#yes ik it's the day after Christmas idc

[yonceknowles]

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Do you have any favourite Christmas movies or music?

~Santa ❄️

i guess what i watch the most:

the family stone

last holiday

this christmas (2007)

black christmas (1974) (yes ik BUT it's one of my favorite horror films in general)

it's a wonderful life

meet me in st. louis (well i count it as one idc)

the holiday

friday after next

holiday affair (1949)

the polar express

a charlie brown christmas

the princess switch

boxing day (2021)

music: my top ones of the moment aren't traditional ones BUT

8 days of christmas by destiny's child

100 degrees by kylie minogue & dannii minogue

count the days by girls aloud

santa is me by coco jones (+ her christmas ep coco by the fireplace)

sleigh ride by tlc

last christmas by wham!

all i want for christmas is you by mariah carey

everything on christmas & chill by ariana grande, can't forget her

annnd shameless plug: i have a huge xmas list that has practically everything, so if y'all like christmas music: xxx

[acupofselfcontrol]

Big tw for 3d topics, su1$1de, and s3lf h@rm vent

I don't deserve to be fucking alive today I realized I have dad issues and it was not a good day and I just needed some kind of comfort so I ate a TON and now i'm gonna be all bloated tomorrow, the good news is i'll be out of the house and my parents will be gone so I'm not gonna fucking eat, I want to fast for 20 hours (until 6pm tomorrow) and I want to have under 800cals tomorrow (yes this is a lot but i've been eating a lot so it'll be a good jumpstart) my friend who knows abt my ED is sleeping over on new years and i've most certainly gained even though they're an incredible person I feel like they're gonna get really mad about it (they would literally never) yknow in preteen coming of age movies there's those scene where the main character imagines people laughing at them for smt and it's like every person in the room turns around making fun of them until the main character snaps out of it and back into reality well I always thought that was ridiculous until it started happening to me I think about people knowing that I ate and I get these fucking delusions that are SO loud and guess what I felt so incredibly shitty that I barely exercised I was gonna run 8km but instead I just sprinted for like 10 minutes cause I was out with my mom after/while still being incredibly upset abt dad stuff (that she doesn't know about because literally no one in my family knows abt my mental health struggles even though i've had shitty mental health since I was 6) and I didn't want her to see me bawl my eyes out I was also just angry and in a bad mood and didn't want to be out in the cold so came home and I just needed some kind of comfort so I ate and ate and ate and honestly I wouldn't mind how much it was if I hadn't had these mike and ike things cause after eating a whole bunch I noticed a health warning on the label about high sugar and i haven't really bothered with what i'm eating as long as it's under the limit for the last while but sugar still freaks me out and also i've been eating SO many cals on leftover desserts and stuff from Christmas but they're all basically gone and idc what other people do but for me being a junk0rex1c is the worst feeling in the world so starting the end of tomorrows fast im going back to being something of a health nut (ill ease into it but I know myself and starting tomorrow will help a lot) I want to be empty I want to be pure I want to be underweight again I want to be worth something I promised myself I wouldn't weigh in until january to give myself time to get back into a rhythm but god I feel like my friend is gonna think i'm such a fat lier they're gonna stop caring about me because no irl friend in their right fucking mind should be able to stand me and my mom probably knows smt wrongs with me today cause she kept asking if i'm okay but she ship for my parents to give two fucks about my issues sailed a long time ago and fuck today was not a good day for me to realize how much my dads hurt me even though he's a great father he's still fucked me up and he's not a bad guy cause he doesn't know he's done it but god I hate this I HATE THIS if we have to move again or stay here I might as well just kill myself cause i'm never going home and every three fucking years I get my fucking hopes up and every three years me and them are just hurt more and more and I don't fucking know what to do anymore I want to cut into my bones deeper than I ever have before and get on a bus and go back home but I know I won't get that far cause my parents will call the cops when they see that i'm missing and if I cut now then i'll feel just as shitty tomorrow (a day I have to be cheery) and i'll end up eating yknow today weight loss wasn't a big enough motivator but I think punishment is, my jawline was genuinely starting to look good and i've ruined it and I can't cut so i'll starve and ill starve and ill starve until the only the loveable parts of me are left

[talentandsacrifice]

Point prep small #3: Christmas special

[imaketheladiesmcswoon]

i am going to tell you about my melissa tgwdlm hcs now because i want to

me rn:

alrighty let’s start w the el gee bee tees

i hc melissa as an ace lesbian and a trans girl (she/her for now)

also i hc her and ted as being quite close friends coz they just like to gossip about everyone at ccrp

trans woman/trans man solidarity ��

yes i hc ted spankoffski as a trans man but i think you already knew that *glances at icon*

also i made this oc, a person called lotte who works at beanies and in my hc melissa has a crush on herrr

ooo wait lemme make a picrew of her

lotte - they/she - transfem nonbinary ace grayro sapphic (im thinking probably lesbian but i’m not sure yet)

melissa and lotte t4t ace4ace girlfriends <33

also the hc is that they’re one of zoeys theatre friends

as well i hc melissa as being mixed (half white half latina (mexican to be more specific)) and she knows some spanish but isn’t fully fluent

ik most of these hcs are so ooc and random but idc <3

also hc that melissa has a lil lesbian flag on her clipboard and one day ted saw it (before ted and melissa became friends, this was like their first interaction probs like within a week of melissa joining ccrp) and was like “fuck yeah women am i right“ and melissa was so scared but was like “yeah women are great“

about trans melissa i have this hc that melissa had to take time off work to go get her top surgery and when mr davidson asked why she had to take time off she was like “u um t top surgery” and mr davidson was like okay cool

coz melissa was scared he would be like that’s not a valid reason to take a day off

the days she was off everyone was like where’s melissa and mr davidson was like oh she’s having top surgery and everyone immediately texted her like WOOO YOU GET THOSE TITTIES GIRL

lets just say she was very concerned checking her phone after the surgery

i have a hc that the Exact same thing happened with paul when he got his top surgery and that’s why they all immediately knew to text melissa congratulating her

also crack hc that ted sent her a card in the post that had congratulations on your anniversary on but he crossed out anniversary and wrote titties

she magnet-ed the card up on her fridge

also angst time hc that melissas parents cut contact w her when she came out as trans lol

like she was 18 so they didnt legally have to provide for her anymore so they were like bye bye <3

also i hc that melissa has a bunch of siblings that are all cishet but super overly supportive

omg hc that they’re all brothers and they’re all like yeahhh we like women too B)

omg hc that like melissa has no one to celebrate christmas with and ted also has no one coz his parents are transphobic too and he’s joking like “lol what if we celebrated christmas together haha slash jay” and she’s like “haha no but what if slash serious,,,”

also hc that melissa is the ace stereotype of just confused by allosexual ppl

like whenever charlotte or ted are like yeah i have sex she’s just like ew why /hj

omg imagine if one day there’s like an office party or smth and some ppl bring their partners and paul sees melissa with lotte and melissa sees paul with emma and they’re both like YOURE DATING A BARISTA FROM BEANIES AS WELL

paul and melissa are like omg how did we not know that the other was dating a beanies barista too while emma and lotte are like oh hey bestie

imagine charlotte brings sam and lotte is like hey isn’t zoey dating that guy- and melissas like HAHA SHUT UP BABE <3

thats all for now folks B)

[erikalovesss]

Part Two!!!

L. None that I really speak to. It makes me sad but yeah... I have zero connection to any of them. And apparently my baby brother and sister look and act like just like me... and I think she’s even a virgo too...which just makes me so sad. one cause i’m not sure!!! i’m not sure. and two cause i could’ve had a connection i lack.. but my dad and his babies mother is just..... nvm let me just. just relax.

M. ummm yea? idk i feel like I would never forget but genuine regret and change would lead to some types of betrayal being forgiven. ik even as i say some i’m so forgiving and willing to take people back..

N. i love love love canid and larger feline breeds. specifically between arctic foxes, black panthers, and most types of wolves (but arctic anything is soooo cute to me cause they’re warm and cuddily in theory and this drarry story made me fall in love with those little smart beautiful tricksters)

O. Can I just have a cruise around the world? god that’d be amazing. But Bora Bora, London, Seattle, SanFran, Tahiti, Hawaii, Greece, Italy, Orlando (for an extended amount of time so i can go on rides and test myself and learn about the the production of the 3D rides and just not be afraid of heights anymore), Cancun, Morocco, Finland, Columbia (best place to get a tattoo!!!), Haiti (places away from my mother’s home so I can explore more), Spain... literally just take me everywhere pls take me everywhere ... i’m gonna make one of those pin board maps one day of all the places I’ve been and I’m determined to satisfy my dreams. Also study abroad cause yes.

P. This...idk. everything honestly. I’m willing to listen to everything that’s not screamo or techno crap. I love regular & soft pop (fav), and soft rap (fav), and regular rap, and hip hop, and reggae and all types of hispanic music, and kompa, and r&b (fav), and free style people like chance, childish gambino, and jaden smith. i love russ with a passion. gnash. halsey remind me of a different world. rihanna is a good. banks is so touching. ariana grande’s voice touches me. kanye can be an idiot but he use to be a legend. nicki and cardi are both fucking queens idc. hayley k and troye s are revolutionary. harry styles is a fucking icon. hunter hayes and john legend and sam smith and daya and billie ellish and khalid.

you wanna talk music? i can talk about music allllllll dayyyy. and never get bored. and tell you what every song i have loved has ever meant to me. or let you listen and guess for yourself. i can remember every mood and every thought and feeling every musical lyric i loved has ever given me... i love sharing it honestly. music is my life after reading.

Q. lotuses, lilies (lots of meaning to me), roses (specifically red yellow green and blue), sunflowers, and the Heather Flower (also known as the Erica Flower)

R. No.

And those crazy circumstances where a person is being abused and they fall in love with their savior... there’s actually a hero worship thing called the Rescue Romance or Nightingale Effect... where you fall in love w your rescuer or hero and you aren’t even sure it’s really love or gratitude. so um... i would wait. in any circumstance leave who you are with. cheating is not okay. at all.

S. writing stuff i never finish or post and crying. lmao i’m kidding. (i’m not kidding) reading and writing. and sometimes i draw and do studyblr type art work.. kinda self conscious about it tho.

T. my mom.... um... some of my family... and ....... this is hard... certain important people. i’m just gonna say that. that’s my whole answer. important people. i also love reading and music but they didn’t seem that significant.

U. Winter Time.. specifically December... Sure Seasonal Depression exists... but it’s actually one the most giving and loving and real miracle timing parts of the year... and my favorite thing to do is go to the mall and see the holiday decorations and wear red/burgundy and my christmas hat and tell people happy holidays and decorate my tree and eat candy canes and most importantly... buy presents. not for me. my favorite thing in winter time is buying other people presents. i’m so good at it and i love giving to others. it’s the best feelings. i can’t wait till i’m a mom sometimes. like i can wait. but i also can’t wait. or atleast until i have god daughters and sons or neices and nephews omg i can’t wait.

V. tons. i’m gonna hell people. i’m gonna be remembered. not for being popular... for changing... helping the world. that’s my dream. also getting a nobel prize but idk how i’d ever manage that. a girl can dream tho. i also wanna see the world. gotta know the world i’m helping you know?

W. oh. so many things. they keep growing.

X. turn ons

1. pet names like baby, kitten, princess, love, bubba, baby girl, just anything.. all of it.

2. consent. (i don’t think people realize how sexy consent is) (bro if you ask me “can i kiss you?” “is this okay?” “may i-?” ) so good. so so good. so HOT matter of fact. hot af. i like a good passionate i can’t help but kiss you type of kiss.. but if you aren’t explicitly sure that i want it? don’t touch me. also.. if you do that “i can’t help but kiss” kiss and then you pull back and ask “is this okay?” or “can i keep going” i will whimper or whine and beg you to keep kissing me if i want it. i promise you i will. CONSENT IS SEXY.

3. moaning. or just ... I get turned on knowing i’m turning you on. i’m a natural pleaser and teaser. If i can see i’m getting you hot and bothered? god... best shit ever.

honorable mention to:

•full body hugs

•praise (in any form. ik some people get off on being degraded. nah. praise me. tell me how good i’m being for you. that i’m your good girl. how pretty i look. how sweet i am. how sexy i look doing whatever tf. god praise kink. yes. ik. a virgo femme bottom has a praise kink. big shocker there, folks.)

•neck kisses (i’ve never experienced it but i’ve head enough accidental lip brushes that i know i KNOWW i would lose ability to stand)

• being touched at the same time someone is looking in my eyes. it makes me nervous but nothing makes me as turned on as much passion and intensity.

•whispering in my ear (i flinch but it’s not disgust i’m resisting the urge to shiver)

•if you smell good (fuck.. fUCK)

• & finally blatant displays of dominance (recently more in girls than guys becaus guys act entitled and make me lose interest but of done correct than it’s fine) i’m the biggest power bottom someone putting me in my place and just taking care of me is...good

Y. turn offs:

1. ignorance mixed w arrogance. if you just don’t know something it won’t be that bad. but if you don’t know shit and you’re still being a cocky fucker? lol yeah. no.

2. B.O. big thing. i can’t. breath and body. if they stink ... i’ll be turned off. ik certain circumstances don’t allow for certain things. but good hygiene? or atleast fucking smell good. bad breathe and BO is the worst type of deal breaker

3. ummm idk there’s probably another but i can’t think of it rn if it comes to me i’ll come back and edit

Z. And Finally, Uterika, why are you feeling so lonely?

• well uterika, i’ve been feeling kinda lonely can even in room full of people i have no one to connect to or to understand me with the level of strength and intensity i need. and i know new connections take time and effort... ik patience is a must but i’ve invested so much into previous people... given them so much... idk if i’m willing to let myself be bare like that again... to start over. i feel like i’m falling back into a cycle of falling back into people i connected w cause they make me feel safe. but at the same time also feeling brand new? idk .. it’s hard to feel like someone you don’t have history with will invest so much time to get to know you. so far people seem pretty disinterested. and mundane meaningless conversations bore and drain me. i need real deep shit. and i’m not rushing it cause i feel like i now when i touch or meet depth. passion and intensity is visible (well for me anyways) pretty quickly. i mean i have two new friends who i feel have a lot of depth... but i don’t know how sure i am they’ll want to get to know me the same way... new connections scare me. but so do old connections. .... it’s all very scary. putting myself on the line is terrifying... but being alone is even scarier. idk. i’m just lonely rn ig.

Brutally honest hour.

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But i need to make a change bro me just sitting home i got no money for momz to even buy a good quality camera so ppl can watch my videos and to go to marz to make some amazing new tracks and poems about love lol xD but its cool whatever happens it was meant to be i love you lil bro even if somebody try something out there ima defend.

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Run away like sonic lol but if i hear them threaten your name im running back and super man punching all of them idc what they pull out ima fight for my brother forever im not hearing nothing. love you lil bro ima try the coral house and even if they say come back next week i stilll am gona go dance on the train and please ask to donate it.

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