#you know sometimes i feel bad for badmouthing her so much

[an-absolute-nightmare]

it's funny how any decision i ever make that my mom doesn't like is something i do to her and any decision she refuses to take that would improve her life is me shifting blame onto her and nothing is ever her fault and everything wrong with her was done to her and the only times she has ever been wrong was when she is guilt tripping me but don't you dare ever imply to her that she's guilt tripping, oh god no, how dare you imply that her ''heartfelt'' apology (that consists of her taking all the blame and not even a little responsibility) is an attempt to guilt trip you, you're the problem, you just don't want to take responsibility of your life, you're just wasting opportunities served to you on a golden platter, you just picked the easier path, you just picked the harder path, jesus fucking christ mother i really don't want to say it but the truth is this, that for someone who never took a stand for her own life, you sure have opinions to offer about mine

[noirvette]

WE NEVER EXISTED

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[FOURTEEN]

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note: the black italics is Michael singing. The lyrics aren't in order though haha

"You guys out there don't mind if we play a cover right?" Michael calls out to the crowd. The crowd responds with loud cheers.

The guitar strum of 'Black Hole Sun' by Soundgarden starts to fall over the crowd's ears. The crowd cheers in delight at the prospect of this particular cover. From the sidelines as you watch the band; Graveyard Soldiers, your openers for the night play, you couldn't help but get into the groove of Michael's captivating voice.

"In my eyes"

Michael, last name unknown, he keeps it mysterious like that; is the band's front line singer, and electric guitarist. Last member, and from what Kyle told you was the whole reason this band (Graveyard Soldiers, not your band) nearly didn't happen.

"In disguises no one knows"

Pete Thelman, back up singer and plays the bass guitar, you and him had a fun time talking about what were the best bass guitarists of all time earlier. Second member, he was awkward, but overall a refreshing person to talk too.

"Lies the snake"

Henrietta Biggle, lead guitarist and sometimes keyboardist. She kept to herself mainly, but loved to talk to about music with you and Nichole. First member, she started this band to raise money to help find her missing brother. You remember the day he went missing, your band even helped pitch in with money before.

"Boiling heat.. summer stench"

Firkle Smith, drummer; absolute menace. He was scary, intimidating in a way you'd never thought was possible. He was nice, polite when needing to be but you know what they say about how the eyes are windows to the soul... He was the third member to join.

"Call my name"

From the corner of your eye you can spot Kyle walking over towards you, "They're good yeah?" He tilts his head towards the Graveyard Soldiers.

"Yeah! I'm really loving their style, I've heard their eps and now that they got an album, I'm excited to listen to more of their stuff." You gush.

"And I'll hear you scream again."

Kyle hums and you see his face become more serious, "Stan told me that Cartman's worming his way into causing havoc for you, that true Y/n?"

"Won't you come?"

Sighing, you look away from him and back towards the stage, "I really don't know. Cartman's never really interacted with me too much before, now he's tagging me in an update about his podcast? He even called me like four days ago. I'm sure it was a misclick, considering I say his name pop up for maybe three seconds before it disappeared."

"Cold and damp"

"God I hate him so much. You'd think he'd leave us alone, but he uses our band as a way to gather more fame for himself. Miserable bastard."

"For honest men"

You've never really seen Kyle badmouth anyone, sure for Cartman it's warranted and you've heard of the weird friendship they used to have, before it fell apart suddenly in high school. However it's still a bit surprising to you, seeing as Kyle makes it a point to be amicable towards everyone, even if he's not the biggest fan of them.

"In my youth, I pray to keep"

"It's fine, Kyle. He's a dickhead sure and he's the world's biggest attention seeker but that's all he really is. An attention seeker. No matter what he's going to do tonight, I'm not letting his bad mood ruin one of our best nights."

Kyle sets his hand on your shoulder and squeezes, "If he continuously causes trouble for you, let me know. You've helped me out a lot Y/n, let me return the favor. Besides, beating up Cartman is an easy task, it's refreshing seeing him get knocked down a peg."

"No one sings like you anymore...

Black hole sun"

Kyle removes his hand from your shoulder and you can still feel the warmth of his hand. "Thanks Ky, I doubt I'll need you to go extreme like that but if he becomes an even bigger thorn in my side, you'll be the first to know."

"And wash away the rain"

A bemused smirk dawns Kyle's face, "First? To know? Over Nichole?"

You chuckle, "Okayyy.. so maybe not the exact first, but it's the thought that counts? Right?"

"Won't you come?"

"Yeah, maybe when you're not lying.. miss L/n," Kyle teases,.

Your face holds one of mock annoyance as Kyle teases you and as Graveyard Soldiers do the instrumental part of the song you and Kyle just stand there, looking at each other.

"Hang my head... drown my fear... till you all just disappear"

"They're ending soon, make sure to do your last tune in." Kyle softly says.

"Won't you come"

"Got it captain!" You head further in towards the back to quick test your guitars, leaving Kyle to himself.

"And wash away the rain?"

Kyle turns to the band performing as Michael repeats the last lines of the post chorus.

You had decided to not bother checking twitter nor Cartman's podcast episode during the set change, the whole band decided against it, not for a lack of curiosity, but considering set changes were so hectic. You were curious, the nausea feeling of not knowing the answer to any form of a question of "why" eating at you.

You weren't even sure if Cartman had gone live, you doubted it, the crowd was just having a fun time talking to each other from what you saw when you peeked around the curtains earlier. Some people were on there phones but you doubt it was for Cartman.

In all honesty, you didn't need the stress of Cartman in your mind. What you needed was to give South Park the best god damn show you've ever done. You've grown a lot since your last big performance here, hell the whole band has grown.

So instead of giving Cartman another thought, you focused your mind on the set change.

Set changes were annoying, it's why Clyde actually hated having opening bands or opening for other bands like you have done in the past. Of course, opening bands were good in your eyes, it paved the way to allowing the crowd to experience new bands or genres.

"Dude, where did you put my drumsticks?" Clyde asked one of the stage workers in passing.

"Clyde. They're on your seat on stage." The worker replied, you could hear the disbelief in their tone. You couldn't help but feel bad for them.

With that, the worker left and Clyde was standing there like an idiot, but he was your guys' idiot and you had to let him do his own thing.

However, Clyde had a point to complain, the backstage workers going insane as they try and get everything put together properly did take a toll on you even. The quick instrument check before they were put up on the stage by the stage crew. Lights crew making sure they'd have no problem.

You could see Craig was munching on some crackers, having the time of his life knowing all he had to do was go on stage and take pictures of the band and the crowd and then call it a night.

Beside him, Nichole was going insane on making sure the stage looked absolutely perfect even though it'd be too late to change anything right now.

"Y/n! You don't think the stage is ugly right? I've been staring at this one sheer cloth placement that Craig took a pic for me, bless him, anyhow for like twenty minutes. It just looks off to me." Nichole rushed over to you, a picture on her phone that Craig took.

You look down at the picture, "Nicky.. the cloth is fine, besides Craig took the photo at angle look," You gently grabbed her phone and tilted it to the right, that way the picture was centered.

"Oh thank you, I was nervous that it was off center this entire time, I was about to jump on stage to fix it. Good thing I didn't it was just Craig's poor photography skills."

Craig looked at the two of you with a pointed look of "What the fuck" written all over his face; "You know, how about you guys find a NEW photographer then."

"Nooooo! Craig I'm sorryyyyyy." Nichole drawled. And the two started going back and forth.

Kyle looking lost as he ran out of things to do but you could see stress and worry marks all over his face as he ran through every scenario in which the band suddenly had the worst experience performing. Stan not caring about anything, he was really just taking in everything while he was doing last minute vocal warm ups.

You hadn't bothered to say anything to Kyle as he was trying to do something; not because you didn't want to but because you're not even sure Kyle would hear you. Whenever he got into this stressed manager mode (or as Clyde would call it; normal Kyle Broflovski), he tended to tune people out.

Tweek was playing with Craig's camera, or.. a spare. You doubt Craig would ever let Tweek handle his camera. There were three things Craig loved in the world; Tweek, his guinea pigs, and his camera.. but no matter how much Craig loved Tweek that camera did cost a whole lot.. and it was Craig's profession.

The lights were dimming out.. which meant go time. Everyone else paused and got into show business mode. You shook the nerves out of your body. No matter how many performances you did, you doubt that you'd ever go on stage without some sort of performance anxiety.

"Good luck guys! Have fun out there!" You hear Kyle call out as you all start to head out onto stage.

"You too!" Clyde responds before smacking his forehead with his hand.

From the podcast studio, Cartman and Heidi go live.

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[mioyeo]

8 makes 1 Team

No matter how different, without one of us there is no 8 makes 1 Team

Synopsis : In which 8 boys build a friendship despise of their differences with the help of a psychiatrist

Pairing : psychiatrist! Reader x Ateez (for now )

Warnings : this chapter includes mentions of , depression , crying , yelling , break downs, slapping , secrets being revealed, influential parents , threatening , talks of suicide, arguing , overworking, please tell me if I forget something , and I’m not romanticizing disorders in anyway and this is pure fiction meaning this doesn’t represent Ateez or their families in any type of way

For every new chapter I’ll place this (🟢) beside it in the masterlist so you guys know that the chapter is new and was posted recently

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Word count : 1,5k

San’s backstory

Evening sky deepened into blue and purple as the wind swayed together with the leaves leaving a calm but breezy feeling against his skin

He had just finished his night self-learning classes and was on the way home

The thing is San didn't want to go home yet , he never wanted to return home and have to hear his dad's rambling about his business meetings

Or his parents praising his sister for being a top student and winning all sorts of awards

The boy was tired already, not only were his parents pushy but everyone and everything was to much for him to handle

His mental health hasn't been improving like how he wanted too , and it wasn't easier to get it to improve with many people expecting him to follow their commands

Crying at night to relieve stress wasn't a thing anymore , after being giving a lecture of how he didn't have the right to cry if everything is being provided to him without hesitation by his parents

Never understood why crying and feeling down was basically taboo in his household , he admitted to being weak sometimes but in the eyes of others it was seen as unacceptable

You can't always expect someone to be always on their best , there a good days just as there are bad days

It's been a long time he's been depressed, nobody knew but himself about his condition

He even had a therapist that he had sessions with secretly behind his parents backs

They'd faint if they found out that their so perfect son was crumbling onto pieces each day , having unpleasant thoughts he didn't wish to have

Grabbing the keys he unlocked the front door seeing everyone at the  dinner table enjoying themselves chitchatting

" Ah San you're home , how was school? "

His mother asked without even looking at him making him feel invisible in his own house

" I-It was alright "

He removed his shoes and made his way toward his room but was stopped

" Your sister won a award today for the math championship that was held at your school why didn't you participate? "

Unpleasant stares fixed themselves on him

" It was for the advanced class and I'm not advanced in the math area "

" You should've tried, your sister always gets awards for things while your useless sel-"

" Honey , let him be "

San's dad scoffed as he set his utensils down

" How his he going to take care of the family business if he's useless ?! "

" But he's still just a kid honey "

His mom tried calming down her husband that grew angrier the more he looked at his son

" Haneul started since she was little ! There is no exception for him ! "

The boy teared up as he stood there in his uniform listening as his dad badmouthed him

" I-I'm sorry , but I don't want to be like her , all she does is study all the time and it's tiring "

" How will you get successful one day if you don’t work for it ?”

A loud banging against the table was heard

" I want to be able to enjoy my own life and not be bossed around like Haneul "

He teared up looking into his moms eyes who looked away

" I didn't raise you to do some silly job , you will never archive something in life that way ! "

A glass got thrown towards San making him dodge it in shock

" Honey ! Stop this nonsense "

"Dad , leave him alone he'll study I'll help him "

Haneul stuttered rushing towards her brother that clutched his shirt crying

" He's a disgrace! how will I ever trust yo-"

" I don't want to be fucking trusted with something I don't even want to do Dad ! I can't take it anymore seeing your face every day and having to hear this bullshit you call discipline!"

San yelled cutting off his Dad that widened his eyes since he never expected him to yell

" I'm fucking tired of you Dad , I'm depressed and your not helping my mental health the slightest! all you talk about is your dumb ass business that Haneul doesn't even want to take over as well ! Your egoism is making me sick "

" Look how your talking to me boy ! "

" I won't ! , I'm tired I wish I could've jumped from that building that night but I'm weak like you said I'm that dumb useless child right ? "

Tears burned the boys eyes as his Dad stood up angrily

" But do you know who's the useless one between us Dad ? It's you your weak an- "

" I told you to watch the way your speaking to me boy I'm your Dad ! "

His dad charged towards him landing a hard slap across his face

" Dad ? do you call yourself that ? "

San held his throbbing cheek chuckling

" You're just a sad nobody that takes out his anger on his children because they don't seem to keep up with his stupid morals and standards! "

His sister sobbed silently as her mom looked at her

" You make me sick ! Don't you see that everyone else here is tired of you ? Especially mom and haneul who have been keeping up to you like hungry  dogs "

" San honey let's stop ok ? "

His mom tried calming him down but was brushed off him

" I don't want to play the little obedient boy anymore I'm done with this game "

" You must have been out of  your mind "

" Yeah I'm out of my mind , I'm mentally unstable because of the type of a Dad I have "

The boy laughed and clapped his hands

" I wish I could've jumped that day and give your little business buddies a show on your birthday , how would the news be I ask myself "

" San stop it please "

" The Son of Choi enterprise jumps from roof because of his Dad , doesn't that sound amazing ? "

" Choi San I'm warning you "

" Maybe I'll jump today to ease your pockets about my education since I'm such a failure right ? "

His Dad grabbed him forcefully and shook him

" Honey let him go ! "

His mom teared up while his sister stood up and grabbed San

" Why are you doing this ! I told you I'd handle Dad so you can get out of this "

“ You didn’t handle anything, you just sat there and watched me crumble in his hands "

A harsh slap was landed on his face making everyone look at her as she cried uncontrollably

" Enough San , you will go get help I'm tired to clean after your mess I have my own issues "

The younger laughed and composed himself

" Oh you mean Dad's rival son you've been sneaking around with ? And that you got k- "

" Don't you dare "

She looked at him in disbelief as he approached her again

" Why don't you tell them that their little princess got knocked up and has been threatening me to keep it a secret huh ? Oops now they know "

" Haneul , what is he talking about ? "

“ Yeah Haneul what am I talking about , want me to show them ? ”

San scoffed and went upstairs towards his room as she yelled after him

“ Why are you doing this to me ? ”

“ What is going on here ?! "

Their Dad entered San’s room looking at him as he retrieved a box from his closet before dumping everything on the floor

“ As you guys can see with the both healthy eyes you guys have , Haneul is pregnant "

“ Tell me this is not true ”

His mother trembled in disbelief as she eyed the tests , sonograms and baby shoes on the floor

“ Not only that but when you guys went on business trips , she used to drug me so I could sleep while she threw a huge ass party here at home "

Haneul clenched her teeth as angry tears left her eyes

“ Is it true ? Is what San is saying true ! ”

“ N-No Dad he’s just making bad jokes , tell him it’s not true San ”

She approached the younger as she pleaded with her eyes for him to reconsider

“ You know I’m tired of repeating the same cycle everyday, I’m tired off feeling empty every single time and moment , I just want to be away from you guys a hot minute without having to worry about anything other than myself ”

Everyone looked at him as he pulled up his shirt showing bruises

“ This is what is been done to me because I’m weak , lock me up somewhere or put me in a mental hospital for all I care I just want to be away from you guys I’m tired I can’t anymore "

He fell to his knees begging

“ Please I’m begging you mom "

Mr Choi looked around in disbelief as he clenched his jaw before pointing at his son

“ I’m telling you this , if I put you in a mental hospital you will never be seen as my son again do you understand ? don’t talk to me , don’t even call me the word dad anymore because I didn’t raise a wimpy child in my house mark my words "

His mom teared up following after her husband that shed tears of frustration

“ I despise you , I hope you rot in there ”

Haneul slammed his door leaving him all alone to himself again , but this time with no one to lean on

[thewritetofreespeech]

Could I request Kazuki, Rei, and Kyutarou with a super sweet s/o losing it when she hears someone badmouthing or hurting them?

Buddy Daddy Boys + Protective S/O

Kazuki

He was too good natured for his own good sometimes.

Sure he’s a contract killer, but he wants to see the good in people too. Give them the benefit of the doubt. When someone is being rude or mean to him, he just tries to brush it off and keep going.

Which is a little hard to do when someone has his collar in their fist.

“Come on man. Relax. It’s just a game.”

“You owe me money!” The hulk of a man yelled in his face, as he demanded the money back from the bet he just lost. And for some reason blamed Kazuki for.

“I can’t really give you any money if you’re holding me here. Plus, I just lost all my cash too. Why don’t we use my last buck to grab a beer and drown our sorrows.”

“I don’t want a beer!” The blonde’s natural charms not working on him. “I want my money! Either you give it to me or I’m gonna take it out on your face.”

‘Aw geez….’ He really didn’t want to resort to violence in his favorite casino. He’d like to come back some day.

“Hey!” The two men look over the hulk’s shoulder at s/o standing there. “Put him down now.”

The man growled. “Or what?!”

“Or you’re about to feel what 800 volts feels like on your asshole.” An ominous chatter from their pocket taser, poised just at the brute’s backside, sounded. Letting him know that he might get one hit, but he wasn’t going to get another.

The man grit his teeth, realizing he’d rather not get intimate with their taser, and roughly let Kazuki down before stalking off. “You really didn’t have to do that.”

“Yes I did.” S/O argued. “You refuse to stand up for yourself. So I have to do it for you.”

“By threatening a man with a taser?”

“When the situation allows.” Kazuki smirked at their reply as they put the taser away. “Let’s go. I think your luck has run dry.”

“Yeah sure.” He agreed. And for once, left before he was completely penniless this time.

Rei

Unlike Kazuki, Rei never sees the good in people.

He always assumes that people are selfish, horrible, mean bastards who are only out for themselves. His childhood taught him that.

Because of this he’s never surprised when people act bad or cruelly to him. He just takes it and keeps it in before letting it go. His childhood taught him that too.

“Excuse me.” Rei glanced to his left when he realized [Y/N] was standing there. Her face scrunch in a fussy brow as they confronted the laughing group of teens that just cut in front of him. “The line is back that way.”

“Oh come on.” One of the teens replied, shrugging them off. “It’s not a big deal. We’ll all get to the front of the line eventually. No reason to make a scene.”

“But….controller…..” Rei muttered under his breath. There were two things that would willingly get him out of the house for the day: work and the release of the new Morio Kart: Race Across the Universe game. To promote it, the store was also giving away a commemorative controller with each new game purchaser for the first 100 buyers. Rei had gotten up early and been standing in line all day for the sale to start. Only to have these kids jump the line and mess up his precise count.

“There won’t be a scene if you just go to the back of the line.” [Y/N] told them.

“Ugh. God. Chill out ok. I’m just getting this stupid new game for my brother. We were just late because we were studying for finals. Our education is important.” The one and only girl in the pack whined.

“And yet you haven’t learned anything.”

The girl, with way too much makeup on in Rei’s opinion, frowned; making the creases in her makeup worse. “Listen, lady. I need to get this game for my kid brother or my parents will be pissed. Besides, aren’t you a little old to be interested in games like this?”

“Are you a little old to not know how lines work? Or color matching for that matter?”

The girl looked ready to boil, but then stormed off in a huff instead. The boys, who apparently were as dumb as they looked, didn’t know what to do so they just took off after her. Getting out of the line and letting Rei resume his properly counted place. “Thank you.”

“For what? I just can’t stand rude people.” Still, Rei smiled just a little at her and the line continued.

They each bought a copy of the game. Rei promised to pay her back, but he really wanted two controllers for him and Miri. Of course, [Y/N] couldn’t say no. “Next time someone cuts in front of you in line, why don’t you hip check them into the bushes.”

“My hips aren’t big enough for that.”

Kyutarou

Owning a bar was a lot of work. People often stayed away, since it was more off the beaten path, but every now and then he’d get a crowd looking for that and be packed. Kyutaro tried his best to maintain, as the only bartender, and was very grateful he had a supportive significant other willing to pitch in and play waitress when need be.

“Hey! Barkeep! More beer!”

Kyutaro sighed as he settled up the tab of one of the customers, before going over to the drunk patron at the end of the bar. “I think you’ve had enough sir. Why don’t I get you a complimentary coffee while I settle your bill.”

“Coffee?? Who the hell wants coffee? I drink enough of that crap at work.” The drunk pounded down what was left in his glass and slammed it down on the bar. “If off the clock. I want beer!”

“I’m not giving you anymore.”

The bar fly glared at him (or as much as they could with how drunk they were). “Listen four-eyes!” Kyutaro was taken aback. Not only was it rude, but no one had called him ‘four eyes’ since grade 3. “I said I want more beer and you’re gonna give it to me! I got money. You got beer. What’s the problem?!”

“Besides you’re completely sauced?”

The men look up at [Y/N]. Tray of empty glassware in one hand and the other on her hip. “Come on man. Time to call it a night before this gets any uglier. You’re not gonna talk to the owner like that.”

“Oh yeah?!” The man tried to get up off his bar stool. He did, but with legs about as shaky as a new born deer. “I’ll…talk to whoever I want however I want. You’re not gonna stop me!”

[Y/N] huffed and sat their tray down. “Look,” she told him, “either you can leave on your feet or leave on your ass. Pay your bill like a man and go. Otherwise, I’m gonna throw you out of here like a cartoon character. Ever literally been thrown out of a bar? There’s no coming back from that.”

Despite his brain being pickled, the man seemed to realize that this wasn’t a good idea and surrendered. Although loudly as he continued to grumble as he pulled out some cash, threw it on the bar, and wobbled his way out. “Think he’ll be ok?”

“Who cares?” [Y/N] replied as they counted out the bills. “After that four-eyes crack he can getbuddy his by a cab for all I know.”

“That’s rather cruel.” Despite this, Kyutaro still chuckled at the remark.

“So,” [Y/N] said as they looked up at him through their lashes. “I like your glasses. He shouldn’t have made fun of them.”

Kyutaro smirked and started cleaning the glasses she’d just brought over. “Well, thank you. And thank you for your help.”

[lovelyrose20]

Listen I know it’s a lot is happening and normally I don’t like making posts about giant dramas of the day because I’m gonna be real here. I don’t give a damn for the little shit and sometimes it’s just tiring But I think the biggest problem when it comes to the community is the fact that people tend to try to split things between each other or try to go to two opposite extremes even if it’s something small

Like oh Quackity is a horrible asshole who didn’t respond to Dream for a few week and totally know about the harassment including the awful threats against his family

I’m not an expert but unless I missed something and the threats were actively in the top search of QSMP or Quackity tags in the Spanish side of things talking about all those horrible things involving Dream’s family. I highly doubt that Quackity would’ve read all of them, and even if he did, it will probably just be saying bad things, not straight up, threatening and making assassination attempts over a minecraft server because I doubt he would be happy at the threats even if he didn’t say it publicly. I think there’s a better way he could’ve handle it rather than just ignoring it and hoping that if he just not feed the mob, they would calm down eventually since sometimes a Twitter mob would not calm down even if you give it time. But that doesn’t mean he deserve harassment over it or being called an awful friend or people badmouthing his server and the people in it because of stupid decision on his part.

Oh Dream secretly want people to be harassed and that’s the reason why he wrote a a 10 page Twitter post.

Whatever you feel about him now and even though that, I think there’s better ways to explain the situation, and airing out friendship beef is not a good idea on principle because that would just make the situation worse, explaining that you want your friend to tell his community not to harass people and talking about how you were threatened over the similarities of a Minecraft server that we don’t even know is copying shit, with the only thing being that they are multiple languages and because he got bad timing is not him being an asshole. The worst I will say is that he was being irresponsible and emotional ass, but I don’t think he was being evil or trying to induce a riot. Especially when it’s involved his family being in danger which would pissed anyone off

Tommy shouldn’t be making a joke about the situation and he’s being a bastard or Tommy have every right to make that joke and it’s a good sign that he hated Dream or something

Buddy, don’t you consider the fact that maybe Tommy made a joke because he thought it was funny and didn’t think it through. We’re talking about the kid who wants to make sure that his closest friends approve of some of the skits that he played. Like I remember when people are concerned Tubbo is super mad during the wedding video only for Tubbo to say yeah I wasn’t upset. It wouldn’t shock me if he ask Quackity and Dream about it. Plus, even if he did step out of line and he deserve to be someone called out for it. That don’t means that it’s a not for him to be dox and his family threatened. Some people try to say that since he hate Dream so much, he should’ve deleted his videos with him. Like he made one video making a joke that probably didn’t land well. You could be uncomfortable, You can call him out, hell you could stop watching him after. But threatening his mom to hurt her to supposedly get her to talk to her son is not gonna make things faster. In fact, that would make things worse because guess what no one likes being threat over a joke. We can say that he made a bad joke, and you shouldn’t have made it because for multiple reasons, but that’s not an excuse to threaten him. And if we go by the logic that this video means that he hates him what does that mean for people like Phil who he made joke about does that mean he hates them too? Especially since some of the people we make jokes are all his friends, so should we assume that he hates them?

But no, these people is evil because they made a bad joke or because they didn’t show attention to a situation and because they look at several things that they’re totally evil and such and they never care about their friends and they’re horrible idiot who do so much wrong, and should be grounds for harassing them

Doesn’t that sound familiar?

These creators are not gods or the devil. They’re people and We can criticize them about making posts that also give away friendship drama while I do acknowledge that maybe they have a right to be upset when they were literally being tracked in their goddamn car

We can acknowledge that that joke isn’t funny because hey, I know this seems pretty ridiculous to you and you want to make a small little jab about it, but we got harassed over it without deciding to turn around and do the same goddamn thing to that person

We can criticize people without deciding to make them hear from here like we can criticize people without telling their mom that you’re going to assault her unless she tell her son to cool it, and we can criticize them without making dramatic posts about how there’s totally evil now and how because they made one bad decision in a friendship or in a relationship. Suddenly, they are pure evil and now you’re going on a giant rant they’re actually an evil bastards who don’t deserve attention.

They deserve to be criticize and told what they did wrong, and how to improve without their families getting hurt in the process.

Edited it because my grammar was somewhat shit.

[fizziepopangel]

A Fizziepop Take: Let's talk about the (soon to be) ex-wife from hell

I’m not sure about everyone, but I personally have always loved villains and morally gray characters. Maybe it’s because I grew up in a lot of fucked up situations where no one was every really the “good guy”, not even the people I loved and trusted…. So I learned early on that bad guys aren’t always bad and even when they are, being bad isn’t always as bad as it seemed to be made out by everything on tv and in books. Having this way of thinking from a young age, it’s no surprise that some of my favorite characters in books and movies tend to be the villains. Now, as much as I love Stolas (and want his relationship with Blitz to work), I’ve kinda into Stella on this ‘I want my husband dead’ trip, and after watching “Western Energy” a few times, I think I figured out why and I can’t be the only one who feels like this, so let’s get into it!.

If you know how most villains are written and portrayed, a lot of them have some sort of reason for doing whatever fucked up thing they're doing. Sometimes the excuse is a tragic backstory, or an unrequited love, or a fear that they just don’t seem to deal with very well, or to gain power over another being/beings or even keep power they already have, in some cases mental illness is even villainized in the media (which sucks since it’s not always portrayed in a realistic manner when it’s used as a reason for someone being "villainous" and ends up stigmatizing an entire group of people who suffer from the illness in ways that aren’t dramatized for the entertainment of the masses.).... But all of these reasons tend to be on the list of the reasons the villain, and the audience, try to justify whatever messed up shit they’re doing…. But here’s the thing, sometimes a person doesn’t have a reason to be an absolute fucked up beyond repair, horrible person, they just like being that way. That’s what we see with Stella.

See, Stella doesn’t have a horrible tragic past to blame her cruelty on. Stolas never abused her, if anything he did his best to try to make their marriage work despite the abuse she put him through for what seems to be the entirety of their relationship. And it seems she’s never even had to smell poverty or what fear would smell like when it’s her own. As of right now, there is no reason for her cruelty that we can see except for pure enjoyment, with her even at one point telling Stolas "I like tormenting you!" when asked why she's still in his house despite having moved out pretty much completely at that point. She enjoys making Stolas’ life miserable and she hates the man enough that she tells her brother that she’d laugh when he dies and even has to be convinced to keep him alive to figure out how to get money from him since she’d likely get nothing when he dies. The woman has no regard for anyone’s life but hers unless she’s making someone else feel beyond miserable.... And, as much as I love Stolas, I love the cruelty Stella processes and how she seems to aim it all toward him, especially because she doesn’t in anyway try to hide the fact that she’s an evil bitch and she doesn't even try to. Whether she’s telling her husband that she likes making him miserable or badmouthing him to friends and family with him standing a few feet away, or even giddily admitting to her brother that she’s hired the assassin that kidnapped and off her husband, the woman has zero shame and as easy as it is to dislike her for actively hurting a fan favorite character, the sheer size of Stella’s metaphorical balls makes me love her. Despite being a ditzy, bitchy ex-wife and a bad mother from what most of us believe, and her literally torturing one of my favorite characters for sheer pleasure, Stella has earned a spot as one of my favorite villains, and moved up in the ranking of my favorite Helluva Boss antagonists. 

The woman is a horrible, cold hearted, monster on the levels she’s been placed on within the show and it's literally shown that it's been that way since she was a child…. And I think that’s what makes her such a good character despite her being written very flatly otherwise. Viv made Stella a character that’s so easy to love to hate, which is something I believe every show needs. I think that’s awesome considering so many people still think that a villain needs to be made; forged in tragedy, warped by trauma, and bathed in fear and heartbreak when in reality, cruelty isn’t always something people are gifted through bad experiences. As much as we hate to admit it, some people just enjoy the way cruelty tastes and hate the way happiness looks on someone who isn’t them. Stella is a wonderful example of a villain who chose to be the way they are just because they find amusement in it. Nothing else. And call me crazy, but I love that for her and I want to see more scenes like in “Western Energy” where you can see that she knows what she’s doing isn’t just cruel, but villainous and she enjoys it. But like every post I make ranting and over analyzing the fictional world of imps and hellhounds and all of this, this is just a Fizzie take on things I probably spend too much time thinking about. But let me know what you think about Stella, and villains in general. It’s always a topic I’m down to see different perspectives and opinions on.

[little-birdseeker]

Growing Wings - Ch.9 - Her Descision

[<- Chapter 8: Weaver Among The Rogues]

The day could have been a good one. Fantastic even! Just a tiny bit of paperwork for their mission yesterday. There had been rumors about some smugglers, so she went with Isabelle to check. But in the end, they found nothing. In fact it had turned out someone had actually spread the rumors in bad faith to badmouth these poor people. And it had gone oh so smooth, as Isabelle had done an impressive job in gaining the trust of the poor merchants. Honestly, R’namo hadn’t expected it going that smooth, but whatever. She was proud of the girl and how much she has grown, even though there was still oh so much to do. But as things turned out, time was growing short.

“R’namo!”, someone yelled at her after they had slammed the door open, making her ears and tail go straight up as R’namo nearly fell from the chair she was sitting on.

“What?! Lena, by the gods, wha- why are you- what happened?!”

The lalafell in the door frame looked miserable - how much did she run to be gasping for air now? And what was Jon doing behind her, of all people?

“It’s… Isabelle…”, Lena managed to say, still out of breath.

“What happened to her? Who do i have to kill?!” In mere seconds R’namo stood in front of the visitors, equipped with a set of daggers, ready to face whoever needed to speak with her weapons.

“Namo, chill, nothing like that”, Jonathan tried to calm down the Miqo’te by placing a hand on her shoulder.

“And what makes you think that?”

“Lena told me already.”

Both looked down to the young woman that tried so hard to not collapse on the spot. Someone was in need of some special constitution training, that was for sure.

“She- *huff* said she *huff* wants to *huff* leave”, she managed to say.

“Leave?!”

“As in ‘Leave Limsa’, Namo.”

It took a few seconds - and some huffs from Lena - for R’namo to realize the situation they were all in.

“Yeah”, Jon sighed after a while, once R’namo had cycled through various emotions in the span of mere seconds.

“You are kidding, right?”

“Does Lena look like she would be kidding about that?”

She wasn’t. R’namo knew that. But still. It couldn’t- Isa was not-

Or maybe. Maybe she was. She herself had trained her. If Isa thought she was ready to leave…

“You *huff* have to stop *huff* her!”

“We can’t, and you know that”, R’namo answered. “She told you, right?”

Lena nodded, still hanging on the door frame, and she didn't look like she was very happy about it. Nobody here was, in fact, but that’s just how it was.

“But… *huff* But why?”

“Probably grew curious after I told her some things about Eorzea.”

“Jon?! Wha- So it’s your fault?!” R’namo looked at her friend in shock - that was NOT what they had planned! Or did she missed anything?

“Maybe. Or she talked a lot with some adventurers, when you went to the guild. You knew it would happen eventually, didn’t you?” “Well, it was a possibility…” “Ah, come on. We talked about it. I told you she will leave eventually, either with or without our help.” “And you tried to push her? With your stories of the outside world?”

“With stories about clothes and garnets I have seen and heard of.”

“ARGH YOU-”

Jon caught her fist that was just about to hit his stomach. It felt like punching a wall - he was a trainer for a reason, after all, and he was one of the stronger rogues.

“...sorry I miscalculated that a bit. I thought she might ask some questions before going straight for a decision. Should have known better.”

“Hell yeah, you should have…”, R’namo sighed as her hand was released from the grip.

“You think she is ready?” Jonathan looked at the women in front of him.

“No”, both of them answered straight away.

“But…”, Lena continued thoughtfully. “I… *huff* I wasn’t ready for joining *huff* the rogues as well. And *huff* it was the best decision ever.”

“Right… sometimes you just have to do whatever feels right to you. Like taking in so-” “I know! I know. It’s just-”

“You have grown way too attached to her.” “...I- Yeah, I have, thanks for noticing”, R’namo hissed at the hyur. “But… oh goddamnit, you are right. Hell. Now stop smiling!”

He did, indeed, not stop smiling, but whatever. It was oh so much Jonathan. But yeah, he was right. It was probably time to say goodbye. Isabelle had grown up - she just didn't want to admit it. The same thing Isabelle had told her about her parents all the time. Goddamnit, she was just as bad as- well, no, she could change it. She could be better. And she would.

“...guess I need to talk to her then”

“That’s your plan?”, Jon asked, making clear he wasn’t too confident in that.

“Have a better one? I just… wanna confirm. Know her plans. Her idea. Maybe talk her out of it. Or maybe start preparations for the day she leaves. And especially making sure she does not go just like that. You know her! She would do that!”

Both Lena and Jon nodded slowly. Yeah, R’namo was right. As bubbly as Isabelle was, it was highly likely for her to come up with a half-thought-out plan.

“Thanks for letting us know, Lena. And sorry for-”

“Oh, don’t worry. *huff* Jonathan told me beforehand you might *huff* react a bit stingy.”

A glance to the side showed R’namo that the guy was still smiling. God she hated him so much. Best friend her ass. She would never find a better one!

“So, where is she now? Has she told you?”, R’namo asked.

“Uh… she said *huff* she wanted to go home.”

“So I got some time… okay. Okay. Thanks, Lena. And you too, Jon.”

“No problem. You let me know when you know more?”

“Sure sure, Jon. Just don’t push her even more, okay? Before she does something stupid.” “Yeah yeah. I’ll try to not tell her too much the next time she asks.” “Jon!”

“Okay, yeah, I promise.”

R’namo sighed heavily as the others left. What a mess. Well, nothing unusual with that young girl, but still.

Well, no time to mope around. The report still waited for her - and some preparations for the talk with Isa… 

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(Thanks for reading <3 I hope you enjoyed it! More will be added the coming days and are linked here and on Isabelles story page!)

[Chapter 10: Pinky Promise ->]

[borathae]

I have a question that I feel comfortable asking here cuz your a v v nice person

anyways ummm does cum actually taste good? I’ve never had sex lmao but I’ve always seen it described as like “oh your pussys so sweet” but like idk

pls help 😭

Pussy does not taste "sweet", I can tell you that much. If you read it in smut, I can guarantee you this is just for the sake of poetic dirty talk (you know just how you say "her kiss was the sweetest thing I have ever tasted", it's poetic and describes something pleasant/wonderful tasting).

So don't expect pussy to taste like sweets/candy/chocolate, pussy will taste like pussy JFJADSFJ 💀 if the person hydrated enough, ate their fruits & veggies, doesn't smoke or drink alcohol and has great hygiene, the taste will still be a good taste. It's just not going to taste like candies. Clean, healthy pussy smells like pussy at first until she gets wet and then she gets this warm, wet really good scent to it. Where you really wanna nuzzle your face into and go "grrrrrr pussy grrrr" NFNADSFN

As for dick, listen besties I gotta be honest with you all, the dudes I've been with, had terrible dick FHADHSFHA sorry but the taste still haunts me. It wasn't good, like sometimes I think about it and gag HAHAHH. But I know for a fact it was mostly because these dudes didn't hydrate, smoked, drank alcohol and rarely ate fruits/veggies also some were just straight up bad at hygiene. In my defense, I was a lot younger when I gave these dudes head, these days I would tell them to get their health in order first before I take them inside JFADJSFJ I have standards these days fnasdnf. But from my experience I can sadly only tell you that dick doesn't taste good JFADJSFJ sorry they also smelled so bad BESTIES I don't wanna badmouth dicks because I genuinely love dick and know that there are so many delicious dicks out there, but all the dicks I had were so bad NFANDSF sorry 😩

As for cum, I have a confession to make. I never had cum in my mouth before because the dick already grossed me out too much BHAHAHAH. I can tell you however that precum tastes salty af, sometimes bitter and mixed with the ball smell?, it's rancid omfg besties please I'm reliving all my blowjob traumas rn HAHA 💀 sorry I love dick I really do just not the ones I had NFANDSFN 💀

As for pussy cum, I would say it just gets more intense? idk if that's the right way to describe it but yeah the wet arousal taste just gets stronger. As for squirt, I never tasted squirt before but given what it is, I would say that it tastes salty as well? But I could be wrong 🤔 so forgive me, I never tasted cum or squirt before either. One because I refused and the other because it has never happened before.

In conclusion, it's honestly hard to describe how genitals smell and taste because at the end of the day, they taste/smell like genitals NDSNF just like chocolate will always taste & smell like chocolate, genitals also have their distinct notes. You get me?

But if you asked me, I would say that pussy is "sweeter" than dick. Yeah maybe I'll change my mind once I get the yummiest dick of my life, but sadly I cannot say this yet NFANDFN 💀

[sultryfandoms]

Headcannon Time!

“My Favorite Boys” (Being The Young Bucks' Little Sister and she's dating Henry Cavill)

Matt and Nick are very overprotective people with their loved ones and more especially with their little sister; you.

So when your older brothers had found about the actor Henry Cavill dating their little sister, their protectiveness went into overdrive because they don't want you to get your heartbroken;

Though sometimes their protectiveness gets annoying to you.

"He's not the one for you Y/N" Nick and Matt would often say about your boyfriend.

"How would y'all know? You haven't even met Henry yet! He makes me happy, I love him and he loves me! The main reason why I don't let you meet him is because of your overprotective asses!" You spat out in frustration and that made them stop badmouthing Henry.

Meanwhile, Henry wants to meet them, to let Matt and Nick know how much he loves you.

"I don't think it's that bad love, I want to meet your brothers, I want to befriend them and prove to them that I will never ever hurt you" he smiled and kissed your forehead

As soon as they met; after all the "hurt her and we'll kill you" threats are out of the way;

The three of them were literally inseparable.

Matt and Nick made him a member of the Elite, to the amusement of Kenny and Hangman (and to Brandon's jealousy, he literally thinks that Henry is his replacement)

He often appears in their BTE vlogs

Matt and Nick also offered to train Henry to wrestle

And in turn Henry introduces them to the world of Warhammer, becoming closer than ever.

Heck, Kal is even The Elite's new mascot.

"And yet I thought you both hate him, nowadays he spends more time with you guys than me!" You joke

"He's a cool guy! And Nick and I know that you'll be happy with him (Y/N/N)." Matt spoke

"I'm a lot happier now that all of my favorite boys get along."

Feel free to lmk if you wanna be on my upcoming taglist ❤️

[tojikai]

Hellooo I hope you're doing well and enjoying your summer! 💞

I wish we saw sundered suguru and shoko's view on things

Like:

~ what were their thoughts when him and y/n broke up

​- their relationship

- gojo's treatment towards y/n in the relationship

​- while he was with naomi?

- when he got with noami?

- do they even know what happened

- if not and they learned the whole story what would their thoughts and feelings be after/how would they change

- did they prefer y/n or naomi

- did they think he should be with naomi or want him to get back with y/n

- did they think he was better off with y/n or naomi

- was it a thing were they straight up think gojo fucked up or both were at fault or one was more or they could've worked it out with communication?

- after the naomi breakup do they themselves think y/n should take him back or want them together again

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is it the same with gojos other friends if he does have more and his family?

Thank you for answering have a wonderful day ☺️

I'm so sorry if I asked too much, I just thought of sending all of my questions regarding sundered in one go🥲 take your time or feel free not to answer/gen

I wouldn't want to overwhelm you so Im sorry if i did/gen

hi hi no need to apologize ~ i'll be happy to answer them <3

well they knew they've been fighting a lot so they weren't surprised when they separated. they were surprised tho when satoru moved on w someone else suddenly. they judged him hard for that in the beginning but they tried to understand

yn and satoru's rs mainly started bc they have yui. and when satoru told them abt it, they thought he'd be more scared but he was really excited. introducing yn wasn't awkward at all, it was actually very normal, like they were dating for a while already.

suguru was the most tolerating regarding his treatment towards yn bc he's a guy too, most of the time he gets satoru's perspective on things but ofc he doesn't really like when yn gets left out sometimes. shoko on the other hand was aggressive towards it, she definitely talks when she sees yn getting mistreated esp when satoru's mother is involved.

when he was w naomi, they tried to understand him as much as possible. and seeing naomi's intentions and how she treats satoru made them see why they got together. they just dont like that she inserts herself so much when it comes to the coparenting setup and yui

when satoru suddenly got w naomi, shoko wasn't really pleased, suguru didn't want to invalidate satoru so he tried to understand more. they thought satoru should've considered yui more before making a big move like that, knowing how big of an impact it could make between him and yn and their chances of getting back together. they thought it was a rash decision.

they know most of it, but ofc some really personal problems between yn and satoru are kept to themselves. satoru doesn't really want to badmouth yn. there are times when he rants when he's really upset but he apologizes for it.

they didn't really judge it based on what they just see and they're very fair abt the situation unless one is really in the wrong, so knowing more of it wouldn't really change much. its a different case if they find out abt what naomi did tho, that'll change their perspective of her completely.

they prefer yn bc they know how much satoru loves her. plus, she's yui's mom. they just want to support satoru in what makes him happy as long as he's not in the wrong/hurting anyone or himself

they wanted him to fix things w yn ofc. but knowing abt how bad their problems were then, they used to think maybe its better for them to part ways.

they thought he was really calm when he's w naomi, so they thought maybe its better off like that but as time went by, they see how much he's really yearning for yn, just very reluctant to get out of that comfortable place he found to chase what he really desires. they just think yn and satoru need a lot of time to fix their rs and everything would be better there.

they think they are equally responsible for their rs problems and that they sucked at communication. but regarding the kitchen fight, yn getting w toji and refusing to get back together w satoru, they think satoru really fucked up w that one bc of what he said.

well they still think it's up to yn, but they want them to be back together again bc they know how hard satoru's really trying and they've been kinda aware of satoru's real feelings towards yn even when he was w naomi. they also think it'll make yui really happy if they get back together

it's pretty much the same w all of his friends, as for family, his mom's the only one who has a problem w yn :">

[fanmoose12]

Students in awe and fear at Mr. Ackerman, their student's head of Maintenance and Disinfection. At such a small stature he gives off evil vibes when you carelessly dirty an area of the classroom. As much as they complain to their parents, they side with Mr. Ackerman after his explanation of cleaning after themselves builds their character. The students know it was Principal Smith's doing of fine toothing his explanation as Levi's cussing was legendary.

Enter Ms. Zoe or Hange as they prefer to be called. One of the tenors of the school and favorite professor of the students. It was common to see Levi stalking their class as hers was notorious of being messy and the students feel a win-win situation, they get to mess around while hang out with their favorite professor.

Much as the students complain about Levi they still find his tenacity for cleaning admirable and the incident of him fighting off some gangs outside the campus after they harassed one of the female students addedd to his appeal. The gang smelled like bleach for a week, warning the students if they were near, and the gang leader's cheek still had an indent of Levi's ring from where he was punched.

One of the resident bullies took it too far and started badmouthing Levi in Hange's class after she playfully reminded them to leave the lab as clean as possible as Levi would get angry with her. The bully said he was a thug, just a lowly janitor as he didn't finish his studies and his mental OCD to clean.

That was the 1st day the students felt fear when they saw Ms. Hange's gaze at him and the cold voice that they will escort the bully to the principal's office. He dropped out the following week.

If they looked closer, the students would have noticed identical matching rings on Mr. Ackerman and Ms. Hange. How they thought Levi cleaned last Hange's classroom as it was the messiest but it was because they could go home together after a day of work.

Well. That was long. My bad.

oh, i love aus with levihan as school workers so much! and, yes, there are a plenty of weirdos in the school (pe teacher mr zacharias has a very strange habit of smelling people, principal smith is way too passionate and intense sometimes), but levi and hange definitely are the leaders of the weirdos' chart. they're loved and respected in the school, although many students admire and fear them in equal amounts, and there are tons of gossips surrounding them. some believe that levi is an ex-thug, some are convinced that hange used to work for government as a scientist but was sent off to school because their research was way too controversial. and, of course, students don't miss the rings on levi and hange's fingers. no one is much interested in hange's love life (most believe that they're married to someone as crazy as them, there are also some students who think that hange is married to their lab assistant, moblit, although there is no ring on his finger). but levi..... oh, levi is a much more intriguing topic. students discuss his spouse constantly, wondering what they might look like. they imagine someone flawless, some as orderly and tidy as levi, someone who can effortlessly keep up with his cleaning standards. so when the secret (which isn't much of a secret, hange flirts with levi constantly and they spend every break together) is out, everyone's jaws is on the floor, no one can quite believe it, and the a bunch of the bravest students even ask hange directly about it, to which they reply with, "guys! don't you remember what i taught about magnets? opposites attract!"

[multeasers]

@xunque // continued from here

‘Simply don’t have a father anymore,’ huh?

It’s not so fair when she was just badmouthing the guy, but something in the way the stranger says that makes her feel a little bad. She can’t really relate to having a dad—well, a blood-related one, at least—but it seems like the stranger really did care for him in some way. There’s a part of her that screams Boo, he left you, don’t worry about him anymore! and another that says You didn’t deserve to lose him.

She voices neither of these thoughts. There’s other things to talk about—things that she actually knows about. “It was nice for awhile, yeah. I liked it there; probably would’a lived there forever, too, which is crazy to think about because I’d never lived forever anywhere before!”

Not that she should say any of that, but it all tumbles out of her without her permission. She’s both annoyed and dismissive of it; just saying that much wasn’t giving anything away to this guy. It’ll all be fine.

“Supposin’ you’re okay ain’t the same as bein’ okay, though.” She continues on with the conversation, leaving the discussion of the old not-home-but-home behind. She’s not trying to accuse him of anything, but something in her gut tells her...

“You’re all this way from home without your family, and that ain’t okay, yanno, so you can just say that. I won’t judge ya; kinda can’t, but that ain’t the point.”

(Another brief memory of Daozhang comes back to her—he’d been talking about her to someone and had mentioned she was sometimes mature by nature. She hadn’t really gotten what he meant back then, but she thinks she understands him a bit better now. Hopefully she understands.)

“But you’re also smilin’ and laughin’ and seem happy, so I guess you can be okay, too...” Urgh, it seemed like a lot to keep track of, suddenly; she knows the nuance of things, know that sometimes things can look one way but really be another, but that doesn’t change it from being stupid-difficult.

And, ultimately, it’s not even really her business. She probably shouldn’t read too much into it—not by this point, anyway. He’s done nothing to deserve the full intensity of her bein’ nervous and cagey with’im, so she can start pulling things back a bit by now.

The mention of lunch is also really exciting.

“You brought stuff to eat?” She tilts her head, confused; had he planned a picnic, somehow? Where was he keeping anything, and how? “If there’s enough for me, then...but how d’ya have anything at all?”

[bisluthq]

I understand the group of Joe fans that were/are Taylor fans who are mad at her for how he treated him or whatever because I have been there. I have been irrationally annoyed by celebrities doing things I wouldn’t have done because I was way too attached and parasocial. But even then, I knew that what I was feeling was irrational and none of my business and that I shouldn’t be that attached to a relationship I know nothing about. I can’t even say it doesn’t happen sometimes, but I don’t share it online and I’m embarrassed to feel that way

I had a profound realization linked to this just now in a conversation with my partner about our friends (the technophobic bikineticist and her ex) because I met them at the same time right and am friends with both but legit very close to her (they live like around the corner and her and I have a ton in common and enjoy doing a lot of the same things like looking after and playing with our cats and walking and drinking and going to art galleries) and he’s friends with both but he’d known the guy first and he’s legit very close to him (again we all live close together and they have a ton in common and enjoy doing a lot of the same things like discussing cars and going to the gym and watching/playing amateur team sportz a bit and drinking - lol okay that last one is a shared hobby between us all but also all four of us are cutting back and idk what all else the two of them do).

Anyway like their breakup was a bit messy, and we’ve tried not to take sides too much because we realize that we’ll see the other person again and no one did anything unforgivable like it just wasn’t working. And at the moment she’s really not doing well emotionally and stuff and I said to my bf like “this is unfortunate but there’s only so much I can do about it” because it’s kinda… nothing? I can’t really do anything about it? I’ll be supportive and I’m gonna keep on encouraging her to keep the alcohol consumption down and focus on work and I’ll listen and whatnot but ultimately like there’s fuck all I can do and frankly badmouthing him - which like I’m happy to do with her if it makes her feel better but he’s welcome at my house because he’s not a villain lol like he’s just a dude and not an especially bad one even - is also only gonna have limited use.

and that’s ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS who I speak to essentially every damn day.

so when you’re feeling parasocial about celebs maybe ask yourself if you’d expend that amount of energy on like your own actual friend? And if you wouldn’t do that then like maybe don’t do that with celebs? And frankly like even with your own personal lives lol like that same friend right idk that she’s obsessing about her ex as much as some people obsess about celebs’ 😹😹 because she has other shit to do day to day yk!????

[caitlinmarie671]

Quinn was sitting on the couch with Past Klaus speaking with him. “My Klaus’s past isn’t the only one that has caused problems in our relationship.” Quinn admitted. “You know when I first started going out with my Klaus. I knew what a risk it was. I knew what I stood to lose. My best friend, my friends, my family…and yes. I hadn’t forgot all the terrible things he had done to my loved ones but I still loved him. Perhaps it was because I saw good in him when all he saw in himself was that damaged boy from the village tormented by his father and made to believe that he was utterly alone in the world and that no one could ever love him and that he could never love.” Quinn said softly. “I’m no psychologist but I can imagine you feel that same way from all of the tournament and abuse from Mikeal but I want to assure you that you are not weak. Mikeal is the one that is weak. Any man that beats their child, biological or not is weak. Klaus. I’m so sorry for everything that Mikeal has done to you. You never deserved anything he did to you. I want you to know Klaus that you are loved and that you are not alone so please remember my words when Mikeal tries to destroy your spirit.” She pleaded with him passionately. She frowned when she noticed a scar on his arm near his shoulder. She knew that it was from Mikeal. She gently took his arm into her hands as she pressed her lips softly up against the scar on his arm and kissed it. “I’m sorry. That was out of line. It’s just what I would do with my Klaus and yes I am aware he would probably murder me if I told you this but you know sometimes when we’re sleeping. He wakes up in the middle of the night in a cold sweat and he’s terrified. I know he’s having nightmares of Mikeal and whenever he has those. I find myself wishing I could kiss away every tormented moment that he has had to go through and just replace them with happy memories but I know I can’t. I know all I can do is be there for him and remind him that he does have a family that loves him and will always be there for him.” She said honestly with passion in her tone as her eyes begin to fill with tears. “I’m sorry. I just miss my Klaus so much. Not that I don’t love your company because I do but I just wish I could be in my Klaus’s arms but instead it’s Aurora in his arms. It’s Aurora who he’s been laying in our bed with every night for the past week. Kissing him. I’m sure they’ve even had.” She trailed off as she could feel the tears rolling down her cheeks. She wiped her tears but yet they just kept falling. “Though it really isn’t just my Klaus’s past that has led up to this moment in our lives. My father plays a very big part in the problems that I’ve had in my marriage with my Klaus. In fact, the day that I was supposed to get married. Two minutes actually before I was supposed to marry my Klaus. My father offered me 100 dollars not to marry him. Of course I married him anyway because I loved him and I thought that my father would come around once he saw how in love my Klaus and I were but I was wrong. I couldn’t even go over to my parents house for dinner and bring Klaus because all my father would do was badmouth him. It’s really hard because I love my father and so do my children but they also love their father. I love my husband and I know my father is only trying to look out for his grandkids and I because he loves us and doesn’t want us to get hurt but I don’t think he truly see’s how bad it hurts the children and I when he won’t even give my Klaus a chance. Do you know as sad as this is to say. I love my father a little less than I did before for him not seeing what I see in my Klaus and the worst part about all of this. He won’t even try.”

[truly-morgan]

[WWX and YZY getting along]

Wei Wuxian | Mo Dao Zu Shi Modern AU 13-08-2021

[#weiwuxian and #yuziyuan  slowly building a friendly relationship, modern]

I know I usually write yzy more hostile towards wwx so now I want them to bond, here's my thought:

Pretty much the same when jfm brought wwx to the family. yzy was very much against it, but there was nothing she could do so jfm wouldn't keep the child of his past love. Maybe she wouldn't have grown such negative feelings if jfm had been a better dad towards jc. (we will sadly never know )

She sees how the man often prioritises wwx over jc, praises him more than he does his own son, will spoil wwx as much as he can while giving so little to her son. Really how could she not be bitter about it? She simply wanted the best for her son.

this is something wwx picked on soon enough. That while jfm was more than happy with him, yzy was clearly not happy with him (yet he was too young to really understand /why/ she wouldn't be as nice to him as she would towards jc and jyl).

He didn't understand or catch on how jfm would prioritise him over jc. He was only a child accepting the love he hadn't received much before ending up at the jiang house. He never notices how jc was left behind when he didn't bring him with them himself.

but then wwx grew up and noticed how upset jc would get from the lack of love and attention from jfm. He would notice how often jfm would somehow forget about jc, how he didn't even seem to know what his son liked in general.

wwx grew up and understood /why/ yzy couldn't like him even a little bit, so he tried helping.

He started putting jc more before him, tried to remind jfm of jc, praising jc when jfm wouldn't do it. at first, yzy didn't really notice until it had become a pattern of action, but she thought it was good. It didn't exactly lift her opinion of him fully, but she thought he finally understood a bit.

Then she started looking more into it as the boys grew up into teenagers.

she noticed how wwx would be the one putting orders in for jc when they happen to be out without jc and bringing back some food.

how when jfm would take them to dinner and parties with other businessmen, wwx would start talking about how great jc will be later on the moment jfm was away.

how wwx was ready to go get jc when he was done with his club activities or on his way home from a friend's place. The way wwx seemed to act bad and disruptive on purpose so jc names could have a better connotation from literally everyone but jfm.

how she heard tales of wwx fighting anyone badmouthing jc.

over the years her feeling for him had started to slowly lift up, but what managed to push it higher was one specific request:

finding help to work on his fear of dogs. She had seen how her son clearly wished to have dogs around again, despite his father not allowing it because of wwx extreme phobia of them. She had not expected for the young man to want to make jc happy so much that he would work on his fear of dogs.

She learned about it after stumbling on wwx asking jfm about it (since he didn't know where to look for first). She frowned a bit when her husband simply answered with a "Why do you need to overcome it? It's alright to have fears sometimes". wwx had to give up when he saw how interested jfm was in helping him (something rare really).

She found wwx in the shared room he and her son have, looking at something on his phone. He seemed a bit startled by her sudden arrival, looking around a bit. "Jiang Cheng is over at Nie Huaisang place to help him with homework" he mentioned, thinking she was looking for him.

"I was looking for you" she simply stated, clearly making him nervous. It wasn't something she usually did, than to look for him. At least, outside of scolding. She could see it in his eyes that he was looking for what he did wrong this time.

"You are looking for a specialist that can help to work on phobia?" she asked, going straight to the main subject.

wwx seemed a bit surprised she knew, but he thought maybe jfm told her.

"Yes, it is a bothersome fear and because of me jiang cheng cannot even have a dog" he said. He knew jfm had gotten rid of jc's dog because of him and that even if jc begged him he was never able to get anymore. sure plushies were nice, but it wasn't the real thing.

plus /it was/ bothersome when it was something you could see as commonly as a dog. It wasn't like he was afraid of something he could avoid that easily like sea and plane.

"I know people who could refer you to someone" she then stated, surprising wwx to see yzy was the one ready to help him. This made him smile, nodding happily. "Then I will see if I can start seeing them" he stated.

with this they started the process, yzy personally taking him to his appointment so jfm couldn't somehow fuck it up, keeping it a secret from everyone else. jfm was simply so he wouldn't try to convince him it was useless, but she did wonder for jc.

"I don't want to give jiang cheng false hope," he said when she asked him why he wouldn't tell jc.

from there they slowly started to get along more, yzy finally opening up a little bit to wwx. jfm had been the biggest cause for her not liking him, but the boy had proven to be trying his best when it came to jc happiness. They had the same goal: keeping and making jc happy.

and like this, slowly, their relationship got better. She decided to take him to his appointment, even going to get something to drink on the way back home. they slowly started to be able to talk together without problem, even at home. Everyone else in the jiang household wondered where this sudden change came from (although jyl and jc were more than happy to see it).

When wwx would get a bit discouraged by how he seemed to be stuck sometimes, yzy would reassure him. After all, it was only normal not to be able to get over something when it was clearly a fear stuck deep in him.

and from there she slowly started to allow wwx a bit more in her time. She might not see him as a son (and she would probably never be able to because of reasons), but slowly she was clearly seeing he was only meaning good for jc.

(which was confirmed when they talked once, wwx is very much not interested in taking over the company, only interested in helping out jc if the young man allowed him to assist him).

Everything was doing great until wwx seemed to become slightly more secretive about something and she couldn't tell what it was about (although it didn't seem to affect jc). She did ask Jinzhu to try to look into it, just to make sure the young man wouldn't get himself into big trouble. after all, wwx had never been this secretive in the past, even when it was about causing problems.

although it must not have been something too bad as jc even seemed to know about it, clearly lying (he wasn't that good of a liar) to cover up for wwx.

She received news that it seemed because of his time passed with one of the Jade brothers.

"Stop the search then, I doubt this is anything that will cause great trouble" she simply said, not wanting to cross the trust they had managed to build. She knew jfm was being rather pushy towards wwx to be good in school so he could get to the best business program, so she assumed the boy was simply trying to do anything other than studying.

She didn't fully expect what it was really all about.

wwx real relationship with lwj was exposed when the boys were being careless in the living room, kissing as the moving was playing. The house was meant to be empty until later in the evening (the jiang went to go and visit family and wwx decided to stay behind for his date, of course, jc helped with his excuse).

cue the couple awkwardly sitting in the kitchen, jc hovering near the kitchen's door with jyl trying to calm him down.

jfm standing while looking rather disappointed and angry, yzy sitting and drinking some tea. wwx is tensed, unsure what will happen. lwj doesn't dare say anything, (not so) secretly holding wwx hand under the table.

the jfm starts with this thing should end, how this is disgraceful and how can wwx have a good future without a wife?

What will people think in the future if he has a husband? This could cause scandal.

wwx tries to argue back, but there isn't anything he can say to convince the man. jfm turns to his wife for support, "You agree don't you, my lady?". wwx gets even more nervous, unsure of what yzy will say. she doesn't say anything at first, only putting her teacup down.

"I do not see anything wrong in this, actually I believe young master Lan can only bring good to wei wuxian, maybe he can learn a bit from him" she starts, some tension finally leaving wwx shoulders.

"Weren't you the one saying one should always follow his heart and be with the one he loves?" she asked, a smile on her lips as she turned his own words against him, "He is simply doing what you taught him all his life".

she didn't add more as jfm simply looked at her in disbelief.

She truly didn't see anything wrong in it and it would probably help wwx to be with someone like lwj that seemed to be able to control his character a little bit. Plus, she had seen the way her son looked at his little Nie friend. shunning wwx for his love would only make her son unsure if she would also throw him away for his love.

the couple managed to escape when jfm asked to talk with yzy alone, wwx was more than happy to do so, joining jc who was waiting for them anxiously, going out so as to not hear what was sure to be an argument (again).

They argued, but yzy wouldn't back down from it. afterwards, it was clear that jfm was trying to sabotage things, but it was hard to do when literally everyone in the house was against him. So he gave up while also giving up on wwx.

wwx was a bit taken aback to see such a change in attitude, but at least now he had yzy behind him. She really wanted to laugh bitterly. Now that wwx wouldn't be the perfect heir jfm wanted him to be (especially with how many times wwx had made it clear jc is way better for it) and do everything he asked for, he would just give up on him as he did jc? The most laughable part was that /now/ he was starting to give some attention to his son (although it was already too late to create a real relationship with him now).

if jfm wasn't going to train him well, yzy would. She would help wwx learn how to be a great assistant to jc in the future (as this was clearly something he wanted to be).

Of course, she also met up with lwj somewhere after the incident, wanting to make sure he would do well to wwx (she would lie if she said she didn't care about his wellbeing anymore). but she also wanted to make sure he would support him in whatever path he decided to take, even if it meant being by jc side to help him (she was very pleased with how lwj was ready to be by his side, whatever that might include).

afterwards, years go by and wwx and yzy relationship grows better and better as time goes.

She cannot get herself to see him as a son (and wwx understand), but it is probably close to it.

(end)

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couldn't get this outta my mind when I was at work. I usually write yzy rather hostile to wwx, now I wanted them to be on friendlier terms 😩 I also want to write a canon-verse (?) about lqr slowly warming up to wwx in a post-canon setting just wwx slowly bonding with people who just couldn't with him sound good to him

of course, jfm stays jfm, for him to change he would either need to die and for someone else to take his place or to have an AU where he is not a shit dad ┐(シ)┌ no one can get me to appreciate him the same way I managed for yzy

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[pinkseas]

[parasocial bestie] GOOD MORNING ALY I SHOT UP TO WRITE THIS THE MOMENT I SAW UR ANSWER AND I JUST. I WAS. YEAH I WAS LIKE YEAHHHHHHH YYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAH so anyway firstly HELP I CANNOT STOP LAUGHING AT "my cat is here as i write this she can explode too" PATCHES NO maybe yes like perhaps dont explode yet i would also like to know ur thoughts on xiao genshin impact before you do and i will allow it just get ur guts on the floor after ur honest answer patches

"NO BC i dont think ive seen full on infantilization of xiao (Yet.) but the thought of it just now esp w/ zhongli flooded dread through every ounce of my being dear Lord" i mean uhhhhh i Mean not gonna badmouth too much but there is Plenty of those fics and i definitely have my eyes unfortunately lay on age-regressing xiao but like. mentally. he acts like baby. i mean cool ok cool sure sure sure sure sure do what you enjoy of that typa familial interaction i respect u as i push it gently aside.

"zhongli Gets It zhongli knows whats up <333" yknow like THIS GETS ME SM its so important not just abt keeping them both in-character (at least in my perception of what canon is) its also. abt keeping their thoughts in line with it as realistically as possible. i think. i could go so far with how zhongli wud treat xiao with care and warmth and CAN address that sometimes,.. xiao can still be weak can still be the exact opposite of the hardened side he had been and while it does bring to the eventual guilt he feels like a child,.. like my good sir you didnt get to be a child before either. i think a little pampering is something u deserve (AND WHAT DOES PAMPER MEAN THAT DOESNT FEEL LIKE ZL IS BABYING HIM HONESTLYYYY cus in my view its just the former archon being indulgent but also treating xiao. as humanly as possible. as accordingly as what he needs. and xiao needs a Lot)

"said as if i dont put him in so many situations with So Much affection because i cant get the idea of him w/ the traveler specifically being very casually physically affectionate out of my head after seeing the way he holds onto them during that One cutscene" WELL I MEAN,... well i just eehhehehbvkfh though it does catch a lot of hearts especially in the beginning of liyue and iirc thats the second time xiao and lumine ever met in person at all. personally i dont see it that way then having that physical affection develop and have been staying like that in writing their development since (cus man am i so attached to the idea of an emotionally constipated/detached xiao so much that he doesnt just need guidance to overcome his conflicting worldview, but also to understand human emotion and how those two goes hand in hand).

"him being casually affectionate gets me so bad but him being touch repulsed or touch starved or both or him only really accepting physical contact of anytime in combat because thats just how it works or him feeling as though he doesnt deserve the affection" THAT OSIAL FIGHT SEQUENCE IN THE TOWER ASUNDER FIC WHERE XIAO AND LUMINE FIGHTS SO SEAMLESSLY that lumine chose him specifically not just bc of his battle prowess on short-range but his ability to stay mid-air and helping her stay mid-air. throwing her in all angles so every side of osial isnt left out as they both fought. their skills and techniques despite the years and worlds of difference melding in instantaneously after mere seconds of being introduced to each other feels like a form of affection itself in battle its so PERFECT I DIE OVERTHINKING ABT IT explodes explodes.

"i actually have partially written with him enjoying/accepting it from lumine but having no idea how to reciprocate in the slightest" yknow the bits of ideas i told u especially abt the xiao deadge brainrot and wings ask where they have a certain intimacy going on. well both of them are close to the end of lumine's journey hence an important kinda-resolution of how they think abt their relationship (brainrot) and after the journey ends (wings ask, post-teyvat). my interpretation of xiao reciprocating these affections that doesnt just center from lumine,..... its built up on that confusion and xiao hesitates a lot, but can become fully accepting once he understands it. like the times lumine would feel so torn about her brother directly (quests with dainsleif), or any circumstance that relates to him (aranara world quests with nara varuna) that she needs somekind of grounding and he KNOWS lumine herself does it in his own depressing moments so its like a 2+2 thing. what she does for him, he does it back, simple as that. it used to be a logical, but a little careless thought process without the genuine care, but soon enough the concern he had for her would match the gestures he does in turn.

i overanalyze dat shit and how xiao would act the way he does bc i do Not. like naur way NO WAY i dont rlly believe strongly he instantly cares and goes almost perfectly affectionate on the reason its for lumine and her only. thats a big problem with me and seeing xiao regarding attachments and im pree sure ive ranted that sht often enough here HAHAAKFJHSD ANYWAY I JUST!!!!!!!!!!!!! man xiaolumi can get so specific to me sometimes and i love to explore this certain aspect of their relationship where they do grow to be close, but theres this?? invisible distance, somekind of barrier i cant explain between them especially when they conflict each other with their worldviews and understanding. and post-teyvat is where that barrier didnt really destroy between them, but enough that they can reach for each other. like yknow!!!!!! yknow,............. shniff

[also this is the most oot thing ever did u know i actually did drafted my asks before sending it to u on this doc so i can rmb what the fuck i was talking abt and how it relates to ur response and it happened like. prolly my second ask in the Very Beginning so anyway. the doc reached 59 pages 32k words probably more than i could ever write for my uni thesis light and love <333]

HIIIIIIIIIIIII HI HI HI BESTIE I HOPE UVE HAD A GOOD DAY AND THAT UR NIGHT IS AMAZING <33333333

no bc. bestie shannon and i (first of all shannon if ur seeing this thats ur official title now second of all context shan is the one who reads at least half of these asks/conversations which is still WILD to me) have been watching rwby together lately and patches is there Most Of The Time and every time she shows up i point her out and we'll ask her rwby questions...... and idk ur rwby knowledge if any but blake is a character who has a largely black and white color scheme and gold eyes and cat ears and patches has gold eyes and she's black and white so every time Blake Specifically shows up we'll go "patches what are your thoughts on rwby character blake belladonna" and it makes me giggle sm and from now on whenever she shows up when im writing or playing genshin i know Damn Well im gonna start saying "patches what are your thoughts on xiao genshin impact" and she will Stare At Me with her big patches eyes and say nothing. and i will nod understandingly and say Wise Words Patches. sorry its not even 10am i got so much sleep and yet i am Deliriously exhausted anyways

AGE REGRESSION IS SO. i have sm respect for it esp as like a genuine coping mechanism and i cant really speak on fics for it but the thought of xiao specifically as a character regressing is so ??? i get it in Theory but in Practice. you can not tell me that that man would a) do that voluntarily under any circumstance or b) trust ANYONE enough to tell them if he did it involuntarily. sometimes u just gotta write fics where you baby the fave and i look away from those in general out of personal preference but i am especially looking away from ones where its xiao i can Not see it i can not imagine it in any world <- lying a little bit because now that im thinking about it i can under very specific circumstances but NONE within which and none of which would lead to him being like actually genuinely infantilized in any way shape or form. it simply would not happen i cannot see any fics babying xiao as being in character for anyone involved in the slightest

"xiao can still be weak can still be the exact opposite of the hardened side he had been and while it does bring to the eventual guilt he feels like a child,.. like my good sir you didnt get to be a child before either" LITERALLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY king. king put down your weapon shed your armor let yourself Rest you were never allowed to do so before just allow it of yourself now trust the people around you to look after themselves and liyue and allow yourself to take care of yourself to maybe even be taken care of just a little bit. just a little. please. Please.

"cus in my view its just the former archon being indulgent but also treating xiao. as humanly as possible. as accordingly as what he needs. and xiao needs a Lot" naur dw i get it like there's a difference between like. okay how the Fuck do i word this. there's a difference between treating someone gently knowing their strength and capability and choosing to be soft regardless in a good, respectful way, VS flat out ignoring that persons capability and strength and treating them like glass and truly believing that they could shatter at any moment if thought of any differently. zhongli knows exactly who xiao is and what he's capable of, hes not about to forget any of that or cast it aside in order to act like xiao is this tiny, fragile thing. hes going to be well aware of it and still make the choice to be kind and gentle and accommodating, to try and give xiao some of the care and concern he's so rarely seen or known in his life. xiao can be cared for and maybe even pampered a little without it being weird or ooc or disrespectful or anything of the sort

"he doesnt just need guidance to overcome his conflicting worldview, but also to understand human emotion and how those two goes hand in hand" o(-( DIES !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no bc i genuinely love this so fucking bad especially just. the emphasis on his conflicting worldview and thinking about it and sajbdnamfnafgdsag. I JUYST WROTE LIKE A WHOLE PARAGRAPH but it was super fucking rambly in a way that made NO sense whatsoever so it is gone now goodbye </3 but god. yeah. Yeah.

"that lumine chose him specifically not just bc of his battle prowess on short-range but his ability to stay mid-air and helping her stay mid-air. throwing her in all angles so every side of osial isnt left out as they both fought. their skills and techniques despite the years and worlds of difference melding in instantaneously after mere seconds of being introduced to each other feels like a form of affection itself in battle its so PERFECT I DIE OVERTHINKING ABT IT" no bc this scene is the most important thing in the whole entire universe YOU'RE SO RIGHT ABOUT IT FEELING LIKE A FORM OF AFFECTION ITSELF the way that they're able to just. to just. im. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM i cant even say anything the scene is Right There it speaks for itself you read it you Understand you get it. you get it. the fact that it happens So Quickly the immediate trust in battle the fact that they work so well together its just. and that had SUCH a huge influence on how i perceive them and how i write them, two very like-minded souls two people who've been through so much that no one else understands but who are able to find that understanding in each other, recognizing that the other has lived for millennia that the other has lost their closest family that the other has people they trust, people they care for, but still ends up isolated in so many ways. pasts and mindsets no one else could understand, seeing so much of themselves mirrored in the other. nothing exact but the similarities, the shared loneliness and hurt and deep buried longing, fuckidfngf. explodes. dies. ive already made a post about this im just repeating myself but man. MAN.

"the xiao deadge brainrot" DEADGE. FUCKIGN SOBBINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG

this is the part where i got distracted and suddenly its 9pm instead of 9am and i am just now finishing answering this but also significantly more braindead adn it shows. um. anyways.

"its built up on that confusion and xiao hesitates a lot, but can become fully accepting once he understands it." BASED AS HELL !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! what she does for him he does back... "but soon enough the concern he had for her would match the gestures he does in turn." crying shaking bawling sobbing GODDDDDDDD yeah. Yeah.

"i love to explore this certain aspect of their relationship where they do grow to be close, but theres this?? invisible distance, somekind of barrier i cant explain between them especially when they conflict each other with their worldviews and understanding" mmmmm i Think i get this like i am way too braindead to try to put it into words but i think i understand.

THE DOC PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE i literally need to write at LEAST that much for this freakigngnfkng xiaolumi fic <- said as if i am not actively procrastinating writing more for it. but man looking at my guide/plan doc thingy for it i am Praying. 30k feels like so much and such a stretch but i also will like sneeze and the next thing i know there are 5k more words on the page so maybe. Maybe. perhaps. hopefully. Please. maybe.