#you guys can pick this up for me right?

[elodieunderglass]

Norman Borlaug should have been a tumblr girlie

[aroaceleovaldez]

Nico and Percy's dynamic through the series is eternally funny to me, because it's just. like.

Percy's having a constant mental struggle between his fatal flaw of loyalty with a promise he made to Bianca to protect Nico, versus his Big 3 kid desire to maim other Big 3 kids / Poseidon descendant urge to totally maim Nico specifically. He hates Nico so so much. He thinks Nico's annoying and weird at best, and creepy/sketchy when he's older. The only positive thoughts Percy has towards Nico are "He's Bianca's brother and Bianca was my friend and I owe her/He's Hazel's brother and Hazel is my friend and would kill me if I was mean to him," "He's a powerful asset and useful ally (if questionable)," and "He's kinda pathetic and I feel maybe a little bad about it." Percy has multiple occasions throughout the series where he strongly considers - and on one occasionally actually goes through with - throttling Nico.

Meanwhile, Nico is following around Percy like a lost puppy. He explicitly can never bring himself to even dislike anything about Percy no matter how hard he tries. He has a whole bit in BoO where he's mentally going "UGH he's so stupid BUT IT'S ENDEARING HOW DARE HE." He's totally smitten. He's making deals with his dad for Percy. He's making convoluted plans to help Percy stand a chance against Kronos. During the entirety of BoTL it's like he's playing tsundere - "I'm helping NOT PERCY SPECIFICALLY with this quest! Me helping Percy would be SILLY because I DEFINITELY HATE HIM." Then he proceeds to show up to Percy's birthday party to basically ask him on a weird date and spend the entire next book scrambling around trying to help him or protect him or impress him. And Percy could not give less of a shit.

Just. That dynamic is so funny to me. Percy is the founder of the Nico Protection Club in that he's the one they're all protecting Nico from and meanwhile Nico is throwing himself at Percy to the point where the literal god of gay love calls him out on it.

[royalarchivist]

Pac: It was really cool to see Baghera too, man. Baghera and Fit, it was really cool. Then Tubbo, I only met him in spirit, but Baghera was great to see, man.

Pac: Baghera and Fit– ah, it's always great to see the QSMP people. I consider everyone from QSMP as if they were family, you know? They are great friends that I made during one very cool stage in my life, and I will take them with me like this forever. It's the kind of friendship where you pick up exactly where you left off, you know? I see them, we exchange ideas, we talk, it's super cool, we say goodbye, and if we see each other again, it seems like we come back exactly where we left off, you know? It's really cool– because like, even if we spend a long time without talking, we still have that affinity, that friendship and affection for each other, you know? And that is something I can say about all of the QSMP members, it’s just that I specifically met these two this time. But anyone from QSMP I have that same affection for, you know? It's really cool, man, really cool.

Pac: Anyways, this photo is Fit and me in Minas Gerais.

[beeduoo]

wonderful

[elodieunderglass]

I haven’t watched Dungeon Meshi, but I always enjoy the dashboard osmosis experience and have a peculiar visual memory. Here is what I believe Dungeon Meshi to be mostly about. No complicating experiences with the text, or indeed character references, fed into this extremely clear vision, which I believe I torrented directly from the astral plane at the same time as the creator was logged on

[yourgamemasterthewhiterabbit]

Both my parents actually suffer from HORRID emotional dysregulation and are prone to snapping and going into rages. My sister is the same way tbh. I am now realizing this is why they are constantly baffled by the question of whether or not I am mad at them.

I don't have external meltdowns.

I could. I don't let it happen.

I keep my rage on the inside and stay pretty quiet about it. It's just as strong as theirs [physically shaking nose bleed from high blood pressure kind of bad], but like as a kid I saw how terrifying it was to be around [dad breaking dishes, mom putting our lawn chairs into walls] and I just internalized that I wasn't going to wear that anger on the outside.

So my mother genuinely cannot tell if I am just being quiet or if I am silently hearing the dial-up noises of pure rage. This has lead her to both making strong and confident statements like "You are a pacifist who would never hurt a fly U.U" but also acting like I am secretly dangerous maybe... It's because she has never seen me snap.

She knows what her temper is like [throwing chairs through walls], she knows what my father's temper is like [pick up child and toss out door], and she can tell I am being tested, but she doesn't know what happens when I snap or where that breaking point is.

Her -perhaps unhinged- solution to this, my whole life, has been to do things that should obviously enrage me or shut me down completely, like ignoring important boundaries, repeatedly, punishing me for expressing emotions or needs at all, etc... And then to constantly ask me if I am angry with her when I get too quiet [right after near directly telling me to shut up].

It has occurred to me now, they have never once seen me lose my temper, so they literally just can't tell if I am angry at them. My sister is easy, my mother fights and screams with my sister constantly, my mother understands this. My mother doesn't have any grasp of feelings or boundaries that are not screamed at her [apparently, and I fear my sister is the same way]. Her and my sister are close despite constant fucking fighting because they understand each other.

They are trying to get me to engage the same way and it is not working. I realize now that this has been hard for them.

I was so successfully taught to suppress my emotions, by being punished for any outburst, that rage quiet looks the same as any other kind of quiet from the outside. To them anyway.

I did tell her. For the record. I used my words. I did tell her very calmly that my response to rage, in order to avoid doing the things that terrified me as a child, was to simply leave [the autistic urge to GTFO]. When a situation or person causes too much of the dial-up rage noise, I simply extract myself from that situation, up to and including never speaking to a person again. I explained this calmly. I explained it calmly 100 times and I explained that I explain myself calmly as my rage response 1-5 [also pretty much every other negative emotion tbh], and I told her that what came next was me simply opting out and fucking off. I told her this. I couldn't understand why she never took me seriously, or why she never fucking understood.

I couldn't understand what made her like this.

But it's the same problem I have with everyone else multiplied by a factor of 10.

If I am explaining myself calmly, they can't understand that it's actually serious or that I am actually upset. ESPECIALLY because they read me as "female" and women "aren't that rational" so if I am not screaming and crying about something, which I never do, people assume I can't be upset and it isn't serious.

And then after having my boundaries ignored too many times despite having calmly explained how and why it's a problem [shaking inside or not]... I leave. I leave and everyone gets upset like this is unexpected behaviour, even though I told them 50 times that is how I would respond if they kept doing *the thing.*

And for neurotypical people especially, they are expecting there to be a disconnect between what someone says they need or feel and what their actually boundaries and feelings are, and they expect the latter to be demonstrated with emotions. Telling them bluntly you do not function that way somehow never helps?

My mother isn't just looking for normal yelling or a few tears to know I am serious, whether or not I do those either [I don't], she's looking for an explosion to know there's a problem at all.

Fucked if I know how she proceeds through life this way in general or if this is just her expectation of her own kids???

And I couldn't get why my mother couldn't read my emotions and didn't seem to think I have any. It's because she's testing for the rage limit to see where my 'actual' limit is instead of taking my word for it. Never the fuck mind that she could simply *not* test at my boundaries instead of letting me have them. Separate issue.

I couldn't figure out what made her *like this*

She's expecting me to throw a giant meltdown violent tantrum at people when I have 'actually' had enough. Maybe she got away with those being like 5'4" in another time, but I am the size of the average man, I do not get to have giant screaming rages, whether or not people perceive me consciously as a woman, and least of all because a lot of people -at least unconsciously- read me as 'masculine' or at least always "they guy" of the situation compared to all other women and some men [bigger stronger and more rational, more able to just absorb the damage and let it go so the less rational screaming/crying one doesn't have to be dealt with]. Even if it was in me to be willing to terrify people [usually never], there are such limited instances where it wouldn't just blow back on me. Potentially very dangerously.

I am going to be the quiet calm one. You are going to have to let me use my words, bitch.

So she kept ignoring my boundaries until I had to cut her out of my life, and she probably doesn't understand and probably thinks it feels sudden -after 36 long years of bullshit- abrupt and unfair.

But I told her hundreds of times.

I probably should have just screamed at her.

[lordgeneralsix]

mentally still in every cutscene and conversation w samuel

[wilsonpussyindulgence]

i think i’m insulted by the fact that my costar in the play isn’t at all turned on by making out with me

[sunsetsandsunshine]

I AM THINKING SO HARD ABOUT YOUR LEE MM!LEO FIC OH DEAR GOD

And now I'm wondering what would happen if April DID come to school with the intention to wreck the shit out of leo-

But like, she makes it a game instead.

Every time they pass each other in the fucking halls before lunch, April will just wiggle her fucking fingers at him with a grin that just screams 'I'm coming for you-' and Leo is now fearing for his LIFE by the time lunch rolls around.

But then April sits next to him and does fuck all NOTHING.

Scare the shit out of him until lunch and then pretend like nothing happened

And then go after his loser ass after school cause he let his guard down/aff

Anyways don't mind my rambling my brain is going like 100mph and if I have to suffer with the idea I might as well let u suffer with it too/pos

OH MY GOSH

OH MYGOSH

OHHHHHHHHHHHH

MMMMMMMMYYYYYYYYYY

GOOOOOOOSSSSSSSSHHHHHHHH 🫶🏾🕺🏾🫶🏾💗💞💕💝💗💖✨💓💕💖💗💞🕺🏾🫶🏾🫶🏾💞

ANON I AM ACTUALLY GOING TO HAVE TO FIND YOU AND MARRY YOU BECAUSE WHO THE ACTUAL HELL GAVE YOU THE RIGHT TO COME UP WITH SUCH AN 🥹ADORABLE🥹 YET 😈EVIL😈 HEADCANON ⁉️⁉️⁉️ /lh /pos /hj

Bro, I can just imagine April randomly texting Leo during class and the text is something like “I’m gonna get youuuuu 🤗😙😇😙🤗😇😙” WITH THOSE DUMB EMOJIS THAT ARE TICKLE-HINTED…YKNOW WHAT I MEAN???

And Leo, being, well, Leo, he’s just PANICKING cuz, like, April knows he loves and likes being tickled…but that’s not what the text is referring to…right? RIGHT???

So he texts back saying: “April 😅🥲…? April, if you don’t mind me asking…what the actual fuck is your text supposed to mean???��

AND SHE JUST SENDS HIM THE “😉” EMOJI AND HE PANICS EVEN MORE…

“WHAT DOES THAT MEAN, APRIL???????!!!!!!!”

And respectfully so, he is just giggly and a flustered mess the entire day. So at the end of school, he goes up to her and is all like, “April…what did your text mean?”

And the girl acts so freaking innocent and she’s all like, “Oh! That? I was just gonna ask you for the Bio notes. Thought you got my hint…what did you think it meant?”

Then Leo gets all red in the face and is like, “Nothing 🥲🫠…”

THEN FINALLY SHE JUST ABSOLUTELY WRECKS HIS SHIT 💕💖💞💗💓💗💕💖💞💝

TAGS BC AHHUHGGGHH YOU GUYS NEED TO SEE THIS ASAP:

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[moeblob]

A succubus and a demon! (The succubi don't have names but the demon is Kronos and the succubus is one of his bosses in Hell and he's not /fond/ of the succubi for many reasons but they all adore picking on him)

Also because I love them and like to point it out, the succubi act more as pleasure dealers in the sense of they offer up whatever a human wants most in exchange for their soul. It's rarely of a sexual nature since it's what they want MOST in life. And most people's ambitions are outside of a bedroom. (happy pride, asexuals are able to get affected by a succubus now without discrimination)

[teh-nos]

I watched Avengers: Age of Ultron (apart from I skipped some overly long action sequences) and I am not sure so can someone tell me whether or not Tony Stark was the baddy in that film? Because about halfway through I was sure he was but then it was maybe just an evil robot after all and I am confused because either this film was surprisingly subversive or it was about robots hitting each other.

[spearxwind]

writing this apology months before it happens but i am so sorry for the person i am going to become eventually. i am getting into warhammer 40k

[idontmindifuforgetme]

kinda crazy how the main girl group I went out with fell out bc of a man tbh

[yutamayo]

...is it that obvious?

[penisbilt]

one of my only surviving memories of one of the churches my parents tried when i was a teenager, the pastor spent like half the sermon ranting and raving and yelling about the blasphemic lady gaga and how she had recently sang "god bless the u.s.GAY" during her performance of the national anthem at like the superbowl or whatever and they unfurled a gay flag instead of an american flag or something and about how it was SO DISRESPECTFUL to GOD and our TROOPS and that gay people should be ASHAMED for this and how lady gaga must be the devil's attempt to influence OUR INNOCENT CHILDREN into doing EVIL. like turning them gay i guess. or something

[gibbearish]

btw similar to the whole "if you try adderall at a party and it calms you down, get an adhd test" thing, if at some point in your life you try microdosing shrooms with a friend and end up feeling like a functional person for the first time in your life, get tested for depression. like yeah hallucinogens come with elation so youre probably gonna have some "this is the best ive ever felt in my life" vibes regardless, but like. if that in and of itself feels like finally breathing in for the first time in years, thats for sure a sign that something is up with your ability to process serotonin most of the time. feeling better than ever before should be a nice bonus, not a crushing weight off your chest