#you used to be i have fucking nothing exvept a handful of people who just kind of care about me but where im in the periphery of their lives | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

sydmarch · 6 months ago

Text

no interest in any of my hobbies next to no concerts going on all summer feeling abandoned by the majority of the few irls I still have no idea where to meet new people to replace them now that I'm not part of the highly social hard partying sales culture I spent basically all of my post college life in anymore literally what reason is there to keep trying

#how does anyone even maintain anything in the long term like since college i dont think ive managed to hold onto a truly close relationship #for more than like 3 years so its about time even tho i never even felt i reached that level of closeness w these guys its about time they #also just move on & im the only one putting on the effort! the last time i felt like i had someone i could really call a 'best friend' they #went on vacation & ended up just actually moving away without telling me & when theyre back in town they text our other friends to ltk &#hang out with them but never me & i only ever see them at parties. similar shot for any other 'close friends' i ever thought actually cared #about me. whats wrong with me why dont people ever want to stay around why is it whenever things come up or people get busy or whatever im #never a priority to anyone everwhy is it always i put in the effoet or we dont talk ot reslly i put in the effoet until eventually we dont #talk anyways. why does it seem like even if it isnt easy for everyone else it seems like its at least POSSIBLE people will tell me oh that #happens to everyone in adulthood i feel that way too. ok sure you at least TALK to your college friends still even if you arent as close as #you used to be i have fucking nothing exvept a handful of people who just kind of care about me but where im in the periphery of their lives #i could just die & itd probably take weeks before any of my 'friends' even noticed #texticles

7 notes · View notes