#you are trying not to go on a face journey

[purinfelix]

the day that i met you, i started dreaming ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁

summary: in which a stranger on the bus falls asleep on your shoulder, but you don't seem to mind ──────── non idol! jake x reader || sfw, no warnings just an awkward meetcute || w/c: 1.2k

[ a/n: something cute and short while i try to come up with second parts for my recent sunghoon and niki fic ksdjfksjdf ]

You couldn't remember the last time you had stayed so completely still.

Sure, there was the fact that you were mostly exhausted from a long shift at work and could barely find the energy to move a muscle. There was also the long bus ride ahead, one you weren't entirely looking forward to. But if anything - it was most likely due to the weight of a certain stranger's head resting against your shoulder, and the soft but somehow endearing snores he was letting out as he slept.

Now, you weren't going to lie, you had noticed him the minute he got on the bus, a couple stops after you did. His large brown eyes scanned for an empty seat, the way his lips parted just slightly as he did. There was something about him, something adorable charming that you just couldn't shake - and it was this very thing that made your heart flutter when he finally chose the empty spot next to you, shooting you a quick half-smile as if to excuse himself for bothering you.

You had returned it politely, but almost immediately shifted in your seat to face the window, telling yourself not to be silly and get worked up over such a minor interaction. But it was difficult to maintain this same composure when only a couple seconds later you were surprised by a gentle weight on your shoulder.

Your first instinct had been to freak out, to shake him awake to avoid the inevitable awkwardness that awaited the two of you once he woke up. But the longer you sat there, noticing just how peaceful he looked, the less you felt like disturbing him.

So instead you willed yourself to stay still, to fight against the nervous tremble you felt building within you the longer you let the situation process. It didn't help that as the bus continued its journey, every bump it drove over would push his weight further onto you. But strangely, after getting over the initial shock you found the awkward feeling of his head on your shoulder become something different, something closer to comfort, something you could let yourself enjoy.

Against your better judgment, you found yourself stealing casual glances at him every so often, curiosity getting the better of you. He was even better looking up close, long lashes resting against his skin, dark strands of hair falling over his features. You could feel how steady his breaths were, and you were caught between feeling envy for how good a sleep he must be getting and awe at how attractive he looked, even while sleeping.

Somehow, he must've felt the weight of your gaze, and soon enough his eyes fluttered open - causing you to whip your neck around and clear your throat awkwardly, not wanting to seem like a total creep for watching him sleep. He blinked slowly, brows knitting together as he struggled against his tiredness, not moving his head from your shoulder for a second. Once he finally did though he turned to you slowly, brain still processing the situation before his deep brown eyes widened and he jerked up straight.

"Oh-" His voice was still hoarse from sleeping, which only deepened his embarrassment as he rubbed the back of his neck sheepishly. "Shit, sorry, I didn't mean to-" he began to stutter, eyes searching your face for your reaction.

You couldn't help but smile as you watched him. "It's okay," you said, trying your best to sound reassuring. "You looked like you needed it."

He let out a breathy chuckle, still looking embarrassed but visibly relieved that you weren't annoyed. "Yeah, long day," he admitted, running a hand through his hair. "Did I, uh- snore or anything?"

"A little, but it was kind of cute."

He groaned, dragging a hand over his face. "Great, perfect," he sighed sarcastically.

There was a slight pause before he spoke again as if he was preparing himself to confront the awkwardness of the situation with politeness. "Thanks for not shoving me off or anything."

You shrugged, trying your best to act calm even though his words brought immense relief that you had made the right decision. "Seemed like too much effort," you said.

He nodded, hesitating again before speaking. "So, uh, I feel like I should repay you somehow, I don't know, buy you a coffee or something?" His eyes scan your face again, only this time it's clear he's not looking for a reaction or anything but more looking at you, at your features the same way you were with him before.

You raise an eyebrow, amused. "Are you asking because you want to, or because you feel obligated?"

He blinks, caught off guard by your question before letting out a slightly awkward chuckle. "Uh, both?"

"Honest, I'll give you that."

The bus slowed and you suddenly realised you were almost at your stop. "Tell you what," you said with a tone that sounded a little too eager, "if you see me on this bus again, you can ask me then."

His mouth opened slightly like he wanted to argue, but he just exhaled with a small laugh, shaking his head in a way that showed this whole situation was far more strange than he had expected it. "Alright, fair deal."

You could feel his eyes on you as he stood up to let you off, and when you turned to say your goodbye you saw him chewing on his bottom lip, thinking. "Or," he pipes up again, and it sounds like his words are moving faster than his brain with the sudden tone he says them with, "or you could just, you know, give me your number now? I mean, you don't have to, just figured I'd-"

You paused, biting back a grin as you looked back at him over your shoulder. His face is practically on fire, fingers tapping nervously against his knee. There's something about the way he looks at you - half-hopeful that you'll agree, half-ready to sink into the seat and disappear if you don't - that makes you hold out your hand.

"Alright, hand over your phone," you sigh in faux exhaustion, though there's a smile toying at your lips as you do. He fumbles to unlock his phone, practically shoving it into your hands and after quickly entering your number you hand it back.

"See you around-," you say, pausing for him to tell you his name as the bus halts to a stop and the doors hiss open.

"Oh, Jake!" he eagerly blurts out, looking up at you from his screen with a lopsided smile. One you can't help but copy as you step off of the bus, the cool night air hitting you as you did.

He watches as you do, sinking back into his seat. As he does he can't help but consider the possibility that maybe, just maybe, he's still sleeping, because this all feels too much like a dream to be true.

He watches as you do, sinking back into his seat, letting out a laugh almost in disbelief. As he does he can't help but consider the possibility that maybe he's hasn't actually woken up yet - because he swears, he might still be dreaming.

[iknownur48]

What do you need to hear rn?? (PAC TAROT)

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Hello everyone! I'm IIknur! And welcome to the reading! Today I'm gonna try to channel some messages from your spirit guides about your current situations, or any problem you might be facing rn, or in general some messages that'll help you in your journey ahead! Hope you like it:))

Disclaimer

It's a general reading so take what resonates and what doesn't

These readings are not a substitute for any professional/medical/financial advice

While I try to give accurate guidance through tarot, it's our free will and responsibility to take action on something or not. So pls take care of that.

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Pile 1♥️

Hello pile 1! Welcome to your reading!! Let's see what your spirit guides wants you to know whenever this reading has reached you.

King of Wands, knight of swords, 10os, 4oc, the chariot

Idk pile 1, I feel as if though I'm stuck, I'm feeling very stuck energy from you pile 1. As if you guys are b/w something, confusion? Choices? Should I choose this or that? Or you're stuck in something by your own choice or maybe by external circumstances of yours? Idk, but the guidance coming from your spirit guides, is that, you have the power this whole time to either take that decision, break free from something (if that's the case) or whatever in which you're feeling stuck. I've seen a post here on Tumblr itself, where a man was holding 2 cards in one it was 4oc (which we have here) and 10os(which we again have here in your reading) and basically they said, you've 2 choices, either the pain of being there as it with the 4oc or the pain of moving on with the 10os. And I exactly feel this for you my dear pile 1's. Now don't feel attacked or something, I totally understand and get you, bcz, it's me too I often feel stuck in some situations but at the end, I trust the process and I find the path to move ahead, as I start to focus on my sprituallity more, it's just helps me and it's just an eg. Maybe something else will help you, or maybe this can also you, which thing helped me, and the guidance for you is that, I'm getting you have the power, strength, courage, will, or whatever else you've to call it, to move ahead, choose something to begin, or end with. I hope it makes sense for you pile 1, bcz with the chariot, I feel you'll be guided to the right direction, especially with this whatever thing you're stuck in, and with the high priestess being top of the deck, some of you already might know, what you've the do, want to do, and what not. The thing is then Take action?! Why wait for the right time, when you can yourself make the time right? Yes! This is the time to go ahead and do it! Whatever your heart saying just do it, that's your intuition and you're being guided in the right direction!! May god bless you always pile 1!!♥️♥️

Thank you so much for being here pile 1!! Hope you liked it! Lemme know in the comment box, I'll really appreciate it!!♥️♥️

Pile 2♥️

Hello pile 2! And welcome to your reading! Let's see what your spirit guides wants to tell you now!

The moon, ace of pentacles, queen of cups, the world, 7oc, the lovers.

When I was shuffling your cards, actually way before shuffling, I heard "one of the girls" song in my head? Idk if it's significant or not, or if it's just only my fav? But believe me, I didn't heard this song from last 2 months now, and maybe it's something significant, and I also got some cowboy/cowgirl energy?😂 Irdk? Also "la espada" idk I'm channeling songs Outta nowhere 😂 well now as per your cards, I feel that somethings coming in, maybe you're not aware of it, bcz the ace of pentacles is coming from the moon, so maybe it's well hidden rn, also I would highly suggest you to pay attention to your dreams. And try to find the meaning behind it(intuitively pls) something completing at night? Idk why, it's a very neptunian energy here, like whenever you live on your Neptune line(according to astrocartography) it suggests that things come and go, and you are not even aware of it, bcz the energy of Neptune kind of clouds the vision, and that's true, I live on the Neptune line, and honestly so many problems I don't even able to see coming, until they arrive at the doorstep literally and it almost feels like out of nowhere. Same goes with good things, but in both cases Neptune kind of blue everything. And I exactly feel this for you, ik eg. Is a bit long, but somethings coming in that you may feel out of nowhere, but actually you already have been recieved the signs and synchronisity about it, and I also feel like if you manifested something back before, it's coming but you already completely forget about it now. But you are able to pick up on that. Yes. I also feel like for some it's a past person coming back, so if you're hoping for some kind of reunion it's happening, again it's upon your free will what you do after it. And actually something is also completing, bcz the world card shows completion and so, something are coming to a completion. But again, I feel you've less awareness around there, it must have been in the back of your mind, subconscious? May have been important for you in the past, but now you literally don't know or remember.😅 Weird weird wierd! I've never channeled reading like this, but god bless you pile no.2!

Thank you pile 2 for being here! Lemme know in the comment section if you like it or not!! I hope you'll have a great day/night ahead!!

Pile 3♥️

Hello pile no.3! And welcome to your reading! Let's see what your spirit guides wants to tell you!!

The moon, the sun, judgement, 9os, 8oc, 5op

Pile no.3, I see that maybe something major has happened in your life recently, it feels like as if you're walking on the edge, and in general if nothing happened like a tower moment or something, which I feel like has happened internally or externally, it may even be like some suppressed emotions are finally releasing, and it's been taking a toll on you, but there's something that has been happened/happening, that is kind of overwhelming rn. Some may also going through with sleeping issues, overthinking, anxiety, worrying a lot, or maybe a dark night of the soul? But the message here for you pile 3, with the 8oc, that I see you're entering a new phase in your life! And your spirit guides are encouraging you to keep on going, bcz you're exactly going in the right direction, and also you're exactly where you need to be rn as well, so you basically don't have to worry, or be anxious about anything, just trust the process, and good times are ahead, as if your spirit guides are promising you that, they just want you to keep on going. If you're in dark night of the soul, you're passing through it, and finally spritual awakening is at the the horizon, I'm getting 3ow energy, and dawn? So dawn of a new era is coming for you all!! No need to be depressed now!! Everything is happening in the way it should be, and you'll finally understand the lessons behind it, it feels like a major breakthrough tbh! I hope that from whatever you're going through, god bless you and you will surely come out of this situation! And I keep hearing "I promise" I actually wanted to say that, and it's a reassurance that good times are just about to come, as we're already in the spring season! Summers gonna be a very good time for you!!

Thank you so much pile 3 for being here! Pls lemme know if you like this reading in the comment box! God bless you, and help you heal always!🤗♥️

Pile 4

Hii pile 4! Welcome to your reading!! Let's see what your spirit guides wants to say to you!

Justice, high priestess, page of cups, 6os, 10oc

Pile no.4, while shuffling your cards, I can sense clarity, I gain clarity over something, that has been a bit difficult for me, I would tell you but Irdk how can I convert it into words, but I can sense for some of you, some type of clarity is coming, and it'll come automatically through channeling, no need of other resources, it's actually channeling. And actually in the justice card the man is actually holding a sword representative of authority but also clarity, bcz it's the ace of swords, and that's the energy I was getting. Idk, I'm getting like if something feels negative to you, it's simply a sign to move on from that, or it's just not meant for you, and you have the power whether to claim it or not, out of fear or whatever, but at the same time, that same thing which feels negative can be an inspired action, bcz our intuition told us to do, like see it like this for eg. You're a person who don't likes to be alone, and hate losing friendships, and bcz you're damn lucky, you actually have good friends around u, but in the back of your mind, it's always like 'i hate losing friendships, breaking up in a friendship is bad or something, but then you sense some -ve energy from one of your friends, and you don't exactly understand what it was, but it drained you, and you've the courage to break free from that friendship and you did, now you're no more draining your energy? Idk how well can I explain it, but it's like it was bad for you to lose friendships, but in this case it was actually a good one to lose this friendship bcz it was for your highest good? I hope it makes sense, and basically it just means that good and bad changes depending upon the situation, and if you feel something negative out of nowhere, and it's not coming out from your intuition it's basically a sign of fear that you've to let go of, and this is all what I gained clarity on. Ik it's a bit weird maybe, but that's how I channeled it,

And honestly I'm not channeling anything else from cards,expect that some clarity is on the way for you, and you'll channel it by yourself, and the things I mentioned above can mean, that fear is just an illusion and it actually depends on case to case? Irdk I'm really sorry, I hope you can able to understand bcz, I can't able to explain it in words, but I hope you liked this reading!!😅 Thank you so much pile 4 for being here pls lemme know if you like it or not and also what you understood from all of it:)) it'll be greatly appreciated ♥️♥️

Thank you so much everyone for being here!!♥️♥️<333

[witless-winion1]

“The blood on your hands is something you won’t lose,” Zeus scolded. “All you can choose is whose.”

The blood of the child…or the blood of my family…

The presence of the god lingered, before slowly dissipating. The small bolts of lighting and the ominous roll of thunder in the background faded off.

Odysseus looked down at the child. So small, so helpless. To ensure his family’s safety would be only too easy; he wouldn’t even need to draw his sword. He only needed to extend his arms, over the stone wall, and let go, watch him fall-

The infant in his arms stirred. Odysseus’ eyes opened, widened.

The baby cooed, squirming enough to free an arm and reach up to him. He looked so trusting. Odysseus couldn’t help but think back to Telemachus. They looked so similar, the innocent wide eyes and pale skin.

This child was fated to destroy him if he chose mercy. His son, his wife.

Odysseus closed his eyes as he slowly stood up. How could anyone but a monster follow the command of the gods?

How could a monster choose the child of an enemy over his family?

His mind conjured up the image of Penelope. Of Telemachus. He couldn’t put them at risk…

It’s just one life to take. And when I kill him, then our journey’s over.

He drew in a shuddering breath, his arms shaking as he slowly extended his arms out inch by inch over the bloody courtyard, preparing to add more.

“HEY! CAPTAIN!” A familiar, confused voice startled him from the strange, dazed blankness of his mind. “WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING?”

Odysseus felt like a bucket of cold water had been dumped over his head as the babe whined, squirming- he pulled it back into his chest before the child could fall from his hands. A light tremble of horror shaking him as he realized what he’d been about to do. He looked slowly over the edge of the wall, seeing a few of his men, done with razing the city and having come to find him. It appeared that Polites had been the one to call to him.

“Nothing!” He called back, wincing asked his voice suffered the worst voice crack he’d had since he was the sixteen and trying to woo Penelope.

His cheeks flamed like Troy when he saw his friends’ eyebrows raise. Eurylochus, standing beside Polites and still holding his massive, bloody sword, cupped a hand around his mouth. “Bring that down here! Let’s see what you got.”

Judging by the expressions on their faces, mostly confusion, they didn’t know what was in his arms, what had been precariously close to being dropped.

He slowly readjusted his hands to hold the child of his enemy closer, turning to make his way off of the wall and join them. “…yes, alright.”

[amorchai]

𝐂𝐑𝐎𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄.

pairing(s): chandler bing x female!reader

summary: you and chandler's friends are adamant to get you together, both of you unaware of the other's feelings.

words: 1955

warnings/tags: friends to lovers, bit of hidden ross hate, insecurities.

author's note: this was requested through my requesting form!

“she’s in love with her best friend,” the statement breaks the rare quietness of the table where you sat with a book on your lap, ross with a newspaper, joey staring off into the distance after being shushed multiple times by either of you.

the couch dips beside you, an arm brushing your shoulders as chandler gets comfortable, his arm on the back of where you sat. his cologne is strong, new shirt sporting his frame as he groans, his date clearly hadn’t went well.

your bookmark finds purchase where you last read, ross folding the newspaper and chucking it onto the coffee table where chandlers scuffed shoe-covered feet rest. “who does?” joey asks furrowing his eyebrows from the armchair.

chandler gestures, confuddled features glancing between you and ross with furrowed eyebrows before sarcastically responding, “y/n is. who do you think? the girl i went out with!”

joey glances at you, embarrassed with a small realised ‘ah’ while ross sips his latte to hide his knowing expression. you clear your throat awkwardly, the lump in your throat stuck from the statement, palms turning sweaty.

because you were in love with your best friend, the very one whose fingers are currently instinctively brushing along your cardigan-clad shoulder, the one who is constantly in a phase of going on dates with girls before coming back to complain about them to you.

each date making your self-esteem and smidgen of hope smaller and smaller. naming flaws of each girl like he’s hunting for something to be wrong, and while he doesn’t even love you back, if you were to date how did you know it would be different?

he didn’t go out with friends but he doesn’t like commitment all the same. 

“what makes you say that?” ross finally asks after a beat of silence. “all she talked about was him. rick this, rick that. get this, she said they’re planning on renting a place together soon and they have a pact that if they’re fifty and not married they’ll marry each other.”

when it’s silent apart from chandler’s self-deprecating laughter, he gestures to the three of you, “like how ridiculous does that sound? i went on a date with a girl married off in a few decades.”

very loosely you reply with a small laugh you hope chandler doesn’t notice is taking effort to muster up, ross and joey overturning it with their own remarks while he stands, hair messy as he runs a hand through it, “anyone want anything?” he points at the empty mugs before looking at you specifically, “another tea?”

you nod while the others reply with a ‘no.’ you open your book back up, smiling at him appreciatively when he walks past your legs, hand squeezing your shoulder on his journey to the counter.

“oh-!” your book falls back to your lap as you turn on your spot to face him but chandler already is aware, not looking back as the waitress begins to serve him, “yeah, that berry herbal stuff, i know.”

with a heated smile you turn back into your spot, back melting into the couch as you try to stop smiling, but failing miserably. you re-read the first line several times before looking up to see joey and ross both watching you silently.

“what?”

“nothing,” joey replies, standing from his spot to steal chandler’s spot, head boredly shoved atop your shoulder to read along with you, only lasting ten seconds before huffing in defeat.

when chandler returns, he settles your new mug next to your previous one, nodding when you thank him before conversing with ross and settling on joey’s old space and you feel stupidly jealous at him not being close to you anymore.

you can feel joey’s chin move when he shakes his head at you and this time you decide to ignore it, taking one last glance at chandler before turning back to your book.

it was only hours later, rachel begging the boys to stay away from their apartment while the girls had a well-awaited girls night. it took six minutes into making cookie dough for monica to bring up, “so… chandler’s date didn’t go well?”

you look up from the cup of chocolate chips, aimlessly handing them to phoebe to pour into the bowl of cookie contortion, “huh? oh- yeah, he said.”

“do you guys ever wonder why chandler never enjoys these dates he keeps going on?” she adds, you know by her tone and topic of where she was headed, a daily battle you had with the girls so you shoot her a small look when rachel responds, “because he’s scared of commitment?”

“because he’s actually gay?” phoebe adds, chocolate flying from the bowl as she inelegantly stirs the cookie mixture once again. with a snort you reply, “you keep wondering about this monica, bring it up once more we might start thinking you love chandler.”

rachel grins, “oh, but how would that work since you already fill that position, y/n?” you shake your head, wiping your hands down the borrowed apron before making your way to the kettle to make more tea.

“you need to do something about it, y/n.”

you sigh, looking out the small window above the counter, “then why does chandler keep going on these dates?” you ask, it had been a thought constantly running through your own head you don’t bare discussing with your best friends.

when you’re met with silence you turn, the girls looking between one another, monica saying through laughter as if it’s the most obvious thing, “because it’s clear he loves you!”

it’s your turn to laugh, shaking your head as you gather the old mugs to refill with more hot drinks to battle the cold weather, “now you’re being even more ridiculous.”

“it’s worth finding out,” you don’t believe those words, tipping water from the warmed kettle into each mug as you continue with your back to them, “really, pheebs? worth risking the friendship? all our friendships? because if i admit my feelings and he doesn’t reciprocate it then we all know chandler won’t be able to act normal. the whole group will split.”

“but joey said-” rachel slaps a hand over her mouth, cutting herself off with her other hand reaching for your shoulder when you place the mug in front of her, “said what?” she shakes her head, “joey said we couldn’t tell you!”

“so everyone knows something but me?”

rachel groans, looking to monica’s warning look before quickly rushing out to you, “chandler was planning on asking you out after new year’s but ross talked him out of it!”

your jaw drops while monica punches rachel’s arm, scolding her as she grabs the bowl off phoebe to add more vanilla, “you can’t keep your mouth shut, can you?”, “she had to know!”

“what-? how-? i don’t-” you’re speechless, unsure what to ask when there’s multiple questions spinning around your head, “just after your breakup with amir, chandler said he felt something between you when he came round to see you.”

you nod, still quiet and looking to the flour-covered table while your mind fuzzes, “yeah, i know.” phoebe interjects, “you felt it too?”, “i thought he was going to kiss me but i realised it was most likely a way to just make me feel better for a moment.”

“you need to tell him,”

but you didn’t, you chickened out, as monica kept saying. and hushed conversations between your five friends would cease the moment you arrived – an incline into what they were discussing or would shoot each other glances when chandler took his usual spot next to you.

only a couple of days later, your eyes gaze along the news article chandler has perched in his own lap, your side pressed against his front while everyone watches the trashy tv show joey’s meant to be an extra in, having a miraculous number of four seconds screen time.

you all greet him when he enters, watching as he snatches the packet of chips from ross’ hands and sits on the arm of the chair rachel sits on, “seen it yet?” he asks, handful of chips at the go. the group grunt in what only can be considered no.

joey hums, turning to where you sit, pressed against chandler as you both read from the same paper while chandler’s arm takes its usual spot behind where you’re sitting. “how was girls night? it looks like the plan worked, huh?” he trails off with a proud smile.

everyone turns from what they’re doing, you and chandler in confusion and ross, monica, rachel, and phoebe in alarm. “what plan?” both you and chandler ask in unison, while the girls chide joey for constantly using his words before his brain.

realisation settles in joey’s expression as he registers what he presumed was a couple-y act was just your usual manners with chandler, friends. you and chandler look at one another, clearly out of the loop before you repeat, “what plan?”

“don’t get mad?” monica starts, more of a question than statement from her timid tone. “what plan?” chandler says a third time, through gritted teeth. ross shakes his head, unamused as clearly he was against whatever the plan was from the beginning.

“we were trying to get you to talk about each of your feelings so you can realise you both belong together,” rachel explains, trying to make it sound better than what it was; friends secretly trying to force their friends to admit their valid withheld feelings in fear of an impending ruined friend group.

“girls night we tried to get y/n to say, to herself more than us, that she does love chandler so she realised.” phoebe adds and you feel a shift, chandler’s arm faltering behind you with a tensity and a gap growing between you both when you sit forward awkwardly.

“and did you get her to?” joey asks, “yes, but she was still wary,” is replied.

your mind is overwhelmed, your friends talking as if you’re not in the room not helping, plus you can feel chandler’s eyes on you as he speaks through a throat bob, “i-is that true?”. you look back at his confused expression and sigh before standing up to trail towards the front door in a cowardly exit but chandler’s up past the sofa and shutting the door you just had began to open.

“let me go, chandler.” you start but he’s standing in front of you, “wait, let’s talk about this we need to talk about this.”

“now you want to talk about it? you hate talking about these things, feelings! that’s why you go on dates and come home to bitch about the girls while probably leaving them with the hope of a phone call back!”

it was a low blow, but chandler had never talked feelings but all of a sudden he needed to force it out of you and you felt your throat closing and tears threatening to build between your eyes.

“fine, then let’s not talk about it!” chandler snaps back, but doesn’t move from his spot so you reply with a sharp, “are you not gonna let me leave-?” your words cut off when chandler kisses you instead.

it’s an impending rollercoaster of emotions, from the initial embarrassment, to anger to shock to enjoyment as your hands instinctively land on his jaw, all worries meshing into nothingness as you know he loves you back. you’re aware chandler wouldn’t say it easily but the proclamation of kissing you through the realisation of your friends plans was enough.

“alright, get a room.”

chandler pulls away from you, thumb brushing your hip while turning to joey’s position, “shut up, you caused this!”

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[abbylee0710]

Cosmic Hearts: Echoes of Another World

Synopsis: When five friends find themselves in the universe of their beloved game, they do not expect how much their presence will impact the story. With internal conflicts, a little bit of drama, and the truth of why they were transported to this world in the first place, the five will learn how to navigate their roles and the significance of their bond to each of the love interests in this universe.

Disclaimer: This is my first time writing so feedbacks are very appreciated, MC will not appear in this story but she did exist (will be explained in future chapters) the five girls are my very own original characters, the premise is that of an isekai, I will try my best to portray the boys' characters to the best of my abilities, this might be a very long series, please do not repost on other sites

Prologue: The Starting Point

It started as a normal day, meeting with the group, double-checking if they had missed anything, and then getting in the car for their destination. Abby couldn’t have thought of anything going wrong. She and her four other friends were en route to a private resort. A three-day short vacation, meant as a getaway and a celebration for completing their final exams. The resort was in a hidden paradise, a four-hour journey from the city, passing through mountains to reach the gorgeous beach. She was honestly looking forward to it, expecting a smooth and peaceful ride. Not until her friends decided it was too peaceful anyway.

‘The sunrise looks so pretty’ she thought as she looked out the window, admiring the colors that were being painted in the sky like a canvas. Drowning the irritating voices that are getting louder and louder with each passing second. Elly, who was today’s designated driver, was exchanging heated words with Jazz, the girl in the shotgun. Destiny, ever the pacifist, is trying to mediate between the two while Eve contributes to the argument through the various expressions she makes on her face.

Now, normally, Abby would’ve taken this opportunity to distract them. Takes their attention away from each other through the long ramblings of her love for Rafayel and his tragic lore with MC in the game that they all play, but she remains silent. 

Their group is tight-knit, friendship going way back since their junior high school years. Abby, Jazz, and Destiny even have known each other since childhood. Eve, a younger distant relative of Jazz, was later introduced to the trio with Elly joining them when they met her in junior high. 

With a friendship lasting that long, it is common for fights to happen. Verbal disputes and even insults are being thrown and said sometimes. They do share similarities but that does not mean that they don’t have different opinions on certain matters (No Eve, matcha does not taste like grass!). But they always come out with a stronger bond, understanding that their differences and similarities are what makes them close and connect.

This fight, however, is different, it feels different. Or maybe it was just Abby and her sensitive feelings. She may or may not have been holding a silent grudge against the four before this trip. In typical Abby fashion, she kept her feelings in and just brushed them aside, instead trying to look forward to the vacation they planned.

Elly and Jazz are still going at each other and Eve, who has had enough of their yelling finally snaps. “Gosh, can you two put it to rest already? Your voices are grating my ears!” She whines and Abby hears Destiny sighing and softly muttering her agreement. 

“I’m trying to end it but Elly won’t just shut up!” Jazz grumbles. Elly gives her a nasty glare for that “Oh, of course, I’m so sorry you can’t understand the point, as always” She quips back making Jazz roll her eyes and they continue their fight.

Not having any of it, Eve turns to Abby, pouting to voice her complaints “Can you believe the two of them? Abby, say something!”  Abby just sighs “I don’t know, do I have to?” 

That earns a raised brow from Eve “Well, aren’t you usually the one who butts in to bring attention back to yourself?” This was said not in a malicious way, Abby is aware of that. That is just how Eve acts and she gets along well with the other because they are similar in that aspect – always saying biting words to tease but never to intentionally hurt. Their friends are used to them being like that. However, with the tension brewing between the five, Abby snapped.

“What? So are you implying I’m an attention-seeking bitch now? Is that how you all see me? Why you were all avoiding me these past few days? If you are all so tired of my attention-seeking ass then you should’ve just left and never invited me with you all for this trip in the first place!” 

Silence…

Realizing her outburst, Abby immediately shuts her mouth. ‘I overreacted’ She can feel the guilt bubbling inside of her chest. She let her emotions win again, always spouting words without thinking first, again. Shocked eyes of all four, even Elly and Jazz who stopped arguing after hearing her shout, turn to her. Avoiding eye contact, an apology at the tip of her tongue but she can’t seem to spit it out. Her pride won’t allow her.

‘Was she wrong though? Weren’t they leaving her out, always discussing things when they thought she wasn’t there?’ She can hear her mind tell her. Pretending to look at her phone, she remembers the comments that she always hear from others. 

“You can be a bit too much sometimes”

“Do you feel the need to insert yourself in the conversation? We’re not asking for your opinion here”

“You talk too much, I’m tired of listening”

Was that the case with this too? Were they getting tired of her too? Did they realize that they can never put up with her overbearing attitude too? 

Abby was pulled back from her thoughts when she felt her phone vibrate. “Samara calling” her screen displays. It was from her cousin. She did not feel like answering so she ignored the call. It was not the right time to answer with the kind of atmosphere she created anyway. 

The faintest touch of a hand was felt, followed by a voice “What? Abby no, that’s not it” It was Destiny, her tone that was like calming a child but laced with bewilderment. Abby can feel the familiar sting in her eyes, not even sure why she just had to say those things when she should’ve just shut up. Slowing down her breathing, she compels herself not to let the beginning of tears show.

The car is still driving, and Abby finally meets the gazes of her friends. She makes eye contact with Elly through the rearview mirror, smiling softly and about to open her mouth to maybe say a joke to dispel the awkwardness until the view ahead catches Abby’s attention. There was a sharp turn that Elly and Jazz still had not noticed, focused on what was going on at the back.  They were driving straight to the cliffside. Following her line of sight, Destiny sees what situation they are in and yells “Elly! Cliff!” 

As if doused suddenly with cold water, Elly’s eyes widened, snapping her head back to look ahead. Jazz did the same and sucked in a sharp exhale, Abby can feel Eve’s hands grip hers as they witness Elly’s futile attempt to avoid their impending doom.

The car crashes into the barricades, the speed having enough force to break it as the vehicle continues until it falls. The crash was heard even kilometers away, startling resting birds and causing them to fly away. Inside the wreck, Abby who was unable to move caught the final glimpse of her friends, bloodied, and her vibrating phone. The cracked screen displays Samara’s contact again. Hurt and feeling so miserable, Abby’s vision blurred, “Is this it?” she closed her eyes and finally allowed herself to succumb to the darkness.

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – 

It all played out like scenes in a movie, quick and brief.

Abby can be seen chilling and lying down on her bed. Scrolling through the short YouTube videos on her phone, occasionally giggling and pausing to comment or like. After moving on from a short compilation of the ‘Cats getting angry cutely’ video, she was stopped by an ad and was greeted by a 3D handsome man, black-haired with glasses in a first-person point of view.

“Ah, it’s this game again.”

Taking a screenshot, she opened her and her friends’ group chat and sent the picture.

@Abigail Elsher

[Sent image]  This game has been popping up all over my social media. Should I just try it?

@Jasmine Blair

Oh, me too… Love and Deepspace right?

@Evelyn Blair

The quality looks great

@Destiny Levine

I am tempted to download it right now I heard great reviews about it

@Abigail Elsher 

Ok, I’m downloading it You all should too! @Amalia Keller stop pretending you’re not here! I can see you reading our chats [angry emoji]

@Amalia Keller

[Sent like]

@Evelyn Blair

Will download it too!

@Jasmine Blair

Yeah, sounds fun

@Destiny Levine

If you all are going to play, then I’m playing too.

– – – – – – – – – – – – – –  

Abby stops herself from giggling as she screenshots the interaction between her MC and the purple-haired diva in the game. “Excuse me??!! Why did this fine specimen rizz me, just to walk away without even letting me finish what I was going to say?!” she sighed dramatically but then added, “That was hot, do it again sir.”

Elly just rolled her eyes at what she just witnessed

– – – – – – – – – – – – – –

@Jasmine Blair

I call dibs on the Doctor. His representative flower is also Jasmine Meant to be fr [heart pierced emoji] Looks cold but is a softie trope >>>

@Evelyn Blair

You do you Jazz, however… WHY THE HECK IS CALEB NOT A LOVE INTEREST??!!

– – – – – – – – – – – – – –

@Destiny Levine

Oh my gosh, Xavier is so… [heart eyes emoji] Why isn’t he real?

@Abigail Elsher

I have asked this question every day since meeting Rafayel

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – –

All eyes are on Eve, as she is none the wiser, and continues to play the game. The girls were already all aware of what was going to happen in this chapter. Knowing how attached Eve became to dear gege, the girls were all looking forward to her reaction. 

Jazz can be seen sneakingly trying to prepare the camera. Making sure what was going to happen would be caught on tape. The others; Abby, Elly, and Destiny were acting nonchalantly but were greatly observing. They were not going to miss anything.

A few seconds later and then…

“WHAT THE FUCK”

Eve’s iPad gets thrown and a chorus of laughter rang across the room.

“THEY DID NOT JUST KILL HIM” Eve’s devastation continues much to the amusement of the other girls. Caleb just exploded with grandma in chapter 4 of the main story and Eve’s reaction did not disappoint

“BOOM shakalaka I guess” Abby snorts and the others laugh harder, Eve just throws a pillow at her face.

– – – – – – – – – – – – – 

@Amelia Keller

[Sent image]

@Destiny Levine

Oh wow… Are all affinity levels for the 3 the same?

@Amelia Keller

Unfortunately, I don’t have a favorite.

@Abigail Elsher

She’s playing for the plot and lore atp

@Jasmine Blair

Well, the story is good

@Evelyn Blair

How is it good when they let Caleb explode?

@Jasmine Blair

[ROFL gif] Ah yes, that happened

@Amelia Keller

I will keep playing, maybe they will add more characters

@Destiny Levine

Maybe they will Why else is there a ‘to be announced’ notif in the LI’s display

@Evlelyn Blair

Will save for Caleb then #HeIsAlive

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – 

Jazz was startled when Abby suddenly screamed.

“Love and DeepSpace? The fuck, it is love and depression!” 

With eyes that scream ‘???’, Jazz asks her “What happened?” to which Abby turns to her, getting a little misty-eyed “Just finished Raf’s standard myth.”

“Oh…” She answers, but then remembers something “I just unlocked Zayne’s, should I be scared?” 

With a little nod, Abby pats her shoulders softly as if to comfort her muttering ‘Good luck.’

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – 

@Jasmine Blair

WTF Why is his myth this sad??! [crying emoji]

@Evelyn Blair

I’m gonna hurt you more Jazz, look at your name

@Jasmine Blair

STOP REMINDING ME I’m gonna ugly sob every time I hear someone calling me by my full name [crying gif]

@Abigail Elsher

[Sent image] [Sent image] [Sent image]

@Jasmine Blair

ABBY WTF STOP SENDING ME PICTURES OF JASMINE FLOWERS

@Destiny Levine 

[crying laughing emoji]

@Amelia Keller

She’s crashing out, @Abigail Elsher send more

@Evelyn Blair

HAHAHAHAHAHAHA

– – – – – – – – – – – – – 

@Evelyn Blair

[Sent image] Look! A star! @Destiny Levine can’t relate since her star left her…

@Destiny Levine

EVE WHEN I CATCH YOU [angry gif]

@Jasmine Blair

Now Eve, that’s just foul [laughing emoji]

@Destiny Levine

[Sent image] At least mine did not explode

@Amelia Keller

Oooh burn

@Abigail Elsher

Yeah, Caleb did burn

@Evelyn Blair

I HATE ALL OF YOU!!! [angry stomping gif] MY MAN IS STILL ALIVE TRUST!!!!

@Destiny Levine

Ok #cope

– – – – – – – – – – – – – 

Abby raised a brow when she noticed Elly tagging her in their group chat. Looking at her professor and then back at her phone, she decided to see what it was about.

@Amelia Keller

[sent video link] Hey @Abigail Elsher wake up

Abby catches herself before she screams, reminding herself that she is in class. Giggling, her fingers fly across the screen to type out a quick but excited reply.

@Abigail Elsher

OMG, NEW COMPANION??! Sea God Rafayel!!! [flying money emoji]

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – 

@Destiny Levine

I now understand why I have multiple holes. One for Xavier and one for Lumiere

@Evelyn Blair

Wild… But go off queen

– – – – – – – – – – – – 

@Jasmine Blair

[Sent image] I got him!!  Master of Fate Zayne, the man that you are

@Amelia Keller

Congratss! Now we wait for the crash out after she finishes the story because of the angst

– – – – – – – – – – – – –

They were all in Eve’s living room, watching the live stream for Love and Deepspace’s 2.0

“Oh? A new love interest?” Destiny points out

“I will stay loyal to fishie” Abby clutches her chest as if making a vow. Jazz nods, agreeing with her “The doctor has a tight grip on my heart I fear” Then Destiny also joins “My star is still the brightest for me”

Eve, still bitter with the unfairness of it all, pouts “Well! I’m still waiting for Caleb!” this caused the three childhood friends to giggle at the youngest’s antics.

“He’s hot though” All of them snapped their heads at where the voice came from, Elly was acting as if nothing was different but they could see how interested she was in the new character.

– – – – – – – – – – – – – 

@Jasmine Blair

Just finished long awaited revelry Can I just say? @Amelia Keller we found your man

@Amelia Keller

Found my man indeed [blushing emoji] [sent image]

@Abigail Elsher

How tf did you reach level 60 in affinity already?! Didn’t he just get released yesterday???

@Amelia Keller

I had so many diamonds saved up And I somehow binged listening to his tender moments, secret times, bonds, etc. To the point, I need more content

@Destiny Levine

She fell hard for him, got it

@Evelyn Blair

Must be nice #StillWaiting4Caleb

– – – – – – – – – – – – – 

It was the release of the first quad banner and the girls were in Abby’s room. Eve was not pulling as she was saving her diamonds, Destiny was grinding since she didn’t have enough and Elly was grinning cause she already won. 

In the bed, Jazz and Abby are still wishing. The latter let out a frustrated scream a few minutes later followed by the sound of real cash being paid. “You expensive fishie” Abby grumbles as she finally gets Rafayel’s card after losing on her 50/50.

Jazz sighs as she sees the animation of a blue tail displayed on her screen “The fish always goes home to me… The doctor on the other hand”

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – –

@Amelia Keller

Oh my… [sent video link] He’s a dragon? After all the theories of him being Hades? Not complaining though

@Evelyn Blair

Ooooh Sylus’ limited myth! Finally!!

– – – – – – – – – – – – –

@Abigail Elsher

Got spoiled, @Amelia Keller are you ok?

@Amelia Keller

[crying gif] THAT DAMN PAPER COMPANY

@Destiny Levine

“My dragon is gone” emotional damage

@Jasmine Blair

Love and Depression strikes again

@Amelia Keller

[crying emoji]

– – – – – – – – – – – – – 

Eve slams the door open. A big grin on her face as she goes to the table where her friends are seated. Proudly showing the announcement poster of Love and Deepspace 3.0 on their Facebook page. “Caleb is baaaaacccckkk” she excitedly yells.

The four just sighed and smiled at her “Congrats, your apple is alive” Jazz softly patted her relative’s head. 

“I’m gonna get all his cards, I have waited for this very moment!”

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – –

@Abigail Elsher

The trailer just dropped @Evelyn Blair

@Evelyn Blair

HE’S YANDERE???!!! EVEN BETTER

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – 

@Jasmine Blair

[sent image] I’m afraid she’s down bad

@Abigail Elsher

HELP HAHAHAHAHA

@Destiny Levine

Eve, why the hell are you crying while holding an apple?

@Jasmine Blair

She just finished Caleb’s myth

@Amelia Keller

Apple is the only merch she can afford

@Destiny Levine

[LOL gif]

– – – – – – – – – – – – – 

The five were all gathered in Destiny’s room. All are on their gadgets playing.

“I just noticed, we are all friends but each of us main a different love interest in this game. It’s kinda funny.” Evelyn breaks the silence and Destiny giggles “Just shows how different our types are in men.” She answered.

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – 

“Samara says she will give this game a chance.” Abby grins while sipping her drink. Now, all five are in a cafe. 

“Nice, I’m curious who she will main” Jasmine replies, amusement evident in her eyes. Abby has been whining about Love and Deepspace to her cousin to persuade her. After months, it seems that she has finally gotten the other to play.

Eve giggles. “Considering her personality, I can’t see your cousin falling for any of the current roster of LI’s. Maybe she will devote herself to the future upcoming love interest.”

“Now that would be comical” Amelia, or who they call Elly, nods. Stirring her coffee, she then adds “One of us for each love interest it seems.”

– – – – – – – – – – – – – – – – 

Maybe it’s because of the heavy regret she felt. Of not being able to reconcile with her friends before their demise. Abby finds herself recalling their group’s antics while playing their favorite game. The happiest that they have been together. All of the silly chats, the get-togethers, the chaos. She recalls it in the final moments of her consciousness and then it abruptly stops and she feels herself being surrounded by light.

Suddenly, she opened her eyes. Her surroundings were in a blur and her thoughts were in disarray. Confusion, relief, and anguish all mix up and fill her chest, confusing her as she gets used to the thought that she can breathe. 

She is alive

Clutching her still-aching forehead, Abby mutters a curse, gripping what she thinks is a handle to stabilize herself.

Oh gosh she is alive

The cool sensation of the metal spreads through her fingertips and she registers the cold air that wraps around her. Abby is ok, she is well and not hurt but that shouldn’t be the case. She definitely experienced dying. The phantom remnants of fear are still fresh from her mind as gravity pulled the car they were in straight down. 

So why the fuck is she alive?

Her ears adjust and she hears sounds, some sort of announcement that echoes. Her brain catches words but with how muddled she feels, it just fails to discern and piece together the information it is receiving.

“ …. now ha…. new hunters….. all…. toda..” The voice is static, the announcement coming from the public address system. It continues until it gets clearer. Then she hears a ding.

Instinctively she moves forward, now into a room devoid of light. 

She is alone, where are her friends?

“But before we go, please enjoy the gift we received……. years ago….”

Abby’s vision clears and she realizes that she is being scanned, the door where she came from closing shut. The announcement continues in the background, understands a little bit of what is being said but some words are still lost on her.

“.... these electro…. Traversed time and space a miracle of…” She heard this before, but where?

Abby compels herself to observe her environment, completely giving up on listening. All around her are high-technology, like she is in a completely advanced civilization. Squinting her eyes, she read the words that appeared before her.

“Heading to new recruit registration center.”

Then she felt the platform she was on shake and move upwards, she was on an elevator. Brightness again filled her eyesight, the view that greets her behind the glass is somewhat familiar. With tall buildings, all with futuristic designs, and cars lined up on the highway.

Abby again looks around, looking for her friends. 

‘We were together, why are they not here?’

She is visibly panicking. Bouncing on her feet and immediately bolted out once the elevator opened. Running straight into the door at the end of the singular hallway. 

With a slam, Abby enters the room. Frantically looking around, meeting with pairs of eyes that are staring back at her. Hoping to find familiar faces amidst the crowd. She stops as she finds one. However, it was not what Abby was expecting. 

It’s a familiar face, that’s for sure, but it’s a familiar face that she still hasn’t met in real life. With big brown eyes and a bob cut that frames her face. There was no mistaking who she is. It just made Abby panic more.

That is not one of her friends, staring back at her is a character that Abby is endeared with. Someone that she was close to in the game and that fact is fucking her up.

Why the hell is Tara from Love and Deepspace in front of her?

[justagalwhowrites]

WIP Wednesday

Thank you for the tags, @beardedjoel and @sawymredfox!!

I've got a few things in process at the moment. Snippets from all three (HELP) below the cut!

Halcyon - Joel and Goldie are finally happy and I love them so much!

Unlike your last book, Joel had read this one early. You’d shared it with him not long after the two of you got together, the ending uncertain in that version.  “I think I’m going to change the second half,” you said as the two of you sat on his couch, your feet on his lap and your manuscript in his hands. “It just doesn’t… I dunno. It doesn’t feel right.”  “I’ll leave that to you, baby,” he’d said, giving the arch of your foot a squeeze. “But I thought it was incredible. Really.”  You’d beamed at that, damn near glowing. But you had rewritten the second half and Joel loved it even more then. You took the book from something that was full of pain and longing with an uncertain ending into a journey alongside the characters as they found their way through all that pain to reach something beautiful at the end.  Joel didn’t know much about books but he knew how the future looked with you in it, how right things seemed now, and he treasured the physical manifestation of the fact that you felt the same. 

Yearling AU - Bambi is out at a bar. I wonder who she might run into there 👀

“You said you were going to dress up!” Marisa said as you went in to hug her and give her a peck on the cheek. “What the fuck?”  “I’m dressed up!” You said, defensive.  “No you’re not,” Julie said, gesturing at you with her beer bottle. “That is not dressed up.”  “Excuse you,” you said. “I’ll have you know that this -“ you gestured to your button down shirt “was ironed today. And these jeans are clean AND my boots have never seen the inside of a barn. I’m dressed up.”  “You have dresses,” Marisa said, her eyes narrowed. “I know you have dresses. I’ve seen you wear dresses.”  “That’s because I was trying to fuck you,” you said, taking your seat across from her. “I only wear dresses when I’m trying to seduce someone and ain’t no one here I’m trying to jump into bed with so ain’t much point in wearing a dress now, is there?”  “You could seduce me,” Julie said, waggling her eyebrows at you.  “I am not going to try to get my ex-girlfriend’s girlfriend into bed,” you said, reaching out and taking Marisa’s beer from in front of her and taking a sip while ignoring her righteous indignation. You winked at her. “Sorry to disappoint.” 

This started based on a post that @cavillscurls made on Twitter that @chippedowlmug sent to me and I got the brain rot so this will come along soon! Likely a long one shot or short series.

“Joel!” Tommy had waved him over that day. “C’mere, someone I want you to meet.”  His brother introduced you as though you were just another person, not the love of his life just sitting there waiting for him to show up.  “Hi,” you said brightly, holding out your hand. “Good to meet you! I think Tommy’s done nothing but talk about his big brother for the last few months, it’s nice to put a face to the name.”  “Well, my brother’s full of shit,” Joel said. “Don’t trust a thing he says.”  “Damn,” you smiled, taking a sip of your drink. “He said such good things, too.” 

NP tags: @burntheedges @gutsby @whocaresstillthelouvre @mysticnightmarewrites @joelsdagger

[gideonisms]

It took me 5 days to read nona in my defense I was going through Circumstances and experiencing Events but that is also an insane speed for me. I made htn last a couple of weeks. when those auditory processing issues work in my favor (can listen to book longer)

[blazingblorbos]

The last 20 seconds of this trailer have me in the strongest chokehold

[martianbugsbunny]

I love when the hero chooses their loved one over the world, like to hell with saving everything if you can't be part of it, but I also love when the villain chooses their loved one over the world, like to hell with destroying everything if you have to go down with it

[naomiknight-17]

A wild thing happened today

I was out with friends and their 6-month-old baby, and we drove to a park to go for a walk. As we were getting ready to leave the car my friend is suddenly like "Oh my god there's a bee in the car right near the baby!"

And I'm like, oh, I'm not afraid of bees. I'll deal with this

So I get out and open the door next to the baby's car seat, and my friend points out the insect in question.

That is not a bee. That is a wasp.

But, you know, in for a penny, in for a pound

So I put my hand in front of where the wasp is crawling and, without thinking, I start talking to it like

"C'mere buddy, climb up on my finger, I'm not gonna hurt you"

And it fucking DID

It CLIMBED ONTO MY FINGER

I slowly backed away from the car and the wasp flew off outside harmlessly and as it did I got the hugest adrenaline rush because

I AM FUCKING ALLERGIC TO WASPS WHAT THE FUCK WAS I DOING

[the-monkey-ruler]

would you say macaque is something like a necessary evil in the novel?

I would say you are talking about the Six Eared Macaque right? There are a few Macaques in the story. I mean I wouldn't really say he is "necessary" as that isn't really the role he plays within the novel.

When I think "necessary evil" I think more like a force in society that is kept in order to keep the peace or to preserve other social forces that are considered more important to keep than to lose. A necessary evil is an evil that someone believes must be done or accepted because it is necessary to achieve a better outcome—especially because possible alternative courses of action or inaction are expected to be worse.

Which I do not believe the Six-Eared Macaque plays at all.

He is to play the role of the mirror to Sun Wukong. He is supposed to represent the absolute worse of what Wukong is capable of, not really being the opposite of Wukong but rather more of a foil to show Wukong what he could have been (I actually think another great foil character is Erlang Shen for different reasons). A version of Wukong that if he continued to be a warlord, continued to kill without regard for the value of life or consequences that the would turn into him.

The Six-Eared Macaque is not given a backstory so it's hard to say if they have similar backgrounds but rather it is that they are the same species and have the same drive that Wukong had at the start of the novel. Both being of immense power and, like Wukong, The Six Earred Macaque's greatest desire was to get fame and glory and to be recognized for it, despite the consequences.

Personally I believe that the Six-Eared Macaque was inspired by the Buddist saing “The dharma is not to be transmitted to the sixth ear" which means that there isn't a third person around to easdrop, usually between student and teacher. This is only used once when Wukong was speaking with Master Puti and this is where I think that the Six Earred Macaque learned the same skill that Wukong did.

Of course, this also means that he doesn't have a complete understanding. He would always be slightly off with his own teachings, always a step behind, and only be able to imitate what they were eavesdropping on as they were never told directly.

Kind of like how Wukong is supposed to be a master of transformation when he fought Erlang Shen and still lost the SIx Earred Macaque is supposed to discern and have knowledge but he is still just eavesdropping. He is never going to have the real thing.

Wukong is meant to represent Nothingness or emptiness, literally in his name meaning "Monkey Awakened to Emptiness" and how he and the Six Earred Macaque are meant to be of one mind but they are "two mind" that are fighting each other. One being one's natural impulsive thoughts and the other is the self-control people practice to think ahead. They are both inside a person's mind but only one can have full control of the body so to speak. I think a good western example of this would be like Ego vs ID but please don't take that as a one-to-one, it's not!

It is connected to how Wukong is the mind monkey and in order for him to reach his namesake that state of overcoming uncontrollable thought he needs to fight the worst version of himself, which is what I think the Six-Eared Macaque is supposed to represent. This actually goes with how I think Wukong and his connection with Bailong being the Horse of Will show how Wukong has gradually started to overcome his own thoughts and practice self-control though his dedicated willpower. (Bailong is an important allegory yet again.)

Long story short I think that the Six-Eared Macaque is to more represents Wukong's character growth. Rather than be a "necessary evil" he is another milestone to show that Wukong is about to look at the worst traits of himself and through fighting himself and wrestling with who he is, he is able to come to accept himself as well... and by defeating his doppelganger he shows that after battling himself he comes out the victor. Him moving on and changing throughout the journey shows him to be stronger and more sure of himself both mentally and spiritually.

[moonstandardtime]

i want to put link in isat. im sure hed do fine. the heros spirit endures

[seagull-scribbles]

Some requests of the Mutant variety⚠️

Also, with this post we have hit a milestone :)

[sharkieboi]

just finished the Broken Earth trilogy and ngl I’m never gonna be the same

[im2tired4usernames]

Ugh I was excited for today until I found out I'd have to spend it with people that actively make me hate being alive hate the future and drain me off all energy physically mentally spiritually like a vampire I can't stand to be around her she is the definition of stupidity and even then that's generous as fuck this bitch has filled her brain with so much garbage I watch her brain cells die at alarming rates every single time she uses her vocal cords her giggles make me want to jam a sewing needle into my ear repeatedly so I can never have to hear it again its a friendly reminder that my parents decisions this time my dad's constantly makes me want to die

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

lots of vulnerability in posting this bc i don't think i look good like ever at all anymore unless i'm using filters and i think i learned a valuable and very sad lesson that, in using filters and never saving pictures of my actual face without them, i am going to continue to forget what i actually look like and hate my actual face more in return whenever it doesn't look how i expect/want it to. and i will never have the youth of 17 back. that's just not how i look anymore. and barring any weight loss or skincare i may do to marginally "improve" how i look in MY OWN eyes, this is how i will look for the rest of my life, only older and older every year. i doubt i'll ever stop feeling like i need to be attractive to be worthy of existing and will continue to occasionally gasp in horror when i unexpectedly see my own reflection BUT i also think i need to get with the program and stop caring so much and see that every year i grow older is simply a miracle that i'm squandering by wasting time hoping and pretending i'll morph into a "better looking" person. also i literally look. fine