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lol. i think ive reached my limit.
#i just cannot take this torture anymore#ive been at the mercy of this horrible disease for over half my life now#imagine living knowing that roughly every 3.5 weeks youre going to experience the most excruciating pain of your life#along with crushing. usually suicidal depression. and such extreme fatigue and exhaustion that you easily sleep for 14+ hours a DAY#AND ITS ALL FOR FUCKING *NOTHING*#there is literally ZERO benefit or reason for me to be experiencing this#it is 100% extraneous#and even if you go to a dr and try to get treatment their only recommendation is 1) pain killers and/or 2) birth control#which both come with their own fucking share of unpleasant side effects#not to mention theyre not even 100% effective at stopping the problem in the first FUCKING place#and imagine even tho you have this DEBILITATING DISORDER society at large has decided it straight up DOESNT EXIST#to the point where REAL ACTUAL MEDICAL PROFESSIONALS will dismiss your symptoms#not to mention people in your life who dont understand or just straight up dont believe your disorder is real#good luck keeping a job or any other major commitments#considering you'll either be out of commission for like. 1 out of ever 4 weeks#or youll have to work/whatever WHILE experiencing said excruciating pain/crushing depression/debilitating exhaustion#not to mention the GI issues and the migraines and the brain fog and the fucking. full body aches#wanna go to a concert? or plan a vacation? or just. fucking. RELAX? you better hope its not during Hell Week or youre outta luck#and youve got roughly 30-40 YEARS of this to look forward to#maybe less IF YOURE LUCKY#im fucking over it#i cant take it anymore#im making an appt to see a dr and i WILL NOT LEAVE THEIR OFFICE until they have referred me to whoever i have to talk to to make this stop#my fucking fury at having to live like this has officially outweighed my fear of invasive procedures/recovery time/side effects#let along the torture that is navigating the medical care system as an AFAB#i just. i cant do this anymore.#i want to fucking LIVE#fuck
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something about being told im 'the leading person at this whole academy when it comes to interpretation and stage intelligence' by the husband of the woman im trying (not really. but i mean. who knows) to seduce... ok boy you got me. lets make it a polycule.
#im playing it all cool and funny now but atm i legit burst into tears lol#like he said i have a 'good voice too of course' but i know realistically that is not my strongest asset#and even if i were technically perfect. which im NOT lol. the voice itself is just nothing special. it's there ig but that's about it#but its nice to know i may not be 100% useless after all#(just 90%)#also apparently the most feared and respected professor who came to the concert said. again. that he likes me the most.#which again. crying real actual tears about this all rn this means literally the world to me this is everything i have#and i have no one to share this with because im not gonna say it to my uni friend cause i dont want her to feel like im boasting or sth#(even tho she has no such qualms herself but probably because i know how. not great. it feels when someone keeps talking about themselves#and about how great they are and how easy everything is for them. i dont wanna do it back at her.#well there's also the fact that i dont think im great and this is not fucking easy to me at all lol#but idk i think the difference between us is that she actually admitted she sees no point in singing if she cant show off (thus she hates#the duet we're singing because she sings the lower part and cant show off her high notes or coloratura.#which is like. an insane take to me. i mean it i get it. kinda. if i had a voice like hers maybe id be like that too fuck knows.#but that just feels so. idk. sad to me. so self obsessed and empty. like you dont care about the music itself? about you being a part of it?#also immediately made singing with her not fun anymore. i thought we were creating something TOGETHER. but thanks for the confirmation#that you only really care about being 'better than'. yikes.#like idk this behaviour is funny and iconic in old school opera legends like yes go bite each others dicks off.#but it hits completely different when it's your own colleague let alone your friend. like damn girl. damn)#) anyway. the husband is kinda hot too now that i think of it. i really should seduce them both.#except its realistically not possible since they've both seen me cry now (she saw it like a hundred times lol)#so ive lost the hot and mysterious card alas. no uni professors romance for me
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Sometimes… sometimes I wonder how someone can look at another person, hear that they’re struggling, and then somehow make it about themselves. Subtle enough that it’s not “who cares, let’s talk about me” but direct enough that the other person has to swallow down anger and frustration as to not escalate the situation
#I’m not feeling great. we all know this yes okay#how does me sharing that my elbow hurts lead to you asking if I can even go to the concert with you if I’m feeling so shitty#what does these two things have to do with each other#also how is that the priority? I paid for my own ticket. I’m not costing anyone else money if I don���t go#also when did I ever say I’m not going??? when did I even as much as hint at it??#because I am going. we’re still going. me being on sick leave isn’t changing that#I need things to look forward to as well. therapist’s order actually#but like. sure. how does my acute stress and burnout affect YOU. and your plans#even if you wrap it in ‘I’m worried about you’ vibes I can still see what you mean#if YOU don’t wanna go that’s fine. just say so. I’ll go without you#if it’s because you’re worried I’ll abandon you just say that#I’ll reassure you#am I rambling because I’m sensitive? yes#misha rants
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man i thought i moved out to escape my family but it turns out i've jumped from the pan into the fire because holy shit my guys what the fuck??
#at least at home we have people competent enough to not flush wet wipes and tampons down the toilet#let alone FOOD???#and we don't leave our dishes out for so long by the sink that they start to RUST#like ok my lil brothers make a mess sometimes and accidentally shat on the floor a few times but at least they're fucking children why tf#should i deal with shit water because of your incompetence#and yknow i can deal with noise. im the noisiest at night at home b/c i always go shower late but im not fucking SCREECHING and chatting#so loudly you'd think i was at a concert or some shit#and this bitch?? can't comprehend i just want to not have crumbs all over the couch???#like girl. how did this become a slight against you. why would i ask you to keep the couch clean b/c you slept there once or twice#BITCH I CLEANED THE COUCH COVER ON MY OWN DIME *BECAUSE* I KNEW YOU MIGHT SLEEP THERE AGAIN & WANTED IT TO BE CLEAN FOR YOU#YOU NOT ONLY INSULT ME BUT ENTIRELY MISCONSTRUE MY KINDNESS TOWARDS YOU??? WHY WOULD IT BE DIRTY B/C YOU SLEPT THERE???#you can't make this shit up i hate having roommates holy hell#only slightly made up for by the fact i get a room to myself these days#the other one smells like weed all the time and the other other one doesnt wash her hands properly after using the toilet + keeps her dishe#out by the sink + doesn't pick her hair up#also i'm the youngest so that's just even sadder#i was also the youngest last year and bitch. you have no idea#this is what being the eldest sibling does to a mf#not really related but they made the ugliest doormat ever i wish i had been there to stop them from that atrocity#and why do they not take their shoes off. girl i mop the floors like every 2 weeks#it's fucking clean trust me just take them off bitch#am i being holier than thou? probably but fucking DESERVED#i can't be taking care of people two years older than me like this. yall have too much fucking drama
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This might be my most boomer take yet but the culture of concert-going has become exhausting and unpleasant. It’s particularly bad with kpop concerts, but I’ve noticed that a majority of young people (gen Z) go to concerts exclusively to record it, whether for themselves or for social media, and the result is that I end up watching a sea of phone screens instead of the artist. Today, when I was at an outdoor concert on a flat field, that meant that I literally could not see the artists because of everyone else holding up their phones to record. I am not short. It’s absurd.
Also, at kpop concerts especially, I genuinely have trouble hearing the artists because the people around me are shrieking in my ears. I’m not talking about singing along. I’m talking about just toneless screaming. I get it, it’s your favorite artist(s) and you’re very excited to see them perform. But what exactly is the shrieking accomplishing? Neither you nor the people around you can hear the artist over the screams. What exactly are we doing here if not watching and listening to a performance? I didn’t pay to hear your screams.
Sorry to be all get off my lawn about this but it’s genuinely making it unpleasant to go see live music, at least music geared towards a certain demographic. Music, especially performed live, is a gift. Let’s not squander it for attention.
#live music#kpop#idek what to tag this#yubnub’s boomer rant#seriously like are the people screaming the entire time actually deriving enjoyment from it?#how do you hear your favorite artist over your own screaming??#concerts#stray kids#bts#skz#blackpink#not targeting those fandoms they’re just the only kpop acts I’ve seen live#it’s too much kids#go home and do your homework until you’re old enough to consider the people around you too
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thinking about blorbo from my dnd campaign again
#snarky speaks#his name is king xarus maximiliano nunier travel braedelar-tallow y de leccatia#he sucks he rules and like seven people know about him#cat being dragged on a leash on a walk it doesn't want to be on of a tiefling#starts the campaign a paranoid marquis rogue jumping at his own shadow and the dark and the gods and ended a vengeance paladin of shar#he went briefly blind because of a blood curse from his ex so he couldn't see the ring his future spouse was trying to propose to him with#the most cat coded man but for someone he loves he'll bark lmao. has like 17 borzois and a whole royal kennel. he knits sweaters for them.#he would go to a goth concert and pretend he was just there to chaperone one of his daughters#he was willingly shot in the chest by one of the squad to resurrect his god from a dormant monster state#his whole life he thought he was an affair baby because his mother is a half-elf and his supposed father was human#but really a devil wormed her way into his parents' relationship and they're all kind of in love#his grandpa and aunt were gnomes (rip to a racist old king you tiny imperialist fuck)#he's a 6'2" albino tiefling with wings so you know his back muscles are crazy. he would rather die than be without his shirt#his favorite food is red snapper and shellfish paella#his spouse is the self proclaimed mad wizard of the kingdom whose gender is wizard and looks are immaculate#fashionable goth rich prettyboy shown up and dragged along on a leash by the most dazzling and cleverest person you've ever met in your lif#i'm obsessed with all of them. blorbos from my show (we made)#he's part of a queer polycule with the other members of their adventuring party
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why is gif making becoming a lost art in fandom spaces
#seeing so many people fundamentally misunderstand what a gif is lately#they have no idea the effort that goes in to making good quality gifs either#people who think that a video clip is the same as a gif 🤡#mind you this is twitter fandom im talking about#and like i get that twitter isn't the platform for gif sharing (reason number 123432 why it's subpar as a fandom site)#but to think that making a gif is somehow 'stealing' someone's video footage is asinine#and that's not even broaching the subject of the legalities of fan recorded footage#(recording concert footage is thisclose to infringing your fave artists' copyright btw)#(like in all seriousness it is just as much of a legal gray area as all other fandom produced / transformative works)#(so if ur gonna try and have a go at gifmakers u should probably stop and think about the consequences that might have for ur own content)#anyway#i really shouldn't let a few uninformed people get to me like this#but the way one small part of my fave fandom has been acting the past 2 days is REALLY grating on me#i dont want to stop creating for a fandom just bc of the entitled attitudes of a few people#but i am not interested in dealing with this ****#also it absolutely does not support your faves to bash / drive out other creators in the fandom#fa;lksjdfalkjsdnf#rant over ig#im trying to be the bigger person and just not engage since it's all petty and indirect actions that dont require a response anyway#i like this fandom bc it's mostly chill and easygoing so I do NOT want to make waves or kill those vibes#and i have ALWAYS been supportive and appreciative of other creators#but now im feeling less interested in engaging with certain creators#so ig that's the course we take for now
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Guys I genuinely don’t know how much more I can take
#I was supposed to have my therapy appointment last Friday but that got canceled on account of hurricane#which is like. just fucking awesome because you know what would really really help rn#some fucking therapy!#im so grateful to be alive but im also genuinely just not#I already felt so useless and unworthy and now here I am#feeling powerless and lost and worthless#I don’t feel like I can talk to anyone about it either because everyone’s got their own shit going on or is in it with me#so here I am screaming into the void#I just need to vent#right this moment I don’t care about anything outside of this hurricane#I don’t care about your cosplays or the ren faire or your hobbies#I don’t care about your pictures of the cool restaurant you went to or the concerts you’re seeing#I care about the fucking bodies that haven’t been recovered and the missing loved ones#I care about the people trapped and scared and alone#I care about the fact that people are just chomping at the fucking bit to swoop in a take the spots where peoples homes were washed awau
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around 6 o'clock (east coast u.s. standard time) some guy from fucking australia, with no mutual friends obviously, friend- and message-requested me on facebook saying he hoped i didn't mind the add, but "you came up in my recommended and are the cutest ginger i've ever seen." and it like literally gave me chills because holy hellllll, how the FUCK did this guy find my profile? i have no public posts; i hardly ever comment on public posts; i don't post in large, active groups; etc etc etc etc so it creeped the FUCK out of me. sometimes fb puts ppl w no mutual friends in my "people you may know" but, creepily enough, they often are people i... know, if not have some sort of mutual connection with? like they might be old classmates or friends of friends creating new profiles (so no mutual friends yet), etc. and this is true for ppl who also don't have info on their profile saying they live in/near my hometown, went to my school at some point, etc. like THAT is very creepy how meta somehow knows that. but this guy from australia i am absolutely sure i have no connection to whatsoever. WHY WOULD I???? i have no connection to australia at all other than a couple of mutuals i have on here.
so anyway i took a screenshot of the message and showed it to my friends cuz i was freaking out about it and needed to get that off my chest and one friend was like "why dont you block him" (me reading that 4 hours later) and im like you know what i didnt think it was necessary but not a bad idea. and i go to check the message request and the message was unsent, and he also deleted the friend request. lmaooooo. maybe his girlfriend found his phone
#tales from diana#i dont understand why men w absolutely no acquaintance w a woman whatsoever will message her like hey youre cute#WHY???#and it was very obviously like a real profile. like the cover photo was from 2017 and it was a concert photo#it was not like a bot that somehow knew i had red hair or something.#in fact i just about never get message requests from bots on fb. that's more than i can say for tumblr!#i only interact w ppl i know; like i said; when i see an obvious spam bot on a friend's post or out in the wild i always report it#like my facebook profile is very clean and safe i can't stress this enough. it's responsible. it's HINGED#i am occasionally unhinged on here but on fb i am completely and always fully on the hinges (as far as they know)#wheeeeere. the FUCK. did he FIIIIND MEEEEEE#i also don't usually get messages like that from men i don't know. whether they're complete strangers or like loose acquaintances#we all know the story of woman/femme-presenting person getting a weird message calling us pretty/asking us out or whatever#from a person we don't know. that HAPPENS but it's not like it's a daily occurrence. can't remember the last time that happened to me tbh#makes me wanna jump outta my skin. so fucking weird#btw when i say 'i wonder if his gf found his phone' thats not me saying he has a gf i have no idea#but it's such a sketchy dude thing to do to message someone like that. like what thrill do you get out of sending it 2 ppl u'll never know?#beyond just my own discomfort i do not even remotely understand their side of the exchange. what is ur goal? to... flirt? go away!
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am finally back home and can say without a doubt that i am just fundamentally not built for long distance travel however the train was much nicer than planes
#that being said. pressurized cabins drive me insane a little bit#and also it gives you pretty intense sea legs for a While#like. the ones from the first trip hadnt gone away by the return one. so. might be stuck with that for a few days#we shall see#also ajr live fucks severely#the albums were already incredible but that was a goddamn religious experience#like. idk the way i think abt it is theyre more djs than a regular band esp w their performance showing the making of way less sad#like their music is very electronic‚ theyre making mixes of their own sound effects more than singing in one go#so like. the vocals were a teeensy bit rough at times#notably times it has taken me Literally Hundreds Of Hours Practice to be able to consistently sing along with#and times ive found its literally physically impossible to like. no matter what#idc how big your lungs are‚ there is no human on earth who can do that final run of karma in one breath#much less to An Entire Stadium After An Hour Of Jumping And Dancing And Singing Loud As Fuck#so like i dont blame them for that‚ you dont go to live shows expecting it to be 100% perfect anyways jwbdjsbfksb#the trumpet however. well she was certainly playing sometimes. and was very enthusiastic about her flares.#however. in most of their songs they use midi trumpets to my ear at least#meaning she was likely an addition specifically for live performances and in my personal band kid opinion#prooobably was not in any of the like. higher tier bands? idk just. a lot of the mistakes she was making were hitting as stuff that got#taught out of us the instant we joined any band beyond regular concert#so i would guess she was probably just like. a friend who happened to play trumpet in high school or maybe even just middle school#and they knew that the trumpet parts in their pieces were big and distinct enough that like they /had/ to get a live player#and just kinda. didnt anticipate the audition -> performance gap#like. her tone was really fried the whole time like she was playing as hard as possible#which. she was mic'd. have the sound guy turn her up.#the way they did it made it sound like she was using a mute but not. like she only got the bad parts of a mute from it yknow#her tempo and timing were. bad. theres no nice way to put that one it just Was Bad‚ like the trumpet runs in ajr songs arent. complicated#like. quite literally if you handed me the sheet music right now i would have it down perfect in a week at absolute most#and better than that player on sightread. like. we did so many sightreading drills.#like ill share my band kid creds if anyone cares but i need to emphasize this isnt me being braggy like. they genuinely just arent hard#fuck im out of tags. w/e i think only like one of yall also listens to them anyways so i can leave it there
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#this is not a hot take anymore but i Will be a hater about this#if you're at a concert and you're literally on your phone the entire fucking time#like you can safely say more than half of the gig you were staring at a tiny screen in your hand#the brightness of it burning your brain cells and ruining the enjoyment of ppl behind you#you are not living right#take a few videos!! take a few pics!! but you don't need all of them!! you don't!!#someone else will have it and otherwise you'll have your own fucking memories man!!#maybe perhaps your memories will be more vibrant if you're not focusing on that fucking phone!!#holy shit i'm mad and i know i should let it go bc they can live their lives the way they want#but they're actively making concerts and my enjoyment of them worse#also this is not me hating on younger ppl bc i witness all ages do this#this rant is based off my experience last night standing behind an insane person constantly on that damn phone#rant over
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My parents should be fuckin ashamed
#you borrow 80 bucks then can only find me 21 back then i put that 21 into good for your kids then spend the rest of my paycheck getting#diapers pull ups medicine more food for kids and then i fill up the 15 passenger van and then when dad asks why i don't have money to eat#on my lunchbreaks at work like I'm some over spending wild irresponsible bitch when he's the one going to concerts and paying for fancy dat#s and jewelry for his gf and buying groceries for her but you know it's fine#take all my time and energy#so that i literally am a zombie and fall asleep on the very very very limited free time i get#(after doin extra chores to earn said free time)#wo that i fall asleep half way in which isn't fair to my partner and isn't fair to me#take all my income so i cant afford anything#take all my time#take all my energy#YOU SHOULD BE ASHAMED YOU GROOMED ME AND MESHED THE FAMILY'S ENTIRE LIFE STYLE FOR ME TO BE LIKE THIS#I CANT MAKE HEALTHY FRIENDSHIPS BECAUSE I JUST CAN NOT FUNCTION IF I'M NOT GIVING EVERYTHING TO SOMEONE#IT SUCKS I HATE IT#THEY'LL NEVER ADMIT THEY FUCKED ME OVER#EVER#THEY'LL NEVER DO ANYTHING TO FIX IT OR CHANGE#AND I HAVE NO HOPE FOR ANY CHANGES#MY LITTLE SIBLINGS SEE WHAT I DO FOR THEM AND THEY HUG ME AND TELL ME HOW MUCH THEY LIVE ME#'thank you so much for taking care of us' that tell me all the time 'you do so much for us'#it breaks my heart i wish i could give them the world i love them so much they deserve so much better#my mom lost her chance to be decent my dad better learn soon otherwise all his kids minus his favorite will hate him#i love ny parents#and i know they live me and my siblings#but they groomed me into the most miserable personification of elder daughter syndrome and they should be ashamed for what they've done#and be ashamed that they sucked so bad that they're own child had to step up
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kills you kills you kills you kills you kills yo
#listening to the audio on the page again gawdddd i feel ill im gonna throw up#kris' frenzied discordant playing. you usually play the piano a bit more beautifully. they didnt have a piano at their house#they loved to play the piano and there was no piano in the house there was no keyboard in the house nothing#and now their hands' movements are not their own their fingers uselessly mash against the keys in the clumsy frustrated way#they cant even do the one thing they were good at anymore. you usually play the piano and bit more beautifully#and then noelle listening in from the other room. there were times when i wasnt even sure if we were friends. maybe they werent thinking#about me at all. we're friends. we're something else. we havent hung out in so long but i know how you like your eggs. what your favorite#color has been throughout the years. the first movie you cried to. i know you better than anyone. i dont know you at all#your voice isnt your own. what happened to your voice? what happened to the beautiful music you made? what happened to you?#why are you telling me to do these unspeakable things? why am i going along with it? (we're getting stronger) why do i let the blood drip#down my finger from the ring you slipped onto it? (we're something else) what happened to us?#we used to play tag in your backyard. there's blood on my hands because of you. i dont know whats happened to you and i cant stop it#maybe they weren't thinking about me at all#you usually play the piano a bit more beautifully#but when i closed my eyes it felt like a concert just for me#i need a drink#serena.txt
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#shut up luci#delete later#i cant keep thinking of alice going to japan for a meeting but deciding to arrive early to do some casual tourist things bc its been so long#since shes done tourist things. anyway this is like the early aughts or late 90s whatever. she goes to the bridge to see all the cool fashio#fashion and maybe take pics like a rude tourist. maybe even check out the shops and buy something cute. and shes like WOAH so many cool styl#styles. heavily inspired by me england i am england i invented punk me personally i did that. and goth. whatever the hell this lolita is#is also clearly inspired by european fashion. and vw's mini crini line.#she just thinks jfash is neat. doesnt rly get all of it but she likes it. its cool. but then as shes taking picture like a rude person#she notices one girl look straight at her and then duck and turn around and speedwalk away. and iggys like oi wait im sorry i'll delete the#picture im sorry miss i didnt mean to be rude! and when she catches up to her shes like ?!?!?! sakura??? why are you dressed like this???#and sakura is like ahhhh i didnt know you would be here. sometimes i dress up when i am not working. it is fun i have some friends who like#to meet up here. yes humans. ahhhh >_< i really didnt mean for u to see me like this..... and iggys like oh its no big deal i dont mind.#i think this whole lolita thing suits u. hahaha remember when i used to dress all punk and gothic and whatnot? what you wear outside of work#is your own business. plus its cute :3 like u :3 hey maybe next time we can dress up together and go clubbing or to a concert. er...#a live as u say. haha lol. and sakura is like mmm perhaps. that might be fun. and then alice is like Right now how do i get to the maid cafe#from here. and sakura is like >_> ok um which one.#i love them
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some backlog of scuffed art to commemorate our dear overlord’s return \o/
#millie parfait#nijisanji en#drawmillie#hi allow me to ramble in tags bc i find that sm more comfortable than on twitter LMFAO#i drew the first one on my sib's ipad and it was so fun ahhahahh im not used to drawing on a tablet as well as on such a responsive program#such as procreate so i had a bit of trouble navigating#my dream is to just. own a graphic tablet one day i want to LEARN#that said the next two drawings are so OLDD wanted to finish them to celebrate millie coming back! but i struggled sm w lineart i gave up-#on coloringkjahkhfkajh#but its okay <3 have u watched her kikuo concert btw#if not what the fuck are ytou doing with your life go watch it right now you cretin
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okay I've decided against pursuing any sort of diagnosis re: my growing suspicions I have ADHD/something of that ilk for a variety of reasons, but it will NEVER stop galling me how I lack object permanence. like a baby. I need to have clear storage containers because if I cannot see something I forget it exists. it's both a relief to know that there is a potential "explanation" for such behavior but also realizing that most other people can do convenient things (like: remembering the existence of stuff) is also FRUSTRATINGGGG because I wish that was me! imagine being able to remember things not only casually but well! imagine that! god!
#it's also frustrating because it can bleed into interpersonal relationships and depending on people's friendship styles it can have a...#large impact. like back in high school my best friend would regularly be hurt by me not remembering things#(ranging from stories she'd tell me to stories I'd already told her to people's names to pieces of information I'd been made aware of)#and I took it personally at that age and sort of took it as:#''I am an inherently selfish person who can't remember things about other people and I am Bad''#and while that friendship grew apart and she sort of resigned herself (eventually) to me being the way that I was#I guess I never really let go of my guilt around it... and even now I still feel Very Bad about not remembering things#and I've often thought to myself of how I could mitigate it to be a better friend#but I short of ''keeping notes on your friends and the stories they tell you which you will need to reference often''#I've not had much luck in cracking that#I feel like as I've grown older I've found friends who (for whatever reason) don't take my ''poor memory'' personally#[and hilariously I've seemed to befriend people with FREAKISHLY GOOD memories who more than make up for my own]#and that's been... a bit better because it's been many years since I've had a friend make me feel bad for not remembering something#and in fact I have friends now who HAVE diagnosed ADHD who (obviously) Get It#but back of my head I still think that I do the people around me a disservice by not frequently/accurately committing things to memory#I think it makes me a worse friend and a worse employee for that matter#and I do in fact wish there was a magic pill that would grant me that ability and that ability only. it feels like it would change my LIFE.#anyways this tag essay is brought to you by:#me looking for my concert earplugs (which I have never used despite buying them FOR three concerts I went to last year since I kept...#say it with me... forgetting about them the day of the concert!) and finding a stash of two different battery types I had no idea I owned#anyways. earplugs are going into my car so I will have them on me#and batteries have been moved to the clear container in my closet with the other batteries. sigh.
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