#you'll get thousands of autistic people

[gummywurm-gaming]

*AGEESSIVELY SHAKES DC*

YOU KNOW WHAT YOU NEED TO DO

Paradigm shift incoming

[snekjoy]

I genuinely can't believe that the rannett windblume thing happened, like???

They get trapped in a cage together, which is just. Such a romcom trope and then while they're there Bennett gives Razor all his food because he's worried for him ANS THEN THEY WRITE A LOVE POEM TOGETHER

Like it's not even me going "Oh this is a love poem bc I say so" THE POINT IS THEY WERE WRITING LOVE POEMS, TRAVELLER SAID IT WAS FULL OF ROMANCE, AND

THE POEM IS ABOUT RAZOR

"You and the Mare Jivari

So close and yet so far

One at the edge of the world

The other in the center of my heart

Wolfhook and dandelion

My Windblume offering to you."

That's so fucking romantic and Bennett needed another windblume to use than dandelion so what does he do? Think of another flower himself, like his ascension mats or something? NO HE ASKS RAZOR AND PUTS RAZOR'S WINDBLUME INTO THE POEM!

People's choice of windblume is a personal thing!! Most Mondstadters have their own idea of what the windblume is so Bennett including Razor's choice (which is entirely unconventional in that it's not a flower and is only in Wolvendom) makes the poem so personalised to Razor!! He could even have said Windwheel asters or something bc those are his ascension flowers but NO! He made the poem about Razor's Windblume choice!! (And his ascension mats)

Let me ask you: if someone is giving someone else a windblume and they choose a Wolfhook, would you assume that the person receiving or giving the Wolfhook is the one character we know to live in Wolvendom, aka the only place Wolfhooks grow? Yeah you would assume that wouldn't you, so why is Bennett writing about giving someone a Wolfhook as windblume in a romantic context if it's not about Razor???

And then the most damning piece of evidence: RAZOR SAID THE POEM MADE HIM FEEL WARM AND TINGLY!! GAYASS

And don't think I didn't notice that the first few lines of the poem are about the contrast between the emotional and physical difference between the person the poem is about and Bennett. Razor lives in Wolvendom, putting him physically distant from Bennett, but they're "friends" anyway!! They hang out!! They write love poems about each other!! Bennett speaks to Razor in a way softer voice than anyone else!! They're close!!

Also, while Bennett was writing this poem he was "so close and yet so far" from Razor because they were IN THE SAME CAGE BUT DIFFERENT COMPARTMENTS. That makes them close, but unable to actually be next to each other!!

Also, after this, Venti says the poem is good and invites Bennett back to go to a bar and celebrate. Bennett declines, not because he doesn't like drinking or because he has some vague other thing to do but because he wants to go explore with Razor specifically. They then disappear and appear next in the cutscene, where Bennett is teaching Razor all about adventuring and says "WE need to bring more food next time, or you'll go hungry!" HE MEANS THEY'RE GONNA CONTINUE TO HANG OUT AND THAT THE NEXT TIME WILL BE WITH RAZOR AND HE WANTS TO ACCOMMODATE FOR RAZOR'S QUIRKS LIKE HOW HE CAN EAT LOADS AND STILL BE HUNGRY!! HE'S MAKING CHANGES TO HIS OWN LIFE TO BETTER FIT RAZOR!!

And Razor also makes changes for Bennett!! He doesn't like loud stuff or people who talk too much (which makes me think he's autistic but we move that's a different post) and the reason he was at the Thousand Winds Temple in the first place was because Wolvendom was too loud! This establishes he struggles with loud noises, or the fact that the hunters in Wolvendom talk too much.

BENNETT TALKS A LOT. Just saying

Also, in the cutscene for that Windblume, they're headed into the city. We know the city is filled with people, especially during a festival, probably way more people than Wolvendom, but he still goes because Bennett is there. He's following Bennett into somewhere that makes him uncomfortable, which means he trusts him already!!

Also, in his voiceline about Bennett, he says he talks a lot. He acknowledges that Bennett talks a lot but he doesn't have an issue with it! He says "eat with him, never full" which could either mean Bennett keeps stopping to talk or that Razor doesn't want to stop hanging out, so he's never full because he doesn't want to be done with the meal. It could also mean that he's never "full" or sick of Bennett's talking which is just adorable.

Also, in the susbedo event, Paimon asks Bennett where Razor is, meaning whenever she sees Bennett she expects to see Razor. You realise this means they probably hang out so often people see them as a pair? Inseparable?

IN CONCLUSION they're so in love they're basically canon, they have so many signs and hints and stuff that suggests they're way closer to each other than anyone else. Basically whenever we see one of them, they're with the other or the other one is close behind. They're so in love u guys

[peppermint-rat]

Now that I'm thinking about it have another exmo ramble

One of the most damaging things for me was the message that it was sinful to even like, witness/hear "unholy" things. Went to a movie not knowing there was cursing or sexual content? Repent. Downloaded a song that had the fuck word in it? Delete it immediately, repent. It created this constant state of fear about the world outside the church, as it was meant to. Don't look outside, just stay where it's safe and be grateful for that safety.

As an autistic person who had a hard time relating to other kids in general, this added a level of resentment toward non-member kids at school. Because they could swear and talk about sex and drinking/drugs around me and there was nothing I could do about it. I felt like they were harming me. So I snapped and lashed out a lot, which worsened the bullying I was already getting.

It also affected my relationships badly because in order to feel like I could keep those relationships without sinning, the other people had to also follow the standards of the church. To everyone else, I was just super controlling, and maybe I was. But at its core, I was afraid that I would have to lose those connections if I didn't try to keep them safe for me. I'm sure y'all were told a thousand times not to spend lots of time around people who did not fit church standards, because they would eventually infect you. Imagine my horror, then, when my best friends started dating boys before they turned 16. Imagine how hard I pushed my first boyfriend, who was a non-member, to not swear and keep himself "clean" and come to church, knowing I wouldn't be able to stay with him if he never got baptized and properly joined.

In a way, the church was right, because as soon as I stopped caring about what my friends did, I realized their choices weren't actually threatening to me, nor were their identities, which made me relaxed about non-mormon standards and allowed me to realize I was queer which led me to leave the church. So yeah, engaging with forbidden things and forbidden people will absolutely lead you away from the church. They just have to make sure you view that as scary so you don't find out how much happier and how much safer you'll actually feel if you leave.

And of course all this is why the neo-puritan internet culture bothers me so much. It's the same shit all over again. Don't tolerate a second of behavior that might be considered "impure" because it will rub off on you and make you a bad person. Police everyone else or you're at risk of becoming evil. Fuck that, fuck that so hard.

[finlizziah]

Redoing my introduction/pinned post cause apparently someone ated it 🙄

(Me infodumping about me time :333)

DNI: minors, bigots. (Remind me if I should add anything.)

Anyways, hai haii, prefer to be called Lizziah, though sometimes go by Liz/Lizzie.

I'm 19, NB femboy, autistic and adhd (diagnosed), anxious, moody and probably unstable :3

Sapphic (womnen,,,), aro-spec (romantic feelings are :( hard)

From the EU (if u know where do me a favor and keep it private).

Some of my fav bands and artists are Tally Hall, Penelope Scott, Los Campesinos!, STYXII, Mother Mother, The Living Tombstone (zero_one specifically), and more. Feel free to recommend me stuff.

Media im into: Limbus Company (god I love it so much), Fate (unfortunately my autism has taken a liking to it, I play Fate GO...). Some anime like Dungeon Meshi, the Frieren elf one and Steins; Gate (it hit me so hard in the feels when I watched it ;w; )

Send me a dm/ask, I'll most likely reply/answer, though may not if I have chosen for ur vibe to be wrong (rare). But if we talk we are friends, such is the law on my page.

I avoid most politics (though I may take interest in some stuff), nude images (feels gross seeing that), and get uncomfy from sharp object near the body, self mutilation ig? I dunno.

I collect tons of plushies (owner of 4 blahajs), linux user, (I'll add more later)

WILL REBLOG/MAKE HORNY POSTS, DONT FOLLOW IF U DONT WANT TO SEE THAT

So fuckin subby that even other subby people wanna dom me. (The dictionary definition of the word submissive is just a pic of me)

I'll tag my own femboy selfies with #femboylizziah vent posts with #vent (currently #vent post , idk) and will try to add #asks to, well, asks.

If i unfollow/block you its either cause you post/reblog nudes and I dont wanna see that. Or other stuff that may make me uncomfy/i dislike. Sowwy!

Mmh yeah I'll add to this later, lemme know if I should add something. And if u read through all of that, send me an ask or dm or else you'll go to jail for a thousand years!!!!!!

[joshithekitsune]

Hehehe... he's so cute. :3c

Also, these are my close besties: @itsavee4117 @bankobuzzy @ilovedimentio @doodmannboi (Her Tumblr doesn't work properly but if you want to know her go find her Instagram, it's Doodmannboi1). ^^

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I'll be posting mainly about;

- Paper Mario: The Thousand-Year Door

- Super Paper Mario

- Paper Mario⁶⁴

- Ren & Stimpy

- Kirby Right Back At Ya!

- Rayman

- Other Disney related stuff

I'm sort of a multifandom blog. :/

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Before you go off wondering this blog is 13+ to 16+ depending on the content. It's either suggestive/violent or crude humor. (Perhaps artistic nudity). Some of my art may not be suitable for younger audiences.

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My Discord name is @Joshithefuckedupbitch

My Instagram name @ Joshithekitsune

One thing you should know about me is I am a moderate. You don't have to like me, that's valid!👍🏻

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Before you interact with me, I'm on the spectrum, ASD (Autism Spectrum Disorder). Please be careful to what you say to me. I don't always know what I did or say. I'm doing my best to not be an asshole. And I can be easily paranoid. My sense of humor and swearing may come off as crass and blunt. Be warned.

My other disorders (not fake, already been diagnosed): depression, ADD (another form of ADHD), dysgraphia, dyscalcula

If you want to better understand autistic women and girls like me, go check it out yourself! 👇🏻

https://opendoorstherapy.com/unraveling-the-unique-experiences-of-women-on-the-autism-spectrum/#:~:text=In%20order%20to%20%E2%80%9Cfit%20in,to%20effectively%20communicate%20their%20needs.

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My headcanons, AUs, and opinions maybe different from yours. If you don't have anything positive to say about it, just scroll away. If you decide to leave a hate comment, I'm more likely to ignore you and delete it.

I do mild critiques on Helluva Boss and Hazbin Hotel, so uh, yeah.

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I do free art requests, (mostly Mario related things but other media is fine, too).

Will draw: fanart, anthro art, simple mechanics, semi realism, surrealism, abstract, traditional art, suggestive stuff.

Will not draw: straight up NSFW (I will when I'm 18, I promise) fetishes/kinks, hyper realism, complicated mechanics, hate art.

Even if the art request is sanitary, I have every right to reject that art request.

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DNI PROSHIPPERS, PEDOPHILES, NECROPHILES, ZOOPHILES, MISOGYNISTS, PRO AI (ART), RADICAL LGBTQAI2s+ DISCOURSE AND OTHER BASIC CRITERIA. this doesn't mean I dislike LGBT people, I just don't like people who're extremists. will pull out my rifle if you don't scram-a-lam. (To put it lightly the block/report button). Most of all do be civil.

This is a welcoming place for LGBT people but don't call me "transphobic" "TERF," or any type of "phobic" for having a different opinion. Calling me a transphobe is NOT going to help your claims, to me, it is a compliment for having common sense. Don't put your panties in a knot just because I disagree with you. Yep, I'm an old fart! Sorry not sorry! 💨

Also, don't send me any death threats into my inbox. Or you'll be permanently blocked. Sorry folks you can't be anonymous, obviously.

This is VERY important: Gaza and Palestine blogs, DON'T FOLLOW ME OR ASK ME. I refuse to participate in this political movement/trend. Especially the propaganda that has been going on for a while. I'm very neutral about it. This doesn't make me a bad person. It's a very tricky subject for me to get into.

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Most importantly, enjoy my bullshit! :P

[daddyfuckinlonglegs]

This post is meant to be in conversation with this post about Danse from slocumjoe and this post about Hancock from serknighted. Reading them first means this will make a lot more sense. To be clear, I am not saying that their interpretations are wrong, I am in favour of reading any character in a way that allows you to explore your own existence and relationship with the world in more depth, and if you've been around my blog long enough you'll have heard my takes on MacCready that exist for very similar reasons. Deliberately reading a text with a certain lens on it can be good for you. That out of the way, I want to both agree and disagree with both posts.

Firstly, where I disagree: I don't have any strong opinions on whether either Danse or Hancock is autistic. I don't read them that way, but I'm not in charge. I do think that many of the experiences that the original posts ascribe to autism are not a singularly autistic experience. I think what you're both describing is just a very human way of experiencing isolation, in a world where community connection has been destroyed and rebuilt in an image of it's predecessor. I don't agree that Danse or Hancock don't have friends; Danse specifically for the simple reason that a military does not operate without a strong inter-unit bond between soldiers. As serknight put it, "he has all but given up his sense of self for what he believes is right", which is a large part of how militaristic organisations operate - you are a unit, not an individual, you are the lowliest creature on earth until you are trained into the corps, and then you embody your duty to your unit. Hancock also reads to me as having some strong connections - Fahrenheit, for one - and what we each individually categorise as "a friend" is so variable that I don't think we can get into it about video game characters without getting into the reeds. For me the issue here is that the game has limitations on how it shows interpersonal connections; I'd argue that none of the companion characters are shown to have "friends". And although I know it's common for autistic people to experience the very particular type of othering and isolation that comes from not following the secret unspoken rules of society, and a sense of utter rejection and disconnection from other people, I don't think Hancock is shown to feel disconnected because of that. I think he's shown choosing to flout those rules, self destructing, living with addiction, and then trying to rebuild that community differently. I also think he is well liked within his community (as much as any politician is), just not by the people who would prefer to have the power he has. I also don't agree that the synth stuff is a metaphor for autism, I don't think it wholly maps onto what Bethesda did with the idea*. For the record, I don't think the slavery angle was well executed either, too many implications they hadn't considered, but that's a post that's been written a hundred thousand times before. And I think the McCarthyism needed a touch more... importance in the story to really land with any power, but I do really like the idea. I also wish Piper had been more utilised in this regard, and that brings up another point I'd disagree with; I don't think Piper knows shit about who's a synth and who isn't. She makes those comments about Danse's way of speaking pointed out in the original post ("...have you heard him talk?") but not all synths behave like Danse. Glory, and Magnolia, and Sturges all have totally different personalities and approaches, and Piper has no evidence (afai remember) for McDonough other than a plucky journalist hunch. She's a part of the McCarthyist paranoia angle, making accusations against a figure of power that she doesn't agree with. I'm glad that it resonated with people, that idea of autistic people being othered for the way they speak is a great point in and of itself, and the dialogue definitely works to support the reading of Danse specifically as not-used-to-NT/informal-conversation, I just don't think the rest of Piper's character is a good basis for it to go further. And now, before getting too point by point critical, I'm going to post this, and write part two of this, where I will explain where I think you're right, and hopefully extend some of this out over the other companion characters.

[thousandyearphantombunker]

having empathy is seen as a bad thing that makes you an abuse apologist unless your have narcissism or psychopathy then not having empathy is a bad thing that makes you a demon

Having empathy for abusers does not make you a bad person or confused or stupid. Your not stupid for being a pacifist or believing in restorative justice or empathizing with bad people or understanding people with severe mental illnesses who have done bad things

Not having empathy at all is fine and you can still be a good person, narcissistic abuse doesn't exist and psychopaths can be good people too

People with PTSD, mood disorders and autism struggle with not only cognitive empathy but also effective empathy so when you attack people with narcissism you attack them as well

People are found not guilty by reason of insanity are not evil people who got away with their crimes Scott free

Y'all talk about pacifists and optimists seeing the world in black and white and how they cant recognize evil while talking all kinds of shit about your ability to recognize evil vs mentally ill

Dude you freak out and accuse autistic men who look a little gross of being perverts on drugs when in reality they have flat effect and strange body language so you assume there actually a huge threat and are gonna rape you cause you think being an incel or socially awkward in a creepy makes you automatically evil, (I've hung out with those guys a lot of them where my classmates- they were good people) and you freak out when you perceive a big black man get angry or having a mental health crisis. Im not gonna hold it against ya if you have moments when your afraid of mentally ill people we can be dangerous we can be big and do bad things, but don't think for a second your good at detecting that shit

Y'all scream ACAB but still believe in unlawful searches and violations of privacy, and again are afraid of visibly mentally ill/developmentally delayed people, you are okay with prisons using slave labor and cruel inhumane punishments, you only care about drug abusers being criminalized when it's pot or over the counter medicine. You only care about police brutality when it comes to race. You hate the death penalty yet praise revenge and vigilantism. You'll report only crimes that support your politics. You hate trump so all his supporters must suffer. You hate trump supporters so much but you cant be normal about it. All his supporters have to be bigoted uneducated redneck hicks. You are classist toward the poor and you hate small businesses for being bourgeois but you support massive megacorps

You talk all this shit about psychopaths being unable to feel empathy and how that makes them evil but look whose talking! You hate people who actually are empathetic and you need to come up with a thousand different reasons to be a dick to them for what crime? Having empathy for another human?

Not having empathy doesn't make anyone evil- again lots of people have low or no empathy and they are still good people and don't deserve the shit treatment they get. It's always decriminalize mental illness until the guy with bipolar says something inappropriate or the autistic dude comes off as creepy or until it turns out the person living in the apartment next to yours is schizophrenic or has a personality disorder. My sister has low empathy and she is genuinely the best person in my life- she certainly understands more than the counselors and therapists I saw back in grade school who despite preaching empathy where assholes. She has good morals and she is awesome.

Having empathy for bad people does not make someone bad. They are still good people and having that level of empathy is actually a good thing. We need more people like that.

"having empathy is actually bad unless your mental illness is the reason your lacking empathy then your just evil" is a mentality that needs to fucking die. Also you don't have to emphasize or like severely impaired people inorder to not be a dick.

Being anti revenge doesn't mean you expect victims of rape or child abuse to be 'perfect victims' being anti revenge doesn't mean being an abuse apologist, believing in the power of restorative justice doesn't mean your pushover. Y'all really learnt the term 'perfect victim' and fucked it up- I expect victims to be angry and have all kinds of issues and no matter what the victim did I don't think anyone deserves to be raped or abused, I don't get angry at them for fighting back or not fighting back. But being a victim does not make you morally superior or prevent you from inflicting the damage done to you unto someone else. It doesn't mean your perspective is flawless or perfect. I want rapists and child abusers to suffer but I also want human rights to be respected and for victims to be given the help they need- these feelings aren't antithetical or dangerous. I have no empathy for those kinds of people but I also know innocent's suffer because of the system. There is no easy way for us to separate good from evil to differentiate them so Id rather bad people have human rights than for good people to lose theirs

I'm not super political, I'm invested in only a few issues because I burn out so easily and even then it's miniscule but can you blame me? The sheer amount of horseshit people say, the antisemitism, the classism, the ableism- it's tiring. You aren't allowed to have nuance anymore, your automatically labeled an evil evangelical conservative or sjw blue haired bitch. And I keep hearing people talk about taking away basic human rights and when I argue how doing that is bad and has horrible consequences, I get labeled an enabler or apologist. Newsflash- taking away human rights from any group of people including absolute scum bags fucks us all over- just label everyone you don't like as a criminal and bad bing bada boom we're taking the government's dick up the ass.

People get angry when people like me take breaks or moments to chill and talk about how 'x group of people don't get to take a break from the cruelty!' but I'm part of x. I'm autistic I'm Latina I'm gay! Im also tired and because I have a life outside of social media I can chill for a bit and because I am easily burnt out. I take more breaks because I need them- i need more breaks because my disability burns me out and focusing on politics all the time makes it worse. I'm not a traitor your just ableist (usually toward people who are off-putting and have low empathy) and I'm not an apologist I just don't want people to get happy over innocent people dying because said innocent people are part of group they hate. I just like respecting human rights and if that makes me an enabler of bad people? If letting bad people have nice things means protecting innocent people then I'm fine with it

[demonsfate]

I have to say that despite the nice content creators and some rpers in the Tekken fandom, overall, the online experience in this game is pretty awful sometimes. You have people spamming, ki charging, tea bagging, plugging, cheating, and being just toxic af for no reason. And the matchmaking will put them one after another. It truly makes you want to stop playing this shit lmao

Oh yeah I agree fully. I'm just gonna be frank about it, too: The majority of the Tekken fandom is atrocious. Like I enjoy the company of a few people here, so far, most of the rpers have been epic. But other than that? The majority is just... ugh. You can tell by how bad the online experience is. It's just FULL of pluggers, tea baggers, and ki-chargers. GOD, the amount of ki-chargers and tea baggers is annoying. I understand it's just a game, but it's not fun when everyone you play against is an arrogant prick. As I've stated before, I didn't play TK7 online as often as I did 8, but the people there were better sports. Hell, I'd even voice chat with some ppl after playing matches with them.

And another proof of just how awful the fandom is is how often people in the subreddit were just fucking cunts to me for simply expressing an opinion on the game or the game's story. Like I can state my opinion in the nicest, politest way, even saying "this is just my opinion" or "it's not too big of a deal but I did notice-" and they will STILL hurl insults my way. Like I pointed out the bad quality of the TK7's outfits in TK8, and I get obliterated for it. (Which is funny as that's now a popular criticism ever since the store dropped) Or how I pointed out Jun's character feels "changed" or "different" in TK8 compared to the older games, and again - people just hurling horrible insults. Imagine being called "fucked in the head" or "autistic" (in a derogatory fashion) for simply pointing out something you've noticed. Of course, you'll always find ppl who insult you like that... but when it's the MAJORITY doing it??

No, it's not just because it's Reddit or because that's how people online are. Because I used to frequently post in the Sims subreddit, and that's usually where most of my karma came from. I'd get hundreds to thousands of upvotes for my statements or opinions. Most people there actually agreed with me, and when they didn't - they did it in a polite fashion. People in the Tekken fandom are just... wild, unhinged even.

It sucks because I love this series, but it seems to attract the worst people.

[tetsunabouquet]

I just heard that there are people planning to protest during 4 May against Israel. As a Dutch woman of Roma heritage, I AM FUMING. To those who don't know: 4 May is national memorial day in the Netherlands where we remember those who died during WWII. Whilst I find you anti-semitic fucks who are villifying every Jew in existence for what's currently happening in Israel to be awful - targeting 4 May when that day is for EVERY minority hunted down during WWII means you are targeting ALL of our communities. Remember how I mentioned that during my final year of elementary school I had a hag of a teacher? I literally remember arguing with her about how the history books barely talk about us. The REAL estimated number of deaths could have been as high as 1,5 MILLION Roma unlike the reported '400K' you'll find in your history pages. I have seen in YouTube videos from Americans and Canadians how they solely talk about the Jews and are trying to make it about black people with the unproven historic sentiment that Jewish people originally were black. I've even heard statements written out loud from American musea who only mentioned us like a footnote before talking about black people in length. Reported numbers of black people castrated/killed during WWII were a couple of thousand because that's how few black people there were in Europe. The Roma are the biggest racial group hunted down during WWII, stop trying to take that away from the potential million people that died! Give their souls the respect they deserve. How sick in the head do you have to be to be like, 'This major genocide has to be about MY race'- when the actual group hunted down for their skin and culture wasn't yours. My deadbeat dad and his sisters are more lily white looking as I always call it, but grandpa was a bit more Roma looking like me and my late grandma did make a few implied statements that it was his father who had a Romani mother. That was during WWII. My great-great grandmother likely was an elderly lady hunted down like a rat during this period. The fact my paternal family didn't had any pictures of my great-grandfather unlike his wife, worries me but it's too heavy of a subject to talk about with relatives that I have a strained relationship with. How can you make that about you? Tell me! Another one of my great-grandfathers wasn't a member of the Resistance but he did help out with food smuggling. Ever heard of the Dutch famine during WWII? My great-grandfather tried to keep regular Dutch citizens alive and was willing to stick his neck out as one of the richer families of the area to help the lesser priviliged and he was publically beaten for it by the Nazis as an example for the townsfolk. He's the only male relative I am proud of to be related to, because that was an act of bravery and generosity worthy of praise.

Not every wealthy white man is a greedy devil, my great-grandfather proved that. As much as I hate Frank Timmermans (Dutch politican), I do agree with his statement that you can protest on every fucking day of the year- just not memorial's day. This day belongs to so many non-Jews too and making this about Israel is just overshadowing the other victims once more. We haven't done anything to deserve to get erased. Yet the media, history books and non-Roma do that very thing. In my own personal experience, even the gays are mentioned more often then we are. The only group that might be more forgotten then we are, are the disabled. And as an autistic individual that also earns my ire.

I can bet my ass off that none of those sickening protesters would have been hunted down if we lived during WWII, unlike me. I have to live with that and the handful of people throughout my life who did call my blood impure. LEAVE 4 MAY ALONE!

[dumbangrypuppet]

I need to build more on Kake. Like. Yeah I have his backstory kinda vaguely done, and sorta how he acts, but I wanna go deeper.

I have vague ideas for each of the things i'm listing and I'll get into those later but for now I'm listing them

AA

I need to figure out what sort of job he'd have. Where does he live. What does the house look like. Does he "work from home" in a sort of way like Simon? How did they meet?

Well. Here's my thoughts:

For a job...?

Kake is an artist. Ranging from Ceramics, to canvas, just about anything. Like. He's a strange little man whose only memories the past thousand years were dreams, and now he's been awake for 12 years, maybe he'd make some amazing or unsettling art. Plus he has six arms, you cannot tell me that wouldn't be useful for painting or sculpting. I can't count the amount of times I'd be in the middle of sculpting something and wishing I had more hands. Or trying to paint something and wishing the same thing.

I feel like he'd like more hands on work. And the relaxing kind. He could sit for hours and just sculpt. He loves it. If you tried to take him to do something that requires more heavy lifting or physical work, he'd probably get exhausted quickly. He works at a desk or sitting most of the time, he doesn't do a lot of cardio.

Where he lives/what does his house look like/does he work from home...?

Well. Sorta. Yeah.

I've always kind of liked to design buildings in my head, but if I try to put it on paper it doesn't look right. I like to think he'd have a large house. One he lives in alone, but is filled with paintings and art he's made over the years, and he does have spare rooms for people to stay in if they want to come over, he just... doesn't have many friends. (Literally only knows Finn and Simon. Finn is always adventuring, and he's too shy to ask Simon if he wants to hang out because he thinks he'd bother him)

I think Kake would live in some sort of building that doubles as his house and his studio. It's always clean, despite having art projects all over. He thinks he's too messy, really it's all just clutter. He struggles with trying to get his art pieces sold (specifically ones he just does on a whim). Not because they don't look good, but because sometimes the feelings he had when painting them are so personal, and it feels like he would lose a piece of himself if it was gone. Hes already lost so much of himself and who he used to be, what if it happens again?

(I'm pretty sure he would figure out during his 12 years of consciousness that his "memories" were actually just dreams and he didn't know any of the people he was talking about. That they probably weren't even real in the first place. Could you imagine how sad that is?? To realize that every memory you had wasn't real? Just dreams you had while asleep for 1000 years, and you have no idea who you used to be?? Anyway.)

This one's a bit off topic from the thought it's for, but I feel like Kake's hands would be super soft. This is because he does take good care of himself, and when working with clay, your hands will dry out if you don't take care of them after. Lots of lotion. He hates when his hands feel rough, they easily catch on certain fabrics and such. (Kake is autistic because I'm autistic and I can't make a neurotypical OC even if I wanted to) so thus, Kake would have a variety of lotions kept in the bathroom, they all smell nice. He likes nice smells.

Any furniture or carpet or blankets and clothes he has are sensory friendly. If you have a specific fabric that makes your skin itch when you touch it, you'll never find it at Kake's. Because again, since his house doubles as his studio, the whole thing is about being able to focus more on your work and interests when you're in a safe and comfortable environment.

That being said, there have been times where he accidentally spills paint on his favorite fuzzy slippers and he cries about it.

How did they meet?

I feel like Finn accidentally came across Kake on an adventure. I mean. Like. Kake was sleeping in a cave for 1000 years dude. Probably didn't look so good. Finn probably helped Kake adjust to society for the most part. The people didn't surprise him at all and neither did the world. (Again, Kake has been dreaming for 1000 years. Probably thought of some weird stuff) first couple years into consciousness, Kake would drink at the candy tavern, and mourn his "lost love" (Morgause from the tales of King Arthur.)

Here's where we go into the first meeting between him and Simon.

Simon is initially interested in Kake because "woah, a dude from before even my time? I wonder what he knows about!" Cause he's a nerdy antiquarian. They drink together and converse, and Simon pieces together that Kake might be a little crazy, or just drunk. Because Kake spews nonsense that has nothing to do with history, it sounds like a dream.

They start as acquaintances from there, then eventually make it to friendship. Through the years, Simon helps Kake realize "oh shit, my life as I knew it's not real? Well, I'm not gonna cry about it, I'm gonna make art instead!" (And then proceeds to channel every single sad feeling and thought into his art)

Since we don't really get any idea where Simon's GOLB idol comes from, and assuming how it breaks in the intro and the show, my brain wants me to think it's ceramic. And with that thought!!! I'm taking!!! Creative liberties!! For my own selfish gains!!

I think Simon commissioned Kake to make him the GOLB idol. (Kake would have done it for free he's gay, but Simon insisted he pay Kake for his time)

Anyway!!! Here's all my thoughts for now!!

This little bug man and the sad little antiquarian are helping me through my struggles.

[thepolyamorouspolymath]

Having a mental illness does not entitle you to make judgements of 'tragedy' towards people that have a condition you don't have. You have the notion that non-verbal autistic people can't communicate, even though they've been arguing with you on the internet for the last few hours. You are oblivious to the harm your views cause, and you think you can do no wrong. Just ridiculous arrogance and ignorance, no disabled solidarity, nothing.

Actually I said I felt bad for those who couldn't communicate, not those who couldn't speak. Reading comprehension is your friend. Dictionaries are very available for the words you don't understand. And that I felt for their parents, who could not communicate with then, after growing up with a cousin who could not communicate in any way -- we were almost 17 before she learned even the simplest of signs. I felt fir her then, bc I could the frustration abd I felt for her parents bc I could see their pain at being cut off from their child.

No, I do not think all disability should be treated as this wonderful thing, that there's nothing wrong with any of us. If it causes pain to those who have it, then there is something wrong with it. The difference is that I see them as human beings to empathize with as best I can, while you see them as conditions you wish to champion, ignoring that there are a thousand different factors.

Again, I said I found it tragic to be cut off from communicating, though not having that problem, perhaps it did not bother some -- clearly no one arguing with me is incapable of communicating, even if they are non verbal and therefore THEY DON'T KNOW EITHER.

I'm not advocating wiping out autistic people, I'm not advocating forcing treatment on anyone who doesn't want it, my views are that for a social animal -- such as a human -- to not be able to communicate (as I did not limit that to speech if you had read carefully instead of assuming) -- to be cut off from communicating with others fully would be tragic, as it would be to any social animal. And I also find it tragic -- AGAIN -- for parents who do not get to connect to their child in that way.

And I do not seek solidarity with people I find to be making flawed arguments, akin to X Men saying mutants don't need a cure to the girl who causes death with a touch.

I also know for a fact I can do a great deal of wrong, as my mistakes and misjudgments are wide and varied and a very long list. The minute one of you makes a persuasive case instead of a condescending attack, with actual facts and data to back you up, you'll find I'm very open to changing my mind. But none of you do.

And once more with feeling, if you have conviction enough to confront someone, then fucking confront them instead of hiding behind anon, you coward. Until then I shall continue to treat you as if you are nothing more than an ignorant child with no concept of nuance or context, as you have demonstrated none.

Now, for the record let me state my FEELINGS on the matter, once more, publicly. I find the possible pain (as I have already admitted I cannot know the minds of others) of those who cannot COMMUNICATE tragic, based on my own experiences with people who could not, one from birth and several in the end stages of life. I do not find the fact of ANYONE'S existence tragic, though I find many do live tragic lives, and my heart breaks for them. I find the possible pain of families who cannot COMMUNICATE (again, not speech) tragic bc I know what a loss I would feel not being able to communicate with one of my children.

I do not and will not apologize for having empathy for those who may be suffering. I did not claim to be certain of their own feelings, which should really be the question rather than yours or mine. I did not advocate for any policies, though I will now -- I'd like better research in how to help those who want it to communicate, though it should not be forced but voluntary treatment, and I would like the world to be made more accommodating to neurodivergent people as it is rarely that difficult, and to people's natural rhythms and needs in general, and I would like disability to pay a reasonable cost of living for an urban setting, as well as a reasonable caretaker allowance for those who need one.

I'm terribly sorry that we can't seem to find an understanding between us, and it's unfortunate that you are offended. Might I suggest you channel that in productive ways, such as volunteering or lobbying efforts rather than trying to bully people for the sin of not agreeing with you. I can assure you, whatever you hope to get out of this is pointless. I do not feel guilty bc I've yet to be convinced I've done any worse than offending those who are operating in bad faith anyway. I certainly am not shamed or intimidated, or God save me, hurt that someone on the internet doesn't approve of me. There's 8 billion people on earth and I'm pretty sure at least 6 billion of them don't approve of me for one reason or another, I've long gotten over it. I suggest you do too, and that you either save your time bitching bc people don't agree (the bitching won't change that) or learn to make persuasive arguments of varying tactics and the tenacity to not stop until you've convinced them to your side. I truly hope you'll choose the second and succeed bc we can always use more people of passion fighting for their beliefs even if they are not mine. There is honor in the loyal opposition.

[makotodeath]

I'm sorry but in the grand scheme of things, I think most of the Neurodivergent groups talk over people like me.. I've seen thousands of the same post written just very differently from one another. There's no appreciation for autistics who get so good at masking they're able to convince anyone of anything and do it, or convey any emotion even when pissed off. It's draining but goddamn, it works.

I guess to you, I'm the only one who's said something bad in the reblog section. Everyone else is like "UwU its okie you'll never be able live a normal life where you can be confident of your abilities" I was like this before too so I can understand that you probably don't want negative connotations associated with being autistic. But you know its hard enough to be different in this world, I fail to understand why the f*** the only thing i find online is just people accepting that fate. Like its not your only option. You can push beyond your limits. You can be someone who's able to be skilled at socialising or successfully dodge sensory overload situations. But let me guess, that would no longer make autistic people dependent on someone or something to rely on. I'll stay away from your reblogs, sure. But let me finish by saying i have never seen anyone in these communities ever say you should hide it...its only ever the opposite. But i can't exactly change your mind so I'll leave it there.

:)

Shout out to autistics like me who never really "masked" the normal way, who didnt realize they were supposed to fake eye contact or tried to study and understand the conversational structure of people around you. Who couldn't really stop stimming and only changed the type of stims they did. To autistics who's only way of masking was to withdraw, just try to not draw any attention ever. Yes we tried to not seem so autistic but we probably never even understood what made us seem autistic in the first place, so the only option was to shut down and avoid any contact whatsoever.

[brightlotusmoon]

hey ive got a question! im physically abled but ive got some mental disorders such as autism and adhd, and i know that most autistics/adhd ppl feels very strongly that we do not want a cure and we’re happy as we are

so i wondered if its the same in physically disabled communities? or would you guys want a cure?

(also ik theres a large variety of physical disabilities so if u know of some groups that do and some that dont feel free to elaborate on that. tbh my question is mostly abt chronic pain sort of stuff)

(also also, im asking u bc you talk abt your disabilities a lot and i figured you would be active in those communities enough to know, but if you dont or you dont feel like answering thats super fine! i just always wondered)

For the most part, you'll find that the vast majority of folks who are physically disabled don't want to be cured, but will take pain relief.

Okay, so in my exclusive Cerebral Palsy group on Facebook, there's over two thousand of us. And there is definitely a heirarchy that goes different ways. Those of us able to walk appear to be in a separate tier from those who cannot. Sometimes "walkers" are seen as "less disabled" - there's a lot of internalized ableism and often we need to play therapists to each other.

Chronic Pain tends to come with the territory, since palsy has been shown to slowly wreak havoc on an aging body. A lot of people are afraid, and it plays a huge role in how society can convince us that complete cures are what we want. Which, of course, ties into eugenics.

And we need to keep this in mind: autism isn't just mental and it's not a disorder on its own, it's a collection of skills, disorders, sensitivities, syndromes, etc, so we can get chronic pain from how our brains react to our environments.

[aristocratic-otter]

Get To Know Me

Thanks for the tag @cutestkilla, @you-remind-me-of-the-babe and @angelsfalling16. This looks interesting!

Under the cut for length

Relationship status: Married and I just had my 25th wedding anniversary. So married for a long fucking time!

Favorite color: kinda depends on the use! Silver is my first response, but to wear I like jewel tones and for decorating I like ocean colors. So all over the map, but I can definitely say I love color!

Favorite food: My family likes to joke that everything I eat is cheese and bread. Grilled cheese, pizza, quesadillas, macaroni and cheese. I've got the palate of a five year old. I do love popcorn and chocolate though!

Song stuck in your head: If it gets stuck, it's almost always something from Hamilton. Shit's catchy, man.

Last thing you googled: "Jacob's Inn, Oxford" for a fic, but you'll have to wait and see which one.

Time: 11:41 pm

Dream trip: The British Isles. So much of the history I love to explore is found there. I come from a place where the oldest house is probably fifty years old. I want to stand in a place where the history is reckoned in thousands of years, not tens of years.

Last book you read: Just relistened to Boyfriend Material in prep for the new book coming out. There's a lot of that going around, I've noticed 😏

Last book you enjoyed: Same. I mostly read fanfic these days.

Last book you hated reading: I'll probably get a ton of shit for this, but it was Song of Achilles. Not because it's sad. That's a perk, honestly. I just couldn't get into it. The writing style was too dry and unemotional for me. I still have it on my dresser to finish, and I probably will because my daughter got it for me for Christmas, but I'm not looking forward to it.

Favorite thing to cook/bake: I'm not much for householdy things, but I do love cooking pancakes. There's something aesthetically pleasing about waiting for the bubbles to form and pop and finding the exact shade of golden brown on the other side.

Favorite craft to do in your free time: I've been trying to learn origami without much luck. I'm not particularly crafty, but I do love scrapbooking, I just don't have time for it.

Most niche dislikes: Onions. It's a constant trial because nobody believes that I can actually hate onions that much. They hit my Autistic texture squick and I hate the flavor, so it's a double whammy. But most of the people in my life think I'm a drama queen for constantly questioning wait staff about the onion content of the food on the menu.

Opinion on circuses, now and in history: Hmm...I enjoy the idea of them, the circus life. I like reading stories about it. Historically they're pretty horrific, but the idea of a life on the road, free of care except for caring for each other...it's pretty attractive. I've seen both Ringling Bros circus and Ka from Cirque de Soleil, and they are quite the pretty spectacle, but not something I seek out in my life.

Do you have a sense of direction, and if not what is the worst way you’ve gotten lost: I inherited my mother's shitty sense of direction, but I'm self aware and use directions apps constantly, so I seldom get lost. That said, I definitely have a getting lost story, though my husband was driving. We were driving to Bear Lake, Utah in midwinter because that's when I had time off. It started snowing as we drove up the state of Utah from St. George, and never stopped. The roads got slippery and icy, and we're Californian. We don't know how to deal with that. So we drove like snails, and therefore didn't arrive at the turnoff to our resort until one am. Now, the road to the resort was a single lane switchback and it was coated with snow. We couldn't even see the lane lines. We stopped and my poor husband spent half an hour out in the freezing weather to put chains on our tires and then we inched our way down the mountain in utter terror. We arrived at the town of Bear Lake at past two in the morning. NOTHING was open. We drove to our resort; they'd told us there'd be a key waiting for us in the box outside the office. We drove up a driveway covered in unbroken snow and found an office, and a box, but no key.

At this point, we were shivering in insufficient heating in a tiny compact car, me, my husband and our three year old son, and we were facing having to maybe spend the night in the car until something opened. We drove around the property several times until we realized there was a different office and found our key. Then we drove to the block of rooms, and dragged ourselves, our luggage and my kid through the snow, past every downstairs room and couldn't find one with our room number. All of the upstairs rooms appeared to have employee names on them. We circled the building. I was crying, the baby was wailing and we were all exhausted and terrified. Then we found that there were a couple of upstairs rooms that weren't set aside for employees and one of them was ours.

It was the closest I've ever felt to dying, honestly.

Funny thing is, that trip on our return found us passing through a hundred-year flood in Utah, where half the city of St. George was underwater, so this trip definitely gave me years of stories to tell!

Tagging some friends! @artsyunderstudy, @bazzybelle, @carryonsimoncarryonbaz, @fight-surrender, @fatalfangirl, @facewithoutheart, @johnwgrey, @krisrix, @moodandmist, @otherworldsivelivedin, @giishu, @frjsti, @ivelovedhimthroughworse, @penpanoply, @prettylightsbigcity, @palimpsessed, @subparselkie, @tea-brigade

[thesealfriend]

please tell us more about your autistic cat

oh people read my tags apparently, awesome ^-^

so Oscar is a dumbass because he's a cat, but he also doesn't know how To cat, his body language is Real Weird

Yknow the whole "exposed belly = trust, if you touch it you lose the trust" thing cats do? Nah. He's like a dog, exposed belly means scritches are okay if not encouraged - he'll only get mad if you're too vigorous.

The other well-known cat-emote I can think of is flattened ears means scared or distressed - with him, usually it means he's lowered them to make space during head scritches or to listen to something below/behind him, and is too sleepy to put them back up. He can be the most content and relaxed cat you'll ever see, but look either furious or terrified because his ears rest in a flatter position than one would expect:

His tail, too - the specific aggressive swish that usually means "stop it" (as opposed to the more casual twitch or wag that means "this is fun or interesting") is something he just Does, all the time - he'll be climbing all over me or my desk aggressively whapping me in the face with his tail, while purring and making biscuits (even on hard surfaces - he biscuits my desk!)

This unfortunately all combines with the fact that he gets overwhelmed Really suddenly - most cats will give you a warning twitch or ear flick if you're bothering them, then will try to move away, then might get aggressive if they're still being distressed. Oscar will not. He will go from happily chilling, biscuiting and purring while looking like he's filled with the fury of a thousand suns, then in a split second will be skittering to the other side of the room going "MROW" and aggressively licking some body part, which the vet agrees seems to be a self-soothing thing & is fine when he doesn't overdo it.

He also makes the best faces during silly time, which is completely irrelevant I just want to show them off:

[neopronouns]

This isn't 100% MOGAI but we learned through the community we might be autistic but it's way too dangerous in our environment to get dx'd but it's heavily affecting our PTSD. Is there resources you know of? Primarily the US, but maybe others need other areas too quq /genq

i'll divide this into two sections, since it depends on whether you're an adult or a minor:

to my knowledge, it's essentially impossible in the us to get an autism diagnosis without your parents/guardians knowing if you're a minor. the majority of professionals won't run evaluations without the permission of a guardian, and even if you were able to find one who would, you would have to pay potentially thousands of dollars for the appointments. additionally, if you're in school and wanting to use said diagnosis for accommodations, i'm pretty sure it's difficult to do so without the aid of a parent (since they almost always have to be present at iep meetings, especially if it's your very first one). if you're in school, my advice would be to get in touch with your school counselor(s) and see what advice and accommodations they can offer you without a diagnosis. it might not be much, but it's better than nothing - they may be able to get you out of pep rallies/other loud and crowded events, speak directly with your teachers about smaller needs you have, etc. if your counselors are no help, try speaking directly to your teachers (maybe not all of them, but ones you think would be receptive) and see what they're able to do within their classrooms.

as an adult (or emancipated minor/otherwise independent), it is more difficult to get a diagnosis, but at least you're able to set up appointments yourself without needing permission. here's a good list of suggestions (it was the most comprehensive i found with a quick search, but googling 'autism diagnosis adult' will pull up lots of information from great organizations that you can go through). if you have the financial ability, ask your physician/therapist or contact a local autism group to ask what clinics/professionals they recommend for a smooth diagnostic process. if you're not financially able to pay for appointments, there's a few options - if you don't have a job, your state's department of vocational rehabilitation can potentially help; if you're in college, reach out to the student health department, your university's office of disabilities, or something similar; if you're near a university at all, see if they have a psychology clinic and ask if they offer autism evaluations and, if so, if they offer lower fees; and if all else fails, speak with people you're close with to see if they would be able to lend you money, and try to earn what's left by setting up a gofundme or something similar. you could also reach out to a potential diagnostician directly and ask them if they offer sliding-scale fees for people who can't afford the typical price of diagnosis.

if all else fails, you can hopefully take a bit of solace in the online autistic community. there are tons of people out there who can't get an autism diagnosis and are self-diagnosed (i was one of them for several years!) and you'll be able to find spaces that are accepting of your own self-diagnosis. you might be able to find some good coping mechanisms that you can use without outside help, make autistic friends, etc. i wish you luck, and i hope things get better for you soon.