#yes this was rushed and is kinda short and might be a little bad but it felt necessary

[love-strike]

sugarcoat ⭐️ boo seungkwan

PAIRING: boo seungkwan / afab reader WORD COUNT: 2k RATING: 18+ (explicit smut)

Seungkwan is sickeningly sweet.

warnings under the cut ⋆˚☆˖°

SMUT WARNINGS: seungkwan is a sub!, pet names (baby, baby boy, good boy, sweetie), a tiny bit of degradation, making out, oral (m. and f. receiving), face sitting, ass eating /runs away/, unprotected sex, creampie

✉ i am lowkey embarrassed to publish this but its self indulgent so whatever okay...! as always, hoping at least one other person enjoys this :o)

Tick, tock. Tick, tock.

You watch the clock on the wall pass through the seconds as you sit and wait. The crisp white bedsheets underneath you feel cool against your skin.

A sudden but quiet knock on the door makes you jump a bit, immediately hopping off of the bed to open it. You slowly crack the door open and peek through the space.

“Hi baby,” you greet your boyfriend with a grin. Seungkwan steps toward you and pulls you into a hug, not even bothering to take his face mask off. You laugh to yourself and pat him on his head.

Once he pulls back, you slip his mask off and plant a quick kiss on his lips. You take a moment to look at him. His eyes are lidded, and his cheeks are prettily flushed.

“’m tired,” he tells you with a pout that makes you coo. You feel the urge to wrap him in a blanket and cuddle him until he passes out.

“Let’s go to sleep, okay?” you take his hand and start to lead him to the bed. “Do you wanna shower first?”

“No,” he replies with a shake of his head. “Already showered after the performance.”

He sits down on the bed next to you as you watch him curiously. Your thumb strokes along his knuckles, and you swear that you can see his cheeks flush even more pink.

“I don’t want to sleep,” he mumbles suddenly and looks at you. “I need you.”

You swallow at his words, your eyes drawn to how his tongue flicks out to wet his lips.

“Need me?” you ask, wanting him to say more. The dynamic between you and Seungkwan flip flops regularly, and you can always tell when he wants to be taken care of. He turns timid and his temper seems to diminish drastically.

“You know what I’m saying,” he replies with a glare away from you. You hum, your hand slowly moving from his hand and up his arm. His eyes are now locked on the movement of your hand as he stays still.

“You’re so slow,” Seungkwan tells you with a nearly inaudible scoff. Yet, he stays still — waiting for you to do all the work. His attitude makes your insides flare, igniting a small urge to absolutely ruin him.

“Okay,” you reply, complacency clear in your tone. Once he realizes that you’ll do what he wants, you feel the tension in the room rise. You get a closer look at his face; he still has traces of glittery eye makeup and smudged eyeliner on.

You lean forward, capturing his lips in a deep kiss. Your fingers wrap around his wrist, squeezing ever so slightly. He moans into your mouth at the simple touch. After a few moments of kissing, he pulls back with hitched breath.

“Undress me,” he tells you, his dark eyes shining. The contradiction between his neediness and demanding words makes your pussy clench around nothing. You shift your attention to the t-shirt and sweats he has on.

“You look so pretty,” you whisper, almost more to yourself than him. You take the hem of his shirt in your hands and pull it upwards and over his head, tossing it to the side. The sweet scent of his shampoo invades your senses and makes your heart skip. You shed your own robe, leaving yourself totally naked.

You watch Seungkwan’s eyes flutter closed as you gently run your hand over his toned torso. His muscles tighten beneath your touch and he groans.

“Touch me more,” he urges and you bite your lip, purposely ignoring his request to instead straddle his lap and lay him down onto the bed. A surprised gasp leaves his mouth as your bodies make contact.

Once his hands timidly approach your waist, you quickly grab him by both wrists and push them down next to his head.

“Feeling like you’re in charge tonight?” you ask him with a smirk. You watch his expression shift to surprise at your words.

“You’re lucky that I actually like when you’re bossy,” you continue, playfully looking down at him. With a sudden boost of confidence, you feel Seungkwan thrust his hips up to grind against your own. You can’t deny just how sexy he looks, trying to rub against you with his hands still restrained by yours.

“I want your mouth on me, baby,” he tells you, voice still laced with a domineering tone. You know exactly what he wants.

You begin to slide down his body, eventually getting to his pants and pulling them off. Even though his wrists are no longer being held down, he keeps them in the same position. His hard cock springs out, and he moans at the sensation. You almost drool over how thick it looks.

You grasp at his thick thighs, unable to help yourself. You squeeze them, and then not so gently run your nails down the flesh. Seungkwan’s cock twitches at the feeling, betraying his pained gasp.

“Why are you always so rough?” he asks with an annoyance that makes you roll your eyes.

“Like you’re not the one constantly begging for it?” you reply, leaving a bite on his thigh. The action draws out a stilted moan from him that makes you smirk. Deciding he’s had enough, you move your hands to push his legs back.

You finally take your tongue and run it along the length of his leaking cock, drinking in the sounds that he makes. You lick up the small amount of precum beading from the head, moaning at the taste.

“Put your tongue on me,” Seungkwan suddenly orders, his breath hitching. You bite your lip, trying to hide your own eagerness.

“And lick you… where?” you ask with a false curiosity. “I already licked your cock.”

“You know where,” he replies, throwing his arm over his eyes in embarrassment. The desire to make him say more is strong, but you decide to let it go for the moment.

You flatten your tongue, running it from his sensitive hole to the end of his length. His whine is so loud that it makes your legs rub together in an effort to find some relief of your own.

“More, need more,” he whimpers, and you give him just that.

You move one hand to wrap around his throbbing cock, focusing your mouth on his hole. You begin licking while you move your hand to stroke his length. One of his hands moves down to rest on the back of your head, fingers twitching against you.

You practically lap your tongue at his sensitive spot, happily listening to him fall apart under you. His cock, almost resting on your face, twitches repeatedly in response.

Removing your hold on his erection, you place both hands on his ass and dig your fingers into the flesh. The whimper that leaves Seungkwan almost sounds like a sob.

“I love your ass so much,” you tell him, glancing at his face. He looks so fucking good like this, his head thrown back to the pillow and his whole body flushed.

“It’s so nice,” you continue, urging him to fluster even more. “I could worship you all day. You would like that, wouldn’t you baby?”

“Just s-shut up,” he replies, voice cracking. You hum, returning to tongue at his ass. After a few more minutes of eating him out, you pull back and smile at him.

“Now it’s my turn, yeah?” you say, crawling on top of him. “Lay down.”

He adjusts his body, laying completely down and resting his head back on the pillow. You settle on his chest, gently pulling his head forward to look at you.

“I’m gonna ride your face, and you’re gonna make me cum,” you tell him, watching him lick his lips. “Right, baby boy?”

Seungkwan swallows, and nods eagerly. You smile sweetly, moving your body upwards to actually sit on his face and place your pussy on his mouth.

“Mmm,” he moans and places his hands on your ass to pull you even closer. You sigh, finally getting some relief from the arousal you’ve been feeling all night. You grip his hair, beginning to rock against his face.

He practically drowns in your pussy, opening his mouth wide enough to lather you with his tongue. His constant groans vibrate against your core, intensifying your pleasure.

After getting so worked up throughout the night, you can tell your orgasm is coming quickly.

“Your tongue is so good,” you say with a moan as you throw your head back. Seungkwan closes his eyes, flicking his tongue against your sensitive clit. “Gonna cum, Kwannie!”

You swear you can feel him smirk against you, probably amused with how quickly he made you cum. Your hips stutter against him, pressing impossibly close to his mouth.

The knot in your stomach unravels, and you cum all over his face. You let out a string of curses and moans, continuing to rut against him while he sucks on your cunt.

“Oh,” you flinch after feeling a bit of sensitivity. You lift yourself off of him, settling down next to him to catch your breath. Then, your eyes wander to his stiff, throbbing cock and you feel a bolt of arousal hit you.

“You haven’t cum yet, sweetie,” you tell Seungkwan, facing him and cooing.

He gives you a dazed nod and glances away shyly.

“Bet you wanna fuck me now, hmm?”

His response is a moan so quiet that you almost don’t hear it, licking his lips to taste your remaining wetness.

“Let me fuck you,” he tells you, rolling over to position himself on top of you. His eyes stare down at you, unrelenting and confident.

You almost give in. Almost.

“Ask nicely,” you reply with an evil smile. You can feel the tip of his cock resting at your entrance — he could easily thrust inside of you right now… but you know he wants to beg.

“Need to be inside you,” he begins, the pretty blush on his cheeks returning. “Please? I-I’ve been… so good.”

You watch his bratty resolve fade, turning into need. Your hand gently caresses the side of his face, and you can practically feel him vibrating with excitement.

“Fuck me, Kwannie.”

With permission granted, Seungkwan immediately pushes inside of you, your walls twitching around him. You both moan in unison, the pleasure hitting you immediately.

“Your pussy feels so amazing,” he says with a little gasp as he begins thrusting. You catch a glance at him and your cunt throbs at the sight — his black hair plastered against his forehead with sweat, his eyebrows furrowed in concentration.

“My pretty baby,” you praise him. “You’re only good for fucking me like this, hmm?”

His eyes widen and his hips stutter inside of you before he nods shyly. You bite your lip and grin, knowing how much he secretly enjoys being picked on. Your fingers comb through his sweaty hair, pushing it back until you can see his face fully.

“I always love when you come back after a performance. You’re always so needy and cute, full of pent up energy,” you tell him with a teasing voice.

You watch his eyes flutter closed, his breath quickening. With the way his cock is throbbing, you know he’s close.

“Gonna cum already?” you ask him and he whines loudly. “Go ahead, fill me up.”

Seungkwan thrusts once more, his cock driving deep inside of you before he pauses. You feel his warm seed spill inside of you as he moans your name. He continues cumming until you can feel it overflow from your entrance.

“My good boy,” you coo and run your hand along his back. You let out a surprised giggle when he collapses on top of you.

“I’m never getting up again,” he mumbles, face smushed up against your neck. You sigh, lightly scratching your nails along his skin.

“I’m sure your company would love that,” you reply and he snorts out a laugh.

“Worth it,” Seungkwan says before settling his head next to you.

“Don’t worry, I’ll stay right here with you,” you conclude before giving him a peck on the cheek.

You listen to the clock on the wall tick away as you fall asleep with him.

♡ taglist: @fairieboos | @wheeintaer ♡

[the-roo-too]

Hi!! Can I request fluffy alphabets for Yunjin? Thank you💗

candy -> huh yunjin ver

aka the fluff alphabet

admiration (what does she absolutely adore about you)- if you are at least the tiniest bit a musical person, she deffo loves to jam out with you. will force you to try and compose with her probably, even if you only know two chords on the guitar

body (what’s her favourite body part of yours)- yunjin is a hair girlie to me, she likes to play with it—give you cute hair styles if it’s long or just put pretty charms in it if it’s short!

cuddling (how she likes to cuddle)- big spoon ☝️🤓 might fight you for it (secretly loves being the little spoon tho)

dates (what’s her ideal date)- i’m thinking binging some movies late at night (like the greatest showman) and singing your hearts out 🏳️‍🌈

emotions (how does she express her emotions around you)- girlie is an open book around you. musically gifted people are usually very connected with their emotions (and yunjin did go to music school so..)

family (does she want one)- i kinda have mixed feeling about this one. maybe later in life when you’ve both settled down? she doesn’t really give me the kids vibe tho

gifts (what about gift giving)- would absolutely compose an either short ass piece or perform a long ass opera for you and would force you to listen to it 🎀🎀

holding hands (does she like to hold hands)- yes! absolutely! also smooches your hand. i feel like yunjin carries around three different hand creams. also the type to hand you a fruit scented cream in the middle of june and say “it’s fruity, like you.”

injuries (what would she do if you got hurt)- with all due respect, she wouldn’t know what to do 😭 call chaewon? tell manager? order take out?

jokes (does she like to joke around)- yes. as i said, fruity cream, fruity you.

kisses (how does she like to kiss you)- either smooches your face or full on make out session, i don’t make the rules ✊

love (what’s her love language)- passive aggressive affection. you’re grumpy in the morning? too bad, you’re still listening to taylor swift’s whole discography with her

memory (what’s her favourite memory together)- meeting you for the first time! say you two met in a coffee shop while yunjin had a break between rehearsals. the moment your eyes made contact she was doomed lol

nighttime (how does sleeping with her look like)- yunjin 100% steals the blankets. wraps herself in a burrito and you will NOT get them unless she cuddles you close and lets you inside the cocoon

oddity (what’s one quirky thing about her)- to be fair opera singing is kinda weird. like imagine you’re coming home late and night and you whisper shout a soft “yunjin! are you awake?” and she responds with a “HEREEE MY LOVEEEEE” sung loudly 🗣️

pet names (what does she like to call you)- baby girl, with a lip bite. but like “baby gowrlllllll 🫦🫦🫦🫦”

quality time (how does she like to spend time with you)- every time spent with you is quality time for her (and she will rizz you up while saying that)

rush (does she rush into things)- you’re living together by the second week of you dating

secrets (how open is she with you)- open book ‼️‼️ wanna know her father’s dead cat’s name? or what colour was chaewon face when she puked after drinking spilled milk thinking it was yoghurt?

time (how long did it take her to confess)- going with the idea that she saw you at a coffee shop, she would visit that exact place for a straight up week until she saw you again and then shoot her shot 💀

upset (what’s her reaction when you’re upset)- you’re probably upset after a fight, so then she’s upset too. if that’s not the case, if you yell at her because you’re upset, then yunjin will because upset too lol. she’s not the type to apologise first so buckle up!

visibility (is she afraid of the public opinion)- nah. you remember that one post she made for pride some time ago? public opinion’s got nothing on her

warrior (how often do you fight)- i actually thing you might fight quite a lot… 💀 because of the rushing thing. when you two hit like a two year mark or sum, it gets better. but the rushed relationship gets kinda bumpy at first.

x-ray (is she able to read you)- even if you’re not as much of an open book as yunjin is, i think she makes it her goal to know what you’re thinking at all times. like a little personal challenge

yes (how would she propose to you)- most sappy way possible, would take you to a beach and arrange for her members to blindfold you and shit. lead you down to the shore and when you feel the cold water wetting your shoes, that’s when she drops on one knee (yes, in the water) while eunchae takes off the blindfold lol

zen (what makes her feel calm)- cuddles! singing! movies! just casual romantic shit. i said she would say sorry first but she might force you to cuddle her in the middle of the night even if you two just had a massive fight

part of [the fluff series]

[ninja-knox-ur-sox-off]

Alright, I’ve been sitting on this for a while and I think i’ve managed to sort out my thoughts so it’s not just agonized internal screaming. Time to finally talk about Monkie Kid Season 5.

Quick Disclaimers before we get started: please keep in mind i’m probably gonna be a little negative here. I’m not going after the animators or the writers or anything of the sort, I just need to get this out and slapping it on my blog just makes sense so people have the option to ignore it. Yes, I’m still grateful we still have the show, yes I’m still happy we have the same VA’s, don’t come at me. I’m not gonna get too salty cause I’ve gotten most of that out methinks and too much salt is bad for ya health, but I still do wanna talk about it and I’m still gonna be at least a little salty. If you’re not interested in hearing anything negative about the future of season five please don’t feel obligated to read. And please DO NOT take this as an invitation to bash on the new studio or anyone else in the replies, I really don’t wanna see that, go make your own post if you want to do that. I’m going to keep it under the cut so it’s easy to scroll past.

Welp, if you’re here to read, buckle up and here we go!

To start off, let's get the big personal bias thing out of the way: I strongly dislike puppet animation.

I say ‘strongly dislike’ and not hate because, while I hate most puppet animation, there is Bluey which is the best puppet animation can offer. I didn’t even know it was puppet animation for a while because of how beautifully it’s animated, so, puppet animation does have potential, I’m not gonna deny that. However, I hate that it is always used to replace 2D animation. It’s the cheaper, faster option and I can’t even begin to count the amount of shows that have started off with the plans for being 2D before being ultimately scrapped in favor of either puppet animation or 3D. Monkie Kid was the outlier in all that for me. It was 2D and it felt right. It was gorgeous and good for my brain to look at, it made me excited for animation and for art. It really was so incredibly special to me in a way it just can’t be anymore without Flying Bark’s animation. I probably won’t stop watching but, because of my dislike of puppet animation, it might be a bit of a struggle to get my brain to focus on it the way it used to, (we’ll see.) Absolutely no shade to Wildbrain (the new animation studio) they have worked miracles in the short time that they’ve had, they’ve managed to very closely replicate the style of monkie kid, and they are excellent at what they do, but when things are rushed (LEGO, [derogatory]) it makes it very hard to maintain a high standard, especially when we have something like Flying Bark’s animation to compare it to. And listen, please don’t tell me it looks similar to Flying Bark’s animation, please don’t send me shots and tell me but look how close it is! This one’s gorgeous! Because, at least to me… it’s not.

I’m the kind of person who sits in a room and I see a picture is crooked while no one else in the room notices. It could be off by centimeters but I still notice. It hurts my brain to look at and I go a bit insane until I can get up and straighten it, which usually makes people laugh and honestly yeah it’s kinda funny, but I really can’t stand things looking off, and, despite Wildbrain’s valiant attempt and excellent replication of the style, everything in the trailer we got looks off to me. From the framing, to the animation, to the design of the new characters; from the perspective to the coloring, everything is off and my ‘PLEASE LET ME STRAIGHTEN THE PICTURE’ brain hurts looking at it. I’m not trying to rag on the animation, I know they’re doing their best. Off things just hurt my brain to look at.

That’s why I loved Flying Bark’s animation so much. From Rise of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles to Monkie Kid to Moon Girl and Devil Dinosaur, Flying Bark’s animation has scratched that itch in my brain that has desperately wanted things to look right. Everything is just so shaped!!! AAA!!!

Now, there are episodes of monkie kid that I’m not as big of a fan of. Impossible Delivery is one of them. I’m not a fan of how some scenes are drawn in it, so I tend to avoid it a lot. And that was done by Flying Bark so, this new animation for Monkie Kid is really doing a number on me.

…that being said: I still aint’ about that ‘flying bark started out awkward too’

Once again, ABSOLUTELY NO SHADE TO WILDBRAIN, (or anyone who’s said this at any point, I ain’t coming for your kneecaps,) they have done a SPECTACULAR job replicating Flying Bark’s style in the time that they have and I’m sure LEGO has been putting them through the wringer and rushing them through stuff (which I’ll complain about in a minute) but that’s the thing… They replicated Flying Bark’s Style. Style and animation are two completely separate things. This same drama was used by critics to bash the crap out of ROTTMNT when it first came out; they kept saying the animation was ugly, but it wasn’t, the animation was gorgeous, it was the style that they disliked because, most shows right now start off clunky and a little ugly and that’s just how it is. (Also the promotional material for Rise dragged it through the mud. I will always be salty about that.)

The pilot of monkie kid’s style wasn't all the way there, I’m not gonna deny that. The crew at flying bark were still figuring things out how to draw lego, BUT. The perspective, the framing, and the animation were all on point and just as gorgeous as the rest of the series. When I hear the argument that Flying Bark wasn’t great at first either it makes me want to tear my hair out because it WAS great. IT WAS ABSOLUTELY GREAT, FROM THE BEGINNING, THEIR ANIMATION HAS BEEN GORGEOUS IN MONKIE KID SINCE DAY ONE. The style is what was off. With this new animation we have the opposite experience. Instead of an awkward style with a god tier animation, we have a pretty excellent replication of a good style with an animation form I personally am not a very big fan of. It’s jarring. And even though I’m sure wildbrain will indeed get into their own groove, it will likely never be as earth shattering as Flying Bark because Flying Bark is Flying Bark and what they did was possible because of 2D.

Onto yelling at lego here we go: 'Be grateful it wasn’t canceled'

I’ma be real, this one bugs me the most.

The animation industry right now sucks. There’s no denying it. We have incredible artists left and right being messed over by studios and companies, entirely completed series being deleted, artists being ripped off, overworked and underpaid, outsourcing in every way they can, the disrespect of A/I, and 2D animation especially being dragged through the mud, even with groundbreaking 2D+3D movies like Spider-Verse and award winning movies like The Boy and the Heron, proving 2D is far from dead. Shows are being canceled before their second or third seasons, ideas are being recycled, so many people have watched their favorite things end too soon, and I’m one of them. Bro I was into DRAGON BOOSTER as a kid. Do you know that show? Probably not. It was canceled after one season YEARS ago and ended on a cliffhanger that makes me hurt to this day and I was a kid back then. (Incredible show btw you should give it a watch.) This cancellation thing isn’t new. I got on board with Rise only to see it sniped because Nickelodeon is stupid. Legend of Korra got messed over by Nickelodeon too. I have experienced cancellation/rushed endings before and it sucks. And it fills me with rage to see the bar is so low, that we should all just be okay with what happened because ‘at least it wasn’t canceled.’ I’m not mad at the people saying this, I’m just upset that this is what the reality of animation is. Heck I'm allowed to be upset about it.

And, let’s be real for a second here… Monkie Kid is LEGO’s product for China. It’s making them money. Canceling monkie kid would be shooti ng themselves in the foot more than anything else. LEGO is not hurting for money. Ninjago ran for FIFTEEN seasons and is still running today in this soft-reboot with even better animation than before. LEGO has the means. They don’t need to rush animators to finish things or underpay people. Flying Bark is in big demand right now because more and more people are noticing how good their stuff is. I’m willing to bet their schedule is packed, (they’re working on the ATLA movie which I have mixed emotions about but at least the animation’s gonna be BANGER and last I heard a stranger things animated series??) and when you’re in that high of demand you have to raise your prices, that’s just how that works. But even with that, given enough patience, time, and proper pay, I have no doubt they could have done Monkie Kid as well. We know Lego was pushing them way too hard to animate Monkie Kid and that animation is INSANE and not cheap. LEGO can afford that. But they decided it wasn’t worth that.

Okay don’t quote me on that last bit. I really didn’t want to start going off about conspiracy theories but I admit I get really frustrated when I hear the ‘at least it wasn’t canceled’ thing because I know there’s more going on behind the scenes, people just aren’t transparent about it. Studios and companies right now don’t really care about the quality of things, it’s the artists and the writers and the creators that care about the quality. There are other 2D studios out there but LEGO chose to go with puppet animation because it's faster and cheaper. I am always going to be upset about that. Am I grateful Monkie Kid wasn’t canceled? Sure. But at the same time I don’t want to feel grateful for the bare minimum. I’m angry at the state of the animation industry that no one in the higher-ups of these industries seem to respect 2D animators or 2D animation in general, that no one seems to understand how much skill it takes to animate and how worth investing in it is. And seeing people tell others upset by this that they should be grateful they have anything at all just rubs me the wrong way.

And the audacity to change the animation is ridiculous to me because a huge part of the audience for LMK is here because of the animation. It’s not like Ninjago, which started off with low budget 3D and slowly got better and better over time with a few dips here and there. We started off with one of the best 2D animated shows of all time, (in my monkey obsessed opinion,) animated the way it was to draw in an audience, and suddenly for no reason at all and no prior warning we’ve dropped down to what every pilot of every puppet animation children show looks like these days. It feels like a crummy thing to do. Yes, I’m aware we’re lucky we still have a show, yes I’m grateful we still have the same VA’s and the same writers. But this is a big and abrupt change and I’d be lying if I said it didn’t suck.

Okay, onto my biggest concern: how the writing of the show will pair with this new animation.

With all due respect and love to the writers, Monkie Kid is awful when it comes to biased narration in their storytelling. It has relied so so heavily on visual storytelling to fill in the gaps and tell us what’s actually going on while the dialogue is lying to our face. If you’re not looking, it can lead you to woefully misunderstand the characters and what is happening. It’s a style of writing that I’m not a super big fan of, BUT I, for the most part (aside from fandom craziness,) enjoyed it! Because the animation helped it hold up. What made the storytelling work was the nuance and incredible detail in Flying Bark’s animation. You could analyze every expression, every style difference in flashbacks, and it would tell you so much; I am a SUCKER for that kind of stuff--drawing expressions and emotions is something I love so much--and Flying Bark served it to me on a silver platter with a golden spoon and crystal clear mountain water. The scope of what Flying Bark was able to do… I just don’t know if it can be replicated in puppet animation and that scares me a bit storytelling wise. Because I don’t want to be stressed out by Monkie Kid and unreliable narrators have a habit of stressing me out. It’s not to bad as long as it’s resolved later, but Monkie Kid has a habit of blowing over things, especially in regards to the lies told about Wukong and the only thing that tells us something different happened are the visuals, which stresses me out cause it results in INTENSE fandom bashing my favorite monkey and it’s really hard to avoid. (This is why I stepped back so far from interacting with the fandom.) I don’t want something that brought me comfort in my darkest times to be twisted into something I no longer want to see.

Is this the worst possible thing to have happened? No, of course not. It’s definitely not all that awesome either. For me it’s like eating at a gourmet restaurant having their insane mac n cheese every day for years and then suddenly you’re served KD from the dollar store and told you should be grateful because it could be worse, all the while the restaurant keeps its gourmet title. There’s nothing wrong with KD but bro I want my mac n cheese--

The fact that there was no prior warning is what really makes all this feel so sucky. I know this isn’t the end of monkie kid, but the animation is one of the biggest things that made the show unique, it’s what drew so many incredible artists in, it’s what inspired me to create and make friends and keep living. The animation provided nuance to the characters when the writing sometimes fell flat. It gave insights and information that worked well with the face-paced storytelling and brought the incredible voice acting to life. It’s not really going to be the same without it.

There is ofc more than just the animation that made monkie kid great. The voice actors, the SOUNDTRACK, the sound effects are all off the charts insanely high quality but man. It’s not complete without it. There’s a big ol’ gaping hole in the show and in my heart and as much as I love the show, that’s really rough. Because it’s not as though this makes things better. The quality didn’t drop because people wanted it to be easier for animators to animate, Wildbrain I’m sure is having a time meeting LEGO’s crazy deadlines right now, just like Flying Bark did. There was so much reused animation in season 4 because of how hard LEGO was riding animators' tails and pushing them to get things out faster and faster and I was more than alright with the reused animation so the animators could catch a break. But instead of backing off and being respectful of the time it takes to animate, LEGO dropped Flying Bark like a hot potato and immediately went to the cheaper, faster puppet animation. (JUST A THEORY/VENT DON’T QUOTE ME.) It’s not like there aren’t other 2D animation studios out there but they picked the puppet. And that SUCKS. I would have been okay waiting another year for monkie kid easy because Flying Bark is WORTH IT. I understand how long things take and that if I want a high quality product its going to take skill and time. It hurts me to watch animators having it rough because no one else seems to get that.

Alright in conclusion: We’ve only seen a few seconds of the trailer.

It’s hard to judge what the entire show will look like based off of that little. It could be incomplete, Wildbrain could get better, they could find their groove, I ain’t gonna rag on the animation because it’s giving you exactly the quality--maybe even higher--expected of what it is. It’s puppet animation. I dunno what to tell you man. But it’s not about that for me. For me it’s about 2D. It’s about some of the greatest animation I’ve ever seen being replaced when it didn’t need to be and that sucks. Flying Bark gave us the world and we didn’t lose that for any reason other than money and greed and impatience. That is so discouraging and upsetting. It is something else to go from every frame leaving me breathless and staring and in awe over the quality of the animation to Puppet Animation. The change hurts. Honestly, I never thought I would be as devastated as I am. I’ve processed a bit but I think it’s always going to suck because of how important monkie kid has become to me. I miss flying bark so much already. I’m still going to try and watch the show, but we’ll see how my brain does with the puppet animation. Don’t go ragging on the animators, guys, they’re doing their best and I gotta respect em.

I do wish we’d gotten more time to mourn flying bark’s absence. I wish people had gotten a heads up when season 4 had ended so they could have time to adjust and then get ready for the new style, because watching everyone hype themselves up for flying barks’ animation only to be told they're gone by a trailer kiiiinda sucks. But I digress.

I do find it funny it took changing animation studios for us to finally get a trailer and poster on time before the eps drop. So in a way, I appreciate that much of a warning at least. Better than nothing! And we’ve always wanted a trailer out first lol HGLKJSDF

I ain’t even gonna pretend I ain’t spoiled as HECK by flying bark’s animation. Honestly without it, I don’t know if I’d be as attached to the characters as I am. Real talk, I don’t know if I ever would have even watched Monkie Kid without it. I’m gonna miss flying bark with all I have in me and it's going to make rewatching and enjoying the show hard because of all this. I’m going to miss the time when every part of this show was a comfort to my brain and soul. Flying Bark's energy is unmatched, they bring a life to things that I haven’t seen anywhere else and I’m always gonna be grateful for the time I had with them animating Monkie Kid.

This is it. No more more Flying Bark monkie kid. The end. And that’s going to sting for a while. And probably keep stinging throughout the new season because… well… I love monkie kid. So seeing it become something else is going to hurt, especially if you hold it so close to your heart.

These new animators are doing their best and we can’t fault em for that. It ain’t their fault the animation industry is what it is. It’s great we still have the show going when so many other things have gotten canceled but the fact the bar is so low can hurt like heck too.

We’re gonna miss flying bark for a long time. It’s so goofy that something as simple as animation could have burrowed so deep into our hearts but it has and that’s truly wondrous and the magic of storytelling. I love shows. I love movies. I love what monkie kid was, and I hope I can learn to be okay with what it will be now. (Even with my ‘STRAIGHTEN THE PICTURE’ brain screaming at me lol.) Wishing you all the best, don’t make fun of the animation needlessly or go after the animators, be kind to them and to each other. If you wanna be salty don't send it to me just make ur own post thanks ima drop this and then go try some positivity lol. Until next time! I’ll see you in Monkie Kid season 5

Knox out

[featherstorm2004]

All For One's death

I am a little confused at some of the disappointment I've seen directed at the latest chapter or well chapters, more at how Horikoshi has handled All For One. Because, I don't see how this could have gone differently given the current circumstances but to organise my thoughts I will start with the first arguments I've been seeing.

"I am upset that All For One went out the way he did"

This one I can kind of understand since with the reveal of his backstory, he has successfully (in my eyes) become one of the most complex and well thought out characters in bnha. However, due to the fact that it was revealed so late it meant that for the people who had just gotten attached to him or the people who had been craving this character development for a long time, it meant we had a short time to enjoy it and his character fully before he died.

And that kinda sucks and I get that, I wish that this backstory was revealed sooner like I would have had it revealed in the vigilante arc where Deku was exploring why villains are the way they are, maybe we could have had both All For One and Yoichi narrate it as Deku was getting used to his vestiges and Shigaraki and All For One were fused. But I understand why that didn't happen since it was clear that Horikoshi was experiencing burnout after writing the monster of an arc that was the war, plus I'm pretty sure he was dealing with a new editor/manager which couldn't have been fun.

In a perfect world Horikoshi would've taken a nice long break after the war arc and then started working on the next arcs but sadly that didn't happen. But I'm happy we got this backstory at all since it's clear he's been rushing to finish the manga as soon as possible (which I can't blame him for) and I'm glad to see he cared enough about All For One as a character to make it crystal clear why he is the way he is and that despite everything that he is in fact human.

As for the people who are mad that he's not the main villain, I'm not really sure what to tell you. Yes he is a really cool character/villain and it might have been cool to see him in all his big bad glory but this has never been his story; it's been stated over and over again that All For One and by extension All Might's time in the limelight is over, this is Deku and Shigaraki's story not theirs. Since the beginning it's been made abundantly clear that bnha is a story about successors and the legacies they carry and if you wanted a story about their predecessors then you're reading the wrong manga.

Which brings me to the next complaint I've heard, people that are upset that All For One was included in the first place.

I can understand this to a point, I too was upset when All For One barged in and tried to steal Shigaraki's thunder, it was frustrating I can admit that. But I also wasn't too surprised after all it was an incredibly in character thing for All For One to do and Horikoshi needed a believable way to handicap Shigaraki so the hero's had the slightest chance of winning, and vestiges had already been long established in this world.

But most importantly there needed to be a reason for Deku to believe that Shigaraki needed saving and to want to do so in the first place, and being forcefully possessed by the most evil man in history is a pretty good motivation to save someone.

And to be honest there was no way that Horikoshi could get away with not using All For One at all after there had been so many hints and foreshadowing to him eventually breaking out of prison, people would have lost their minds if he had never been included. Especially after he had been built up as this master manipulator who had warped Shigaraki's mind for years and had been pulling the strings of Japans underworld for a century.

It would've been seen as the worlds biggest missed opportunity so, I think Horikoshi handled it the best way he could've whilst keeping the integrity of his characters and the main theme's of the story intact.

And I think it was probably for the best that we spent that time deconstructing the myth that was the villain All For One because in my eyes he really didn't fit in the world of bnha; which has spent it's entire story exploring how people aren't born good or evil and that bad people can choose to change if they want to and that good people can also do bad things. So, to have this pure evil villain who was just born that way didn't really mesh well with the tone and message of the story, he needed to be brought down a peg or two to be made more human in order to fit in and I think Horikoshi succeeded in that.

Now that I'm thinking about it, that's probably the reason I never cared for All For One at the start as I could sense that he didn't belong in this world. And I didn't start getting invested in him until he started falling apart because suddenly he made sense in the narrative, but that's just my opinion. I'm not saying that pure evil villains can't be fun or thematically appropriate, just not for this story.

But yeah those are my thoughts of All For One's death at the moment I'll probably do more meta's about it later but I wanted to respond to the complaints I've been seeing.

[thatgirlinskullz]

The Acolyte SPOILER THOUGHTS after the s1 finale

okay, now that the season is over, i guess i can try and sum up my thoughts on the show overall..

is it a perfect show? absolutely not. but what Star Wars is perfect? NONE OF IT. and i say that as someone who LOVES all the star war i've consumed so far.

wonky dialogue and delivery IS an essential part of sw at this point, starting with the originals and don't even try to argue with that. no point. but we love sw anyway, right? because of the overall story, the characters and the messages it tries to convey.

so yes, the acolyte does have some weird dialogue in parts, delivery is not always perfect, seems a little.. unnatural? might be the best word i can use for it.

there's also pacing issues, which can mostly be attributed to the UNBELIEVABLY SHORT episode runtimes.. most episodes were 30-35 minutes EXCUSE ME???? of course they can't fit in story, character moments and scenes that set up the world/environment they're in. omg that annoyed me so much. establishing shots have ALWAYS been a huge part of sw, showing the scenery, the sky, multiple suns or moons, showing space, the area in which our characters will appear, showing the animals and people of the planet, etc. that has always been important to make the galaxy feel real and lived-in, but this time, with the short runtimes, unfortunately it all feels like wasted time, that we could instead be spending with our characters and progressing the story. and i kinda hate that. don't get me wrong, i loved all the establishing shots but i couldn't help but feel like "damn, move along, i wanna see the story, we only have 10 more minutes left". and i think that's one of the biggest issues with the show. not the wonky lines or their deliveries, but how it feels like it didn't get enough time to shine, and some parts feel unnecessary, while others feel rushed. and i'm about 90% sure that this is NOT on the writers but the executives who only gave them 8x 35min episodes....

but i don't want to just focus on the """bad""", because the show IS GOOD!! firstly, all the actors are gorgeous, talented people, and imo gave the best performances they could given all the above as their circumstances, i wouldn't be surprised if some of the deliveries felt off because cuts were made. the actors all embodied their characters fully, they made you fall in love with them right away, and THAT is an accomplishment.

Lee Jung-Jae is a phenomenal actor, who stole my heart immediately as Sol, and i was 100% convinced he's like Qui-Gon, BOY WAS I WRONG. but he made me believe in him, and love him. all his lines carried so much weight, because he IS JUST THAT GOOD! he sold me on Sol with his first minute on screen and i didn't want to believe he could ever do anything wrong. I loved this character and Lee Jung-Jae's portrayal deserves awards imo.

Amandla Stenberg has been someone i've admired for years now, they are such a talent, so underrated and underutilized in film. they can evoke such emotion with just one look, it still blows me away. i really like both Mae and Osha, tho i wish they had more time together so we could have seen more of their dynamic, instead of just misunderstandings, fights and running away from each other - but i guess that's part of their dynamic too. Amandla did a great job with the emotional scenes AND the fights (tho i'm never sure when it's them or a stunt person), and i can't wait to see more of Mae and Osha's story. I am so happy Amandla is in SW.

Manny Jacinto is one of the most beautiful men on this planet, AND he's talented, and i am so happy people are finally realizing it! he pulls you in no matter what version of his character he's playing. he just makes you want to know more and spend more time with his character, and i find that incredible. The costume department also knew what they were doing cuz DAMN that outfit showing those arms and his physique. DAYUMMM. (i'm sorry) I don't think i've had such high interest in a dark side user since Maul, and that's saying something. i really hope to see more of Qimir in SW and Manny Jacinto in more films/big shows because HE IS SO GOOODDD. he deserves the recognition he's finally getting 100%!!!

some other things i loved about the show that are very spoilery:

more force witches because the nightsisters can't be the only ones!!

the returning idea of twins, possibly a force dyad.. love how twins are utilized throughout sw, kind of showing the duality of a person in a more physical way.

the use of "a certain point of view" was incredible in this show. i loved how they showed different perspectives of the same events, and how they emphasized that the jedi are not always the "good guys" if you're looking at it from the outside. i dont think this undermines anything about the jedi, only expands on the idea of the jedi imo.

a wookie jedi swinging a lightsaber -- we've only seen Gungi until now as far as i know, so having Kelnacca actually do stuff, (even if not exactly the way i wanted it to happen), was such an amazing experience. GIVE MORE WOOKIES LIGHTSABERS PLEASE!!

bleeding the kyber crystals. OMG I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS FOR SO LONG and it was beautiful. they did such an amazing job with putting it on screen. what a time to be a sw fan.

lightsaber throwing!!!! OMG THAT'S MY MOVE IN ALL THE GAMES!!! no, but seriously, that's such a cool thing to see in a canon sw show, i don't think we've seen a lot of lightsaber throwing in sw outside of the games, and it was so fun to see on screen!

lightwhip?! hellooo??!! i really wanna see more of it, and i wanna learn how and why it exists and how it works (i guess i need to read the books, huh?)

a variety of saber designs for all the jedi to signify their personalities and styles, AND cool-ass lightsabers like Qimir's???? omg that was was a really good design, how he could pull it apart into a big and small saber.

possible plagueis cameo??? idk if its him but damn that was cool. would be a shame if we didn't get a s2....

yoda in high republic era???!!! i knew it would just be a cameo, and i knew it would be right at the end, but it was still nice to see his lil green head

i've had the whole day to process the episode and think this over, but overall, despite its issues i loved this show.

i think they had some really great ideas, amazing actors and costumes and sets, the only problem is, the show was not given enough time. and i don't know what the problem was - highly doubt the writers or showrunner wanted it this way but i could be wrong.

i think this story, this era in SW has a lot of potential, and if/when we get a season 2 i really hope the creatives are given more freedom and more time to delve into more aspects of the world and characters. this COULD BE one of the greatest Star Wars stories IF given enough care and time. idk if it will be. so far so good, in my opinion, but there's definitely room for improvement, and i just hope they will take all the actual valid criticism from the actual fans, and make this a SW story that will live on for generations.

anyway, I LOVE STAR WARS

i did not come here to fight or argue, so if you don't agree or don't like the show, good for you, just let others enjoy it and share their opinions.

be nice to each other please.

and watch more star wars.

[silverofthunder]

☆ i'll wait for you ☆

Papa Emeritus IV x GN reader || AO3

summary: It was supposed to be only six months intership kind of thing. The original plan had been: go there, do you job and then leave. You weren't ready for any unwanted feelings to blossom. But then you met Copia and something changed. The walls around you started to crack little by little.

content: 3.2k words, gn!reader, hurt/comfort, fluff, romance, friends to lovers (kinda), bad attempt at humor, references to past abusive relationship (just mentioned that past has been difficult, mostly left open to interpretation)

I wasn't supposed to write for this fandom but my brain decided otherwise. 🙈 It's been about three years since I've last written anything so this isn't my best work, obviously. Nonetheless, I had missed writing so much and I really enjoyed writing this so I guess that's all that counts. ♡

”You should go!” your friend said, sounding way too excited. ”You said you wanted a change of scenery so this is your chance!”

You stared at the letter in your hand and then looked up at your friend. They nodded, smiling.

You shook your head, sighing. ”Okay, I guess I’ll do it then.”

And that’s how you found yourself standing in front of the Sister Imperator at the Ministry.

”Is everything clear now?”

”Yes, Sister,” you answered, taking a pile of books and papers from the table. ”One question --”

you were interrupted by the door opening and someone rushing in.

”You’re late,” Sister Imperator remarked, clearly a bit irritated. The man who had come in drew in a long breath, looking a bit apologetic and came to stand beside you.

”Copia, here is your assistant. I have given them short briefing, the rest is yours to decide.”

Your eyes met his mismatched ones and you smiled politely – or at least tried to smile. Copia returned the smile, then taking a slight bow.

”Pleased to meet you.”

The first few weeks were quite hectic as you tried your best to keep up with your assistant chores and stay as far from Sister Imperator as possible. There was something in her that made you feel so uncomfortable.

You were now walking in the garden outside, enjoying the short break you had been granted. It was nice to explore more of the Ministry area, and properly take it all in. You breathed in the fresh air, then slowly releasing it out.

At first you had thought that coming here had been a mistake but now it didn’t seem that bad. Copia had made you feel welcome and it was actually nice to work with him – or for him. He certainly was intriguing, and you couldn’t wait to get to know the man more.

You had also met the ghouls and they were a bit intimidating but also interesting creatures. So human-like but still not human. They hadn’t talked much, only looked at you with curiosity, and you took it that they didn’t mind you being there and working with Copia.

”Would you like to have a dinner with me today?” Copia asked quietly, and you nearly knocked over your ink bottle.

Oh shit, you cursed in your mind. It wasn’t an unusual question, so there was no need to react that way. But still, it had surprised you.

”It’s okay if you--”

”Yes, I would like that very much.”

You were afraid that you might have sounded too eager but Copia didn’t seem to notice anything. The smile was tugging at his lips as nodded slightly before burying himself in his work again. Something inside you jolted but you ignored it as you moved your gaze back to your papers, a small smile still plastered on your lips.

It became a habit, that you two ate dinner together. Soon you even started spending more time together outside of work and you could easily admit that you enjoyed Copia’s company. He was kind, funny and slightly awkward but it only made him more endearing.

You two grew closer day by day, and so grew the feeling somewhere deep within you. At first you you just ignored it, thinking it was just some temporary glitch in your system.

But you knew what it was. And you knew it most likely wouldn’t go away.

Something you weren’t yet ready for had started to blossom.

You couldn’t sleep so you decided to go to the part of the Ministry library that had become your favorite. You sat down on the chair and and switched on the lamp on the table next to it.

For a moment you just sat there and then you unlocked your phone, searching for one secific conversation. You didn’t need to read it again since it all was still clear as a day in your head but you still went through the messages.

It hurt to read them. It always did. Not so much nowadays but the pain was still there, nonetheless. You were pretty sure it would never truly go away, no matter how much time passed.

A few tears fell to your cheeks as you closed the conversation, locking the phone. Sudden rustling startled you and you almost dropped you phone.

”Sorry, tesoro, didn’t mean to scare you,” Copia’s familiar, soothing voice made you relax. You quickly wiped away the tears and turned to look at him.

”Hi,” you said, attempting to smile. ”What are you doing here?”

Copia didn’t answer straight away, he looked at you with concern and you shifted on the chair.

”What’s troubling you, my dear?”

You sighed, looking straight into his eyes. You hadn’t really spoke about your past, especially your painful past, and only a few of your friends and your parents knew what you had gone through. Copia seemed genuinely worried, he pulled another chair closer, sat down and took your hands in his.

”It’s a long story,” you stated. ”And not a pretty story.”

Copia’s brows furrowed as he squeezed your hands.

”We have all night.”

The plan had been very clear: go to the Ministry, do your job and then leave. There wasn’t supposed to be any unwanted feelings involved. Your love life had been a bitch in the past and you had sworn that you had no time for crushes or anything like that.

But it seemed that dear Satan had another plan for you and now you had to deal with an undeniable crush on Copia. The sweetest man you had ever met. Who, despite now knowing about your past, had not run as far as he could or had not called the whole internship thing off. Who still treated you with the same respect as he had done straight from the start.

Basically it seemed like nothing had changed – maybe there hadn’t on his side. But what came to you… Everything had changed.

And it scared the hell out of you.

”Keep your eyes closed,” Copia instructed and you kept your eyes closed, excitement bubbling at the bottom of your stomach. You could hear Copia moving in front of you, mumbling something and letting out some quiet funny noices every once in a while.

”Now it’s all set, open your eyes.”

You did as was told and the sight before you took you by surprise. On the ground there was a blanket with plates, wine glasses and a basket full of food on it. The lights on the trees casted a faint glow upon it and before them opened up a lovely lake view. For a moment you couldn’t do anything but stare at the whole setting.

”It might be too much but I--”

”No, it’s beautiful, I…” you trailed off and took a hold of Copia’s hands, your gaze meeting his. Copia shifted slightly, and you pulled him closer, freeing your other hand and lifting it up to brush you fingers along his cheek.

The look in Copia’s eyes softened as he leaned into your touch.

”I just want to know. Why? Why all of this?” your voice was barely a whisper.

”You really haven’t realized it yet?” Copia sounded almost hurt and you shook you head, a knot forming in your stomach.

Of course you had your suspicions. The way Copia had acted around you, the slight touches, the softness in his gaze, the moments you had caught him staring at you and the faintest of red had started to adorn his cheeks and ears.

You weren’t ready for this, voicing the feelings part. It was too hard.

”Can we just… not talk about it now?” you pleaded, cupping Copia’s face. The look in Copia’s eyes was devastating and it made your heart break a little. But you knew he understood.

”Let’s just enjoy this now,” you suggested, caressing Copia’s cheeks with your thumbs. ”I need more time.”

Copia offered you a sad smile, nodding. You really hadn’t much time since the internship was about to end in two months. But for now, you didn’t want anything to change.

”I really don’t deserve you.”

Sighing Copia wrapped his arms around you and pulled you in a hug. It felt a like comforting blanket but also like you were letting something huge go.

Why were feelings so hard?

”You did what?!” your friend basically screeched at the other end of the line. ”Oh god, you’re such an idiot!”

”Thanks, that really made me feel better,” you remarked while pacing in your room.

”Oh, sorry, but honestly, what’s the problem?”

”You know what’s this all about.”

Your friend let out an angry sigh and you tried not to laugh. They were so dramatic sometimes.

”You can’t let your past define your future. From what you’ve told, it seems like he really likes you and you definitely like him back. He’s a good man, right?”

”Yes, he seems to be. Too good even,” you answered, a small smile tugging at your lips. Your friend let out a little laugh.

”I can hear you smiling.”

”I’m not,” you tried, knowing well your friend wouldn’t buy it.

”Sure you’re not. Honestly, what’s the worst thing that could happen?”

That was a good question and you really had no sensible answer.

”He could break my heart?”

You could hear your friend try to keep it together. They drew in a long breath, slowly releasing it.

”That’s the risk you’ve got to take when it comes to love.”

”Yeah...” you said quietly, knowing that your friend was right.

For the past few weeks hadn’t been easy. Copia seemed to avoid you – or at least keep more distance – and your conversations had shortened greatly. He still seemed to be a bit hurt by your rejection, though you didn’t count it as a proper rejection. Now, whenever you two were on the same room, he looked like he didn’t know what to do with himself and it made your heart ache. A part of you wanted to just go and comfort him and the other part was holding onto the walls around you that had started to crack.

You had around six weeks left and everything was a mess. The ghouls were sending very intimidating and hard glances at you when you happened to pass them by. They were pretty protective of Copia and now you basically had given them a reason to be on the alert. They hadn’t seemed to mind about you at first and you didn’t see them that often but now a few of them seemed to keep a closer eye on you.

It was just your luck that everything had gone to south. You kicked a stone in the ground while walking on the yard and cursed in your mind.

”What did that stone do to you?”

The question made you jump and you turned around fast, meeting Copia’s slightly amused gaze. Your brain short-circuited and for a moment you just stared at him.

”Nothing”, you answer after a while, now mentally kicking yourself. Copia hummed, stepping closer to you until he was standing right in front of you. Your heart rate sped up a bit and you could feel the warmth on your cheeks.

”Tesoro mio…” Copia started quietly. ”I’m sorry I’ve been a bit distant lately.”

”It’s my fault. I…” you trailed off, shaking your head.

”I never meant to scare you. It was too much and too soon.”

Copia’s eyes were filled with emotion and your heart stung.

”It’s just… My past… I’m afraid I get hurt again.”

Copia seemed to hold back tears and it made you tear up.

”I could never hurt you. Not like that.”

You closed your eyes, tears starting to flow. Hands took a hold of yours but you didn’t dare to open your eyes.

”I’ll wait for you.”

For now, that was all you needed to hear and you took a step forward, wrapping your arms around Copia.

You were going through papers, reading some parts here and there but the text seemed blurred. It was no wonder as you had slept badly for the past few nights as the nightmares had plagued you.

”It’s third time you go through the same pile”, Copia stated, worry evident in his voice. ”You seem tired. Have you not slept at all?”

You checked the papers again and he was right, you had already organized them. No wonder everything had looked so alike. With a loud sigh you dropped your head onto the table.

”The nightmares have started again so no, I haven’t really slept.”

”Again?”

”They come and go. Usually they bother me for a few nights and then it might be several weeks before they come again”, you explained, lifting your head up and meeting Copia’s eyes. The look in them was filled with worry.

”Is it…?” Copia didn’t finish the question, he didn’t need to. You just nodded.

”Can I help somehow?”

”Maybe…” you started, hesitating a bit. ”...if you could stay the next night with me?”

The look in Copia’s eyes softened, a small smile tugging at his lips.

”I can do that, though I’m not sure if that actually helps.”

You shrugged, flashing Copia a slight grin. ”Well, we won’t know if we don’t try it, right?”

Copia laughed.

”I guess the floor is mine, then.”

Your eyes widened as Copia grinned and you grabbed some trash from the table and threw it at him. He pretended to be offended by that.

”You… old man! You’re definitely sleeping on the floor.”

Copia shook his head in amusement before standing up and coming to you. You had no time to react as he pulled you up and lifted you up. You grabbed onto his shoulders as he spun you two around, your laughter echoing in the room.

This was it. This was how you wanted everything to be. Or at least a part of you wanted.

As Copia finally let you down, your eyes met again. The warmth in his eyes made your heart soar, awakening the part you had wanted to keep asleep.

The part that wanted to kiss him so badly.

You stepped away from him, still smiling, and the moment was gone.

Even thought it wasn’t supposed to happen, that night you still ended up sleeping in the same bed. Copia’s arms where wrapped around you, his breath tickling the sensitive skin of your neck.

There was no nightmares that night, only cozy warmth, peace and safety.

”So are you two now together or what?” your friend sounded confused on the phone.

”No, we’re not together,” you said. ”It’s complicated but everything is well now. We can have fun and just be us like we used to be before… you know.”

”Okay… But you just said that you have been sharing a bed with him? And you’re just friends?”

”Yes and yes.”

”Alright… That’s really confusing,” your friend stated. ”But I’m happy that you seem to be doing better now.”

”Me too.”

There was a short moment of silence before your friend spoke again.

”Have you thought about what’s gonna happen when your internship ends? There’s only like… three weeks left, right?”

”Three weeks, yes,” you confirmed. ”No, I haven’t really thought about it.”

Your friend let out a long sigh.

”You should think about it. And goddammit, make your move already or I will come there and kick your stupid asses!”

You couldn’t help but laugh at that threat.

”I was about to make a move some time ago,” you admitted and your friend screeched so loud your ear hurt.

”What?! What do you mean?”

”We had a… moment and we were pretty close and I almost… kissed him. I mean I wanted to kiss him, but didn’t.”

”Dammit, you oaf! Oh god, I’m probably gonna get a heart attack before anything happens between you two.”

”That’s possible,” you laughed. ”Okay, I need to go now, I will call you again at some point.”

”Yeah, go to your man! Bye!”

Shaking your head smiling you said your goodbyes and hung up.

The days went by fast and ending of the internship had now come. You had spent as much time with Copia as possible and it had been amazing. It was hard to explain how you felt with him. Even though you hadn’t been easy to be with, he had stayed. If something would have made people run away from you, it would have been your past.

But not Copia. He had taken your past as a part of you, understanding the weight of it on your shoulders.

Falling in love was supposed to be a beatiful thing but to you it had been one of the greatest fears for several years. And now you had had to face that fear, try to open your heart and break the walls around you.

It wasn’t easy when your heart wanted one thing and the head told the opposite. But maybe, just maybe, you had started to see the beauty of falling in love again.

I’ll wait for you.

That had been a promise you never expected to hear. And it might have changed the course of everything.

As you now stood outside the Ministry, all your luggages beside your feet, waiting for your ride to arrive, you felt sad and like you were doing something you shouldn’t do. You had to admit that you really didn’t want to leave. Even though it hadn’t been easy, you still had enjoyed being there. It had been quite an experience, opening pages in your book you thought would never be opened again.

The car pulled over and the driver came to help you with the luggages.

”Trying to leave without saying goodbye?”

A small smile rose to your lips as you turned around, seeing Copia standing by the Ministry doors hands behind his back. Your heart ached as this was it.

The moment you had dreaded.

You asked the driver to wait for a moment and walked over to Copia, noticing the hint of sadness in his gaze. You two hadn’t still spoken about what you were and you knew that now was the time to make some things clear.

”Copia…” you started, cupping his face gently. He leaned into your touch, the look in his eyes changing hopeful as he set his hands on your waist, pulling you closer. You breathed slowly in, the mild, familiar scent of Copia filling your senses, comforting you.

You lingered in the moment because you didn’t want to let go. And neither did Copia, it seemed, as he just tightened his hold of you and rested his forehead against yours.

”Please…” he whispered.

Your heart made a little jump in your chest as you knew what he wanted. You pulled slightly back so you could look at him in the eyes. And that was the moment when all your doubts seemed to vanish and you let your heart make the decision.

With a fluttering heart you finally leaned in and kissed him. You felt Copia basically melt against you, his arms sliding around you, and it made you smile into the kiss.

A sudden clearing of throat broke your moment and you parted, both smiling in awe. Unfortunately it was time for you to go.

”I’ll come back”, you promised as you started to walk backwards towards the car.

Copia nodded, his face radiating happiness.

”I’ll wait for you.”

[emmatgc]

Wonderful World - Extra Chapter

A little fan service to the loyal fans of my story. This is for you. More angst, sexy time and yes smut. Very short but I hope you enjoy. For adults only. R18 (wink, wink)

Daylight

The sun shines and his eyes open slowly, stretching his arms, unaware at first but felt his chest a little heavy. His mind picking up, and upon seeing her hand in his chest, hair messy but cute, he thought. She looks so pretty, he thought. It dawned on him. They made love. For the 1st time. His 1st time. He blushed like a teenage boy. What happened last night was like a dream. From a nightmare turned a delightful dream. Soo Hyun on top of him, riding him. Not his ideal 1st time plan for her, not in his trailer, but there is nothing normal for them. Both sinners. Both prisoners of the past but they made a pact- they will stay together, no matter what. He wants to make her breakfast but he doesn’t want to wake her up. Yet it is 7:00 am, he has no work. He is still on leave. He looks at the ceiling of his trailer and suddenly, some movements from Soo Hyun, she slowly opened her eyes and saw Seon Yul looking at her softly like she is the most beautiful in the world. “Good Morning”, he said. Soo Hyun, seemingly shy and caught off guard, cheeks turning red, memories from last night coming back as she mounted him 1st and rode him. What was she thinking? she is asking herself now , in her thoughts running wild. She was wild last night. Now , she is shy. She took the pillow and buried her face below. Seon Yul laughed and hugged her. No words are needed. They are both overwhelmed with what happened. 

They had breakfast in the trailer. Both are silent and still shy of each other. “So…about last night”, Soo Hyun said first. “It was amazing”, he replied. Both smiled. “Not the ideal place but who cares, right? Seon Yul said. Both laughed. “There is nothing normal between us, Seon Yul”. 

He took her hand in the table, and said “Im sorry, It won’t happen again”. I won't disappear again. “Better not happened again” she replied. He will drive her home but first they stopped at Seon Yul’s house to get some of his stuff. They are preparing their next moves to combat the bad press upon them due to his uncle’s sudden appearance back in the limelight. Seon Yul wants to take a shower. Soo Hyun started to check her phone for details they can use for the fall out they are expecting. They want Kim Joon gone for good. Meaning in jail for good. They have done nothing wrong and this humiliation coming from him is such an injustice. Seon Yul was watching her. He hasn’t thought much since last night. His little secret is from the moment he work up, he wanted to take her again. He wanted to taste her lips again. He wanted to touch her again. Everyday if she let him. He rushed away these thoughts but he is hard. Still hard from last night. He feels he might die if he won’t be honest right now at this moment. “Would you want to join me? In the shower”. There he said it, finally. Boldly, he asked her. Soo Hyun’s eyes grew bigger and her mouth gaped opened and wide. “I am sorry, I shouldn’t have asked, Soo Hyun” he retracted his plea and turned his back and curse at himself. The boy is horny. He can’t help it. Soo Hyun, was debating herself if she will join him. She will admit. He is so fine. Even finer in bed. Even if ideally that was a bachelors pad. Her 1st time in a bachelor’s pad and in a trailer! She is amazed by her standards , her wildest night so far. She feels something and with what is happening, she can’t help but wonder, time is of the essence. She needs to be alive and both of them to be alive and free. She wants to feel alive and Seon Yul, despite the odds, makes her feel alive. His tough, his kisses made her feel alive last night. She wants to be brave. 

The song “Daylight” is playing in the background. “Oh I love it and `I hate it at the same time”…it kinda feels their song. Twisted but real. Fighting what’s real but cannot leave. She wants to do it. Do it now. She went to the bath room and just in time, Seon Yul is done taking a shower. She saw her get out from the door, all wet and just a towel tightly covering his hips and what’s under it. She saw his body. She remembers last night. Blood boiling and she can’t talk now. Seon Yul knew that look. That look from last night. She wants him. Now. “What do you want Soo Hyun” he is teasing her. “Say it”. Say it, please”. Soo Hyun fixated her yes on him. She touched his chest. The wetness is arousing her. “I want you.” 

Without a second delay, their lips pressed into each other. Nothing like last night. This is different. Desperate. Sloppy and wet. He kissed her neck. He pushed her against the wall and she moaned. He wants to go to bed but everything happened so fast. He is so feral now. He wants her, right now. He wants to be inside of her. That unimaginable feeling. The sin of being with her, in her. Gods be damn. He held her hips and again, he remembered she was wearing a skirt. “Can I” he asked. She said “Yes, please”. He lift her up. So sexy against the wall, with every moan and every thrust, he is breathless over her. "I love you. I want you forever, Soo Hyun". Soo Hyun wants to reply but she choked at his movements.

He wants to die like this. Happy. Blissful. She is his poison, She is her religion. His savior. She is his. He is hers. If they sinned in the eyes of the world, they don’t care anymore. 

Note from the author: This is not Chapter 13. I promise it will be posted this weekend. I can't help but add this chapter for these fools deserve this "love making time". This bliss and happiness. Major development coming in the next chapter. Thank you so much to my loyal followers here! Ive been sick last week and so busy this month but I promise, I will finish this one.

[dimiclaude13]

i've been thinking lately in the concept of family.

The family concept has been widely divided into two statements that might seem contradictory at first: Ones - the most traditional people you'll ever find - would say that family means bloodline and a set of experiences attached to it. Others - more open minded, if you wanna say so, - would argue that family is the people who take care of you and give you a safe environment to grow in and not necessarily someone with whom you just share genetics.

Even though I firmly believe that a bloodline is not important in whether we should consider someone as family or not, I do believe that shared experiences are a must.

Maybe it's me who is a bit sensitive, but ain't kindness and community the foundations of humanity? With the second definition on mind, wouldn't everyone be your family? Don't get me wrong, that sounds good if a little (too much) utopian. And yes, the world is a hostile place, but not all who help you are willing to forge a strong emotional link with you... they're just... humans. People are nice, or at least i wanna think so (or even we NEED to).

For me, what really makes a family it's kinda a mix of both definitions. Isn't it funny that everyone is right in a certain part of what family is? (but it makes sense, at the end of the day, everybody is part of one or will be, so you can't be wrong or, at least, not at all) .

Family is people who have lived experiences similar to yours that will guide you because they decided to do so. And I find beautiful. And I know this that I'm saying is not new. But it's something everyone needs to realise. And words don't occupy space, so here they are. Also, reading it and even vocalise it is necessary sometimes. Thoughts can be buried in fear, emotive actions, such as reading it or finding someone who shares your thoughts, can't be left apart, just fought, but they'll end up winning.

After knowing what family is, I know that I have the best. And I'm not exaggerating. It's not big, but it's mine. And I wouldn't change it.

Before we end up, I've come to find curious the concept of chosen family. Family doesn't appear just because. Family is not magic, the only magic there is what you can feel (at risk of sounding corny af) when you're together. And it doesn't need to be necessarily romantic, the person you love the most could be someone that comes imposed such as your brother, a friend you met in hs or your boyfriend. Who knows? But family is not chosen, family is forged like a sword that could slash all the badness.

I've got so much left to say, but my fingers don't know how to type their way through these feelings. Writing this has taken several days (and it's been honestly thanks to someone I consider like family overcoming his fears, which has made me not only write this but to post it). I don't know why because words have come like a rush, like a cascade. Simply, I wanted to use the best letters, the best points and comas, the best spaces. I feel that it's been this way due to the emotional attachment I've got to it (and honestly, everyone has it). I'm finding this repetitive, so i might cut now.

Long story short, family loves you, knows you because they have lived with and through you. And it's just good. I love my (chosen) family.

-Dimi.

[justanotherfanaccount]

shadow and bone s2e4 reaction

everyone's reactions to the engagement 😳

zoyas back to herself hahah

bitch ass...she is not ruined (she is ruination)

damn...openly kissing right after your engagement announcement?? 👀 yes...I see nothing going wrong

ope...guess who was right and who's brother saw that!!

what is this boy doing??? (baghras finger) God damn

they really made baghra a better (nicer) person in this version though...

"it'll give me some comfort to know you're with me" is the nicest thing kaz can say hahaha

"if the plan goes awry" ...book kaz's plans never go awry...they just turn into plan f

"kinda like your face" IS THAT THE RIP-OFF "maybe I liked your stupid face" !?!?! IT BETTER NOT BE

ok jesper guessing what kaz is gonna say was amazing top notch quality...one of my new favorite moments

...this is also crooked kingdom...(the costumes)...it SCARES ME

...ope...nina is in this plan...she might ruin it (she hasn't really been a CROW yet...she cares more about Matthias at the moment and Pekka can give her that)

anndd...that happened sooner than I expected

it took kaz almost a whole book to forgive jesper for ACCIDENTALLY telling people they were leaving town...idk how he's gonna forgive nina for PURPOSELY doing this

love alina learning the cut...get it girl

also Tamar and Nadias chemistry 👀👀 I see you (ps Tamar is so gorgeous how do I focus with her on screen 😭)

David's actor is so good! the pain in his voice when he mentions genya 🥺🥺

"I share no bond with kirigan" 😳 girl is done with him

"it's a little unsettling how you talk about him like he's someone else" get it mal! I love that line

please be a kaz plan please be a kaz plan please be a kaz plan please be a kaz plan

inej saving the people on the ship 😭😭 I love her so much

again I say...please be a kaz plan please be a kaz plan... how else does he forgive nina?

this is literally crooked kingdom...the fake plague?

YES ITS A KAZ PLAAANNN

I KNEW IT I LOVE KAZ PLANS

wylan 🥰 (it was such a short scene...I just love him)

jesper in his costume brooo

hell yeah I love crazy kaz

"you'll never find your son in time" badass shit

start begging Pekka. start begging.

honestly...not mad that they moved this plot up sooner cuz there is still a lot that happens in six of crows and crooked kingdom with van eck and the ice court...this gets Pekka out of the way

aahhhhhh freddy is an amazing kaz!!!!

right after his big Pekka throw down he looks at jesper and nina like he was ashamed he learned his secret and it just ahhhhh

tolya and his poetry hahaha loovee

damn nikolais brother whose name I forgot! rude!

Vasily...it was said

ew...don't kiss her hand vasily...nasty

his son being okay gets me though 🥺 the little boy didn't do anything wrong and kaz knows that

"you could come with me" for being so good at flirting with everyone...i love how bad he is at it with the people he actually likes

"I can't make you any promises, or predict what might happen between us. but I can tell you that, I'd like to find out." CRIES 😭😭

ok imma be honest...I got a bit of wesper in e4 spoiled for me because I opened tumblr and THERE IT WAS and was SO UPSET because I love their slow burn

it just seems like they rushed it...they barely know each other...GIVE ME MY SLOW BURN

but also this scene is really cute

BUT WHY WE MOVING SO FUCKING FAST BRO

...I went back and rewatched the scene because as I said in a previous post...I always rewatch wylan scenes and

WYLANS LITTLE TURNED AWAY SMILE AFTER JESPERS SPEECH OMGGG HES SO ADORABLE

kaz being mad at inej but just because he was worried about her 🥺

"weak link" this bitch is so bad at feelings...we all know you love her

I just know that if we could see in his head like the books he'd be yelling at himself

I love nikolai "wear it that is...not punch me"

this scene is like word for word! love!

Vasily gives me slimey vibbeess

I'm so excited for this scene

AND HERE WE GO

BRO WAS LITERALLY RIPPED IN TWO

darkling really just walked past alina like 🚶‍♂️

I love the darklina scenes thouggghh they're done so well to the book!!

is it bad to say that I expected genya to be...worse than she is??? 👀

like girl was described as missing an eye and basically looking almost non-humanlike due to the torture she endured

but now she has like some scratches on her face

"do you see him?" 👀 same alina...same

(imma just put this here in my small shameful way but...the darkling looks really hot when he's trembling with anger 😗...)

[iove33]

CAN I HAVE MY POOKIE DOOKIE CIEL FANFICYION😝 me and him MUST be dating 🤭😝

OFC but he’s mine 🫶😘

Ciel x reader

Ciel was waiting in his office wishing his cousin would stop crying already . Yes his cousin not his fiancé he was breaking off the engagement for you the light of his life the thing that kept him atleast a little sane not like the squeaky blonde in front of him finally fed up he stood up and threw a handkerchief at her and walked out the door sitting in the drawing room waiting for you to arrive , you were late .

Your pov <3

*shit im late * you thought not really rushing though I mean your usually late anyways (Yk I’m right) finally adding the final touch to your make up you add a pearl clip to your hair annoyed from it being in your face you call you guard /sevant / maid to come along heading out the door your attendant helps you onto the beautiful carriage it was a white carriage with light blue highlights (white swan ) carefully the door is shut and you’re on the way watching the scenery as you get there .

Ciels pov : Elisabeth is pissed the young girl storms over to ciel “how could you be so mean ceill!” “Lissy you need to understand I’m not in love with you , just leave you’ll get over it “ ciel rolls his eyes finally Sebastian appears and leads her out but just as she’s faced to the door you’re there just about to knock.

Your pov :

I almost burst out laughing though I do feel bad lissy did betray you in the beginning she knew you liked him when you were little but she still asked for an engagement her face was red she pushed passed me she knew but I simply walked in ciel was sitting in the drawing room I suppose waiting for me he looked up from what he was doing and his face lit up standing up and fondling my face giving me a quick kiss he just stared at me for a hot minute but then he asked me if I was ready to go , we’re going to a pastry shop (sorry if h like spicy ) .

Ciels pov : I see her my soon to be fiancé after Elisabeth reports to her father I ask if she’s ready and she gives me a nod I call Sebastian and we leave I help her in the carriage the carriage is black with dark blue highlights(black swan) I step inside sitting next to her I lean my head against her (he’s a lil zesty ) she was so pretty I just stared at her lightly ( low key sounds 😦)

Readers pov : he was staring at me he looked like a puppy looking at his owner I slip my hand into his leaning my head against his and looking out the window finally at turtle pace we arrive at the shop Sebastian stopped the carriage and got out to help us down though ciel seemed a bit jealous and pushed him aside to help me down not letting go of my hand he lead me into the shop we ordered * wtv drink and pastry u want and he orders a strawberry shortcake and his normal tea with sugar * you sit down with him and start talking he asks you about your day though not why you were late because he was used to it (he didn’t yell at u like Yk who ☠️) you talk and laugh and eat and then both of you finish it was getting late ciel payed (sugar daddy 😜🤞) and you got in the carriage and rode back to the mansion you returned and and there you smell a delightful smell it was dinner steak (or ur fav idk 🤷‍♀️) ciel leads you to the dining room and pulls out the chair closes to him you sit down and he slides you in .

Ciels pov : you finish dinner but ciel didn’t want you to leave “will you stay for the night it’s rather late ?” (Ofc pooks 😍🫶) she reasponds a short alright

Y’all snuggle and fall asleep 💋 it’s kinda short might be cringe but wtv

[mysicklove-main]

Is there anything else you wanna rant about with “your new pack” ?

u just want me to make-out with u don't u 🙄 🙄🙄

but yes sure i can talk for hours, especially since im working on the next chpt currently. (might take bout a week to post tho considering im so busy)

for everyone else not reading this fic, I will post your requests and other stuff after i finish the next chapter!!!

to begin with, i dont know how the hell to make everyone have equal amount of time shown. I want everyone to like all characters, but i accidentally write way more for specific characters than others which is unfair i feel to my (very fictional characters who dont give a fuck) boys. for example, think bout how much we see Keigo compared to Izuku. Its just hard to do it with 5 different ppl so.

I want to rewrite all my beginning chapters bc I feel like i rushed it thinking it was going to be a short story. But here i am, 79k+ words in and the beginning i feel is so so so bad. like i can't even reread it bc i cringe. but i am also so lazy and rlly dont want to rewrite it lol so i just pretend it doesn't exist.

comments, mean way too much to me. Like all writers i love getting a notification that someone commented on my fic, but now its getting to the point where im like, "damn this chpt didn't get many comments, did i do something wrong?" so that's embarrassing and i def need to chill and be grateful for what i have. Im working on it.

Eijiro, Izuku, Shoto are so fucking hard to write and Katsuki and Keigo are so easy to write. Its so strange that im struggling with Izuku, bc he is my favorite, but im trying to show that he is a little fucked up from his past but I also dont want to write him as super quiet. Idk i feel like i kinda brushed off his trauma and i didn't mean to. so that sucks. with Eijiro his actions are easy, simply cause i wrote him as someone to be very touchy and affectionate off the bat. plus he talks alot so. but his internal thoughts are so fucking difficult to write. like what are you thinking bout?? you know she is your mate, but he is trying to get his best friend to get with you. it is so hard. Shoto is the complete opposite. I dont know how the hell he would react in different situations, bc he is more quiet out of the boys, but I want to also show that he is also trying his best too. his deranged thoughts are easy to do, but everything else is a wreck. i think he is the hardest to write for by far.

speaking of shoto his character is so inconsistent. idk if ppl notice, but i do. in the beginning his is more obsessive and has the most negative thoughts. he kinda crazy, u feel me? now, i dont write as much of his creepy perverted thoughts. i just kinda forget to. so now he feels kinda bland and i need to figure out how to bring back some excitement back to his character. maybe this chapter ill go back to the creepy, obsessive, thoughts. it was so fun to write. this all goes back to how hard shots is to write.

I switch perspectives alot and I hope ppl understand what's going on and who is thinking what. I think I have a mix of second person (obvi, with the "you") and 3rd person. bc i narrate others reactions to the situations, and kinda treat Y/N as a character in the story, not as your self. does that make sense??? idk.

since hybrid stories are my fav, i would like to write more, but in different scenarios. for example, another Y/N x Wolf! Katsuki fic, but this katsuki would be a diff one from the other wolf katsuki in Your New Pack. Like i did with the Bunny! Izuku Headcannons. That izuku is diff than Your New Pack one. but would ppl be bored of it?? ik i will never lol.

i wish i could post a poll on who ppl like the best on ao3, just bc im curious who has the most fanboys. (it would prob be keigo tho lol)

i got bored of katsuki wearing the muzzle in the house, so i just trashed it. def poor writing thing to do, but idc at this point, it would throw off my plans for chpts if he was always wearing the muzzle.

sorry i talk alot, but hey u asked for it.

[violetlearnschinese]

today is 6/30/2024 i just wanna write up a log of the things that i've tried so far i guess

i feel like my chinese learning journey is kinda interesting bc . i'm more addicted to trying to innovate/revolutionize/optimize how to learn chinese more than actually learning chinese . and sure some of that could be attributed to instant gratification or wtvr, but also i am also rly addicted to trying to solve physics-esque/mathy problems and that's just what my brain is inclined towards doing, like if it recognizes smth as mathy and nonoptimal then it'll compulsively search for a solution lol . usually this activity doesnt actually turn out to be super productive (and a lot of the time it can seem like im just Wildly Overcomplicating things, and there's definitely an argument for that, yes) but i believe it's at least Somewhattt useful + at least i enjoy the rush (sometimes) + maybe one day ill finally get some Good idea and then ill make millions !!! or maybe that is just what i tell myself to cope . Lmao . anyway.

chinese course at brown

hellochinese

made the whole diagram thing (i was so anal abt this (and esp its application to music) and eventually changed opinion to yeah sure it was correct but not a good way to approach learning bc kids arent just magical sponges but instead the reason that they learn quickly is bc 24/7 private tutor (their mother) + fast iteration)

anki spoonfed chinese too hard

may 23 night - may 24 day

call w regan, she inspired me to just go thru my chinese textbook bc she made me think damn maybe i should just try being normal for once

went thru half of chinese textbook

felt like i wasnt rly learning well past lesson 5 (and lessons 1-5 were mostly review anyway)

may 24-25 ish

found lazychinese.com comprehensible input

found other CI people existed

searched through a Lot, couldnt find much at my level, either way too easy for total beginner or too hard nothing to grasp onto or just no variety of sentence structures

may 25 night

salena sent me the gay guy i could sorta understand him, like i could latch on to smth

coded the thing

went over the video w transcript for a day or two

may 26 day

saw the baby in pool

may 26 night

watched n followed funny easy chinese ig/tiktok accts

may 26/27

tried peppa pig / cartoons / stories on yt / etc, still too hard

may27

up until now, really mostly input little output

peppa pig longest sentence

turned on chinese keyboard

chatgpt convo

texting w friends

wow im not bad

hearing is impt, then pure imitating, then say it while pinyin, then understand

u will not see gains intra-day 1 bc gains r slow obv u need multiple days etc wtvr 2 bc gains happen during Sleep (ie After the learning session, Not During)(analogy to gym, u dont get stronger inside of one session, ur muscle builds up After the session is done)(i notice improvement after one or two days)

do many short sessions, but also include some long sessions

imitating a sentence/paragraph whole-part-whole . listen to the whole thing, then split into parts, then put the parts together . like learning a piano piece . (also this is fractal - if too big, split up)

around this time i tried brute forcing comprehensible input via lazychinese.com, but found it too slow/unoptimal/wtvr

flirting w krashen's hypothesis and i see so many success stories abt krashen (e.g. https://www.reddit.com/r/languagelearning/comments/wetbjo/i_learned_english_through_magic_and_input_krashen/)

this was interesting too, i forgot what i got out of it but it was interesting (https://www.reddit.com/r/languagelearning/comments/r9g1s3/i_immersed_in_spanish_for_900_hours_without_any/)

eventually i disagree w krashen and think he's stupid bc my brother cant speak tagalog

opinion abt tutors

also found out that it lines up with more modern language acquisition theories and critiques of krashen: swain's comprehensible output + dekeyser’s skill building

hypothesis abt memorizing stories might be better than flashcards

like a memory palace but it's stories not palaces

du chinese analysis failed (unique word density starts at 12% then goes to 6%)

i think about here i stopped being so anal about the whole ... diagram that was rooted in kids being sponges

i dont hate language classes as much

trying to brute force grammar

current hypothesis/method:

trying to brute force grammar

same hypothesis abt memorizing stories to learn vocab, but now using AI generated stories (unique word density starts at 32% then goes to 20%. much better!)

build a huge foundation (learn lots of textbook grammar and vocab) (get lots of clay), then iron it out (practice listening/speaking/reading/writing/wtvr to acquire more natural idiomatic expressions and also just increase your speed/skill etc etc) (roll the clay)

[mollisangelus]

Hey hon! I really love your writing! You are amazing, I was hoping I could ask for a NSFW steamy Kiri x Fem Reader x Bakugo? I see Kiri as a gentle giant, full of praise, body worship and a breeding kink and Bakugo as a mean dom, possessive/affectionate degredation and a breedimg kink of his own. I hope this isn't too much, everything else totally creative freedom. Again, I love your stories. 🤗🖤 Hope you're doing well!

A/N: I totally agree, that's absolutely how they would be, and I think Bakugou would only be affectionate because of Kirishima. I find it totally easy to write for them, so this kinda came out, I hope you like it!! Also, I'm so happy you love my stories, that makes it totally worth posting. Sorry it took so long to finally post! 😭🥰 it's short because since I'm back, I wanted to get back to my fic as soon as possible!

TW: Smut, degradation, breeding kink

♡———♡

Bakugou hated nothing more than when you both started without him, however, Kirishima was needy. Emotional, physically, mentally, sexually, especially sexually. He always seemed to bring you into this position, already spread on his cock, bouncing on his lap, screaming to whoever would listen just how good his massive cock felt. He loved it, ate it up. Orgasm, after orgasm. You had told him you needed to clean up before Bakugou came home, told him he couldn't find out.

Yet the horror that washed over your face as the door was slammed open just as both of your highs started to come down. You knew despite how much blood had rushed to her face before, it was completely drained.

"You fucking brat." Gulp.

Heavy steps made there way to you, and Kirishima made no move to protect you. In fact, in twitched while inside of you, and you knew he planned this. Yes, he was your gentle cuddle bug. He loved to take care of you, make you feel like you were an absolute goddess, he'd use you till you were shaking and crying. Insatiable, especially when you had agreed to stop birth control and such. It was just so much worse when he started to pump as much baby maker inside of you as he could. Bakugou was just as bad, if not worse. It was then when you noticed this other side of Kirishima, the side that liked to see you ruined so he could put you back together, and it was an absolute plus that Bakugou was riled up himself.

Bakugou's heavy breath had you stiffened, if the anxiousness and fear didn't already do that. You were flush against Kirishima, without much room for you to move. Bakugou loved the look you were giving him, although, he'd much rather you be a crying, incoherent mess for him instead. He was a brat tamer after all, and he loved when you got spicy so he could put his little slut back in place.

"If you wanna act like a slut, we'll treat you like one." His blazing eyes left you at that, "Ei, bend her over and stand so I can shove my cock down her throat."

Kiri, the obedient person he is, did as he was told. He was already hard and ready for the next round. Bakugou's jaw was hard, but you knew he wasn't actually mad. He might be tough now, but he was always the best with aftercare. You were bent down, not daring to speak a word. You opened your mouth, hoping he'd like you being good.

"I knew you were such a whore, look at you. Mouth already open. Fuck, I'm gonna ruin your throat, Princess. You've already got me hard as rock." Bakugou was already groaning, and you could feel phantom jaws at your throat from past experiences.

He stood there though, as if he was waiting on you. A few moments go by and when it hits you, you're mentally killing yourself. Kirishima hadn't moved inside of you at all, and it was making you antsy, and on edge. In all of it, you rushed to get his pants down and his cock free, but you knew you were in for it now.

Eventually it was, and as soon as it was free, your hair was imprisoned. A harsh grip to your scalp, he shoved his cock right in your face. A little bit of precum smearing on your cheek. "Fuck Babe, I'm gonna make this messy..."

Your core tightened, butterflies swarming your stomach. Finally the tip was finding your mouth, and you were eagerly taking it in. Then, it was shoved in, gagging you on the monster length. He wasn't as thick as Eijirou, but he made that up in length. It was already pressing to the top of your throat, and you had just started. He grinned down at you, a very Bakugou grin, and then looked to Shark Boy. "Ruin her."

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[cutelittlevamp]

Could I pretty please ask for some Yandere Zagreus with a shade maid who is responsible for cleaning rooms, particularly his bedroom? I would fall out in the best of ways if you wrote this request 💕💕💕

Hey there^^ hope you had a nice weekend

I hope you like the oneshot a little :)

stay healthy^^

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Being a maid might not have been how you imagined your ‘afterlife’ to be but it wasn’t that bad. You got to stay in the house of Hades, not having to move on to … wherever they would send you. It was actually quite nice.

Recently you had been given the duty of cleaning the prince’s chamber. You had seen Zagreus before but you never really had a chance to talk to him and he was still the prince so you probably shouldn’t.

Cleaning his room was … quite the task. The first time you stepped inside it you were kinda shocked at the state it was in. Had anyone been cleaning this room before you were assigned to it? You guessed not.

Either way, after a short sigh you rolled up your sleeves and started working. It was hard to say how long you were at it when you heard someone enter. You had wanted to apologise to him that you weren’t finished yet but after you had explained why you were inside his room in the first place he actually apologised to you about the mess it was.

“Must have taken you hours to tidy it up like this.”

Then he smiled at you and you just looked at him, dumbfounded.

In the beginning you were a bit awkward around him but he was easy to get along with and you soon took a liking to him. He was a very good friend.

After a while he also stayed with you longer while you worked. Not just rushing through the room but actually staying with you to talk. Just about random things. About what he was doing when he left the house and his task to find his mother.

The more time passed the longer your conversations got - and more personal. You couldn’t even say anymore when and how he first asked you about your life before you had died.

Before you knew it he seeked you out not only when you were tidying up his room but also when you were busy cleaning some of the other rooms. One could almost call him clingy at this point. It was kinda cute but you didn’t know how to deal with it.

It only got worse after his mother returned to the Underworld.

“Zag, I really need to leave now. I still have my duties.” “But I need you here!”

He was pouting like a little child. How could you refuse him?

There are others who can tidy up the other rooms. Can’t you see that it’s important you stay close to him at all times? Even if he’s out it calms him so much to know that you are safe and sound in his bedroom. You’ll greet him when he returns, yes?

“Why should you go anywhere else when all you need to do is be with me? I couldn’t bear the thought of losing you. You don’t want to hurt me, right?”

And if the guilt trap doesn’t work? Well, even Than could be chained up to be kept in place. Why shouldn’t that work with you, too?

Not that Zagreus would ever do that … or would he?

[saltymongoose]

Oh, YAY!!! I thought about this one right after you posted the first revival kiss!

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So, the Player's revival kisses are great, right? Less work for the Player when it comes to healing and it's enjoyable for their vessels too! Everyone wins.

But what if the Reader starts getting a bit too used to reviving their vessels with a kiss?

It's an interesting feeling and it's starting to grow on them because it feels nice.

They get so used to it, that they want to try doing it out of battle. Maybe it feels different when they aren't trying to keep their vessels from croaking?

-I mean, they've got four attractive beings to test this idea out on-

But how would they approach them about this?

Would they pull one of them aside after a mission and just ask them to make out with them in some alleyway? It would probably be from the rush of adrenaline from the mission, but they still had a chance of getting caught.

Or would they wait until they return to the base before springing the question onto their very lucky vessel? It would be a bit more private, but the Player might have to wait longer.

Or maybe you have some better ideas of how they would ask! :)

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Anyways, that's just my silly little thoughts going nuts.

Thanks again for everything you do! I'll be busy making more ideas!

~Lovebug Anon ❤️🐞

Omg this is amazing! You're a complete genius, Lovebug Anon. :D I wrote a long response to this initially, but decided to make some short headcanons again. It gets suggestive, but nothing too bad. Just making out. 👍

[Part 2] The Player's Kisses Restore Health ft. Hank, Sanford, Deimos, & 2BDamned

(TW: !Suggestive!, Yandere, Obsessive Behavior)

It would probably be a nice feeling to do this for them, since it's likely that the warm, healing sensation that occurs slightly affects you as well. There's no harm in choosing to heal them this way more often either; with their rather enthusiastic responses to it, it certainly seems like they enjoy it quite a lot. Plus, given how good it felt for you too, it made sense to indulge in the feeling a little more. It helped either way, so there was no problem with it.

Beyond this, it would still be good to try and see what your abilities could do. It was a part of your responsibilities as their Player to assist them in any way you could. If anything, it wouldn't make sense not to try kissing them when they're not close to death-just to see what would happen, of course.

You'd be really short on time if you decided to pull one of them into an alley, though, because the others would be very quick to notice your disappearance. Your chosen vessel would be slightly confused at your hastiness but would follow without question, because it's you of course. And then you break the question to them.

"Okay, so listen, I was thinking about maybe trying the kiss thing outside of combat? Just to see if it's any different, y'know? I-its fine if you don't want to, I just like doing it with you so I figure I'd ask."

If you chose Deimos for this, he'd probably do something embarrassing like exclaiming a cracked "Yes!" as soon as the question left you, before blinking and immediately realizing that he overdid it. And also attempting to "amend" his response.

"Uh, yes, I'd like that."

He's honestly really excited at this, so much that he can barely stand still. His face is bright red and you immediately notice the heat radiating off of him, which is funny in this circumstance. (You've found that it happens when you fluster Deimos a lot, almost like his pyrokinesis is on the verge of acting up. It's kinda cute, to be honest.)

You reach up and grip his face yourself before pulling him in, and he leans into you with a pleased sigh, pressing his lips against yours. You press at the seam of his mouth with your tongue and he melts into you with a whine, hands coming to clasp your shirt tightly. He really hadn't been expecting that.

Sanford can't find it within himself to respond verbally, just nodding quickly in response to your question as his face turns crimson. He even tries to hide the wide grin that starts to tug at his lips, but he can't help himself. He's gentle when he kisses you; cupping your face with one of his callused hands and softly brushing his lips against yours.

He lingers for a few moments before making a move to pull back slightly -since he doesn't want to cross any of your boundaries-but he inhales sharply once you pull him back in. You can immediately tell that your unexpected actions had an effect on him, feeling the way he shivers when you put a hand on his bare chest. He jolts with a gasp when you nip his bottom lip. How cute.

Hank would be really enthusiastic at this, and you giggle at just how much he's shaking in response to your question. He'd have to lean down pretty far to actually fulfill your wish, given the drastic height difference between the two of you. Or better yet he could just pick you up instead, leaning you comfortably against one of the walls as you pull his mask down to reveal his face. He leans into you immediately, smothering you in his presence as he eagerly presses into you.

Something you've realized early on is that Hank doesn't exactly have a lot to kiss with, given his metal jaw. So he uses his tongue instead, curiously nudging yours as he quite literally invades your mouth, running over your teeth and into every crevice it can reach. You exhale through your nose but welcome it nonetheless, because it might be odd (since it's weirdly long?), but it actually feels quite nice.

You still have to pull away rather quickly though, because you are at high risk of being found out. Although Hank seems rather displeased if his desperate attempts to kiss you again say anything about it. He interrupts your view when you try to see if the others are coming and you try to stifle your laugh at his indignant look. He just wants to feel you again, uncaring of whether your other vessels see you two like this. If anything he would welcome it. Let them witness how much you really favor him.

You'd have to use a more private approach on 2BDamned regardless since he's typically back at the base anyway. He'd stare at you for a moment once you asked, and a long moment at that. You were about to awkwardly ask him to disregard the question when he straightened up and coughed into his fist, trying to compose himself. (He honestly never expected you to ask him to do this with you, with how the others might've been closer to you. He actually thought he imagined it for a second.)

"I'd be happy to help you with that, more than happy, even." 'I'd do anything for you, you know that,' he wants to add, but hesitancy nags at him.

Then he has to wait until you two can finally be alone, which is rare enough with how the others often interrupt your time together. You'll never see him as openly impatient as that day, bouncing his knee under the table and trying to do paperwork that he quite obviously isn't focused on for hours on end. He even gets irritable with the others, just wishing that they'd go off and do anything else and leave you with him for a while.

But once they're gone, he only feels a little embarrassed at the blush that colors his face underneath the mask and bandages you help him remove. He gives you what he hopes is a charming smile, which only warms further when you gently trace the scar tissue around his mouth as you cup his face and lean in to kiss him.

But unlike he was expecting, you don't stop, moving your lips against his and pulling him even closer in a way that makes him weak. His hands tremble ever so slightly as they move to rest on your waist.

The feeling for all of them is a lot better now that they aren't on the verge of death. For one, they aren't weak and barely grasping to consciousness, so they can really appreciate the feeling of you against them. The warmth of your presence is almost burning, but it's even more pleasant than they'd imagined. Yet it only ignites their need for more. You'd been so generous to them already, surely you'd allow them that too, right?

[kusanalogy]

Mother~!

Characters: Yelan x adopted daughter!reader

A/n: this was requested by @kujousarah007 ^ㅇ^ Uhh i think i got a bit carried away writing this 😭 it kinda became short towards the end bc i wrote it at like 1am yesterday lol. reader is a bit shy btw, but i tried not to make it too much

warnings: reader has depression according to the request, but their may be potential misinformation about depression. I made it not so depressing but more fluffy so i could avoid mistakes. Proofread, but in a rush so there might be some things grammatically incorrect

word count: aprox 1.1k words

•Yelan found you on a mission sleeping on the grass under a tree, with a little basket beside you. There she found freshly picked berries

"This must be her food.." She thought

•You sensed her presence, waking you up from your nap

You woke up facing a person you didnt recognize. The unknown woman turned her eyes to you "Ah- Hello there, kid."

"Mhmmm.. Hi there" you rubbed your eyes to see her clearly "W-what are you gonna do to me?"

"Dont worry, I wont do anything bad. I just happen to see you while- going for a walk!" It was a half-lie. Yes she did just happen to see you, But she wondered if you knew where her target; a group of treasure hoarders were.

"Oh! Sorry for the misunderstanding. A group of strong men had recently stole my backpack and.. I thought you were one of them!"

"Strong men... stealing... Could you describe they're looks?" The unknown woman asked.

"Are you gonna help me find my backpack~?" You stood up, looking at her exictedly.

She reached out a hand to you "Sure. I have other stuff to deal with that group though. Just sit back and watch, alright? Unless you wanna cover your eyes."

Yayyy!!! Thank you uh.. ma'am~!" You happily held her hand, Exicted to watch her deal with them.

"Call me yelan by the way. You?"

"I-I'm y/n, nice to meet you yelan!"

Yelan smiled and continued to ask you more questions about the group, giving her more clues. not long after, You both managed to locate them.

You listened in amazement on how she explains the plan "So complicated... but fun!" Your mind wandered, thinking about different outcomes and turning them into scenarios

After that, you soon became fond of yelan. She treated you the way noone treated you before, Making you feel a.. different feeling.

"Im sorry y/n.. I have to get back now."

"B-but mama... I want you to stay with me!" You stared at her with puppy eyes "Let me come with you!!! Pretty pleaseeee with a cherry on top?"

She was surprised once you said "mama" she sighed, realizing you got that attached to her

"We can meet up here next time, Its getting late." She attemptee to politely answer

You shook your head and grabbed a part of her clothing. "Nuh-uh. Im not gonna sleep alone somewhere far away. If you're not gonna let me come then i'll just have to follow you! If you somehow manage to get away then ill f-find you tomorrow."

She could sense the sadness in your words. Well, Theres nothing she can do.. you seemed to be really clingy. She's dealt with children like you before, Many times. But how come torwards you, it was unalike? who could resist a poor child like you? Why did it feel... familiar? "How am i going to explain this to the agents.." She pondered

Once you both arrived in liyue harbor, She and her men set up a little room for you to settle in. You cleaned yourself up and sat on the comfortable matress.

•Your eyes roamed across the small room, you dont know why but.. it made you feel a bit emotional. Noone has ever done this for you, It made you feel a bit special.

"How is it, little one?"

You jump as you didnt notice your so called "saviour" standing behind the half-opened door.

"O-oh mothe- yelan! Its very pretty. Not like where i usually settle."

She chuckled "Mother, huh? You got comfortable really quick." Well, its not like she got comfortable too. She wont loosen up that quick though. You never know, a child could be involved with something unfortunate.

You went up to her and stared at her face. Yelan knew you wanted something, so she bent down to your level

"Its time to sleep now, y/n. We can chat tomorrow." Yelan said.

"I have one request, w-will you stay with me? just for a bit?"

.

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Now, this moment prooves her speculations that you're having a rough time with your mental health. Seeing you having trouble falling asleep, moving a lot, all that. The sad part is, You dont notice it. You got used to living this poor life given by fate.

•The day after, she started to take care of you, Although she was always away due to her duties, you didnt mind.

•Sometimes you'd accidently call her "mother" and she'd frequently tease you about it and imitates by calling you "dearest daughter" with a hint of sarcasm

"Yelan, mother, a friend or a mere stranger. I can be any of those. I can play whoever you want me to be."

•Yelan taught you lots of stuff growing up! Most of it was on how to communicate with people, the rest, she wanted you to learn on your own so you could be independant.

•When she was away, She'd always send you letters to remind you that she hasnt forgot.

•But getting older, you soon start realizing things.

•Its the way she kept lying. You knew your mother's job was to lie, no doubt she lied to you multiple times. But as you lay down in the middle of your bed, dozens of thoughts going thru your mind, what made you believe her?

•You get up to look at your calendar.

"Mother said she'd be back yesterday. What happened to that? hrm, another lie yet again." You spoke to yourself.

"Listen to me. yes i lie, you know me. You know what i do. But i promise you one thing.."

The familiar voice made sure to speak clearly, though how it spoke so suddenly startled you.

"Ye-yelan..?"

"Missed me, my favorite y/n?" She slightly teased

You jumped to embrace her, feeling warm again. "Im listening! Tell me the promise."

"...That i'll always come back." She cleared her throat and continued. "That is the one thing that will never be untrue. I have a reason for keeping you as far as possible from my work and not telling you everything, you know? Well, one of those reasons are to keep you safe. Its for that very promise. I understand your feelings and- i apologize if i couldnt fulfill several of your wishes due to work. I'll make it up to you, next time theres another minor problem im tasked to do, i'll bring you along with me just like how i did the first time i met you. Are we clear?"

Your eyes widened, then you smiled. The genuine one you only showed to her.

"There we go, now you're smiling. Keep it up." Yelan said.

"Watch me, i'll use the technique you taught me when that time comes!"

Yelan looked thru your window, and back to you. "Exicted again, hm? Lets get you to bed now, the days will go by faster."