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life may be rough but at least at the end of the day there are always the pacific rim mutuals in my phone <3
#pacific rim#chuck hansen#raleigh becket#mako mori#hercules hansen#yancy becket#stacker pentecost#wei tang triplets#kaidanovsky#gipsy danger#striker eureka#crimson typhoon#cherno alpha#pacrim#i love my pacrim mutuals#you literally keep me alive#chaleigh
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The parts of you that support me
#mgs2 my favorite game i love you#metal gear solid 2#mgs2 sons of liberty#mgs2 raiden#rosemary mgs#emma emmerich#Anyways let me elaborate on the piece here in the tags again#I really like the skeletal motif that raiden's rib cage suit and the aicolonel's face turning into a skull have going on#so it's kind of an extension here. It's 'parts of me that support you' that are outlined as the bones.#For raiden his vitals are literally keeping sunny alive. So his rib cage. For the colonel he's constantly feeding raiden bad info to keep-#-the mission afloat. His skull#For emma she created the arsenal gear worm (hands)#And for rose i mean obviously like. shes pregnant in this game. but its got a bigger meaning for the plot and for raiden specifically#since it's part of the reason why he tries to be better. Her connection to him is what keeps him grounded during the whole mission#and together they all form the 'vital' organs#Alternatively i wanted to name this 'malfunctioning machine' but anyone can probably figure out that one if they wanted. Lol#Back to your regularly scheduled tagging program!#beanie art#mgs fanart#metal gear solid fanart#mgs2 fanart#mgs2
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CASTIEL: Stop. What's the point if you don't mean it? You fear me - not love, not respect, just fear.
[youtube with closed captions]
a godstiel pity party. i'd like to thank an anon i got way back in february of 2021.
#spn#vid#spnamvarchive#so fun fact i started making this more than a year ago. got it 90% done. and then was like no this isn't working#i will come back to this later.#it turns out that i needed to make some videos about cas and angels (the love club + help i'm alive amvs)#in order to make this one. anyway this video is about french mistake robert singer voice season six#i really struggled with it because i could NOT find the thread until i realized that it needed to be literally godstiel pov#it's about love and desire and jealousy and hurt and omnidirectional rage <3#it's about the fact that cas is so utterly dependent on dean for his self-image - however dean sees him that's it#it's about having a moment of reflection about lashing out before you do it but doing it anyway#it's about taking cruelty and dishing it out#and crucially. it's about being pregnant#mpregpocalypse#fun fact: i made a post about working on three season six amvs all the way back in nov. 2022#and only now have they come to fruition (this one + love club + metric)#anyway. have you heard that cas is obsessed#the thing is i do kinda want to add some specific director's commentary here. like the first verse is about cas being like.#incredibly deeply emotionally vulnerable to dean. as in: his emotional state and self-image is totally dominated by what dean thinks of him#and if dean is mad at him. and then the second verse is about... dean upsetting him and him responding to that by Killing Everybody lol#like he has a moment of reflection ['certain regrettable things are now required of me' + killing rachel] where he's like i've 1) also done#bad things and 2) i feel bad about it so maybe i will regret Killing Everyone. but then he does it anyway due to everybody keeps turning#on him. i feel like the rest of the amv is self evident. i guess i should note that 'share a paradise' is about how both of them have#a nostalgic view of the early days of their relationship when it wasn't Like This lol. but everything else i think is self evident.#oh and the reason the other angels flash onscreen with their burned wings at the end is i'm EVOKING the image of cas' wings burning. even#though it doesn't happen. i'm evoking it
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Literally how do you even respond to that?
#literally I'm so flabbergasted because what is even their point dear god#literally you say anything positive about snape#and someone goes Well Acktually He BullieD ChliDren#like shut the fuck up for a minute#he was a fucking teacher in the 90s teaching potions its not his job to be nice its his job to 1) teach and 2) keep the kids alive#just because harry and ron suck at potions and hate him doesnt mean anyone else does#even hermione defends snape most of the time#and for goodnesses sake this wasnt even saying anything nice about snape it was about his suffering#but somehow he deserved that because he was snarky to 11 year olds?#because its not like any of the other teachers do anything like this right#aughhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh#I'm so done like let me enjoy this man in peace will ya#severus snape#pro snape#snape defense#anti snaters
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Haunting.
Phantom of the Opera Spire anyone? Jaina is once again the nerdy skeptic just can't let the ghost rumours go. She finds more than she bargained for - namely, a hot and broody elf named Sylvanas Windrunner.
inspired by this femslash february prompt list
#world of warcraft#sylvaina#sylvanas windrunner#jaina proudmoore#minifemslashfeb2024#mine#also im hiding this in the tags do not mob me ive literally never seen any adaptation of it ive only heard That One Song#this was an interesting...thing#the mask was inspired of me i must say#jaina: vereesa you never told me it was your fucking sister i thought it was something way worse from the way you described it?#jaina: also you never told me she was still ALIVE#vereesa: where's the fun in that? also you never believed she was even real#jaina: that's not the point.#vereesa: it's a great prank jaina admit it. plus she likes keeping busy with the spire it gives her something to do#jaina: i'll give her something to do.#vereesa: what.#jaina: what.#phantom of the spire au
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#god ITS BEEN TOO LONG SINCE I DREW THESE TWO SWEETIES😫🥹🥹🥹#I literally love them so much….im sorry girls I DIDNT ABANDON YOU😤😔🙏#they’re just so cute together…I was looking and my art is like the only thing thst shows up on their tag#so I guess I need to keep drawing and keep this ship alive#me and phinik will keep these two together in this fandom🫡😙💓#hogwarts legacy#hphl#hogwarts legacy fanart#imelda reyes x poppy sweeting#imelda x poppy#imelda reyes#poppy sweeting#pomelda
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Over and Over - Rio Romeo ur not telling me she didnt think of the first time she met falin and her beauty as she recreated her in that same image of purity and kindness, piece by piece get out of here
#I'm telling you that this girl was running through her head every step of that way#cause if there was two things marcille was going to do it was make sure falin was saved and keep her brother alive while she did it#I'm telling you she thought of her first yuri experience while creating the biggest one ever by doing literal necromancy for her gf#please let me get more farcille edits and fanart from this I beg#marcille “the gayest necromancer” donato#keep ur eyes peeled for more farcille edits later on#farcille#falin touden#falin thorden#farlyn thorden#farlyn touden#falin dunmeshi#falin dungeon meshi#dunmeshi marcille#marcille x falin#marcille dungeon meshi#cursed tag ->#delicious in dungeon#never gonna stop tagging it like that sorry for anyone who reads my tags fr fr its just not happening#unless ofc i make these at 3am and forget#marcille donato#marcille delicious in dungeon#falin delicious in dungeon#dunmeshi edit#dungeon meshi edit#delicious in dungeon edit#dunmeshi amv#dungeon meshi amv#delicious in dungeon amv#marcille amv
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*me immediately after going through a terrifying and traumatic experience* haha yeah I guess it was rough but I'm fine now like I'm totally chill. It was kinda funny actually if you think about it
#GUESS WHO GOT A PIERCING INFECTION SO BAD OVERNIGHT SHE HAD TO RUSH TO THE HOSPITAL#AND GET SURGERY TO REMOVE IT BC THE METAL WAS BURROWING ITSELF INSIDE HER LIP#yep that was meee :3#man. it sounds so silly now. like that probably shouldn't have made me panic nearly as much as it did#but you have to understand at the time it was terrifying#I noticed my lip was a bit swollen earlier in the night but I was like ok it's probably nothing serious#I put some ice on it hoping it would be back to normal after I got some sleep#then I woke up at like 5:30 AM with my lip super swollen and my lip piercing literally burying itself inside my flesh#I tried pushing it back out a bit and blood and pus started coming out so yk I started panicking#so I went upstairs and I asked my mom to drive me to the hospital#luckily we have free healthcare in brazil and the hospital was basically empty(this was on sunday)#but when I got there they told me the doctor wouldn't arrive until 8AM and it was like 6:45 at that point#so I REALLY started panicking 🫠 bc I could feel like the piercing kept burying itself more deeply like#I felt like the skin inside my lip was going to close around it and I was terrified bc I had no idea what to do#and I was scared it might make things worse#but all I could do was sit there and wait and so I started having a panic attack#luckily my mom was there with me the whole time so at least I didn't feel alone#and then I just. waited for it to end. and then tried to keep myself distracted until the doctor got there#I got treated by military doctors! sjdjcjck the army has been giving additional support for hospitals in my city#bc of the floods some health units are currently closed and demand got higher so they needed extra support there#so an army doctor performed my surgery(inside an army tent no less ajfjjfkf maybe not ideal but. functional)#he was so nice?? like probably the calmest most careful doctor I've ever been treated by#I still had a bit of a nervous breakdown again after the surgery but that was bc I'd never been through something like that before#I got anesthesia obvs but I still felt the tug when he cut into my skin to remove the piercing and did my stitches#so my mind started cooking up all these horrible scenarios of how everything could go wrong and I was gonna die#cried on the doctor's table. 👍🏻 awesome#but he and his assistant were super nice about it she even offered me a hug#but anyway in the end I finally calmed down and got some medication#now I'm all stitched up with my little bloated lip eating soup out of a straw 👍🏻 but I'm ALIVE and I'm just glad it's all over fjjvjkf#sleep.txt
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You doing ok?
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#i'm alive. simply being chewed upon by multiple things#work is more stressful than i'd like it to be. for instance i'm hoping that i submitted my time off notification for tomorrow correctly#because otherwise it might read as a no call no show and i would . like to continue having a job#now to be fair. i do have it on the system that i requested it at the beginning of the month and i emailed my supervisor about it last week#so even if i didn't submit it correctly i'm likely in the clear#but nonetheless. i also got a firm talking-to the other day and now i am on ✨thin ice✨ for dicking around too much#because they track ur idle time at my work (computer) and mine was Quite High so my supervisor was like man what the hell is this#but even though she was kind of baffled at me spending so much time dicking around#she couldn't even really be all that mad in the end because i'm still doing good numbers and have made no (zero) mistakes#so she was just like. it's kind of impressive that your numbers look this good when you literally have 50% idle time#so she goes imagine what you could do if you weren't wasting so much time#and yeah i can whip out some Really Good Numbrers when i put the effort in.#so the problem is not my numbers it's just that i'm not spending long enough doing my tasks for the day#but i don't want to drag out those tasks intentionally so i've just been upping my own standards/goals#as much as i hate giving any more of my brain power than is necessary to giant corporations#it's still easy to feel smug after you get Talked To and then immediately turn around and show off#like yeah i coulda been doing this good the whole time. literally pulling up by 20 points. i just didn't want to.#trying to keep everyone's expectations low but accidentally toed the line of um. not working enough to keep my job#...anyway. EAS national weather system issued a . hi#i haven't forgotten about all of you i'm just having trouble tracking all my shit that i got going on ✨ yaaaaaaay#im gonna post things on AO3 soon. i promise. my weakness is that i get sidetracked trying to unwind from work#...i know i said 'soon' last time. but this time for real#asks#not sexy#anonymous
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oh pallas and agnes power dynamic you really are SO unbelievably fucked,,,,,
#haven’t been able to write in days so i am posting instead. forgive me.#it’s just so. like. okay pallas has all of the material power here that’s not a question they’ve got much stronger magic they#know how the library works they’re directly placed in a mentorship role at the beginning re agnes she depends on them#for everything.#but also#pallas is very much Not Doing Well mentally (<- understatement of the century) and is pathologically incapable of processing their own#emotions related to this AT ALL. and in the process of trying very very hard to get to Know pallas (so pallas will Like her so pallas will#want to keep her alive) agnes kind of comes to understand a lot of pallas’s issues even better than pallas does and pallas starts to depend#on her for emotional support in a way they NEVER have with anyone else.#and pallas’s ability to show vulnerability has been soooo wrecked beyond belief that to them doing things like sharing part#of their backstory and being visibily hurt around someone is tantamount to placing a knife in someone’s hand and#then circling all of their weak points with a giant red marker while going ‘HEY STAB HERE’#so in their mind by doing this they’re giving agnes an IMMENSE amount of power over them like enough to kill them dead even though very#little else has changed about their dynamic. so pallas believes that they’re standing on much more equal ground then they really are#and agnes partly believes it too she thinks that by seeing this much of how broken down pallas is she’s finally found the balance in their#relationship she’s finally found a way to make it stable. and yeah. to some extent this is true!#pallas DOES listen to agnes more than any other person agnes IS the first person in years to understand them this much pallas’s dependence#on her for their mental wellbeing DOES give her some measure of power over them. but that power is given out on pallas’s terms is the thing#whether they’re aware of that or not. agnes wouldn’t have anything if pallas didn’t actively choose to be vulnerable with her there’d be#no way she’d learn about anything no way she’d get to play this role in their life#they believe that this thing is much more equal much more sustainable than it really is (pallas especially) and they’re#literally all each other have#grabs your face are you listening THEYRE ALL EACH OTHER HAVE IN THIS PLACE THEYRE BOTH IN SUCH HORRIFIC SITUATIONS AND THEY R EATING#EACHOTGER TO SURVIVE!!!!#head in fucking hands#wip: ghost story#pallas and agnes
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you know. white liberals would be far less annoying (still deeply annoying) and far less difficult to take seriously (still deeply difficult) if they stopped lying to themselves and everyone else about what they were doing. ‘cause y’all either sound completely stupid and removed from reality at best or violently callous at worst.
(and before anyone fails their reading comprehension here, i am not telling anyone to vote or not vote or who to vote or not vote for. get off my dick.)
but no, you’re not doing “real leftism” by voting for kamala (something i have actually seen countless people say. “real leftists” would vote for kamala!!1!!1!! if you don’t vote for her ur not a “real leftist!!!!”). that’s not what that is. words mean things. you’re actually engaging in pretty textbook liberalism. it’s not “real leftism” to vote for a genocidal fascist who is actively employing genocidal fascistic policies both overseas and domestically, and who has pledged gladly to continue doing so. (again, bc this is the bad reading comprehension website, i’m not telling you if you vote for kkkamala ur not a “real leftist” (mostly because that’s meaningless); i’m saying that that act itself is not a """leftist""" action). if you feel the need to justify what you’re doing to yourself by pretending you’re doing ~real leftism~, stop.
you're not “stopping fascism” or “saving democracy” or whatever else. you’re not “stopping fascism” by voting for a fascist. you’re not “saving democracy” by voting for a fascist. if you genuinely can’t see in this current moment that kamala harris & the democrats are fascists, you are deliberately ignoring and excusing fascism as long as it’s happening to nonwhite people. it is willful, deliberate ignorance at this point and it is violent. you genuinely do not see victims of fascism unless it happens to white people.
you’re not “protecting palestinians” by voting for kamala. you’re not making their chances better or being better for them or improving their conditions. you’re not “more likely” to sway kamala on palestine; you can’t even threaten to withhold your support for her because of her wanton slaughtering of palestinians. 13 months of ongoing genocide and ongoing mass protest movements and multiple polls showing that she would literally guarantee the win in key swing states if she would just call for an arms embargo / ceasefire as part of her platform have not swayed her. she constantly, constantly reaffirms her willful, enthusiastic support of this genocide. she has said over and over again that she will not end her support for israel, that she would not have done anything differently than biden, that she has no intentions to stop sending israel arms and money so they can keep slaughtering palestinians and now lebanese. you are not “protecting” or helping palestinians by voting for her. keep their names out of your mouths.
you’re not protecting """minorities""" or """poc""" either. not when the candidate is a cop whose administration has already funneled billions of dollars into the police and the military, who is priding herself on wanting to create the most lethal military, on being tougher on the border&immigration than trump, who is happily continuing to perpetuate racist atrocity propaganda to justify the mass slaughter of palestinians, who continues to reaffirm and support the escalation of imperialism and war even elsewhere in the so-called middle east, who is gladly seeking (and securing) endorsements by racist white supremacist republicans (like dick fucking cheney. come on), whose administration has been for four years enthusiastically accelerating the climate crisis, whose campaign has been littered with examples of both their supporters and the politicians themselves being virulently racist. you’re not protecting us. you’re not helping us.
your candidate wants us dead. your candidate wants me dead. your candidate wants my people in iran dead. your candidate wants my sister peoples in palestine and in lebanon dead. your candidate is actively orchestrating their slaughter.
kamala might be better for you, white liberal american. fine. vote for her if you wish. no one is stopping you. but stop white knighting about it. stop pretending you’re doing this for anyone but yourself. stop lying to yourself and everyone else about what you’re doing. stop speaking over us the with fucking audacity that you’re somehow doing us a favor, and stop talking down to us, palestinians especially, like they are children who need to be ~explained~ the right way to save them. stick your white savior complex up your ass.
vote however you want, but stop lying about what you’re doing and who you’re protecting.
and if you want my vote too? fucking earn it.
#us politics#politics#genocide#kamala harris#liberal#joe biden#palestine#israel#racism#quasartalks#if dems wanted me to vote for them they’d stop being so fucking racist to me & people like me. they’d do the literal one (1) thing that the#statistic vast majority of usamericans want. but they won’t. they care less about winning the election — and less about /doing their job/#(you know - responding to the wishes of their constituents they represent) — than they do about being able to continue bombing hospitals#and burning children alive in tents. they would rather blow babies’ brains apart than win the election. they KNOW. that they would GUARANTE#A WIN. if they would STOP SLAUGHTERING PEOPLE. and they DO NOT CARE ABOUT WINNING ENOUGH TO DO IT. they dont care abt winning the election#enough to stop slaughtering civilians.#why should i care then? if they don’t? if they clearly don’t care enough to do the single thing that would guarantee the win?#you’re asking me to care about people who care more about killing me than they do winning the election. be so for fucking real.#and leave me alone. leave us alone.#vote for whatever you want. but keep our names out of ur mouths.#i’m going to try to have this b the only actual post abt this i make#but goddamn. dems are so disgustingly violently racist and you get madder at the ppl they deliberately denigrate than u do them for-#-alienating swaths of their voter base. y’all are a little too excited abt these racist maniacal genociders.#we see the way you celebrate racists. if kamala wins and you’re doing anything but breathing relief that trump is gone and strapping in to#actually 'pressure' kamala like u said u would? if i see any of you freaks Celebrating?? celebrating these racist wastes of space?#it’s on sight lmao
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L. Munir — Lazarus, Caravaggio —The Sacrifice of Isaac, Arthur Rimbaud — Ophelia, Dir. David Michôd — The King, Sabaa Tahir — A Torch Against the Night, Xooang Choi —The Wing, Raleigh Ritchie — Bloodsport, Karl Bryullov — The Last Day of Pompeii (detail), David Cronenberg— Consumed, Jesus is Scourged. —Chapel of Mount Aloysius College, Holyaches
I can’t even stomach being in the cathedral for more than a few hours at a time anymore. Like a churning deep in the helix of my dna rejects it. It’s part of me, this roiling rejection of lightness, as much as my dark hair and freckles, there is nothing I can do to comb it from my coat.
#web weaving#religious web weaving#toxic yearning#digital collage#sacrificing of isaac#my art#my writing#ughhhh the ocs are killing me guys#what if you were trapped at 19 alone and afraid and wanting so badly to live and to prove them all wrong and you make a cage made out#holy thorns to keep you safe and keep you small and keep the profound yearning inside you from eating you alive#and the holy father that held you down each night was the only reason you#ughjjj#and also you were a demon who’s body literally rejected the church
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I don't know especially with the lastest chapter (ch 265) this just feels so much like Yuuji.
Like especially in the first season people kept asking why he is doing all this, why he wants to save people, why he's beating himself up so much over people he barely knows. People kept wanting to know Yuuji's why and he couldn't explain it he was holding unto the promise he made to his granfther as an explanation but that wasnt really is.
And then you have Mahito who tried to force his own defintion of who yuuji was unto him and beat him down until Yuuji believed it too. He's just a machine killing curses because thats his nature vs Mahito killing humans cause thats his nature. They are beings of instinct slaves to their nature, cogs in the machine. And Yuuji internalizes that so much it weighs so heavily on him the idea that his job isnt to save people but kill curses doesn't sit right with him.
but then at what should be his lowest point he stares his biggest tormentor in the face and said you know what I don't particulalry care what you or anyone else thinks about my reasons. I don't think you have to have grand or innate reasons to do something. Sometimes you just do! and what yuuji wants, more than anything; more than killing curses more than keeping the "weak" safe, is to save his friends. And it's too late for a lot of them, Yuuji was too late but goddam it he won't be late for this. So fuck Sukuna he's bringing Megumi home.
#It's been a while since i did these because I've been off lately but hopefully will fall back into the rhytm of it or atleast once a week#It's also like you can see he has really interalized alot of the advice and love offered to him by Nanami and Higuruma#He'a not trying to kill himself in this fight#quoteoftheday#hell his plans seem to revolve around him making it out alive#Yuuji is finally learning that his life is worth saving and nothing not even Sukuna is worth throwing it away for.#Not when living means he can stick around and keep loving his friends#I mean I'm not even a#itafushi#shipper like that but I can't deny that they won that chapter#Megumi really bros last chance to prove that he can do more than put his friends in danger#Crazy that Yuuji literally started the culling game arc with megumi asking him to start by saving him and here he is starting#really about to be the only person yuuji saves how is that not a win#this latest chapter just relaly got to me it's been a while since I was geniunely excited for JJK.#the bi/weekly schedule really does not do these past final arc fights any favors#quote of the day#itadori yuuji#jjk yuuji#yuuji itadori#megumi fushiguro#jjk megumi#fushiguro megumi#jujutsu kaisen#jujutsu sorcerer#sukuna#ryoumen sukuna#ch 265#jjk manga#jjk#dark academia
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i had a really funny revelation that Crosshair and Echo were [during S3] and still are sharing the Havoc-4 call sign, probably even playfully fighting over it, now that Crosshair is back on the team,,
then i realized that Crosshair probably took up the Havoc-2 call sign because Tech is gone
IT STARTED OFF CUTE AND NOW I'M JUST REALLY SAD ALL OVER AGAIN 😭😭😭😭😭😭
#crosshair#echo#tech#the bad batch#star wars#lmao wait what am i doing??... i've already decided Tech is alive and well [in my AUs]#so fuck this i'm having Crosshair and Echo playfull banter and fight over who should have Havoc-4#omega is literally like ''i'll take havoc-6 that's totally fine then one of you can be 4 and the other 5''#but they're both playfully stubborn and refuse to be ''outranked'' by the other (ie neither wants to take havoc 5)#so they keep fighting over havoc 4 (but secretly they love sharing it) (neither will ever admit it)#(omg lolol IMAGINE THIS#crosshair: [badly wounded] i don't think i'm going to make it#echo: it's ok you're fine you're fine just hang in there#crosshair: echo... i want you... to have... the havoc 4 call sign... you always deserved it......#echo: .......you're about to die anyways so it's going to be mine regardless#crosshair: fuck you!!!! [stands up] lmao i'm totally fine it's just a ketchup packet i had in my pocket#echo: christ you're such a shithead havoc-5#crosshair: carry me to the medbay havoc-5
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It shouldn't need to be said but I'm seeing a lot of vitriol towards Ashton about their actions and I have to say I don't agree with them.
At the clock tower Fearne brought up the shard, stated that in her opinion Ashton should take the shard because she didn't want it. Ashton decided then as a result they'd take it, but because it was an extreme risk made very aware to them all they knew the other Hells wouldn't allow them to go through with it. Ashton asked Fearne if she was okay with both of them going together alone with the plan, reiterating that they didn't want to put this on Fearne, that if they died Fearne would not be to blame, and that they have no intention of dying, and Fearne said yes.
Fearne having second thoughts at the Ziggurat was just worry, because she cares deeply for Ashton, Ashton kissing her was not manipulation either; it was letting go of fear, having no regret with the person they also care deeply for and taking the risk. And yeah, it was frightening, 10 rounds of perpetual fiery near-death situations and one actual death situation; Laura is fuming, Ashley cannot look, Liam is playing Mad World on loop in his mind, even Matt is completely on edge, but they survived. Accusations that Ashton manipulated Fearne to selfishly take the shard seem to misinterpret the shard saga as well as Fearne and Ashton's characters, they will get a very intense amount of chastising for sure, but it will be out of love, out of the fear that they were going to lose them, not because they thought Ash was manipulative.
#critical role#bells hells#ashton greymoore#taliesin jaffe#fearne calloway#ashley johnson#laura bailey#matt mercer#Ashton literally is comprised of things that shouldn't exist of course they're gonna not heed warnings when Fearne didn't want it#the group are stressed but I don't believe there's heat#if I recall 4sd is aired after an unaired episode so Tal Travis Matt and Ashley were happily vibing from that despite having already played#Tal and Ashley agreed on this gambit they just underestimated how bad it'd go#and I would wager that Tal knew he could lean on the ring to save Ashton at least once#overall no I don't think Ashton intended to manipulate or hurt anyone and in trying to shoulder it alone they were trying to be selfless#but reminder Ashton is 6 charisma they aren't gonna express their intentions too well#the Hells are rightfully so mad for making them worry but in the end they're just gonna be grateful Ashton's alive#also I have to make a point that Fearne said 'I shouldn't have listened to you' not 'I shouldn't have trusted you' there's a big difference#and Tal hasn't tried to wriggle or bargain out of it he's had Ashton accept all frustration because they know it's from a loving place#critical role spoilers#sorry for multiple edits I keep seeing me unconsciously use he/him and I have to fix it plus I have more to say but nobody to say it to
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1 out of 4 accelerated summer courses finished today. Next to go is Chem.
#i have not told my friends who are being supportive of me going to college#but i am very behind on chem#pretty much on top of english and psych#mind you the chem isn't hard it's just very time consuming and i work 50 hrs a week overnight#not even by choice on some level there's just literally nobody to work overnights#and It Is Such A Problem my single other coworker keeping nightshift alive at this 24/7 job and i are ... we have rioting to do#but anyways this is largely because i was having troubles with my adhd meds#and then hit the self destructive dread#which is such an odd problem to have when every other part of you is banging on the walls ready to go and kick ass#but so it goes#but i will catch up because i must and i want to and because i must#and because i didn't realize most of the people in my bio class were also going for the nursing program#i love the people on my bio class i'm super excited now#archivist talk#the archivist regrets starting nursing school#the archivist will get through it they just have to whine about it a little first#i was telling the archival assistants (my cats) but frankly one is too busy getting the zoomies and the other is trying to figure out#the best place to lay on me#and i shall not disturb her#my fair lady of orange#okay i work at 7P goodnight
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