#you are harming yourself in the process.

[stil-lindigo]

lead balloon (the tumblr post that saved me)

if this comic resonated with you, it would mean the world to me if you donated to this palestinian family's escape fund.

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no creative notes because this isn't that kind of comic.

I know I don’t owe any of you anything but I still felt compelled to write about my long term absence. And I feel far enough away from the dangerous spot I was in to be able to make this comic. I have a therapist now, and she agreed that making this could be a very cathartic gesture, and the start of properly leaving these thoughts behind me. I am still, at seemingly random times, blindsided by fleeting desires to kill myself. They’re always passing urges, but it’s disarming, and uncomfortable. I worry sometimes that my brain’s spent so long thinking only about suicide that it’s forgotten how to think about anything else. Like, now that I've opened that door for myself, I'll never be able to fully shut it again. But I’m trying my best to encourage my mind in other directions. We'll see how that goes.

I am still donating all proceeds from my store to Palestinian causes. So far, I've donated over $15K, not including donations coming from my own pocket or the fundraising streams which jointly raised around $10K. In the time since I made my initial post about where this money would be going, the focus has shifted from aid organisations to directly donating to escape funds.

If you'd like to do the same, you can look at Operation Olive Branch, which hosts hundreds of Palestinian escape funds or donate to Safebow, which has helped facilitate the safe crossing and securing of important medical procedures for over 150 at-risk palestinians since the beginning of the genocide.

[danothan]

tough pill i have to swallow is realizing that “getting better” doesn’t mean “getting to do more things,” getting better for me means taking better initiative in protecting myself. and THAT means making sure i do LESS things

[gxlden-angels]

do you have any thoughts on the story of abraham and isaac? my parents talk about it and praise abraham for being willing to kill his son which..... scares me to say the least, and i'd love to hear your perspective as someone who seems more well-adjusted

Where I am now, it disgusts me more than anything. The interpretation of "I'm willing to sacrifice your life if I was told to" feels like the step before "I put you into this world and I can take you out of it." It's entitlement to a child, who is an independent individual, just because they are dependent on you for survival. I prefer the interpretation of understanding the actions you're taking and the reasons why (like how there's multiple religions that don't eat pork because it was so unsafe to eat at the time), especially if it's at someone else's expense.

Where I was in the thick of it all, it gave me morbid comfort that scares me now. I had fantasies of being a martyr for the church and the idea of being the next Isaac was just so appealing. Being a hand-selected sacrifice chosen by the Good Lord Himself? Sign me the fuck up, babey!

I think if I admitted that to my family, they'd be horrified.

It's another one of those stories or beliefs where I think the majority of christians just regurgitate what they've heard. It's a point of pride and devotion, but there's no personal reflection or cross-cultural awareness of it. Lean not unto your own understanding and whatnot. It's the potential that scares me the most, like the Quiverfull movement with the Duggars or Turpins. I'm sure there's stories now, but I can't remember them off the top of my head

(Also I will be telling my therapist someone on Tumblr called me "more well-adjusted" thank you anon)

[caffeinatedopossum]

"I feel like the abuse I went through wasn't bad enough :( I don't even remember it"

Yeah so... are you prepared to hear information that could potentially hurt you

[fellhellion]

been chewing on my Yukiko SLink thoughts for literal weeks and while I’m torn on a lot of elements, I think my biggest Thing about its central conflict is the way Yukiko is never actually afforded an opportunity open up about and to work through her feelings about taking over the inn with said community.

[miss-morland]

dennis in dtamhd is so bpd recovery coded i feel so much about it <333333

[spacey-jazz]

I think a lot of people need to accept that even though you may be an advocate for mental health and the ugliest sides of it

One point or another you’ve probably made someone feel pretty crappy about their struggles, about their mannerisms

And I don’t mean the kind people use as an excuse to brush off problematic behaviour, no-

I mean in the sense that someone might do something ‘weird’- in your eyes, like they can’t brush their teeth because tooth brushes overstimulate them, or they try to match you and your friends’ energy when it comes to jokes, they struggle to bathe themselves and use 2 in 1 because it’s easier, they’ve fixated on the same thing for years, they can’t hold conversations well, or they have a hard time being empathetic.

Or even maybe they’re super energetic without a filter and will do wild things that make you ‘cringe’- not in an offensive sense but more like they’ll get loud and scream, they’ll make a scene by accident because they’re so excited about something and they can’t help it-

One way or another

You’ve judged someone for these behaviours, maybe even subtly to their face, you’ve talked about them behind their backs intentionally or not, you’ve made someone feel out of place.

And part of being a mental health advocate is accepting that you yourself aren’t perfect and that you’re also working on yourself, and that you catch these behaviours

[motoroil-recs]

I suppose this counts as a kinfession. I just wanted to state how sometimes it gets really frustrating to see sentients who are kin with a not binary character that uses they/them (see Kris from Deltarune) and them then using he/him. I get that it is their own memories and literally them, but I suppose after a while it feels like some sort of erasure to me? I hope that makes sense, and if anybody could explain more to make me more comfortable with this specific thing, that would be lovely as well. I always want to keep an open mind.

🏎️‼️

[mymitochondriaforpresident]

Fuck you Young Royals for forcing me to go through this painful process while patient notes keep piling.

I hate you. Except I don’t. ❤️‍🩹

[viksalos]

i just used SAVED! as a teaching tool with somebody for helping them heal from autistic complex trauma lol

[glittertimes]

Maybe I am just a Taurus but having a moral backbone is literally so easy!

People who use their trauma or marginalized identities to justify the harm they cause make me so mad like I have crazy CPTSD and I can barely leave my house some days. And yeah all of us mess up and harm people sometimes but not being a shitty person is literally so easy!

[thedragonsfate]

since I'm thinking abt it, I feel like it's always a good time for the reminder that your kidneys main function is to filter your blood to balance your body's fluids and remove waste to be released out of your body in your urine

if your kidneys are functioning properly then they are already doing any "cleansing of toxins" your system may need automatically all of the time, just like they're doing in the bodies of countless other species

The human body is very successful at surviving and has evolved to do so!! it's a very cool thing the way your body works to support your everyday life in ways that can pretty much eliminate the need to manually enact basic survival functions like the beating of your heart or the filtering of waste harmful to your body!

I guess I just wanna say like. unless you truly have kidney disease or other organ failures/disfunctions - in which case definitely do seek medical intervention - you can trust your body to take care of that for you

don't let anybody shame you into thinking you should be out here doing cleanses and paying significant money to try to hack into what your body is already doing for you naturally,

and try not to let human intelligence and ego undermine the success of a body plan that has been successful for vertebrates for at LEAST tens of millions of years

[battle-subway-ghost]

//Response to the PSA thing (your tags)

//No someone did that, I saw it, I unfollowed the person because of it because it was starting to make me intensely uncomfy how often they pounced on real issues while rping- (I rp to relax not talk about what's going on in the world-)

// Originally I wasn’t gonna respond to this until I reread it and saw that this isn’t a one time thing. Oh. Oh….

I don’t wanna like- publicly shame this person or anything, from what I’ve heard privately they’re coming from a place of concern and care for the topic(s) at hand!! I can understand that. But also there’s a time and a place for this… and funny Pokémon roleplay is absolutely not the place.

I hope this can be a learning experience for everyone involved if anything else? Nobody go out and harass this person- they don’t deserve that kind of malice over this.

[caffeinatedopossum]

Empathy is actually extremely over rated imo

Like if we go off of the definition that empathy means the ability to feel what other people are feeling, that doesn't equate to morally upright. You could easily experience empathy deeply and still only care about yourself- such as the type of person who would tell you "It's painful for me to watch you like this" in an effort to shut you up when you're suffering. They may genuinely feel pain seeing you in pain but it doesn't make them care about you.

[clownattack]

sorry lol someone just got SO CLOSE to a proper apology and then they fucked it up (as always) by closing it up with something that makes it backhanded and just proves the points i made b4 oops NVM after actually reading it instead of skimming its just the same old deflecting bs ive seen before

[fallout-lou-begas]

IMPORTANT ADVICE FOR NEWLY OUT TRANS GIRLS

If anybody tries to isolate you, cut you off from other friends, or convince you that they are the only person you can trust or who can be capable of loving you, run extremely far away in the other direction

While transition is a process that takes place over time, it is so important that you love yourself for who you are in the present. You are lovable now; there's only harm in believing otherwise or deferring your happiness until you feel like you've "earned" it

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