

THIS REVEAL GOT ME SO FUCKING BAD BECAUSE WHAT DO YOU MEAN "maybe the blackstone was the friends we made along the way" WAS RIGHT.

YORICK. OH, YORICK...yorick i'm so fucking sorry

hello arthur, apologies for the deception. kayne here, vsauce stone! idk man

watching the wager (song) get released after the full episode dropped on patreon was so fucking wild

^watching people say "i hope we see kayne again soon!" after knowing the ending of this episode. my pookies...my blorbos...my yoricks...

"oh lose the get up honey" bro fr said "you're not going out in that."

footstep sounds x 2

yorick you never did anything wrong and i forgive you for everything except there isn't even anything to forgive! YORICK MY MOST DEARLY BELOVED

fruit of my loins. buddy you are the fruit

i believe you yorick

LEAVE THAT LITTLE GUY ALONE

YORICK. MY SHAYLA. MY SHAYLA. IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO RECOVER FROM THAT THE FIRST TIME. AND NOW AGAIN...oh my god...

listening to this on 2.5x speed is so funny. specifically because of kayne

me when im in a disguising my desperation competition and my opponent is kayne (im losing so bad)

arthur dont you ever fucking say that shit again.

KAYNE'S LAUGH IN 2.5x.

i was losing it at the description of the blackstone so fucking much

NOEL!!! NOEL! NOEL! NOEL! NOEL! NOEL! NOEL! NOEL! NOEL! NOEL! NOEL! NOEL! NOEL! NOEL MY FUCKING GOAT RAHHHHH

this poll. this fucking poll. had me stressing so fucking hard.

oh the fanfics are going to go SO fucking hard with this new arthur lore.

kayne i love your painfully obvious ploy at emotional manipulation because you have no actual power

i am so happy the poll ended up with lilith. choosing hope and all that yknow, as much as i love kayne

benevolent canon

arthur. arthur no. arthur you know these promises won't be enough. arthur please. ARTHUR.

was? am? john, my most dearly beloved

kayne please don't make life with soaking wet bloody dogs

MY SHAYLA

but kayne what is joy if you know nothing else? ugh

god i remember tweaking out so fucking hard during this ending. my shaylas. my pookies. everything.

"i forgive you" arthur i love you. john i love you. kayne i love you but i will never forgive you. still love your zest for...not really life but yknow.

MY SHAYLA x3

i was so worried john was going to make another deal here and i'm so glad he didn't.

anyways

the interlude is so fun harlan i'm begging you to release it soon (preferably tomorrow) (as a post finals treat) (for me specifically) (please) (please) (i need to yap about it)

[byfulcrums]

Most straight relationships in media: “Even though there's no development and no chemistry and we don't look like we love each other that much we'll date because we're straight and that's what we're supposed to do. Right??”

Most queer relationships in media: “If saving you is a sin, I'll gladly become a sinner.” — “Dying together also included a ‘together’.” — “You changed my destiny from the moment we touched.” — “I would know him in death, at the end of the world.” — “The hero and the warrior were like the sun and the moon...”

[stormyoceans]

whatever happens in episode 8 they can pry my ‘jun has never been the first in anything, never the main character, never the chosen one, but he was thame’s first friend in the group and that means the world to him. he’s so afraid of losing his best friend, of losing his only main spot, that he becomes jealous of anyone getting too close to thame and tries to insert himself in thame’s other relationships, not out of any romantic feelings for him, but for fear of being left out and ending up alone again. by doing so, however, jun ended up developing actual feelings for po. at the end of the day tho, he knows he doesn’t have a chance and cares about thame too much to let this get between them, so he decides to take a step back’ theory out of my cold dead hands

[moeblob]

Huevember 11

Karen and Rick but in the DND AU. (I just look at this and think 'Barbie learned eldritch blast' but ya know. Whatever.)

[dchuntress]

imo hel bertinelli would 100% continue to call her loved ones cringe even after they become close like yes. she could be your friend or even your life partner but once she finds your tattoo cringe she will forever call it cringe. she WILL admire you for what she does like, just that love doesn't blind her or prevent her from being blunt with the subtlety of a sledgehammer

[queerplatonicdiaries]

squish ramble

this probably isn't gonna make much sense bc I'm kinda sleepy but I just. I love them so fucking much. we just called for like an hour an a half and for those moments everything else disappeared. all the stress, all the worries, it all seems so much lighter just because I know I have them in my life and we can talk about anything. that feeling of complete ease and comfort when we're together, even if it's over a patchy phone signal, there's nothing else in the world that could replace it. the feeling of being seen and heard and understood entirely, the knowledge that we have each other and we're going to be okay. I know we're still young, but I hope we have this for the rest of our lives. I think as long as I have them, everything else will be alright. I love them and I love loving them, it's the best feeling in the world <3

[pikachu-deluxe]

when will i start to feel real