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Just my thoughts—as a fandom hermit of sorts.
Creating for nobody but yourself is actually discouraging when it's done repulsively. You'll feel its hard slap later down the line—unless your inner reader began to enjoy you as an author. They will gradually subside your inner critic and might teach them few lessons in how to appreciate maybe not the work itself—who of us doesn't have an one we dislike in some way?—but the craftwork went behind its creation.
How to do that?
Surprisingly easy.
Watch your creative decisions. Introspect. See yourself in your work.
You are inseparable in some way or another, your reflection is present within it, and by that I imply how you felt writing it and why did you think something would or wouldn't work. The only one who usually know is you, so, if you feel something is wrong, it probably is. The best is the enemy of the good, yes, but I'm not talking about perfectionism. I'm talking about the need to listen to that tingle and being able to assess it before editing.
Perfectionism is, in a sense, artistic pessimism. It tells you everything is wrong but it can't be an objective truth. Then some scenes must be wrong, and alright, good, the field is narrowed down. Which ones? Where? Why? At that point, put the work away for a day or two, then re-open, re-see, realise, that yes, that could be improved, except it isn't a scene. It's a sloppy word choice. It changed the sentence, that avalanched into a little rearrangement, and voila, everything works.
You fight the pessimistic outlook with a little bit of rest.
The more you learn how to treat your work, the more you might grow excited to try new things and not because you want to show them to the world but first to yourself.
That little part of you is who actually matter. Learn to love these little emotion abstractions. Care for the little guy, nurse them, feed them different ideas, styles, work them up to your master and see yourself forming in directions you'd never thought you would be able to simply because them—you—wanted to try something new. It would not matter if those were successful or not; when the entire process is a journey, the output's performance begins to matter very little.
Besides, the little guy would want company—and that's when other people come in. The reader doesn't like negative responses or no responses at all, true. Know who does? Your inner critic.
They're all too eager to overthink things and they're the perpetrator of your pessimism. So make them analyse why something clicks for many people and why something goes under their radar, make them a little analytics-building machine (which is also a skill), and just keep its outputs close in case you're curious how different fandoms or communities work. It's mostly a useless information. But you will be certain about things, and certainty brings comfort.
It will help to find readers in case you'd need more, too. Or if you'd like to meet someone new. But is it a guaranteed method? No, it isn't. Sometimes you'll write the most influential fandom monsterfic and all these people will pass by. Othertimes you'd write the smallest fic in the fandom but all its people will get around it because they liked your take on things or became curious with your ideas—and they can actually stuck around. You may never know. Fandom isn't business, it is rather a wild fair with barely predictable events in its main mystery.
Besides.
You can't make yourself a miracle to everyone; but be the miracle to yourself, and people will notice it and will try to comprehend you. Be Original, they say. They lie. They want the same jacket but red. Or the same jacket but sewn from kelps. Be Familiar But Be Outland-ish. Do your thing, that everybody else does, in your own fascinating way. Be the artist after all, be that bitch and leave people with the art-shaped holes in their thoughts.
I used to play an instrument once. I was bad at it, well, I was taught poorly and was only ever learning how to play from the sheets. It never go outwith or far and the instrument is long-sold, but I'm still able to recall the emotions I had while playing it. Heartbeat was the metronome, the hands were going in perfect synch, the entire body was able to feel the timings, and at some point, it wasn't simply the flow and going along with it. It was being the flow. The architect behind its creation—well, yes, the music wasn't mine, but being able to recreate it and make it sound as it supposed to sound was utterly captivating, enamouring, absolutely wondrous experience.
Years later I became enamoured with the writing—the process of it. If I manage to build the flow correctly and sail down my own rivers with little to no bump, unless planned, I'm overjoyed and amazed.
But will it go far? How well will it perform? Sometimes I do care if I know people might be interested, but beyond that, it's just doing its thing and bringing me joy because it's a puzzle, because it's a never-ending fascination—and because it's even more than that when done in the completely different tongue. And people take to it. Because it looks fun, perhaps, or it's something they had rarely seen before done in the language, or maybe it's just the way I tend to pick words and arrange them. I always get different answers. But what I know for certain: that something I found within me works both for me and people liking my things.
That what matters.
It all might sound a tad bit mental but it's so important to be in harmony with yourself as an author, as a reader, and as your own critic—who else knows you as much as you? Don't forget the people you have—the crowds will come and go, but the friends will stay.
Maybe this is a hot take, but as creative people, our #1 priority in our work should be ourselves.
It is not, AND SHOULD NEVER BE, what would get us the most engagement. Dispel "content creation," popularity, and monetization from your brain. Write, paint, draw what you want to! HOLY SHIT!!!!!!
The people who resonate with it will eventually show up. But the people who don't? Who cares???? The art you personally create is meant to help you heal, to help you express, to bring you joy and pain!!!!
You need to learn how to work on something because you deeply care for it and can revel in that self-satisfaction. Of course recognition feels fucking great! We all want it. We are humans, but you need to stop creating with the idea of other people consuming your work!!!
Give into the art movement. Create a renaissance for yourself. Fuck other people. Be that bitch! People are not going to be in your lives forever, and when you're left to your own devices, you should be able to look at what you've created and fucking love it.
#днявочка: реблог#being rambly at 8am hee hee#yes it can be argued friends aren't easy to make but ask yourself this: do you want friends for their quantity or quality?#it also can be argued that im talking about the unachievable things. but i exist. and i never did imply it's a short journey#and this:#DONT CALL CREATIVE WORK CONTENT#is absolutely correct. you're not a content creator. you are an artist#content is something you put on a website to fill up the space; a filler. art leaves impressions and cut holes and gets stuck with people
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Oh so sweet
Summary: The audacity of some of the people in Asgard. Degrading his pregnant wife. They'll have it coming for them. He'll be coming for them. And you'll be coming too.
Pairing: Soft!Dark!Loki x Pregnant!Wife!Reader
word count: 1.4k+
Warnings: 18+ MDNI, snob degrading reader, rude comments, nipple play, breast milk, public fingering (its better reading it), pregnant reader, choking(f receiving), Loki being mischievous as always, angst, fluff?, SMUT, praise. If i missed anything lmk
A/N: A Wanda reference 😏 Fic did not go the way i wanted. So now i am mad/disappointed at myself. I edited this like 15 times. Tumblr didn't wanna save it. I'm tired too.
@sofilaufeysonn (not exactly like the last fic but yeah)
The Asgardian people are ruthless. They always seem to say what's on their mind. Especially those high class snobs. Loki could say a few things to them too, but he chooses that it is not worth it. He doesn't care about his reputation. He just knows it's not worth the time. They are snobs after all. At least that's what he thought.
Loki would take you everywhere with him. He does not trust anyone to protect you, but him. Yes, some royal guards may follow you both, but they are for Loki. Prince of Asgard. Everyone knows who you are. Loki's wife. The mother of his unborn child. Loki's property. No one is allowed to touch you. No one is allowed to disrespect you. Only him. Loki made sure of it.
Loki, you, and those idiotic guards that follow walk through the Asgardian Markets. More like waddling for you. The gold rings on both yours and Loki's finger shine in the light as you both walk through the market. A matching gold necklace hangs just above the swell of your breast. The gold jewelry shows ownership of you from Loki. The necklace enchanted with Loki's seiðr. A simple gold chain with the letter 'L'. A snake wrapped around the letter 'L'. Everything about the necklace is gold except for the eyes of the snake. Emerald eyes. The eyes alert Loki if anyone has disrespected you if you somehow wandered off. You always wondered off. Always so carefree with him. You just didn't know he enchanted it.
Once again, like many other times, you have wandered off somehow. He knows that he could easily find you, but you haven't been out in a bit considering the growing child you bear. He wants you to enjoy this time.
You wonder absentmindedly. Finding a book stall, you stop. Looking over all the titles. You pick up a few baby books to flip through them quietly. As you do so a snobby voice pipes up, "You can only touch them if you're going to buy them. Insolent brat."
You look up at where the voice is coming from. An old rich lady with a face of disgust. She doesn't let you speak, "By the norns are you even pregnant? You look like you could be hoarding fifteen pillows under that dress of yours. No pregnant woman looks like that! And those breasts of yours, they have to be fake!"
Tears prick at your eyes as the woman continues her degrading. Then you feel Loki standing behind you. He speaks lowly to the woman, "Is there a problem?"
Eyes glare at you as the woman speaks to Loki, "This insolent brat-"
Loki interrupts her with a laugh, "Insolent brat you say?" Loki looks down at you with a mischievous glint in his eyes. "My dear wife is being an insolent brat? How so?"
She can't even answer. The woman's mouth hangs agape. Staring at you and Loki. Loki glances at the woman, "My dear wife is never a brat. Maybe insolent, but never a brat. In fact. She's very obedient. So obedient, she let me fuck her raw to get her pregnant."
It's like everyone in the market knew to get away from the scene. No one in sight. Only the three of you and the guards off to the sides, watching with stale expressions. Loki doesn't even have to look around to know that no one is around. He just glares at the woman who decided to degrade his wife, "You should close your mouth. At the moment you are the one acting insolent. Disrespecting the prince and his wife. Pregnant wife." The woman closes her mouth as fast as possible then bowing her head to Loki and you. Oh what a dumb woman.
The feeling of Loki's arms wrapping around your waist and placing his large hands on your very pregnant stomach comforts you. The tears that threatened to spill down your cheeks were gone in an instant. Loki coos at you, kissing your head softly, as he rubs your stomach. Stutters and stumbles come out of the woman's mouth, within a flash her mouth disappears instantly. Loki. A chuckle sounds deep from Loki's chest. It vibrates your whole body, making you whimper.
Since getting pregnant your damned body has gotten way more sensitive. It doesn't help that Loki is now cupping your breast in his large hands. Rolling your nipples between his fingers through your dress. He insisted that you didn't wear a bra. He loved the way your nipples were always so hard. Always leaking with that delicious sweet milk you'd produce. He loved when your sweet milk seeped through all of your dresses. Like right now. Such a pretty sight. Standing in the Asgardian sun looking like a damn painting.
The woman watches in disbelief as she watches Loki toy with your hard leaking nipples, "Do you believe my wife is pregnant now? Hm!?"
The woman just stares at the tall god.
Loki hums disapprovingly, once again making you whimper with the sensation on your back, "Oh darling~ I don't think this woman believes us. Cats got her tongue."
Loki moves his hands off your breast, making you whimper. He coos at your noises of desperation. In a blink of an eye your dress is pulled up. It sets nicely on top of your round stomach. You swear the snob was going to faint as she saw that you weren't wearing panties under your dress. You instinctively widen your legs for Loki, like many times before.
"So obedient. Such an amazing wife for your God," Loki wraps his ringed hand around your neck. Not enough to hurt you, but enough were you feel drunk off of the pleasure. His other hand drifting over your stomach, between your parted legs. His pointer finger drags over your spread cunt. Slit to clit. Wet as always. He brings the finger to his mouth. Sucking it dry of your juices. He lets out a loud moan. The taste of your milk mixed with your cunt on his finger is amazing, "Oh so sweet."
You lean further into him as you both stand. Loki moves his finger back to your clit. Rubbing in tight circles. You let out soft moans. Music to his ears. He'd listen to you all day. Fuck, when did he get hard?
The woman face pales as she watches the two of you. The way Loki's ring glints in the sun as he chokes you. The way he touches your clit so perfectly. The way your head falls back onto his shoulder. His grip on your neck never loosening even as you move. The way you roll your hips into Loki's hand and the way it makes your round stomach look. Your dress soaked from your breast milk. The necklace that hangs near the swell of your breast. Moving as you moan and whimper.
Loki can tell you're close to cumming. He shoves his two middle fingers into your cunt. The fingers hit that sweet spot as the palm of his hand rubs against your clit. That familiar coil starts to get tighter and tighter.
Then it snaps.
Your moans vibrate the hand on your neck. You moan so loudly. Even if this part of the market is clear there is no doubt people could hear you across the market. Your cunt clenches so tight on his fingers. He continues to finger you through your orgasm. Nipples leaking even more. Stomach tensing a bit.
Definitely pregnant. The woman faints. Hitting the stone and dirt of the market. Loki chuckles. He pulls his fingers out of your wet cunt. Making you whimper. You're so sensitive. Loki motions for the guards near by to pick the woman off the ground, "Put the damn snob in the dungeons."
The woman gets drug off by the guards. Leaving you and Loki alone. Loki spins you around so you're facing him. Your dress still laying on top of your stomach. He places his hands on your stomach bending to kiss it. Little kicks hit his hands. Damn these mischievous twins. He stands upright. He places a kiss on your forehead, nose, then lips. Soft and slow.
Oh so sweet.
#dark!fic#marvel loki#dark!loki#loki laufeyson#loki x reader#loki odinson#mcu loki#loki#marvel fanfiction#fanfiction#fanfic#Soft!loki#dark!loki x reader#dark!fics#~ a goddess ~#sofft!dark!loki#soft!dark!loki x reader#pregnant!reader
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i love you (it's ruining my life) by cosmiclullaby
Wednesday is exiled to her parent’s alma mater at the beginning of the fall term, all too determined to escape the confines of her family’s plans. Her scheme throws her almost immediately into the path of Tyler, his Hyde newly unlocked and unwittingly ensnared in a plot against not only Wednesday and her family, but the entire school of Nevermore. When an attempted murder by her classmate and a grisly, prophetic drawing make Wednesday question just what her fate holds for her, she enlists Tyler’s help in unravelling the mystery, even if it means both of their ruin. (A season 1 rewrite)
#HEY LOOK WHO FINALLY MADE AN EDIT#yes i will be doing edits for my other fics#i've created a monster in myself#wednesday netflix#wednesday addams#tyler galpin#wyler#weyler#wyleredit#wyler fanfiction#wyler fanfic#weyler fanfiction#weyler fanfic#wednesday x tyler#tyler x wednesday#my writing
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Recharging
#Inscryption#Inscryption Fanart#Leshy#Inscryption Leshy#P03#Leshy x P03#P0laroid#<- Thank you to other people for reviving that tag it's my favorite name for them by far#Yes this was supposed to be for Valentines Day yes it was supposed to have a fic too no I did not finish either in time#Thank you to the people who said I hope your artblock gets better. I'm not artblocked just VERY busy </3#So I've been working on this between doing other stuff meaning it took FOREVER#Anyway here's your gay old men. I'll draw them getting divorced later or something because this is too sappy#Hrokkall Art#EDIT: Changed signature color it was bothering me
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i woke up this morning and thought to myself, ‘i need to make something.’ and then i spent the majority of today working on this:
it’s five’s mittens from redaurorarora’s fic seven types of love ! here’s the excerpt i took to make these:
anyways here’s the start of what will (hopefully) be a little series of me recreating little things in tua fics. i thought this would be a fun little thing to make and i’m pretty happy with how they turned out!
#i freehanded this so they are NOT matching but that’s the point anyways#also the colors aren’t exactly right i just used what i already had#the orange yarn is a completely different yarn size than the others but yk what. it’s something klaus would do anyways.#anyways i WILL be wearing these i think they’re so fun#if anyone has ideas of things i can make please let me know!!!#my next idea is something from comes and goes by hujwernoo#exciting!#btw if anyone knows if redaurorarora has a tumblr could you let me know so i can tag them <3#the umbrella academy#tua#my rambles#my doodles#<- technically it’s not a drawing but it’s still art#ALSO yes i know the kittens are knitted in the fic but i do not have that much belief in my knitting skills i’m a lot better at crochet#MITTENS*#edit: i’m realizing that the pattern on the blue mitten got messed up? at the top?#i’ll check it out tomorrow morning idk what happened there#i skipped a row or something
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Callum took her by the shoulders, anchoring her to him, and she looked at him, a tightness in her chest that had to rival his. “It wasn’t your fault,” he said. “It was my choice.” “I don’t understand,” she said quietly. He shook his head at her again, like he knew she didn’t. “And knowing what I know now,” Callum said grimly, a hand over his heart—where the dark magic would never entirely leave him, even if his love for her had; in that way, anyway—where Aaravos’ claws had sunk into him, and Rayla looked away in shame. It was her fault. “I wouldn’t make a different choice.” Her head snapped up. “What?” “I would do it all over again,” he said. “The dreams, the drowning. Even if you still left me. Even if you never came back. Because it was you or me that day and goddammit, Rayla, you don’t always have to lay yourself down for other people. I’m allowed to protect you—I want to protect you. To worry about you, to care about you. I can choose to risk myself for you. I needed you then and I need you now.” “Callum—” “If things go wrong, do you know why I want you to be the one to kill me?” he said, taking her hands, and she let him. It didn’t feel quite like weakness, even if it was tentative and new, and still so scary. “I know whatever reason it is can’t be good enough.”
—this fall just might kill me
#rayllum#rayllumedit#my fic#fic#post season four#arc 2#my edits#graphics#multi#personal fave#i got up tonight like 'i am going to make a post that is so self indulgent' (as opposed to any other night Obviously)#also yes i Do foreshadow my own fan theories in my own works#so they can be even funnier when i'm wrong#pining!callum#it's what she deserves#theme: duality#s4
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One of my favorite hobbies to engage in is ignoring the canon course of video game romances
#yes my warden in an open relationship will have a foursome at the pearl#and yes I will continue to have Morrigan sleep with Orest after the “I love you and I hate it” conversation#I am digging into her brain so deep rn#morri seeing sex as the main manipulation tool she has and being so scared to have orest be just In Love With Her#she says no to his invitation of sex once and he just goes oh okay I'm sorry#I still love you that's okay#and it scares the bejesus out of her#time to keep fucking him so I can pretend that he just wants me for my body#time to let him fuck other people so it'll be easier for him to leave me in the end#I can't have him so dependent on me for his happiness or else it will destroy him (the man I love) in the end#I have to let him leave my side slowly or else he'll die if I separate myself from him I saw what happened with his ex-lover (tamlen)#let him be happy with zevran or leliana or anyone#fool woman he will never let you leave and never stop loving you#I love morrigan and her fucked up relationship with intimacy so much#orest is also especially easy to think you're manipulating because he acts so stupid (and it's only partially an act)#he loves so openly and so intensely and yet he's also clearly very easily drawn in with the appeal of a Nice Ass#I could talk about them forever#I'm editing an old fic to better fit with their dynamic and the canon of the romance#and the orest x morri content I've written since I first wrote this fic#and this doesn't just apply to orest and morrigan#I ignore that tamlen and gorim are female warden LIs only#I ignore that Blackwall is “straight” (blackwall may be but thom isn't that's for sure)#I do whatever the fuck I want with da2#anyway time to stop rambling in the tags and actually get back to writing#dragon age#dragon age origins#dragon age ii#dragon age inquisition#original content#and mainly
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okay but to all the earring wearers out there imagine you and keigo wearing each others pairs sometimes
like, you in his little red princess cuts and him wearing your favorite pair
#keigo takami#hawks mha#takami keigo#hawks#hawks x reader#keigo takami x reader#listen i have a pair of black heart studs that i LOVE and i want to see him wearing them SO BAD#am i stalling for writing my entry? yes#am i stalling writing any of the other fics i’ve got on the backlog? also yes#but LISTEN#it also doesn’t help that i’m just a slow writer to begin with and do like#multiple rounds of edits LOL#i blame my mom tbh#she’s a professional writer and editor and had all this drilled in my head by age 10 fnfklspfkfkap#fun fact she’s the one who got me my ao3 to begin with#we agreed to never look each other up lmao
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Just finished rereading ITNL chapter 2 again
Yknow, it's long felt like a weaker chapter to me, especially compared to chapter 1. It's a Necessary chapter, but it's basically an entire chapter of introspection. Add in the fact that I wrote it in a single day and was half falling asleep by the end of editing it, but pressing onwards anyways bc I wanted So Badly to get it out that night...
The Legato part was the weakest for that. I remember staring at it and breaking my brain just trying to make it sound better before just giving up and posting. But when I worked on my full-fic re-edits about.. a year ago now? A year and a bit. I think it was October ish of 2023. But I focused on that part again, trying to get it up to my standards to be satisfied with it.
Coming back to it after some number of months, my brain relatively fresh, I think I actually did a pretty decent job. Despite being an introspective chapter, it really drives home how Wrecked vash is about it all. I like to say that chapter 1 is like a thesis to the fic, where you get vash's goals laid out pretty clearly (him picturing the things he wants to fix + him picturing his dream of having all the people he loves around a table with him, including Knives. It serves as motivation for him jumping back in time in the first place and it remains his driving force throughout the fic). In contrast, chapter 2 is... almost a secondary thesis. We see his doubt, his fears, his panic. We see the things that he's going to be struggling with throughout the whole fic. His wish to handle it all on his own, as well as how overwhelming it all is to him. Chapter 2 is the necessary second side to chapter 1's thesis, showing the weakness in his own strength and drive.
The cracks in his own unstoppable force.
Idk it's just interesting to me. Having been away from it long enough, I think I really do appreciate chapter 2 after all.
#speculation nation#itnl shit#kinda wanna post Thoughts for each chapter as i work on rereading this fic#anecdotes about what i remember doing while writing and thoughts about the chapters themselves.#part of my goal with rereading this fic is to reconnect myself with who i was while i was writing it.#ive changed so much since then that it feels like a different person wrote this fic. which gets in the way of my immersion#and is part of why it's been so long since i last updated.#i tried to force it back in july. managed to get a chapter out but im not entirely satisfied with it.#im probably gonna try to do some editing on it when i get to that point. there are a few things i want to improve about it.#the key thing being that i just Cant force it or else the finished product wont be to the level of quality i want#and i cant Keep writing in the same way i would if i was fully immersed.#this isnt to say chapter 19 is bad. people seemed to really like it. but theres just... something missing from it for me. just a bit.#i think the thing that most influences my writing's quality is how much i put myself into the character's brain#so even if the prose itself isnt the most masterful. the writing is so in touch with the character's mind that it's really impactful.#i'd like to think at least 😅#but the other side of that is the fact that my writing just isnt as good if im not fully invested and immersed. it just isnt.#so that was the problem with 19. and im gonna try to fix those parts where that feels most apparent.#the chapter will overall be the same. just. this is my perfectionism speaking probably lol#anyways yes. full reread to really get back into it. replying to comments to remember that people love my fic.#engaging with readers and also with my own analysis. i think that this will help a lot with re-engaging myself.#and if i do this right then it wont be many months before another update again.#i'll be able to go back into it and Stay in it. for hopefully Plenty more chapters and updates#gonna write at least 100k of ITNL this next year Just You Watch. maybe even more if i can manage it.#💪💪💪💪💪 i believe in myselfffff
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Just a quick curiosity - do you accept gifts from followers?
Just a quick follow up to your curiosity with a curiosity of my own - what do you mean by gifts?
#tbh I’ve been thinking about setting up like a kofi / cashapp#and possibly feetfinder or something#and also I have a few video content things I filmed with mister ttt that I would like to edit / possibly offer on manyvids or something#I NEED MAKE MORE CONTENT#also like. maybe fic commissions but idk. ALSO LIKE. I AM and enjoyer of gifts. fics. tips. whatevers.#also I need a laptop because mine was work issued and my other older one is from high school and barely functions so I have to use my ex’s#it’s awkward looking for jobs with your ex / roommate / person who makes way more than you lol#ANYWAY RANT OVER#yes I would love a gift of any kind. draw me a picture. send me a kind message. write me something. send me a dollar. buy me a laptop.#anything is possible#answered#anon#personal#aww#it sucked having to leave my last job but I couldn’t do it anymore#too many#shitty things I had to see happen to kids#ANYWAY
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Day 15
“Tatsumi-senpai, have you ever kissed anyone?” Kaname asked, sitting across from the other boy in the catacombs. Everyone else had left for the night leaving the two of them alone.
“Why are you asking?” Tatsumi replied, confused as he moved one of his chess pieces on the board. Kaname didn’t know anything about how the game worked and was mostly just guessing at where the pieces moved.
“A-ah it’s nothing, I was just wondering…I haven’t kissed anyone.” Kaname could feel his face heating up. God this was embarrassing, why was he doing this?
“I haven’t kissed anyone either.” Their game of chess forgotten for the moment. Kaname’s face burned even hotter.
“Would you--would you like to try kissing?” He barely squeaked out. How was the great Kaname Tojou such a loser when it came to his crush? He should be confident and yet here he was.
“Can you repeat that, Kaname-san?” He loved the way his name sounded in Tatsumi’s voice. It made him want to die in the moment though.
“Can I--Can we try…kissing?” His voice was still soft but evidently loud enough for Tatsumi to hear if the slight blush on his face was evidence of anything. Tatsumi gently moved their chess board to the side and slid closer to Kaname. Kaname felt his heart rate pick up at the proximity as Tatsumi leaned in closer.
How was he supposed to kiss? He tried to remember the movies and how they did it, closing his eyes and letting Tatsumi guide him, his lips slightly parted. The moment Tatsumi’s lips touched his he thought he would fly, and evidently his mouth moved before he could think, as Tatsumi let out a yelp and brought a hand to his lips.
Kaname bit him. Oh how embarrassing! It wasn’t enough to draw blood but still!
“I’m so sorry Tatsumi-senpai! I didn’t mean to do that! Oh god--”
Tatsumi laughed. Kaname stopped in his tracks as Tatsumi continued laughing. He wasn’t laughing at Kaname, though, or at least not at Kaname as a person, but rather at his reaction to the whole thing.
“It’s okay, Kaname-san. We can try again if you’d like.”
“Y-yes I’d like that very much.”
They leaned in again and Kaname clenched his jaw to keep himself from biting Tatsumi again, but he got a little overeager again and felt their heads bump into each other and not where their lips were (which was where he was aiming for). Kaname curses under his breath but Tatsumi giggles again (a heavenly sound to Kaname’s ears) and cups his face before gently guiding him to Tatsumi’s lips.
Kaname was too in shock to do anything for a moment. He was kissing someone. And not just someone. He was kissing Tatsumi Kazehaya, heartthrob of Reimei Academy. He closed his eyes and relaxed, reaching to grab Tatsumi’s blazer and pull him closer. He felt their teeth clack together but it wasn’t as bad as their first attempt and for Kaname, that was enough.
They pulled away, panting heavily, and Kaname noticed that Tatsumi’s pupils had dilated. He wanted to pull Tatsumi in for another kiss but held himself back, at least for a moment.
“That wasn’t so bad,” Tatsumi spoke, breathless and full of affection.
“No, it wasn’t.” Kaname pulled Tatsumi back in for another kiss, narrowly avoiding bumping their heads together again. He could do this forever, just him and Tatsumi in the catacombs, kissing to their hearts content.
#shay writes#tatsukana#january writing challenge#WE'RE BACK ON TRACK BABEY#i already wrote tomorrow's fic too i will have to edit it#but i'm on a roll today i might work on one of my longer fics#if i dont work on something longer i will die i swear. sobbing#options options.... kaokana fic. big bang fic editing.... the newest longform wip edition which is the madaleo fic#umu what else.........#idk actually there probably is another longer wip somewhere#ignoring the madashu part 2 fic i promised IM SORRY I HAVE NOOOO MOTIVATION FOR THAT ONE RECENTLY#i should do a different madashu fic though. for funsies. i should start a new one#OH THE MADATATSU ONE I WAS WORKING ON RIGHT RIGHT RIGHT#yes yes okay but that one i think i am also putting on the back burner for a bit#but yeah i'm going insane i need to write something longer#i am going insaneeeeeeee just writing short stuff so expect less posting from me in february#for a while anyway we'll see if i can maybe get some chapters of other stuff up#but yeah. anyway cutesies tatsukanas today#cutesies rinniki tomorrow that i've already had people read on discord#and we'll follow it with cute madaleos on thursday i prommy i prommy
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Junna has a reason why she checks all games beforehand ^^
Read the short bonus chapter on ao3 or below the cut.
Junnited Nations Conference
Three hours and fifteen minutes before game night, first diplomatic conference of the new semester. Location: Seishou common room. Purpose: negotiation of treaties. Attendees: Hanayagi Kaoruko, Hoshimi Junna.
“Come on, Junna-han!” Kaoruko throws up her hands in frustration. “Now you’re just being unfair, I even checked your silly list of forbidden games!”
“Well, we’re still not going to play this one.” Junna taps decidedly onto the table, eyeing the more than questionable 18+ version of Exploding Kittens warily. “I’ve said this before: No adult games.”
“But whyyyyy?” Kaoruko whines. “Everyone here’s of age…”
“I’ve looked through the cards.”
“Uggh. Of course you did.” Kaoruko grimaces and makes a show of rolling her eyes. “Which one offends your delicate eyeballs so much then?”
“All of them.”
“All of them?!” Kaoruko screeches in disbelief. “But the zombie cat’s just a little guy? And the bikini cat has everything covered. Technically. I mean it’s really not their fault for being a bit…larger.” She pauses shortly, pursing her lips as if in deep thoughts. “And even you have to admit that the facehugger cat is a little funny.”
“Funny is a bit of a stretch. Even though it’s not quite as horrid as the rest,” Junna admits, nevertheless scrunches up her nose as she remembers the crass depictions of the other cards just all too well.
“Gotcha.” Kaoruko nods, her grin turning sharp. “So it’s all those di-”
“Exactly,” Junna quickly cuts in. “Those weren’t even cat themed anymore. The creators could’ve at least tried, but no, apparently they ran out of good ideas rather quickly. Not that they were any good to begin with, but you know." She frowns, then ends her tirade with a pointed cough. “Anyway. Final offer: We play the original version instead.”
“Boooooring!” Kaoruko booes.
“Alright, Trivial Pursuit it is then,” Junna decides. “You’re in luck, I finally got my hands on the limited Know-It-All New York edition and look forward to playing it with you all immensely.”
“Nooooooo, Junna-han, pleeeeease, have mercy!” Kaoruko cries out. “I never in my life wanted to play the kids - I mean, the original version so much.”
“Thought so.”
With this another conference on the Elimination of Inappropriate Entertainment Goods comes to conclusion. All decisions are going to be adapted in accordance to the above mentioned resolution. By all means necessary.
#revue starlight#kaoruko hanayagi#hoshimi junna#game night#fanfiction#my writing#exploding kittens#yes I did buy the japanese edition only to make this silly photo#nobody can tell me my fics aren't thoroughly researched now#and yes I do have all the plush#time to make a stop motion plush version of the anime#facehugger cat IS hilarious though I love it sm#but junna is right most of the other cards are very disappointing
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#shit self#im not expecting many yes' bc i dont rly promote my fics or anything but i feel like i need a place to rb all the fics i read that#wont annoy people who hate x readers which is mainly what i read on tumblr#plus then i could set up like. requests or maybe even comms#idk#i never promote my socials on my ao3 either bc i dont talk writing on them#so it just feels like i should make one so i have a place to promote in works but also to rb others stuff#edit for context: i dont write x readers but i would rb them along with ship content#and i would be open to doing x reader requests but im better at ship writing ig
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getting off lithium + coming back home from visiting family + posting a fic ive been working on nonstop for months all in the same week is making me experience emotions previously unknown
#i worked on OMY for so long that now it feels soo strange to have everything out there and have. nothing to edit/work on#also for context ive been calling my ST bang OMY (old man yaoi) bc WWFMIWOOMHASWY is way too long and complicated lmaoo#like yes i have other wips but i was so caught up in that little universe for so long that now im like... wtf do i do now#not to mention how there are soo many details in that story that i wasnt able to fit in!!#steve + tommy + sol have a whole convoluted background and the relationship between tommy + paloma is smth i wasnt able to expand on#not to mention jonathan + argyles friendship... oughh every scene i wrote w the two of them just flopped so bad but i had many thoughts#anyway. everything is okay bc actually i DO have to work it bc my family became convinced that i was writing a book??#so now im changing the fic to be my OCs instead so my step grandma can have smth to read 😭😭 LMAOO#also on the topic of lithium. great nirvana song but not so great of a medicine unfortunately#felt the most stable i have in a long time but the side effects... BOOO#anyways bipolar ll baddies RISE UP i will push through this and not. go hypomanic <3
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Writing tips for long fics that helped me that no one asked for.
1.) Don't actually delete content from your WIP unless it is minor editing - instead cut it and put it in a secondary document. If you're omitting paragraphs of content, dialog, a whole scene you might find a better place for it later and having it readily available can really save time. Sometimes your idea was fantastic, but it just wasn't in the right spot.
2.) Stuck with wording the action? Just write the dialog then revisit it later.
3.) Stuck on the whole scene? Skip it and write the next one.
4.) Write on literally any other color than a white background. It just works. (I use black)
5.) If you have a beta, while they are beta-ing have them read your fic out loud. Yes, I know a lot of betas/writers do not have the luxury of face-timing or have the opportunity to do this due to time constraints etc but reading your fic out loud can catch some very awkward phrasing that otherwise might be missed. If you don't have a beta, you read it out loud to yourself. Throw some passion into your dialog, you might find a better way to word it if it sounds stuffy or weird.
6.) The moment you have an idea, write it down. If you don't have paper or a pen, EMAIL it to yourself or put it in a draft etc etc. I have sent myself dozens of ideas while laying down before sleep that I 10/10 forgot the next morning but had emailed them to myself and got to implement them.
7.) Remember - hits/likes/kudos/comments are not reflective of the quality of your fic or your ability to write. Most people just don't comment - even if they say they do, they don't, even if they preach all day about commenting, they don't, even if they are a very popular blog that passionately reminds people to comment - they don't comment (I know this personally). Even if your fic brought tears to their eyes and it haunted them for weeks and they printed it out and sent it to their friends they just don't comment. You just have to accept it. That being said - comment on the fic you're reading now, just do it, if you're 'shy' and that's why you don't comment the more you comment the better you'll get at it. Just do it.
8.) Remove unrealistic daily word count goals from your routine. I've seen people stress 1500 - 2000 words a day and if they don't reach that they feel like a failure and they get discouraged. This is ridiculous. Write when you can, but remove absurd goals. My average is 500 words a day in combination with a 40 hour a week job and I have written over 200k words from 2022-2023.
9.) There are dozens of ways to do an outline from precise analytical deconstruction that goes scene by scene to the minimalist bullet point list - it doesn't matter which one you use just have some sort of direction. A partial outline is better than no outline.
10.) Write for yourself, not for others. Write the fic you know no one is going to read. Write the fic that sounds ridiculous. You will be so happy you put it out in the world and there will be people who will be glad it exists.
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