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House Calls.
Part Five
Summary: Aaliyah has an elusive charm that can be alluring to some and frustrating to others. Professor Terry is compelled to have her. On one fateful evening at his cousins bachelor party, he runs into Aaliyah. An interaction he hadn’t imagined would ever happen.
Warnings: SMUT, 18+ CONTENT, based off of Players Club, Nasty Talk, Professor!Student. ANGST.
In the early morning, just before the sunlight came in through the balcony, sultry jazz titillated her ears. The AC was cranked to combat the humid climate, and the smell of fresh linen mixed with Shisha tobacco and intense Bourbon Vanilla tickled her nose pleasantly. There's never a dull moment in this Crescent City.
Aaliyah shivered with arousal when Professor Richmond’s long arm circled her waist from behind and pulled her into him. Her plush cheeks collided with his dick that was so hard it reminded her of a metal bat. Her eyes widened a fraction and her soft lips parted, releasing a little breath of arousal. Terry’s warm breath ghosted across the back of her neck. Suddenly, his lush lips grazed the skin of her neck and he started peppering feather–like kisses on her skin.
“Can’t sleep.” Terry whispered.
“Neither can I,” Aaliyah tilted her head back, blinking her siren eyes at him, “All of you is awake.”
Terry chuckled against her bare shoulder. He nuzzled his nose there to inhale her scent.
“Your own fault, mon amour…”
“I’m happy to know that I turn you on…”
Terry raised his head behind Aaliyah to peer down at her. She shifted her body slightly, the white linen soft as it grazed her stiffened nipples. They stared at each other unblinking, too caught up in the moment of being together in such a way. Aaliyah hadn’t imagined it would get this far. She’d teased him, enjoying the push and pull, but never had she expected to end up in bed with him.
And fucked by him.
She was still on cloud nine about their phone sex and that was days ago.
“I bet you are. Now, you belong to me…”
Terry stroked Aaliyah’s cheek with his thumb.
“…And only me.”
“Quite possessive, Professor don’t you think?”
The soft spoken words was something akin to an angel whispering. A harmonic voice so sweet yet so powerful.
“Let’s not do that, Aaliyah. You’ve been on my mind the moment I laid eyes on you. And although you turned me down for that lunch, I would have tried again and again to have you.”
Aaliyah rotated her head away from Terry’s penetrating stare and handsome smirk, suddenly bashful beneath him as he hovered above her. How was it possible to feel the sweltering heat of desire wafting from him? It set off an inferno that she could feel throughout. From her scalp to the soles of her feet. Intensely.
He was a man of his word no doubt. That pleased Aaliyah and made her nervous all at once.
No man has ever made her nervous.
“Look at me…”
Aaliyah leisurely turned her gaze back to him. He sat up on his elbow above her, his biceps flexing beneath the golden glow of the wall sconces with a brass finish. The king sized bed with a black velvet wall panel headboard hadn’t been broken in enough. Terry gave her a silent look that told her without words that he needed her body again.
Terry stroked some of her soft, sleek hair from her face, the strands brushing her shoulder and fanning out against the pillow beneath her. With one hand, he cradled the back of her neck, and with the other he traced the curves along Aaliyah’s lips before tilting down to capture those succulent lips of hers. His tongue swept across her bottom lip, urging for entry. Aaliyah opened for him, her eager tongue gliding over his in a slippery tango. Their heads swiveled back and forth. Terry had a hazy look in his oceanic eyes.
Her pliant legs circled his waist and Terry pressed his stiffness against her soaked lower lips. The mixed heat radiating from between their legs caused Aaliyah’s clit to ache for him. Terry’s dick pulsated like a heartbeat from the softness of her pussy and the slick coating his veiny shaft. The soles of her feet brushed against his sides. Terry’s tongue delved deeper, almost dislocating his jaw. Aaliyah hissed when one of his large hands wrapped around her neck.
She broke their kiss, Terry colliding with her jaw. Aaliyah swayed her head against the restraint, nibbling on her bottom lip from the sensation of his teeth grazing her skin and his tongue tickling her neck. The warm breath from his lips made her squirm and sigh. She was an assertive woman who spent her nights as a cam girl telling men what to do. It was time she got broken down and gave her body over to someone else for a change.
Long fingers appeared between her legs. Terry raised his head above her exquisite face, looking down on her with blazing eyes so caught up in lust for her. His lush lips parted a fraction, giving her a view of his pink tongue and porcelain teeth. Her nipples looked like chocolate–covered gum drops the way they poked out so stiffly. Goosebumps decorated her skin that reminded him of a caramel delight. Whenever Aaliyah became aroused and flustered, the tip of her nose and the tops of her cheeks would deepen in color.
Glossy brown eyes tried to focus on his face but her lids were disobeying her. Terry studied her face like she was the most beautiful art piece he’d ever seen. He shifted his body to rest beside her, propping his body up on his elbow while his free hand played between her legs. Aaliyah spread herself for him, pink pussy glistening.
Terry studied the shape of her pretty pussy, taking note of how her outer lips and inner lips were relatively the same size. Her clit to labia created a wishbone shape and instead of its usual bright pink it resembled more of a coral pink from how aroused she is. He stroked between her inner folds with a single finger, and each time his finger would swipe over her clit, Aaliyah’s hips would jerk in response.
“Mind if I take my time and play in this pretty pussy?”
Aaliyah resulted to shaking her head. Words were lost to her. His manicured fingers felt too good and skillful. His smooth baritone in her ear sent shivers throughout her body. Terry propped up one leg, the movement causing his fully extended and solid dick to bounce. Aaliyah stared at his stick with a stunned expression. Heavy balls acted as a pedestal to keep that heavy dick poked out. The glow of the lights highlighted the veins along his girth and the drizzle of pre cum on his fat tip.
“You’re so hard right now,” Aaliyah whispered with astonishment.
Terry’s mesmerizing eyes dropped down to look at her. He pushed two fingers deep—middle and ring finger—all the way down past his knuckles. Aaliyah sucked in a breath, locking eyes with him. Terry didn’t waste time reaching depths between her walls. A creamy essence coated his long fingers and the sound of his passionate stirring was on full max.
“Mm, you get so messy for me I love it,” Terry spoke softly against Aaliyah’s forehead, “Pussy responding how I want it to…wet and gushy…got my fingers moving in and out so easy…”
Aaliyah pinched and tugged on her nipples. She licked her lips with her jeweled tongue, her eyes focused between her legs.
“Sexy women,” Terry pecked her forehead, “Pussy feel good don’t it?”
“Yessss…”
“This what you deserve…you want me in this pussy all you gotta do is ask…let me know and I’ll make this pussy cum however you want me to…”
Aaliyah’s pussy clenched around his fingers as a reaction to his words. It did things to her knowing he would do whatever it takes to please her.
“…is this an open invitation to come to your office whenever I want you to make me cum?”
“Mhm,” Terry pushed deeper, “No panties…show up ready to cum…like the nasty little slut you are…”
Terry’s movements increased. The faster he went, the harder his palm collided with Aaliyah’s clit. It sounded like he was plunging into a body of water. He had Aaliyah’s pussy sounding like he was splashing in a puddle on a rainy day. Aaliyah released her nipples and Terry bowed down, taking one nipple into his mouth and sucking hard.
Terry’s tip was weeping. Pre cum drizzling down the back of his shaft in a slimy trail. Terry popped his lips off of her nipple when the sensation of Aaliyah’s soft, delicate hand circled his thickness. The thick vein on the underside of his dick pulsated against her palm the more she twisted her fingers. She was right on his spot, just beneath his tip, her thumb brushing across him.
Terry pressed his thumb against Aaliyah’s clit as he finger fucked her. Her wrist went limp and she paused as her body seized up to prepare for eruption. He could see her stomach caving in repeatedly, her eyes watered, her toes flexed. Terry went back to sucking her nipples as he worked the muscles in his arm and hand to bring Aaliyah over the edge.
“Unh…unf…yes…uhhh…Professor!”
Aaliyah’s hips started lifting to meet his fingers. Sweet moans filled the air.
“Oh fuck!” She screeched.
Terry flicked his tongue on her left nipple and his fingers slowed down to a stop inside of her. A puddle of her cum stained the sheets. He gently pulled his fingers out, mouth agape when he noticed they were dripping. He brought them to his mouth, sucking slow.
“Taste good?” Aaliyah asked with a seductive lilt.
“So good, baby…I wanna taste more…”
“All for you to have, big daddy…”
“Big daddy? Is that right?”
Placing himself between her legs, Terry curled his arms around Aaliyah’s thighs. He adjusted himself to lay on his stomach, leaned forward, and ate her pussy like an exquisite meal he would never have again. He didn’t stay on her clit for too long, not wanting Aaliyah to cum so quickly. He wanted her to beg for release. The strength of his arms and the feeling of his muscles cutting into her thighs let her know that she had nowhere to run.
Terry’s tongue sank into her pussy and wiggled. Aaliyah yelped a few times when he licked her with precise flicks of his tongue. She couldn’t grind her hips against his tongue, all she could do was lay there on her back and moan his name while dragging her fingers through his short curls.
She lost the signal to her words when he thrust the thick muscle of his mouth inside of her. Letting it sit there for a moment, he felt tremors take over her body and she whimpered loudly. He groaned at the sound, taking delight in breaking her down to his will. She had denied him long enough. She teased him for far too long. Too many times he’d dreamt of doing this to Aaliyah. Stick his tongue so far up her pussy it almost touched her heart. Make this sexy woman cum on his tongue just because. Give her ass the greatest head she’d ever have in her fucking life.
“Don’t move again or I’ll stop.” Terry barked out.
The bass in his voice made her act right, and her body went limp. At that moment, he was just all mouth, tongue. Aaliyah sat up on her elbows, instantly locking eyes with him. She kept her legs open for him and when he leaned back to admire his work she couldn’t believe how soaked and engorged her pussy looked. Terry licked his lips in one swipe before going back in to slurp her up.
“Fuck, you want me to cum all in your mouth…please, can I cum in your mouth, Professor? Can your little slut cum all over your lips?”
Terry responded with precise sucks that had saliva bubbles gathering around his mouth. Aaliyah couldn’t recall EVER getting head like this. She didn’t know whether to cry or to moan. She settled for both. Hot tears rolled down her cheeks and suddenly her inner thighs quaked out of her control.
“Mhm…mhm…”
He knew he was the shit. She didn’t even have to tell him. Aaliyah collapsed against the pillows and her thighs closed around Terry’s head as her second orgasm covered his face the more she suffocated him. She pushed at his forehead but he wouldn’t stop.
“Terry, oh my—”
He was spelling his name on that pussy with his tongue.
The way he forced her thighs open. It hurt so good the way he spread her wide to the point of dislocating her hips. His tongue flicked repeatedly over her fat clit and she couldn’t stop him because he made sure her legs remained wide and limber. He would peek up at her in between licks and Aaliyah would lock eyes with him and each time she tip toed closer and closer to yet another cum.
“Terrryyyyyyy…Unh….”
She wasn’t strong enough to close her legs. His tongue weaved a gluttonous pattern over her pussy until he was content. When he finally stopped, Aaliyah curled into a ball. Terry sat up on his knees with his dick in his hand and maybe it was her brain being foggy from her orgasm, but his dick looked bigger than usual.
Terry didn’t even have to tell her what to do. Aaliyah sat up and crawled to him on weak knees. She arched her back and used her mouth only to wrap her lips around his tip. Terry popped Aaliyah on both cheeks with a delicious sting lingering. He finger-combed her long hair from her face and off to one side. Heavy breathing transitioned into deep grunts. Aaliyah sucked with no hands, jaws tight and eyes on him.
She counted the eight pack leading up to prominent pecs and a face that belonged in a museum. He was so pretty she couldn’t look away even if she tried. She did make use of one hand however. She had a handful of his heavy balls while her mouth worked magic. Terry smoothed his hands up her back and over her ass. His fingers sank into the meaty flesh and then he spread her open from behind. Aaliyah whimpered with his dick sitting at the back of her throat.
“Did I tell you to stop?” Terry spoke softly.
He grabbed her hair in his fist to keep her still while he fucked her throat. Spit left his dick glossy and her face and chest a mess.
“Aaliyah, relax your throat for me…”
She did as she was told. The feeling of him touching her uvula made her gag.
“If only you could see the way this dick fit in your mouth…”
One hand on the back of her head, thrusting into her mouth and whimpering the entire time. Aliyah’s tongue slid around his frenulum, making his tip tingle with pleasure. He continuously dripped pre cum and she cleaned it up with slow licks and those sultry eyes that he could get lost in staring up at him.
“Making that shit nasty.” Terry said.
“This dick belongs to me…all of this…”
Aaliyah played with it in her hand, squelching noises from how wet his dick was loud and clear. His balls sat nice and tight and Aaliyah bent forward to suck on those too. She pumped his fat dick while showing his balls some attention.
Terry’s tongue sat on his upper lip as he watched her. His brows snapped together when she returned to his dick with her eager sucking and slurping. He got in that mouth deeper, shivering when he could feel her teasing giggle around him like a vibration.
“Suck that dick…dassit…so sexy…so sexy, Aaliyah…baby…baby, you’re making me cum…shit is so good…fuck! Damn…damn…OH—”
Aaliyah started focusing on his tip and then she swallowed him whole. Terry cradled her head and bent forward, the repeated gawk–gawk of her mouth had him moaning and calling her all types of vulgar names. He felt his control snap and his cum shot from his tip in heavy droplets all over her tongue and chin.
Terry fisted himself to finish, leaning back on one hand while the other pumped the last bit of nut on her wiggling tongue. His knees were aching so he stretched them out before falling back against the sheets. Sweat clung to his skin and his dick sat over his belly button. Aaliyah snuggled closer to him and instantly sleep overtook them.
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Sit on that dick
Sit-sit on that dick
Sit-sit on that dick, sit on that dick
Sit on that, sit on that, sit on that, sit on that (Alright, Slash)
Beyond their balcony in the early afternoon, the blare of fast-paced, energetic, and call-and-response style hip hop was jarring. It shook the windows and caused Aaliyah to stir awake. She reached one arm over instinctively, and felt nothing but a vacant space and crumbled sheets. She blinked her eyes open, the hotel room with an old world elegance and modern sophistication surrounding her. Wine red, black, and antique accents decorated the king suite.
Her body felt like she’d been put through the most intense workout of her life. Her muscles spasmed whenever she moved. Her pussy was sore to the touch and her clit throbbed. Love bites and bruises on her hips mingled with the beautiful path of stretch marks etched into her skin. She’d never been fucked within an inch of her life before. She’d never known that seeing stars behind her lids when she reached climax would actually happen to her. Sure, a toy can get you there. Yeah, she could recall an eater or two from her past that lacked in the dick department but made up for it with her cum dripping from their insatiable lips.
Terry was on another level. This man quite literally stunned her. He’s outrageously handsome. There’s no way he could be great in bed AND fine as hell. He can’t possibly have the best of both worlds. Yet, somehow, Aaliyah found her fairytale man. The man you dreamt up to deliver wet dreams. The ones in stories. No, Professor Richmond is the embodiment of every woman’s dream. And he wanted Aaliyah all to himself.
She didn’t realize how long she’d been in bed staring up at the ceiling just thinking about him and playing in her hair all sprung until the sound of footsteps entering the room from the hall had her sitting up in bed. Terry caught her eye with a smirk. He was drenched in sweat, an all white T-shirt with the letters CORE UFC GYM on the front in bold font. He was so soaked that the T-shirt molded against his abs and pecs like fresh plaster. He paired it with black shorts that hugged his thighs and accentuated his quads and glutes. Terry removed his AirPods from his ears and kicked off his sneakers at the door.
“Afternoon, baby. Went for a little workout…”
Aaliyah smoothed out her hair and tried to look presentable. It only caused Terry to chuckle.
“You look absolutely beautiful.”
Terry went in for a kiss, his musky scent spicy in her nose. It was pleasant, but Aaliyah backed away before Terry could even savor a kiss.
“What? Do I stink?”
“No, I didn’t brush my teeth.” Aaliyah replied with a sheepish laugh.
“So?”
Aaliyah climbed out of bed, naked body on full display. Terry watched her pin her hair up with a claw clip and then the sway of her hips as she made her way towards the bathroom. He gave her some space to do what she needed to do while he undressed. The cool air from the room made his skin feel clammy because of the sweat. He tossed his things in a bag before checking his phone.
Nothing special, just emails regarding work and a few texts from his mother letting him know they would be in town soon for the wedding. He texted her back quickly before placing his phone on the charger and making his way towards the bathroom. When he entered, Aaliyah was turning on the shower. It was a standing shower with black tiles and a detachable shower head. It was wide enough to fit both of them comfortably. On the sink, she had her own soap and so did Terry.
“Mind if I join you?” Terry asked as he cracked the door so it wouldn’t get too steamy.
“Not at all. Figured you’d want to anyway.”
Aaliyah placed a shower cap over her hair and entered the shower. Terry stepped in behind her, taking careful steps. He jumped back slightly from the temperature of the water. Aaliyah giggled and Terry sucked his teeth before reaching over her to turn the temperature of the water down.
“Tryna burn my skin off.” Terry fussed.
“Hush,” Aaliyah had an exfoliating cloth in hand and she applied unscented soap to it first, “Wash me.”
“Please?” Terry snatched the rag and gave Aaliyah a teasing look with an arched brow.
“Pretty please with a cherry on top?”
She pouted her lips and Terry couldn’t help but smile at how adorable she looked.
“Aight, face me.”
Terry ran the cloth over her soft, blemish free skin in a circular motion. Aaliyah giggled when he brought the cloth over her ears. He locked eyes with her and then he couldn’t help but to lean in and peck the tip of her nose. He turned her around and tapped her on the booty for good measure.
“Just can’t help yourself.”
“Phat–phat on you and you expect me to behave?”
Aaliyah laughed, “I do, actually.”
“Says you? Baby ima feel up on this ass whenever I want.”
He dragged the cloth down the dip in her spine and over both hefty cheeks. He cleaned throughly, but he would be lying if he said that he didn’t do it on purpose. Terry had her cakes jiggling when he washed her off in between. Aaliyah gasped, reaching back to grab his wrist.
“You play too much!”
Terry laughed and it was the most pleasant sound. He smiled with his entire face, making his nose scrunch up. He had the goofiest laugh and it made Aaliyah smile from ear to ear. He gave her a second cleanse with a vanilla bean body wash, the smell permeating the air and it was strong and fragrant.
Terry rinsed the rag and applied some wash for her pussy. Aaliyah watched him reach around from behind and gently scrub her outer lips. Aaliyah tilted her hips back, pressing her butt into his crotch and she grabbed onto his bicep. Terry watched his movements from over her shoulder. When he was satisfied, he rinsed the rag and hung it on the railing of the glass shower door before using his hand to gather water in between her lower lips.
“You ain’t slick.”
“Who said I was being slick?”
Terry’s fingers rubbed slow circles against her clit. Aaliyah responded to his massage with a soft moan. Terry peppered kisses along her wet neck and even licked her there, the smell of vanilla filling his nose.
“It don’t make no gahdamn sense how fucking fine you are…”
He pushed two fingers up in her and Aaliyah rose to her tip toes. Terry is a strong man, he could probably lift her up between her legs with one arm and toss her on his shoulder. She wondered how much weight he could squat and bench press. Aaliyah made a mental note to go to the gym with Terry sometime just so she could see for herself.
“You hear me?”
“Yes,” Aaliyah replied barely above a whisper.
She could feel his big dick twitching against her ass.
“Wet ass pussy…ain’t been in this pussy with my fingers for that long and already you’re soaked…good fuckin’ girl…”
Aaliyah tilted her head back and Terry sucked her bottom lip into his mouth before their tongues slithered. She whimpered against his lips and Terry had to circle her trim waist with his muscular arm to keep her still.
“Aaliyah…”
The way he said her name against her lips. She could have melted. He was so head over heels for her.
“You can’t get enough of me,” Aaliyah spoke against his lips, “I drive you crazy.”
She reached back and captured his hefty dick between her fingers and started stroking. Terry abruptly turned her around with his fingers still inside. Aaliyah used both hands to jerk him while they tongue kissed.
“I ain’t been this pussy whipped ever.”
Aaliyah broke this kiss and pressed her face against Terry’s chest, laughing. He laughed along with her.
“That’s what I want. I want you to be so far gone over all of me, big daddy…”
Terry’s dick responded with quick pulses in her hand and a leaky tip. She gripped his fingers tight and when he curled them to stimulate her spot, Aaliyah could feel her stomach tighten. She was going to cum.
“That pussy cumming, huh?…what you want?”
Aaliyah nibbled on Terry’s chest between moans. He reached around and popped her on the ass. She flinched against him.
“Please, make me cum, big daddy…”
Terry held her close as the feeling became too strong and intense. She had a vice grip on his fingers and she threw her head back, exposing her neck for him to attack with his lips. Her body trembled and eventually she went limp against him. He painted her face with kisses until she was back to herself.
“You have a lot of skill, Sir.”
She had a sleepy look in her eyes. One hand on his dick, she lazily stroked him.
“I aim to please…”
Terry reached for his own cloth and handed it to Aaliyah. She looked down at his hand and couldn’t help but to laugh. She snatched it from his hand and Aaliyah washed Terry down once with Dove sensitive skin soap. She squeezed soap over his chest, watching the suds and the water slide down and over the peaks and valleys of his well–muscled body. She craned her neck to meet his gaze, the cloth in her hand giving his skin the perfect touch. He couldn’t help but to smirk at her.
When she got to his dick—which she saved for last—Aaliyah dropped the cloth over it and broke out in a laughing fit. He was so stiff. Terry shook his head at her silliness before removing the cloth and handing it back to her. Aaliyah grabbed his Salt & Stone body wash with notes of Sandalwood, Cedar, Vetiver, and Cardamom. She repeated her steps and when she got back to his dick, she stood behind him and wrapped a hand around him.
Terry planted his hands against the shower wall beneath the shower head. The water cascaded down his back and over his shoulders and hair. Aaliyah looked like a little person compared to him. She kissed his spine while her hand worked magic. With a twist of her wrist she would go from base to tip. She cupped his balls in her other hand and rolled them gently.
“This a lot of dick,” Aaliyah spoke with a seductive voice, “And all of this is mine? Hm?”
“Fuck, yes,” Terry raised his head, water rolling down his face, “All yours…”
“All mine to suck on?”
Aaliyah squeezed his balls with enough pressure to make his dick bounce in her hand.
“Yes, baby…”
“And to fuck?”
Aaliyah kissed his lat muscles with tender lips that made his hips jerk.
“Fuck on this dick, baby…”
He sounded so sexy. Aaliyah could feel her clit aching from his deep groans.
“I plan to…as soon as we get out this shower…”
Aaliyah let go of his balls and slapped the weight of his dick in her hand. Terry’s back muscles flexed.
“Yeah…nice and hard for me to bounce on…”
“You’re so nasty…” Terry spoke with a quiver in his voice.
She let go of his dick and watched as it swung from side to side. Her pussy was literally convulsing just thinking about him deep inside of her again. Aaliyah left Terry to wash his face and he gave her a look that told her he wasn’t happy about her stopping. He needed her and she couldn’t wait to give her pussy over to him again. She grabbed her towel to do a quick dry but Terry was out the shower and behind her so fast.
“Terry—”
“Shut the fuck up and bend over.”
Aaliyah’s back stiffened at his abrasive voice. She grabbed onto the double sink and stared straight ahead into the slightly foggy glass. Terry bent her over and brought one of her legs up to rest on the sink. He pushed down on the middle of her back hard and snatched off her shower cap. He spread one cheek and with his tip aimed at her wet hole he thrusted up in one motion.
“Terry, what the fuck?!”
Aaliyah felt as if she’d been split open. He grabbed her upper arms with firm hands and drilled her with harsh blows that had her ass moving like a tidal wave and her hair in her face. She reached one hand up and it slid down the mirror, the condensation dripping. She could see his face. Jaw tight. Eyes on her. Chin tucked. Lip between his teeth. Terry let go of her arms and grabbed her waist. He widened his stance and dug in her so deep her eyes crossed.
“Bet you feel that in your gut. Mhm. This how I’m fuckin’ my pussy. Right?!”
“YEAH!” Aaliyah shouted.
“Tugging on my shit,” Terry watched the way Aaliyah’s pussy yanked on him each time he pulled back to the tip, “Gawd…pussy so good…”
Aaliyah’s face fell into the bowl of one of the sinks. Her lips formed a silent ‘O’ and her eyes shut tightly.
“Aaliyah don’t piss me off.”
She couldn’t keep her leg up. And Terry wasn’t having it.
“Aight,” he withdrew his hips and picked Aaliyah up. He sat her on the edge of the sink and positioned her legs over his shoulders while his hands cuffed her ass to keep her steady and on that dick. He locked eyes with her and slipped back inside like he never left. She clawed his chest, grabbed onto the sink, gripped his arms, put a hand around his neck. Nothing stopped him from putting a hurting so good on her pussy.
“Shit! Oh noooo!” She watched his dick go in and out as if she were petrified by how fat and long he is, “I’m a cum! It’s so big! Terry! FUCK! Oh my god…ohh…”
Terry held his face against her neck and pulled her into a tight hug. His hips collided with her thighs with sharp thrusts. Aaliyah circled her arms around his neck and cried into his ear. Her toes curled under and Terry had to pick her up in the air when she almost slipped. Their shared breaths of over exertion echoed off of the bathroom walls. Terry’s entire body burned. He walked with Aaliyah in his arms and his dick buried deep, leaving the bathroom and entering the room again.
Terry placed Aaliyah on her back and continued fucking the shit out of her. Her perky breasts were pointed towards his face and he couldn’t help but suck her nipples in turn.
“Fuuuck,” Aaliyah moaned.
He used her flexibility against her and spread her legs all the way up to where his hands were locking her ankles in place. He dropped down at a measured speed into her pussy with an intense look on his face and deep grunts. A creamy ring formed at the base of his dick and it got so messy that his dick would slip out. He slapped her clit with it and plunged back in.
“You see this? Look at how I’m fucking you, Aaliyah.”
She watched with shiny eyes. Terry delivered quick thrusts before slowing back down. Aaliyah looked up at him and he looked at her with a smirk on his face.
“It’s so much dick…”
“I’m giving you what’s yours. I thought you loved big dick?”
Aaliyah pushed at Terry’s abs. He slapped her hand away.
“You know you wanna squirt on me.” Terry teased.
Aaliyah circled her belly with her arms to fight the feeling that formed in the pit of her stomach. Tears rolled down into her hair and Terry bent down to kiss her lips.
“Cum, baby…just like that…uh-huh,” Terry spoke against her lips, “Come on, my pretty Aaliyah…give daddy all that…that’s my girl…right there…”
Aaliyah sprung a leak. And Terry fucked her through it. He sat back on his knees to admire his work. Her inner thighs were soaked. She drenched his abs. Cream coated her inner folds and leaked to the crack of her ass.
Terry got down and licked her clean.
“Daddy, you didn’t cum yet…”
Terry looked up at her.
“What should we do about that, huh?”
Aaliyah smiled at him.
“Get up here.” She commanded.
Terry made his way onto the bed and on his back. Aaliyah straddled him. She leaned forward and with her eyes connected with his, she fit him inside of her and slowly lowered until he completely fit. Feet flat on the bed, Aaliyah bounced. Terry had a handful of titties as he watched her. Her hair had curled up around the edges, giving her a wilder look.
“Look at you go,” Terry thumbed her clit, “Show me who this dick belong to.”
Aaliyah trapped Terry’s hand to stop him from rubbing her clit. He chuckled, prying her thighs open.
“I don’t see you getting down on this dick. All the way down, Aaliyah.”
She paused, sinking to her knees and arching her back. Aaliyah resumed bouncing, looking back at her ass.
“Ride me. Ride Daddy,” Terry barked, “Fuck yourself on Daddy’s dick. Lemme slut yo’ pretty ass out. I’m a take care of that pussy real good. Anytime, baby.”
Terry slapped the hell out of Aaliyah’s ass. It jiggled with so much force from his large palm. She just knew he left a hand print.
Aaliyah dropped that pussy on him. She leaned forward and rode his thickness like she was bucking on a mechanical bull. Terry whimpered from her pussy clenching and releasing him as she rocked. Her thick cheeks clapped against his thighs and slammed down on his balls. And all he could do was give her ass a pop. His grunts and groans and heavy moans continued the more she fucked him.
“Aaliyah, FUCK…”
She wrapped a small hand around his neck and threw her head back.
“I feel you…inside me…harder…”
Terry couldn’t hold back any longer. He fucked up as Aaliyah came down. His heels dug into the bed, trying his hardest to give her a deep dick down. She bounced with speedy delight, smiling down at Terry between moans.
“YES! Yesyesyesyesyesyes!”
Aaliyah rode his ass through the mattress and Terry planted his hands on her hips.
“I’m finna nut—”
“Cum for me, Big Daddy! All in your pussy!”
“Dammit, Aaliyah—”
Terry came with a hoarse shout and Aaliyah giggled with glee. His dick remained hard after his orgasm. Aaliyah pressed her body against his and raked her hand down his chest while whispering nasty things in his ear.
“You cum so much…I love the way you fill my pussy up.”
Terry sat up and kissed Aaliyah with her in his lap and his dick still inside. Their tongues made a happy dance deep in each other’s mouths. Terry palmed her ass, not ashamed to let her know that he loved it. He was weak for a phat ass.
“I love the way your dick makes me cum…”
Terry smirked against her lips.
—————
After all the sex, Aaliyah and Terry freshened up again and made their way out onto Bourbon Street for lunch. They walked hand in hand, Aaliyah wearing a pair of denim shorts that fit tight and stretched over her ass as if they were painted on. She paired it with some mules with a low heel and a fitted T-shirt that she tied into a knot at the front. She sported a pair of retro shades in a gradient blue color and kept her hair pinned up with a claw clip. As they strolled, her heels click–clacking against the concrete, she swung her small, cyan Telfar bag that matched the floral design printed on the front of her shirt. Large, silver hoops decorated her ears and she kept it simple with a think, silver necklace and silver bangles.
Terry wore a faded, orange T-shirt with his old high school logo printed on the front. Light wash jeans with slight rips were on his lower half, and he pulled the look together with a pair of all white, Nike Air Max 90s. He wore a silver, micro cuban around his neck and a matching silver watch on his left wrist. He too wore shades, a pair of all black aviators.
They settled on Mambo’s, a festive oasis offering locals and visitors alike a re-energizing escape from the strip clubs, cover bands and daiquiri shops outside. Located in the heart of the French Quarter, the welcoming gravity of the towering three-story building invites you to explore what lies beyond its French doors.
A hostess led them to the very top of the building, seating them at a high top overlooking the open patio doors that led to a sunny outdoor eating sanctuary. The sun was shining too bright and the heat was too intense to sit directly beneath it. Zydeco music titillated their ears. Their waiter trickled over after five minutes with an upbeat personality and her hair styled in bright red box braids.
“How ya’ll doin? Welcome to Mambo’s. I’m Dasia. Can I start ya’ll off with sum to drank?”
Aaliyah turned to Dasia, “I’ll have a water with lemon and also…I’d like to try your passion punch.”
“It’s got Bumbu Rum, Don Q & Don Q Passion Fruit with fresh fruit juices. That okay?”
“I’m okay wit’ it.” Aaliyah replied.
“How ‘bout you?”
“A water with lemon as well. And I’ll do a draft beer…uhh…Abita Amber.”
“Okay…ready to order appetizers or ya’ll need a minute?”
“A minute.” Terry responded.
“I’ll be back wit’ ya drinks.”
Dasia walked away as Aaliyah flipped through the menu.
“I definitely want some oysters.”
“We can do that. Know what you wanna eat?”
“I was eyeing this blackened red fish…”
“That looks good,” Terry stroked his goatee, “I’ll probably do a po’ boy. A shrimp one.”
Aaliyah crossed her legs beneath the table. Terry reached over to caress her knee. Aaliyah flashed him a smile and blew him a kiss.
“I have to figure out what I’m going to wear to the wedding.” Aaliyah mentioned, swinging a pretty foot beneath the table.
“Terry looked over at her through his lashes, “Need me to buy you something?”
“Maybe,” Aaliyah pushed her shades up to rest on top of her head, “What are the colors?”
“It’s Tiffany Blue.”
“Hmm…maybe I could do a blue dress? But not exactly the same color?”
“That’s a good idea. Would have to search today though.”
“It’s okay. I think I have a dress in mind. My closet is full of clothes for any occasion.”
Dasia returned with their drinks. Terry ordered oysters and decided to wait to order the entrees until they were finished.
“Your parents are coming in town?” Aaliyah asked.
“Yeah, they’ll be here the day before.”
Aaliyah sampled her drink. It was perfectly sweet. Terry sipped his beer, licking his lips after.
“Do you see them often?”
“Nah. Not as much as I would love to. I try to see them twice a year. We talk almost every day though. My dad has health issues, something with his heart. It’s a hereditary thing. My grand father passed away from cardiac failure.”
“Sorry to hear that. I’m sure that’s scary with it being hereditary.”
“It is. That’s why I keep myself healthy and visit my primary care and cardiologist as often as I can. I’m all good though.” Terry reassured.
“Anything you wanna warn me about before I meet them?”
Terry chuckled, “My parents would love you, Aaliyah. You ain’t got nothing to worry about.”
“…do they want grandchildren?”
Terry drank some of his beer down. He gave Aaliyah a one-shoulder shrug.
“They do. They don’t pressure me ‘bout it. One day.”
Aaliyah smiled softly at him.
“Let me try your drink,” Terry held out his hand for Aaliyah to pass her drink over.
She watched him sample her drink and his eye brows ticked up with excitement.
“Oh that’s good. Perfectly mixed. A couple more of those and you gon’ be tore up.”
“Sounds good. But I want shots.”
“Later,” Terry shook his head.
“Whyyyy?”
“Stop whining,” Terry leaned forward to pop Aaliyah on her hip, “You don’t need that right now. When I take you out to dance later you can have all the shots you want.”
Aaliyah rolled her eyes and lowered her shades over them. She stuck her tongue out at Terry and he tilted his head at her and curled a finger for her to come closer. Aaliyah leaned in, her ass poked out. If anyone walked by, they would be able to see how the denim fabric outlined the shape of her pussy from the back and how the edges dug into her legs sinfully.
Terry cupped her chin and got so close to her face their noses touched.
“No means no. Fix your face. This the only time I’ma tell you.” Terry warned.
He let go and Aaliyah took her time sitting back. The oysters arrived and she forgot all about Terry’s words when the smell of melted garlic butter wafted her nose. They both tucked into their food after ordering their entrees.
“It’s so quiet. That’s how you know we were starving.”
Terry gave Aaliyah a playful smile, “burned too many calories.” Terry’s shoulders bounced as he laughed.
“How am I supposed to keep up with you?!” Aaliyah whisper–yelled.
“Says the woman that can hit a split from the top of the pole to the floor.” Terry blew out air and rolled his eyes, calling her bluff.
“Shut up,” Aaliyah kicked him under the table.
She finished her drink off and swayed her hips to the music. Dasia sauntered over and offered to give her another drink. Aaliyah happily accepted.
“How much can you squat?”
Terry licked butter from his lips and flashed Aaliyah a handsome smile.
“Depends. If I’m being spotted, about four hundred. Alone? I can do about fifty pounds less.”
“Dayum,” Aaliyah giggled at how loud she said that, “no wonder why you like to pick me up so much.”
Terry’s eyes crinkled as he laughed.
“You somethin’ else, girl.”
“And you love it.” Aaliyah sassed with her light and flirty voice.
“I do.”
Terry reached beneath the table and brought Aaliyah’s feet in his lap. He stroked the tops of her feet while sipping his beer, never taking his eyes off of her.
“You’re so attentive it’s intense,” Aaliyah blinked away from his face when Dasia returned with another drink, letting them know that their food will be out shortly, “You gotta stop looking at me like that, it’s making me wet.” She whined.
Terry stroked his bottom lip with his thumb before biting it.
“Not with those ‘come fuck me’ eyes on you, ma.”
Aaliyah swirled her straw around her drink as she bat her lashes at Terry. The table rumbled from Aaliyah’s phone vibrating with an incoming notification, she grabbed her phone and flipped it over. Terry downed the last of his beer and placed the glass on the table, tapping his chest with the side of his fist after releasing a muffled burp.
“Excuse me…”
Aaliyah appeared bothered by whatever was on her phone. Terry furrowed his brows at her change of demeanor. He watched her exhale and her shoulders collapse.
“Everything okay?”
Aaliyah gave him a phony smile, “Yeah.”
“You look like you just got the worse news of your life.” Terry chuckled, despite his sudden worry for her, “Talk to me.”
Aaliyah seemed to veil her true emotions with yet another beautiful smile.
“Nothing! Just got a reminder about an upcoming exam I have yet to study for. This semester has been kicking my ass.”
From the way the corners of her mouth wrinkled as she reached for her drink, Terry knew that something troubled her. And it wasn’t anything to do with a curriculum.
“You’re almost there, baby. Before you know it, you’ll be a college graduate. Can’t wait to see you walk across the stage.”
She gave Terry a timid smile while swirling her ice around her glass with her straw, “I was ready to give up so many times. You don’t even know.”
“The future belongs to those who believe in the beauty of their dreams. It’s not about perfect, it’s about effort. You bring that effort every single day in my class and I’m sure in your other classes. That’s where transformation happens. You trusted yourself and now look.”
Aaliyah appeared delighted by Terry’s words and whatever previously attempted to anger her, suddenly disappeared.
“You’re so sweet, Terry. Where have you been all my life?”
“Maybe if I hadn’t moved to Fayetteville I’d still be here. I would have fallen for the majorette girl with the pretty smile and long hair.”
“And I still wouldn’t have made it easy for you.” Aaliyah teased.
“If you ain’t notice by now, I love a challenge.”
Her merry laugh made him laugh.
“Another Abita Amber?”
Terry handed over his empty beer glass and grabbed the new one, mouthing a ‘thank you’ to Dasia. Before she could walk away, their food was on its way over on a serving tray. The spices wafted Aaliyah’s nose and her stomach instantly grumbled. Terry had a loaded po’ boy in front of him with perfected deep fried shrimp spilling over the top of the flaky sub roll. He squeezed it with his fingers, a satisfying crunch sound following. Aaliyah forked the flaky red fish and leaned in to smell the garlic mashed potatoes and collard greens.
Terry didn’t waste time eating. His mouth opened wide and he took a big bite out of his po’ boy, mayo painting the side of his lips. Aaliyah reached forward and thumbed away the mess on his face, sucking it off her thumb with a smirk. Terry chuckled at her with so much admiration in his greenish–hazel eyes. He shared some of his shrimp with her and Aaliyah fed him so collards. Two drinks in, and she was already feeling tipsy. She couldn’t help but giggle at anything Terry said.
“What’s funny now?” Terry questioned with an exasperated smile.
“Those big ears of yours.”
“HA,” Terry leaned back in his chair and looked up at the ceiling, “So, you got jokes?”
“They’re so cute. I love them.”
“That squeaky laugh you got, sounding like a chipmunk.” Terry quipped.
Aaliyah tossed a crumbled napkin at him that Terry caught in his hand.
“You know you love my laugh!”
“It’s music to my ears, mon amour.”
She beamed at him.
———
The spot they were going to wasn’t far from their hotel but Terry still wanted to drive just in case anything popped off. Aaliyah slid into the passenger seat and Terry shut the door behind her. She decided to wear the same stilettos from their romantic dinner date and she paired it with a skin tight, body con dress that left nothing to the imagination with its sheer, glittery material. Terry had to help her into the dress. Aaliyah painted her lips fire engine red and her hair fell over her shoulders and to the middle of her back. She touched up her edges and added a little pomade to ensure she didn’t sweat them out.
Terry was dressed in a cream colored polo with sleeves that fit snugly around his biceps. The first few buttons were undone, giving a peek at his gold, micro cuban link. He paired it with snug black slacks and black loafers. This random spot they decided on had a dress code of no sneakers, sandals, and athletic wear. Aaliyah had to do some social media digging to find the perfect spot that catered to black people and played black music.
Terry wanted a live band at first but Aaliyah insisted that she wanted to shake ass to trap music and pussy rap. Aaliyah needed some tissue to clean up a little lipstick. She opened Terry’s glove compartment and sitting right before her eyes like a beacon light was a Glock 19. Terry settled into the drivers seat and Aaliyah shut the glove compartment quickly.
Terry glanced over at her, before his eyes fell to the glove compartment. Aaliyah looked at him with a slight smile and nervous eyes. Terry reached over and opened the glove compartment, the pistol right where he’d left it.
“You needed something outta here?” Terry questioned.
“Just some tissue,” Aaliyah replied softly.
Terry shifted things around until he found a box of Kleenex. He handed it over to Aaliyah before tucking his pistol away so it wouldn’t be visible.
“Sorry ‘bout that, baby.”
“It’s okay. I just wasn’t expecting to see that there.”
Terry started up his car while Aaliyah busied herself with making sure her makeup was perfect.
“If you feel uncomfortable with it there—”
“It’s okay, Terry,” Aaliyah glanced over at him with a laugh, “It’s actually kinda sexy.”
Terry elevated a brow and slowly his lips turned up into a smile.
“I bet you look sexy when you shoot.”
“Don’t boost my ego now,” Terry chuckled, “I could show you sometime? Take you to the range.”
“I always wanted to go.” Aaliyah replied with excitement.
“Then I’ll take you. It’s a date.”
“So, camping,” Aaliyah counted off on her fingers, “The gun range…”
“And many more.”
They locked eyes and Terry reached over to rest his hand on her thigh. He stroked it with his thumb.
“Almost there, about ten more minutes.”
Aaliyah grabbed Terry’s hand and slipped it between her legs. Good thing they were at a red light. He looked at her with a bite of his bottom lip. His fingers grazed bare pussy lips.
“Oh, you’re in trouble. You’re in trouble.”
Aaliyah giggled to herself. Terry was dead serious.
“This dress barely covers that ass and you decide to wear no panties? You serious?”
“I thought I was you nasty little slut?” Aaliyah replied with a bat of her lashes as she twirled hair around her finger with faux innocence.
“I’m a have to keep a close eye on you. Let some nigga find out you ain’t got nothing on up under there.”
“Isn’t that what makes it fun? And I’m yours, remember?”
Terry’s jaw clenched. His hand tightened on the steering wheel. He adjusted his hips in the seat and gave Aaliyah one penetrating look that shook her core.
“Be a brat if you want to, Aaliyah.”
Aaliyah spread her legs to show Terry just how good her pussy looked. He gave in and looked down between her legs. He huffed with a shake of his head.
“What was that about being a brat again?” Aaliyah replied with a teasing smile.
“Damn, that pussy look good…”
“Here,” Aaliyah touched herself and gathered some of her wetness on her fingertips, “You wanna taste?”
Eyes still on the rode, Aaliyah rubbed her pussy juice all over Terry’s lips. He grabbed her hand and sucked on her fingers. Aaliyah watched Terry lick his lips.
“That should hold you over until later. I plan to sit on that pretty face of yours.”
“And I’ll happily be your favorite seat for as long as I’m living and breathing, baby.” Terry responded with a hand to his chest and an enduring smile.
They finally pull up to the nightclub. Some spot tucked away beneath a tangled freeway and overlooking an outstretched parking lot. Cars, trucks, motorcycles; any form of transportation looked oddly placed in various spots with empty spaces in between. Terry reversed into a spot to the left of the entrance.
A lineup of club-goers waited to get inside. Some people lingered on the fringes or smoked whatever enhanced their vibes. Terry hopped out and made his way around to open Aaliyah’s door. He stood in front of her while she took her time raising from her seat since her dress had ridden up. Terry’s dour eyes never left her face. He held out his hand and before Aaliyah could walk away he gripped her hand tighter. Aaliyah watched as Terry checked her out from behind, ensuring that her dress covered her ass. She giggled at his fixed gaze and he popped her on the ass to silence her. Wasn’t shit funny.
Ubers and Lyfts dropping people off at the curb. Two Beefy bouncers checking IDs and turning people away, refusing to argue with them. Each time the doors opened, Strobe lights were pulsing from inside. Terry had a hand on Aaliyah’s waist as he guided her to the back of the line that grew smaller and smaller. Aaliyah’s stomach fluttered when Terry placed her directly in front of him and wrapped his arms around her waist.
She peered up at him, a drastic height difference between them even with her heels. He caught her staring and gave her a furtive look with a soft smile. The stiffness of his shoulders and the snug hold he had on her let her know Terry was on go for anybody that so much as looked at her, breathed her air, or touched her.
That brought her back to the bachelor party. The way he almost broke that man’s wrist. The glint in his eyes. The unblinking stare and stolid expression. There was no doubt in Aaliyah’s mind that Terry could do damage. He didn’t play about her. She bounced in his arms, her booty cheeks clapping against his crotch to entice him. She could hear a bounce mix from inside the club.
The line pushed forward and when they made it to the front, Terry released Aaliyah so she could sift through her bag and grab her ID. They displayed it to the bouncers and then the pitch black door opened, a blazing heat billowing out along with the stench of hookah smoke and alcohol. They were ushered inside, Terry’s hand on her back as they disappeared beyond the doors.
Dim lighting.
Black speakers and a stage.
Bars with seating and an area of small round tables and stools.
Waitresses dressed skimpily with glowing trays of drinks or carrying empty bottles and glasses back to the bar.
A row of shot glasses being filled one by one.
Bartenders rushing to keep up with orders.
Bottles of alcohol lining a mirrored wall behind the bartender.
Bins with lemon and lime wedges, cherries, and other garnishes.
Multicolored straws, empty beer cans and bottles, sprayers and beer taps.
Sinks loaded with ice.
Carefully layered drinks in martini glasses.
Coffee mugs and highball glasses.
Spilled drinks on the floor and wet marks on the bar.
A line at the bathroom.
A dance floor packed like sardines and a DJ booth surrounded by men.
Birdman and Lil Wayne– Stuntin’ Like My Daddy had the whole place jumping off. The loud bass and booming speakers vibrated their inner ears as they cased out the spot to find seating. A drunk couple stumbled from a table shrouded in a faint magenta lighting from an overhead lamp. Terry ushered Aaliyah over quickly before anyone else. As they approached, a waitress covered in barely anything sauntered over to snatch up the used Hookah. She noticed Terry and Aaliyah approaching and gave them a smile before doing a quick and effective wipe of the table. Terry dipped his head as a ‘thank you’ before helping Aaliyah into her seat.
Terry settled across from her and leaned in to speak with her over the loud music.
“You want me to get you a drink?!”
“Please!” Aaliyah shouted back, “Two shots of chilled Patron and whatever else!”
“Aight,” Terry left his seat but before he disappeared into the sea of sweaty, dancing people, he gave Aaliyah a look and gestured for her to call him if anything pops off.
“I’ll be fine, Terry! I’ll be right here waiting!”
Terry walked off, gently pushing past people to get to the bar. Aaliyah swayed her hips in her seat, her legs looking shiny and glazed beneath the lights. The song switched up to Gucci Mane- On Deck and as Aaliyah watched the dance floor, she noticed a group of men strolling and throwing up hooks. An eruption of cheers drowned out the music the more they moved in sync.
Meanwhile, Terry was leaning against the bar, his hazel eyes searching. A young woman with sandy brown locs that touched her waist and an all black body con dress on that hugged her plush waist and wide hips made direct eye contact with Terry. She stepped around another bartender to get to him.
“How you doin’ tonight! What can I get you?”
“I’ll take four shots of patron! And uhhh…get me a lemon drop but with patron instead of vodka.”
“COMING UP!”
She winked at Terry before working on his drinks. Terry glanced over towards the table and all he could see was Aaliyah’s legs peeking out.
“Do you need help carrying these drinks?! We can bring it over!”
“Yeah, could you? We’re at that table over there,” Terry pointed out where they were seated, “If you don’t mind.”
“Not at all! I’ll have one of our girls bring it over!”
Terry gave her a thumbs up before paying cash for the drinks and leaving a tip. Turning, he started cutting through the sea of people until he felt a hand grip his arm. Terry turned and looked down into the eyes of a random chick that he damn sure didn’t know or recognize. Politely prying her hand off, he continued towards the table. Once there, he noticed a man trying to make conversation with Aaliyah.
“Hey,” Terry approached with charged energy, “Can I help you with something?”
The man stood at about 6’0 with an airbrushed hairline and a crudy ‘fro. Fake diamonds dangled from his neck, wrists, and fingers. He wore his skinny jeans below his ass and a graphic T-shirt with a classic rock band he most likely didn’t know a thing about was two sizes too small on him. He sized Terry up with the whites of his eyes red.
“This yours, Playa?”
Terry blinked at the man with a deadpan expression before tilting his head around to check on Aaliyah, a flare in his eyes.
“Did he say something to you?”
“He can’t catch a hint,” Aaliyah replied with furrowed brows.
He could see the tension in her body and the discomfort in her eyes. Terry straightened up and his eyes flicked down at the man, glaring at him. The man somehow began to understand the severity of his situation if he so much as sad another word out of line.
“Off limits, my fault bruh,” He brought his hands up in surrender, “Don’t want no trouble, Big Dude. You got a fine lady. I was just giving her a compliment.”
The man left like a fire had been lit under his feet. Terry’s hard, unwavering eyes tracked the movements of the man until he was nowhere in sight. Aaliyah grabbed him by the hand and stroked his skin. She smoothed her fingers over the protruding veins in his hand and up his arm. Terry finally pulled his gaze away and looked down at her.
“Sit. He’s gone.”
Terry moved leisurely until he settled across from Aaliyah. The same waitress that cleaned the table minutes prior came over to greet them and placed their drinks on the table.
“Thank you,” Terry slid two shots and a lemon drop over to Aaliyah, “Why didn’t you call my phone?”
“He had just shown up when you walked over, Terry.”
Aaliyah grabbed Terry’s hand and leaned forward. She blinked at him slowly while kissing his fingertips.
“Relax,” she brushed his fingers along her cheek and down her throat before fitting his fingers around it, “I’m yours…and you’re mine. I don’t want another man but you…another dick but yours…”
Even over the music loud enough to burst your tympanic membrane, Terry caught on to every word and gripped her neck a little tighter. He pressed his thumb against her pulse point, watching as Aaliyah’s sultry lips parted and a slight gasp echoed across the table.
“I love how crazy your eyes get when you’re ready to fuck a nigga up,” Aaliyah dropped her eyes to stare at Terry’s lips.
“Your fault, baby. I don’t play about you…”
Terry let go and his jaw clenched as he raised a shot glass to toast with Aaliyah. They clinked glasses, tapped it on the table, and drowned it in one gulp. Aaliyah grimaced and Terry’s face remained stern with probing eyes. Aaliyah pressed her lips together and clenched her inner thighs to suppress the throbbing sensation in her clit. She trained her eyes to stay locked on his even through the intensity. His prolonged gaze created a heat that tickled her flesh and the beginning effects of the alcohol didn’t help calm her arousal.
Aaliyah teased her red lips with the tip of her tongue before gliding it between her teeth to entice him. She flicked up a single brow suggestively, letting him know that she was enjoying their little game of staring at each other to see who would look away first. Terry sat back and folded his arms over his chest, his hands gripping his biceps on either side. He cocked his head to the left and his bottom lip slowly dragged between his teeth.
Feeling bold, Aaliyah brought her fingers to the top of her dress, gliding them over the top of her dress. Her girls sat up and a mountain of cleavage teased him. Terry’s eyes slanted, a sign that he was turned on. Aaliyah giggled at his lack of control before revealing her left breast. She glanced around quickly before her eyes were back on him, pinching her stiff nipple before covering herself back up again.
Aaliyah snickered at Terry being slack-jawed.
“I win,” Aaliyah bounced in her seat with glee before bringing her lemon drop to her lips, “Better luck next time, huh?”
Terry gave Aaliyah a debonair smile, “You don’t play fair at all.”
Haha, bitch, I’m big dude
Phew, phew, phew, frrrt
Haha, phew, phew, phew, bitch, I’m big dude…
Terry chuckled at Aaliyah throwing her hands up and giving her seat some attention with that beautiful ass of hers. She moved her hips in a circle and stuck her tongue out. Terry listened to this song often in the gym. The vulgar Memphis Rapper with his cocky lyrics and a nasty beat had the walls rattling. It was banging hardcore and Terry couldn’t help but make his shoulders jump and sway his head in time to the beat.
“Let’s dance!”
Aaliyah was out of her seat and between Terry’s legs in an instant. She spun around and arched her back, plopped down on his lap and rocked her barely covered ass on his crotch. Terry shifted his body to face her from behind and he gripped her hips as he stood. Terry surged his crotch against Aaliyah’s ass with so much force that she almost stumbled forward. Her eyes sought his, and Terry simply smiled at her.
It was hard to really groove with so many people around them but Aaliyah’s gregarious personality and spunky attitude somehow made others clear the way to give her room to pop out. Big Boog’s voice and energy on the trap song had Aaliyah giving Terry a performance he was happy to see but also the possessive side of him clocked the hungry eyes of other men. Aaliyah bent over and grabbed her ankles, gyrating her thick cheeks all on his clothed dick. The weight of her backside colliding with his third leg had him groaning under his breath.
The distant voices ehoing dayum and whew shit had Terry craning his neck to see who was speaking on his woman and her acrobatic skills.
His. Terry loved the sound of that.
She tossed that ass back on him and he made sure his dick remained tucked between. His big hands had a vice grip on her hips. Aaliyah lifted, turned, and shimmied her hips to fix her dress. She pressed the front of her body against his and Terry rocked his hips to match hers. Reaching around, Terry double cuffed Aaliyah’s booty and she brought her hands to his waist.
Her hips started moving in a slow whine and Terry pressed his forehead against hers with a slight smirk painted on his lush lips. Already he could feel himself sweating. The DJ switched back to some bounce music and Aaliyah jumped back into an energetic twerk that Terry could keep up with. Aaliyah had her hands on her knees and made that ass clap at an uptempo that had Terry bending his knees to thrust his hips against her.
Everyone on that dance floor were practically body to body. Cheap cologne, fruity perfume, Paul Masson, sweat, and not so pleasant aromas circulated the humid air. The strobe lights covered the entire club in blue light. Terry placed his hands on Aaliyah’s shoulders while she continued to pop that pussy on him. She looked back at him, hair in her face, drenched, and her dress past her ass. She stood tall and made her cheeks bounce and Terry grabbed onto her wrists, holding her hands in the air.
“You’re the best fuckin’ dancer I ever seen,” Terry licked the shell of Aaliyah’s ear, “Got that shit moving.”
“Glad you can keep up with me, Professor.”
The music slowed down after a few more mixes and Twista-Wetter started playing, some people cleared the dance floor and returned to the bar while others went on a restroom break. Terry led Aaliyah closer to their table and then her turned her back towards him. One hand slithered around and pressed between her legs while the other stroked her waist. Aaliyah followed his two-step, her eyes closed as the lyrics started.
callin' ya daddy, daddy
Can you be my daddy, daddy
I need a daddy, daddy
Won't you be my daddy, daddy
Come and make it rain down on me
Come and make it rain down on me
“I want another drink.” Aaliyah said.
“Me too,” Terry wrapped an arm around her waist, “But damn…you feel good against me. I don’t wanna move.”
Thankfully, the waitress responsible for their table was heading over. Terry ordered four more shots and another lemon drop. Aaliyah dipped her body low on to the floor, her hand gliding down Terry’s abs and over the tent in his pants. She gabbed onto his thighs and stared up at him while bent at the knees.
“Get up here,” Terry said, his eyes low from the contact high he was experiencing from the weed.
Aaliyah cupped her hand over his hard dick and pinched his shaft on either side, testing how rigid he was. Her mouth formed an ‘O’ and she flicked her eyes up at him.
Terry mouthed, “Get up.” As a warning.
Aaliyah giggled as she stood, Terry reaching around to pop her on the ass. The waitress returned with their new drinks and they took a seat again, drinking until they were both buzzed enough. Terry watched Aaliyah dance for him when the music switched up again. His little performer. He could tell from her unsteady gaze and sloppy movements that she was good and tipsy. Terry came to the rescue with her purse in hand and left money on the table before leaving with Aaliyah safely in his arms.
———-
Ding.
Terry stopped Aaliyah as they stepped off of the elevator and onto their floor. Dim lighting from the chandelier above them created shadows across their bodies as they walked. Aaliyah began to complain about her feet, so Terry stopped her. He crouched down and started removing her shoes, kissing her inner thighs for good measure. Back on his feet, he carried her shoes and when they finally reached their door Aaliyah used the keycard.
Terry held the door open while Aaliyah made her way inside.
“Drink some water,” Terry handed Aaliyah a water bottle, “and take your clothes off.”
“We fucking?” Aaliyah asked with a smile.
“Whatchu think?”
Aaliyah drank the entire bottle of water down before tossing the empty bottle in the trash. She removed her hoop earrings and placed them on the table next to her bed.
“Help me out,” Aaliyah pinned her hair up and made her way over to Terry, “Undress me please.”
Aaliyah positioned herself in front of the mirror and Terry crept up behind to help her out her dress. His finger tips tugged her dress over her shoulders agonizingly slow, his eyes trailing a path down her spine. Aaliyah slipped her arms out and Terry helped her get it past her hips.
“You think you have the energy to go all night?” Terry questioned as he stared at Aaliyah through the mirror.
“I’m willing to test that out.” Aaliyah replied, glancing up at Terry over her shoulder with a playful smile.
Aaliyah turned to face him, taking off his shirt. Terry raised his long arms above his head and his shirt went up and over and to the floor. His gold chain sat against his pecs and Aaliyah started unfastening his pants. Terry kicked off his shoes and then his eyes locked with Aaliyah’s as she dug her fingers into the waistband of his pants and briefs, pulling both down in one motion. He kicked out of them and then removed his socks.
“You’ve managed to give me a perfectly romantic weekend. A first for me.”
Terry brushed his knuckles across Aaliyah’s cheeks before cupping her face, “Because you’re so special…”
Terry adored Aaliyah. A sudden timid silence filled the space between them and Aaliyah dropped her eyes as she smiled.
“Look at me, pretty baby…”
Aaliyah met his gaze and Terry’s hands fell to the back of her thighs.
“You know I gotta fuck the shit outta you and make you take this dick like a big girl for having my pussy out tonight, right?”
A gasp escaped her lips as Terry lifted her up and Aaliyah circled his waist with her legs. One hand on the back of her head, arm around her waist, he carried her over towards the patio doors. There was only one lamp light on, half of the room pitch black and the other ignited. Aaliyah circled her arms around his shoulders.
They kissed with teeth clashing, tongues touching, and lips sucking. Terry’s dick kept bobbing up and down, smacking Aaliyah against her fat lips. Terry’s lips attacked her jaw, her throat, and her chest. While he sucked her nipples, Aaliyah started bucking her hips against his stiffness.
“You want me to fuck you like this? For everyone to see? Huh, nasty girl?”
“Yes!”
“Oh? That was an eager response,” Terry kissed Aaliyah again, “Let’s see if this pretty pussy can handle it.”
Terry used his immense power and with one arm he lifted Aaliyah sideways so he could use his other hand to point his leaky tip between her pussy lips and in that good, wet hole. A creamy noise filled the room when his tip finally made its way inside and down to his balls. Terry wasted no time fitting Aaliyah down on that big daddy dick. Her ass smacked against the glass and her heels dug into his lower back. Terry flexed all the muscles in his body to slam up into her.
“SHIT DADDY!”
Aaliyah’s back pressed into the glass and Terry kept her legs wide open the more he buried himself inside. He formed a frown on his face and his brows pinched together. He looked riled up and Aaliyah could feel it all.
“Babyyyyyyyyyy…” Terry moaned.
“That pussy good?” Aaliyah responded between soft whimpers.
Terry molded his lips into hers.
“So fuckin’ good. You’re makin’ a mess on this dick, girl,” Terry spoke against her lips, “wetting this dick up, baby. Got my shit so hard…baby, I can’t stop fucking you…”
Aaliyah couldn’t handle the way his oceanic eyes looked at her. She stared down at his good pipe going in and out of her creamy hole with a perplexed look. No matter where her eyes went, she was spellbound by his hypnotic eyes or his thick, long dick. An airy sigh escaped her mouth when he started beating it up at a pace that had her toes curling.
His big, strong body had her sandwiched between the glass and his rock hard torso. Their mingled sweat mixed with the smell of her wet pussy clouded her senses. Terry had his hands planted on the glass, her shoulders draped over his arms, and his hips a never ending piston. Her languid eyes locked with his and he gave her a jeering smile. He was so fucking fine it was unfair.
“Oh…Terry…oh, Terry…oh shit…right there…make me cum…Terry…Terry…Terry—”
Aaliyah gave his chest weak slaps and the back of her head bumped the patio door behind her. Her thighs squeezed his hips painfully and her eyes crossed.
“Good girl, that’s how you cum on this dick.”
Terry kissed Aaliyah, his lips ravishing her mouth while the aftershocks of her orgasm settled. He wasn’t finished with her yet. Terry held her tight and then he opened the patio doors. He placed Aaliyah on her feet and turned her, leaning her over the railing. It was loud enough below from the all the commotion and their patio light wasn’t on.
He slid in from behind and Aaliyah looked back at him with a quizzical expression. Terry slipped his fingers through her hair, gripped the high density strands, and started delivering precise thrusts. Anyone in the rooms beside them could walk out and catch them. A bystander from below if they were close enough could hear their bodies moving.
Terry couldn’t get off that pussy if he tried. The mixture of shock and lust on Aaliyah’s pretty face was yet another weakness. Her soft ass thrown back on him. The way she took his dick, all of his dick. Her sweet moans in his ear.
“Work this pussy, daddy!”
Terry covered her mouth and blew her back out further. His sweat fell over her back and his muscles ached.
“Daddy got you baby…uhhuhhh…such a good girl…”
Terry almost came with the way Aaliyah’s walls gripped him with her release. As he pulled out, Aaliyah squirted on his dick and all over the patio floor. Terry’s forehead fell against Aaliyah’s back and she let out an exhausted laugh. Aaliyah spun around and dropped to her knees to clean her mess off. Terry flashed her a tender smile while she throated his dick.
Aaliyah popped her lips off and rotated her head to drag her lips along the sides of his shaft to clean up her cum. She even dipped her head lower to slurp on his balls. His nuts drew up tight and the veins along his shaft engorged with blood. A familiar tickle behind his navel alerted him that he was ready to cum.
No. Terry needed to be inside his pussy again. He needed to cum in his pussy.
He gained enough strength to pick Aaliyah up bridal style and walk with her back inside.
On the bed, Aaliyah sat up on her side and Terry got behind her, lifted one leg, and entered her gushy pussy again. His fingers strummed her clit as he sucked on her neck. Aaliyah kept her leg in the air for him. He slowly fucked her and brought her to climax again.
“I love the faces you make when you cum all over this dick…”
“It’s so big inside me…I can’t stop cumming on it…”
“Good,” Terry thrust into her and held his dick there.
“Fuck,” Aaliyah trembled, “So fuckin’ thick in my pussy…”
“I know baby…I know…”
“You must want me to feel it all week,” Aaliyah released a moan and met Terry’s searing eyes. She crooked her head and puckered her lips. Terry captured her soft lips with wet smacking and spit swapping, “Oh, shit…”
Tears rolled down and over her nose. Aaliyah chewed on her bottom lip. Terry would slowly withdraw his hips and then push back into her to the hilt with a sharp thrust. He leaned over her to watch her face.
“Terry, fuck,” Aaliyah was drooling on the pillow, “Baby you gotta take some outtttt…”
Aaliyah tried to scoot away. Terry pinned her down beneath him and as soon as he put her ankles over his shoulders he had his fists rammed into the mattress and his hips working to fuck her good. Aaliyah tried to close her legs, Terry growing hostile and pinning her ankles back.
“Fuuuuuuck!” Aaliyah pushed at Terry’s chest, “So much…dick…fuck…”
Terry smacked her hands away and gave her a pointed look, “Aaliyah…please keep still before you make me mad, baby.”
His words were soft spoken but the way he looked down at her from that angle, repeatedly clenching his jaw, Aaliyah didn’t have a say in the matter. Terry was back inside of her like it was his second home.
“Keep your hands down…do what I say, Aaliyah.” Terry warned.
His stern voice and killer strokes had Aaliyah crying.
“Why you fuckin’ me like this?” Aaliyah questioned with passionate concern, “Why you fuckin’ me like this, Daddy?”
Her head extended back and Terry almost lost his damn mind from the pressure around his dick when her soft, inner folds began to pulsate. He lost all control of his neck and his head fell forward against Aaliyah’s shoulder.
“Fuck, ima cum so deep in this shit…”
“Unh! Uh! Oo! Oh my god! Terry!”
Terry hissed with his final strokes. He dropped down and painted Aaliyah’s walls white. His arms shook and he had to roll over before he fell on top of Aaliyah and crushed her. Terry mushed his face against her sweaty neck and brought his hand between her legs. With two fingers, he pushed them inside of her to feel his cum.
Aaliyah was spent. She could barely keep her eyes open.
“You did so well, good job baby,” Terry kissed along her sweaty skin, “Wore me out…”
Aaliyah mumbled something Terry couldn’t decipher.
“Wanna take a bath?” Terry asked with a tired voice.
“Mhm…”
Terry opened one eye to look at Aaliyah. He stroked her hair from her face. She opened her eyes fully and turned her head toward him. A smile spread across her face.
“You complete me.” Aaliyah spoke so low.
“I complete you?” He repeated.
“Mhm. Me,” Aaliyah pointed to her naked chest, “And you,” she pressed the same finger against Terry’s chest, “We go together.”
Terry laughed joyfully, “Yeah? Boyfriend and Girlfriend?”
Aaliyah simply nodded her head with her eyes closed and a faint smile.
They rested in the bed for another thirty minutes before Terry finally got up to start the bath. He ran a warm bath and let Aaliyah relax for a bit. Back in the room, Terry lifted her up from the bed and brought her in the bathroom. He carefully placed her in the tub and then positioned himself behind her. Terry washed her and pressed kisses against her cheek.
Holding her in his arms, he couldn’t ignore the feeling. The intensity. He wanted and needed this woman.
———
It was a cooler day on Sunday. Aaliyah took a nap in the passenger seat of Terry’s hellcat. She was scrunched up in a ball, frizzy hair flying into her face from the afternoon air billowing in through the windows. Terry rolled to a stop in front of her shotgun house and turned his car off. A crisp, white T-shirt with a pair of bootcut, light wash jeans was his attire. Aaliyah shifted and then she peeked her head out from beneath the hood of Terry’s all black hoodie.
“Wake up sleeping beauty. Home sweet home.”
Aaliyah stretched and rubbed her eyes before staring at her home awaiting her arrival.
“Do I have to?”
She poked her lip out at Terry. He stroked it with his thumb.
“I don’t have anything to do I can come in.”
Aaliyah’s face lit up, “Oh, please, won’t you keep me company?” She asked with a deep, southern drawl.
Terry laughed, “Anything for my pretty baby.”
“You love me too much—shit.”
Aaliyah clapped a hand over her mouth and giggled with embarrassment. Terry pinched the bridge of his nose and cracked a smile.
“That just…sorry,” Aaliyah slapped her forehead, “I meant to say…like. Oh god—”
“Aaliyah, chill. It’s okay.”
She covered her face with her hands and Terry unbuckled his seatbelt so he could lift her up and over into his lap.
“I’m falling for you deep, baby…ain’t nothing wrong with what you said.”
Aaliyah sat her chin on Terry’s shoulder.
“I’ve never been treated like this…ever.”
Terry stroked her back with his hand.
“I want you to let go of the past. I’m here to show you that you deserve love, Aaliyah…you’re an amazing woman.”
“You really don’t care that I shake my ass for a little cash?”
Terry shook his head and chuckled, “NO.”
“I’m nervous, about the wedding…”
Aaliyah sat back and looked down at Terry. He furrowed his brows with concern.
“If you think I’m gon’ sit back and let anybody talk disrespectful about you…”
Terry tilted her chin up. He closed the space between them and gave Aaliyah a slow tongue kiss. When Aaliyah broke the kiss first, Terry stroked her cheek with his thumb.
“You have nothing to worry about. I promise.”
“Okay.”
“Let’s get outta this car.”
Aaliyah crawled back into her seat and Terry exited the car. As he got out, he noticed a woman standing across the street, peeking at him from behind a light pole. Her hair was all over her head and she was dressed in a loose fitting flannel shirt with an equally ill–fitting faded dark green T-shirt beneath it. She wore denim cut offs and flip flops. Beneath the changes that living on the street can do to you, Terry could see that she was once a gorgeous woman.
“Terry…”
Aaliyah followed his gaze and when she realized where he was looking and who he was looking at, her entire body became stiff and her face fell, becoming expressionless.
The woman finally stepped out from behind the light post. She wrapped the flannel around her narrow waist as if she were exposed. Glancing both ways cautiously, she stepped down from the curb and walked over towards them. Aaliyah jumped into action, walking around the car with brisk movements. Terry didn’t intervene, but he kept an eye on the woman and around him. He could tell from the shifty look in her eyes that she was watching out for an unwanted guest.
“Mama, I thought I said you can’t come around unannounced?” Aaliyah fussed.
“I know, I know, I–I saw your car in the driveway. I know it’s–I’m only askin’ because I owe some money—”
“Stop,” Aaliyah didn’t have the energy to go back and forth with her mother, especially when she had such a great time with Terry, “You can’t keep showing up with your hand out. I gave you money. I refuse to continue funding your habit.”
“Aaliyah, please,” her mother grabbed onto her hand, halting her from leaving, “I know I’m no good. I know you hate me. But if I don’t pay him back, he gon’ kill me.”
Terry stood taller when he heard those words. He made eye contact with Aaliyah and he could see the inner battle between wanting to help her mother and setting boundaries. He approached them, her mother watching him with paranoid eyes.
“Who you?” She questioned rudely.
Aaliyah crossed her arms over her body and hung her head in shame. Terry glanced at her before returning his attention to her addict mother. She licked her cracked lips with uneasy eyes.
“My name is Terry. I’m Aaliyah’s boyfriend. Nice to meet you.”
Aaliyah appeared miffed that Terry introduced himself to her mother as her boyfriend. She remained stiff and icy despite the sweltering heat in Baton Rouge.
“Didn’t know you had a lil’ friend, baby…nice to meet you.”
Her mother scratched her neck, a nervous tick. She tried adjusting her attire in front of Terry, a despondent expression on her face.
“Likewise, ma’am.” Terry replied politely with a faint smile.
“Hope you treating my baby girl with some respect and love. She deserves it,” her mother sought out Aaliyah’s eyes with her sorrowful ones, “I know I ain’t been the best mother…”
“Yes, ma’am. I plan to.”
Her mother nodded her head, eyes shifting from left to right. Terry looked at Aaliyah again, a feeble smile on his face as he caught her eyes.
“Listen,” Terry reached into his back pocket, pulled out two, crisp hundreds, and held it out for her mother to take, “Will this take care of it?”
Aaliyah snapped her head up, “Terry? Don’t—”
Her mother went from dispirited to elated in a matter of seconds. It sickened Aaliyah to her core.
“Thank you,” her mother snatched the bills from Terry’s fingers so fast she could have ripped them. An artificial smile spread across her chapped lips, revealing missing teeth, “bless you, bless you, baby. Thank you for this,” she pressed the money against her chest, “Look out for Aaliyah, wil you?” She kissed the money and started backpedaling.
Aaliyah was furious.
“Aaliyah, I’m trying—”
Aaliyah was halfway to her house. She stomped up her steps and fumbled with her keys. Terry watched her mother rush off wiping her tears away with her dingy shirt. Terry took long strides towards Aaliyah’s house, skipping steps as he entered her home. He followed the sound of dishes and cabinets shutting. Terry entered Aaliyah’s kitchen, carefully approaching her from behind while she busied herself with putting away kitchenware from her dishwasher.
A gloomy silence hung in the air between them. Terry stood behind Aaliyah, allowing his presence to cover her with warmth and protection. Aaliyah shut the door to the dishwasher and gripped the edge of the counter. Since she hadn’t been home, the house felt stuffy and hot. Aaliyah stepped back and lifted Terry’s hoodie up and over her head. A thin, spaghetti strapped tank in light gray was revealed. It matched her gray leggings.
Terry took the hoodie from her. Aaliyah had her head turned away, hiding her face from him.
“I’m sorry.” Terry spoke.
“You should have let me handle it.”
“I know it ain’t my business…I couldn’t shake the fear in her eyes.”
“She’s an actress,” Aaliyah said sarcastically as she turned to face him fully, “She played you like she played me plenty.”
Aaliyah laughed despite her growing frustration.
“She’s been lurking around my house all weekend. I have surveillance cameras all around my house and I kept getting alerts to my phone with her knocking on my door and peering in my windows.”
“That’s why you looked like that when we went out for lunch yesterday.” Terry said.
“I didn’t want to talk about it. My mama is a trigger for me.”
For once, Terry didn’t have the words. He felt he’d crossed a line with Aaliyah. Things were still so fresh for them.
“I’m really sorry, baby,” Terry extended his hand to grab Aaliyah’s.
She stared down at their connected hand and the way Terry stroked hers with his thumb.
“…My mother will never change,” A single tear rolled down her cheek, “And I’m so embarrassed that this had to be the first time you two meet.”
Aaliyah slipped away from Terry and out of the kitchen. Terry leaned against her octagon–shaped kitchen island with deep–green marbling, white hued veining, and a polished finish. It matched the surrounding counter tops in her small and intimate kitchen. Terry found himself traveling down her narrow hallway that led to her bedroom.
Aaliyah was crying on her bed covered in clothes. She hid her face against her pillow. Terry tapped the open door with his knuckles. Aaliyah’s sniffles silenced and she looked up at him. She sat up, wiping the tip of her nose with the back of her hand.
“Can I come in?”
Aaliyah replied with a nod.
Terry stepped over the threshold that separated him from the hallway and her. He kicked his shoes off and not wanting to sit on the bed with his outside clothes, he took off his jeans. Terry walked around her canopy bed and pulled the black drapes back before crawling onto the bed. He settled on his side next to her.
“You don’t have to talk about it, Aaliyah. But I’m here to listen…”
Terry couldn’t fight the urge to stroke away her tears with his thumb. Aaliyah’s wet lashes blinked at him as she rested on her side facing him.
“Blue magic and Luster’s Pink Hair Lotion…”
A crease formed between Terry’s brows as he waited for Aaliyah to speak again.
“Isoplus Oil Sheen…I can still smell it…taste it almost. My childhood memories. It just…reminds me of how exciting it used to be sitting in the kitchen the night before Easter Sunday. My mom would have the radio on and I would be sitting in her designated styling chair while she put a hot comb to my hair. I wanted to be a hairdresser like her…”
Aaliyah continued, “I was so amazed at the hair shows. Blown away by my mama’s talent. You couldn’t tell me shit ‘bout my mama…she was everything to me…but then my daddy died…and…that light in her just…burnt out. Despite the way she allowed her depression to neglect me…the one thing that made me so angry with her…was when our home got taken away and she…she let them people throw away our memories. All the pictures…all the CDs…all my toys…all the hair products…I resented her then. Wild, right?”
Aaliyah’s red–rimmed eyes sought out Terry’s. Somehow, seeing her cry made his eyes sting as tears threatened to fall. He blinked rapidly to control it.
“Nothing can help her? Not rehab? Not family?”
“She exhausted rehab. My family disowned her. For a while I’ve been the only one to look out for her. Like I’m the mother,” Aaliyah released a furious chuckle, “And nothing I did meant anything to her. I’m so tired. And it hurts me because I want better for her. I miss her. But I just…Terry, I can’t do it—”
“It’s okay, Aaliyah. It’s okay…You’ve done all you could, baby. I wish she didn’t fail you…C’mere…”
Aaliyah buried her face against his T-shirt and as she cried, the scent of his fresh linen and sweat felt like comfort. His bulging biceps hugged her and he rubbed soothing circles into her back.
“I don’t want you to feel ashamed or embarrassed. If anything, she should…”
Terry kissed the top of Aaliyah’s head.
Aliyah hiccuped between cries. Terry let her release it all, uncaring that the front of his shirt was soaked. Her warm breath against his chest felt good and if he could remain silent and calm with her forever like this he would. Terry glanced down at her after some time and she was asleep against his chest. The crying exhausted her. Plus, from their weekend filled with sex, eating, and drinking, Aaliyah didn’t have proper sleep. Neither did he. Terry checked the time on his bronze and black Movado Watch with a gold plate and a cognac leather strap.
It was a little past five in the afternoon.
Terry eased from Aaliyah’s bed and covered her with her sheets. He left her to rest while he decided to look through her fridge for anything to cook for dinner. He opened her pantry and found some golden potatoes and in her fridge he found some andouille sausage. Opening her freezer, he noticed a pack of boneless, skinless chicken thighs. While his pretty girl slept her worries away, Terry made his way around her kitchen with his tear–stained T-shirt and Calvin Klein’s.
Smothered potatoes with chicken and smoked sausage was on the menu.
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The moment he stumbles into the apartment, you can tell he’s completely, utterly wasted. His shirt is wrinkled, one side untucked, and his dark hair is an absolute mess, strands sticking to his forehead. and there's a lazy, lascivious grin on his face as he sways toward you.
“Baaaaby,” he drags out the word as if it’s the sweetest thing he’s ever said, arms already reaching for you before he even makes it across the room. “You’re so pretty. So, so pretty.”
You barely have time to respond before he crashes into you, arms wrapping tight around your waist, his weight forcing you a step back. He noses at your neck, warm breath fanning over your skin before he presses a messy, lingering kiss just under your jaw.
“I missed you,” he mumbles, voice thick with intoxication. His lips trail sloppily along your jaw, missing his mark more than once. “I was thinking about you the whole time. Didn’t wanna drink, didn’t wanna talk—just wanted you.”
You exhale, half amused, half overwhelmed by how affectionate he gets when he’s like this. “You’re drunk.”
“I’m in love,” he corrects, pulling back just enough to cup your face in his hands. His eyes are dark, half-lidded, pupils blown out as he drinks you in. “So, so in love with you.”
“I thought about you the whole time. Even when they were talking about boring stuff, I was just thinking about you, and your pretty face, and your hair, and—and—” He hiccups, giggles, then kisses your cheek sloppily, missing his target entirely.
And then he kisses your lips, like he’s trying to make up for all the time he spent away. His lips are warm, a little sloppy, a little desperate, and when his tongue swipes against yours, you can taste the faint burn of whiskey.
“Mm, I love kissing you,” he mumbles against your skin. His hands slip down to your waist, pulling you closer until there’s no space left between you. “Like, so much. I could do this forever.”
“You’ll regret it in the morning,” you tease, but he shakes his head wildly, pressing more kisses wherever he can reach.
“Nuh-uh,” he insists. “I’d regret not kissing you. That’s way worse.”
He groans into the kiss, fingers tangling into your hair as he backs you toward the bedroom. He’s trying so hard to be in control, to take the lead—pressing you up against the wall, hands gripping your waist as his mouth moves hungrily against yours. But he’s a mess. A beautiful, intoxicating mess. His lips miss their mark, his teeth graze too hard, and he keeps mumbling your name between kisses like he can’t bear to stop.
When you finally reach the bedroom, he tries to spin you around, guiding you onto the bed—but the second he pulls away to do so, he loses balance. His legs give out beneath him, and he stumbles backward onto the mattress with a dazed look on his face.
You can’t help but laugh. “Smooth.”
“Shh, c’mere,” he slurs, arms reaching for you like a needy child. And you do—crawling over him, straddling his hips as he lets out a breathy moan at the contact. His hands slide down your back, gripping your waistband, and with a drunken sort of determination, he tries to guide your hips against his. He rocks his hips up harshly once, making you fall onto him, kissing you.
“Feel that?” he murmurs against your lips, eyes dark and heavy. “S’all for you.”
You do feel it—the hard press of his arousal beneath you. He rocks your hips against him, slow and lazy, groaning softly at the friction. His fingers dig into your waist, gripping, guiding, needy. His kisses turn even sloppier, missing your lips entirely at times, trailing down your chin, your jaw, your neck.
But then, just as the heat between you starts to build, his movements slow. His grip loosens. His kisses falter. And before you even realize what’s happening, his head falls back against the pillows, breath steadying, lips slightly parted in sleep.
You blink down at him, still straddling his hips, your body burning from the half-finished tension he just left you with.
“You’ve got to be kidding me.”
A soft snore is his only response.
For a moment, you just stare. Then you sigh, running a hand through your hair before shaking your head with a quiet laugh. You should be frustrated. You should be annoyed. But looking at him like this—his lips still pink and swollen from kissing you, his brows slightly furrowed even in sleep, his arms still loosely resting around your waist—you can’t bring yourself to be mad.
Instead, you press a soft kiss to his temple before carefully shifting off of him, pulling the blankets up over both of you.
“Idiot” you murmur, but the fondness in your voice betrays you.
And despite the ache he left you with, you fall asleep smiling, tangled up in the warmth of him.
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You Feel Like Home - Sebastian Sallow
My Love,
It has been almost a year since you requested this of me and up until tonight; I wasn’t even sure I’d be able to put quill to paper. When you asked me to tell you what it is exactly that you mean to me; I’ll be sincere, I struggled utterly with the concept of comprehending such a request.
My breadth of language and vernacular as much as you regularly try to deny it on my behalf doesn’t vary enough to even begin describing what you mean to me; but I can confidently say now that after a few tumblers of whiskey, that ridiculous love song you always like to play having been stuck on repeat and time, I suppose - to just think; I’ve concluded that you’re not just you to me, if that makes any sense. You. You feel like home to me.
But let me first start with a list of all the things I love about you. How I adore your insecurities as much as your complexities; and how each idiosyncrasy you define as peculiar, I find endearing. Maybe that will give some further context as to what exactly it is you mean to me;
I love the way you dance around the house without a care as if I’m not watching as you make breakfast first thing in the morning.
I love the way you chuckle when I tell a joke wrong and laugh hard enough to lose your breath when I try to repeat it to get it right.
I love the way you style your hair up once after reading how a character wears theirs in a book; and then become so intrigued in said book that it steals your attention long enough that you become completely immersed, barely aware that the tea you sip has long gone cold.
I love the way you’re so self-critical some days with what you see in the reflection of the bathroom mirror when regardless of what you think, you’ll be nothing but perfect to me.
I love the way you sigh when you’re struggling to fit into your jeans. That little wiggle and jump that you do before falling back onto the bed to shuffle around and get the fabric up over your hips.
I love that when I’m working away from home, you steal my shirts just to feel close to me when you lie in bed at night. They seem to hug you in all the right places, exquisitely enhancing your curves; making you appear even more beautiful than I already know you are.
I love the way you toy with my hair to put me to sleep; or better still, the way it makes the monster inside of me calm and go silent anytime I rest my head in your lap.
I love the way you call me safe when others call me dangerous.
I love the way you hold my hands ever so gently. How you rest your own against my chest as if to keep my heart safe knowing all too well it has been shattered more times before than I’ll ever happily let on.
I love the way you steal kisses from me in the most mediocre of places which make my heart pound against my ribs as though it wants to break free and be once with yours.
I love the way you’d let me set the whole world on fire just to sit back and watch it burn for fun if I wanted to, and how you’d trust me to never let a flame touch you.
I love your obsession with cinnamon after I asked you to try it once and how now that scent has me absolutely intoxicated with thoughts of you any time I pass it by.
I love the way that you, my love; my angel, can luckily for me, never have her eyes peeled away from the devil that sits beside her - not on her shoulder, for too long.
I love the way you smile up at me - arm wrapped firmly around my waist, always so eager to introduce me to anyone who asks as the man of your dreams. Although I'm not so sure I’m really qualified to be.
Just know this list isn’t anywhere near as comprehensive as the thoughts that run through my head, the feelings that flutter within my chest, and the warmth that consumes me whenever you are near. They say that a house without love is not a home, but I can assure you that wherever we are, whatever we do, with your hand in mine, any place we find ourselves, any adventure we take, any stroll beneath the stars at night makes me feel like I’m already home because you’re with me. Because you feel like and are - home to me.
Forever and a day my love,
Sebastian x
hope you enjoy my loves xoxo
#sebastian sallow#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow x oc#sebastian sallow x reader#hogwarts legacy valentine series#hogwarts legacy one shot#sebastian sallow oneshot
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𝙠𝙖𝙣𝙜 𝙣𝙤-𝙚𝙪𝙡 𝙭 𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙧 — “let me take care of you.”
ִ𝜗𝜚 ࣪˖ 𝙥𝙖𝙞𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙜 — kang no-eul (guard) x female reader (player)
𝜗𝜚 ࣪˖ 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚 — this is my first fanfic ever and english isn’t my first language so please forgive me if isn’t perfect
𝜗𝜚 ࣪˖ 𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙙 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙩 — 2k
𝙨𝙩𝙤𝙧𝙮𝙡𝙞𝙣𝙚
she’s been watching you—observing you. she’s intrigued by you, drawn to you. and now, she’s ready to make you hers.
you sit on your bunk bed silently. the soft, warm glow of the lights only makes the harsh reality of what you just witnessed feel more surreal. the deadly game of ‘red light, green light’ still echoes through your mind—the brutal violence of each person caught moving, shot right on the spot. you are alive only because a man called gi-hun had guided you, giving you instructions that helped you stay still. apparently, he has played these games before. despite the help, you’re deeply shocked. you have no idea what to do. how on earth had you ended up here?
you stare at the dry, hard sandwich in front of you, the nausea twisting your stomach so tightly that taking a bite feels impossible. your tracksuit was covered in a few spatters of blood here and there, each drop a cruel reminder of everything that just happened.
you close your eyes, hoping for a moment of peace, but instead, the faces of countless innocent lives lost only hours ago invade your mind. after a while, you give up, settling on the edge of the bed, the silence heavy and suffocating. you wait for the night to crawl by and for the next brutal game to begin.
the other players around you begin to quiet down, drifting into an uneasy sleep. some, like you, remain awake. your gaze catches the man from earlier. what was his name again? oh, right—gi-hun. he meets your eyes and offers a smile, but the smile is hollow, full of terror. you give a slight smile in return, then quickly redirect your attention, focusing on the cold, hard floor instead. you can’t afford to get attached in here. not with the dangers lurking around you.
two hours of heavy silence strike by. most of the others, including gi-hun, have drifted off into a restless sleep, but not you. you’re exhausted, sure, but sleep refuses to come. that’s when you suddenly feel it—someone’s watching you. you turn around instinctively, but there’s no one there. a cold shiver runs down your spine, an eerie feeling begins to settle in your chest. what if someone’s sizing you up, thinking you’re an easy target? you frown and shake off the thought. it’s nothing. probably.
still, that feeling lingers, creeping under your skin. it’s as if someone’s eyes are boring into you, watching your every move. you turn around, but—again—there’s no one in sight. just as you’re about to brush it off, a deep, cold voice cuts through the silence.
“eat. you need the strength.”
your heart stops. the words hang in the air, making your breath catch in your throat.
immediately, you turn around, scrambling to the far side of the bed when you spot the pink guard standing at the foot of it. what the hell?
“who the fuck are you?” you snap, voice thick with defiance. “what do you want from me?”
the guard seems unbothered. she doesn’t even flinch. doesn’t react at all, actually. she just stands there, cold and silent. her silence feels heavier than any threat you’ve felt in here.
you frown, frustration bubbling up, before you remember the question she asked before.
“….im not hungry.” you mutter, your voice tight.
“too bad,” she replies, her tone sharp and demanding. “i wasn’t asking.”
you don’t know why she came up to you, but given the fact she’s the one holding a gun, you reluctantly take a bite of the sandwich and swallow it. you look at the guard, your lips twitching slightly as you feel your stomach already starting to reject the food.
“happy now?”
she doesn’t answer, walking away without a word, returning to her position by the door. but your impulsive thoughts take over, and you call out, stopping her.
“hey, wait!”
her fast pace slows to a stop, but she doesn’t turn to face you.
“the guards are not allowed to talk to the players.” she says flatly.
you frown, the words sparking up more curiousity in you.
“then why did you come up to me?”
there’s a flicker— a barely noticeable flinch— and for a moment, she’s silent, the weight of her hesitation hanging in the air. finally, she speaks, her voice cool and neutral.
“…because you seemed lost.”
the words catch you off guard. she doesn’t say anything else as she turns away and walks back to her position, leaving you with a knot in your chest and a dozen questions you’re not sure you want the answers to. you’re left in the silence, trying to make sense of it, but she doesn’t seem like she’s about to come back and explain.
with a sigh, you follow her advice and finish the sandwich. you finally manage to close your eyes, drifting into an anxious, uneasy sleep.
the next morning, as soon as you wake up, you’re eyes dart around the room, searching for the mysterious guard from last night—but she’s nowhere to be found. before you can dwell on it, a sudden need to pee takes over. you head to the women’s bathroom, knowing the guards don’t let anyone in outside of bathroom hours. so when your knocks go unanswered, you’re not surprised.
just as turn your head back to your bunk, a soft click breaks the silence. the door behind you unlocks.
“player 241. come in.”
as you turn around, the strange sensation from last night washes over you again. you can’t see her face, but somehow, you just know—it’s her. the guard.
without a word, you step inside the bathroom, offering a subtle nod as a thanks. she says nothing. the silence affects you more than it should.
after finishing your business, you walk over to the sink to wash your hands, but the moment the door clicks shut and locks, your body freezes. slowly, you glance to the side. she’s standing by the door, watching you.
your pulse quickens. a lump forms in your throat.
“what do you want from me?” your voice wavers. “please… don’t kill me.”
she scoffs, a quiet, almost amused sound, before taking a step closer.
“kill you?” she murmurs, her voice barely above a whisper. “now, why would i want to do that?”
confusion swirls you. who is she? why won’t she leave you alone?
the woman steps closer, backing you into a corner. you search for an escape, but there’s nowhere to go—and nothing to say. she extends her hand, offering yet another dry, unappetizing sandwich. you sigh out in frustration.
“i don’t want this! i’m not hungry and they’re disgusting—”
“there’s a clue for the next game inside.” she interrupts dryly.
you fall silent and your breath catches.
“eat it,” she continues, unwavering. “you’ll find a slip of paper hidden inside. you can thank me later.”
you stare at the sandwich, your mind racing. a clue? the guard turns to leave again, but this time, you’re faster. you step in front of her, blocking her way.
“no, wait! you don’t just get to walk away. i want answers.”
your voice is firm, but there’s a tremble beneath it—partly from irritation, partly from the submachine gun slung across her chest.
she stops, tilting her head slightly. “answers, about what?” her tone is flat, unreadable.
“about… this. about why you’re helping me. about who you are.”
silence stretches between you. for a moment, you think she won’t answer. then, without warning, her hand moves to her mask.
she pulls it off.
deep brown eyes meet yours—sharp, intense. pale skin, dusted with freckles, is flawed by a fresh cut along her cheek. her lips are cracked and swollen, as if she’s been biting them too much. despite everything, she’s… beautiful. breathtaking, even. she exhales, running a hand through her damp, sweat-matted hair. then, locking eyes with you, she speaks.
“kang no-eul.” she says boldly.
“what?” you’re still struggling to process everything happening right now.
she sighs in slight irritation. “my name. you asked for my name. it’s kang no-eul.”
to your embarrassment, the sound of her low, steady voice sends a warm blush creeping up your cheeks.
“oh. um, my name is—”
“i know.” she cuts you off smoothly, a small smirk playing on her lips. “i know who you are. i’ve been observing you.”
you take a hesitant step back. “…observing me?”
her expression doesn’t change. “the way you shut yourself off from others. the way you always seem to be lost in thoughts. the way you‘re constantly one step ahead of the other players. you’re intelligent, aren’t you?”
there’s something unnerving about her tone—half admiration, half something else. something colder.
“but.. you’re a guard.”
you meet her gaze, and instantly regret it when you feel your cheeks flaming up again. god, get it together!
a barely-there chuckle escapes her lips. “good observation.” she doesn’t look away. her eyes, dark and mysterious, shimmer with something you can’t quite place.
you lean against the cold bathroom wall, burying your face in your hands.
“what the hell is going on..” you whisper to yourself.
the guard—kang no-eul—takes a step closer, resting a hand on your shoulder. her expression remains neutral, but there’s something in her eyes. a glimmer of something almost… affectionate?
“hey. don’t be like that. you’re underestimating yourself.”
you lift your head, shooting her a glare. “you don’t even know me.”
she laughs. it’s not the reaction you expect, and the sound sends a chill down your spine. it’s confident. unbothered. she’s not intimidated by you in the slightest.
“maybe,” she says, smirking. “but i do know this—you should stop whining and get it together. because no matter how smart you are, crying won’t get you anywhere.” her words sting more than they should. you slap her hand off your shoulder, your anger taking over.
“leave me alone.”
within seconds, she grabs your wrists again, tighter this time. not just firmly, but demanding.
“listen to me,” she hisses, her voice sharp and low. “i’m risking my life to help you. so you better do as i say before i end up scraping your corpse off the game room floor.”
you freeze. her grip is solid, her words slicing through the air like a blade. for the first time, real fear creeps in.
she notices. the tension in her hands shifts, and just as suddenly as she grabbed you, she releases your wrists. slowly, her fingers trail up to your face, brushing against your cheek. it’s a stark contrast—gentle, almost.. tender.
you don’t understand what’s happening. you don’t understand her. but the second her touch meets your skin, something stirs deep inside your stomach. butterflies.
your gaze flickers to hers. your eyes linger on the fresh cut along her cheek. how did she get that?
“do you think you can do that?” she asks, voice softer now. “listen to me?”
you hesitate, unsure. her hand moves again, this time gripping your chin, tilting your head until your eyes lock onto hers. her hold is firm.
“i’m talking to you.”
you swallow hard and nod.
“use your words.”
you don’t know why you’re listening to her, why you’re obeying so easily— but you do. something about her presence, her voice, leaves no room for resistance.
after a brief pause, you whisper: “yes. i’ll listen to you, kang no-eul.”
she smiles, slow and satisfied. “good girl.”
you shiver as she speaks those words. you barely know her, yet something about her pulls you in, an invisible force you can’t resist. it’s dangerous. it’s intoxicating.
but she doesn’t give you time to process it.
before you can react, she leans in, pressing her lips to yours— soft at first, almost teasing. but then the kiss deepens, growing more urgent, more possessive with each passing second. at first, you’re too stunned to move, frozen under her touch. but then, instinct takes over. you melt into her, kissing her back passionately, your hands finding their way to her arms, her shoulders.
she hums softly against your lips, her slim fingers threading through your hair as if she’s known you forever. as if you already belong to her.
“just like that, darling.” she murmurs, her voice a breathy promise.
“let me take care of you.”
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𝚂𝚒𝚌𝚔 𝙳𝚊𝚢: 𝙲𝚑𝚘 𝚂𝚊𝚗𝚐-𝚠𝚘𝚘 𝚡 𝙶𝙽!𝚁𝚎𝚊𝚍𝚎𝚛 𝙵𝙻𝚄𝙵𝙵🧡
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Beep. Beep. Beep.
The alarm clock screeches, signifying 5:00 a.m. You feel a stir next to you, followed by a groan. Sang-woo should be rolling out of bed in approximately 1 minute to get ready for work. This is the normal Monday-thru-Friday routine.
You’re privileged enough to be able to sleep in. You stay home and take care of the house while Sang-woo happily financially supports you. You wouldn’t have it any other way. Normally you wake up briefly to give him a kiss goodbye, and then you nestle under the covers for another 3-5 hours.
Today is different, however. Sang-woo doesn’t feel like reaching for his glasses. He takes an extra moment to lift his body, still heavy with sleep, out of the bed. You notice abnormal heat radiating off of him, way more than usual.
“Sang-woo, you gonna get up or what?” You mumble sleepily.
“I’m not feeling too good this morning, darling. Probably just didn’t sleep well. I’ll be okay, though.” He mutters, voice nasally with congestion.
He attempts to stretch despite wincing from the muscle aches. “I can feel you, you’re literally a walking oven. Do you have a fever?” You ask, yawning.
“I’m fine.” He pressed.
“Okay….” You reply, your voice filled with concern.
You hear the shower running, but you also hear a lack of movement in the bathroom. You drowsily drag yourself out of bed to go check on him.
He sat weakly on the closed lid of the toilet, too weak to even take his PJ’s off and get in.
“Baby you can’t go into work like this. No way. Come on, give me your phone. I’ll call your boss.” You gently grab his face in your hands. “You’re burning up, sweetheart.”
“I can’t miss work today. I have an important meeting at 3 that I really can’t cancel.”
You reach into the cabinet and pull out the thermometer. You scan his forehead. 101 degrees. “See that? You are sick. Stop being such a work-o-holic and rest today Sang-woo. Please? For me?”
He finally gave in. “Okay. I’ll call up my boss now. You can’t say I didn’t try to go, though.”
You smile to yourself. Even when he’s a stuffy, feverish mess he’s still absolutely adorable.
“Mr. Kim? Yeah. I’m not making it in today. I’m really sick. 101 fever. Thank you. I will rest up. Goodbye.”
“See how hard was that?” You tease. “Cmon, let’s get you back into bed.”
You turn the shower off and lead him back to the bedroom. You tuck him back into bed and kiss his forehead. He looks miserable.
He hardly ever got sick so the opportunity to take care of him is a rarity. You can’t wait to show him how much you love him and care for him at this time.
You head into the kitchen and make him a cup of his favorite tea. You also grab some medication for him as well and head back to the bedroom.
He lays in bed sniffling and coughing and sneezing. His eyes are droopy and he looks pale. You notice a light sheen of sweat across his handsome face, making his dark hair stick to his forehead slightly. You love him more than anything, even like this.
You hand him the cup of tea and he offers you a meek smile in return. “Thank you, love.”
“Make sure you take these, too. They’ll help you feel so much better.” You gently drop the pills into his hand.
He finishes his tea and sets the empty cup on the bedside table, for now. You’ll get that later.
He lays his head on your chest, arms wrapping around your waist, pulling you close.
You almost laugh at how comical this is. He’s so cold and harsh towards the average person. Stoic and unbothered. But you, you’re his safe space. You’re the only person he ever has, and ever will, let his guard down around. Cho Sang-woo, a man who scoffs at anyone who he even suspects has a lower intellect than he, wants you to hold him and cradle him while he is sick. The effect you have on this man is unreal.
You playfully roll your eyes and wrap your arms around him. One of your hands finds its way to his hair as you stroke the dark strands lovingly. You gently and softly kiss his forehead once more. Within what seems to be seconds, he’s snoring.
You feel yourself getting tired again, too. Between his weight pressing down on you, the light snores and the steady pulse of his heart against yours, your eyelids sink comfortably.
You dream of more sick days. Not that you want him to be sick, more-so you want to spend entire days with your lover. You want to see this soft, almost helpless side of him more often. You don’t need to worry though, cus his heart is entirely yours. The emotional wall he’s built for years is crumbling down all because of you.
As for him, he’s dreaming of your homemade soup, your soft touch and your tender, lingering kisses. It’s early. You still have a whole entire sick day ahead of you.
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Ohhhh the maternal urge to care for a cold stoic character and shower them in love and affection😩Bahahahaha yk what I mean!!! Anyways hope you liked it, have a wonderful rest of your weekend everyone! -G🫶🤍
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MODERN AU! SEVIKA HEADCANONS
cw: none i think. just fluff
an: please forgive me if this is trash, this is my first post. also this is barely proofread sorry :p. also here's my modern!sevika moodboard
modern!sevika who’s love language is physical touch. she’s not great with her words like… at all. she loves to wrap her strong arms around your waist and bury her face in her neck while you’re cooking or cling onto you while she's sleeping. she won’t tell you she loves you, but she’ll tell you in other ways.
soft giggles escape your lips. “what are you doing?” you question, as sevika holds you down on the couch. she peppers slow, soft, wet kisses in a trail from your cheek, to your jaw, and down your neck. “what, i’m not allowed to kiss my girl anymore?” she replies, a cheeky smile on her face.
modern!sevika who loves to watch cheesy rom-coms with her girl. whether it’s a k-drama or an old movie, she’s pretty much down to watch anything. not only does she watch it, but she’s invested in it. she’s definitely slammed her cup on the coffee table too hard, and a bit too many times. she can’t help it, how else is she supposed to react to such a riveting plot?
sevika watches the tv screen intently, eyebrows furrowed. “wait. the head nurse is her mom? and her mom killed his mom?! what the hell?!” you can’t help but laugh and feel amused seeing her so into the show.
(any its okay not to be okay fans? :p)
modern!sevika who is actually super sweet, but only extends that curtesy to her girlfriend. i mean, let’s be real, she has the meanest rbf you have ever seen and she’s the most romantic person, to say the least. but if there’s anything she knows how to do, is take care of what’s hers.
you can’t help but plop onto your bed and let out an exasperated sigh after the day you’ve had. long meetings, a heap ton of work, and constantly complaining bosses has finally taken its toll on you. you curl up on your bed, stray tears falling from your watery eyes and soft sniffles escaping you. you were so lost in your thoughts, that you didn’t even notice sevika had arrived home. it wasn’t until you felt a dip in the bed behind you, that your cries had paused.
“what’s wrong?” you hear behind you, in a low gravelly voice as the smell of cinnamon and sandalwood settle in the air. “just…work.” you respond weakly. she hums as she wraps a strong arm around you and pulls you closer. she leaves a gentle kiss on your shoulder. "need something?"
she’ll do whatever you need her to do. she’ll go out and get food, or cook your favorite meal. she cuddle you on the couch, and let you put whatever you want on the tv. all that matters is that her girl feels better, and when she finally gets a smile out of you, she can’t help but emulate it, tooth gap and all.
modern!sevika who can speak fluent hindi. she doesn’t speak it often, but she might mumble something under breath subconsciously since it was her first language. she finds it absolutely adorable when you try to repeat after her and totally butcher the pronunciation. she appreciates the effort. you’ve also picked up a couple phrases she says often, responding in english to whatever it is she said.
not only do you try to speak her language, but she’ll try to speak any other language you do, too. despite her confident demeanor though, she gets shy, so she'll just respond in english as well.
“tengo hambre,” you groan. she scoffs, though it’s more like a laugh. “go make yourself something to eat then.” a childish pout quickly forms on your face as give her a mean side eye. sevika rolls her eyes, knowing you’re too lazy to go cook yourself a proper meal. she’ll give in, not wanting you to be hungry. “next time you’re doing this yourself,” she’ll grumble.
(obviously if not spanish whatever other language you speak)
modern!sevika who's undeniably and astonishingly good with people. it makes sense, since she is a corporate manager for a large finance company. when your friends first meet her, everyone was, understandably, intimidated. but they were surprised to find she’s actually… charming. it's easy to have a conversation with her, but only if she wants to have one. she'll make it known if she doesn't.
a small smile finds its way onto your face as you leave your friend's event. "what?" sevika asks, confused, but amused nonetheless. "nothing... just... that went better than expected." she raises an eyebrow. "what? what'd you think was gonna happen?" she asks, skeptically. "to be honest, i'm not sure, but i didn't know you were so... personable." you give her a suspicious look, "have you been hiding this skill from me?" she rolls her eyes. "dont be an idiot. how'd you think i got you head over heels for me?" she says, as she smiles cockily.
ahh she's my fave i hope you liked it :D
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Suguru Geto x Reader
sub! / whiny Suguru who is usually the dominating one in the relationship but reader finally gets her way for once when he’s sleepy af.
Warnings: Oral, submissive, overstimulation, mention of word advantage but is completely consensual
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Suguru who is usually the dominant one in the relationship, always having to be in control and having some sort of power over you. He enjoys taking care of his girl and felt stressed if he wasn’t able to make sure you felt good every time, even if it was supposed to be about him. But this one particular day Suguru comes home from work all sleepy and pent up, he’s grabbing at you and just wants comfort and sleep. Finally being able to rest after a long, stressful day in the tattoo shop. And in his state you decide this is the perfect time take advantage, finally able to make him feel the way he deserves without him making it about you as well.
So as Suguru collapses on your shared bed and makes hands to pull you in, you smirk down at him. An idea forming in your mind. Crawling onto the bed to sit in between his legs, he moves to prop himself up on his elbows, watching you get yourself comfortable with a faint grin on your face.
“Baby what are you doing..” he whines as you start to palm at his already semi-hard cock. Too tired to move but not tired enough to stop your eager hand. He collapses back on to the bed and lets out a groan as his hips buck in agreement with your hand, already needing more.
But Suguru has no idea what’s install for him.
Already ditching his shorts and boxers with Suguru lazily helping, his eyes now closed and head sunken into the pillow, you begin to leave a trial of hot kisses down his neck, sucking gently and nipping slightly into his skin. Sugurus breath hitching slightly as your free hand begins to lightly trace circles around his thick length. And down you go, trialing kisses all over his body, small goose bumps rising on Sugurus skin as your delicate hand trails down his arms and then thighs, teasing him ever so slowly whilst lulling him into a relaxed state.
“Hhmhp princess, that feels sgood” he murmurs, his body practically melting into your touch. Not usually one to be vocal, you eagerly continue your ministrations working yourself down till your wet lips are ready to meet his shaft as his breath begins to pick up. With another light buck of his hips, you know what he needs but you want to tease him a little longer.
Faint breath fans over Sugurus cock as precum begins to leak from the tip, your hand now lightly pumping around him, refusing to give him what he’s aching for just yet. You wiggle yourself further down the bed and hook your arms underneath Sugurus legs, giving you better access to his thighs as you begin to trail kisses down them like he does to you.
Small moans betray Sugurus lips and each time you get closer and closer to his awaiting and eager cock, you switch to the other thigh, now lightly trailing your hands over his tightened balls as well.
Sugurus not used to this, being the one in the compromising position and allowing you to basically worship him, that’s his job, but he’s too relaxed and turned on to care right now. His erratic breathing turning into breathly moans as you finally let a fat glob of warm spit drip from your mouth onto his aching cock. His hips jerk in shock at the new sensation but you quickly get into the rhythm as you take him as far down as you can go and back up with a loud pop!
“Fuck” Suguru whispers as his hands lung for something to grab on to, looking down to see you smiling at him before going straight back down to your meal this time. Suguru groans at the site of you. His head slamming back onto the pillow as you swirl your tongue around his cock, pumping around the tip just the way he likes. You still have one arm wrapped underneath his leg, giving you perfect access to the area between his member and hole, starting to massage a single finger, occasionally moving back up to play with his balls. “Ah-sshit baby, I’m gonna cum if you keep that up” Suguru groans, as you taste more of the salty precum pump out of him.
Large globs of spit slide down your hand and Sugurus cock as you pump him with more eagerness, moaning into his cock when he grabs your hair. Thinking he’s hurt you his hand freezes against your hair but you grab his hand and place it back where it was, gesturing to pull, to use you as much as he wants.
Suguru doesn’t believe he could be anymore harder right now, his orgasm begins to approach as he begins to fuck into your mouth, loud moans now leaving his throat as he chants ‘fuck’ over and over. You allow him to use your mouth for what it is, but what drives Suguru insane, what you haven’t done before is you keep up your movements of stimulating his cock with your hand, hitting him to the base, all whilst your other hand has snaked its way back down to his balls again, tightening on your touch.
He’s close, you can feel it as your eyes begin to water. His hips buck into your mouth, “fuck baby, shit, that’s f-fuck yes”
“Just like that keep going,” Suguru chants as his body begins to shake, “fuck, ah fuck I’m-I’m cuming, fuckkkkk” you moan into him as you feel ropes of his cum paint the back of your throat, swallowing like a good girl as his hips jerk below you. You continue to pump him into your mouth as his orgasm comes down, slight moans leaving his mouth at the sensitivity. “S-shit baby what was that..” Suguru laughs as you swallow the last bits of spit and cum.
But it wasn’t enough, you could still feel Suguru hard underneath you and he had pushed you in the past before, once bringing 7 orgasms out of you in one sitting. But you had never done so for him, so you continued to pump your hand as your tongue went back down to swirl around his cock, already hardening again under your touch.
“Fuck baby, I came. It’s ah, it’s too-mhnph-much” Suguru groans as you continue, if he really wanted to stop you he could. But he wasn’t, if anything you begin to feel his hips buck up into you again, with silent pleas to keep going.
“Ugnh, princess please” Suguru whined as his hand found your hair again, pushing down slightly, Suguru wasn’t even sure what he was begging for at this point. He was overstimulated but this felt different, and he didn’t know what he would do if you stopped now.
“Fuck, that’s, fuck” Suguru panted as his eyes rolled into the back of his head, his orgasm already fast approaching. You bobbed up and down on his dick, lapping him in every way you could, occasional moans leaving you as your dripping hole clenched around nothing. Until you felt it again, heard it in Sugurus pathetic whines.
“Ah ah ah fuck, I think, I’m gonna, fuck princess I’m cumming, I can’t, I’m-again-ngh’
Suguru babbled to himself as he saw stars, his vision going white as he let out the loudest groan and more ropes of cum pumped out of his spent cock. It tasted different this time, less salty but more powerful. Suguru whined into you, his abs tensing again and again as his orgasm seemed never-ending. Finally, his entire body collapsed and you pulled yourself away from him as Suguru lay on the bed utterly worn out. A light blush graced his cheeks as he appeared to realise just how loud and whiny he had been then. But you only smiled down as he peaked one eye open.
“What did you just do to me princess..” Suguru laughed into the room as his eyes closed again. “Made you feel good baby, like you always do to me” you said proudly as you squirmed on the bed, doing anything to alleviate the ache between your legs.
“That was.. maybe I should be tired more often” Suguru huffed as his hands reached for you, pulling you down to rest half on top of him. “But now I need to make this up to you,” Suguru said as his lips graced your forehead and he began to pull you closer.
“Uh uh baby tonight was about you!” You said despite the ache between your thighs this was for Suguru and that’s the way it would stay, at least for tonight..
“I don’t deserve you, “ Suguru said into your hair as you could already feel him dozing off, post orgasm bliss.You settled into him content as ever as you both fell into dreamland.
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But Suguru was Suguru after all and he liked to be in control one way or another, so it wasn’t until the early hours of the morning you woke, breathless and panting, feeling an indescribable ache between your legs. In your sleepy state you realised Suguru wasn’t next to you in bed and then looked down to find him between your thighs instead, feasting on you like you were his last meal on earth.
#geto suguru x reader#jjk smut#jjk x reader#satosugu x reader#suguru geto#geto suguru#jjk suguru#gojo satoru x reader#jujustu kaisen
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Humiliate Part 3 (Yandere Kuroo)
Thank you so much for the commission! I really hope you enjoy!
Title: Humiliate (Part 3)
Pairings: Kuroo Tetsurou x Reader
WARNINGS: Yandere themes, NSFW, NON-CON
Part 1: here
humiliate
/verb/
make (someone) feel ashamed and foolish by injuring their dignity and self-respect, especially publicly:
Kuroo slowly untied you from your chair, a gentle smile on his face. You flexed your wrists as soon as they were released, trying not to show how eager you were to be released for the day.
You started to stand up, but your captor pushed you back down. “What do we say?”
“Thank you…” you murmured, hating the way you bowed to his will just for a few hours of freedom.
Kuroo chuckled and ruffled your hair. You felt like an obedient pet. “Good girl. See? You’re learning.”
You swallowed back an outburst, keeping your expression as neutral as possible. Fighting would get you right back in the chair, you had learned that the hard way.
His fingers trailed along your jawline, “I hate letting you walk around, you know. It’s risky,” he sighed dramatically, “But I’m not an unreasonable man. I know you need to stretch your legs.”
You ignored him and merely squeezed past him, heading for your living room. It was sad how unfamiliar your home had become. The little knick knacks and decorations seemed out of place- too happy for a prison.
Your gaze fell on the door and you bit back a sigh. If only Kuroo’s allowance extended to the outside world. When was the last time you’d seen another human being in person? Or felt the fresh air on your skin?
“Careful now, sweetheart,” Kuroo snickered, “Or I may just think you’re being ungrateful.”
“Sorry…” you said automatically.
Kuroo watched you carefully as you took a seat on the couch and began flipping through the channels. You picked the food network channel and laid down on the couch, your head resting on the arm rest like a pillow.
This was the only time you could sleep, since the chair was so uncomfortable. Sure, you were plagued by nightmares, but sleep was sleep.
“Tired already?” Kuroo asked, “I just let you go, kitten.”
You ignored him, eyes on the screen even as your eyelids began to flutter. The chef on TV was explaining a recipe, his voice soothing and drowning out Kuroo’s presence.
Kuroo kneeled by the side of the couch, fingers brushing over your cheek. You flinched, but he was as gentle as ever, like you were a porcelain doll. “You look so cute like this, almost makes me forget you’re so stubborn.”
You closed your eyes, trying desperately to ignore him.
“Why don’t you sleep in our bed tonight?” he offered, “It’s much more comfortable.”
Our bed? You gritted your teeth. He really had made himself at home in your own house. It was downright insulting.
“I’m fine,” you turned your gaze back to the TV, pretending you were engrossed in the cooking show.
Kuroo sighed again, “Suit yourself.” His fingers slipped away and he stood back up. You could hear him heading into the kitchen and the hustle and bustle of him putting together a meal for you when you woke.
Your eyelids, though heavy, refused to completely close. Instead, you found your gaze locked on the front door.
You sat up, hypnotized by the idea of a possible escape. You got to your feet, creeping towards the door in slow motion.
Then, overwhelmed by the possibilities, you broke out into a run. You knew your feet were slamming against the floor noisily, but you were desperate to get out. Your hands seized the doorknob and pulled.
Locked. You quickly moved to unlock the door.
Too late.
Kuroo slammed your body against the door, ignoring your scream of frustration as he pinned you to the wood. You let out an awful sound, a wail that had never come out of your mouth before.
You were so disappointed- it had been so close. You had been so close. And now? Now, you were back to square one.
Kuroo’s body suddenly felt too hot against yours and you became acutely aware of a hardness pressing against your lower back. He rolled his hips into yours experimentally.
“Aw, kitten, looks like you’ve gotten me all riled up.”
Tears rolled down your face and your breath caught in your throat. “No, no, no, no, no…”
“That’s the most you’ve spoken to me in months,” Kuroo sighed, hooking his fingers into your pants’ waistband. Slowly, slowly, he slid them down.
You struggled against his grip, but your movements only served to grind against his hard-on, making it harder by the minute. Kuroo finally pulled you away from the door, walked over to the couch, and threw you down on it.
Kuroo pulled his shirt off, revealing his muscular torso to you. You looked away in embarrassment, then let out a screech as he forcibly pulled your shirt off too.
You closed your eyes, trying to drown out what was happening to you. You cringed when you heard the awful sound of a belt buckle clinking as he undressed the rest of himself fully.
He didn’t bother to unbuckle your bra, merely grabbing each side and pulling downwards until your breasts popped out with a single, rough bounce. You twisted around onto your belly to hide your nudity, but he was pulling your panties to the side and lifted your ass into the air before you knew it.
His member radiated heat as it prodded against your unguarded entrance. You whimpered as it began to push inside you.
“Please! Kuroo stop!” you begged.
“There’s no way I’m stopping now,” Kuroo growled, voice husky with lust, “Not when you’re dripping for me.”
Embarrassingly, you realized he was correct. Your pussy was drooling for his cock, despite your terror. Even so, his dick was so girthy that the stretch of it entering you was extremely painful.
He forced inch after inch inside of you while you wailed like a banshee. Finally, he bottomed out, tip pressing against your cervix. He gave you barely a moment to adjust before he started to thrust.
It wasn’t the fast and rough thrusts you were expecting, but slow and deliberate. Each thrust sent shockwaves of pleasure through your body. You could feel every vein and ridge of his cock as it slid in and out of you and, before long, your body fully adjusted to the intrusion.
As Kuroo picked up the pace, you laid still on the couch, forcing yourself not to push back against his hips in time to his thrusts. It felt so good, but it was so, so wrong.
Suddenly, Kuroo pulled out of you. Before you could celebrate or protest, he flipped you onto your back and spread your legs, eyes dark with lust.
“You’re mine,” he growled, “All fucking mine.”
With that, he plunged back into you and you let out a scream of surprise and pleasure as his cock slammed into your g-spot and sent you over the edge. Wave after wave of pleasure made your body convulse with the force of your orgasm.
Kuroo didn’t stop or even slow down. He continued to pound into you until you were seeing stars. You were building up to another orgasm already, still panting and dizzy from the previous one. As if reading your mind, Kuroo reached around and rubbed your clit. The stimulation was too much and you came hard on his cock.
He followed quickly after, his cock twitching as ropes of white cum filled you to the brim. Tears slipped down your cheeks again, the shame and guilt hitting you all at once.
One thing was for sure. You’d never be able to sleep on your couch ever again.
#yandere#yandere x reader#yandere one shot#one shot#yandere haikyuu#haikyuu!!#tw noncon#yandere kuroo#kuroo tetsurou
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Baldur's Gate 3 Companions and ✨Marijuana✨
Let them get high!!!!
tw: drug use
Halsin
Has 100% smoked before and still does
Definitely had his own grow room at the grove
Likes to mix it with tobacco, since sometimes the taste is too strong for him
Usually just takes a couple puffs to relax
However, when he does smoke more than just a little, he likes to revert to his bear form afterwards and take a little nature walk
Sharing is caring, the man always offers
Big cuddler when he's high
Astarion
Alternatively, and surprisingly, he has never done it, seeing as he didn't have much access to, well, anything
HATES the smell, and refuses to be around it at first
It takes quite a bit of convincing, but the idea of being under the influence of something other than shitty wine sounds appealing
Also hates the taste
Coughs like a bitch lol
Says "this ain't shit" and then proceeds to smoke way more than he probably should for his first time
Gets paranoid and has to lay down
Oddly enough, the best sleep he's gotten in a very long time
Gale
Stoner virgin pt 2
He's probably never smoked anything in his life
YAPS about the effects of marijuana (he read it in a book once)
Coughs so hard he almost pukes
Doesn't mind the taste or smell, but he's not a fan of the burning feeling from smoking
Would use a bong if given the chance
Would also be godly at making edibles
For the first time ever, he shuts the fuck up
Non-verbal stoned moment
Gets REALLY horny
Wyll
He smoked during his rebellious years as a teen
Sometimes finds himself missing it
The smell gave him flashbacks
Handles it well, considering it's been a while
A little giggly
TOUCHY but in a platonic way
He gets the munchies BAD, and usually craves sweets
Tries to keep up with more seasoned smokers but ends up passing out at some point
Shadowheart
Doesn't really remember if she's smoked before or not
A little put off by the smell
Doesn't think smoking is healthy in general, but she's out of wine, so
Takes one hit and realizes she's DEFINITELY felt this before
I imagine pre-game she wasn't smoking a lot, but maybe a couple of times here and there, seeing as she was far too focused on her Sharran worship, so it makes sense that she wouldn't really remember after getting her memories back
GIGGLY
Also touchy in a platonic way, but not nearly as much as others (*cough cough* Karlach *cough cough*)
She gets really focused on the Owlbear and Scratch, and practically ignores everything else around her in favor of baby-talking and loudly smooching foreheads
Lae'Zel
Thinks such activities are useless and that time spent smoking is time better spent training
Finds the smell revolting
Thinks it makes everyone stupid
Won't
But if she did, her personality does a total 180 and she gets oddly sentimental and will openly tell you she cares about you
Likes shining her sword if she's high, it's therapeutic
Karlach
TOTAL STONER
It was a great escape when she had down time in the hells
Smoked with Gorty once, back when they were buddy-buddy
LOUD
Doesn't stop yapping
Giggly
TOUCHIEST TOUCHER
She WILL squeeze
Out smokes everyone, even Mr. 350 Years Old
Minthara
Thinks it's poison, and won't do it
Even if she wanted to, nobody else does
Nightmare blunt rotation member
Jaheira
Smokes with Halsin
Can grow her own instantly, and does so consistently
Appreciates it's medicinal properties, even allowing it to be used by the Harpers as such
Quiet when high, but is more prone to opening up about her life/past when probed
Prefers edibles
Minsc
Definitely smokes consistently
Makes sure Boo isn't right in the smoke
LOUD pt 2
At least he's sitting still for once
Likes telling stories
Will do "funny voices", but to everyone else it's just his normal voice
#baldur's gate 3#bg3 headcanons#baldurs gate 3#baldurs gate gale#bg3#bg3 gale#bg3 writing#baldurs gate astarion#baldur's gate halsin#baldurs gate halsin#baldur's gate wyll#baldurs gate#baldurs gate wyll#baldurs gate shadowheart#shadowheart#bg3 halsin#bg3 karlach#bg3 wyll#bg3 astarion#minthara#jaheira#baldur's gate karlach#karlach cliffgate#karlach#lae'zel#bg3 lae'zel#bg3 shadowheart#bg3 shitpost#voxiwrites#bg3 minsc
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Also for the apocalypse if you’re still in the mood … Nik and his dochka who didn’t have a particularly healthy normal relationship to begin with, and toss in either a contagious infection or mutation-causing radiation, maybe some sex pollen type vibes. Nikolai locking his sweet girl up in her room after he’s exposed— needs to protect you from him— and he’s getting all of these sick urges… but he’s a strong man with an iron will, so he’ll be fine. You can stay in here until… until this wears off. Until there’s a cure.
His will may be iron when it comes to denying himself his own desires, but when it comes to you? It’s paper thin. He can only stand to hear your crying and pawing at the door for so long. You’re used to so much affection from him, he’s all you have left in a world that’s ending, you’re used to being able to crawl into his bed to sleep if you need to. You just can’t handle feeling so lonely, even if it’s what papochka says needs to happen to keep you safe. It hurts too much to be without him, you tell him as much, chipping away at his resolve. Not to mention the sweet scent coming from your door, like a siren call…
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I've said it before and I'll say it again. whatever the hell the opposite of dacryphilia is will always get me
cw: incest, obviously. grooming implied. dubcon due to consent being pretty meaningless but aside from that everyone is very happy to be here. i ended up adding a dash of religious guilt just cause i thought it added to reader's innocence. unedited and idek if it's hot to anyone else but like. gotta jump back on that smut writing horse sometime.
the worst part is, you want to be strong for him but you just can't seem to manage it. you know he's in pain, that he's scared for your safety. you want to be good, like he asked. because you're always good for him. but everything's been so hard ever since...
well, ever since.
(you don't like thinking about it, the incident. that first encounter, on the train, when papa had had to bloody his fist on a man's jaw because he'd gotten to close to you.)
they said it affected one's inhibition. made angry men violent, and lustful men like that one on the train... physical. in the streets, people had been reduced to animal instinct, but papa was not a sinful man so you didn't understand when he'd locked you away in your room, offering no real explanation beyond a general need to keep you safe.
yet there was no safer place than by his side, especially not when you spend every waking minute scared, jumping at shadows as the ghost of the man on the train haunts you late into the night. you'd tried to keep your cries muffled, but it was hard to do so in your sleep. twice now you've woken up to the sound of your father just outside the door, thumping his head against it as he tries to keep himself in check. keep himself away from you.
it only brings you more tears, fear and loneliness mixing until you can't even pry yourself away from the door, scratching at it like an abandoned puppy as you cry for the man who has always made things better, who's never once denied you anything until now.
he gives when you ask if it's the virus making him this way, if he's always wished to keep you locked away from him. "you're like that man, aren't you?" you sniffle, heaped next to the door one evening with your cheek pressed up against it, listening to him pacing on the other side. "acting on impulse. only, you don't want me." your voice creaks, fresh sobs building, but it's drowned out by the squeal of the hinges, the door falling away from you as it's ripped back, spilling you out into the hall where's papa's crouched to catch you, free hand heavy as he stokes it over your brow, down your cheek. with his forehead pressed to yours, he murmurs something about how stupid you are and then kisses you soundly before you can even get yourself worked up about the insult.
apologies follow, murmured against your skin in between the kisses he peppers across your face. he's sorry for locking you away, for ignoring your cries. he's sorry he left you all alone when he knows how scared you are. he's even sorry for calling you stupid, a notion that would make you giggle if not for the way his stubble scratches your skin, makes you arch into him, seeking more. he's overgrown, hasn't shaved properly in days. you wonder if that's due to a general lack of care brought about by the virus, or because supplies are going limited.
but it's hard to care about such things he's pressed against you so insistently, blocking out all other thoughts with a physicality you're unused to from him. papa has never been distant by any means (in fact the two of you have always had the close sort of relationship that's made your friends jealous. snide little comments and meant to drive a wedge between you. papa had never let you listen, assured you that your friends were simply misguided because their own fathers were no good.) but this feels different. his kisses have never lingered like this before, never been pressed into the crook of your neck, humid breath lingering on your skin as he breathes deep your scent. neither have you ever felt -. he's never been -.
"i'm sorry, milaya," he says again, aimless, like he doesn't even know what he's apologizing for anymore. generally, maybe.
there's no need for it, regardless. you hold his face between your palms and tell him it's okay and he caves, again, sinking against you with his lips sealed to yours until your knees buckle and he guides you to the bed. he keeps apologizing but you don't want to hear it, not when he's making you feel so good, so you distract him with more kisses, keep his lips busy another way. distantly, you know it's wrong, but what can it matter when the word's burning outside your window? when he's burning here and now, between your thighs, desperate for a relief only you can give him?
he promises to at least make it good, makes a sound like you've gut punched him when you say you know he will. he gets your skirt up first, lets you bunch it between your teeth when he draws embarrassing sounds from your lips, his own moving against your pussy with the same kind of ardor he'd shown your neck - desperate huffs and gentle, lingering kisses. it's… a lot, but not enough. makes you whine and squirm but doesn't make you mindless the way you'd thought it would, not until he groans in pleasure and digs himself deeper, panting against you with his nose pressed to your clit as he works you open on his tongue. he lets you get used to it, lets your pleasure build as much as it will, like this, dissatisfied and empty. he only moves when you're begging, fingers sunk into his hair as you try to pull him closer, deeper, anywhere -
of course he knows what you need. resurfaces with a deep, shuddering breath which he filters through the hair on your mound. his finger finds your hole as he mouths at you absently, too busy watching your reaction with heavy-lidded eyes. you take the first finger easily enough, cunt soaked with all his efforts. he gives you time to adjust anyway, digit gently probing against your front wall as he fucks it in and out of you minutely. it's better, but still not what you need, and he chuckles against your skin when you pout at him, trying to work your hips up despite the oppressive weight he's got leaned onto you.
"patience, dochka," he warns, no real heat. but it seems he's done denying you anything because his second finger lines up with the first even before he's finished speaking, blunt tip rubbing against your fluttering lips until they give, slight burn soothed by the way his first finger keeps rubbing against you. still, your father is a big man and it's a big stretch, forces a tiny gasp from you even as you try to breathe around it. and papa's at his limit for how much pain he can cause you.
his lips find your clit before you can even process the sting, long hot stripes that have you melting, legs falling away from him like a flower in bloom. he muscles impossibly closer in their absence, broad shoulders carving space for himself in the cradle of you. his free hand snakes over your hips, keeps you pressed against the mattress with enough force you couldn't squirm away even if you wanted. it's oppressive, being surrounded by him like this - even if you're not, not really, left lonely and open and embarrassed on your top half. it's good though, at least it is when you hide your face away and focus on papa's steady tongue, let him work you up until you don't feel the pain anymore, two fingers pumping into you with ease. you drift where he takes you, at his mercy as he reels you in and out of pleasure, distracted enough that you barely even register when he repeats the process with a third finger until his knuckles are bullying past your gate, earning another whine.
"i know, malýshka," he growls against your clit. "just a little more, hm? are you gonna be good for papochka?"
you're always good for him, nodding along before you can even fully register what he's asking. but that's okay because he makes it easy, sitting back enough that he can spit on your cunt, voice a low rumble of his native tongue as he watches you flinch at the sudden insult, hole clenching tight around his fingers before letting them ease oh so gently in, freshly lubed with his spit.
it gets easier after that, stretched so wide around his digits he can't miss any inch of you, scissoring you open with fingers that drag against all your most sensitive points. he doesn't go back to licking you yet, is too entranced by the way your mouth gapes, open and honest as he forces little whines from you, a heady overture to bass rumble of his voice, low enough you barely register when he switches back to english, a steady stream of praises which have you arching under him, always eager for his affection. khoroshaya devochka. that's it. there we go. give it to me. his thumb finds your clit and start to shake, falling apart at the seams.
"said i was like that man, dochka," he growls, a sudden vicious edge to his voice as he works you with singular focus. it sounds important so you try to listen, but he makes it hard with the rough pad of his thumb working you over. "durak. that man would have used you up. spat you out. not like him, milaya," he promises, kneeling back and dragging you with him, your legs pushed up and back until he could slot his hard cock up against your ass, lean his whole weight into you as he continued pumping his fingers into your abused pussy. your pleasure crests, pools in the basin he's made of your pelvis, brimming. spills when his free hand brushes your hair back from your face, that soft care you've always needed from him. "papa just wants to make you make you happy."
#incest cw#gouge answers#🦷 anon#papochka#apapocalypse#<-gonna go back and add this as the tag for this weird au cause i think i'm funny
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ONESHOT
-ˋˏ ༻✿༺ ˎˊ- am i real?
pairings : carlgrimes x f!reader
warnings : sh, knife, cruel past, angst
words : 687
the night is quiet. too quiet. the kind that weighs on carl’s chest like a boulder, makes his fingers twitch against the grip of his gun. there’s no wind, no rustling leaves, no distant groans of the dead. just silence.
he hates silence.
you sit a few feet away, back against the wall of the run-down house you found for the night. your knees are drawn up to your chest, arms wrapped tight around them like you’re trying to hold yourself together. carl knows that feeling too well.
he watches you in the dim glow of the lantern, the flickering light casting long shadows across your face. you look tired. not just the kind of tired that comes from running all day, from swinging a knife into soft, rotting skulls, from watching your own back like it’s second nature. no, this is something else.
he knows what it is.
“you should sleep,” he says, voice low. he’s not looking at you when he says it. it’s easier that way.
you huff out a laugh, but there’s no humor in it. “should you?”
he shrugs. neither of you are sleeping tonight. that much is clear.
the silence stretches between you again, heavy and unspoken. the kind that’s worse than words.
then, so quiet he almost doesn’t hear it—
“do you ever feel like you’re not real anymore?”
he turns his head, frowning. you’re staring at the floor, fingers clenched into the fabric of your jeans.
“like… like you could disappear, and nothing would change,” you continue, voice barely above a whisper. “like the world wouldn’t even notice.”
his stomach twists. because he knows. god, he knows.
“yeah,” he says after a beat. “i do.”
your breath shudders, and he catches the way your shoulders tense, like you regret saying anything at all. he wants to tell you it’s okay. that he gets it. that it’s not stupid. but the words die before they ever reach his tongue.
instead, he reaches for the knife at his hip and pulls it free. the metal catches the light as he turns it in his fingers, the motion slow, careful.
“what are you—”
before you can finish, he rolls up his sleeve.
his arm is a map of old scars, pale and faded, blending into the rest of his skin like they belong there.
you inhale sharply.
“carl…”
he doesn’t look at you. just presses the flat of the blade against one of the scars, tracing over it like he’s trying to remember.
“it doesn’t help,” he says finally, voice flat. “not really.”
you don’t say anything. maybe you already know that. maybe you don’t.
“hurts like hell, though,” he adds, a bitter smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth.
your fingers twitch against your knee, like you want to reach for him but don’t know if you should.
he finally looks at you then. your eyes are wide, glassy.
“do you?” he asks, even though he already knows the answer.
you flinch. then, slowly, you roll up the sleeve of your own jacket.
carl swallows hard.
your arm is lined with fresh cuts, some still red and angry, others barely healed. some shallow, some not.
his chest feels tight.
he doesn’t say anything. just sets the knife aside and holds out his hand.
you hesitate, glancing at it like you don’t understand what he wants.
“let me see,” he says.
your throat bobs as you swallow, but after a long pause, you finally reach out. your fingers are cold when they brush against his, but you don’t pull away when he turns your arm, tracing his thumb gently over one of the older scars.
“you’re real,” he murmurs.
your breath stutters.
“you’re real, and you’re here.”
your eyes shine with something he doesn’t want to name. something too fragile, too raw.
“it doesn’t change anything,” you whisper.
his jaw tightens.
“it changes everything.”
you don’t argue. don’t fight him on it. maybe you’re too tired. maybe you just want to believe him.
the night is still too quiet. but somehow, it doesn’t feel as heavy anymore.
quick note : i hope it wont trigger anyone.. thank u for all the support i got on my previous oneshots, i usually write cai bots so this format is different for me ;p
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fluffy alphabet with marc bernal !!!
Marc Bernal – A to Z, Fluff alphabet .ᐟ
a.n: im deeply sorry for the delay! hope u like it <33
warnings: tooth rotting fluff!!
A = Admiration (what do they absolutely adore about you?)
he loves everything about you, nothing more or nothing less. but he loves your confidence the most!
B = Body (what is their favorite part of your body?)
he loveeees to grab your waist! he's passing by? hands on your waist. you're cooking? he's hugging your waist. you two are literally joined by the hip!
C = Cuddling (how do they like to cuddle?)
he doesn't mind being the little spoon, but he prefers when you are! he loves to snuggle in your neck and feel your perfume.
D = Dates (what does their ideal date with you look like?)
he's not a fan of fancy restaurants, so just a picnic in the park, with a lots of snacks and laughs sound just like heaven to him!
E = Emotions (how do they express emotion around you?)
he's very open about his feelings! if he's inscure, he'll tell you, if he's sad for some reason, he'll let it out to out. this man is a open book!
F = Family (do they want one? If they do, when?)
he thinks you two are too young to start a family now, but in the future, he seem himself being a girl's dad! and he hopes they come out looking just like you.
G = Gifts (how do they feel about gift giving? What are their habits when it comes to this?)
its his love language! he doesn't let you spend a coin on him tho.. but he likes when you make him little handmade gifts and tries to make them too now and then
H = Holding Hands (when/how do they like to hold hands?)
his hands are pretty sweaty by nature, he prefers when you two walk around with you holding his arm rather than holding hands.
I = Injury (how would they act if you got hurt?)
he takes care of you the most. if its a flu, he'll ask his mother to bring you soup, if it's an physical injury he's not letting you move a finger to do anything!
J = Jokes (do they like to joke around with or prank you? how?)
in your opinion, he's the funniest alive! he always have some joke to make about everything! the only pranks he'll pull on you are tiktok trends.
K = Kisses (how do they like to kiss you?)
loves, and i mean, loves to take it slow! he's a romantic kisser! he doesn't like to take it too fast, but sure enjoy the moment a lot.
L = Love (how do they show you they love you?)
gift giving! he saw a cute bunny with a bow? he bought it! he saw a cat phone case? you already have five, all different colors!
M = Memory (favorite memory together?)
the first time you slept together. it didn't happened anything, just two teenagers watching movies all night and eating take outs.. but the moment he saw you sleeping so soundly on his chest, he realized it.
N = Nightmare (what is their worst fear?)
you leaving him for another player. he knows that there are lots of good players around there, that have more play time, that have better salaries.. he just can't bear the thought of it!
O = Oddity (what is one quirk they have?)
he's always coming up with a new nickname and never, ever, repeats the same one! and it's always the silliest things!
P = Pet Names (what do they like to call you?)
every pet name! cariña, guapa, gatita..
Q = Quality Time (how do they like to spend time with you?)
he'll spend time with you by teaching how to play video games! you always win, even if you just learned, but he proclaims he let's you win.
R = Rhythm (what song reminds you of them?)
kali uchis' songs were made for him and he also dedicates them to you.
S = Secrets (how open are they with you?)
alongside with gossiping his friend's secrets, he's very open hearted about his own. you have all his trust in all subjects possible.
T = Time (how long did it take you to get together?)
you new eachother for a loong period of time, being childhood best friend's it was hard to tell if was just a strong bond or a crush, but after realizing it, maybe a year.
U = Upset (how do they act when you’re upset?)
he's sooo pouty! arms crossed, pouty lips and let the drama starts.
V = Vaunt (what are they proud of? Do they like to show you off?)
he cannot shut up about you! his teammates know every step you take just by being 5 minutes with him.
W = Warrior (how do they feel about you fighting? Would they fight for you?)
he's not the strongest boy, so he would adventure throwing punches, but he's very protective over you.
X = X-Ray (how well are they able to read you?)
he always know. he knows everything! he realizes when you're sad, the exact time you got hungry.
Y = Yes (how would they propose to you?)
it was your birthday, you both sat with your feet in the warm pool by the sunset. the day was great, all of your friends were there and he was too. you two were being casual by now, but he was the one to take a step further that day.
Z = Zen (what makes them feel calm?)
when you caresses his hair! he's on cloud nine when your fingers run throughout his locks.
im always scared of writing to him and it be too out of character.. but i hope im picturing right!
requests are openn again!! bye bye, hope u like it 💋
#pedricos!#marc bernal x y/n#marc bernal x you#marc bernal x reader#barcelona x reader#barcelona boys#fc barcelona#barcelona fc#imagine#a to z challenge#fluff alphabet#fluff a to z#boyfriend imagines
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gentleman thoughts, comfort edition 🩶
gentleman! katsuki, whose love language is acts of service. who doesn’t need to know whats wrong to comfort you. who will gently (maybe not so gently, it’s him) remind you to get up and eat on those days you find it hard too. who’ll let you cry in his arms for hours, not moving an inch, acting as an anchor for you. who is normally a dick, but is also uncharacteristically patient and loving when he knows you need him to be. who will listen if you need him too, and is just as willing to go give hell to someone if that’s what you need. he’s a bodyguard <3
gentleman! izuku, who is probably the most emotionally intelligent on this list. who is so quick to notice signs when something is wrong, and who won’t hesitate to offer his support. who is a natural empath, hating to see you in pain, willing to give anything, but learns that sometimes they’re aren’t any tangible solutions and the best he can do is be there and listen. who always tells you that he’s proud of you, because he knows it isn’t easy. who is in love with you when you’re happy and healthy or when you’re sad and needing comfort, even when you can’t love yourself.
gentleman! shouto, may come off us cold or uncaring, but who cares so much more than he’s able to admit. who you learn to bond with over shared trauma, creating a safe refuge for just the two of you. who wants to understand for you, and even if he doesn’t, will be there as long as you say the word. who, after long crying sessions, awkwardly tells a joke that he heard fuyumi say to her class and delivering it in the most monotone voice. “why can’t can’t dinosaurs clap their hands? because they’re extinct.” (it was stupid.) (you still laughed.)
gentleman! eijirou, who might not notice right away, but who you have wrapped around your finger once he does or when you tell him. who opts to stay with you if he isn’t already, not liking the idea of you being alone while you’re sad. who, after holding your hand, comforting you and being your rock, gently helps you back up. who will congratulate you on things that feel small- texting someone back, taking a shower, etc- but cheers you on like you’ve just walked on the moon. who knows its your journey but swears to himself he’ll see it through with you.
gentleman! denki, who is kind of an idiot- but who always means well and loves unconditionally. texts you day and night, checking on you, sending you things he hopes will make you laugh. who is forgetful about most things but really good at reminding you to take your meds, to eat, to not be hard on yourself. who doesn’t wanna see anyone being mean to his partner, including you. who will gently remind you not to criticize yourself too much, wishing you could see yourself from his pov (you’re everything to him and he’ll remind you of that until you believe it).
gentleman! hitoshi, who knows so much about mental health because he himself has dealt with his fair share of struggles. who is endlessly patient, knowing that sometimes dealing with a messy room or dirty dish feels like it’d take everything from you. who is more than willing to spend a day in bed with you, holding you close, letting you cry or sleep it off. who leaves you with his clothes, his home and all his promises if he does have to be somewhere, assuring you that he’s a text away. who is more than willing to talk, but is also a great distraction if you need it- taking you out, playing you music, being the sweetest guy you have ever met and safe place.
#bnha x y/n#bnha x fem!reader#bnha x self insert#bnha x gender neutral reader#bnha x you#bnha x reader#mha x y/n#mha x you#mha x gender neutral reader#mha x reader#katsuki bakugou x you#katsuki bakugou x reader#bakugou x self insert#bakugou fanfic#bakugou fanfiction#todoroki shoto x reader#todoroki x reader#izuku x y/n#izuku x reader#denki x reader#denki x y/n#denki x you#kirishima eijiro x reader#kirishima x you#kirishima x reader#hitoshi shinso x y/n#hitoshi shinso x reader#shinso x y/n#katsuki bakugou x female reader#bakugou x fem!reader
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Uuuuhhhhhhggggggggggg I don’t WANT to go to bed but I’m tiiiirrrrreddddd
#I’m sleepy so I should close my eyes and rest#BUT#you ever get that feeling like sleeping is even too hard to do#like I’m so bored/meh that sleeping sounds boring#I want to but I also don’t want to#go to sleeeeeeeep#ughhhhhhh#it’s like that Bluey episode#where she’s like#I don’t know what I want but I know I want something#that’s what I’m feeling but slightly different#idk I’m just hmmmmmm#bored 😑#but sleepy 🥱#and half regressed#beep bonk#anywho I’m going to try and sleep#don’t want to sleep tho#but it’s what I need I guess#age regressor#age regression#agere blog#agere positivity#quizzyrambles#sfw agere#sfw interaction only#sfw age regression
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Good morning, Sleepyhead.
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#poorly drawn mdzs#mdzs#wei wuxian#lan wangji#'WWX was asleep for 4 days' is an incorrect factoid.#The average WWX sleeps for 8 hours. The PD-MDZS WWX who was asleep for 40 comics and 4 months is an outlier.#We are back to present day! I have missed drawing them!#Ah...the contrast between how the flashback ended (cold and distrustful) to how wwx wakes up (warm and watched over)...#The gap between the past and present is very important. Not just in this story but in our lives too.#The past can still hurt and it doesn't just go away with time as some say. It is the power of realizing that things have changed.#We can't get the good back. The bad memories have concluded. Those live somewhere else now.#It is hard to realize that you have to live for today and tomorrow. The past is so loud.#For WWX it is realizing that despite the mistrust in the past - He really does have faith that LWJ will be there for him.#It is the reflection of knowing that you changed and will keep changing and that change is good and kind sometimes.#But more importantly...and this I really do mean with all my heart:#It will all end up okay in the end. Even after the worst day. The most painful losses. You will get through it.#What feels like a breaking point is truthfully just another step you have to take. You'll get through it even though it feels like the end.#There are wonderful things you have yet to see. Friends you have yet to meet.#Even if it hurts so badly...one day it just aches. Someday you'll go a few weeks not remembering that it ever hurt.#Oh and because my izutsumi comic revealed many people were in need of hearing this:#You are loved. Right now. You are so loved right now. We just forget to tell each other that.#Go tell the people you love that they matter to you. I'm assigning you homework!!! You are graded on completion.
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#ok finally making a post about meds#I've not ever tried taking medication before. I was sorta raised with that classic 'dont rely on meds you have to learn to manage without'#I mean I was also raised with the idea that therapy is stupid unless you have 'real' trauma. and also like idk.#can't stay home from school unless your temp is over 100 or you're throwing up. etc. very suck it up mindset#so I was just really nervous to start. also of course worried about losing myself or whatever I know that's a silly fear but#it's also a common fear for a reason!!! anyways#so I finally was like 'I need to do something' when I realized I was so anxious I couldnt even get myself to go outside alone#like I just don't want to do ANYTHING alone to a detrimental effect. and it was butting into my ability to do my work...#for various reasons. but then ALSO adhd has been a constant issue with my work as well!#it is SO hard to write and draw on a weekly pace like I am without being able to focus#my whole life I've had these terrible nightmares constantly and I've always woken up constantly in the night#sleep has always been terrible so I've always dreaded going to bed.. ESPECIALLy because it didnt even make me less tired#it was more something that I just did because I had to.#but going to bed was always terrible. there have been times I was too scared to go to sleep for weeks on end...#I've been mitigating this for years of course. and recently I've been taking melatonin which has been helping too.#but I've also always struggled to get up. because I've always been EXTREMELY exhausted#but also anxious of what the day might bring... idk.#anyways it has all hit a point that I was like okay. I am doing as many coping mechanisms as I can. the psych said they were good too#but... it just has never been enough. it's never been enough to make me not tired it's never been enough to make me not scared#so I finally talked to the doc about it. and she was like youve def got smth wrong basically. which yah I know.. but yknow#anyways so I started taking wellbutrin. and I am so frustrated now. because it's WORKING#that constant looming sense of dread is gone. I'm excited to get up. I'm excited to go to bed BECAUSE I'm excited to get up#I feel like for years I've been holding on to the idea that I have to get up because I have to put something good out into the world#and I've been clinging to knowing that if nothing else. I am able to help other people feel better.#but now for the first time in my life I'm like. free of it. I didnt even know it was possible... and I'm so sad how much I've lost out on#and so frustrated how my whole life I've been told to put up with it and push through it. and treated like a failure for it being too much.#and just. It has only been 2 weeks. but the lack of anxiety is SO noticeable I'm so...#I'll never miss it. the adhd is still pretty present but like whatever. I can manage that better.#and I'm just crying because of all this combined.#I just. I hope I get to finally be the best I can be now. for myself but also for you guys!
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